-to a random tune- a chuuuuunk of plaque broke off one of my teeth n i dunno if that's good or not. im gonna be cautiously optimistic that it's just because ive been taking excellent care of my teeth lately bc i cant fuckin afford a dentist rn~
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the only person who was actually right about the world and human nature was Max striner everyone else is a fucking moron
Striner? I hardly know 'er!
Anyways, I'm not a philosophy expert. I'm just some guy. I like the egoist belief that there isn't a universal moral truth. I like the absurdist belief that, because nothing matters, we should be radically sincere. I like the christian belief in a place without suffering after this life. I like the Universal Random Number Generator idea my therapist and I talk about
All of them have their flaws though. Egoism gets used to condemn social movements and civil rights advocacy. Absurdism and the RNG can create a sense of existential dread and a loss of motivation. Christianity encourages the loss of identity and free will
I'm just some psych student with a weird ass therapist that understands my weird ass brain. He encouraged me to look into absurdism since I took a class on absurdist literature my freshman year of college and he said I might enjoy looking into the actual philosophy. And I do! At least a lot of it! I like the idea of a chaotic universe and us humans trying our best to control it. I like the idea of letting that go and living authentically instead of with a direct purpose. There's chaos and mayhem and entropy and I'm just here to react to it. And I can react in ways that makes others happier if I wanted just because I can
Egoism/egotism feels too disconnected from the human need to connect to me. It traps me into that feeling that doing something good for someone is selfish if you're doing it to feel good. I'm actively working to get out of that spiral Christianity put me in now
I don't know, though, anon. I'm just some college student with an ex-christian tumblr blog and a lot of trauma. I like to believe there's some Universe-sized Abstract Computer with a random number generator that causes the chaos we call home. I skim wiki pages and reddit posts and decided if I want to engage any further/look for textbooks. I could possibly be looking at the wrong page about the wrong philosophy. I'm honestly just on this earthly plane for the bit
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what i fucking hate about anxiety is that you can just have a random anxiety attack just! whenever!!!!! and then bad timing and BAM UR ENTIRE LIFES RUINED cuz now whenever ur slightly worried when before ppl wouldve been like "bro just chill out" now theyre like genuinely concerned abt u and I HATE IT SO MUCH LIKE I GENUINELY JUST WANNA PUNCH PPL IRL WHEN THEY ACT CONCERNED ABT ME especially when im having NORMAL CONCERNS abt a situation and people treat it like im gonna go off into a panic attack any second. why because ONE TIME i just randomly started like shaking and my chest got all weirdly tight and shit and it wasnt even like i was anxious at that moment and the whole time i was like "guys im chill i think i just have like too much sunburn or smth" and everyone was like "oh no hon ur having a panic attack :(" which yeah but everyone can just shut the fuck up bc i was saying out loud that i was fine and laughing it off and the entire time did not lose my goddamn composure and i think i should have the chance for literally any dignity in that respect like goddammit now i cant be like a normal anxious high school student anymore i have to be a concerning anxious high school student and i hate it so much i just i dont know what to do cuz im leaving all my best friends irl on read and i want to be able to talk to them without them getting irrationally worked up whenever im having my usual typical high schooler energy and i just right now i honestly dont want to talk to any of them ever again and i know i dont really feel that way like obviously i love them all but if they dont stop overreacting were gonna have some serious fucking problems
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