#also they seem to be pretty cool people so idk

[comfortstars]

dude there's this person that I see everyday at my uni's campus that is SO pretty and makes everyone around them laugh and I want to talk to them so badly but I have no idea how I would even start a conversation with them.....

#idek what major they're in but they're in the same area as me during recesses so im assuming it's also some type of design #just in a different semester #idk man they just seem so cool. google search how do you talk to pretty and funny people #lennie.personal

[jacksprostate]

dunno what that users on about... people on tumblr put way too much attention on the unnecessary

GOOD LUCK ON NOT FRYING YOUR BRAIN BOSS 🫡🫡

- SUPERFAN ANON BACK AT IT AGAIN

Eh I was a little annoyed but ultimately I just kind of feel bad for that person, it takes a lot of shit being fucked up for you to be a wholeass grown adult arguing to the death on tumblr + believing in a sort of catholic 'suffering means I'm moral' thing as a way to make yourself feel better about what feels unchangeably cruel about your life. It's why I was like, no I'm not gonna continue this. Not healthy for either of us.

#sfa #i also have a tendency to debate people on a relatively soft level for myself #but it ends up feeling very charged for others #partially because I talk a whole lot #but also because especially on here #there's so much encouragement of assuming the worst of people who even vaguely disagree with you #highly defensive reading etc #it's really sad #something I had to actively teach myself not to do as much too #tumblr is bad for your growing brain lol. terrible habits #taking a step back and realizing shit 1. is not that important 2. the other person is a person not the embodiment of stupidity or evil #3. you almost certainly have tons of shared ground and both people are taking positions they feel are the most beneficial to those they care #about. idk once you really work on keeping that in mind it all just seems way less intense and all a bit dumb #i usually try to avoid arguing with people for this reason but my initial second response was a little hopeful maybe we could have like. a #cool little discussion #and then i saw the 2nd post and i was like ohhhhhhhh its like this #mm. #anyway #yeah people generally arent your enemy and you can have disagreements over pretty huge things but it doesnt mean theyre evil or literally #satan or whatever #and when you realize all that polarization is a lie #idk stuff like this is just such small hotcakes #thats also what made me stop. that person seemed like desperately way more invested and i sort of just felt bad #rambling now......... #anyway i should've just not engaged and it's a reminder for next time. i love discussing stuff with people but this platform does not #usually house people fully capable of that #also thank you i am indeed trying not to fry my brain #honestly even just limiting myself to making comments instead of aimlessly reblogging stuff has helped me engage with this better #f fc is the only thing ill rb... even then i must have comments via tags.. etc #little rules for myself. its a good idea i think

[teplejtrouba]

i finally have an official date of my autism (and other things that are wrong with me) evaluation and now im scared that it'll turn out that I'm not actually autistic. like I've spent the last few weeks/months accepting that i probably am. so what if it turns out i'm not. i don't want to have to undo the self acceptance. i am well aware that obsessing over if you're autistic or not is not very allistic behaviour However what if im different. what if im just a silly little guy (with other psychological problems)

#it's in two months. im going to have to suffer not knowing for TWO WHOLE OTHER MONTHS #the psychologist actually seems pretty cool over e-mail so we'll see if she actually is #there might be another problem. if she's too cool and chill I won't have such a problem talking to her #and my psychologist who i love. she told me she doesn't think im autistic because i don't have problems communicating #i have Big problems communicating. just not so much with her because she's laid back and funny. so. #what if im not nervous and weird enough at the autism evaluation and i don't get the autism diploma after all #people im close to who have seen me fail at communication with people who aren't them many times also think im autistic tho #like everyone in my life either already thought i was or wasn't all that surprised when i told them i might be #so #idk really #im just nervous about this

[frogmascquerade]

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#yea after seeing ep 6 my feelings on the pjo show are pretty solidified #i like it but i also am unfortunately bored by it ! sorry rick 🤚 i can only take so many minutes #of having the plot be explained to me thru dialogue 🧍‍♂️ #the chemistry btw the trio is my favorite part of the writing so far #well that plus the way they explore the gods characterization and the relationship btw the gods and their kids #thats pretty interesting to watch #esp the way they showed hermes' abilities that was v cool #uhm i still live laugh love grover #my boy!!! #i wish the lotus casino would have seemed more fun and creepy #hm maybe i need to watch it again but seeing people dressed like completely #asynchronously #would have been awesome #like ig the budget maybe wasnt that big but.... cmon #where is the magic lol #the tension and the suspension #there arent enough vibes imo #for the whole show not just that scene #like idk i want more vibrancy but i always want that w modern tv shows so maybe thats just me #yeah it just feels sooooo chibnall writing doctor who LOL like im sorry #i think also its cause 8 episode that are under 45 min each ( im pretty sure ) is not enough time lol #theres like 17 things that need to happen in the next 2 episodes like oh no #they keep cutting away from the most action filled stuff too :/ except for when percy tackled augustus and the taxi scene LMAO i did love #the taxi scene #that shit was perfect no notes

[kaeyapilled]

. (tw heterosexuality)

#i am having the worst sexuality crisis of my life. i was so sure i was a lesbian but there is this One Guy.. #he makes me feel things. i think. but i cant categorize them #relationships w men sound.. unappealing.. if i think about it generally #like a random man? sounds weird. or maybe not. i dont know. i havent even had a first kiss lmao i dont really know stuff #but him............oh...........hes so funny and cool and nice to everyone. his hands are pretty (weird thing to notice but ok) #he explains math to me and i cant focus because he's too close. thats so MORTIFYING I THOUGHT I WAS A DYKE #but at the same time 12 year old me was having heart palpitations around my first girl crush and shit #and he hasnt made me feel anything that strong so far. so. idk. but also i was 12. so idk #well okay generally speaking women make me feel much more doing way less #there was this occasion where this girl who i always had a mild thing for but never did anything about it just came up to me #at school #and just. haha lol i had a dream about you last night ;) #i am not joking when i say i felt weak in the knees. she was smiling in a like playful way so i was gonna make a joke but i could not #because i was going to pass out from being too gay #this guy (or any other guy for that matter) doesn't seem to have the power to make me feel like that #..........am i bisexual with a female lean or whatever people say. or am i experiencinf the worst case of comphet of my life #this is awful. not because i don't wanna like men (its just sexuality idc) but because i don't want to prove my mom right #😭what if it WAS a phase #but who knows. mentioning the girl who dreamt about me kind of replaced the thoughts i was having of him for a bit there #i miss her she was nice. well sort of. but i was never involved in the drama so who cares fr. she graduated last year #anyways sorry for breaking character. tumblr user kaeyapilled is lore dropping

[astrxealis]

i really want to play dragon age origins again ngl...

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i only ever played for a few hours but #last night i saw that uhh MOREIFAN #hi i made this post last night but i wanted to post it in the morning but forgot. i now remembered just now #MORRIGAN !! <3 i saw a gifset of her n i didn't perceive her that much back then but wow she is so pretty #alistair was my fave! he's still cool (i think) but i think i'd like morrigan more now ^___^ but also idk. hmm. #it's on the xbox and i barely use it nowadays bcs Playstation and Mobile ya. i should use the switch more. i miss my gaymes there #i was a human noble iirc. idk what i want to be now if i return to the game bcs i'll likely restart! #i actually played dragon age origins before ffxiv . i remember this fact bcs i played xiv and was like WOA i think #dragon age origins helped prepare me for this kind of gameplay (mostly involving clicking ?? iirc) #ya... also idk if i want to be a human noble anymore bcs ever since xiv yeah. faves are miqo'te and viera and lala yk ^___^ #tbh i like both miqo'tes but mostly just male viera I LOVE FEMALES don't get me wrong but there's smth abt them that is Less now #lalas i general i super love they are such lil cute funny guys. female voice 1 is best btw <3 uhh i prefer females w lalas #so it is a BALANCE ... i lov other races like elezens (they are PRETTY. fuck people who don't like elezens) #and auri. plural of aura. i forgot if there was a space. i think there was. so yeah idk which i prefer w male female (male i think) #but it is a balance yes bcs other friends like em more !! uhh mostly femras. sorry elezens. also i like the other races too okay #but i prefer TWINKS over MOMMIES /lh both are great fr tho #wow... i think if ever i were to fantasia (kinda scared of becoming a fantasia addict lmaoo /lh) i want to be male miqo most #bcs i envy male viera gender sm but ?!?!?!??! male miqo seems most fun to play. but also i'm attached to my fem miqo so. #this turned from dragon age to ffxiv. why is this inevitable. why does this always happen #also this is so far into the tags of this post now and this post has strayed so far so small yeah #WAH. sometimes i get all jhdsghjb ?!?! whenever someone is like omg hi you followed me. omg hi i yeah yeah yeah #admiration/indimitation/wrong spelling ik but my shoulders hurt rn IDC. ookay it is hsdbgj??!??! in a VERY /pos way #but also i'm shy i don't really get it (i mean i could if i analyzed it properly. but i'm shy w this okay) #but also i realize i GET THAT WAY TOO !! sometimes i'm kinda woa w some people and when they follow me back it's like hi............ #this is me w my fav writer following me back. and someone from twt i followed w/o realizing i followed them on their tumblr sb #and other people. and yeah. it's like wah hi..... <3 interesting I CAN'T THINK ANYMORE #time to do homework (or roulettes... or dailies.........) #interesting to think abt how i know the games ik. most of the games like cod and dragon age ik bcs of xbox #and they are blizzard stuff iirc !! but i grew up w square enix and a wii aside from a ps2/3 ?? so that is that

[flowers-that-sing]

what is it with ppl loving the racist white boy characters... like billy hargrove is a big one. but i just saw posts about jason carver...?

at least billy has a character, piece of shit yes but he is fleshed out, wtf are you even getting from jason-? all he does is say culty shit, haze ppl, and be a racist prick

seriously . people really just look past the whole "GIANT FUCKING RACIST" thing and literal hate crimes because... what? they're conventionally attractive white boys????????? please

#i do not understand #at all #seriously #ppl are so quick to excuse their actions too #“oh well billys dad was abusive” “oh but jasons girlfriend was just murdered” ok and? #last i checked neither of those things make you racist #let alone excuse it #or people will go “billys abusive toward max because of his dad” #you know who ALSO had an abusive dad and a little sibling #jonathan byers! and hes not racist! or abusive! #like you HAVE jonathan right there why are you going with fucking billy #jonathan broke the cycle! #billy continued it! #and also jasons girlfriend dying doesnt give him an excuse for anything at all #when bob died u didnt see joyce go on a homicidal rampage and hate crime children in the process #btw i shouldnt have to say this but #this is not an attack on the actors obviously #just the characters #idk much about mason dye but #dacre montgomery seems like a pretty cool person ? #this is not like. hate towards either of them. they're just actors #who play villains

[surpriserose]

I guess the latest fear mongering transphobes have latched onto is phalloplasty but literally phalloplasty scars are so badass??? I hadnt seen them really at all before and like man...dudes rock 🫡

#Also i thought the donor site was usually the thigh but maybe thats just older phalloplasty idk the arm scars rule though #Like transphobes love to fucking make surgery scars seem so scary and ugly and like 😒 i think its pretty obvious why thats fucking bad but #Trans surgery scars are so wonderful to me? Like i love my scars i love my body i love being trans i love having my scars as a way to show #Yeah this is me becoming myself this is me recreating myself and also literally theyre just cool and sexy sorry people are fucking stupid #Transphobia mention

[thatone-highlighter]

I’m curious, what do you think of the islands miniseries ? Any episodes u particulars like or really anything ab it ? I just started the islands miniseries for my daily art thingie and I want to hear ur thoughts about islands !!

I liked islands but i think i was a little disappointed because i almost expected a bit more out of it

I really liked the Susan plot line of it all. It was really interesting and i was invested in the way the humans had set up their society where everyone had set up jobs and they got i formation beamed straight into their brains. Also the fact that people trying to leave was legitimately such a problem they had an entire job that as designated Just to stopping people from trying to leave. But yeah i was really invested in Susan and her friend and what happened with them. Oh and also the reveal that Susan was sent away to look for finn was Wack i had to pause that bit to process it a little.

The stuff with Finn’s mum was alright ig. I was invested in it from Finn’s perspective and the impact it all had on him but i do not care for his mum as a character at all, honestly i kinda just forget she exists. Same goes for most of the other humans outside of like. Susan and her friend and Finn and stuff

Also, are the island humans the descendants of the humans Marceline saved and helped build that ship? Because thats what i got from that but im not sure

Oh yeah and the whole VR world thing with bmo was cool i liked that and the implications of all those humans just Being there and they’re being kept alive by the robots and stuff i could probably write a whole post on that island but im tried rn but i thought it was really cool

#islands was pretty cool but prob my leat fav of the mini series’ #stakes i think is my fav its just so good and then elementals and then islands #i really really liked the susan stuff and i was interested in the functioning of that human society #with the seekers and the hiders and all that stuff it seemed cool but they didnt go too much into it #which i think is a good thing but also id Love to look more into it #finns mum i just. i dont have any kind of opinion either way on her i just Dont Care For Her At All #one phenomenon i noticed tho thay i always think is funny is when a kid get kidnapped or adopted or found or whatever. #and the people who raise the kid somehow or for some reason give the kid the same name as their birth parents #its so funny like How. it implies that your name is inherent to you and you would always be named the same thing. or smthn like that idk #i think oart of my issue also was that id seen most the episodes before. i expected more bew content i thought i hadnt seen it #and then when i didnt get that because id seen the episodes before it felt weird #idk it was cool but not super good. didnt hate it but its not my fav #Tree Man Posts #asks #and so the adventure time live blog continues #im sorry this took so long i started writing it earlier but i had to go do things

[senadimell]

ooooohhh dracula daily has made me ship something.

#it's been a hot minute since that happened #(it's jonathan and mina) #idk i always fail to find the words to describe how i relate to romance #but it's usually something about commitment that usually gets me #and i tend to prefer unlabeled relationships where the people are completely committed to each other #but it's not clearly romantic or platonic #because that's usually necessary to avoid The Tropes #but have to say. mina's commitment to jonathan and his to her is stirring #and i'm also probably an equal fan of mina and lucy's relationship tbh #but we have had the advantage of seeing Jonathan's mind and so the hurt/comfort aspect is stronger with jonathan #i just want to protect him okay? #and i have vague spoilery awareness that it's going to hurt to get too attached to lucy #not tagging this (sorry) because people actually read the dracula daily tags and a single post there can easily net 100s of stranger-views #(kinda weird and cool actually; it's like what DDD used to do and which unfortunately caused conflict in the snape fandom) #which. not saying that's a bygone thing to do BUT if you have a pretty curated dash then it seems you tend to go into tags only for newstuff #and i have mostly dropped out of tags on the daily because i don't have a super active fandom these days #(apart from the longrunning ones and i follow people who post about that to fill those interest spaces) #though i should probably drop into the hercule poirot tags sometime because i've very much been enjoying the 1990s series #with caveats obviously because it's the 90s adapting early-mid 20th century and certain prejudices go unquestioned #(casual anti-asian racism is not questioned so far. at all. very uncomfortable.)) #but yeah. tags. and shippery. what a time. feel free to message or ask me because i would like to chat!

[caruliaa]

hey ik tht obviously christianty has like. generally been a much worse force in the world but like when ppl use the blaze feature to also push islam onto people were also gonna call it out bc pushing ppls religions on other for no reason is wrong regardless right ? right guys ?

#im not lying bte i just got tihs on my dash idk what it was just some phrase from the quran i think ? but still like. dude it is Bad to do #tht #also just wanna say kinda related tht like. #white ppl wanna say islam is an uwu oure never harmful religon just bc its an easy way to say 'im not racist !!!' #w out acutally having to put an effort into being an actual ally to ppl of colour #but when u treat islam like its fully pure never harmfull religon tht shld never be cituqued #not only do u imply tht like. islamaphobia is bad bc the religon is 'pure' nd not bc musilms r ppl tht dont deserve bigotry #ur also ignoring tht most of the ppl harmed by islam are ppl of colour #and like. idk what to tell u if ur response to a white persons religous trauma at the hand of christianity is to go #'okay so it is important to talk about how cristianity has been used to harm people and justify bigorty and i will treat ur trauma like it #is vaild and real bc it is' #and ur response to a brown persons religous trauma at the hands of islam is to go #'....... UM ANYWAYYY isnt is soo cool how islam is such a pure uwu religon thts never been used ot hurt anyone !!!' #then sorry to hurt ur white person ego but tht is actually like. pretty racist actually !!! #also ik ofc christinaty and islam are very different and im not comparing them directly #im just saying can u stop invlaidating the trauma of ppl of colour for two seconds #even it it means u have to let go of ur performtive ideas u spout to seem not racist #okay ill get of my soapbox now #flappy rambles #ask to tag #also im kinda talking out my ass rn the situation has more nuance than this this is more me venting frustrations than anything etc etc etc

[fabulouslygaybean]

im literally so understimulated im gonna bite someone

#i guess i understand why my family wanted to have a super super lazy day for the first full day in cali #but. oh my fucking god. my brain feels like its going to explode if i don't do something right this second #ive been sitting in silence since i woke up at 9am because basically nothing is happening #i ate lunch and that's it. we all sat down and ate lunch and then we did nothing #i dont wanna play the boring games they have bc then they'll say im ruining it when i seem uninterested #i just. im genuinely tempted to sleep the rest of the day away. im so bored and understimulated that anything is better than this #i wanna go out and do something!! or visit someone!! or literally do anything besides sit around in silence!!!! #we apparently aren't gonna do anything at all until thursday. we're just gonna sit around. im gonna genuinely fucking scream #also we're not even gonna do anything fun when thursday/friday/saturday comes along #thursday my aunt wants to take us thrifting. but we can't rlly buy anything bc we don't have enough space in our travel bags #we're gonna see a play that was worked on by my cousin's wife. which is like the only cool thing we'll be seeing #i don't even fully know what the other plans are. outside of them all being pretty lame #just!! idk!! i hate being a bitchy teenager but wow old people are boring #just. idk. we rarely get to visit cali and i wanted to maybe do some stuff that my sister and i could enjoy too #not just. sitting around a silent house or going to a thrift store just like i do in my home state

[weed-hotel]

staying in a hostel is the worst thing ever invented. actually

#in general I should probably be more ‘grateful’ for my ‘opportunies’ but also this guy snored all night woke up to multiple alarms before 7 #and then sprayed so much cologne in this tiny room that I feel like I’m choking #ykw ? and another thing. I basically only came bc. idk why honestly I’m gay and stupid mostly but like. god I hate traveling w other people #and idk why I agreed to three nights like I easily could have come a day later or left early or something but it felt weird in the moment? #so I just copied other peoples itineraries but then like ugh I have nothing to say to this girl!! yes she cute and I think into me but. #at what cost. at what fucking cost #northern france seems pretty cool though now I can say ive ever been here

[amandabe11man]

had the most insane dream about how Saw XI would go and it was so spectacularly bad that it reminded me of reading SNK's last chapter 😭 there was one cool part, but it was made pointless a couple minutes later

#saw #EDIT: apparently Saw XI has now been announced??? #bruh i had a prophetic dream #anyway there were so many components to this dream that even if I had written it down right after I woke up- #- I still wouldn't be able to convey it properly lmao #but uhh let's just say i knew i was in a theater watching this with a bunch of other people #but it was still as if we were all like- 'in' the movie watching everything take place?? #anyway it all happened in a cathedral and a lot of previously dead characters were now alive (namely: adam) #and john was like the preacher or something but he acted less like himself and more like one of those crazy street preachers #and idk it's hard to explain but looooots of people were there and most of them seemed pretty into it #there were a whole lot of weird comedic lines and immature humour in there too (again: SNK 139 war flashbacks) #i even think there was some slapstick in there?? lmao #*insert weird-ass details I no longer remember* #and tHEN a big-ass fight/battle royale type thing happened near the end for some reason #(and yeah this whole 'movie' took place inside the cathedral. all goffik n shit) #there were also some characters/people there that looked so out of place they clearly had nothing to do with the Saw-franchise too #okay and here's the start of the ONE cool part: #so once again it seems that fate has pitted adam and lawrence against each other #eventually everyone else seem to have killed each other so adam and larry are the only ones left in a sea of bodies pm #lawrence is more unhinged this time and he doesn't seem to have a problem with needing to kill adam this time around #kinda like a 'welp. it's either you or me'-attitude #so he has a saw he's gonna like- cut off adam's arm with so it'll kill him i guess? but adam manages to keep a level head for a long enough #-time to apparently convince lawrence not to kill him but L still tries to attack him i think? #but adam says smth about how if they just let a gun go off inside- someone will hear the gunshot and call the police so they can be saved #however while they were struggling- the saw cut into lawrence's own arm instead so it's making him lose blood but it also makes him more- #-lucid again. his arm's pm detached from his body now tho and as he dies he smiles as he says that adam was right:- #-they COULD'VE just shot the gun into the ceiling or smth and help would've arrived. and then lawrence dies #adam IS sad about it but still pretty stoic #THEN idek but a portal?? opens up? bc now adam's the last one left so that means he gets to leave ig #and it's kinda like a portal made of water? he drags lawrence's body with him and as they swim/float down he gently drags L along with him

[a-passing-storm]

I have forgotten that it is actually kind of Therapy Homework for me to post things online!

#this sounds really stupid and questionable i know. but basically. #i have an issue where any time i do Anything i feel the need to tell my friends about it for validation and attention and stuff #which means that when they don't respond immediately i feel shitty and also. when we do have conversations i have nothing to talk about #but online especially here on tumblr i really do not give a shit about it #but like. i still get to get it out and be like “OH MY GOD I DID SOMETHING” #it sounds kind of weird i know but it works for me and it improves my relationships with my friends lol. ideally someday i will not #need to acknowledge Everything I Do like that but for now tumblr is WAY healthier than like spamming my friends lol #so anyway! today i went to a new bookstore in my area and it was GREAT and i added a Ton of books to my list (the classics section!!!) #and also there were some people in the d&D section and i joined in on a convo of theirs abt paladdins. i was kind of awkward about it but #i'm still glad i talked and they seemed pleasantly surprised if slightly amused by the interaction! but like really. it is SO cool #that you can just meet people in public!! and especially that bookstores are sort of... #directly conducive to meeting people with similar interests just based off of how the sections are organized #i got a collection of Poe and a history book #aLSO i went to costco for the first time #and i baked oatmeal raisin cookies! haven't baked since i started high school p much but i'm getting back to it after thanksgiving cooking #and they came out pretty decently! #and i just made like. a cucumber salad kind of. idk what to call it. and i really like it. ya boi is cooking a lot now bc #he remembered how fun it is #anyway! yeah i really need to get back to journaling in general too!!! #dante dicit #journal tag #ig #might delete

[exopelagic]

I’m kinda glad I spent so much time looking at crop science this term bc turns out it’s unbearable and I couldn’t actually do this like I was considering. Progress!!

#it’s like FINE I can deal with it but long term??? I would fucking diw #crop people are so like. angry too. this is about you Sinclair #idk what it could be abt this topic specifically like. I’m guessing bc it’s high stakes largely expensive science with limited resources. #and goddamn nobody agrees on what you should be doing #there’s also the whole commercialisation thing bc the state of farming is pretty fucking bleak on all fronts #but especially on crop improvement. you patent your thing immediately and hope a seed company buys it up and funds the expensive trials #bc otherwise there’s no way in hell your thing’s even getting made let alone actually being Used in any practical way #this is a group of people who are trying rlly hard to help people in a real tangible way in the face of smth genuinely terrifying #(crop yields haven’t significantly accelerated in decades and soon they won’t be able to keep up) #but the process to Doing Anything Abt It involves not only the typical hell of academia but the combined challenges of #stubborn farmers. uninformed public. late stage capitalism. the whole regulatory mess of GMOs #so it seems like everyone’s at each others throats all the time bc there’s this sense of urgency #bc hey dude we haven’t made much progress since artificial fertilisers but maybe if you FUCKING LISTENED TO ME #:/ #im exaggerating not all of them are like this I’ve read some very nice very cool papers but goddamn some of them are Pissed #in a way I haven’t seen too much so far #as always I’m the annoying idealist what if we did All Of It Anyway #like come on what’s the harm in working C4 rice if we can get it that’d be incredible #we can’t we still figure out loads abt how leaf anatomy works and how C4 photosynthesis works is that not still a win. that shit has uses #ANYWAY THIS HAS BEEN MY CROPS RANT FUCK SINCLAIR ALL THE HOMIES HATE SINCLAIR #im sure he’s done some very important work on water use but the guy is so condescending I didn’t know you could do that in a paper #luke.txt