#and I don’t get a fucking headache

[sword-and-lance]

((Look staff I know websites cost money to stay online, whatever I’m much less irritable about it than some people are, but like

Y’all gotta fuckin quit it with these automatically-turned-on-with-zero-clear-warning headachefests of UI changes that y’all are doing as ~*collaborations*~ or w/e

Especially when how to turn it back off is byzantine at best and also when removing the constantly-jigging UI elements that are still lurking around regardless literally requires a third party adblock filter can you FUCKING STOP THAT

Least make these things CLEARLY opt-in rather than opt-out, if that makes any sense, goddamn))

#; mun ranting #not ffxiv #then the people who find it cute or w/e can have it #and I don’t get a fucking headache #searching for the menu option to get my screen to stop being obnoxious colors #then again #y’all can’t even vet your ads for sweet fuckall for obvious horrible shit #so I’m definitely pissing into the wind even saying this out loud tbf #just because tumblr is /less bad/ than Twitter doesn’t mean #that y’all aren’t capable of digging a deep enough hole to not just go under the bar #but digging deep enough to go square-dancing with the Devil #Old Ibexgator Yells At Cloud more at 11

[anonbinaryweirdo]

if this account is still active by college expect updates about my situationship (my rivals/enemies to lovers girlfriend i made up in my head weeks ago)

#i met this girl?? she’s so nice she’s my partner in a few of our classes #help she offered to study with me #theatre class !! i’ll post updates 🫶🏽 im GETTING that lead role #oh i didn’t know she also wanted to audition for this role #oh. #she just?? patronized me?? what #i take it back !! she is not nice and i do not like her <3 #she’s so fucking annoying all because she made 2 points higher than me bfr #she spilled her coffee on me in the hallway. i don’t even have a change of clothes #i hate her sm #im being forced to partner with her for the project what 🙁 i will commit #im going to go crazy we actually have to work together i hate working with her okgfjhfjfhf #update: we’re at her dorm because she insisted on not wanting to go to mine kms #WHY IS SHE BEING SO UNCOOPERATIVE. THIS IS AN IMPORTANT PROJECT im sonfucking. she’s so annoying #we js got done arguing over who was going to do the writing (im doing the writing 🫶🏽) #im about to go back to my own dorm this is giving me a headache. i literally cannot do this anymore #update: so uh #guess who got laid

[callixton]

holy fuck. i have done literally genuinely nothing today

#i played dnd . but i just barely dragged myself awake for that #i like. better finish my shit tomorrow jesus fucking christ #i don’t know what fucking executive dysfunction is going on but i Cannot get work done #this sucks this sucks this sucks #i haven’t even really eaten. i’ve been snacking but i haven’t had a meal and i also didn’t eat properly yesterday and i think it’s giving me #- a headache. but also i don’t really have food here that was. protein and such #maybe i’ll order in again if something’s open :/ #ted talks

[bigolgay]

Which motherfucker gave me the flu😑

I felt a cough coming yesterday (not surprising. Everyone here is currently coughing up lungs).

Today I can’t stop coughing and breathing isn’t fun.

But that’s fine… and that’s all that was wrong this morning…

This afternoon?

Bitch I wish death upon me and whichever fucker came near me and gave me their disease.

Pounding headache (not dehydration related. But that did remind me to go fill up my bottle, thanks!) and feeling weak and shaky and I keep getting really nauseous.

So like textbook flu really.

Anyway.

I am filled with rage and hate.

Not really though, I’m still full of love and whimsy and am still just a silly little guy.

I will commit atrocities against every single person in existence.

With the exception of Reneé Rapp and the guy on tiktok who’s whole account is dedicated to him peeling garlic.

That’s my whole fyp btw. Just Reneé Rapp being stunning and funny and iconic and funny and beautiful and silly and relatable and beautiful and stunning and omg she can sing so well and make ears so happy omg. And then guy peeling garlic and throwing the naked cloves in a bucket of water and it makes nice *plonk* sound. I also had one about a cat who was on the list to be euthanised because she was aggressive after her kittens died, but she got adopted and they adopted her and a kitten to hopefully soothe her but she still wanted to go outside and find her babies and was getting so stressed about it. But then the family had a baby and suddenly she wasn’t stressed about the kittens she’d lost because she had a massive naked kitten that she claimed and I may or may not have cried then and I may be teared up now. IT WAS SO CUTE. SHE WAS CUDDLING THE BABY AND WAS KEEPING AN EYE ON THE SMALL CHILD WHILE IT WAS PLAYING AND SHE KEPT HEADBUTTING HER (which if I wasn’t talking about a cat would sound kinda fucked up?) AND IT WAS SO CUTE AND SHE FINALLY HAD HER OWN BABY AGAIN AND AHHHH NOW IM CRYING AGAIN.

Okay. I took a second to compose myself. I’m calm. I wanna nap but I’m too uncomfy to nap. And I don’t want to go get medicine because my Nan will start babying me☹️if I just don’t move at all and have the fan pointed at my feet I might be able to nap.

Guys be so proud of me, I bought a water bottle and I be sipping. Water still gross though. But we persevere (I dunno if that’s the right word).

I take a nap now maybe. Nunight. Love you. Kisses and handshakes and hugs and high fives.

#I always get the worst flu #so I predict it’s gonna get worse before it gets better #I had the flu for 2 whole weeks when I was younger and I did not stop throwing up the whole time #and then a couple years later I had it again #and I was throwing up so much I burst blood vessels in my face and it looked like I had chicken pox #and then I was free of flu for ages #until now… #I really don’t wanna throw up☹️ #okay I take nap #(I’m aware I’m being dramatic. I’m a pussy. also this is partly me dramatising it for funny’s) #(it’s genuinely not that bad. just uncomfy. but I will rage if this headache doesn’t fuck off) #who threw the tennis ball!?!🎾

[littledollll]

Public enemy #1 because I told people that blocking parking is inconvenient and not to mention illegal.

“Not my problem” it is, actually. It will be when somebody calls the cops on you and you get a ticket. It will be when somebody has an emergency and totals your car to get to where they need to be.

MOVE YOUR FUCKING CAR.

#people give me a headache #it’s fucking logic #I don’t want to walk either; that’s why I get there early. #littledollll rants

[pepprs]

it’s yom kippur now and im not supposed to eat anything until sunset tomorrow but ive had a headache all day and rn its fucking SPLITTING but im 5 hours into the fast and i don’t know what to do. eating something would probably make me feel better but it’s yom kippur and i don’t have a longstanding ailment that would prohibit me from fasting or whatever it’s just i woke up with a headache that has gotten worse throughout the day and now the fast has started but it’s the worst it’s been all day. idk what to do. i need to eat something but i can’t

#purrs #i feel bad having any other thoughts other than like. atonement on this day but imso stressed i didn’t do my homework all weekend bc #yesterday i had horrible cramps and today i had a horrible headache and i was holding out for it to get better and it didn’t and now im #going to be in HELL fasting tomorrow bc not eating or drinking already *gives* me a headache idk what it’s going to be like when I already #have one and i can’t just take pain meds bc we don’t have any 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻 im absolutely fucking miserable #food #definitely not getting written in the book of life for saying this 😻✌️ but im so tired of there being a struggle every day. like every day s #something happens and i can’t make a decision that i know will be best for me because im scared of what others who are more powerful will #think. and in this specific instance it’s god and my mom. most of the time it’s just my mom. and im just so tired. i can never do what i #know is best for me because the timing is never right. lol #like can i please not have a horrible headache on the holiest day of the year when im not supposed to eat anything. can i please have a win. #anyway my homework is due tomorrow at 4:30 and ive done nothing to work on it at all whatsoever so i won’t even be able to observe the h #holiday anyway bc i’ll be doing that homework stressed and hungry and dealing with a horrible headache. can’t wait!

[sanchoyo]

our landlady sent someone to fix our kitchen floor (good, it was literally caving in and needed to be fixed for almost a year. Was legit afraid I’d fall thru it) but they are taking sooo long and I haven’t been able to cook for a full week bc our kitchen has to stay empty for them to work so the stove and fridge are just in the corner of another room. So. I’ve been eating chip meals for a full week and I am so sick of them. I need to cook I need VEGEBAL SO BAD I am going crazy

#IM GOING TO GET FUCKING SCURVY #there’s no counters to fix food so I can’t even rly prep and I’m ngl I’ve felt like shit so I don’t wanna leave the house to like #buy shitty premade salads or something but I need to ugh #I’m so sick of ppl being in the house working too the noise is driving me up the wall #it needed to be done and I appreciate them but thee autism is activating #I think my mom said the landlady wanted them to refloor other rooms after they finish the kitchen and I’m like…ok it needs it but if they #do my room and it takes as long as the kitchen does and I cannot squirrel myself away in my room #and have to work from the living room? I’m going to die fr #everyone in my family is loud and I need quiet to work #and my dad smokes in there and it gives me a headache #and where da hell am I going to put my cat. AAA #I’m just very stressed . I want to abscond to the woods where it is Quiet #I hate Sounds my anxiety is level 4849393 I’ve been so cranky it’s BAD #then I feel bad abt feeling bad bc it’s not rhe workers faults they’re doing a good job they put cabinets up and are repainting the walls #like when they were just supposed to be doing the floors . very nice #but adding days on TwT;; #not that it didn’t need the Reno like water damage aside the house is old and not cute old. #falling apart old. #sanchoyorambles

[milo-is-rambling]

I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like. #what? am I missing something here? #my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know. #honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

[aroace-polyshow]

literally none of this is that bad im just so fuckinh tired dude

#my leg hurts so fucking bad #the bus smells so sweet snd it’s making me nauseous and sick an annoyed #i don’t understand whatever’s going on with history and i have a quiz tomorrow #i have to keep up my stupid fucking grades but i don’t fucking get what i have to do for that stupid assignment #and I FUCKING HATE THESE STUPID WORD SEARCHES #i have a headache #im gonna kill someone

[ruffgem]

I hate school so fucking much lol and I always just thought I was taking too many credits but this semester I finally took a normal amount of credits and it doesn’t matter. It’s not the amount of classes, it’s just having any classes at all. I feel like there was definitely a time where I could handle it but not anymore lmfao… this place was crazy. Sent me into my first real and scary panic attack, broke me out in stress hives, ruined my sleep, turned me into a mega hater…. smh. I know it could be a million times worse so I feel bad for complaining but it was not cool. All I can hope for is that my degree and good grades that I damn near died trying to get for literally no reason do me some good in real society tho I doubt it lmao

#like why did I try so hard lmfao…… I don’t need a 4.0 I’m not going to grad school I’d rather kms #I don’t know. I didn’t realize I was trying that hard I just thought that’s how hard I was supposed to try #IDK!!!! #I have never been good at knowing how much effort to put into things my entire life #I give everything 110 percent when it feels like I’m giving it like. Idk. 80 percent #everyone calls me a perfectionist and IM NOT TRYING TO BE LOL I don’t know how to gauge what I can or can’t be dismissive of!!! #it’s hard for me to discuss this problem I have without it sounding like I’m being like ‘omg I’m so smart that I do everything perfect by #accident’ #THATS NOT WHAT I MEEEEAAAN #whatever #some people’s mental health issues make their grades tank but I have never had below an A- in my life and if u ask me that is also #indicative of an issue like LOL. if your child is like that then get them help for fucking real #ugh I love my mom and it’s not her fault but when I was a kid I was literally bawling and having stress headaches and canker sores DAILY #after school and being unable to sleep because I was so afraid of going the next day #and she was just like. ‘I was like that too :) it’s normal. you’re just a perfectionist’ #ACTUALLY IM SCARED OUT OF MY MIND FOR NO REASON but okay #ok sorry let me just shout out some gratitude tho to the handful of teachers I had who were epic and had swag #I loved them #they didn’t make up for the rest of this bullshit though LOL

[nataliewaitegf]

it shld literally be illegal to get a headache from crying or from getting blood drawn . ow :(

#got blood drawn yday and they took so much😭😭😭 i normally am fucked up after getting it done but this time was so much jesus christ #also the crying is mostly unrelated i just don’t think u shld get headaches when ur already having a shit time yknow #🤍

[hyunjining]

anyone else battling overwhelming anxiety every single day because of The Horrors

#i just get derailed from my day for hours doomscrolling #giving myself anxiety headaches and stomach aches #it’s all just genocide and pandemic and cost of living crisis #and even things that used to be good and fun are tied to evil #and it doesn’t matter how much we kick and scream nothing ever changes #and i can hardly tell my family that all of this is destroying my brain because they all think i need to worry about myself first #which like honestly i don’t know how i’m gonna have a good future anyway the way the world is going #like… what the fuck are we gonna do #sorry had to let that out #i feel like i can be honest here

[vertigo-starlight]

i will respect my body no matter how many changes it goes through, i will treat it with kindness no matter how it looks, i will make sure it’s nourished no matter how sick it is, i will take care of it no matter how i feel in it

#it’s hard to keep up with my recovery when my health isn’t at its best for whatever reason #im tired and i just want better for myself #im tired of feeling like even the weight of my own clothes is too much #and the constant chest pain and headache #and shaking #im so so tired #i don’t want to think about how the food i eat will make me look #i don’t want to care about that #i just want to care about how it’ll make me feel and if im getting the nutrition i need and if im enjoying it #i dont want to care about how clothes fit me #it doesn’t matter #they wouldn’t feel anything if i altered them to fit me better #they were made to fit me!!! i wasn’t made to fit into them #i do feel pain and anxiety and exhaustion and so so much more that no one deserves to ever feel #whenever i try to change how i look #i don’t deserve this pain #i deserve to be happy #i deserve to enjoy life #to accept love fully #to have clothes that fucking fit me #to eat for fucks sake #i look skinny and all it did was make me more miserable #fuck this #i will be happy #i will eat enough #i will recover #tw eating disorder #tw ed #tw weight loss #tw food

[ugetelynx]

If you’re gonna send nasty shit to my friends/mutuals (or even just friends of my friends) behind an anon message, come send it to me. I’ll entertain the attention you want for shit’s and giggles. But leave the people alone for a harmless opinion on something that no one is forcing you to agree with.

#I literally hate that I have to say this when I have a splitting headache right now #but genuinely if you’re gonna send shit to someone just cause they don’t like a character you do #send it to me instead stop fucking harassing random people on the internet the block button exists for a reason #learn to fucking use it #I literally get unreasonably upset when some doesnt like luis or interprets him wrong #but you don’t see me harassing people for no reason #its annoying and yeah it can hurt when people rightfully criticize or hate your fav but that does not excuse harassing them #literally fuck off

[mickgaydolenz]

the world loves me so much and said here asia we would like you to have your cluster cycle start on new years eve this time :) . also to anyone out there that suffers with cluster headaches, i fucking see you dude and it fucking sucks and i’m so sorry

#i also love having one of this chronic pain issues. that is very hard to be diagnosed because it is cyclical #*those #and mine is especially small given i tend to have 1-2 cycles a year predominantly falling around late august- january #when i brought it up to my doctor she essentially was like hmm that’s hard to deal with so no point getting any diagnosis 🤷‍♀️ #so thanks girl. but mine are very typical cluster. always on the right side of my face. the violent stabbing pain behind my eye #i also have the nice after cluster hangover headache tenderness that just fucking knocks me clean off my feet #rocking and counting tend to be my go to distractions. not that they do anything. but when it’s really bad i unfortunately tend to hit #myself for some fucking relief :s #oh also i get the classic wake up from a dead sleep clusters. and mine are reliably every two fucking hours :) #and usually i get anywhere from 1-8 a day during my cycle period. although 4-5 is pretty average for me #my last cycle was hell. my clusters were lasting upwards of an hour. that is really what i’m hoping to avoid this time around…. #sorry i just really needed to rant about this it fucking sucks. they don’t call them suicide headaches for nothing #cluster headaches

[cinewhore]

Fuck slack! All my homies hate slack!

#no other app has given me such headaches #WHY ARE THERE SO MANY CHANNELS #and then everyone has to be in every channel because you could miss something but then my phone is buzzing all fucking day #i can’t turn it off cause then I’ll get in trouble can’t leave it on cause it drives me crazy #make it stop 😭 #when i tell you after these next three weeks my phone will permanently be on dnd #i don’t want to fucking hear it #Tish goes to work