#and then i noticed the vet thing

[smute]

always so funny when im watching American Entertainment Media and there's a mention of a veteran or an army person or something like they'll go "he's in the navy!" and i'll be like "oh word! kick him harder!" but then they're being extra nice and it always takes me a full minute to rewind my thoughts and manually erase the "(derogatory)" connotation attached to these words

#im watching the good wife and #it happened a few times these last few days #i dont remember the exact episode but #the other day #there was a scene where someone mentioned something like that in passing like oh yeah she's a veteran #it wasnt even relevant to the plot but #within the appropriate american cultural context it was clearly supposed to read as #admiring #or even like. obsequious idk #a positive connotation in any case #but i of course overlooked it completely and the mood of the subsequent scenes just Did Not Make Any Cents #literally had to rewind to investigate #and then i noticed the vet thing #and it all fell into place #anyway #hashed tag cross cultural communication #lmao #&

[fuck-kirk]

My cat: *breathing heavily and making skrunkly noises*

Vet: oh, did you bring her in because she has a little cold?

Me: no, she’s just like that

Vet: oh

#mott txt #she has a smooshed face. I took her to the vet for it years ago concerned and many tests later there’s nothing wrong with her #it’s just from how her face is shaped my last vet thought #but all vet techs and new vets comment on it #it’s always so funny tho. she really makes the most disgusting noises #I mostly tune it out and I don’t notice but it’s ALWAYS the first thing ppl comment on #she’s very healthy and active otherwise and she’s an old lady (15)

[deancaskiss]

highlight of the day today: the cranky pessimistic doctor actually said really nice things about me today. I had been asking him questions all day and giving my thought process behind things and my theorized diagnoses and then he let me do a cat neuter today and let me close up another amputation and he wants me to do a spay later in the week… but the real highlight was when we were in surgery and he was asking me questions to test my knowledge and then i asked him a question about his suturing and he was impressed with my knowledge and he called me “intuitive” and said I was “precise and mechanical” (probably because im a hands-on learner and because i like to run through everything I’m doing and do things systemically and he noticed all of that about me in just 2 days and he thought i had good approach) and he repeatedly said he thought i was going to be a good doctor/surgeon and he’s seen students on rotations that he knew wouldn’t be good at the job but he has no concerns about me and said i had good skills and instincts and he was sure about me 🥹

#oliver talks #vet school adventures #literally me trying not to tear up in the OR because he said such nice things #like i asked him why he was doing certain throws with the suture and he was impressed that i noticed he was only doing 2 throws #and he mentioned it was because the suture was a different material than PDS (the normal go-to where we do 4-5 throws) #and he said he does 2 throws because it has good memory and at the same time I said ‘good tensile strength’ and he looked impressed #then he called me intuitive and said i was precise and mechanical (but in a good way) #like he was impressed with the way i approach things and because im hands-on with learning i work through things in my head as im hands on #like i will be coaching myself through it mentally as im doing ti physically #and its like he’s noticed my thought process and the way i work and he was impressed with my approach #anyway still crying about this because after the internal med doctors said crap things in my last review and said i wasnt ready to be a vet #and then this ‘real world’ doctor who’s cyanical and disillusioned turns around and says he has confidence in me and thinks im a good vet #that means literally a million times more than anything else ever could #like its this huge difference from doctors on campus in a education setting being overly critical and harsh #and then an actual real world practice practioner basically sang my praises today in his own cranky way #yeah thats like the biggest compliment ever #because its like he’s so honest and brutal about things he doesnt sugar coat anything #so the fact he said those nice things to me today. i know that was genuine and real because if he doesn’t like something he makes it known #but ive impressed him. me. i did that. i impressed the doctor today. #dont mind me im gonna cry now #now i gotta watch all the spay videos again before i do surgery in front of him this week so i can impress him (dont wanna disappoint him)

[throwing-roses-into-the-abyss]

so we all agree siegfried has autism and tris adhd right

#all creatures great and small #siegfried: can't cope with change. prefers animals over humans. knew he wanted to be a vet since he was a child and stuck to it. #awkward around people until they share a love of animals then instantly bonds with them. #tris: impulsive. bounces all over the place. will ignore his job in favour of crossword puzzles. leaves every room a filthy mess #right up until he decides it really does need tidying and then does it to an extreme level #also he's very unconventional while siegfried wants things to be done the Right Way and only that way #(obviously this is armchair psychology and just a headcanon etc etc etc I just. noticed this.) #(everyone else is neurotypical and constantly baffled by the both of them.)

[ghost-of-someone]

literally just saw some radfem bullshit on my dash, & then when I went to their blog to block them not only was it full of anti-trans half arguments & accusations of other people being childish, but one of the very first posts was about how a certain show would be better if one of the main characters was a young woman instead of an old man because they "don't like old people"

#there is no point to this other than i'm pissed and tired of having terf bullshit pass my dash #i feel like i'm gonna have to get that eye thing because i don't super vet the blogs i interact with casually #so as long as they're not immediately anti queer i usually don't notice #and then i've got fucking radfem shit in my 'based on your likes' feed #all because i interacted with feminism stuff that - without the anti-trans lens - seemed totally fine #& like terfs are already shitty people but i feel like the anti older person sentiment just further highlighted the fact that #terfs are just shitty hypocrytical people who play the 'poor me boo hoo you're all childish' card & act like they're so fucking superior #& that any trans folks are terrible #and then turn around and spout all kinds of bigotry #but it's okay i guess because they've got a vagina <3 (& experience the exact same kind of misogyny that tons of us do but they're special) #ALSO #I learned what 'moid' means and you guys are fucking assholes #men are not just mindless sex freaks you fucking cunts #& the fact that you think that just shows how warped your sense of the world is #you 'hate the patriarchy' but aren't interested in actually dismantling it #how could you when you don't even view half of the people involved as really human! #fuck off #terfs and radfems aren't welcome here and you can all kick rocks #i try my best for this to be a queer friendly space and i want that to be clear right fucking now #if anyone who follows me has bothered to read this please let me know if i've accidentally reblogged something from the 'drop the t' crowd #i am not the golden standard queer or whatever the fuck the term is #but i dont ever want someone to think that i'm part of that crowd

[science-doyourstuff]

I had to do client counseling for a euthanasia today at the vet clinic while extremely delirious with a fever and I am pretty sure I fucked it up

#vet clinic #cw: death #cw: animal death #just. hmmm. #i might have seemed super drunk. which is not a good way to come off at a euth in general #never want to do that again #i am sitting here staring up at the ceiling like. wow. did I traumatize that family #either that or they didn't notice a darn thing. #people tend to be out of it themselves #but the lady kept apologizing to ME that I had to go over legal details and grief counseling with HER so um. hm. #OH BY THE WAY I DO NOT HAVE COVID #THE FEVER IS BECAUSE I HAVE A RAGING EAR INFECTION #because of my stupid fucked up ears #I am seeing an urgent care doc tomorrow #I wouldn't go to work with covid

[sysig]

I finally set my last notebook to rest, so it’s time for a new one (Patreon)

#Doodles #It took a long time! Having three concurrent notebooks at a time will do that #I'm used to only having two at a time but I think three is going to become my new regular #One for sketches - studies and random concepts and scribbly comics to be cleaned up in SAI at a later time #One for more finished paper art - not necessarily Fancy but lineless y'know lol a bit more proper as far as I'm concerned #And then a true free for all lol anything allowed! Basically a stream-of-consciousness captured to page #For now I've got the latter two covered I'm currently vetting the slightly-more-focused lined notebook #It was from a bit ago and I was being silly at the time haha but the first one is from a new brand I'm testing out #It feels good! It's grippy but not in a scratchy way and it accepts graphite and pigment well #I haven't tested pen bleed yet tho that'll be next on my list #The second is an old standby - not my favourite but one that is very easy to acquire and I know what to expect of it #It's also the same as my free-for-all notebook but that's really neither here nor there lol - I'm not likely to mix them up #The only thing I've really noticed so far is the new brand takes a bit more cleaning because its margin line bleeds a bit more than normal #It's not bad but I can see it getting annoying - pros and cons #The second two are just normal sona thoughts #I miss my spider. I've looked out at where I buried them every day since but it feels more manageable #It feels more approachable like I'll be able to talk about it with the sellers when we're able to go to see them #I do hope they don't think less of me for it... #And then the last haha - my Vargas immunity is currently basically zero so any outside mention of them is overwhelming #I got about three lines into a fic and had to stop lol - I still really want to read it! I just don't trust my brain with it right now #As if I still don't think about them all the time lol ♪ #Plus now I have my hammock again (♥!!!!) so I've got my reading spot back! #Reading never felt so good <3 <3

[moodr1ng]

nth reminder that the reason my pinned post and carrd say to not follow me if you dont have your age on your blog is, in fact, because i do not want you to follow me if you dont have your age on your blog!

#97 #this is pretty clearly displayed im not sure how to make it clearer! #i softblocked someone for this who liked my pinned post which says this like.. #im not sure if this is an issue of simply not reading (in which case this post wont help) #or if this is like.. under the assumption that ill make an exception or wont notice you? #i will! i check every new follower! unless you are a friend of mine then idk your age = you get softblocked. #i have 245 followers this is not a big blog i can easily vet every single person for this simple thing. #(i do check for about pages/linked carrds etc.) #this is abt new followers btw if someone followed me a long time ago and no longer has that info visible i probably wont notice #bc i already vetted them in the past

[ri-a-rose]

I think raspberry has worms

#i really need to take her to the vet like fdddddd #im still recovering from being sick a week ago and ushdvjdb ive let a couplee of things build up #i finally cleaned rasp litter boxx after way too long #im just im so tired and ffhfhhfd #it really doesnt help that im a dumbass and stopped taking my pregabalin bc i ran out bc i forget to refill it #every fucking month #i need to do better about that #fnxusnal #tbd #im venting #thats why ive been hit and miss mia the past week #idk if anyone noticed but yeah thats why #ritalks

[tjerra14]

Boss has been taking some time off recently leaving me to run things and it is so funny how quickly I advanced from “oh, are you the intern?” to “when did you graduate?”, “doc” and “are you planning to stay and take over the practice?”

#it's noticeable #and only took me about a year it seems #tbf i feel much more confident in most things than in the beginning #and people talk #especially old ladies with granddaughters who want to become a vet someday #and whose cat you had to stitch back together so you've been seeing her and the cat and the granddaughter #a couple of times #personal

[bat-bestie]

god everything sucks so bad right now

#big BIG vent in the tags heed the warning #cw pet loss #i don't even know where to start actually #im just a mess right now and i haven't even been able to say or type or think too hard about. the most important thing #god this sucks #my cat bunny. the one who's really nervous around everyone but trusts me. my girl #she hasn't been acting quite right lately so my mom took her to the vet and they say she has spinal cancer #and there's nothing we can do #and it's progressing really fast #she was fine just a few days before i left for college this semester #i haven't seen her in a month. month and a half #and now im going home for the weekend as an emergency visit and it's the last time i'll get to be with her. #this week has been fucking horrible it's midterms and i haven't been able to focus or study or think #im almost grateful ive been so busy with assignments because everytime i don't have anything i Have to do i breakdown #i had to ask one of my professors for an extension because im a wreck right now and he seemed like he almost didn't believe me too #he was like 'wellllll if it's an emergencyyy 😒' #sir i put my shirt on backwards and didn't notice literally all day i cannot write a fucking midterm essay like this #and i can't really talk about any of this either bc im always aware that if i kill the vibe too much people won't want to hang out with me #and just to make things a little bit worse i keep seeing people adopting cats or posting that theirs just had kittens everywhere #im just so upset. bunny is the most important thing in the world to me #in my worst moments when ive needed something to get me through it the fact that i can't leave her alone has been at the top of the list #i don't know how im gonna be able to be home without her #i fucking hate this #sorry for doomer posting go do something uplifting #delete later

[snoopyrps]

does anyone know why a dog might howl,,, for the first time in twelve years,,, at 3:30am completely unprompted?

#like............... should i be worried........................ #google isnt helping much FHLUIADSK #(she went to the vet for her annual just about a week ago and her bloodwork is 'perfect' #the only thing they noticed was that her eyes were getting SLIGHTLY cloudy but other than that still had the health #of any given non-'geriatric' dog. which is reassuring. but also?)

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

I can not tell if harley is sick or if her allergies are just worse this year

Other than more frequent sneezing and being a little quieter and a little extra sleepy last week shes acting totally normal

But shes not lethargic. She didn't eat or drink much yesterday but sometimes that fluctuates anyway and shes been eating and drinking just fine today and had been before yesterday except maybe Wednesday but the weather was fluctuating again and allergens were high that day

Its possible shes having a reaction to the carpet cleaner cuz that was in and on my vacuum when I used it Monday (and her symptoms showed up soon after that) and I havent washed my rug so its possible I didn't get all of it back out of the rug after the vacuum spit it out

So im gonna clean my room this week and dust and wash everything and see if that helps

Like she was less sneezey when my mom took her outside earlier than she's been in the house all week (and she spends most of her time in my room)

She was doing yoga

#i need a vet that i can text and be like ''this is what im noticing should i be concerned'' #because i have anxiety. particularly surrounding my cats health #and my parents are like ''well just google it'' and like. I HAVE ANXIETY. my brain is going to hone in on all the worst things it could be #also its annoying to have to sift through shit that i cant tell is ai generated or not #like the way half of everything i come across in duckduckgo feels ai generated #i feel like shes been groomimg her paws more than usual so i think they might be itchy #which is also pointing towards allergies for me #if she wasnt JUST at the vet for a checkup i would take her in #she hasnt been throwing up or anything #shes not really more or less clingy than she usually is #shes grooming normally #maybe not a vet i can text but even just someone who knows more about cats than me #my parents are not those people #like when it comes to my own medical shit my mom can usually reassure me that im not dying cuz she went to school to be a nurse #and while she never actually became a nurse she has worked in a medical field her whole adult life and spends a lot of time reading medical #papers just for fun #she doesnt get anxious around medical shit #its the same reason i like my doctor. shes straightforward and blunt. i appreciate that #i need someone who knows cats that is like that #cuz i dont have money to take harley to the vet everytime i get worried about something thats probably not an issue

[fathermolecule]

there is always such a difference in feeling when im surrounded by people and when im surrounded by animals and nature

#whenever im around people it never has not felt like a performance and being a copycat #i never felt like myself out there only a version of myself #that ive made over the years to not be lonely and make connections #and i do actually like being around people. but it doesnt feel natural #talking doesnt feel natural. the entire connection thing feels fake #its a little more complex than that but #i noticed it today. when im around my kitties or around dogs or crows #i feel like im supposed to be there #like a sense of belonging. this is what im meant to be doing #its just so stark. i always have sucha shattered sense of self and oretty bad dissociation #and it just. goes away near nature and animals even if im just looking at birds #i really hope i get into vet school. i think that would genuinely be really good for me

[absoluteabsolem]

i started the bear and it is great as everyone knows but it also confirms my theory that the cooking and flower industries are very similar if you're working at high-standard places. i too used to throw up every day before work. perhaps it is too early for me to watch this

#like it never got as bad as almost setting my place on fire but jesus #it rly looks unnervingly familiar #had to take a break after episode two because i was getting rly fucking anxious #like you have to be so fucking meticulous #your customers would never even notice if you fucked up but you'd know #your colleagues would know. your boss would know #you gotta be fast it has to be perfect and you're the best at both those things in your team right #so all the shit that's urgent is yours #you show up at work the vet calls you your cat just died but you got no time #bc there's a 300€ bouquet for the king that Must leave in the next half-hour otherwise the driver is gonna have to make a detour #and like when carmy says yeah it was horrible but people loved the food etc i rly felt that lmao #anyway. it's fine i'm fine

[dendroculus]

my stepdaughter came back everyone meet plum skrungly

#talking to myself #my roommate found her and then she ran away after like a week #but he finally found her again so now i get to hang out with a cat next year #he's kind of a hypochondriac about her though. #like he keeps noticing weird things about her and getting worried that they're problems #bestie. cats are just weird sometimes. if the vet says it's fine then it's fine