#and asked me to stop cuz he was hers

[makkie-is-screaming]

Why is my brother like this

#I told him to take his dirty ass razor out if the shower n he replied “oKaY mOM” #n I’m so sick of him doing that whenever I ask him to do anything cuz it’s such a weird and sexist thing #so I told him I’m not his fucking mommy and he needs to stop calling me mom/our moms name #n he got mad that I cussed at him dude I cuss at everyone except my grandma your not special #”well you have moms short temper “ stones in glass houses you hypocrite #I acknowledge that I’m more like my mom than I want to be but he’s wayy more like her especially temper wise #anyways it’s just weird that my older brother calls me mom I feel like it shows how he views women #Screaming

[everlastiingiimmortals]

"I've always wondered...."

The words take on a breathless quality as lidded ember gazes upwards, directly at the oldest friend she has ever had. Familiar sunkissed skin now bore smudged ruby petals of her lips, deep sea locks tussled. It mirrored the cascade of crimson hair upon her pillow, the waves of silken dress that remained ruffled. "Why did you still believe in me back then?"

In the heat and drunkenness of affection the thought still lingers between kisses. It stays as she is pressed deeper into her own bed. It remain on the tip of her tongue with ever parting of lips. A hue of coral rest upon Himeko's complexion, almost artfully smugged. It's a debauchery that is only for his eyes, that's Andreas sculpted into her like the rose bud bites that are planted around on her neck.

That promise to extend.

"I know-" She cannot help but wonder if this indulgences spurs her mind further. When was the last time she felt anything but graceful and controlled, the rise and fall of her chest quick and the desire of heart and mind linked. "I know it has nothing to do with anything like our closeness now, we both were too young for something like this."

To want him, to know why he wanted her.

"My Andreas..." Himeko's voice deepened, low yet no less passionate. No less laden with love. The ember dreams in her eyes do not muddle her gaze from him but only incorporates him within those stars. Gentle hands guide him ever closer as the woman's lips curled into a breathtaking smile of disbelief.

"Are you the first to trailblaze......because of me?"

😳 Unprompted. Always accepting! | @chasersglow

The moment they share feels like a secret, a thrill not unlike that when she used to run up to him on the beach and show him something clasped in her hands, a little shrimp she'd caught in the tidal pools left behind by the waves. Not unlike the way they'd both explore the cliffs far past dinner time, or sneak out of bed to catch the sunrise while their parents slumbered, all the more blissfully unaware. She's warm beneath him, and the pressure of their bodies pressed together is, for once... comforting.

He hums idly as she speaks, drinking in the flush on her face and taking his time to duck down and indulge in the blossoming bites on her neck, sometimes worrying away at them further, sometimes soothing them with gentle kisses. The next time he pulls away, he sees the lipstick smudged on his lips left behind on her neck.

How funny.

She has asked him a question, but it's clear that she's not done speaking. He contents himself with continuing to indulge in her, cheekily interrupting her with languid kisses but no less listening intently. She knows he is listening. I know it has nothing to do with anything like our closeness now, we were both too young for something like this.

"Is that what you think?" he rumbles, trailing kisses down her chin, throat, chest, ending right over the beauty mark just above the rise of her breast. If he nips her there, well. Nobody will know. The marks left by his teeth will not last, he's careful to assure that, for her sake. It's a tease, perhaps a prologue of what's to come, perhaps a translation of the omission left behind by his rhetorical question in response to hers. He doesn't explain himself further; there's no need to. He's loved her for a long, long time, longer than Veritas Ratio has existed, long enough for him to fully and freely shed the self the rest of the world knows in her presence. It is a comfortable existence with her, and the prickling unpleasantness against his skin is easily manageable -- quiet. His mind is quiet.

How funny that is, too, for the woman who sparked all the hunger for knowledge in his mind to also be the one to quiet it. Perhaps it's because he has no need to search for her anymore? But he had no need to search for her the first time mention of the Express' revival reached his ears, and his mind was no less noisy for it then. Maybe, then, it's because he's finally caught her, has her in his arms once more. Sensibility is something he prides himself on, but the impression of home is not something even he can ignore. This moment won't last, but for as long as the two of them are intertwined, Himeko is home. And for the two of them, for now, home is a peaceful, quiet thing.

The kisses over her sternum -- never further, never lower -- are chaste, notes left behind in thought as he ponders her question. "It would be too easy for you to die like that," he answers finally, peeking up at her with wine-gold eyes. One more kiss over her beauty mark (for good measure, he thinks) before he's slinking up to meet her lips once again. "I believed in you because you gave me something to believe in. Reason to ponder, ideas to question, an irrefutable truth to discover. Your death was no such irrefutable truth, thus I believed in your survival." You would not so easily let fate sway you, just as I would not let it sway myself. If his smile is smug, it is out of playfulness. "And would you look at us now? I was right."

Gazing down at her, laying nose to nose and chest to chest, he comes to a sudden realization. She's beautiful. And yes, that much is obvious. With her deep red hair and dazzling eyes and figure, Himeko is an objectively attractive woman to just about anyone. But it's an impression that doesn't strike Andreas until he catches his own reflection in her eyes, sharing the depths of her irises with the stars that live in her gaze even when the sky above is obscured.

...How he missed that sight.

How he missed this, though they've never shared this kind of intimacy before, but the timelessness of her company remains as if they'd never grown apart. She's beautiful in the way she smiles, the rise and fall of every breath, the disheveled state of her makeup and clothes and hair, in the way she sees him, her eyes and attention on him alone. She's beautiful in a way that is real and wholly, inexplicably his.

His name spoken in her voice elicits a little shiver that races down his spine, sets his heart skipping. Her hands find his face and that familiar prickle is once again washed away by the warmth of her palms, something to sink into, something safe. What's with that look, Himeko? his eyes ask. You regard me with such incredulity. Do you struggle still to fathom the weight of my faith in you? And then she asks that question, and he understands, and he smiles, as if they're engaging in another secret, a little inside joke known only to the two of them. Really, what else could he be? Though not a Nameless, did he not pursue new paths too? Light new ways not just for himself, but for all the worlds he helped? Did he not undertake a journey to find himself, and her?

"Would you like me to be?" he whispers against her lips, hands cradling her ribs. One kiss, two kisses, three against the corners of her mouth. "The universe may know Veritas Ratio, scholar of the Intelligentsia Guild, but you, αστεράκια μου, will know Andreas, first of the trailblazers under your light."

#suggestive cw #just in some parts cuz they makin out #ratio: my mind is quiet also ratio: doesn't stop monologuing about how much he loves her in his head #who allowed him to be romantic what is this (it's me) #anyway WEEPS INTO MY HANDS INCONSOLABLY #THEM!!!!!!!!! #koi and i pioneers of the himetio ship #definitely don't read too hard into the foreshadowing about home teehee #also good fucking god i'm so sorry for how long this is koi i hope ur asleep #//an answer sought; (ASK) #chasersglow #//everlasting; (IC) #//cogito ergo sum; (RATIO) #save tag #//blaze the trail before us / i'll pull the lost up behind you; (RATIO | HIMEKO [chasersglow])

[clockworkreapers]

What are the main characters canon sexuality’s?? Have they any or is it up to interpretation

Twas from a past pride month I think? Either way here u go. Canonically none of my trolls are like “straight” in the human sense lol they don’t exactly have a concept of it or like most human sexualities due to different social norms and all to them it’s like baseline everything is a valid relationship and any gender expression is also just as valid (why I tend to mark them as masc fem or enby presenting not male or female weird biology headcanon stuff yada yada they are not human) their universes Alternians are more concerned with blood anyways.

Considering quadrants everyone here is technically poly to an extent that’s literally just a cultural thing with seeking out two partners. ANYWAYS.

Sauron is gay he prefers masc romantic partners and he is demi so under the ace umbrella

Falmea is pan and aromantic

Majell is a lesbian she just prefers more fem trolls

Helstm is bi

Then Cybele and Cyrusk are both pan!

#can you tell I am also pan is it that obvious lol #but yeah a lil bit of me of course rubs off on my characters #also while trans and enby trolls exist in Aleph Null it works differently than humans due to the whole biology thing #their gender presentation and how their bodies kinda developed is due to a biological mimic #the gender of their lusus is what like makes them sway to one side or the other #or just stay in between if their lusus isn’t around as much #Majell and Sauron both had lusus issues (Majell was taken away from hers and Sauron’s well… it died) #while they both tilt a bit more center than like super masc or super fem Sauron still prefers He and Majell She #the amount of times they have been mistaken for the opposite gender by people who do not know fantrolls or homestuck smh lol #I’m fine pointing it out tho cuz I don’t think either of them would want a human calling them something they aren’t #I could go on about it so many headcanons about these grey alien dudes ugh delicious #I should stop lol #clock rambles #ask

[beans-beneath-moonlight]

I pretty much never have dreams about fictional characters, which makes it that much weirder that I've had dreams about soukoku no less than 6 times now

#might be 7?? I've lost count #I'm not even hyperfixating on bsd at the moment. I have ace attorney on the brain #the weirdest part is that they're all extremely in-character too?? #the first one was about Dazai wanting a divorce bc he got mad at Chuuya for always interrupting his suicide attempts #and decided to try and push him away to make him stop #but Chuuya was just like ''you can push me away all you want but it won't matter cuz I'll still care about you you piece of shit'' #the second dream was some high school AU where Chuuya was asking Yuan where Dazai was bc he stole his textbook and wanted to kick his ass #and Yuan told him Dazai was with his new girlfriend and Chuuya was like #''lol who would want to date Dazai?? I hope they break up soon... FOR HER SAKE OF COURSE!!'' #and then spent the rest of the day moping (while refusing to admit he was moping) #meanwhile I've had exactly one (1) sskk dream #and it was about them getting in a fistfight in the middle of a Petco bc Akutagwa had internalized homophobia #and decided everything was Atsushi's fault #which I really want to add to one of my fics bc that's funny as hell #soukoku #original post

[crazy-fruit]

So close to snap at my flatmate for her complaining about her "PhD struggles" right now.

By today she has one PhD position for sure (she doesn't really want it), was asked to apply for two other ones (one which she really wants and has good chances of getting) and could apply for a fourth one which she'd get as well.

#jojo rambles #like girl you chose this path yourself #and I get that one of these is your dream but maybe just once ask how I'm doing #I have stopped talking about anything personally to her weeks ago #cuz it always ended up with her talking only about her problems #which sometimes are a bit ridicilous...like her weekly meetings with her supervisors #i had around 7 meetings with my supervisor in total and only one with both of them #and friends of mine barely get a reply to their emails #she hasn't even commented on me finishing my thesis #I have not yet told her of my new job because of that #nor that my father is in hospital #gaaaah its so annoying #and she does not see how much support she gets #her one supervisor basically created a PhD position for her #she can always ask her father for academic advice cuz he is not only a professor but also a vice dean

[dapper-nahrwhale]

Hey. Psych (2006) season 3 episode 14 an evening with mr yang. Btw if you even care.

#AAAGGHH. this is it this is the ep. that just WRECKS ME. #psych #b.text #just. the total and complete dropping of any and all ruses with shawn. #like he stops being the funny guy. he stops subconsciously pretending to be psychic and just goes. #and when his mom gets taken. just stops everything except finding her. like!!!!!!!!!! gawwwdddd this ep. #im going to be thinkin bout this ep forever i think. #like. the show stops itself from being funny. at that point. when shawn drops the ruses the show does too. #except gus cuz shawn asks him to keep it up to keep himself sane!!!!! aaaahhhhhhhhhggg. #im not ok after this ep... #b.watchin.psych

[eldritch-crabbo]

Dad: “You’ve never consistently walked every day how do you know it wouldn’t help?” (my chronic fatigue and perceived laziness for only doing as much as I need to and no more)

Me: “I literally walked (up the steep ass hill leading to our neighborhood) every day with 30 lbs of textbooks on my back for 7 years.”

Dad: “And you had more energy and were 100lbs lighter back then! See it works!”

like literally 1. no, I definitely did not. there’s (many) reasons I didn’t do homework and was failing every class bc of it, and a lack of energy was a big one. 2. lmao I gained like 30 lbs since I got out of high school if he really thinks it was 100 he’s deluding himself. 3. i only did all of that because i literally had no other choice. what was I going to do as someone who has a massive fear of punishment (in large part because of him), not go to school? skip class and get treated even worse? this is the man that cut off my access to running water for like 12 hours as punishment once. i can’t believe i ever thought that shit was normal

#venting about the massive fight i just had with him. get this. because i only cut enough bread for myself when he’s not even— #—eating any tonight. as if me not cutting the entire loaf into slices is some huge moral failing #‘you do the bare minimum and only ever think of yourself’ yeah ok i fixed a nice lunch for both of us today and youre gonna say that— #—not even 5 hours later huh. fuck you. #can’t tell if i wanna die or want him to die or both but I sure as hell am sick of this bullshit #doesnt help that ive been unmedicated for months now bc we lost our medi-cal. mom got a job with enough pay that it took our eligibility #which. good for her! she got insurance at that job too! proud of her. #but theyve been separated since dec 2020 and it completely screwed us bc they arent legally divorces #ill be getting on my own medi-cal soon enough (if i can muster the energy for it) cuz imd be kicked off theirs at the end of the year anyway #since i just turned 26 #but yeah cant afford all those medications with only $12 in my bank. had to ask mom to pay for an inhaler cuz mine was out and i need that— #—for emergencies. cant be without an inhaler when i have an asthma attack #gonna stop now cuz im getting turbo depressed

[homeless202]

this is again the issue that people won't listen to him and blatantly ignore what he's saying:

it's so annoying

everyone keeps bothering him with the same thing over and over altho he's already expressed his opinion on the matter. it's like talking to the walls.

of course he's going to flip out. who wouldn't? no one's patient enough to listen to repetitive shit like that.

but now it's his fault for 'overreacting'. he just wanted people to leave him alone.

...but not like that.

#(did yall notice i try to frame these as dramatically as possible bc i want you to cry together with me :) #these people were well-intentioned. they just wanted to compliment him and find out if he was going to act again #unfortunately he doesn't believe the compliments he gets on his acting skills #(<-prolly cuz his parents never appreciated/complimented him on it) #he doesn't think it's true or relevant since it's not coming from the right people #when he told everyone no and to stop asking. they all talked over him <- which is exactly what always happened with his mom #she pushed and pushed and pushed him until he couldn't take it anymore and made him explode #making him look like the crazy/overreacting one #and her like the 'poor mom with such a difficult child' #eunyung has a record of never being taken seriously when trying to communicate his boundaries #and of being gaslighted his whole life #<- ofc he'll react badly #but reacting like that pushes people away in the process #so. him expressing his feelings is either irrelevant to others or considered an overreaction #<- ofc he'll get violent when words don't work. some people understand body language better than spoken #no home #no home manhwa #집이 없어 #webtoon #eunyung baek #meta #ey and theater #ahhh ig he's tall enough to hold that many issues otherwise they wouldn't fit

[genderfreakxx]

Anyway a really fucken handsome dude bought me a beer at a concert today so I’m gonna be riding that high for the rest of the year

#I will also be riding the regret of not getting his number god DAMMIT #for some reason in my anxiety riddled mind I thought I’d see him again #MAN #what a doof #he was so sweet and cool and he had an MCR tattoo cuz he saw them at their fucken warped tour what the FUCK #blithering on #oh and also at my work earlier a girl KEPT asking me out but it was the opposite of a good time I was like fucken girl STOP #and then as I was walking home the worlds tiniest white man in basketball shorts passed me on my way out of a gas station and said #‘how ya doin beautiful’ #it was 1am #anyway. big day for my ego. #dude at concert has me on cloud nine tho I really seriously feel bad for just like. leaving. #his name was Casey #the person he was with also seemed incredibly cool but I don’t know if I got her name which I also feel bad about ;-;

[selkiecoded]

hm. okay someone said something on twitter that got me thinking. okay i am very firmly a yoohan truther supporter lover all that stuff. and i think there are many situations in which they can be and will be together in some shape or form, without kdj. coming to mind instantly are the three year gap, 1865th round, and 1863rd round. prime yoohan material. but at the same time i think these situations are sort of haunted by kdjs absence, and/or really set up to fail. yoohan are people who work well together in achieving a shared goal, for better or for worse. like with 1863 - which would have the least amount of kdj influence - they are pretty much on a path of mutual destruction, hastened by one another. all of these situations, in which theyre working together for some reason or another, it never feels like they can bridge in to anything really vulnerable, you know? i love yoohan on its own, and i do think they can get shit done on their own, but at the same time, kdj coheres them in a way i dont think they can really achieve without him being there. do these words strung together like this make any sort of sense.

#throwing spaghetti on the wall. the haunting specter of kdj can he LEAVE? #thinking abt 1863 yh is like. ohhh they are the worst. i have stuff half written and itd end w hsy clutching yjhs shirt like. #let me just more or less copy paste it in the tags hold on #'I asked the Outer God‚' she snarls‚ clutching hi shirt. 'I asked him‚ 'Does YJH want to die?' He said yes‚ yes you do. But everyone with #half a fucking brain knows not to trust an outer god not to rip happiness out of your hands‚ so I'm asking you now‚ you bastard: do you #want to die?' #She's breathing heavy by the time she finishes‚ not from exertion‚ but from pure‚ desperate anger. She stops for a minute and just pants‚ #staring down at the ground‚ her fingers still curled around the collar of his coat. But‚ unexpectedly‚ a hand wraps around her own‚ gently. #When she looks up‚ YJH is staring both at her‚ and through her. 'You can show me the end of this world.' It's not a question‚ but she #answers it anyways. 'Of course I can‚ you asshole. Are you doubting me?' The darkness is his eyes‚ just on the edge of hollow‚ is #absolutely beautiful. His jaw works‚ and he goes‚ 'I want to die.' HSY stops and breathes in and out‚ very slowly. She licks her lips‚ her #throat dry‚ and brings her free hand higher to the side of YJH's face. 'Well‚ okay‚' she says after a long moment. 'Then you and I have a #lot of work to do.' #end scene. and in my head thats where it ends completely. itd sorta be them in the very beginning like sort of figuring each other out. #like i have a couple of half-scenes written in like the theater dungeon or discussing mia or hsy proving herself or whatever. and like you #can see the yoohan in waves hand all that but its like. the tension or whatever? of trusting the other to help achieve your shared goal #but like the shared goal is . what if we were planning our mutual permanent death. and we were both girls. #i think hsy would get sealed too? thats what i got i stopped at that part in my reread bc of school. i hope you die. i hope we both die. #geez. chill out man. whyd i type all that. well if youre reading this i hope you liked the wip ill finish it eventually ehhh. #also working on jihye&kdj fic ive mentioned a few fimes. and uhh general 49 stuff on and off cuz he cursed my brain #sorry sorry wow #orv

[molkolsdal]

Going through my old chats on this site and my heart hurts even more now

#i miss everyone #was looking at a chat with this girl who confessed her feelings for me when i was like 18 and i just got so overwhelmed and didn't know #what to do so we stopped taking #talking** #and years later in 2016 or something i found her blog again and messaged her to apologize cuz i just left her hanging like that and #explained myself #she updated me on how her and her daughter were doing and how she was divorcing the guy she had been with back then #man 2012/2013 was such a wild time for me on here #i also like online-'dated' this guy on here for like?? a month?? and he was so fucking stupid lmfao like i cringe thinking about it #also looked at a message from like last year from a random blog that didn't follow me and i never responded obv but he was like 'you're so #insanely gorgeous I'm sick that you're married 😩' #😂😂😂 #definitely one of the more unique messages I've gotten #anyways I'm still not over the fact that sandrine just suddenly deleted #i never did ask Kim for her insta idk why #also miss Richie very very badly #i wonder what he's doing en #**rn

[puthyflapps]

your thoughts and reviews to S19 are hilarious. the one with the ostrich and "carina has never done anything wrong and is incredible sexy" i was laughing out loud. too true

Lmaooo a lot of my posts are like my more filtered thots and opinions. Please know they’re far worse and more offensive irl

#I used to fuck so heavily with Andy in like the first season or two and then she just got worse and worse #I stopped calling her by her government name a while ago and have just resorted to calling her community pussy cuz I ain’t ever seen a bitch #spin the block more than her like my god would it kill you to get dick outside of a 20mi radius of s19???!!! #every time she’s on my screen the feminism drains from me #I don’t support all women!! some of you bitches are dumb!!!! #I did think it was funny how she like immediately lost interest in Eli after finding out he sucked a little dick like damn she wants to say #a slur that rhymes with bag y’all!! #ask #station 19

[deannicolmward]

Conutry the uwu's:

Yana - 🇰🇷🇬🇧

Dunmi- 🇰🇷 (n/a)

Bamberry - 🇰🇵🇰🇷

Denica - 🇧🇷🇰🇷

Toraca - 🇷🇺🇰🇷

Milo - 🇰🇷🇬🇧

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Sexuality:

Yana - Nonbinary/abisexual

Dunmi - genderqueer/Asexual

Bamberry - polyamory/bisexual

Denica - polyamory/bisexual(insane of bamberry)

Toraca - lesbian/demisexual

Milo - agender/demiboy

Lol this shit type are suck

#only for 27 or 11-18 bitch #i dunno these asked me wut is yana conutry or sexual? #Yana's friends #me n clowi we gonna this our idea but wtf he so weird i mean he fucking tried to stop our shit dumb ass bru #CLOWI IS BELOVED MILO CUZ INSAME OF HER SEXUALITY

[navramanan]

:/

#too many men have NO shame NO haya NO respect vallahi. it almost gets me worked up #this one guy sat next to me ON PURPOSE. the seat next to his FRIEND was empty. then along the way several more got empty #he stayed sat next to me and i'm not dumb i knew it was on purpose #then minutes before his stop he starts talking to me 'is everything well?' i dont know u and wtf do you mean #he asked several times i said yeah very weirded out #then he goes where u from are you german. then he gestures to his head saying very good meaning me wearing hijab #VOMITTTTTT WHO ARE U EW EW EW #i got so icked out cuz the audacity????? how you commenting on that????????? #i hate that it when it has to be said cuz it should be COMMON sense not to act this way not to make stranger women uncomfortable #but you like imagine someone doing this to your sister???? the fact it has to be said #the fact men dont have this common sense in their brains and only (sometimes) clock it with comparisons to their mums or sisters #before getting off he stretched out his hand to me to shake it AUUGHHHH???? NOW WE DONT KNOW THAT'S HARAM????? #had to say no two times cuz he insisted like you fr frrrrrr have to be stupid to ignore body language #cuz i was visibly weirded out. then he tapped me on my shoulder before getting off. shivers #you think it's very good when a woman wears hijab bit THEN sit right next to a non mahram woman when you couldve sat next to your friend #you look her directly in her eyes make comments about her covering (v inappropriate) THEN try shaking her hand #it's always the ones so so delusional about what theyve done wrong may Allah guide them for the sake of the women they give a hard time to #i rarely have encounters like this but i'm sure other sisters have it worse and they are TIRED #if any non muslim tries to analize this interaction to come to the conclusion that he was being normal and i'm overreacting #give it a rest xx #nesi rants

[bo0zey]

my manager has kids:(😕 but i have a new resident doctor crush soooo;)😳

#i knew i didn’t stand a chance !!!!! #also i saw my first pediatric cardiac arrest today #i was okay during the code i was glad i could be helpful i just gave out flushes lol #they didn’t make it but i had a feeling that was gonna be the outcome cuz they were already in rigor mortis when they got to us #the doctor leading the code was the one i’ve recently started talking to more n he’s like rlly friendly w everyone #i wish i knew the difference between someone being nice to me and flirting w me lol #anyways he did really good leading the code as well as the other doctors doing their best n everyone else #he wanted to hold a debriefing w everyone afterwards but i stayed back to clean up the room so when mom say her baby it #wouldn’t be as traumatizing w all the blood snd gastric contents soaked towels and garbage EVERYWHERE #i wish they’d stopped the code sooner the doctor leading the code was the first to point out the baby was in rigor right at the beginning #but obviously cuz it’s a peds case they wanna do everything they can and he literally did EVERYTHING all the code meds u could possibly orde #this stupid lady next to me who had no idea what she was talking abt was like ‘wait i think i see something on the monitor’ n im like bitch? #the baby was literally PEA they’re in fcking rigor mortis stop trying to prolong this horribly aggressive mess just let it end peacefully #baby was asystole throughout the entire code..they couldn’t even intubate him cuz his jaw was clenched so tight #anyways right after everyone agreed w the leading doctor to end it the doc like put both hands on the bed and kinda #bowed his head but i saw the pained look on his face i hope he didn’t blame himself i mean he knew from the start the baby was in rigor and #he asked everyone to give the baby a moment at the end of the code #that’s when they were all gonna go debrief but i stayed behind #anyways my supervisors were asking me if i was ok n i was like yeah bc the baby looked so much more at peace when we readied the room formom #then later the leading code doctor found me and asked if i was okay and i said was fine..i felt better knowing he was already gone before #he got to the hospital and was in literal rigor mortis with a rectal temp of 94 deg F #but i didn’t want to seem too heartless bc i could tell the code had upset him and he was talking in a more quietly #concercdndd voice like he’s usually always loud and joking around like me so :( and the fact that he stopped to talk w me privately n was #genuinely wanting to know if i was okay made me ;-; cuz im not used to being comforted?? or having my emotions validated #i was like ‘yeah im fine now haha it might all hit me later when im driving home alone at the end of the shift lol’ #n he gave me a pat on the shoulder n said i did a good job ;—; #ngl i always thought he was kinda cute but i only just started talking n working w him on pts tuesday n i think he likes me???? #idk bc he’s friendly n easy to get along w everyone AS AM I but idk we talked 1-1 before n i got a Vibe 😳 from him #but anyways then i got home n had pasta n talked to my fam abt my day and told them i had my first peds cardiac arrest #then all of a sudden something in me switch??i felt myself stiffen n my eyes started watering so i went to my room n ended up crying 4 20min

[purrincesslexy]

Not Really Enemies AU

AU: Adrien (Chat Noir) is on Gabriel (Hawkmoth)’s side.

Once Gabriel told him of his plan right after Adrien received the black cat miraculous, that gave him no other possibility but to join his father's side, right? This was his dad, and they just wanted to save his mom, and he’d rather not think too much of what the akumatizations implied, but he’d become very good at compartmentalizing anyway.

Plus, Adrien plays a convincing and fun villain as Chat Noir.

And, if he helps his dad in his quest, and hinders Ladybug in her fights from time to time, they should quickly be able to get the ladybug’s miraculous, and it will all be over soon, right?

.

.

.

Only, Ladybug doesn’t take him seriously at all and has already figured out that he’s a sweet cinnamon roll, and while he tries very hard to convince her that he’s her ENEMY and she shouldn’t be laughing at his puns when he’s mocking her and CAN’T SHE BE A BIT MORE CAUTIOUS AROUND HIM URGH!??

But no. Nope.

Ladybug can’t.

He’s such an adorable kitty, she just- she can’t.

#AU where Adrien tries and fails to be a villain cuz he’s too sweet for his own good #I’m sure it has been done before but #Can’t stop thinking about this #HM doesn’t want him to fight because he’s still a bit redeemable and doesn’t want to endanger his son #Chat Noir just goes out to keep an eye out for an opportunity to get the ladybug miraculous #And saves kittens and elderlies and reassures children by making funny poses #Chat noir: im doing it on purpose to earn their trust! #Chat noir: It’s all part of my evil plan okay!? (╯▔皿▔)╯ #Ladybug doesn’t buy it mind you #Ladybug: Because of your evil boss I don’t have the time for my errands! #Ladybug: go get me some flour and beer yeast while i beat this akuma down wont you? #Ofc he whines that he’s not her sidekick #But he still gets it all for her anyway #(he’d even get her medecine for diarrhea if she asked) #mlb AU #Not Really Enemies AU #ml AU #miraculous AU #Ladybug #Chat Noir #doodlex