#also im insane about them rn like

[twelverriver]

harper & amerie seven by taylor swift edit... i need it

#harper LITERALLY said i think my house is haunted can i stay at yours #also im insane about them rn like #the SONGS #the way amerie said why did u dump me #the way she zooms in on all her pics and atuff??? #that seems gay go me #heartbreak high #jana.txt

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

i... wrote a smol fic (っ´▽`*)っ

also!!!!! If you haven't seen it - shoutout to first ever published fic in Ninja Showdown/My Immortal Soul tags - Lustrous Red by @missadmyre !!!

#ninja showdown #my immortal soul #first ninja x chase young #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #rc9gn #chase young #xiaolin showdown #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #rc9gn plop plop #well i say smol fic.... but those 4k words felt very long. #i did say i was going to direct my energy into writing >.> and now look at me ive gone insane #no actually dont look at me im just gonna go cry over my 20k words of rough drafts for like dozen ideas that are now going #to haunt my every waking moment like JESUS i woke up today and literally wrote out 1k words of an idea for a modern au for those two TToTT #its literally an au where its a meet cute turned meet violent and first is randy's sorta dad and chase wants to adopt omi #not to mention a different AU where its an epic mystery adventure AAAAAAA someone heeeelppppp meeeee #also. its been a month but im still staring so intently at missadmyre's fic hoping for another crumb. like thank you sm for the food!!!! #ive literally been rereading it several times after i went insane about it on my main blog and im still slurping at it like a starved perso #Ive been collecting my ideas like a dragon but after reading that fic i was like: I WANT TO READ MORE FICS ABOUT THEM #but i dont wanna be a whiny baby&beg others and be annoying about it. So i put on my big person pants and was like f it WE R WRITINg NOW #so i dont care how bad my writing will be. we gonna be balling on those ideas and YES it doesnt make sense im just v rambly rn

[sm0kingcrack]

decided to make a messy little comic from the headcanon from this post because even though i did that whole pretty picture, the idea was still stuck in my head

#as a side note i really DONT like making comics and maybe i will never do it again i think #reddie #it 2017 #it 2019 #teen reddie #obsessed with teen reddie rn #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #the losers club #im going to draw eddie next #it #my art #it fanart #reddie fanart #forgot to put posters on richies wall #also imagine theres more clutter on the shleves in the back i literally just didnt know what to put #im really insane about them rn follow for more because its def flowing out of me #eddie x richie #also send asks if you have requests of drawings for them cause id love to use someone elses brain to think #losers club #sorry about my handwriting also #eddie in the last panel is my fav

[plan-3-tmars]

just finished reading dungeon meshi (I will never recover) so take some sleepy thistle panels I collected

#im gonna read golden kamuy next #it was what i was reading before i got side tracked with dm but i was only on like chapters 20 something #and a mangaka i rlly like has made alot of art for it and i trust them to have good taste in stuff #plus the arts pretty and i wanna understand it better #so im getting ready for a whopping 314 chapter read #if i finish all of it that will beat my current record of longest manga ive read (rn its beastars w/ 196 chapters) #so yeah im excited but also... #i have a feeling i will not be getting over dm anytime soon #ESPECIALLY thistle's character. my heart #broke #a little learning more about him #and all the theories of what he might represent and symbolise... sigj #its such a good manga. its got a good balance of silly/serious/tense and lowkey horrifying moments #and the characters . oh the characters #PEAK character writing dare i say #actually insane stuff #100% recommend #ill stop rambling now bye byeee #thistle dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers

[malikselfindulgence]

Sorry for the uptick in system stuff Im lowkey struggling and need to see system positivity posts or I'll explode

#malik's rambles #okay i know my ass is gonna vent in tags rn so . tw for that !! #iwill never shut up i missed tumblr tags so much wow #itsnot their fault and like . like i dont want to blame them . but its so isolating being and living this way #ill always be grateful for them and I know its just my brain trying to cope and like !! its not their fault but this sucks so bad like wow #also doesnt help that besides how scared I am and how I just . wanna be normal . I feel like I sound insane to other people #it constantly feels like everyone is laughing at us and is just playing along with our “roleplay thing” because they dont wanna bother #and like !! im trying really really hard to be positive about it and just live as well as I can . all of us are !! but it makes me feel like #ridiculous . it feels like everyone'll laugh and think we're playing pretend. which shouldnt matter people will always be assholes !! #I dunno aough im rantingso hard rn . and masa2 wont share which is fine but imscared and worried and scared and aauahhggggggggg #ik the point of the disorder is to hide memories from me so i can function but like . man this suckss9 bad #okay enough of this . Imgonna watch monsters inc i love monsters inc

[soldier-poet-king]

MADE MYSELF SAD BY ACCIDENT WEEKEND RUINED ALREADY

#the duality of fran #yes i called in to work. i genuine stressed myself out so much i gave myself insane stomach issues #ah well #so played bg3 all day. grinding thru the last bits of act3 in my durge run #so i can get the epilogues before im separated from my gaming pc for the holidays #I CANT SEE THE EPILOGUES RN. BC. MT FUCKIN TAV FILES. ARE GONE #had some computer and steam cloud issues and anyway. my first playthru saves are gonsies so i gotta finish this run #TO GET THE EPILOGUES #anyway i did all of wyll and karlachs act 3 stuff and i think that made me extra sad #plus not eating properly bc stomach badness #and also just. probably shouls not have done nearly 10 hrs of video games straight #but alas #anyway im now extremely sad and anxious #about simultaneously everything and nothing #tattoos? my health? my family bullshit? the ultimate fate of the universe? every single problem in the world rn? #the fact that I'll never look like im supposed to? and part of me was using tattoos as a bandaid solution to fix that #and it did. not work #im not unhappy w them just not how i imagined it. but nothing ever is #and also winter. yknow. that awful time #more family drama lately. i rlly should clean my room. or de clutter my desk at least #IDK. IM JUST. SAD #and being sad is ok when i feel like i habe a purpose/duty to fulfill #but now i just kinda feel like. well im wasting air and space and resources and im not serving any function #self as a tool. yknow. i know thats bad. but. idk. idk

[theskymahtin]

yo WHY did I never notice that hennessy HAS A FISH SCALE TATTOO ? aka a tattoo probably very similar to the one she later gives ronan.......... i need a moment

[Image ID: photograph of a paragraph from pg 70 of Call Down the Hawk.

Transcript: She had changed since she'd left in the car. Her kinky hair was now pulled up in a ragged black topknot. She wore tinted glasses, a rabbit fur coat, a lace bralette white against her dark skin, and leather leggings that exposed a fish-scale tattoo on her lower calf. More pastel tattoos covered her knuckles, which were also smeared with paint. He still couldn't tell how old she was. She could be twenty-five. She could be seventeen.]

#finally rereading tdt can you tell #ALSO i was going to make a post about this last nighg but instead i will go on about it here on the tags of an unrelated post #like a very organized individual #i forgot that adams friends at havard were all canonically flamboyantly gay and that fletcher called ronan hot #and i am DISTRAUGHT that we didn't get more of them #i want to know more about their dynamic i want adam to come clean to them and i want them to get to know ronan better #and also meet the others #imagine a world in which they got dragged into the drama...... #as if we didnt have enough characters to worry about i know #forever sad that we didnt get to see more of what adam was going through #although i know it's necessary for the narrative #maybe i should write more fanfictipn #the dreamer trilogy #call down the hawk #hennessy #mine #on the point of this post though . like . fuck i dont remember if its like laid out for us ehat the tattoo MEANS to hennessy or not #i dont have my copy of greywaren on me rn #im gonna go insane #why did hennessy get that tattoo on the first place? on a whim or is there some significance? does it have any bearing on her giving it to #ronan? #or at least a similar tattoo #going insane

[toytulini]

god this stupid fucking intracommunity infighting bullshit never ends and im so god damn tired. stop it. and if youre fucking discoursing this stupid shit you should have to add a fucking disclaimer to your fucking posts at least im tired of having to search yalls blogs when smth slightly off about your wording that i cant explain has me like hmmmmm and then i end up right and i really dont want to be

#toy txt post #INNOCUOUSLY WORDED POSTS THAT YOU AT FIRST AGREE WITH AND THEN YOU SEE THE PATTERN #WITH YOUR HORRIBLE BRAIN OH SO PRIMED FOR THESE STUPID FUCKING DISCOURSE HINTS FROM THE FUCKING YEARS OF #UNAVOIDABLE ACECOURSE. ARE YOU ACTUALLY CALLING OUT TRANSMISOGYNY OR DO YOU BELIEVE #THAT TRANSMASCS DISCUSSING TRANSANDROPHOBIA AND CREATING THEIR OWN TERM TO DESCRIBE IT IS 'TRANSMISOGYNY' AND #YOU CONSIDER DISCUSSING THE EXISTENCE OF TRANSANDROPHOBIA TO BE TRANSMISOGYNY? BC THAT IS A DIFFERENT THING. #YOU ARE MISUSING THE WORDS TO ENTRENCH YOUR STUPID FUCKING DISCOURSE #YOU ARE EXACTLY LIKE ALL THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS IN 2016 WHO MADE INNOCUOUS POSTS COMPLAINING ABOUT HOMOPHOBIA AND CISHETS #THAT AT FIRST YOU READ LIKE YEAH HOMOPHOBIA SUCKS AND THEN YOU RECOGNIZE THE URL. OR YOU SEE THE COMMENTS. AND YOU REALIZE #OH WHEN THIS PERSON SAYS HOMPHOBIA. THEY MEAN A-SPECS EXISTING AND COINING TERMINOLOGY FOR OURSELVES. WHEN THEY SAY CISHETS THEY MEAN #A-SPECS. BUT BC OF HOW INNOCUOUSLY WORDED THE POST IS YOU CANT CALL THEM ON IT WITHOUT LOOKING INSANE. ALSO. THE MOST RECENT EXAMPLE OF #THIS I SAW. THE PERSON WAS ALSO A FUCKING APHOBE. LMAO. BC OF COURSE THEY WERE. FUCKING OF COURSE #GOD. FUCKING. IM SO TIRED OF THIS. IM TURNING REBLOGS OFF ON THIS POST. I AM NOT GOING TO ENGAGE WITH ANYONE ON THIS TOPIC #to be clear. not every post. not saying every post. but enough times now ive seen posts where like. i already knew context 4the situation #and the person was absolutely just trying to hide behind their marginalized identity. or like the op was innocuous but their mutual #replied showing their true colors in the notes so Now. everytime i see one of these posts im like yeah. that is a fair point #I will agree that when transfem ppl online do anything ppl slightly dont like the response is often disproportionate in a way that is like. #hmm some transmisogyny at play here for sure. however. now i cant fucking trust you ppl making the fucking POSTS. and im so TIRED #conservatives are like making trans genocide like one of their main fucking platform points for 2024 and youre trying to drive more fucking #wedges in the community rn? really???? REALLY? #im so tired im so fucking tired. im turning reblogs off. do not contact me about thos post. check the context of posts ig bc ppl will #just fucking say anything #also god. i forgot about cl0set k3ys being an aphobe lmaooo #even if theyve apologized im just blocking based on that 2017 post alone god that was rancid. why did yoh say that. shut up forever. bye #im about to just start fucking blocking every user i see without bothering so search #like just every user regardless of vibes or content. just going to be me and my mutuals in here and all the posts they reblogged from #everyone i have blocked

[orbdotexe]

okay yknow what. the TFE playlist as of today. it is all over the place. i am cringe but i am free and also you should read the tags:

I'll Sleep When I'm Dead - Set It Off Ninth Life - Ivycomb Music Used To The Darkness - Des Rocs (yeah. from the trailer. shh) Heart - Fishymom Everybody Gets High - MISSIO You Can Run - Adam Jones Bury Me Low - 8 Graves Forrest Fire - AJJ All the Dead Kids - AJJ C'est La Vie - Weathers Don't Look Back/Don't Wait For Me - trashyinferno Farewell Wanderlust - The Amazing Devil Canary In a Coal Mine - The Crane Wives (PLEASE) Monster - dodie We Don't Talk About Bruno - lydia the bard Soleil - Lizz Robinett (not the original i just like her cover of it) Phantom Feelings - CJack (Wolf n Zavala. kill me) Cut My Fingers Off - Ethan Bortnick Engravings - Ethan Bortnick Between the Rains and the Times - Reverse: 1999 Gladiator - Jann You Only Know - Phemiec The Bidding - Chonny Jash (original by Tally Hall but CJ turns it into an entirely new piece of art. oh my god) OVER & OVER - Rio Romeo A Crow's Trial - Vane Castaway - Kroh Be Nice To Me - The Front Bottoms you smell of dead flowers - Cliesel version Rain In Soho - Mountain Goats Overgrown Garden - beetlebug

#i would like. link it or smth #but im insane and its on youtube specifically. #i can use ''i dont think some of these are on anything else'' and while true. i also wouldnt use anything else anyway #bc i. dont like the format of anything else. last time i tried to use spotify i wanted to punch a wall #orb rambles #the forsaken exile #no i dont care some of these are fandom-specific #the dsmp is like mlp to me. idc about the material but wow. the fandom songs are so good?? #you people are so insane about the story and it SHOWS and i love that. the passion that goes into these animations and songs is so clear #and makes them so so good. #the dozen extensions of Woe to the People of Order??? WOW okay. #and theyre all so good... and get better with each addon... #rn my favorite is Knight of Endale's version #anyway its 12am and i shouldnt be awake rn. if it wasnt this late i probably wouldnt have the confidence to post this #or say all of these things in the tags #sleep deprivation is fighting off the anxiety <3 #OHHH wait. okay so something funny #Woe to the People of Order was actually like apart of my first ever mention of an exile timeline #in my notes for destiny ocs/stories #it was a concept for Ruin/an early version of them. and there that song was. an inspiration for all of this #I AM STUCK IN A LOOP #it was there alongside like. Your Sister Was Right (wilbur soot) and Dear Fellow Traveler (sea wolf) #actually insane ive been stewing in this concept since. #oh god #in 7 days. it will have been 2 years. #OHHHH GOD EXILE BIRTHDAY ON THE 27TH #DERANGED DERANGED DERANGED #posting this now before i lose consciousness. oughhhh #me rn: FUCK IT WE BALL

[steelycunt]

FINAL MIDBLOCK ESSAY DONE!! I AM FREE!!

#FINALLY. have not been able to relax for like a month that’s the thing about the due dates being so far apart it’s great because you’ve got #more time but it also means everything just. lasts longer. anyway! done now. this one perhaps not my best work but it was harder than i #expected…my us government one will be rough but what else do you expect from 1500 words..and then my theory essay..my best hope for a good #grade perhaps…but we’ll see. the next lot aren’t due until january but im gonna start thinking about them now so im less busy over christmas #insane that that’s not too terrible a thought. uni is crazy when you actually enjoy your degree. anyway! for now i am going to enjoy the #rest of my weekend at home n me and my mum are going out tomorrow n im gonna buy some books with the voucher i haven’t spent since my #birthday in february and ill finally have time to finish the book im reading rn AND to do some writing..start chapter 2 : ^ ) #woohoo!! aware no one gaf about any of this but i am first and foremost always the audience for my own posts so. this one’s for me.. #(ridi's) bigmouth strikes again

[everymlmhybrid]

this part genuinely makes me feel like eating dry wall like i can't explain how i feel about it without making some of you finally tire of me and block me about it i think

#.txt #reservoir dogs - #sorry for just randomly posting clips . i was actually working on my vid i swear but then i started Thinking. and here we are. #anyways going genuinely insane in the tags . i'm so sorry. -> #(im only sorry for the sheer amount of tags or if u disagree w/ my interpretations / headcanons. if ur just annoyed lmfao sucks to be you!) #anyways. you guys ever think abt the way orange HAS TO know white's lying to him abt his odds of survival. #bc i think abt that genuinely constantly. all the time thinking about it. #also the ''joe's gonna get you 100% again'' -> first of all . lol. second of all -> ''he was the only one i wasn't 100% on'' hello? HELLO!! #also freddy's voice here makes me feel like punching walls . like it makes me wail in anguish. #no but yeah i think abt the theme of lying & the fact some of the first lies we hear are in this scene in a way #also this part is leaning wayyy harder on headcanon but i always think. like if orange WASNT lying abt who he is. then it'd be reasonable #forhim to not know how likely he is to die and/or how blatantly larry's lying (''i'm talking days!'') but as a cop he SOOO knows he's fcked #but like . what's he gonna do. ''hey i know that's bullshit'' like obviously not and partly bc of How he knows but also bc like #you just don't argue with the only guy who's caring for you while you're seemingly on the brink of death!! LMAO #and certainly not when he's the only one telling you you'll be fine!! even if he's just bullshitting you so you don't freak out!! #I DON'T KNOW i go kinda insane about this scene . as . you can tell. #if you too are insane about this and the implications . don't worry. in several months. my fic will feed you. you will see. #idk . larry lying to and/or for him <33333333 kinda makes me go insane. kinda makes me go wild. #idk. i should be getting ready for bed rn. WHATEVER. bye. logging off. if you read all these i'm in love with you okay #i've just been turngin them around in my head like a microwave for hours so i needed to infodump or else i would explode i think

[hexados-on-a-string]

spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.

#spectragus give me a dopamine high that any sort of drug couldn't even come close to giving me #its the loyalty. its the seeing each other at their worst and still staying. #its the being the only person still around who knows and understands what youve been through #its the being so important to each other's characters that u cant mention one without recognising the impact the other has on them #i dont rlly do shipping unless its funny but also im a huge gus fan so like. yea. plus my view on romance is a bit all over the place anyway #something something my skrunkles deserve complicated relationships that are more than romantic but something else #its the trust thats the most important thing to me. trust and loyalty and devotion and #im sorry but i would have exploded if i like. didn't write down these thoughts #anyways fucked up gay people who are a package deal and that is a threat thats them #ik the majority of my posts are hee hee funnie and i usually dont take things too seriously #but these two have taken up part of my brain permanently since i was 8. like. they just live there. rent free. #i am like rabid rn. i am feral and i am insane and i am crazy and there are so many things wrong with me #i cant even write down all my fuckin thoughts there's so many my brain is going to Explode pray for me #idk if u understand how important it is to me the times they show kindness even while at their worst #they're not good people but they have people they care about and they care abt each other and that matters SO much #i take 0 criticism on my posts i only take cash. however there is no possible criticism to be made bc i am RIGHT #also this all kinda sparked from me getting obsessed with a certain kh character who has a connection to the moon #who is also one of my favourite characters ever #and if u know who it is and u also like him ur very cool #im not tagging this w character tags. im like. very shy. but #i love gus i love spectra i love spectragus #anyways see u next time where i should hopefully have art maybe potentially #i found the brushes i used to use back when i did lineless art so i am rlly happy

[kulliare]

need to make friends with someone irl who's trans immeadiately

#i'm like vaguely close to like one person and we've talked a little bit about trans stuff #but they're also different to me and i think i want someone who's been like #further on the journey i guess bc rn i feel insane #it's really annoying because i really never had these feelings in hs but now they're annoying me to the point where im like #i would prefer them to stop thank you like i really just want them to go #was gonna keep typing but then i realized it might be too tmi but like. eugh