#and I am trying to concentrate

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Dude what if you drew more Barnaby in suspenders art, that would be kinda bonkers. (You don't have to)

it would be absolutely insane you're so right. you know what would be crazier

if it was Laughingstock

#that didnt make sense but at this point everything is laughingstock to me #suspenders? laughingstock. that dead fly in the corner? laughingstock #the inescapable march of time? laughingstock #HAHA ANYWAY BARDABY IN SUSPENDERS AM I RITE #in my mind they just barely managed to pull off winning a Very outnumbered fight #you know its gettin crazy when barnaby shucks the vest #unfortunately it has the side affect of lowering howdy's concentration (on the fight) #(he is still very much concentrating just. on something other than surviving) #rambles from the bog #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #the most insane thing here tho #is that this is probably the best howdy ive ever scribbled #and the Worst barnaby #but ive given up on trying to fix his face so this is what yall get lmao

[enigmajaython]

This is a joke but. Caleb and king's dad playing chess (belos is the table)

It's 1am so I apologize for the quality but I just HAD to draw this idea, thank you sm

#toh spoilers #spoilers toh #asks #'silence brother i am trying to concentrate!' #my art

[solarpunkani]

PROGRESS!!!!!!

#out of queue #ani rambles #so the problem i had earlier was ‘i made 2 chains when i wasnt supposed to and everything was whack’ #but i fixed it so now its Less Whack. #this is gonna be the hood i have like 12 more rows to stitch which might be a full ball of my yarn #also im understanding how motherfuckers listen to podcasts #i listened to like 4 video essays dissecting hozier lyrics and comparing them to dantes inferno #like my other hobbies (drawing and writing) require imagination and concentration and Specific Vibes #crochet requires a different kind of concentration #but so far its good for listening to new music and videoessays so maybe i’ll try a podcast tomorrow. or friday #tomorrow meaning later today because ITS FIVE AM #AAAAAAAAA

[stuckinapril]

Not to be that one person but even as a fashion fanatic the met gala was actually hard for me to keep tabs on because the ostentatious display of wealth makes me sick to my stomach. Every time I even try to enjoy an outfit I get reminded how these clothes cost thousands on thousands, when some people find it hard just to get by. This has been happening w me for every glitzy over the top celebrity event ever

#this year’s theme was boring anyway #but I was trying really hard to enjoy whatever outfits I liked and just couldn’t concentrate #am I literally the only person who’s disgusted w this? i don’t get how a lot of people r okay w just being spectators

[thebirdandhersong]

house on fire :)

#not literally #this stupid research paper worth a third of my grade is due on monday and i CANNOT find sources and i cannot concentrate #and i've just come out of a week of five final assignments (including the conference) and am still trying to separate my feelings #about this STUPID BOY from my professional development nonsense but i can't compartmentalize very well #i have limited hours left and i'm on my period AND THIS PAPER IS NOT WRITING ITSELF I AM LITERALLY AT MY WIT'S END #it is DUE AT NOON which is SUCH a stupid time for a paper to be due #anyway respectfully i am in tears!!!!! that's all the complaining i can do for now

[soppsop]

i just rememberd adhd meds exist and now im upset because i could have that if it wasn't for that freakin neurologyst we went to see that told us it was impossible that i could have adhd because i have good grades in school. literally the ONLY question he asked me and immediately said it was impossible. we spent like 5 minutes there. he could've at least... explained something???? anything?????? and now i'd feel bad about asking my parents to see another neurologist because that costs a lot of money :((

#now im just unable to concentrate on anything and feeling very worthless #ok gonna start rambling here a bit #vent? -> #i'm just not good at anything except drawing. everything is hard and i don't think i'm capable of getting a job and contributing to society #in any way except drawing. my self worth is being held almost entirely by my ability to draw. #but i'm also incredibly slow and unproductive and it's so hard sitting down and starting a drawing and finishing that drawing #drawing is the thing that makes me feel alive and feel good about myself so when i can't draw i just feel really awful #i just wish i could concentrate and work and be productive man. why do i have so much stuff going on in my brain. why is everything so hard #sadge 😔😔 #ok gonna try to draw i hope something cool comes out or i'm throwing my computer out the window and playing videogames #oh also another neurologist once told me depression can't be caused by school #i'm pretty sure it can but idk im not a doctor #what is up with these neurologists man #i know it's gonna get better tho. life might suck but i *am* a teenager and it's only gonna go up from here. #im still learning about myself and stuff. also no school next year that's gonna be awesome #don't wanna end on a sad note bc life is good actually #and i'm fucking amazing at drawing

[wizardnuke]

i love dnd..i love playing heavy utility/support/backfield and i love having three to six attacks in a turn and an insane ac. at heart im a support player ill get my hands on whatever we're missing in a group

#looks at a druid a fighter and a bard fighter. okay cleric time. #i LOVE playing cleric turns out. #though abjuration wizard is still super super fun its a different flavor of support #it's not buffs it's 'i am going to transfer literally all that damage to myself and war caster style succeed my witchbolt concentration' #doing insane amounts of damage while taking damage (+ with temp hp and then just a lot of hp. im taking the tough feat as soon as possible) #aabria iyengar was right these abjuration wizards are craaaazy. but war domain clerics also fuck hard #my abj wiz is very much an experiment in 'what if someone who is not at all suited to this life tries to adapt as well as she can' #the point is that she isn't a cleric. do u understand. she's not a cleric and that's the point it's the. hbbbgbfhb. she's out here #functioning as a combat medic on some aasimar features + healing kits/potions + arcane ward. Look At Me #i also really enjoy playing nonreligious characters in these worlds where deities 100% exist not in a 'fuck the gods' way but in #a way somewhere between 'i'm all i need' and 'i called and no one answered' and 'may or may not go on an insane power hungry spiral and #try to get a touch of godhood' which is in part very due to my own agnostic and people-loving heart and 'haha what if i icarused this girl' #a resentful caution towards gods an immense respect towards religious companions and 'when your god isn't here to help. i will be' #anyway REACTION arcane ward you don't take damage im fine. next turn reaction shield ward's back up. the thing is. #she will drive her hp down. the ward isn't much like it goes past that temp hp. it's 14hp that shit goes down and carries to her hp #but it never drops. any leveled spell puts hp back into the ward. a 1st lvl shield puts it at 2hp and she can use it again #she is not suited for these conditions but my god it is fun to watch. i care her. #i explained that subclass feature to a player that's not in that campaign and said. like. yeah she can take damage. when her ward drops to #0 it carries to her. any leveled abj spell puts it back up. and she can use it and drive her hp down again. #do u understand what i am explaining to u! do you get it! she is and has always been a punching bag! #she was a very valuable asset to the army and the group she was drafted! into. because when she's there. people just don't fucking go down #aside from her. aside from her. AAAAH. she's so cool. she is very smart i am still riding the high of critting every turn w witchbolt and #reacting to ward a party member against a crit that would have dropped him by taking the hit herself. and she didn't break concentration #badass

[teruel-a-witch]

as i'm waiting for my new tablet to arrive i'm reminded why i don't shop online ever and hate paying in advance for something i haven't been able to hold in my hands yet.

it's starting to seem like it won't arrive before my birthday tomorrow so i am officially livid. i specifically picked a store that wasn't far away and promised delivery on the 28 at the earliest but it looked like they only shipped it on the 28th judging by the status 😒 the one time I order a gadget online instead of going directly to a store and this happens. birthday officially ruined.

#i am genuinely so livid i've been livid for days #i ordered a week in advance it should have arrived it's only from moscow to saint petersburg #i was checking the status update and it hadn't changed for the first 3 days after creating the order #so it's not that they failed to deliver at the earliest date it's that they didn't even try #i tell you i haven't been this mad in a long time i am fuming #sorry im not the best conversationalist when im like this #it looks like the case will arrive from another country faster than fucking moscow #ugh there's a reason everyone hates moscow #im so livid im shaking i tell you #i can't concentrate #this is pointless but i needed to vent #also explain why i might be in such a shitty mood for my birthday #which is tomorrow #it was the only thing i was looking forward to #i was this close to cancelling the order on like 26th or 27th to order from a different store #but i was afraid they will take too long to return the money (could be like a week) so yeah #i know i chose badly but they were promising 28th and i naively thought they would deliver #other stores' window was from 29th #i know it's stupid but it really has ruined my birthday cause it's all i can think about

[pizzaqueen]

Steve + Eddie + bumper cars = mayhem

#steddie #Steve x eddie #someone drew art once right???? or am i imagining that? #i love them being competitive idiots and bumper cars would totally bring that out #just imagine them at a funfair or carnival in general!! #Eddie slowly coaxing Steve - who’s trying to be ~cool - to just go crazy and idk I’m tired #oh! and they’d both be concentrating hard on crashing into each other and their tongues would be peeking out the way they do #pizzaqueentxt

[purgetrooperfox]

how come you do post much about gaza?

assuming you meant don't*? because this makes no sense otherwise? anyway

that you don't see my activism doesn't mean it isn't happening. tumblr is a terrible platform for activism, so I don't use it for that

#i won't pull up donation receipts for a fuckign tumblr anon #i won't sit here and try to explain that tumblr activism is typically restrained to tumblr. people rb the posts and never do anything else #people here notoriously do not click on links #so what i do. what i donate. where i protest. my household's boycotting. i do it and i talk to people about it but i don't do it here #because it won't do jack shit here and i'm trying to connect with people who might actually participate. for tangible results #sorry if that sounds Angry. it's because it is. #if y'all want to free palestine then you have to participate more than just reblogging. boosting voices is good but it takes more than that #tumblr rbs don't put pressure on politicians. they don't fund relief efforts. they don't pay for esims. they don't demonstrate organized #support for palestine in a Visible Manner to your city or state or country #they aren't disruptive #that's why you don't see me post on here. i'm trying to concentrate my efforts where they might do something #NOW. before you come for my throat. obviously there is nothing wrong with circulating posts about aid and resources to help #but then you should really consider like. contributing to those resources. that's key. that's the point. and some people here do! great! #i just. am more likely to be able to find and reach people who do in other places #maybe i should've said all that in the post instead of the tags but i really don't want to bring a bunch of misunderstanding down on myself #asks answered #'i wont sit here and explain' and then i did. damn

[mitamicah]

I need to think out loud - feel free to ignore

#I really want to quit the event for trans day of visibility #I just don't see what I can give to the conversation #and I haven't for a while now #there is already a person that does all the posters #when I did the budget it was all wrong #half the ideas I've come up with has been having big holes #and honestly I don't think that comfortable in the group #I feel like I am back at school or university being put in a group for a project that I cannot pull out of because it will affect my grade #or the rest of the group's performance #but there's no grades #there is a performance of sort being the event #and that could still be great #but I don't feel like I have the spoons or the experience for this #I am just smiling (barely) and nodding along #yet a part of me are also scared of dropping out now #there is not a lot of time left #and so it wouldn't be fair on the other people to ditch this last minute #but would it be more fair to let me just tag along not doing anything of value? #and I should probably decide soon since we are getting closer #it is this big dark cloud over my thought rn #I am trying to concentrate on my drawing challenge yet I don't have any joy in it #because all my thoughts go to this event #I don't know what to do #I really don't want to do this #but I did say yes #and I hate tapping out and be seen as untrustworthy as well #micahs thoughts

[vectorworm]

watching Castle Freak again and...

#DADDY ISSUES #carnally.. as a father figure #the reason i love characters who are just a cube of concentrated daddy issues with legs is bc I AM just a concentraed cube #like that Dad is a fucking mess but hes trying his best :( #activating me issues #also hot #(that outfit though... a mess) #debating putting this in the drafts bc im so tired and but WHO CARES #(kinda which there was a self-destruct function for posts. wouldt that be fun) #the family is such an unrepairable mess #Barabara though <3 #love you Barbara Crampton. shes always amazing #Castle Freak

[orcelito]

With a combination of medicine, excessive water, and Soup, I am feeling... okay.

Very sleepy. But at least it's not agony to swallow like it was last night. So I'll take it.

#speculation nation #idk if it's progress or drugs but im glad to not be utterly miserable #i just feel kinda crummy. #but i have nowhere to be for all of today. so i can just spend it lounging. #for now ill probably nap. later i might wanna try watching a show maybe. if i can get myself to. #rn i have like... no concentration in my brain lol. so i cant do anything i actually care about. #sleepytired... such is my existence rn... just existing waiting for the next dose of my nyquil... #i did order a care package for myself tho. of dietary supplement shakes. apple sauce. and More Soup. #since. last night even just having the soft mac n cheese hurt real bad. #so im on a mostly liquid diet rn. not the best. but it's better than nothing. #getting lots of fluids... lots of nutrients... trying my best to take care of myself... i am...

[silenthillbunni]

🤧🐀🌧️🌊

#need to clear my head; #im in such a bad mood. my face is in a perpetual angry state. im just so so bitter nd pessimistic rn #trying not to get stuck in negative chaos thought spirals nd to just take it as it come #nd be patient bc recovery takes time i know. but i havent been able to feel healthy or functional for 7 months nd i am so tired #i cant help but worry abt my health nd what kinda diet i can have nd how to work all of that out. #like the removal of the gallbladder dont ensure a good digestive system. they remove it bc it can irrepairably hurt u #also im so so stressed out abt school nd my courses. i already had to drop one last week. nd it isnt looking like i'll be able to pass my #eng class.. it just isnt looking like it's realistic at all :/ i personally dont mind if i fail. but i can get issues w my wellfare hmm #bc like im still feeling rough nd u only get sick leave for one week after surgery.. so i have to go on thursday nd friday but im gnna #be in pain plus be so hungry nd be unable to concentrate idk #idk idk!! im already willing to take out loans to finish my upper secondary school.. but i have to make it work w timing nd stuff so im not #sitting here unable to pay rent or the bills or food lmao. so idk have to fix it somehow #nd the pressure of this country rapidly declining state is stressing me tf out!! having nazi conservative rightists in the ruling is just #dreadful!!!! for many reasons but atm idek if i can do distance classes like i wanted to :// #i just.. wanna be able to go for my long walks. go to the gym. eat normally. have coffee. study nd finish highschool. #then apply for whatever program i can nd move to another calmer city. prob eventually find a path to move to another country. like norway.. #im thinking too much but my thoughts are spinning nd killing me like i cant stop it im so scared nd anxious lmao 💀 #im also trying to be brave and write to the psych clinic for personality disorders nd be upset nd 'beg' them for help ksksksks. #but like... the thing abt having avpd is that i kinda dont wanna bc im scared of the possibility of them helping me lol #im just in a low place nd bad headspace and it's just getring worse nd im getting more nd more tired #i dont have much more energy to keep it together nd pretend like im ok or like i have hope lmaoooo idk what to do #anyway... idk idk guess i just gotta .. keep crawling forward anyway i can

[amara-laz]

Ok as interesting as this "Magnus Archives" that a bunch of my beloved mutuals enjoy seems it appears to be in podcast format: a format notoriously difficult for my brain to consume and enjoy

#look nothing against podcasts ok #im ngl i have a podcast-esque project #listening to them does not vibe with me!!! #i zone out so fast which isnt good when theres Plot!! #maybe ive just been listening to bad podcasts idk #but they just. dont work as a form of consumption for me #if theres like a transcript somewhere id love to read it it sounds so interesting shrjjrjrjkf #idk i dont have a lot of time on my hands otherwise id try listening #bc then i could try concentrating solely on said podcast #but i alas am being kicked in the ass with my three science sem #anyway back to work i go!!!

[blanchebees]

Trying to draw Ifrit but man his tiddies are so distracting

#text post #ifrit ghoul #Like sir move them i am trying to concentrate