#and maybe it’ll never work

[andallthatmishigas]

Kinda fucked up to realize you’re not the main character in your own life.

#i don’t WANT to be bitter and full of longing and loneliness #i really am trying #but it isn’t working #and maybe it’ll never work #maybe this is what I’m supposed to do #I’m just supposed to be here for everyone else #and be isolated and alone when I’m not of use #maybe I just have to accept that instead of trying for more #when I’ll just never have more

[alexiethymia]

Eyyy if Lilith is in Heaven and let’s assume that she loves Charlie, what if her deal with Alastor has something to do with getting Charlie into Heaven??

#hazbin hotel #lilith #alastor #charlie morningstar #supposedly her and lucifer are (still?) madly in love #she’s shady shady #admittedly based on a lot of what ifs #and I don’t know how it’ll work #and maybe she never disclosed the full plan to alastor at all #but I would think charlie could get into heaven #I mean she’s not in hell through any decision she’s made #you could say amongst any of them she’s a true innocent #I mean going by sir pen #assuming this is true charlie would have to be killed to get into heaven #but while it’s proven to work for sinner mortals #well charlie isn’t exactly a sinner is she? #what if killing her as a hellspawn just erases her from existence?

[sheepie-self-ships]

The free love mod is wild in the best of ways… just imagine you’re like. Some guy in pelican town and you meet this farmer and they just absolutely sweep 7 of your neighbors off your feet by bringing them sunflowers and eggs sometimes. One of them is some war vet who lives in the clinic with Harvey. One is the girl who runs the vineyard. Ones a pirate who washed up on shore a few months ago out of nowhere like guliver animal crossing. One is the girl who works at Joja mart. Ones the god damn wizard that you kinda maybe know about… ones that rich kid who wants to build bridges. and then finally there’s the guy who moved in a few years ago into that cabin on the beach who writes stories or smth? He’s there too, and they’re all under whatever spell that dirty little farmers got going on. Something they put in the crops??

#I have. many mods… #anyways the bitches in order are uhhh #toshi bc he has his own mod :3c #Sophia from SDE #Zoro bc he has his own mod too :3c #Claire from SDE I’m still working on romancing her tho #she’s not my girlfriend YET… but babygirl I will save u from corporate hell you want to move onto my farm so bad #what was I saying again #OH #anyways. also magnus the wizard #uhhh victor from SDE too #and finally Elliott #I’m still romancing zoro and Claire and I’m not married to anyone yet #but I cannot wait for the chaos of how long that god damn bed will be #it’ll be ridiculous #maybe after I get married to all these ppl then maybe I’ll start catching the rest of the villagers like Pokémon #not Shane tho. never Shane #that guys like my best friend in sdv always I don’t think I could ever marry him #he’s got higher hearts than Sophia and she’s my girlfriend in this save 💀 #but toshi Elliott victor and magnus are above him in that order #no. 1 hero in my heart 🌻 #romantic at heart 📝 #sheepie talks #cut my life into pieces 🗡️⚔️

[eye-of-yelough]

my xbox that i’ve had for 5 years and is partially melted from the time i left it in front of an electric heater has finally given up…. rip brave soldier

#i’m genuinely kind of sad over this. we had some good times my friend 🫡 #no major loss ​i was gonna buy a series x for bg3 anyway it’s just happening sooner than i thought #the problem is it’s like. fully broken. gone to sleep forever not waking up. i had data n shit on there and i don’t know how transferring #it works because my name is jared 19 and i never fucking learned how to use technology #it’ll be fine. hopefully. maybe. #although for all i know there’s a disc stuck in my xbox that i just won’t be able to get out now. i don’t know i can’t remember #your daily dose of idiocy

[hgduo]

😵‍💫

#adding the animations back to the model I’m using in the qsmpblr server #I’m probably not doing it very efficiently but I think I’m starting to get the hang of things #it’ll be so worth it in the end… hopefully- maybe I’ll even add more animations if I feel up to it #this isn’t my model btw I bought it- it’s naturepets: sprout Rex version #but the animations didn’t transfer into the character program so that’s why I’m manually adding them #I’ve never worked with 3D models before like this but it’s pretty neat! #… but also stressful lol #also bonus Atlas in this photo ^_^

[angelfic]

horrible trait of mine is that I can despise a book/series but if there’s one character i actually kind of like, I’ll wanna write a fic for them. the only thing stopping me is that i don’t wanna be associated with whatever it is they’re fromsjejdjekfjkrg this is about a court of thorns and roses btw like they are some godawful books but i have a fic idea for Azriel 😒😒😒

#it’ll probably never get written because I fucking hate the books #and I hate Sarah j maas #she’s an awful writer and the books are just unbearable to read especially as an adult #but I have a good idea for Azriel and it just doesn’t work that well for other characters in any other book series I like aaAAARRGGHH #i could maybe do something dc/marvel we’ll see #ni.txt #ni writes

[1ovestay]

won’t lie, experiencing some horrors

#just cried uncontrollably for like 20 mins #cried like 3 times yesterday too #i have no energy for like anything rn.. went to buy new glasses today tried on 15 pairs hated them all and then went back to my car #and cried because i really need new glasses since i fucked up my current pair and they don’t sit right now and dig into my face #tw death . my grandma passed away while i was flying home from canada #and it sucks because everyone got to be with her and say goodbye but i didn’t #and there’s a viewing tomorrow and my dad thinks i should go since it will be my last chance to see her but i don’t want to #i get that it’s a healing way to say goodbye for some people but i don’t want to see my oma lifeless #i know i’ll never get to see her again and that fucking sucks but she’s gone and i don’t want to see her like that #plus i have work and i already called in sick 2 days i don’t want to leave them short again even if it’s understandable #anyway the funeral is on tuesday at least i have the day off already and don’t have to worry about work #everything sucks soooooo fucking bad rn i won’t lie i’m not doing too great #and i miss el so much like i would kill to be able to hug my gf right now #their mom sent me a video today of them laying on the couch with their parents cat cuz they visited for father’s day #and i’ve cried twice while watching it… #argh. anyway. going to go watch a silly little video of some sort and maybe sleep early cause i haven’t been sleeping well #it’ll be ok 🧡 #p

[simcardiac-arrested]

once my pc gets fixed it’s over for you all

#you never know how much you want to game until your pc kills itself #but well if i’m lucky it’ll go back to working soon and maybe even will get updated to win10 #and then it’s over for yall. What if hades starts working. what if the binding of isaac syarts working . what if ori and the will #of the wisps starts working. what if . oneshot starts working #?!?!? #it’ll be over for yall #crammerposting

[farmerlesbian]

i have been enjoying the asks y’all have sent in lately! it usually takes me a couple days to a couple weeks to answer asks so i hope y’all anons who send em in do eventually see the answer when i post it. i really do hope you find it helpful!

#mod alfalfa #farmer lesbian #the wife was asking me about if the black gnc person saw the post and if they found it helpful #and i had to explain well it’s anonymous so i’ll never really know if they even see it.. but i hope they do #i just put it out there and hope they see the post #maybe it’ll help someone else #i just like doing it #i guess i like giving advice and being supportive #it’s hard over anon and the internet #where we can’t have a conversation like have a back n forth #i’m always wanting to ask questions but it doesn’t really work haha 😅 #y’all don’t tend to respond back ! #wish u would!! i genuinely mean it i would love if there was more interaction more forum-like conversation #y’all are always welcome to interact and add your own thoughts to any ask

[vlindervin7]

every day i regret watching the third before sunrise movie bc i hated it SO MUCH and now i just have a hard time finding the characters likeable to begin with

#and i loved the first one when i first watched it but now when i think abt it i’m like 😐 #anyway. maybe if i just rewatch the first one it’ll be fine but big sigh #sorry it’s just not the kind of movie a child of divorced parents should be watching #jasmine has thoughts #like sorry i get the idea of wanting to show that after a few years you have to work for your marriage/relationship and that it’s not easy #and actually takes a lot of effort. but then don’t make me want them to break up? and never speak to one another again #*again?

[hero-of-the-undersea]

*sighs* it’s that time of year again. anyone in this club know what a shimeji is

#i fell in love with shimejis as a kid and don’t know if they even still work bc something something flash player but #its got its hooks in me so deep I don’t even know they’re there #I have no clue which character I would do first and I have never successfully finished one but. still #the closest I ever got was when I attempted to make one for lio promare and I sketched out all of the frames but alas. #only finished like four or six of them #out of about sixty (for reference) #*​white knuckles clenching the table* i need a desktop pet of my faves like I need air #maybe this time will be different? maybe. maybe this is going to be the one I bring to completion #if I do it. it’ll probably be gillion bc it’s a long term investment and obviously. he is my main blorbo #but bitb has gripped my brain like one of those funny stress squish toys with the eyes that do the content aware flushed emoji thing #also I want to noodle with how I draw the riptide cast #and I love the pd crew I think they would have some fun animation potential #so Who is to say #thoughts #nim.txt

[allalrightagain]

The good news: i have solved a mystery

The bad news: i solved it the hard way and am now (still) Suffering

#the better news: i have a doctors appointment on monday so maybe it’ll actually lead to something? #anyways don’t mind me I’m just having a flare at work #i’d say send asks but i don’t really have spoons to respond 😔 #LT talks #chronic health tag #maybe some day my blog won’t be flare updates and reblogs #unlikely but you never know

[bootyful-seventeen]

While I’m waiting for the date to get closer to the release of the next volume for fire in his fingertips it’s got me thinking of a childhood friends to lovers au with fireman Seungcheol

It’s a sweet and spicy thought to marinate on

#just when I’m thinking of it there’s no other guy cuz like me I’m picturing the leading lady having absolute zero experience in the dating #and kinda making her like aloof and dense to the interest Seungcheol has in her lmao #like he does something super specific and sweet for her and she’s like not even registering the romantic interest he has in her #tho she’s had a mad crush on him since like high school or something #like this girl will clock interest people have for others but cannot for the life of her clock the love going her way #man I am useless when waiting for the release date 😭 #if I ever get to this thought I know it’ll be way after I clean tf out of my room and do some reading #I’ve got like 3 proper bookcases of material to read and organize #hell maybe I’ll even reread Percy Jackson cuz I never read the last book and I’ve had since high school 💀💀 #cuz I have a bad habit of not reading the final book when loooing back at the series on my shelves that have been here since 6th grade #but yeah I’ll be thinking back to firefighter Cheol and potentially working on that #might even just do more of a blurb or imagine instead of a whole fic #I don’t think I have the attention span for that yet #the damn elves stole that from me lol

[hinadori-chan]

low key wanna like

set up a queue for posts i like that don’t circulate anymore so that way the recirculate but also i don’t spam but like

i don’t think i’ve ever used a queue before tbh lol

#listen i’ve always been the kind of blogger where you just know what i’m about when i’m about it #but since this is more of a fandom sidespace than my actual blog maybe that’s the better route? #cause there’s a lot of really good fanart and fanfics and analytical pieces that just #don’t get as much love since they got burried by time and i wanna bring them back to the forefront becuase they’re GOOD #and people put their heart and soul and time into them and i want them to be appreciated becuase i love them and they make me happy #but also i’ve hit post limit multiple times becuase if this blog and i’m scared it’ll happen again #cause i think you still hit it with the queue too #and like #i do actually use my main blog a log and the posts come from the same pool #(pro tip for new users btw if your side blogs are connected to your main account all your posts come from a pool that your account gets) #(kind of like a deck of cards that has to be distributed between all players) #ANYWAY it might be the better move for now #i’ll stew on that while i try and get myself out of writers block #cause i’ll need to get the first draft of peghawks2023 done this weekend if i want ot done in time for the 16th #need to figure out how to trick my brain into working #had this problem in school also #the only reason i passed is because most my teachers loved me and wanted me to succeed in spite of my executive dysfunction #and my other two teachers hated me so much (adhd kid with a pension to cause problems) that they passed me #just so they never had to see me again lmao #it’s okay feelings were mutual fuck those guys #(or love those guys for the teachers that adored me) #(hope they’re doing good) #what was i talking about #RIGHT queues and writing #yeah i should go do that okay bye for now!!!

[goldensunset]

Happy one month until tears of the kingdom 🎉

WAUGH YOU’RE RIGHT

#time is passing soso quickly… #june 2019 feels like it was only yesterday #we’ve really been waiting for this game for almost four years huh #now suddenly it’s like that’s way too soon oh man just a month #can’t believe it’s even happening feels like this was never supposed to be a real game just a myth #i’m gonna be out of school in less than a month… probably working in less than a month… #funny my brother has been saying for years now ‘once botw2 comes out i’m gonna request an entire week off of work’ LOL #imagine if i did that lol. hey i know i’ve been here for two days but it’s really important i need to play this game right now #man this summer is about to be lit… a real and interesting job… a game i’ve been waiting for for years… #i’ll be in class for the final trailer tomorrow AUGH #maybe i just shouldn’t watch it anyway. like just to avoid spoilers #i wanna go in as blind as possible actually #me from a year or so ago would’ve NEVER passed up the chance to get more info on totk but that’s bc i needed crumbs to sustain me #but now it’s like. hey it’ll be here in a month anyway and i’ve got other stuff to do in that time #same with the gameplay showcase i haven’t seen that #i’ve had all the relevant tags filtered on here for like a month ever since the art book leaked #just gonna leave ‘em on #once we get closer to the date itself i might eventually log off indefinitely #actually that’s probably gonna happen anyway #if it’s anything like last summer having a job and a game to play over the summer means i don’t need tumblr to fill my time #anyway this has been a ramble sorry #asks #rosie-kairi

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

right. so. i meant to be writing the thasmissy fic. i did not do that but

i can explain

#hit over the head with the obsession baseball bat #hit SO hard i think i have a concussion #i might actually be more excited for the mcr us tour in 2 months than dw now this is BLASPHEMY dsfhgkjfhg #nuts this is the quickest a special interest has ever taken hold of me it usually takes like. a season #bc it's usually tv so it usually takes the first season. it took all of s12 in 2020 #but this was like... last sunday i told my sister like 'you know gerard way? theyre kinda cool maybe' #and this sunday i was painting the biggest painting ive ever done and it’s THEIR FACE #one week ago i was like 'idk i want to like it but this music is really not my genre' and two days later i was listening to it all day #a wEEK #like unfollow me now this is gonna be the only thing i talk about for the next week #actually no thats not true ive got nothing interesting to say about mcr #i did expect/hope to wean myself off of dw but i didnt expect it to get so violently replaced by something else #better than having nothing for a bit tbh #anyway it's not really replaced either im still writing fic and making videos #and i dont think mcr is gonna become a real special interest bc it has the obstacle of having real people so i cant get too involved #so it’ll just stay a fling i think. i Am excited for new music though. im excited for the old music! #i think the obsession will pass soon tho. fucking hope so this is the worst. im so annoying abt this #but for as long as it lasts it at least has produced maybe the best painting ive ever done. i think this might be the best #aND IT WAS SO FUN do you know how much fun it is to paint this big?? im never painting anything small ever again #also i Have actually been slowly working on a scene this past week in my notes app but it’s absolutely unnecessary thoschei octopus sex #like what i SHOULD be doing is loadbearing scenes to fill in the plot gaps. what i AM doing is more of the this. #more of the garbage that needs Connecting #anyway i didnt paint the mic bc i couldnt be bothered. i like painting faces and hands i dont care about objects sorry #hashtag artistic choice #mcrposting