#abed is god . truly

[fujobritta]

weird storytime and an abed analysis (abednalysis ?)

in s1e17, physical education, abed says that he didnt mind changing for other people because hes comfortable with who he is . a season later, in s2e19, critical film studies, he says instead that he doesnt like change . and now i realize what he really meant when he said that he didnt mind changing .

when i was younger, around 11-12, i would pretend to be other people online . more than five different separate identities in one discord server . because i wanted people to like me more . i made these alt accounts and assigned each one a personality, a different typing style, a reason for joining, a region, and a timezone . and for the most part, they were people who were nicer and just generally likeable . because im not someone who is any of those things . i am not a nice person . i dont even think im a good person . and god i am not likeable . at all .

so i played these characters . most of them only being active for short periods . i would have full back and forth conversations with these alt accounts to sell it . i had these weird insane elaborate plans . a 16 year old former drug user, lives in manitoba, somewhat parental . 13, california, liked minecraft and drawing -- completely different artstyle (and different software) too . etc .

i would let these accounts bake (make them and then not use them) so that it didnt seem suspicious with a brand new account joining the server . then i would spend a week making the account and forming a character to go with it, sometimes asking people to help me out . it was so fucking crazy . i was insane . might still be .

…yeah i probably still am .

i was such a better person on those different accounts . because i didnt know how to change on the inside, i just started over and over again . different account, new me . like i was experimenting with who i really wanted to be like . formulating the perfect person to act like when i finally decided that i wanted to become a better person .

i gave up eventually obviously . im not a tween anymore . i was a really weird tween . obviously . but i think about it a lot .

honestly i only went back to being myself because it was comfortable . i felt better being a fucking douche . and i still am a douche . im not a good person . i dont think ill ever be a "good person" . what the hell is a good person, anyways . all i know is that im fine with myself like this . even as much as i not-so-secretly hate myself, and deny it out of fear of seeming like an "edgy attention seeking loser" .

its not that abed doesnt mind change, he just doesnt mind changing the persona . he doesnt mind changing the person showing on the outside . a separate identity . but ultimately, he wouldnt ever fundamentally change as a person . because hes fine with who he is, even if other people might not like him for that . and i want to be like him . i want to be someone who is fine with who they are, even if that someone is a socially inept ass who learned tenth grade math at age ten but cant figure out when their own face is making a smile or not .

#shui talks #nbc community #community nbc #community tv #abed nadir #jeff winger #this is such a jeff post dude . #this is like #shui posts that are basically just shit jeff would probably say and do . part idk how many but probably a lot . #theres that thing jeff said #about slater and britta #how slater makes him feel like how he feels when he writes his new years resolutions; the guy he wants to be #and britta makes him feel like the guy weeks after that; the guy he really is #abed is my slater #and jeff is my britta #ultimately . im just jeff #hes my community parallel #but i guess because of this i kin abed #abed is god . truly #sorry i dont know what my point really was with this post ??? i just wanted to share this weird life experience #and also because ive been rewatching community and this episode really just struck a chord . in a good way ? i think ? #gave me a moment to think #i kind of pass over with how annie was in mixology certification except annie only did the fake identity thing once #and according to troy abed does that like every week #which is basically what i was doing #man i was really fucking weird . what the hell #i got bullied in school if you couldnt tell

[rrandomtthings]

“He says the proof is that so many people are following him”

“But when turns around, he sees no one”

#HHHHHHHH THIS PANELING AND ART IS GORGEOUS HORI OH MY GOD #say whatever u want ab mha rn but horis art skill is truly unmatched #bnha #mha #bnha manga spoilers #bnha 372 #bnha leaks

[usermoreid]

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#the doctor and jack actually make me so insane #like. i am going to live for a very long time and i have nobody that truly understands what its like to die and be reborn #and i latch onto people who will die and leave me and i will never get to experience genuinely spending my life with somebody #and you are immortal and you love me and you waited so long for me but i cannot bear even being in the same room as you #the very sight of you hurts. #i met you when you were chasing your past and i was running from mine #and now you chase me as i run from you. #you're too permanent. i don't know what permanent feels like anymore. #like my fucking god i have so much more to say but i am so tired and in so much pain😭 i just love them so much #this is specifically ab ten and jack btw if u couldnt tell #i just think theyre tragic and wonderful and i love them and despise them. u get it. #sorry these r all tags bc my thoughts r not coherent enough to actually post this. so im whispering. #tenjack

[seizethedeansofproduction]

rip abed nadir you would have had such interesting thoughts on cocaine bear

#I WOULD PAY THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS TO HEAR HIS THOUGHTS #and for that matter also his thoughts on m3gan and 80 for brady #god he would have absolutely crushed the letterboxd game #truly rip #abed nadir #cocaine bear #community #community nbc #community tv show #abed

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

oh,, jackie and jensen being motorcycle buddies,, the potential

#NO WAIT ACTUALLY IM COOKING HERE #THINK ABOUT IT #jensen needs biker friends and jackie would so do it #actually though #shed have an all black yamaha #this is just canon now #the two of them pulling i to work together.. oh my god #this is truly the blossoming of the jackie and jensen ride or die relationship fr #theyd ABSOLUTELY go out together after work just to forget ab life for an hour or two #and then the two of them having the same gym is so cute like all their matching hobbies.. obsessed #jensen valentine #jackie varma

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

Need me an Abed Nadir in my life the way I could currently talk about the Saw franchise for 2 hours at least

#my obsession with Saw never truly ends but every once in a while it spikes up again and i wanna be insane about it #god i havent talked about horror movies to someone in a while (like 5 days) #gonna have to watch some behind the scenes clips of saw as a replacement of not having someone to info dump to about Saw #saw #abed nadir #nbc community

[oofuri2003]

Cannot stress enough how much i think is wrong with abe takaya like truly sick in the head and i like him so much for it

#UR CRAZYYYY #abe when mihashi works hard to be good at baseball: i like this little freak so much I'm going to be loud and aggro about it #and think to myself. i will make him FAMOUS. I will make him LOVE HIMSELF. i will make him a baseball god. because i like him soo much #crazed. truly crazed. can only express himself by being loud and aggro and physical. he is my little guy. #someone physically restrain me so i dont start rereading. Pleade

[pythonscrypt]

"quitting" mcc because you're scared of dropping top 10 is insane btw

#b.txt #like if the only merit dream ever found in mcc was the validation he got from placing top 10 thats kinda sad isnt it #then again it's not like he ever fully appreciated the event or everything noxcrew and scott do the way he regularly incited hate #towards them even when he fucking won #the reddit megathread wailing ab this give me a break i bet everything i have he'll rock up to the next one regardless 😭 #he said and did the same exact shit before mcc 20 and made a whole big deal ab never playing again #which got people really worried and being like 'noooo dreammm dont leave mcc pwease' #and bam there he was in the next one regardless #if he really and truly is leaving then praise be to the highest gods. but unfortunately i dont buy it as much #until then though i will enjoy another fantastic mcc without him and his annoying crew ^_^ #he really gave mcci as an excuse im crying hes such a dumbass #as if there aren't more people saying to not say he underperformed after every event he underperforms in (like 21) #than there are people actually saying he underperformed #i was here for how people talked ab him after 21 vs how ppl talked ab jojo after 23 lmao trust me he got the better end of the stick

[blednone]

it’s that scary calm when abe gets angry that gets me every time i think about it

#abe can truly be scary #when and if he needs to be #and so often it’s this calm and quiet rage #until you do something that puts dean in danger and then every bit of that calm goes out the window #and you better pray to whatever god you believe in because it will not end well #human or no.

[imblocking-you]

Watching Death's Game because I like suffering 👍

#death's game #netflix #// maple #ion wanna kin bro but i feel like im headed there #'do you travel to the afterlife on a plane?' BYE #SIWON? i forgot the cast is like stacked lmao #feels like a world hopping novel i like it #talk about karma T T also i didnt expect how graphic it was BYE #THIS FALLJNG GUY BYE LMFAO #and he reverts back to the teenage form when the stronger opponent arrives #GOD THE GUILT #yung bulgogi sa spoon :(( wala na iyak na ko guys talo mga may single parents talo mga walang nanay hahahahaha #after death told him that he's only thinking ab himself oh this life is purposeful UN HUH #but we know it's doomed to fail kasi nga second ep pa lang BUT MAN i hope something changes... #'everything is fine yee jae' it is it truly is the fact the mom was calling him before he jumped oh you just know she was ready to tell him #exactly that OH this breaks my heart #choking and holding back tears while eating FELT #NO NO *bunches up hair* I WONT FALL FOR IT THIS IS JUST A PLOY TO GET ME ATTACHED TO THE CHARACTER BEFORE YOU INEVITABLY KILL THEM #Lee Ju Hun HAHHAHAHAHA LARO #tinago niya 'yung pera para next life makukuha niya gagi pangmalakasang ungkatan ng past 'to LMAO #why does this one prisoner dude look like sohee #BYE WHAT IF IT'S JINSANG WEBTOONS TEND TO DO THAT #HELP I KNEW WE'RE TYING UP LOOSE ENDS HAHAHAHAHA #I just know taekang other son is tied up in all of this too #gagi part 1 pa lang pala yata 'yung drama na 'to mapapabasa ko ng wentoon ng 'di oras #jinsang you overgrown chuuni 😭 #i feel great for getting jinsang beat up but like we all taesang is dying so...i wouldnt be so comfy if i were u lol #OOH THAT NAME DROP FELT SO GOOD AVENGE HIM BROTHER THATS RIGHT #yall him being given the chance to print shit and he immediately goes to grimes core is obviously a sign that he's pretending to be a psych #NAURR the vendetta just ruins it

[ilhansens]

seyf*r/abs*n fans were so fucking annoying saying the preview made them uncomfortable and that kaya would try to coerce suna in the bedroom scene, when in actuality he was going to sleep with a pillow between them and then in a different room entirely for her comfort, and suna was the one to ask him to stay.

#abby for ts #i truly don't care either way about seyf*r as a ship but god their shippers are so annoying to share a fandom with #and 90% of abs*n fans are just seyf*r fans in disguise #bc abidin doesn't pose the same threat to ferit that kaya does #weird ass energy considering kaya has never once attempted to leverage any power over suna and has always been thoughtful of her

[akai-anna]

Abe Takaya is so important to me.

He just tries so. Very. Hard.

he went from constant yelling to "oh i shouldn't have yelled". he went from "i hate pitchers who shake their head at me" to "you should shake your head if you don't agree with my pitch calling!". he went from "i call the pitches and it will work" to "let's talk about it so we can work better together!" He's TRYING HIS BEST, YOUR HONOUR.

#oofuri posting #la junk talks #i love abe takaya #he works so HARD to be better #HE'S COME SO FAR #chapter 148 is such a stark contrast to early abe #truly incredible #have you seen him? HE'S AMAZING #(the whole of nishiura is amazing but this post is abe takaya focused. but it's important to say the whole team is awesome) #(and they'VE ALL GROWN SO MUCH) #trying is a love language. changing is a love language #and abe takaya is fckin smitten #(as mikh likes to say and god they are so right) #(abe takaya is truly besotted)

[nyanryan]

the need to have "neurotypical" and "neurodivergent" be two completely different things with no grey area in between is a disservice to both groups. i would say every single person on this earth could qualify as neurodivergent if they bothered to go see a psychiatrist. its just that only certain ppl are going to be put in a situation where they cannot function and need a label to explain it bc society

#btw I am convinced that I am the only person who truly understands the field of psychiatry. or the lack of evidence to support one. #there are so many symptoms that are just the exact same thing but described in different ways and depending on the biases of whoever #diagnoses you You will end up with a completely different disorder! #there is no way to be objective about something as subjective as human experience #this is a vaguepost ab r/adhdwomen btw i love the group but also freshly diagnosed ppl be acting in ways. #being neurodivergent forces you to be more in touch with your own needs but every single person on this Earth would benefit from that #so please for the love of God teach the neurotypical people in your life to do that too #I also saw a post earlier about how shopping around 4 therapists should not exist because you don't shop around for surgeons or restaurants #and it made me so mad because you literally do shop around before therapists and for restaurants #and there are 1 million different subfields of therapy please for the love of God do not give up if CBT does not work for you. #if your therapist is so unskilled that they cannot help you because they cannot change the physical reality of your situation #then they are a bad therapist. they are bad at their job! #their job is not to make your situation better their job is to give u the ability to deal w the situation no matter how bad it is. #ryambles #my only sources are that i am mentally ill and have been in therapy since i was 14. but im right. #i meant to say for surgeons and restaurants but i was typing too fast. bc of the adhd. sorry. #i am reading all of this over and maybe it makes no sense but i dont care. read my post boy.

[narrativedoomed]

going feral ab my babygirl again

#ms be.th gre.ene u will always be famous #ooc. #making a gifset of a cute little pair of moments between her and rick and i simply want to sob #i stopped watching ~s6ish but i truly do miss the. there was a way the show made me feel #it was a very specific period of time in my life and beth was the first muse i ever gave a solo blog #7th of december 2014 forever a famous day #some of u will notice that this is exactly one week after the episode she died aired #i went feral ab her death i really did #i never actually wrote her while her arc was ongoing i came in after the kill but god. being a part of that fandom #and watching weekly was so #beth will always hold such a special place in my heart i really learned rp thru her

[myownprivatcidaho]

when u and the mutuals have matching problems... like friendship bracelets

#@ ABBY DYKENANCE I FEEL UR PAJN #GOD #i didnt wanna go rambling abt this in the notes of ur own post but. GOD #that sounds so Similar to my situation with Guy its STRANGE #truly rhe Strangest of Things ....... #mutuals #dykenance #that one crush situation lol #welp. that makes the first post ab him of this month. i May see him one or two more times so lets see how many more there are🤞🏼

[soulsolid-a]

slaps brook’s empty skull, this clown can fit So many insecurities in him--

#[ ooc. ] ─ ♪ 《 from tomorrow to the future 》 #[ partial lie bc there are things in brooks skull #[ but also keeps thinkin ab those posts analyzing brook n going 'this man still doesnt truly feel a part of the crew' #[ and i think ab it a lot bc like man rly did just #[ thriller bark like. maybe 1 week afterwards 2 years #[ and after timeskip they can't freakin. stay together for more than a few panels apparently--- #[ but just. that paired with him being 90 paired with him being Literally from another time and just. 50 years of trauma/isolation #[ that never got unpacked (because becoming a superstar's a healthy coping mechanism right--) #[ just... i think he still has trouble seeing himself as part of the crew #[ does he doubt luffy's word? absolutely not #[ but he constantly feels like he should be doing more/better/he isnt enough/etc etc #[ and like. hes absolutely alright with not being the strongest or the best!! he knows the other crew have strength in those fields #[ and he respects/admires/understands #[ but just. constantly feeling like he should be /more/ regardless... in someway... #[ one day going to do post ab him during timeskip bc i have more thoughts on that but just #[ this man May have issues #[ its also the he doesnt know what its like to be with others bc he's been alone for so long but he's trying god how he's trying #[ hes trying and he knows he is and he can only hope its enough #[ man!!! need to get back to iconing... stopped right b4 wci and need to see brook in that again bc his scene w/ big mom... #[ just man #[ thinks ab him