#When will the luck come his way

[princelancey]

This last race hurts so much cause Lance didn't fuck it up himself (a poorly judged move on Kevin aside - nothing bad came of it) the q2 exit was because of damage, comparing his lap telemetry to Nando's they were on par with less than a tenth in it until the debris damaged his floor.

Then during the race he was on for a good start, had made up a couple places only to get whacked from behind by Hulk and had to nurse a brake issue for the rest of the race. Not that anyone picked up on it cause he was doing such a stellar job until the rain came and well you need your brakes to work in the rain, and it certainly didn't help that Monaco is so hilly, his car became a pinball down into the hairpin.

Basically it's just annoying that people will look at the result and think 'lmao dumb pay driver' when that was not the case at all :/

#lance stroll #Nothing to see here folks just me lamenting over the bad luck Lance had at the weekend #Doesn't help that the team buried any mention of the damage he had near the bottom of a page of text that 90% of people won't read anyways #“contact at the hairpin resulted in a dnf” #Cool whyd he have the contact huh? #Cause the fucking brakes broke assholes #Kind of important information no? #Ugh #I'm just tired of seeing lance suffer through no fault of his own while nando gets podium after podium #When will the luck come his way #He's already had 2 dnfs cause shit failed on his car #2 stellar races #But they get ignored #And Miami was like they forgot he was out there #Wtf was that strategy Lance even called it out during the race and at the end and that is very unlike him on the radio #Anyways I'm in shit place at the moment & I really would like to have some peace with f1 but no #The universe said absolutely get fucked you will be miserable

[turtleblogatlast]

I think a lot about Leo’s tendency to push his way into the spotlight despite clearly being a natural in the shadows. Hell, you could argue that his worst moments are when he’s forcing himself onstage, and his best are when he does things no one notices until it’s already been done.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #His aptitude with subterfuge sleight of hand stealth and speed really push how being a ninja really comes naturally to him. #it’s arguable that his desperation for the spotlight and validation is an act of subterfuge against himself #note that when he’s offered a job as a mascot he’s fine being unknown #when he and splinter win the battle nexus Leo immediately says ‘they love YOU pops’ #idk I think so much about how good a ninja Leo is #and how much his persona is more an actor #Leo as a tot is shown a natural skill at katana too so hear me out- #every Leo is a natural ninja but every Leo’s route in life is directly tied to their splinter so #since rise splinter is an actor Leo too aims for it #and he brings it into his whole life - masking always because a Leo makes what they do who they are #I think that Leo naturally falls more in line with that of a typical ninja #his eccentric performer self is his subterfuge skill just set to an 11 at all times #not that that’s NOT him - like I said it’s still undoubtedly a part of Leo #but? idk I think about little moments like Leo being the only one to choose stealth in bug busters #or Leo being the only one to almost get Gus’s dog tags in The Ninja Art of Hide and Seek (he was so close but luck was against him alas) #like- he’s clearly in his element there and he falls into those skills so easily #it’s like how everyone has skills in so many things but some exceed more in some than others do #like Raph? Raph’s the biggest Hero of the bunch of them let’s be perfectly real here. Raph is THE Hero #All the boys are smart in their own rights but Donnie is THE Genius. #and they all have mystic powers but Mikey is THE Mystic Warrior with immense untapped potential #likewise Leo I feel is THE Ninja #but yeah I love how much Leo goes for the spotlight anyway for better or for worse #he IS a performer again make no mistake! but again the way he does it still lines up with his natural ninja aptitude and I love it #Leo loving magic tricks and magicians so much works doubly well here because like #you’d think he’s focused solely on the performance flair - no it’s ALSO and ESPECIALLY the DECEPTION

[doki-doki-imagines]

Hiii! Love your work! So ever since that episode Chigiri calls Isagi attaboy, my brain has been just in there. So could I maybe get some good old, fast, maybe a little rough Chigiri calling reader Attagirl? Maybe a little bit of degradation too. Like being mean maybe

This man lives in my head tent free jdkdkd

“You dumb whore, instead of complaining can’t you put your mouth to better use?”

You knew from day one that Hyoma is a moody guy and you also learned how to deal with him, but today he really reached to apex, mood swinging back and forth and you were way too angry (and horny) to deal with it; thankfully Hyoma followed your lead.

Your mouth now kissing his boner through the fabric of his boxer, you can feel it twitch already, his hips grinding into your mouth begging to feel your mouth without any barrier.

It’s funny teasing Hyoma when he is in such a bad mood, but you are human too. You pull his dick out, usually, you would kiss the tip and lick slowly the shaft with the utmost care, but today isn’t the right one for such a nice treatment. You take as much as you can, moaning around the shaft.

“Ah finally” Hyoma groans. He then grips your hair, something he usually wouldn’t do, and forces you to take him all, your gags and tears make him just more aroused. He keeps you there for a second, enjoying the tightness of your throat, then let you go.

Tears running down your face and a string of spit connecting your abused mouth to his tip; a picture that is going to be framed in his head for a long time.

“Just say you wanted this from the start you bitch” A nasty snark escape his lips.

Hyoma grabs one of your hands and guides it to his thigh, a silent promise that he is gonna stop at the first tap, then he pulls your head again and starts fucking your face.

“You take it so well – You feel so good, fuck”  His words only spur you to do better, laving your tongue on the sides of the shaft as good as you can, your mouth making wet, sinful noises every thrust.

“K-keep going for a little bit more”

You nod, as best as you can since he is still keeping your head in place, the vibration making a delicious shiver run down his spine.

“Atta - attagirl” This time it’s your turn to feel the shiver; it is so good to be praised.

“Goddess, c-can I come on your face?” Hyoma moans, the aggressiveness of earlier almost vanished.

This time you don’t have time to answer, Hyoma already pulled out, jerking off at the sight of your tears, snot, and overall miserable face. A few more pumps and you found your lips and cheeks stained by strings of his cum.

“W-was it too much?”

“You were just perfect”

“Give me a minute and get on all fours, it’s time for me to reward my good girl.”

#bllk imagines #blue lock imagines #bllk x reader #blue lock x reader #bllk smut #blue lock smut #chigiri hyoma #chigiri hyoma smut #chigiri hyoma x reader #the pain when you want to write a scene but don't know how to #hope it is good enough #also I think Hyoma is more into praising than degradation #with the knee problem his partner must do most of the work most times probably #Tell me if this is good beause everytime I write smut I feel like crying because I'm not able too #Probably after the Sae one everybody thought it is as easy for me as to breath fresh air but for real it isn't like this #also why I'm making banners gor request??? A-Am I changing!?!?!? #no way I'll do it for all the fandoms #even if I should because they look nicer even if I usually write dog-shit LOL #good luck with the chigiri brain rot #if you are like me he will stay in your head for the years to come good luck lol

[min0uet]

what people do not understand about nagito komaeda is that his obsession with hope is not romantic or sexual in nature [i do Not care what the dr3 anime had to say hope this helps] but rather comes from a sort of religious devotion as an extreme coping mechanism send tweet

#theres so much dr3 got wrong about absolutely everything that i feel totally justified in disregarding it honestly #anyway if i could delete one thing from the fandom it would probably be the hopesexual jokes amen #komaeda clings so hard to hope because its literally the only thing he has #you can weather any loss and any trauma as long as you can convince yourself that theres smth better waiting for you at the end of it all #and there usually is. komaeda is way more comfortable when something bad is happening BECAUSE it means something good will happen soon #when things are going well hes a nervous wreck because something bad is coming #this is why he goes out of the way to sabotage himself at every turn because why wait for bad luck when he can just bring it on himself #and get to the good luck part of the cycle #most of his actions in sdr2 make more sense if you look at it through this [very warped] lens #anyway sorry for the extremely long tags i just had a lot of caffeine and ive got the feeling thats to blame here #harold.txt #danganronpa #nagito komaeda

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Liam hearing the news after waking up from bleeding out on the ground while Aveline killed the Arishok: i'm the what now?

#laya plays dragon age #oc: liam hawke #he got downed twice and anders also died so in the end it was aveline and a barely-alive varric against the rest lol #pretty sure everyone fled that room asap when the fighting started & meredith spun the narrative about what happened how she wanted #the fight was A Mess and all everyone saw was hawkes confrontation with the arishok beforehand #so it prolly wasnt too hard to paint him as The Hero #im assuming meredith at that time is hoping to have an ally in him; hes already pretty important in the city in his way after all #and giving someone from the guard the credit might pose more of a threat to her power? #idk #in any case liam did not come out of that fight well lol he is uh. not doing so hot <3 #dw he'll be fiiine #tho it definitely wouldnt have gone as well without anders there #with a less skilled healer and a little less luck his spine couldve gotten Permanently Badly Damaged so. thats good that that didnt happen! #:)

[bisaster-energy]

im not even done my current kuwameshi fic and im already getting ideas about new ones...

#kuwameshi #give me a sec i'll reblog later with the actual idea but like #WHAT IF UM KUWAMESHI BUT UM. PRINCESS BRIDE AU... #i also have another song fic idea but it's way sillier than the one i have on ao3 #based off you me and steve by garfunkel and oates #i got the idea cos i just remembered when yusuke got back from training with genkai the 1st time and instead of a 1 on 1 date with keiko #kuwabara is also? there? and it's just so funny to me like what. and then they're supposed to all 3 go to the movies together? #AND WHEN THEY GET THERE THE 2 BOYS DITCH KEIKO?? for a mission yeah but she doesn't know that!! #and then yusuke and keiko actually go on a date alone and it gets interrupted cos of younger toguro #and shortly after kuwabara shows up so it looks like he was bound to come across them?? #as far as a i remember the next time yu and keiko get together alone is the day he tells her to just wait and she's like im literally #not gonna wait for you <3 and it was so funny she just walked off lmaoo #anyway im trying to say i wanna make a silly little fic addressing the fact that keiko is like. pursuing her crush on yusuke #but kuwabara is kinda just. always there and it's fun she does like him but it's just awkward #planning on having her ask kuwa to maybe give her and yusuke some time alone like maybe just avoid their next outing #and kuwa is like oh damn :( ok good luck and yusuke shows up to the date and he's like woah wait. where tf is kuwabara? #keiko is like bruh. and she makes up some shit about him mentioning that he felt sick or wtv and yusuke is like ''then y are we here? #i should check on him. i dont think that guy has even been put outta commission by anything but my fist!'' and keiko just follows him #cos what else can she do. and kuwa is fine ofc and yusuke is like bro what gives i thought you were sick and kuwa is dense sometimes but he #catches on from keiko's desperate look and he's like well i got better *flexes his arm* and yu is like i knew you were too dumb to catch #a cold. and he's stupid happy that kuwa is fine and can come with them after all ''hey he's fine ya hear that keiko'' #and then keiko is watching this whole exchange eyes blown wide open and she's like actually i just remembered i have plans #you two should totally go without me tho and yu agrees so easily that it just solidifies that she made the right call #kuwa is looking back at her all confused and she gives HIM the good luck thumbs up. he gets as red as his hair and #yusuke is worried he really is coming down with something

[brother-emperors]

Allow me, if you will, a moment to go absolutely rabid over your blog and everything that goes on here. I’ve always loved history but the USA hardly likes teaching anything that isn’t American History. I’ve forgotten how much I love WORLD history, specifically the rise and fall of empires.

I’ve been smothering myself in your posts and I love it ALL. JC, Pompey, Crassus, Sulla, Octavian, Antony, Cassius, and Brutus. Wow what a mood. You don’t miss on your references or your modern AU’s and I’m over here like- I’m trying to buy whatever web comic you put out, book you write, etc.

Also, if you’d be so kind to list some material with like themes to start breaking into these topics. Preferably materials in English or translated materials.

HELL YEAH LET'S GO

if you really want to start on the ground floor for breaking into something, I'd recommend my personal favorite approach which is picking the figure that's most interesting to you, reading through plutarch's biography on them (free! online! in english!) and then putting their name through a jstor search and reading whatever sounds fun.

other than that, the primary theme I've been wandering around in lately, so these are the materials I've been really enjoyed related to that:

The Deaths of the Republic: Imagery of the Body Politic in Ciceronian Rome, Brian Walters

The Game of Death in Ancient Rome: Arena Sport and Political Suicide, Paul Plass

Ideology in Cold Blood: A Reading of Lucan's Civil War, Shadi Bartsch

Statius and Virgil: The Thebaid and the Reinterpretation of the Aeneid, Randall T. Ganiban

Rome, Blood & Power, Gareth C Sampson

I also have a comparatives tag where I play connect the dots with texts that made my brain go brrr

#also thank u 💓 #ive been obsessed with history and historical non fiction since i was like. five. and my dad noticed that i liked watching documentaries #on pbs lmao #i lucked out: all of my history teachers through highschool were FANTASTIC but my sister's grasp on history #(w/ different teachers) is way worse and she was like. all honors and got a wicked scholarship to a very nice college #idk where im going with that. something about how history is taught with such inconsistency makes me feel :| #i feel passionately abt the subject so i want other people to love it too aughghhhhh #and the way history is taught in schools unless you get a good teacher. is not conducive to this. its a TRAGEDY #thinking about how my best favorite man mabini. ppl not knowing that polio was what caused paralysis in his legs #back when heneral luna came out. (head in hands) #like its good to learn! that was a learning moment for people! but also @ the education department: im fucking coming for you. #IM GETTING OFF TRACK thank u for sending this anon this ask made me really happy to read 🥺🥰💕💕💖💞 #i hope you're having a nice day! #ask tag

[itsafreetrialofdeath]

…I wonder, could we have been friends?

#my art #Del took karlachs head all the way to the Orin fight #half as a good luck charm and half to do this every now and again #(he’s tortured by what could have been and whether or not he killed someone important to his past) #he’s also an idiot when it comes to like… preserving things #so that skull was ROTTING in his bag for months #tav deliverance #bg3 dark urge #bg3 durge #bg3 karlach #(it’s her head) #bg3 #dnd #aasimar #blood #skull #gore #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate fanart

[todayisafridaynight]

i think ichi would still go into work while suffering from *gameritis and hes so brave for that he's so committed

#snap chats #*aka playing videogames too much to the point of his wrist hurting from pushing the buttons so much #aka. me LMAOO OWWW OWIE OUCH VIDEOGAMES ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FUN NOT PAIN #the alternative is him calling arakawa at like 8AM in pain and shit all 'boss... im real sorry... i wont be able to make it today...' #and then instead of ichi like. Dying it's just cause dragon quest 6 came out and he binged all of it over the weekend #CRYING at the thought arakawa keeping up with videogame releases just to know when to esp look after ichi #like Hey Totally Unrelated Don't Think About It But I Got Someone To Cover You This Weekend.... that kinda b ☠️☠️ #and then its like Oh Wow New Game Coming Out Friday What Luck :))) ☠️☠️☠️ #sometimes he'll put his foot down dont worry.... theres SOME limits to how lenient arakawa can be.... #n e way. i cant feel my thumb and my tendon feels funky.. so i am no longer playing games and i am Doing My Job.... #luckily my drawing wrist isnt affected but still.. lmao.. #im almost done with the sketches for them so then i can just send those off to my commissioners and then ima do a quick lil doodle #either that or ill sketch a comic... tho whenever i do that i end up never doing them.. #might convert it to a fic but anyway back to work

[solcarow]

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#. hm.. thinking about la chopper ……. mayb he shud look like a capybara #fucked up deer looking human thing whatever creature #solar-talks #i was talking abt this w my sister but like i think it was a really fun choice not to disclose how kuina died in la #like when i first watched his backstory in la i really thought he was going on some revenge quest or something #so watching ep19 was really fucked up actually i remember being real iffy about it but god the Layers #zoro’s thing with fate and not really luck but his acceptance of wtvr outcome he gets is doing some cocomelon shit tio my brain #itd b so neat if they revealed her death in loguetown like Come On having it right beside the kitetsu scene would b such a smart choice #WITH TASHIGI god i hope they give tashigi a little more something #ok now im thinking abt the la changes … #what iv noticed is how they seemed to isolate the eastblue kids from their islands a little more .. not exactly a flaw tho #zoros basically the same but usopp didnt have his oh my god i just realised usopp didnt have his babyguy gang oh my godddd THAT was what was #missing my whole train of thoughts derailed NOOO USOPPS BABYSITTER CHARACTER TRAIT …….i get it they couldnt fit the vegetable kids bc #of the tone but waugh…. primarily hanging out w a bunch of 8yos says so much abt him………. it was cute #anyways back to it yeah they didnt syrup village noticing his absence and the rest of baraties connection w 3ji which honestly i dont #really mind either i think the only ): to me was how they did cocoyashi #lost a bit of it’s depth my making them hostile to nami tbh #its a good thing i watched the anime After la bc i feel like i wouldve been way sadder abt that decision #these arent real complaints btw the la did a reaaallyy great job #if they didnt i really wouldnt be here thinking about this show . in depth . god how did it come to this SKFHDJFJSHF #anywho . they missed some bits of course but oughhh they did baratie really good .. #ill b honest zeff n 3jis backstory is seriously my favorite thing about the la #some ​absolutely breathtaking execution it really Got Me .. #the all blue speech …. taz skylr yuoure line delivery skills are insane #whats rlly crazy is how when u take away 3ji’s 1 flaw hes fucking unstoppable . why r u favorite character material . explode forever #head in hands its the themes of hunger .. hate it here so bad ….. #ack he grows on u like mold . it was the stupid curry filler episode that got me i rewatched a while ago goddd hes so annoyinggggggg #the curry filler ep was cute . i liked it . <- mad about it #ugh spent 2 hrs writing these tags i dont wanna do my psychology essay .. nico robin save me ……. save me nico robin ……………..

[rescuefield-a]

i was thinking about how in true redfield fashion, claire's life ( especially the romantic side of it ) is an absolute mess of grief and anger and guilt to the point that she keeps metaphorically buring all these people throughout her life and just... think love is not something meant for her, that whoever tries to get close to her ends up in a grave

#don't get ne wrong she knows there are people like chris jill and the burtons who are basically are family and obviously love her #but even then she almost got moira killed when barry has been trying to protect his family from this life since 1998 #steve cared for her despite knowing each other for such short time and we see his death still weights on her in 2011 #for better or worse she cared about neil and not only he died but basically went mad(der) throughout his transformation too #how is she supposed to let anyone in again in any way? #i think kids like sherry rani marilou etc are an exception to the rule. they love her and are all alive and more or less thriving #there's always that thought at the back of her mind that goes if i let you in something bad is gonna happen so i'll keep you at distance #would be funny to see how it plays out someday bc clearly the whole married to the job schtick comes from the fact that she got the bad luck

[thegatesofinfinitespace]

" well, he sure does imply it with the way he's acting. but if him outright confessing is what you need, then why don't you—-i don't know... confess first? make it obvious you have two hands—-with one being empty? he's got to give you an answer if you pop the question first, right? "

"That...!"

"...Is not as easy as you make it sound." But that's some sort of superstition he's not about to get into detail with you, Sam. "Outside of the fact that he and I were not exactly friends until just around a month ago, my feelings on the matter are not exactly concrete either."

That's a lie. He likes Vi's company, that's for sure, just as much as Xanti's. Of course there's baggage but. Well.

#iiguess #;memorialized vamploid #((Zain's got trauma when it comes to Viles but he likes Vi. is complicated in a v funny way #((also his notoriously bad luck when it comes to confessing his feelings to people. it's hilarious

[theheadlessgroom]

@beatingheart-bride

"O-Oh! Interesting!"

Not quite the answer he was expecting (again, he had been hedging his bets on her being a movie starlet eloped from Hollywood), but not one he was actively against either. He supposed that accounted for her free time, being able to drop in and visit him whenever she wished (something he certainly had no complaints about)...

...still, he couldn't help but wonder to himself what the hell then she was doing, hanging around someone like him, someone nowhere even near that income bracket. Of course, his folks taught him from early on that things like money and looks weren't everything, but still, he found himself wondering what she might see in a scrawny geek like himself, who didn't have much to show for in the way of looks or monetary means...

"I-I think that's great!" Randall finally managed to say, smiling lightly as he said, "I-I think that's very smart, um, doing that, giving yourself a means of living comfortably, wi-without worrying about things!"

Beautiful, kind, charming, bold-tongued, a horror fan, and savvy with her savings? Was there anything Emily wasn't, honestly? He sincerely doubted it... ...he just hoped she wouldn't think he was some kind of gold digger, going out with a gal who probably had more money than he'd ever manage to scrimp and save up in his lifetime...

#((i can't decide if randall and emily would have the twins more or less right away after he's turned)) #((or if they would wait a while-either way; i think they'd be very similar to their father in 'new orleans after midnight')) #((largely aging the same as human children-if maybe a bit slower; being born to two full vamps)) #((as opposed to june being human in that au when she said had him-)) #((before eventually slowing gradually to a stop come adulthood!)) #((either way; i fully agree that emily would feel so blessed to finally have a family with randall!)) #((i'm sure it was something they discussed in the past before his death)) #((and so she figured that window was shut; but now that they're together again; she finds it isn't!)) #((just another way things are looking up for her-it may have taken her a long time)) #((but finally is her luck changing for the better; and i couldn't be happier for her because of it!)) #((she more than deserves it after everything she's been through!)) #outofhatboxes #beatingheart-bride #V:Dark Shadows

[justsomeweirdbandkid]

Ok I'm going to like. Infodump abt my crush in the tags bc like. Yeah <:)

#ok SO #he's another trumpet player n obviously we met through marching band #he's a music ed major. bless his soul #he's LITERALLY one of the funniest fuckers in the band #I put my bottle next to his for band? he makes sure to consistently keep it in that spot so I won't put it somewhere else #after practice I give him his bottle and he goes 'thank you Rex <:)' WITH GLEE IN HIS VOICE #for football games our team is Awful so he leans over and shows me tiktoks he finds #(<and one of my love languages is sharing things that make you smile) #I make a lot of excuses to hang out with him and he always willingly comes!!! #he shows. so much. interest. in ANY events I go to. I mentioned a dance recital I wanted to go to and he went 'I should check that out :)' #(<we're going on sunday btw. I v much so talked him into coming with me <3) #I posted on snap earlier before our 3 hour trip home 'wish us luck on the road' and he was the only one who asked if we made it safe 🥺 #and RELATED TO THAT. he's ushering an opera rn. he's not supposed to be on his phone but he got a text from me and texted me back ASAP #he's also??? so fucking relatable and I think that's why I fell #'you good?' 'yeah. just tired. when I get back to the dorm I'll probably make some Chef Boyardee and put on Rick and Morty' #like GIRL you are so right. that's the ideal night and ily #mutuals if you'd like to see him after I put a pie in his face for his frat fundraiser. lmk #and I'm saying all these AMAZING things about him. and what's even better!!! he seems?? like he might feel the same way 😳 #idk I've never really been properly flirted with but he always seems like he wants to hang out <:0 #but like!!! from a respectful distance!! guys who respect space while also keeping interest these days is hard to find ESP in college #if I ever have the guts to tell him I like him I will do so IMMEDIATELY because jfc I really do #maybe? somehow someway he might do it first 🙏 manifest it ✊ #anyways yeah :) infodump over I just really really wanted to spill about him #I wanna tell Batz about it all but he doesn't care much for that kind of stuff so I don't wanna bother him with it 😔 #But!!!!! I can tell tumblr dot com. and you can throw all the tomatoes at me you want but I never shut up here <3

[miodiodavinci]

ouhghgh , , , reached the point where my throat is in so much pain i can't sleep, even with cough drops , , , , i keep waking up every hour coughing so hard i start to throw up by the end , , , , it looks like my fever might finally be going down (original peak of 100.9, now down to 98.8) but god , , , , the agony , , , , , ,

#i gotta sleep too because i have a mandatory orientation at 9am tomorrow #(online conference thank god) #i'm just. frustrated and feeling helpless. #laid into my brother a bit over discord when he gave me a non-apology when i told him to keep this whole mess in mind #next time he plans on leaving his mask at home #i want to feel better soon ; ; ; ; #i have work i need to do and notes i need to take and i miss my partner a lot ; ; ; ; ; ; ; ; #i'm constantly thinking about how much of my room is just coated in covid particles at this point #and how hard it'll be to disinfect all of it when it comes time to end quarantine ; ; ; #i'm trying to cover my coughs but when i'm literally choking to the point that i'm practically retching into my trash can it's. hard;;; #ughghg ; ; ; #i'm frustrated i'm frustrated i'm frustrated ; ; ; #i want to go back in time and yell at my brother a hundred different times for all the stupid selfish ways he's been so careless #“ough this has just never happened before even during all the other times i've gone without a mask :(((” #“it seems my bad luck and poor immune system just got the better of me :(((” #just say you've gotten bold and careless and that this was just one huge risk in a long string of risks you've been taking since day one #you figured you were immune to consequences and now i'm paying the toll #couldn't even get him to promise to take a mask with him everywhere from now on until i laid into him for several minutes . . . #. . .

[talentforlying]

ok legends of tomorrow ended up touching on one of the most Fascinating things about constantine, which is the way he thinks about his magic, so i'm gonna ramble about that for a minute.

first and foremost, magic is a tool for survival in constantine's mind. that's it. it doesn't make him better than people, he just uses it better than most people. of course, he's arrogant about having it, and can be equal parts holier-than-thou and devil-on-your-shoulder about its usage, but it's still just part of the kit for him.

that's one of the reasons that so many other magic users hate his guts; it's why one of his monikers is "the magpie of magic". the artifacts and powers and rituals that are sacred to others, that are ways for people to commune with their faith, to extend the grace of their personal divinities upon the rest of the world - those are all just tools to constantine. divination is a pair of glasses. a binding spell is a wrench. an exorcism is a hammer. he picks up what works and leaves the rest.

the reason he took up magic to begin with was to survive. he started using magic trying to kill his abusive father, and then when he felt too bad to go through with it, to weaken him. he used magic to bolster his grifts when he was living on the streets, and he used it to set his friend chas free of his abusive mother and her familiar. eventually, he got too cocky with it, too full of himself and his talent for magic, and that's how newcastle happened, but after that he tempered himself, started looking at it as the kind of weapon that needs to never be left lying around loaded.

but because magic is what helped him to survive, he does think sometimes that it's the only thing that makes him worth living. he's tied a lot of himself up in his ability to help people after a long, long childhood of being told he ruins everything he touches. even when he fucks things up, or magical entities from his past fuck things up for him, he never blames the magic, he blames himself. magic is the only thing that makes him redeemable, in a way, for the life he's lived. for the people he's hurt.

he needs magic to stay alive these days, but he didn't always. newcastle shot him in the foot in a real big way: he was someone powerful enough to both summon a major demon and send a little girl's soul to hell. he was being yanked out of ravenscar to do magical favors for people as early as two years into his sentencing, he'd accidentally made a name for himself that could not be erased and it launched him into the viper pits of the magical world in a way that could never be undone. every job he did for people, every gun put to his head, meant more deals he had to make, more strings to pull, more people to piss off. he never had a fucking chance to get out of that world once he'd already fallen in it.

(which is why i think a hades-game hellblazer arc where he's constantly escaping hell only to get sucked back in would be thematically appropriate, because he keeps trying to leave and it keeps pulling him back.)

these days, if he were ever to lose his magic, he'd be a dead man walking. demons and angels and warlocks and magicians everywhere coming to take their pound of flesh. he owes his life to his quick and clever thinking, but he keeps his life because of magic, and that's why he'll never be able to give it up. ever.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #idk it absolutely kills me that constantine tried Again and Again to escape the world of magic #but he never could and never can. he made one mistake and it royally fucked him for all eternity #legends of tomorrow made it a physical dependence which is very along the lines of the way it's talked about in the comics #there Is that element of addiction there. the need to get a high off of being the smartest and most powerful person in the room #but for the most part his dependency is because of survival. he needs to put up a front or he'll be killed on sight #he needs to seem unfuckingtouchable at all times or everybody from hell to heaven will come for him #and i think something that gets talked about the least with constantine is how hard he tries to save other people from his own fate #he scares people away from magic. he warns them. he shows them the consequences of bad luck and overconfidence #he is a walking talking billboard of 101 REASONS NOT TO DABBLE IN THE OCCULT #but no one listens. and then they blame him for drawing them in like a serpent in the garden when he was the wall around it the whole time #he loves magic. he really does. it's power and it's fun. but he's DAMN transparent that it comes with a price #and he blames himself for every single person who decides they're willing to pay it only to find out later they can't #every person unfortunate enough to get caught in his orbit whether they chose to be there or not #now him calling in favors and blackmailing people into helping him? that's on him. that's a whole other meta #but with magic itself? he really does try to get away sometimes. and he really does try to help others get away too #( character study. ) A WALKING PLAGUE OF A MAN.