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neonsbian · 1 year
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friend sent me this pic and ig im not sleeping tonight
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szczylpierdolony · 1 year
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#im so stressed out im so tired ive done nothing and i need to start writing the essays#i have 3 to do plus there are like 6 exams most of which have a lot shit to remember plus im having a psychology short test#and the results of another short test next week and i need to start this economy assignment#and im late almost two weeks with a russian assignment and i want to cry#my meds arent working so im a mess and i stopped taking them bc they give me nightmares but now im having withdrawal and my heart is being#weird and i want to cry i need to kill myself i need to call my doctor#and maybe ask her abt that thing that makes you not have to take all your exams if youre mentally ill#but i feel bad asking for it like its not like im really sick and it feels like im just constantly lying#and she already signed the crap that makes me not have to go to pe thankfully#so i cant go and ask her abt this too like whatever worst case i fail everything and rip my guts out and die#i dont remember when i showered last time and im just so stressed out and i cant do anything productive#i havent been drawing or learning or revising or even doing my reading#speaking of which i have like 300 pages for next week maybe more and i cant take this anymore i need to die#also i think my parents would get mad at me if i said i cant wrote all my exams#bc whatever im not really sick im just lazy and annoying and a bad person and i wish i could get hit by a car so bad i need my head to be#crushed and my brain to get wplattered across the street#also im so gross and sweaty i hate myself sm and i feel so guilty over everything all the time#and them i go to therapy and i cant talk abt anything bc i hate talking abt my feelings its gross and i dont deserve it#i wish there was easy access to guns here suicide would be so easy jesus#and im having insane mood swings again i need to get off social media even tumblr it just makes me feel like shit abt myself#tw suicide mention
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myriadsystem · 1 day
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#must not text him texting him is the growth killer#must not text him texting him would be bad because it will make us feel bad and its my fucking bday this weekend#im not letting me do that to us#but fucking god i miss him rn and a lot lately 😭😮‍💨 was there a traumaversary i didnt know about??#the only him related traumaversary already happened in feb and we handled it pretty fairly well (mostly due to the ffected being dormant)#but still like. what did i do last year for my bday? what did we do the year before he was probably there then but i dont remember feeling#this way around last bday? which he prroobbabblyy wasnt there for? time is not easy for me#idk its driving me crazypants lately like i miss him so much i thought he was my everything forever he told me he would be#but hes not and he never was and hes done a lot to hurt me but none of it was on purpose he was never mean or violent#and looking at old pictures we look so fucking good together and old chats the way he talked to me was so sweet and but that doesnt change#the fact that at this point in time and probably never again is he actually here#fuck this noise man ive got a cute outfit ready im going to the local museum with my grandma for my bday day#and ive got weed and tunes planned for the evening there are so many things to look forward to coming soon why#why do i seem to be stuck in the past lately. like not in active ptsd mode im not triggered as the kids love to say but i just cant stop#thinking abt him and the whole relationship and wishing he was here. wishing he never left? or more like wishing hed come back#hoping that hes changed enough and that i have too to make it work. i keep having awful visions of him coming to my door after a life attemp#and im so mad at him but i cant leave him out here so of course i invite him in to care for him and make sure hes ok#and its awful because it feels like a whisper away from being reality. its too close to what could be real#and its awful not because its a dream but because the closeness to what could be reality hurts so much when logic kicks in#and i know its not reality no matter how dang close it seems#personal#i think im splitty lately. im losing more time than usual and i cant get this boy outta my head.#i hope hes a lingering thought and not a permanent resident oh that would fuck us up so so bad#idk. idk dude! everythings fucked up atm im doing a lot of personal growth but im also behind on so many other things#i just want him out of my brain. its my fucking goddamn birthday and im making this one a good one for fucking once#i can handle the other shit later but this one do be fucking me up in a major way lately the last few days. weeks? who knows
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echidnana · 4 months
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cw discussion of sh in tags
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skitskatdacat63 · 4 months
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Hey Catie, I think I know those feelings you’re mad about so yeah, I agree, they suck! And not the good kind! Why isn’t there just some magical goat that could lick your palm and 💥 bam, no more icky sticky yucky feelings you don’t want? Because the Universe is out to get us 😫 that’s why 😒. But I guess eventually you learn to take things as they are and realise you really can only do so much and to just. Try and enjoy what you’re doing in the moment, with the people you’re with (or just yourself!). But mm… that’s only a hypothesis, unfortunately I don’t have any tried and tested methods. Still though, and I’m launching you a lotta love too 💞💨🔫
Thank you for such a kind message, I really appreciate. Sending you a lot of love too!!!!! I guess I've just been pretty lonely lately, yknow somewhat long holiday break leading into two meager weeks of class then into finals week, not really seeing anyone too much. I like being alone, but I also get way too into my head and all my negative emotions and actions are amplified to a bad degree.
But thank you again for the msg, you made me laugh with some of the things haha(not the good kind of suck, I'm crying!) I find it kinda hard to reach out to people, again insecurities, so I always feel super appreciative when I get an ask or DM or anything. Sitting here, twiddling my thumbs a lot these days ;;;; But I agree with you!!! You gotta try and keep yourself in the moment and enjoy things, and not languish. I think I just need to draw 24/7 bcs i don't really have conscious thought while doing so 😭😭
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yandere-romanticaa · 3 months
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To the anon who was asking abt sex! Here’s my two cents based off of experience..
1. Cockwarming is not like,,, pleasurable. Like when I read fics abt it and the reader is all squirmy and whatever it really doesn’t make sense. If the guy isn’t moving then it doesn’t really feel like anything, and it gets a little uncomfortable after a few minutes of no movement. It’s kinda like using a tampon. I definitely think that the pleasure derived from this is more mental than physical. Only the guy really gets anything physical out of it.
This kind applies to vibrators too. Like internal vibrators are not crazy stimulating but it is enough to make you distracted. But to each their own I suppose.
2. Sex in general. Internal stimulation (P in V) is good, and if I had to describe it I would say it feels like a bruise repeatedly. It’s hard to describe. Like it hurts but not in an ‘ow’ way, it feels good. Definitely a feeling that gets the legs shaking after repeated thrusting against that spot.
BUT, I cant finish without stimulation to my clit. It’s definitely different for everybody, but in my case I need clitorial stimulation or else it just feels like I’m on the edge the whole time (which, by the way, is a very unsatisfying feeling).
And thrusting it all in like in one go isn’t possible, remember that your vagina is one giant muscle, and when you stretch a muscle to hard and fast it strains and it doesn’t feel good. Foreplay is very helpful bc it loosens you up first, but even then you can’t force it in at one go. You kinda gotta start with the tip first and use short movements to slowly fit the whole thing in.
AND YES!!! THE STRETCH HURTS!!!! If you aren’t prepared properly or your partner just shoves it in it feels like your skin is being stretched (like a rubber band being stretched so much that it’s about to snap) and it’s a sharp pain and you could tear. SO FOREPLAY MATTERS!!!!
3. Cervix stuff… 😭😭😭 Guys. You can NOT thrust into the cervix. These fics are LYING TO YOU!!! It’s literally like trying to thrust through bone, the cervix is hard and even inserting thin items like a Q tip fucking HURTS. Unless it’s like monster fucking with ovipositors then it’s just straight unrealistic. A díck can NOT push through.
Some women find it painful even when their cervix is just thrusted against. (It doesn’t hurt for me so I don’t mind but majority of all the gals I’ve spoken to DONT like it. One of my friends even threw up during sex one time from the pain.)
4. Mind break. Not a real thing. Sorry. After so many rounds, no matter how high your drive is, the sex just starts to feel uncomfortable. Don’t push yourself past that point, listen to your body and know your limits. Because once it feels uncomfortable it kinda starts to hurt. This applies for the guys too. It just stops feeling good after a while and you leave that sort of lust-haze and become very lucid (post-nut clarity LMAOOO), which also makes you feel the discomfort even more.
So yeah, mind break via sex just isn’t a thing because your body literally has a limit. Overstimulation is real but your body has limits for that too. Like after so many orgasms I can’t touch my clit or it feels like a sharp pain. (Again, everyone is different but that’s just me)
And yeah. That’s all I can rlly think of.
This was an interesting read!!!!! I think that smut may or may not have poisoned my brain a little bit so this felt like a breath of fresh air. Of course, one should never take smut too seriously as it is primarily for entertainment, but it really does feel like things can mess you up if you're an inexperienced pookie such as myself!
Truth be told, sex scares me. Like, a lot.
I am in my early 20's and there is this societal expectation that I need a boyfriend. I also live in a fairly conservative country which honestly doesn't help me at all. And it's low key expected from couples to just go at a few months into the relationship, sometimes even after a few weeks depending on the person. That's how most of my friends/acquaintances did it anyway.
Just the thought of a man seeing me so naked and vulnerable like that, it brings tears to my eyes. It legit scares me so much. Buddy, if you see me in my birthday suit you are NOT going anywhere LMAO, you'll have to marry me, I'm sorry -
I've been called an uptight and boring prude for having this kind of mentality and I get it. But I can't help it, I just can't. I don't think I'll ever be able to have that kind of physical connection with anyone unless I know them inside and out 😓 I'm too scared and too insecure for my own good... I also have a few stretch marks on my stomach, which I really hate, I really do. I don't think I could handle the humiliation of another person ever seeing them.
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hyunsvngs · 5 months
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hellooo!! hope you've been doing well <33
so, i saw you answering to an ask abt stoner!skz and when i tell you I AM ABSOLUTELY FUCKING FERAL OVER STONER!SKZ!!! especially about surfer au stoner!felix like.. something about that gets me off so hard i cant like.. imagine u and him barely smoke, preferring edibles, but jisung offers him a joint and tells him all these stories and how he felt when he had that weed, and felix being the believing friend that he is EATS it up. so that's how he ends up high off his ass and hornier than he ever remembers being. like he's grabbing at your flesh, doesn't even care where as long as it's you and your body😭🙏 and honestly, i am completely switch!lix agenda like i fully believe this man can be completely at your will and begging to get used, but can also be the hardest of doms who WILL make you beg for mercy and get off to it. but him being high like this and you're high too, neither of you cares who's the sub or dom, you just need each other. so it's messy, needy, frantic.. and lix just doesn't stop :(( he's so cute, going over and over again and whining how he's just so sorry for overstimulating you like this, but he just needs more of you. whimpering in frustration because his body just won't let him stop, and his pretty cock keeps getting hard :((
honestly could go on for HOURS abt stoner!skz (especially stoner!lix and stoner!jeongin..) so if i end up in ur asks again, ranting abt this, i'm sorry!!😭🙏
hope you have an amazing rest of the week, and stay safe♡♡
hi. this is my way of telling you i have a 1960s surfer stoner felix wip in my drafts. it’s been in there since before summer started and i just think about it every now and again.
it’s part of a ‘travel through time’ series me and billy were gonna do, starting with 1940s jeongin… and stoner surfer lixie is VERY sexy in it. it also includes y2k weed dealer fratboy hanji… SO LMAO
PLEASE LET MEK NOW IF YOU STILL WANT THIS GUYS BECAUSE I’D LOVE TO WRITE THESE FOR YOU LMAO
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onlymingyus · 2 years
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I cant stop thinking abt how wonu would fuck u into oblivion while your on the phone with your friend 🤭🤭
ok but...yes. smooches to your brain. this was me when this ask came in :
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I gave it some thought and here we go.
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Wonwoo smirks as his fingers trail along your legs as you sit on the bed in front of him. He listens to your conversation with your friend, your cute little laugh as the two of you catch up. You had offered to get off the phone but he had insisted that you just continue your conversation. "You deserve this baby...enjoy your talk."
You couldn't help but find that a little suspicious but now you kept smacking his hands away as he pushed your dress up making you glance at him as he gave you that look. Winking at you, Wonwoo shakes his head as you say maybe you need to get off the phone after all. Your friend instantly whining about never getting to talk to you. "Okay...I just...yeah I'll talk for a while longer."
"Good girl. Pay attention to your friend." You gasp at Wonwoo's words before putting your hand over your mouth before muttering that you are fine to your friend before they continue their story as you are suddenly pulled down in the bed. Wonwoo's hands on your thighs as he spreads your legs moving to a knee to press a kiss to your thighs as your eyes roll back in your head.
It takes everything in your not to moan into the phone as you try to focus on what story you are listening to giving the occasional uh huh, yeah as Wonwoo's fingers slide your panties to the side to find you already soaking wet for him. "Why don't you tell your friend about our trip last week?" Hearing your boyfriend's voice your friend gasps excited and he laughs against your leg as you whine into a nervous laugh.
"It wasn't a big deal. Wonwoo! Wonwoo...he just..." Between your legs, Wonwoo's tongue runs over your folds as your try to focus on speaking as his eyes meet yours. His mouth closing around your clit as you try to remember details of the quick beach trip. All of your strength going into trying not to moan out the words as they come out almost in varying volumes making your friend ask you to repeat some parts.
Wonwoo smiles against your pussy before leaning back to look at you. "Oh tell her about the turtles we say from the pier." He can hear your friend gasp and squeal about how cute turtles are and how they want to hear all about it as you shoot daggers at your boyfriend. "Yeah turtles...there were turtles there."
Standing up, Wonwoo slides his pants down with his boxers before pulling your legs so that he can tease your folds with his length as you recount the story about sea turtles and their nests when suddenly you gasp for a breath when he slides into you bottoming out. You barely register your friend asking if you are okay when Wonwoo smirks down at you. "Yeah are you okay baby?"
You press your lips together and stare at Wonwoo before nodding and muttering out a yes. He grins at you and thrusts into you hard sending you towards the head of the bed when you say you have to go that it's getting late and it's almost time for dinner. "Oh honey you can talk longer. We aren't in a rush." You whine into a laugh and tell your friend bye before throwing the phone on to the bed.
"Oh I think we are Wonwoo, I'm suddenly starving."
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lucy90712 · 9 months
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Can u do an angst fic where pedri and (famous) reader meet in an event or smt and they get along great and he cant stop thinking abt her but one day gavi or one of his teammates brings her to a team gathering and introduces her as their gf.
"Bro what is up with you tonight?" Pablo asked taking me out of my little daydream 
"Just thinking" I replied 
"You have been just thinking for weeks what's going on?" He questioned 
"Just this girl I met at a shoot the other week I can't get her out of my mind" I admitted 
"Ooh Pedri's in love tell me more" he said 
"She was just so beautiful and we really got along but she left before I could ask for her number and I found her instagram but I haven't been brave enough to actually dm her" I said 
"If you really can't stop thinking about her then maybe you should just do it you either get what you want or you get closure so you can move on" Pablo advised 
"Since when were you good at giving dating advice" I joked 
"Don't know but I'm going to leave you to think now, Alejandro brought his girlfriend and I want to meet her apparently she's really hot" he said 
That's the Pablo I'm used to. Maybe he's right though maybe I should just go for it I haven't stopped thinking about her so I need to do something and whether it ends up with us going on a date or not at least I tried. They always say there's no time like the present so I grabbed my phone out my pocket and opened Instagram and found her profile. First I looked through her stories and saw her getting ready for something and she looked so gorgeous even before she'd got ready. After looking through her story I knew I had to do it so I clicked the message button and was faced with a blank screen and a keyboard waiting for me to write something. 
Hey it's Pedri we met in a shoot a few weeks ago and I thought you were really beautiful and was wondering if you'd like to go on a date
No. 
Hey I think you're really beautiful would you want to go out for coffee some time 
Definitely not. 
Ok this is harder than I thought. Nothing sounds quite right I either seem weird for just stalking her account or I seem strange for waiting weeks to talk to her. Maybe I just shouldn't do it I had my chance and now it's gone, if things were meant to be then at some point we will see each other again and I am do things the right way but until then I think I blew my chance. It won't be easy to forget about her as I've never fallen for someone this hard before but I will have to find a way or gather the courage to actually dm her as for right now I can't bring myself to do it. For a few minutes I sat feeling sorry for myself before I decided to get up an enjoy myself as we are supposed to be celebrating the end of the season not moping around like I have been the last few weeks. 
I remembered what Pablo said and although I shouldn't be I am definitely curious about Ale's girlfriend. Some of the guys have already met her and they are always teasing Ale about how's she's out of his league so I feel like I have to know for myself. Plus it would be rude if everyone else introduced themselves and I didn't so I have to go and say hi right. It was quite clear where they were as there was pretty much everyone was stood in one place so I headed in that direction. That's when I saw her and I nearly fainted. I recognised her straight away I could never forget that smile but this time it hurt to see her smiling as it was someone else making her smile not me. For a second I thought that she might have just been invited here for some other reason like maybe she was friends with one of the guys.
That hope was soon crushed as I saw Ale with his arm around her waist and then it was completely shattered when I saw him press a kiss to her cheek. Seeing them together really pieced everything together and made some things make more sense. Suddenly I remember someone saying that Ale's girlfriend was a model and when I went to y/n's Instagram he was already following her which at the time I didn't think about but now it makes so much sense. I can't believe I ever thought I would have a chance with her let alone be delusional enough to think that she liked me. I was sure that she was flirting with me during our shoot together but now I think she was probably just being nice and trying to be professional. 
Seeing them together really hurt as for the first time I really liked a girl and was willing to enter a proper relationship but of course someone had to get to her first I mean who wouldn't want someone as gorgeous as her. As much as it pained me I still forced myself to go over and say hi as this won't be the only time I see her around so I'm going to have to get used to her being with someone else so why not start now. I made my way over and stood next to Pablo hoping to maybe slip under the radar a bit but she caught my eye right away and smiled before coming closer to talk to me.
"Hey what are the chances of us meeting again so soon" she laughed 
"I know I didn't think we'd ever meet again" I said 
"Hey amor I see you've met Pedri" Ale said 
"Yeah we actually met a few weeks ago on a shoot so it's nice to see a familiar face among all these strangers" she said 
"Thats so funny but people always say it's a small world" Ale says 
"It really is" I said trying not to give away how upset I really am 
"Come on princesa I want you to meet lewa" Ale said taking y/n out of my sight 
Once they left it really hit me that I'm going to be seeing a lot more of y/n which a few hours ago I would've loved but now I can't stand the idea of. I don't think I can take seeing another guy loving on her even if he's my friend in fact I think that makes it worse. I want nothing more than for that to be me with my arms around her waist, kissing her and introducing her to my friends as my girlfriend but alas it's not meant to be that way. It's a hard pill to swallow but I'm going to have to accept the fact that she's not going to be mine. She's looks so happy with Ale and I'm sure that he treats her the way she deserves and I can't be the one to ruin that for them. 
All of this is a lot to take in so to give myself time to think I took myself away to sit on my own again. My peace lasted less than a minute though as out of the corner of my eye I saw someone sit across from me as I had my head in my hands. It only took a few seconds for me to realise that it was Pablo and as we talked earlier I thought maybe he'd be able to distract me so I looked up.
"Hey man" I said 
"Is Ale's girl the one you were talking about earlier?" He asked 
"What?" I questioned not knowing how he would know that 
"Well I overheard some of your conversation and she said she met you already at a shoot a few weeks ago and you mentioned that's how you met this girl you really liked and now you're here seemingly upset so I put the pieces together and by your reaction I'm guessing I'm right" he explained 
"Yes y/n's the girl" I admitted 
"Oh that's gotta hurt" Pablo remarked 
"Yeah tell me about it" I said 
"I know it hurts now but just think that it wasn't meant to be between the two of you so at some point you will meet a girl who's absolutely perfect for you and years down the line this whole situation will feel so insignificant when the four of you are hanging out together" he said 
"How come you are full of good advice tonight" I quipped 
"I've always been good with advice you just never ask me or never listen" he joked 
"Thanks man" I said 
"It's alright plus if it makes you feel better those two are made for each other they are so weird and like all the same strange things" Pablo said 
"That makes me feel a little better" I said 
He patted my back and then left me alone as I watched everyone still talking and laughing including y/n but this time I didn't feel quite as bad as Pablo's right one day I'll find someone who I get on with as well as Ale and y/n. They deserve to be happy and so do I and the only way that can happen is if I get over y/n and find someone who actually loves me. 
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jinxiguess · 7 months
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GONE characters in a british highschool
this is like the stupidest post ive ever made also disclaimer i know NOTHING about the american school system so i think half of them are probably in the wrong years also i didn't want to put all of them in the same year so ignore how some of their ages dont even match up😭
SAM
year 11
ALWAYS forgets ingredients for food tech
and then burns everything
and then forgets to take it home and just leaves it in the fridge at the end of the day
never remembers to put money in his school account and quinn has to buy him lunch every single day
sleeps through maths
has the most obvious crush on astrid and the entire school knows
ASTRID
year 11
made it her life goal to get head girl when she was in year 7
and got it ofc🤭
try hard in every single class
and top set in everything
always has so much stationery
goes to homework club EVERY SINGLE DAY
besties w the librarian
somehow oblivious to the fact sam likes her
QUINN
year 11
always late to every lesson no matter WHAT
somehow keeps ending up front row in school fights and gets interrogated abt them
"can i go to the toilet?" and takes like 20 laps round the school before he comes back
takes 0.5 pictures of everyone
sells overpriced sweets at lunch and makes bank
threatens to fight people after school but never does
joined the football team but nobody ever passes to him bcs he cant play to save his life
EDILIO
year 10
accidentally downloaded a virus on one of the computers and nearly got expelled
gets squashed in the lunch queue
buttons up his blazer to look smart
makes sam join clubs with him so he isnt alone (he's scared of the year 8s)
tried to feed the seagulls outside the school
hangs out in the library w roger and denies that they're dating but literally everyone knows
so bad at pe that he doesnt even bother bringing his kit anymore n just gets sent to iso
LANA
year 11
literally never in class
vapes in the toilets w diana
ALWAYS in iso
dated quinn for like a week in year 8
somehow pulls absolutely everyone
so popular but everyone is also scared of her because one time she scrapped w drake and bashed his head in
brings alcohol to EVERY party
CAINE
year 11
head boy even though he does NOT deserve it
leads the year 7s to the wrong side of the school
pe try hard (screams "WHAT ARE YOU DOING GET THE BALL" at his teammates)
year 7s all have a crush on him
acts like he caught a disease after he touches a year 8
has like 60% attendance but the teachers still love him
never goes to form
always shoving in the canteen queue🙄
gets way too competitive over kahoot
literally never been sent to iso except that one time he shoved drake off his chair in the middle of class
DIANA
year 11
rolls her skirt up and always gets in trouble for it (and refuses to roll it back down)
vapes in the toilets w lana
sprays entire bottles of perfume every time shes near the year 7s
and then makes friends w them specifically to slag them off later
stalks the teacher's socials
uses xx or 💋 after EVERY SINGLE TEXT
has a pandora bracelet and wears different charms on it everyday
somehow untouched by school air
DRAKE
year 11
"WHAT DID I EVEN DO???" every time he gets sent out of class (he was literally jumping on the tables)
starts like half the fights in the entire school
scraps outside tesco like every single day
LOBS paninis at the year 7s
steals tesco trolleys
should probably just go live in iso atp
got kicked off the football team bcs he wouldnt stop slide tackling
literally on the verge of being expelled
DEKKA
year 10
1000% done w everyone elses shit
sits in empty classrooms at lunch n pals w the teachers
way too stressed abt gcses
actually really really good at music
so quiet but somehow everyone knows who she is
used to take the bus to school but decided she didnt want to have to deal w all the year 7s and stopped
got hit in the face w a netball in pe
BRIANNA
year 9
absolutely sprints to the lunch line
gets so mad whenever someone doesnt pass the ball to her in pe
and always fighting w caine in pe
shoplifts from tesco
forgets her pe bag at least once a day n leaves it everywhere
always getting sent out for talking back
LOST the form pet hamster
nearly blew up a science classroom
TAYLOR
year 8
always talking shit about everyone
makes those tips for year 7 videos
defo has pe first on a friday😭
snitches on EVERYONE
makes tiktoks in the bathrooms
spends half the lessons making her titles cursive and pretty
makes fun of the year 7s as if she wasnt one like two months ago
JACK
year 7
GIANT backpack
and probably gets trampled in the corridors
probably wears undertale or harry potter keychains (and gets bullied abt it)
always gets hit by paninis travelling at 1000kmph
got given a top locker and cant reach it
cries when he gets in trouble
PENNY
year 8
rolls her skirt up unevenly
side eyes EVERYONE
vaped in the toilets and taylor snitched on her
REFUSES to wear her blazer
falls over in pe and everyone sighs when she gets put on their team
got put in iso for insulting all the teachers
ORC
year 10
stabs his radnor fizz w a compass and sprays it at all the year 7s
also starts like a million fights
NEVER has a pen
grabs peoples bag straps and yanks them backwards
always steals the year 7's footballs and boots them into orbit
wears black airforces instead of school shoes
and is never ever ever wearing his tie
HOWARD
year 9
keeps getting mistaken for a year 7
hangs out with older kids to look cool
and then brags about it
sells vapes behind the school at break
tries to break up orc's fights and gets flung halfway across the pitches
MASSIVE blazer (looks like a roblox character)
SANJIT
year 10
probably a theatre kid
runs to every class so he isnt late
always skips pe
that one kid who highlights EVERYTHING
somehow manages to record EVERY SINGLE FIGHT (and then sends it to everyone)
holds therapy sessions in the toilets
that one asthmatic kid who screams whenever anyone sprays anything
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jennilah · 25 days
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I think i started to follow you bc of tiny!cas, like eons ago, let me tell you seeing you get into different fandoms over the years has been a delight.
I remember seeing post of you going like 'hey these slasher film kinda go hard' and look at you know.
I mean this in the best way possible, I feel i've been watching a house plant grow, every now and then catching my attention and being amazed by the changes
omg thats such a sweet way of describing my... well happy autism awareness day everyone, its a nice way of describing the way i naturally transition through my Special Interests lmfao
actually, for the holiday, let me infodump about this very aspect of my brain to anyone who isnt aware how this works for me. (also every autistic person is different, so this is just how this symptom manifests in me)
ill say "phases" to simplify, though thats an unfair word because it implies im "over" my past phases. 99% of my past phases are pretty much there for life, but in the back of my mind. (So long as I didnt have a "bad breakup" with it for some reason, which is rare but happens) The ability to become a raving lunatic about it is dormant until someone asks the right question.
There can only be one interest (sometimes 2, with one being the less dominant one) at the forefront of my brain at a time, though. that defines the "phase".
so for example, my recent Halloween phase is "over" and I am 100% fully into Saw now, but I still absolutely love Halloween and Michael and Jason and all those guys. as evident by me still happily sharing gifsets and art and buying merch etc if it tickles my fancy. They're just hanging out in the background of my mental display case.
yea whoever follows my tumblr for a very long time has watched it happen in realtime. the transition between interests. i know for a fact which phase I started this blog on. if you're here from the beginning, youve seen, in order:
-Durarara!! -Deus Ex -Supernatural -Godzilla -Detroit: Become Human -There was like a few weeks where it was HLVRAI -And then it was plants. There was a year-long stretch with no Special Interest and I was latching onto odd things (and I was very inactive here) -Halloween & Friday the 13th -and now, Saw
I have many other things I love, but they don't clamp around my brain in quite the same extreme way.
my phases can last any amount of time, anywhere from a few short intense months to 5+ years, its completely random, completely unpredictable. even the interest itself is impossible to predict. its not something i choose, its something that happens to me.
sometimes i avoid watching things for a long time because im still very emotionally attached to my current phase and im genuinely afraid the shiny new thing will replace it. all art or fic ideas for the previous phase? theyll be abandoned. all I will want to create will be related to the new thing. (though I will sometimes draw it anyway, like digging up old toys to play with once in a while. The likelihood just drops considerably)
which is why right now i pretty much put a pause on the other franchises I plan on watching. I'm genuinely gripping onto Saw like someone is tryin to take it from me.
and then sometimes im like "haha yeah right. ill be fine. ill eat my shoe if my brain latches to this" and then put on the movie and by the credits roll im a new person (yes thats what happened with Saw. I really had no idea.)
this is also why im terrified of even just "checking out" things that have, like, a toxic fanbase or something, because i cant stop a new phase from happening if it does. and its really hard to keep it to myself, fuck
(do u know how mad i was when i realized i was attaching to hoffman the evil dirty cop??? i was so scared of drawing him, dudes. but thankfully everyones been cool abt it and we're all very aware of his awfulness & we have fun w it)
and every time my brain changes and i do get obsessed with some new thing, i get really scared and worried and hope I dont bother everyone who followed me for something else :(((( and yet, every time, im absolutely floored by how many people choose to tolerate my newest nonsense and stick around anyway
anyway ive lost the plot of what point i was making here OH YEAH thank you!
tl;dr: that would be the autism! thank you, it WILL happen again! that is a threat! 🥰
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ok and now i need to talk this out on here cause like in all reality idc that much but this is just a little. awk. i might do this under the cut just so i can talk in a bunch of little paragraphs if thats chill ok ty
sooooo right ive mentioned that sam has been talking abt having beef specifically w his roommates but also that friend group at large bc they went on spring break trips w/o him. The roommate took a duo trip with fellow dyke and everyone else did like a big thing together erm
right thats just the context idrc except for the amount of times sams vaguely alluded to it and idk any other details. um but he has called his roommates like the 'poison pills' of the whole ordeal since they literally live together (but they havent been that close. prob since their freshman year when sam was out for a semester. which isnt inherently er bad but hes acting like hes been victimized for the last few years)
and like last night after this long sesh of working on our assignment sam and i r walking to the bus stop and he says something about finding out just like shitty awful drama and how it sucks having to live with 'two of those people' lmao sorry im not laughing im just like. whatever
this said i have plans to see. should i name sams roommate. ok i cant do that rn but we have plans to hang on monday and i would be seeing sam like immediately after for class. and esp if we're hanging out on campus like we might have a repeat of last time where sam spots us out and im not sure if he'd approach and hang this time. but hes obviously aware that me and them like chat
so it's like not so subtle that hes trying to get me to either ask abt the roommate or flat out not trust/see them anymore and i just havent engaged which might come across as "fake" but like. well ill be honest man theyre all a year younger than me and that doesnt mean much but it does feel very immature to handle things this way idk the whole story but im not gonna get roped into the like Omg i cant talk to this person bc of beef idk about...
and maybe i should feel worse abt not being #loyal to someone who is or at least at one point was considered a friend esp when it comes to someone that yeah ig he does know better than i but i dont... sorry ive been talking abt this bitch like cady and regina george except im not psychosexually obsessed im just like. hes been more insufferable than i remember lately yk.
i feel the Tiniest bit bad and like oh have i taken advantage of u bc yk we've hung and smoked and had dinner together often at ur place and def wormed my way into talking to the roommate via u etc but then i remember the way sam talks abt like anything and i dont feel all that bad
and theres this whole thing abt the eclipse i dont have plans to go see it it might happen last second but now after sams asked me abt it and messaged me like yeah idk we (him and his bestie) could maybe take a bus but we'd need a place to stay (asking to stay w my family bc i mentioned it like once on my close friends) and then theyre like going to a diff city anyway like oh my gooooood it's gonna be seen as shady and i dont really CARE i just need assurance that this is stupid as hell and its ok if im a little bit of an asshole about it. i dont think being mad abt the eclipse would hold up but w/e
has not been at the top of my worries and still isnt but now that this is all coming up in the next week im like frank g*llagher voice (sorry) oh Jesus Christ. you know
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I’VE NEVER WANTED TO PUNCH SOMEONE IN THE SKULL MORE-
but I wanna punch u in like a loving way ya know 🥹🥺🙈🙊🙉😭
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ok i didnt have time to talk abt last chapter, but honestly all u have to know is that i loved every single word, every punctuation mark, every period, every space-
omg this chapter was wild i cant-
yoongi and y/n, I’ve never met a couple whose good and bad at communication at the same time i cant- no cause like him writing a song for her bc of her, when he played it i imaged Butterfly for some reason, the melody is so beautiful on the piano 🥺🥹 omg not him with his shirt off at the b-ball court. He rlly flexing huh, yeah sure ur too HOT 🥵 omg she got a vision, LIKE HER MOM! Will this be a reoccurring theme with her? Oooo. OMG THAT FIRST KISS WAS SO SWEET WHEN IT SORT OF CAME FULL CIRCLE WITH YOONGI ASKING HER TO KISS HIM! AND THEN HIM ASKING FOR MORE OMG ITS SO HOT WTF I KNOW I SHOULDNT BE THIS HORNY YET BUT UR WRITING IS JUST 🤌🏼 💋 THEY ARE IN LOOOOVE FR LIKE WE KNEW THEY BOTH HEAD OVER HEELS, SO HEAD OVER HEELS THEY COULDNT GET SLEEP FOR WEEKS/DAYS~ OH MAN SECRET RELATIONSHIP YEAH WELL-
omg wtf yeah secret relationship went down the drain lol. Either hobi’s hearing is super good and he’s near the room or everyone heard y/n fucking whining into yoongis mouth dam. Or he saw that quick kiss in her room omg ur cliffhangers dana drive me INSANE! Hobi is such a tease too! Now him teasing her for her heart palpitations poor girl cant handle all the handsome men around her like same girlie pop-I do wonder how this will effect the hybrids dynamics with each other and her 🤔
omg jinnies b day he deserves the world. Not him feeding her, he KNEW what he was doing and in FRONT of everyone too 😏 him warming up her hands with his breath i cant- and then going to take cooking class in February. HIM SAYING HE DOESNT WANT TO GO WITH ANYONE ELSE BUT HERRRR 😭 him saying lets go home bc home is smth he never truly haddd and he feels safe mow eeek😭😭😭😭
Omg not tae driving the way home- KNOWING THE WAY HOOOME. No cause like you can tell they probably all know the way home by heart bc they cherish her and the house sm its means so much to them i cant i actually had to stop reading after that line bc i got so emotional. Omg tae is taking his photography seriously 🥰 im so glad hes really delving into his passion! Omg their ID’s lol they must be so cute and funny 😆
ofc jimin is a responsible cutie we love, cant wait to see more scenes with him later~ but him saying y/n looks good in any photo ✋ stop sir u are such a charmer i cant- eeeeeek
omg joonie so cute. He cares for her sm and he’s the type of person to not beat around the bush. He cares and wants her to be straightforward when shes upset 😭 eeeek
omg the scene with jk- i LOVE BANTER SM and their scenes always crack me up. Jk’s dialogue is so fun! No not her giving the puppy dog eyes 🥺 and it not working… or maybe it did 😏 omg and her being bold with that KISS ON THE CHEEK- i was imagining jk when he gets surprised or zones out 😲 its so funny 😂 omg y/n has W Rizz for sure~
omg ben already predicted this my mans was just waiting for her to catch up- its so good to see him again I love y/n’s friends. Him lifting her up but also humoring her is SO what i would do if my friend was in a similar situation! Like Y/N GIRLIE POP I ARE THE IT GIRL U GOT NOTHIN TO WORRY ABT!
THANK YOU SM FOR THIS UPDATE I LOVE U SM DANA!!!!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!! Remember, make sure to take care of urself first and foremost! 😤 Love you byeeee~
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FDJSKAFHDSAF I GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO PUNCH MY SKULL LMAO!! I'm so so happy that you loved the last two chapters, there was SO much that went down, I can't wait to chat about them hehehe 💜
SO fhdjsaf you're right on the money with Yoongi and MC not knowing how to communicate with each other for SHIT. Like I think they rely on telepathy or vibes too much, neither of them are mind readers... so much of their conflict these past two chapters could have been resolved if they just sat down and talked calmly about things for an hour or so!!! 💀BUT stop it right now Butterfly is one of my favorite BTS songs, so so gorgeous on the piano, and I could imagine a very similar melody that Yoongi would write for MC being something like that too. 🦋
HNNNNGGGFF Yoongi all sweaty on the court without his shirt.... damp long hair....teasing MC the whole way UGH I just know that I'd be drooling! 🥵And with that vision WHEW I'm so happy I could incorporate that into MC's character finally, I will say that this is something that will begin to happen more frequently for MC-- ever since she has been diving more into her spirituality and practices, her psychic abilities have been getting stronger.
The kiss. THE KISS!!! I'VE BEEN DYING TO WRITE SOME ROMANCE FOREVER NOW MY GOODNESS IT TOOK 13 CHAPTERS!! I just feel like Yoongi is such a 0 to 100 kind of guy when it comes to kisses, sweet and tender to begin with, then BAM super passionate and intense. I really really loved writing that scene, I'd say that Yoongi was truly desperate and yearning for MC for so long that he couldn't help but beg for more hnnnnngggg. But now they have to tip toe around for a little bit until they figure out how to tell the others, which turns into MORE yearning and AH I wanna chew on my drywall!!!! 👹
djkafdakfdask I'm excited to continue off where we left off! You know I always gotta leave you all on a cliffhanger. I wonder how MC is going to dodge Hoseok's questioning, and we don't know if he heard those two making out (he shouldn't have been able to, the music room is soundproofed...) or was perceptive to how weird MC and Yoongi were being with each other. I also feel like if Hoseok heard them, some of the others would as well, and I can think of a few (Namjoon, Tae, Seokjin for ex.) that would probably bust down that door!!! But also your theory of Hoseok possibly catching their kiss in the hallway is something that could have happened eeeee. Also I love teasing Hoseok as well he raises my blood pressure... poor MC can't even hide her heartrate from them!
UGH Jinnie's birthday he's such a sweet darling, I love that he was able to go out somewhere yummy to eat and spend time with everyone. I also really love when he feeds MC... it's so hot to me idk why like yes PLS grab my face and stare at me and treat me like a princess Jin!!! Always making sure she's warm, wanting to go to the cooking class with just her, and feeling truly at home with her and in their house I CAN'T He's just such a love. 😍
Tae baby... just like Jin, he knows where home is now and AH they're just all getting so close. You're so right, they really cherish her so so much. Tae and his photography too is so fun to write about, it's nice that he gets to express himself creatively and the other hybrids let him take their ID pictures was a sweet hidden moment that I'm happy you noticed!
Definitely more Jimin on the way!! It's been the Yoongi show for a bit, but that's just how I've planned these few chapters. Don't worry, each of them will get their turns to be the stars, which I'm super excited about in the future! Charmer Libra Jimin is my Roman Empire, totally more of a flirt and a romantic as time goes on. Joon UGH!! My little wolf, he's warmed up so much to MC, and he's very straightforward and stern like you said-- ever since the Incident, he seems to be very concerned about weather or not MC is feeling upset.
HA I love writing MC and Jeongguk's interactions, they're both such little shits and you can tell when they get on each other's nerves, but it's less antagonistic these days and more playful. He totally called her out for pouting, and while it might work for some of the others, it doesn't on him LOL. But she got him back with that kiss, huh? I bet she's been dying to do that for months...
I'm PSYCHED you mentioned Ben. He's my favorite side character to write, and it's nice that MC is able to confide in him about any of her worries. You're right, he totally caught onto her having crushes on all of them (it's probably dead obvious to him) But ahh it makes me so happy that you love him as well!! I agree, I'd probably act the same way towards MC if I were Ben-- teasing her but trying to encourage as well. 🫣
FDJAKSFH THANK YOU FOR READING AND SENDING ME SO MANY LOVELY COMMENTS!!! As always I look forward to what you have to say about updates, and I love you sm as well! Hope you had lovely holidays and a fun new year my sweets! 😘💜
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Hey! So lately I've been thinking about Kyle x (fem) reader who is like really abusive but it's because her drinking problem and all her unhealthy relationships she's been in which Kyle finds out moments before he was about to break up with her because of her abusive behaviour and instead of breaking up he decided to try to help her somehow.
(Aged up ofc) A little fucked up idea but if you feel comfortable with writing something like that I would be grateful!
Addiction Kyle broflovski X Addicted! Reader
TW!! ALCOHOL ADDICTION
Kyle goes to confront (y/n), and finds out a terrible secret and the reason why she was so abusive.
1,100 words | afab reader | aged up characters | if you didn’t like it tell me what you didn’t like and I’ll change it for you! :)
IDK ABT THIS ONE GUYSSS I FEEL LIKE ITS RUSHED 😢
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This was it
Kyle was finally going to break up with (y/n). The bruises were too much, the insults were too much, and the excuses he would make when his roommates asked about how they were doing was too much.
He walked down the buildings hall, looking for her apt room, her roommate had moved out long ago, leaving her alone. Sadly, for him all that did was worsen the situation. He loved her, don’t get him wrong, but with every hit, insult, and bruise he found his love lowering and lowering until finally he couldn’t take it anymore.
His fast-paced walking stopped when he finally got to her door. He anxiously bit his lip, let’s hope she doesn’t make this too hard. He knocked, surprisingly loudly, the knock echoed through the hallways, but there was no answer.
“Fuck” he muttered, reaching for his pocket where he had a spare that was for situations like these. He entered the key and twisted it in before opening the door. A faint fan could be heard over the door squeak and he looked around, she’s not in the living room.
“(Y/n)?!” He yelled out. He scanned the whole dorm, there was no sight of her. What he could see though was an open notebook on her bed. Now, Kyle wasn’t the one to snoop, but this one time curiosity took the best of him. He grabbed the notebook, running his fingers along the spine as he turned to read the contents.
It just keeps getting worse, I’ve tried and tried so many times. Kyle doesn’t deserve me, he doesn’t deserve this, but i need him. There’s times i don’t remember what i did, but i could feel it.
He tilted his head and flipped the page to the next one, nothing. He then turned it to the first ever page in the notebook.
December 20th, 2021
I recently tried alcohol, and it was euphoric. It felt like for once in my life, all my worries went away. I’m thinking about making this an all time thing
March 2nd, 2022
I don’t think I’ve been a week without alcohol since i first started. The hangovers suck, but it’s all worth it.
October 31, 2022
I met this guy named Kyle, he’s amazing and I’m hoping we can maybe become a thing? I’m so excited! Currently drinking in my dorm, with my buddy Bebe.
Dec 20, 2022
I’m starting to regret this alcohol thing, it’s been a year. I cant seem to go a day without it. Me and Kyle got together, he was sweet, but I’m worried about what will happen if i keep this up, so I’m going to stop.
January 1, 2023
I cant stop. It’s keeping me awake, i can’t sleep, i can’t live without it. I cant.
January 10, 2023
I hit Kyle. I hit him and i yelled at him. It’s a hazy memory, but i remember it. I cant tell him about my problem. I don’t know.. what am i going to do.
Suddenly the door slammed open. The rattling of hung photos could be heard all the way from the room. Kyle quickly shut the notebook and went to the closet, leaving a little peak in the door to see.
(Y/n) was seen stumbling, a red cup in her hand. She was giggling to herself, but then the giggling turned into crying out of nowhere. “FUCK!”
She punched the wall, upset about something. But Kyle wouldn’t let her hurt herself, not now that he knows. Kyle quickly stepped out of the closet, making his presence known.
"(Y/n)!" Kyle called out firmly, his voice cutting through the air. "Stop!"
Startled, (Y/n) turned towards Kyle, her eyes widening in surprise and anger. She held the red cup tightly in her hand, her knuckles turning white.
"What are you doing here?" she snapped, her voice filled with frustration.
"I came to talk to you, but I found your notebook instead," Kyle replied, holding it up slightly. "I didn't mean to invade your privacy, but what I read... it worries me, (Y/n)."
A mix of emotions crossed (Y/n)'s face—confusion, betrayal, and anger. She took a step forward, her hand trembling.
"You had no right to read that!" she shouted, her voice cracking with emotion. "Get out of here!"
Kyle stood his ground, concern etched on his face. "I'm sorry, (Y/n), but I had to know what was going on. I care about you, and I can't stand by while you're hurting yourself and our relationship."
With a sudden surge of anger, (Y/n) raised her hand, preparing to strike Kyle. But before she could make contact, he swiftly caught her hand mid-air, his grip firm yet gentle.
"No!" Kyle said firmly, his voice laced with determination. "I won't let you hurt yourself or anyone else. We need to talk about this, (Y/n)."
(Y/n) struggled against his grip, her anger momentarily replaced by shock. Tears welled up in her eyes, and she slumped, her defiance fading away as a wave of sorrow washed over her.
"Why... why are you still here?" she sobbed, her voice filled with anguish. "After everything, why won't you just leave?! You don’t deserve this.”
Kyle's expression softened, and he released his grip on (Y/n)'s hand. He stepped closer, wrapping his arms around her as she continued to sob. The anger had dissipated, replaced by a deep sorrow that tore at his heart.
"Because I love you, (Y/n)," he whispered, his voice full of compassion. "I won't abandon you, even when it's difficult. We need to face this together, no matter how hard it may be."
As Kyle held her, (Y/n) collapsed into his embrace, her sobs becoming more subdued. She clung to him, seeking solace and finding a glimmer of hope amidst the pain.
Kyle held (Y/n) tightly, providing a comforting presence in that moment of vulnerability. He gently stroked her hair, offering silent support as they stood in the middle of the room. The weight of their struggles, the bruises and insults, the addiction that had taken hold—it all hung heavy in the air.
"I'm so sorry, Kyle," (Y/n) finally managed to say between her sobs. "I never wanted it to be like this. I never wanted to hurt you."
Kyle continued to hold her, his voice filled with empathy. "I know you didn't, (Y/n). Addiction is a powerful force, and it changes people. But we can't let it define our relationship. We have to fight it together."
(Y/n) looked up at Kyle, her tear-streaked face showing a mix of gratitude and despair. "I've tried so many times to stop, but I can't do it alone. I need help."
"And you'll have it," Kyle assured her, determination evident in his voice. "We'll find the support you need, whether it's therapy, rehab, or whatever it takes. We'll face this battle together, (Y/n), and come out stronger on the other side."
In that moment, amidst the pain and uncertainty, they found solace in each other's embrace.
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schoenht · 8 months
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Pspspspsps
Would you tell us about the big fight in your grad ceremony? 👀 dead curious ngl
cracks knuckles I'll tell you everything that happened there bc that was not the only bullshit that happened
It was like. The first ten minutes or so, right and we had all just gotten in our separate lines when the entire ceremony stops bc THERE'S A FIGHT ON STAGE RIGHT hang on thats. House left. Yeah i think so. IN THE DAMN FRONT ROWS. it was a pair of freshmen too which made me go "ugh freshmen" even more (i was like that even as a freshman) and i think its bc one of the girls saw the other girl with THE GUY S H E LIKED SO SHE DECIDED TO DRAG THE OTHER GIRL. Mind you, the graduation is at an arena where concerts are done so the graduates can see everything and i was in the back so i saw EVERYTHING.
And then the valedictorian. Oooooof. Self hating latino if I've ever seen one. The way he ranted and raved abt how "the school system is failing us" and "we cant do basic arithmetic" and "minorities shouldn't get more privilege" like. THIS DUDE WAS THE BIGGEST TEACHER'S PET. i had him for my honors econ class and he was like "i dont need to be here, im better than everyone in class" and i distinctly remember i said "then why haven't you fucking graduated before us yet dumbass" (the teacher scolded me a bit) i was just mad (it doesn't help that he's my friend's ex too. and he's dating the girl who is my enemy)
BASIC ARITHMETIC. THAT GOT ME CACKLING BC THIS GUY THOUGHT WE NEEDED IT SO BAD i can add but i dont need more than that in my damn job. "minorities shouldn't get privilege !!" yeah he almost got beat up at school the next day AND HE HAD THE AUDACITY TO APOLOGIZE TO THE ADMINISTRATORS (i heard him) (oh and the principal actually didnt allow him to continue with the speech during rehearsal, but i wasnt there bc i was doing tech >:3)
Uhhh what else. Oh yeah some guy proposed to his gf behind me (not like. Standing and with a ring it was quiet and they were in the row behind me) and she said no WKFKWKKG I DONT BLAME HER WE'RE AT A FUCKING GRADUATION HELLO ???
my old high school, wooooooof. I have so many stories. Like that one week that there were at least five fights a day!!! (Not even exaggerating.)
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i saw you talking about three buckets on twitter and I’m shy so i’m asking here…do you have any headcanons or whatever for what happened with finn after three buckets
omg hi, im curious about what post you saw me talking about it on bc ive had multiple conversations about three buckets on twt… thats for me to wonder. but ty for asking me this id love to talk about it.. i rant a lot on this ask sorry in advance. hope you like reading.
i cant decide what finn would do after fern goes kaboom and we cut back to the treehouse. because i dont even know what i would do, i cant imagine it myself. i think the most likely scenario is he lies there for a while, for hours after maybe. his mind is really clouded and he can’t really process what he just did, but eventually he gets up, slowly walks his way home. its only when he arrives home when the reality of what just happened fully hits him and he breaks down.
i think at least for the first week or so after, finn wouldn’t be able to get out the details of what happened. he cant bring himself to. but jake is pretty quickly able to pick up on context clues and fill in the blanks… he sees finn with grass and grass stains all over him and hes beat up and without fern and has a similar look on his face to when he lost his arm and he just immediately knows. he tries his best to be gentle with finn about it and help him.
it would really haunt finn, obviously. he did say its been a rough month in the wild hunt. he wouldnt be able to sleep for a while, all he can do is stare up at the ceiling for ages and replay the fight over snd over in his head (though he doesn’t want to, he cant not think about it), maybe wonder if he couldve done something different to prevent what happened,,,
some of the details are kinda fuzzy cause he did repress some of it, but the one thing he distinctly remembers is the sound of the weed whacker, it will Not leave his head its pretty ingrained in there… and it takes a while for the memory of it to not be constantly at the back of his head. maybe he never fully moves past it.
im gonna stop now i have too many thoughts. thank you for asking me abt this im actually so insane about three buckets
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