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spotify-kids-real · 30 days

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guys my moms trying to make my life worse. its so funny. I WILL ACTUALLY START HARMING MYSELF ISTG

#shes trying to put a time limit on my phone #like 2 hours a day or sum #and i know im overreacting or whatever #but i have 2 irl friends who dont want to talk to me half the tme #and one of them doesnt respect my bounderies #llike deadass my moms not making it anybetter #like holy hell #tw sh #i will fucking kms /nsrs #i already hate living in this homophobic ass town why THE FUCK would she try and make it worse #crying rn #not in the good way

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unoriginal-and-dumb · 11 days

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I’m nawt gonna lie gang, with the day I’ve had today I realized I should stand up for myself against stuff that’s making me upset because I’ve had enough of not being joyous so im addressing it

I said before that I don’t mind if people draw inspiration from my infected design, but there has been a lot of times (so many today of all days of course) where it really is just my design and yes I am flattered but please, please credit me

I came up with the design as a whole on my own, based entirely on “oh that would be kinda cool” in my head, and when I first started drawing it I didn’t really see anyone else drawing rlly anything similar to my design at all so I mean.. I dunno man I kinda would like credit maybe please

adding on to part of the reason why im doin this cuz now im seeing other people given credits and it’s like hm ok 😮😕

It’s been happening for nearly every single fandom I’ve been in now and it’s like errr ok…

#I dunno like I said terrible week and today has really just made it all worse #so maybe im just overreacting here but I am upset and #I think I should respect my feelings and then like do stuff about it #I DONT KNOW MAN MAYBE THIS IS SELF CENTERED #THEN IM GONNA BE EVIL AND SELF CENTERED I LOVE MYSELF #whatever

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muckyschmuck · 2 months

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love being transgender , positivity, blah blah , whatever but i HATE GETTING SWERVED AND SPITROASTED BY CVS AMD PLANNED PARENTHOOD AFTER PAYING COLD HARD CASH FOR A GAY LITTLE APPOINTMENT THAT ALLOWS ME TO BUY FUCKING SYRUP THAT MAKES ME A MAN AND THEN NOT EVEN GETTIGN IT FOR SOME REASONI CANT EVEN CALL MY BITCH ASS 1 STAR RN PROVIDER AND BE LIKE HEYYYYYYYYY WHY IS MY THIGN ON HOLD :333BECAUSE HER NUMBERS JUST THE PP NUMBER AND WHENEVET I CALL THE PHARMACY OR PP ITS LIKE beep boop sorry go fuck yourself GOD

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leafn0t · 4 months

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I like Solomon so much it psychicaly hurts me

And everytime he gets treated badly in game I die internally a little, which happens a lot

#at this point im dead inside #why is my man always taking Ls???#i can't play any of the games knowing he gets someone treated like the worst #am i overreacting? yes probably #but this is my blog and i can do whatever i want on here #obey me solomon #obey me nightbringer #obey me shall we date

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months

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#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before #is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things #the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the #weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad #not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a #prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country #my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for #treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad #as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain #shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing #to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird #when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk #i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach #out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like???#this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home #somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms.#but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long #term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting #whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot #i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors #i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival #unrelated

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hauntedtotem · 3 days

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I think the biggest red flag for me regarding the hopelesspeaches and lio convoy stuff, their entire group (especially lio) has near identical speech patterns and dynamics as my mom's online friend group. Which is less of a red flag and more of a raging wildfire tbh

#I listened to all the calls when they 'leaked' but I didn't know they were leaks I thought lio posted that stuff proudly #I didn't know that they weren't meant to be seen by the public until just now lol #Anyways I'm pleasantly surprised people are talking about how fucked up they were #Bc tbh when I was like 'oh this makes peaches (and everyone else) look like a bitch kinda' the first time I heard the calls-#I thought I was maybe being too judgey or sensitive or something?#But now everyone else is like 'yeah they are all being bitches actually' im like. Oh! So I understood right and wasn't just overreacting #Mostly bc lio was ranting about being a conservative Christian and weird 'nuclear family values' on one call and my immediate thought was #'oh gross Im too biased against this man to be able to look at this-#-discussion objectively. I'm gonna think he sucks regardless of the situation and therefore idk lf im a fair judge ?'#So it's cool to get confirmation from other ppl saying 'oh no ur right he sucks and here's why'#this is the 2nd time this week I got 'no youre not just overreacting. Other ppl are upset too' validation abt a topic. cool #//shade #I'm sure there's plenty of found family groups online that are great but so many of the ones i hear abt feel like a cult imo #My mom is in a group where this dude calls her and other women there his daughters like lio does to peaches and it feels gross to me idk #Ik everyone craves found family connections but. Idkk it feels weird to be taking that in a literal sense and calling them dad/my daughter #Feels like introducing unnecessary power dynamics.#Theres a difference between 'oh this person is like family to me because we're so close'#vs 'oh i am adopting this person and assuming a parental position over them'. that sounds unhealthy I think ?#Edit I just found out lio posted a response but it's midnight and I have a date tomorrow I'm not watching that rn lol #imo both him and peaches are bad and idc if one is worse than the other or whatever.#Peaches has been two faced for a while; lio might've taken advantage of her bc he's kinda creepy. They're both saying the other abused them #This is like jade and julian talking shit about each other to me. Idc guys I hate both of u srry <3 #Iykyk

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enigma-the-anomaly · 2 months

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#vented in a discord server (not the tumblr moots one dw moots <3) about my mom barging into my room this morning #which really pissed me off because I feel like I have no privacy #and someone responded by saying I should be grateful that my parents care enough about me to walk into my room and check on me #which is. not what I needed to hear #idk I’m just always terrified that I’m too sensitive and that I’m having problems that aren’t actually problems #I know I’m privileged trust me but. that same thinking is what makes me deny my trauma #because others have it worse or whatever #like I am sure the person did not mean to insult me or be rude #and I do think I overreacted a little (mainly cuz mental illness and shit makes me annoying)#but. idk it rly hurt me #the last thing I needed was for someone to tell me that actually I should be grateful that I have no privacy #this person even started talking about how their room doesn’t even have a door #look idk what I’m saying I was just trying to vent rq and now I feel like an asshole #and self pity makes me feel even more like an asshole #I’m sorry I’m selfish and ungrateful. im sorry I overreact to everything #vent #ramble #god how does anyone stand me

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snixx · 4 months

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my best friend texted me after months and i have no idea what to feel

#vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com #i forgot that id lowkey blocked or muted or archived her chats everywhere lol #i turned off read receipts to see what she had to say lol #she probably doesn't even know i broke up with her in my head this is so awkward #hey my resolution this year was to communicate less #but then again idk if im capable of ever being over someone especially someone I've loved for this long #im sure we'll have one conversation and I'll forget myself and the fact that anything happened lol #i already feel myself buying her excuses and gadlighting myself that I've been overreacting all this time #whatever she is my best friend i promised so many things with her #I'm not complaining if that happens #she definitely didn't even notice we haven't talked in months

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ghostcrows · 5 months

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i knowwww im not really too ugly or too unwell to be loved i knowwww that i know people love me right now this very moment its just like the brain synapses that connect that feeling of loved-ness to the thought are loose as fuck and you have to jiggle the cables and hold them in a specific position...and its hard to do that all the time...

and um i dont totally not trust people, like...its just hard you know.

#i definitely have both reclusive and dissociative tendencies that feed off each other to keep me isolated and nonpresent #i notice when things are chaotic enough (the bar is so low) i kind of just stare off into space and cant like #register or respond properly to anything going on #like if there was a fucking armed robbery i dont think id show any emotion #i cant say for sure id rather not know for sure lol but like #i dont know. i dont react to things. unless im overreacting to my own emotional turmoil over whatever the fuck #something happened 2 me

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antifragi1e · 1 year

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am i allowed to be upset

#this happened a few days ago but #my editor sent me the final edit of our short film and he said it's the final cut and he won't be editing anymore #n that this shit isn't even paid or graded #the final cut was still so bad and ugly i really hate it #but i felt so disrespected when he said this isn't even paid or graded n that will only be a part of our portfolios #this isnt graded or paid coz this is literally a campus-wide film fest #idk i just can't stop thinking abt it #n how i allowed him to disrespect me like that #like i know as the director i should've stood up for myself but instead i just said thanks for ur hard work im sorry for all the hassle #im just really upset coz i know it could still be better . like WAY better #if i weren't so scared to tell him the truth #idk #i still need to cut like 5 mins off coz we're way over the time limit hahahaha but he doesn't wanna do it #im so sad im so upset n i judt cant stop thinking abt it or am i overreacting or overthinking or whateve #sorry ik this is long i just had to share coz i'm too scared to open this up to my team or my friends #OH I FORGOT TO MENTION A FEW THINGS #we had 6 drafts before submitting the final one #i have like an ENTIRE file of revisions n he didnt do them all!!!! which is why he made 6 drafts :/

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chilledmac · 1 year

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kind of sad that no one in the gang really has a relationship with dee anymore. like i know she's forever been the laughing stock of the group but at least by the end of an episode they would come together as a group (the end of s15 for example) but i just feel that overall dee's been divided? from the gang's dynamic

#feel free to tell me im wrong #but i just think that the guys in the gang really really hate her now #and not in a 'oh dees super annoying' but she's still involved in whatever scheme the guys have got going on #but more in a fuck this bitch 1!1!1! we dont need her #like even dennis seems so incredibly apathetic to her. and charlie just straight up despises her #and i know we've had moments that show the opposite: charlie and dee lockdown bubble #but the general trend seems to be excluding dee from the gang's antics #which makes me sad because then its not just the gang versus the world its the gang versus dee and the world #and idk the latest seasons with their heavy themes of anti feminism #doesnt read to me like satirizing misogyny but genuine women hate #i might be overreacting #and id like to hear other peoples opinions #i just wish dee shines a bit more in this season #or at the very least is included in the gang #iasip #dee reynolds

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august--and-everything-after · 1 year

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Something I've always struggled with is not relating to "enough" traits or behaviours included on various lists of non-neurotypical conditions, but knowing that /something/ is wrong one way or another

#i feel like im faking or overreacting cause i cant look at a list of autistic or Asperger's or adhd or whatever traits and #relate to what i think is 'enough' of them to warrant further clincal investigation #but I know somethings wrong or different about me and i always have #theres some kind of wall socially keeping me from connecting to other people the way everyone else does but i dont know what it is #so i don't know how to address it #im probably somewhere on the autism spectrum but i was never diagnosed as a child and ive done so much since then to learn to cope with #various issues ive had that i don't know if a test as an adult would be reliable #i think ive learned most of how to socialize by watching others n copying without always feeling or understanding the reasoning behind the #words and actions #does any of this make sense?

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aturinfortheworse · 1 year

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there are three hours a day i can't Plan Activities because i might get work for exactly that three hour period, with as little as 2 hours notice worst case (it's usually more like 4 or 5 hours notice)

my support worker has been coming here for over a year. this situation has not changed in that time. she can't come during those three hours. all of the other hours are available!

she doesnt seem to have the slightest awareness of this problem at all. like. i have been as flexible as i possibly could be and i have tried to make it as simple as i possibly could but still always this is happening!!

#im just gonna.#honestly i think i might just stop having a support worker come #but at the very least i gotta talk to them like #this is making me insane #i would rather put up with the no food / dirty house / pain / whatever #SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM #i know i seem like im overreacting to this #but im actually overreacting WAY MORE than it seems

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munamania · 1 year

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is it really really stupid to give her the gift. i know she’s not worth it and im making myself feel like shit over and over and i need to stop and it doesnt matter how sad or angry i am about it she’s not just gonna dump him and even if she did i wouldn’t like. want to be the second choice (not that i inherently would be. weirdo dream scenario) and it’s just not gonna affect her much to not see me anymore and i have to be okay with that. and im truthfully not rn but i have to be cause that’s the reality. anyway lost my point there

#like. i just cant imagine class being over monday and just being like. ok bye forever ig. or not rlly saying anything #idk guys im sorry i know ive gone on and on and on nonstop for months #it just sucks #even if i think back to monday like. it's classic baby steps of leading me on and i fortunately for once didnt nip at the bit right away #but just the little ways she looked at me and smiled or joked around. kinda flirty. just for her to yk #post the bereal today and hes in it and its like 'wait let me get a shirt on' so just blatantly fucking yk. didnt even have to do my sleuth #work. and like. i know maybe ive overreacted to a lot of it and over thought it and she really didn't intentionally do a lot of it #and wasn't ever confused or anything and i just told myself that to justify being sooooo bonkers over it. idk #so it's like. with all that in mind. no i should not give it to her i should just walk out of class and not talk to her again #but the wounded part of me the 17 yr old in me is desperately asking why it's so easy for someone to get over me #but she was never into me! or at least not enough yk. she has a boyfriend. and that yk. shouldve been enough #but i got so lost in all these little signs and feelings of tension and #i guess. lol look at me abt to say this. doesnt help to dwell (lol!) but who knows if it was mutual some of those times when it just Felt #tense. yk. or if she just has problems and really liked the ego boost #cause boy did i make it fucking easy to enjoy my attention! and i never ever ever shouldve done all that bc she wasnt mutually engaging #at least not till like. october. and only briefly. and i just. ugh #anyway :( whatever. i know the answer is no. i know it's no i know i shouldnt #but as i was saying. the wounded part of me wishes i could make her feel even a fraction of the hurt or even just fucking regret #but not pity. but regret for being an asshole. if i could just say something as my final word or something and still be dignified #but i just dk how that would happen. so. yeah #hopefully this is one of my runner up last posts about her #film girl saga

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katamarigender · 1 year

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Our cat is almost 20 years old and her hearing is starting to go and earlier this week i was like 'alright well if shes not hearing as well i don't want to let her go outside at all this summer' (ive been trying to keep her indoors but my family keeps letting her out) and the person i was talking to was like 'okay but if she meows a lot and gets really annoying im going to open the door for her'. 😐 so her being outside and potentially in danger because shes old and losing her hearing is preferable to you being annoyed at her?????? are you serious

#my stuff #makes me want to YELL i get upset when nobody else in my house seems to care if shes outside or not.#'she can protect herself' there are CARS and DOGS that live in our neighvorhood #literally 2 doors down theres someone with a huge dog and they just let it be outside in the alley sometimes and my mom has complained #about it being potentially agressive/not friendly!!!!!!!! and we have crows and magpies that will not hesitate to attack our cat!!!#its so frustrating any time i bring up how im worried about her i feel like nobody cares or they dont take me seriously or they think im #overreacting or something.#i dont want to be like 'okay well one day shes going to die outside and we wont even know and its not going to be my fault' but that feels #too mean. :(#*because not but.#ughhhh i left so many tags on here. whatever.

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