"captain, let's put the pumpkin outside!"
outside:
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Alright, since my birthday has now come and gone, let’s chalk up the damage on my yearly disappointment that I call a birthday.
Planned on playing Destiny 2 all weekend and farming all of the stuff I was looking forward to. Ended up not paying it at all because of a game breaking bug that ruined it all and error codes and nasty crucible sweats further ruining the experience when the bug was semi fixed.
Depression and dysphoria hit really hard because I hit 30 and I still feel like a nightmare creature that will probably just end up crawling into a hole and existing alone.
Deadnamed and misgendered 15 times.
Several friends and family that I used to be close to me who know my birthday didn’t even bother recognizing it or sending even a small message.
No caffeine and my brain is going wild with overthinking things and questioning my own judgment, abilities, and looks.
I feel exhausted because my sleep schedule is on a bad cycle right now and I can’t manage my own personal health.
I actually cried yesterday because all of these things stacked on top of each other and I feel the weight of how people in my family and that I thought were friends and how they truly see me.
I feel fundamentally broken because what I assume is my ADHD is latching on to all parts of my brain, making it an actual dumpster fire up there and I can’t do anything about it but just sit and suffer.
Oh and I got a Chik-Fil-A gift card. Which, if you don’t know why that’s a bad thing, really dig into their whole deal and educate yourself on why I actively despise that franchise.
This is why I hate birthdays. This is why I don’t celebrate mine. Because I barely drag myself through a year, let alone actually want to celebrate it.
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y'all probably won't see a single reply from me until january but then it's january break and it's over for all of you i will be so annoying
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this is soooo sad im very likely not gonna be able to find a suitable purple robe for gale in time for halloween :((
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Stop I almost ran into the Christmas tree
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How do people live in the summer? How am I expected to do this year after year? I feel like every summer it's getting worse, I can bear to be in my skin because I'm so inescapably warm and I seem to be getting bug bites without leaving the house.
I think it's beyond autism at this point like I just find the summer so unbearably that I just would do anything for it to end.
British homes were not built for this heat. :,(
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Tumblr would be soooo all over whatever G'kar and Mollari have you gotta mourn the fact no one here cares for Babylon 5 but also too many people would like that sooooo Wrong so you gotta be sooo happy
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every single time i think the tga symbol is the da2 kirkwall symbol and the statue thing is the red lyrium idol ://///
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there comes a certain point in the year where I’m like hmm. yes. the time is right to rewatch bbc merlin
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i really forgot matt murray was supposed to be our starter that's how long he's been gone
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help i need ideas for Last Minute halloween costumes this is a cry for help ive considered damien from mean girls but do yall have any other ideas oh god please
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