i had what might’ve been a neurological event over a month ago (that i wrote off as psychosomatic until my therapist told me to talk to my doctor) and my pcp referred me for an mri to find out for sure. all well and good (albeit nerve-wracking), especially since i’m lucky enough to have the money for it right now. i’m scheduled to get it in about a week.
i had an regularly scheduled appointment with my psychiatrist a few days later and told her what had happened and also that i have a lot of anxiety about it but otherwise feel fine. she freaked out and told me to reduce my antidepressants immediately because she thinks it might be serotonin syndrome. even though 1) i looked up the symptoms of serotonin syndrome and literally none of the symptoms match, 2) it makes absolutely no fucking sense because i’ve been taking the same meds for over a year and never had this happen until now (and the other two similar events in the past happened BEFORE i started taking new meds) and 3) she didn’t even bother saying i could have adverse effects or ask how i’d like to proceed. i mentioned that i know i’ll have withdrawal and if it’s necessary she just ignored me and told me to do it
that was thursday and the ssri withdrawal is starting to hit real bad and i’m bitter because i don’t think she gives a fuck that she’s causing me suffering and she just wanted to feel like she was doing something and now i’m dizzy and nauseous and feel Wrong™️ and it could’ve been completely fucking avoided, i felt perfectly fine other than anxiety (which lowering meds will not help). this is not the first time she has made a med change without giving a shit about my input. (yes, i could disobey her, but that creates other problems.)
basically i wish psychiatrists who actually give a shit weren’t almost impossible to find so i don’t have to settle for one who doesn’t treat me like an addict when prescribing adhd meds
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See, the thing about the Amy episode that makes Dean’s actions so reprehensible is not only the part where he doesn’t trust Sam and goes behind his back to kill Amy or even the hypocrisy of Dean ‘you can’t change what you are so you’re going to kill someone eventually’ Winchester sparing the kid right after stabbing his mom, it’s that Amy is very explicitly supposed to be a Sam parallel. There is no other way about it, from the they’re both freaks part of it to Dean dropping the line about ‘the other shoe’ right before he kills her, she is Sam, how Dean reacts to her is supposed to give us insight into how he feels about Sam. And Dean. kills her.
The not very subtle subtext being that Dean is ready to off Sam if he goes too far off the deep end? He’s aggressive and mistrustful of Sam at every turn in the episode, lays the feet of it all at Sam’s hallucinations maybe leading him astray, but end of the day, Sam’s crimes here are A) was tortured in Hell and B) is traumatized by that in a way that makes Dean’s life more difficult.
And it is hard to watch. To spend this whole episode with Sam being completely functional on his own, making a rational decision based on past experience and on all the information about Amy he has available, and for the episode to end with, ‘but yeah, if dean thinks sam goes too far, he’s probably gonna kill him. because sam can’t change or be fixed, so it’s for the good of everyone that he be put down.’
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mel whyy would you make me think about this!! your eyes literally shine when they look at him sat on his throne and you can’t help but lean forward like you’re in a trance whenever he talks!! and you follow him around everywhere with your books clutched to your chest and cheeks hurting bc every single thing he says makes you laugh. and who can blame eddie for taking advantage of the fact that you’re hopelessly devoted to him after the way everyone in his life treated him?? it’s not like he’s being mean to you! he takes care of you!!
eeekkkkkkk tina!!! everyone in the hellfire club admires him and looks up to him like you saw it on their faces during his first scene right?? so it means so much that he makes it so obvious that you’re his favourite member <33 he goes “hello, m’lady” all jokingly and affectionately in a bad english accent when you walk up to him in the morning because it makes you blush and giggle all cute n he openly sides with you on literally anything when you and the boys are debating something dnd related at lunch
oh but when you say something to back him in front of anybody on literally any topic, which you do pretty much all the time because duh, he throws his arm around your shoulders n squeezes you into him n goes “finally, someone who knows what they’re talking about” to everyone but then grins down at you n goes “smart girl” aksjdkdj
omg and one time, you wear a skirt to school for the first time and he spends the day kinda just staring at you until you get all insecure n ask him if you’ve done something wrong :(( but then he tells you, knowing fully well what he’s doing, “oh no. no, sorry. you just, uh, you look kinda cute. you should wear those more often.” and you do hehe <33 it ends up giving him easy access for when he finally pulls his manipulative little move
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pffffft what? no debbie gallagher scene could make me cry. she’s an annoying drop out teen mom who’s character was ruined. nobody likes her, why would i cry ove-
“hey! celia! tonya! open the goddamn door! give me back my baby! give me back my daughter! hey, franny! franny- franny, baby! oh- i’m here! mommy’s here, baby, i’m right here! i will kill you if you don’t give me back my daughter! i’ll fucking kill you! you hear me? i’ll burn your house down! you hear me? she needs me!”
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In terms of how they write lyrics and music, the heavy utilization of references, and the vibes™️ I propose that Will Wood and Dave Malloy are the same sort of weird music dude just like a generation and genre apart, and if they for one ever collaborated it would unlock a whole new genre of music beyond our comprehension, which is also now the thing I want most in this life.
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one of the most frustrating things in the world is when you are playing a game and the dialogue options for the protag aren’t ooc for them, but they’re just not what you want to say to the character you’re talking to at the time at all. LIKE BOY MOVE OVER LET ME TALK TO THEM
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