#another broken girl

[galaxia-de-escritos]

-Another broken girl.

#galaxiadeescritos #escritos #citas #frases #pensamientos #sentimientos #notas #another broken girl #Carlos Cortés

[spotsupstuff]

If five pebbles was ever built for zephyr the same way he was built for moon, would he ever see her as a mentor?

i imagine that he'd!!! be more open with her than he is with Moon, because their personalities match better. Zephyr isn't really the doting, overprotective kind. She didn't have the chance to learn how to be affectionate and warm even though she wishes she could be and she needs to watch her own systems like a hawk 24/7 so she ain't got the attention to spare to nag at him even if she wanted to. they'd end up bonding over their anger at the injustice of the Iterators' fate, though

Pebs would probably take someone else as Mentor™ (she wouldn't be capable of fullfilling the expectations of that role), but he'd probably still look up to her a lot. she'd be like. a not-the-title mentor in the specific field of being angry at their situation and doing Something about it

#Spot says stuff #rain world #rw #oc tag #oc: abet zephyr #this scenario is such a headscratcher cuz like- zephyr is kept a secret from the public out of shame of the higher ups of her condition #not as a Person mind you but as a waste of resources. girl cant even Iterate because shes so broken. she cant do the One thing shes made- #-to do. oh what a shame. what a stain on our maps. the ancients never put Any effort into fixing her so making an entire Iterator right- #-next to her whos secondary goal is to Help her? unimaginable in canon. shed hate it because she thinks of herself as a lost cause #and now this poor kid has to deal with being Made for this lost cause. no matter what he does he will never be able to help her enough #it will be forever an itch and a heartbreak that cannot be mended #born directly into constant trauma just like her. instead of fixing Her they brought another life into this. she hates it so so much. #but pebbles himself shed fucking Love. hes her little perfectly self-sufficient boy and shed fucking throw hands with Suns for him #srry for the rambling these two combo'd together live rent free in me brain

[blueskittlesart]

post about how many vocaloid voicebanks i have is circulating so i guess i have to start actually using them again. this one uses gumi kaito and technically miku but just as a clone of the gumi track for more dimension bc gumi sounds flat as fuck on her own lmao

#gumi remains both the only usable english voicebank i own and also incredibly difficult to tune. girl can you FIND THE NOTE PLEASEEE #shes honestly soooo hard to work with. why are we noticably sharp when the pb is like 2 degrees off the note. please #all that to say if shes off key it's not my fault. its because she doesnt WANT to be on key apparently #this was also another fucking battle with audacity because i can't mix to save my life. i still dont think it sounds good but WHATEVERRRR #theres only so much that reverb can do. im going to blame gumi #and my ai gumi is BROKEN BTW bc i originally wasnt even going to tune this and just let the AI do it but she WONT WORK ANYMOREEEEE #i hate vocaloid (<guy who is obsessed with vocaloid) #anyways. #vocaloid

[moregraceful]

accidentally invented a new form of no bedtime called 11pm glass of emergency-c + 4pm latte + 8pm cup of black tea + 9pm cup of black tea

#the real question is can i go to church on less than 5 hours of sleep and still function lol #i unlocked my instagram bc church wouldn't stop tagging me to direct people to me for stuff but that meant i had to delete a bunch of pho #tos AND rewrite a bunch of captions for photos i didn't WANT to delete bc i was too mean to random sharks prospects #which is fine if it is u know the anonymity of tumblr but not public instagram where my church won't stop FULL NAMING AND TAGGING ME #''anonymity of tumblr'' i doxx myself on here like 80 times a day in front of more people than i went to college with #anyway my point is i was going through deleting all evidence of politics pens fandom and legal documents and i was like damn #my attitude towards my team SUCKS. i gotta be way less of a hater!!! #what did my prospects ever do wrong besides everything NOTHING. the system is BROKEN. i am sorry i will be so much nicer guys :( #also if u really want to be humbled. scrolling back to 2012 on your instagram and re-experiencing senior year of college. BAD #i've deleted i think everything that would reasonably get our nonprofit status pulled but what a horrific journey it was #two full hockey intermission periods of deleting shit plus another hour at home doing several more passes and then rewriting captions #so that some poor 21 year old prospect randomly searching their name doesn't see me full ass call their teammate cringe #their teammate IS cringe. but i love him. but the nuances are lost on instagram people don't understand these things they take everything #at face value #don't know why i just assigned shakir mukhamadullin they/them pronouns #i think i need to go lie in bed with a blanket over my head until i suffocate #this ALWAYS happens i get too hype about mackenzie blackwood and start listening to selena gomez and then it's like almost 3am and i'm just #fresno oilers.txt #oh and. a friend sent me screenshots of the girl she's been flirting with on a dating app and they are SOOOOO cute #i hope they make a good run of it i really do bc it was SO cute. living vicariously through episcopalian lesbians as one does #but then i was trying to figure out how to edit my dating app profile to dissuade chasers but still honeytrap guys who are tall enough #or athletic enough to pick the tangerines at the top of the tangerine tree. bc i couldn't reach this week #but there were still like god maybe 150 tangerines on the tree. i was like this could be feeding people but i'm TOO SHORT #and my life will be like this. FOREVER #icb the future of this garden is so psychologically burdensome that i'm having to build it into a dating app profile lol #well now that i'd treated this entire tag set as twitter for and hour and a half #time to go try to lie in bed and stare at the ceiling and then wake up in [checks notes] four hours

[perenlop]

i'm gonna try not to bring up madoka too much while watching utena because i know there's like... a rep there. but like im 6 episodes into utena and i understand i don't have the full picture yet but how on earth do people think these shows are similar enough to warrant "madoka is misogynistic garbage, go watch utena, it's basically the same but better"

#like ive rambled abt ppl calling madoka problematic before i wont rehash that rn #but like........ what exactly do these shows have in common besides purple/pink uncanny valley toxic yuri #its not even the same flavor of toxic yuri #from what im seeing utena is a story about agency and power imbalances #like. i guess they both have broken systems? but those systems also seem to work differently #the end of the world seems more cultish while kyubeys magical girls can be more closely compared to military recruiting #like... idk im getting the vibe that these ppl claiming that madoka is god awful and utena is The Good Show havent really processed either #and just dumbed both of them down to general tropes like. oh pink/purple yuri! oh horror tropes! #theyre not even from the same genre. rgu is a shoujo anime while pmmm is a magical girl anime #like. i know theres some rgu influence in pmmm but from what i know that seems to be the extent of it. influence #like. are you telling me every single deconstructive show containing yuri is similar to one another... #who's participating in fandom misogyny again? #echoed voice

[heavyedit]

medical websites love to be like “how to stop having physical stress symptoms: 1. be in less stressful situations 2. don’t be stressed”

#oliver.mp3 #girl for one i have anxiety for two stressful things continue to happen #sorry but taking deep breaths and going for walks will not fix my moms broken leg or get me another job #or get me back the $6000 i just spent on my cat’s er vet bill #meditation doesn’t pay the rent #i still haven’t done anything creative since the year started pretty much #bc i feel like i shouldn’t be focusing on anything but how to fix my situation #time spent drawing is time i could be spending applying for jobs. why would i spend time writing when it’s not making me money #i’m sick of living like this like truly it has been the last whole fucking year and it just keeps getting worse #what did i do to deserve this like truly why me #why do these events feel so specifically calculated and timed to drain our bank accounts and stress me out further #i think abt that phrase it has to get worse before it gets better. so every time something happens i’m like ok it’s gonna get better now #but somehow it continues to get worse #i feel like i’m watching my entire life crumble away right before my eyes everything me and my mom have worked for is just dwindling #and i’m only fucking 20

[ploncc]

finally watching House MD and yes i am catching up on my shows a decade late, but that DOES mean that now i can make the hypothesis that chase is another bubblegum bitch character and frankly that's worth the ten years

#house md #im on season three #by which i mean i am four episodes away from finishing season 3 #i picked up knitting you see and i was like “hey i need a show i don't care about that's still engaging while knitting” because adhd yknow #except now im fucking hooked #my emotions have been toyed with #i have called 40 year old men baby girls #i have broken down laughing #i have cried full ass adult tears #i have binged more episodes than i could ever advise in single evenings #i have had to excitedly break down arcs to my mother who keeps walking by while the show is on/sitting in for an episode n then sleeping #ive also finished a cool pattern swatch and am almost done with another stuffed bunny (this one is for an old roomie) so it is working #like on the knitting-with-adhd front #i have another five seasons to go so who knows! #maybe i'll make a sweater :)

[baked-hylian]

yknow my first watch through of rgu I was convinced Nanami was terrible, I love her, but the bitch drowned a kitten in a river! but thinking about it a lot since I finished watching the movie —but I don't think she drowned a kitten at all. I think this memory is one her mind fabricated in a state of trauma and is using this false memory to cope with the truth of no longer having the brother she so wholeheartedly adored, since he drowned attempting to save a girl

#rgu #nanami kiryuu #I've thought about this a healthy amount #and while other interpretations are valid #I just can't in good faith believe she drowned the kitten #even if she does have an incredibly twisted form of adoration for her brother to the point of worrisome over protectiveness #I don't think she'd truly hurt him in that way #plus with the movie being a continuation of the series in the sense that Utena and Anthy both finally escape together #and the black rose arc #it's pretty safe to say that a valid interpretation can say that Touga was a ghost the entirety of the series #and that his death was drowning in a river trying to save a girl named Juri #to me it seems more like symbolism #that Nanami crafted the memory of a drowning a kitten and hurting her brother's feelings with that #as opposed to accepting the reality that he was the one that drowned #and it was her heart broken that day as a result #it also fuels the over protective jealousy she has over Touga #and why she doesn't like even mundane things like sharing an umbrella to happen with another girl #because Touga was once kind to another girl and it cost Nanami her beloved brother

[nonuggetshere]

Okay Spooky, PLEASE tell us about the Broken Shell AU lore (when you have the time of course). We've been seeing little bits of it for so long!

OHH, BROKEN SHELL AU MY BELOVED OLDIE

It must be I think the first or second AU I ever made for this game some years ago. It's the classic post-embrace the void ending AU.

Hornet, although reluctant and wary at first, helps The Hollow Knight and nurses them back to health in a little make-shift but in the Greenbath area, close to the Forgotten Crossroads for easy access to the hot springs which they used to heal. Why there? Idk, I think I just liked the greenery.

THK passes out for a good few days while Hornet takes care of them and when they finally wake up, despite being in an extreme amount of pain, unable to see and afraid, they still insisted on acting hollow. Slowly though, they recover, at least physically, and all the while she's taking care of them Hornet's also running all around the kingdom looking for Ghost and taking care of other things now that people are recovering and the dreamers are awake.

Once they've recovered just a little more though, something starts pulling on THK to go deeper into the kingdom, and when they can move finally they decide to follow that calling. Hornet of course tries to drag them back, but they're surprisingly strong even when injured and eventually, they end up at the junk pit. It starts with a little skirmish as both THK and Ghost are startled before they calm the hell down and realise who the other is. Hornet steps in, happy to see Ghost again even though they appear to be a shade now, and attempts to break the awkwardness by introducing them to THK - only for Ghost to float over and hug them, much to THK's surprise too as they had expected it to hate them or at the very least be angry.

So, long story short, the three siblings end up living together, eventually Ghost gets their shell fixed up by the mask maker, and they choose a name for The Hollow Knight - which was Shelly (because at this point I felt too mean calling them Hollow, so Shelly it is). They also bullshit about THK dying because Shelly does NOT want to deal with the emotional turmoil of meeting the Dreamers or Ogrim or literally anybody they know, at least while they're still recovering.

Eventually, though, they learn the truth, and much to Shelly's surprise and relief aren't angry with them.

Much later on, the question of who the next monarch should be arises and they eventually end up with Shelly being the only legitimate candidate (Hornet couldn't be thanks to some political mess between Deeonest and Hallownest, and Ghost would rather go through the Path of Pain 1000 times over than be a ruler of anything). At first, Shelly is terrified about the prospect and refuses, but after getting a ton of reassurance and with the promise of getting help from the Dreamers, they agree.

They couldn't bring the palace back from the dream realm so they just built a new one, a much smaller one in the City of Tears.

But it's mostly a classic healing arc AU for the three siblings tbh, mostly THK.

Also, it's worth noting that Shelly is disabled. They're completely blind in their right eye and can see some blurred shapes and light in the left one, which is the result of living with the fuckin sun in their head for god knows how long. They also suffer from chronic pain and back problems, and at their worst, they cannot take care of themself or even get up from their bed without assistance. They obviously don't have an arm either but eventually get a prosthetic one made for them. They still can hold up on their own in a fight - they're a god, after all - and even learned to fight by relying on their hearing rather than sight, but they're still not as strong or agile as they once were.

The bow covering their eye was from Hornet. When they were recovering she tied their bandages into a bow to cheer them up and they liked it so much they decided to do that with silk after their shell/eye healed. They also have a good relationship with the dreamers and even develop a fatherly relationship with Lurien, because they deserve a good father figure god damn it.

Oh, Ghost also eventually becomes Shelly's knight when they grow up. Hornet obviously takes over as the queen of Deepnest eventually and ever since then Hallownest's and Deeonest's relationship couldn't have been better, considering their rulers are siblings and get along swimmingly.

#asks #thylacines can talk #broken shell au #I swear Ghost and Hornet are in the spotlight of this AU too I am just a bit biased towards my baby girl #Another fun fact. While recovering they'd often visit Sheo and the Nailsmith who eventually made a white cane for Shelly #Also Shelly is alloaro because I allways see people treating ace and aro identities as a package deal #Quirrel and Cloth also live because I can't bring myself to kill them ok #PK is still Very Dead though #Shelly did try to reunite with WL but it. Didn't end well. They tried to have a relationship with her at first but they no longer talk much #They do occasionally visit her with Ghost every few...years. Yeah they Do Not get along. They just accepted that they'll never have a #relationship with their parents and moved on. It did ate up at them at first but they're mostly fine now

[loetise]

she's actually kind of identical to my allie sim

#eye contact / #she's just missing the whimsy i fear. or it's another word but i cannot think of it #puts another thing in the head image of allie fleur library #this one's really close swearsies #except for hair color but i'll never win that #𖥸 ₊ * “ visage ” … something about angel wings‚ much about a broken heart. #𖥸 ₊ * “ imagery ” … a nameless girl in freshest summer greens‚ a saint‚ an angel.

[galaxia-de-escritos]

En días difíciles, como hoy, recuerdo que el vacío que siente mi alma tiene tu nombre.

-Another broken girl.

#escritos #citas #pensamientos #frases #notas #sentimientos #galaxiadeescritos #another broken girl #te extraño papá

[oatbugs]

. anyway after writing the tags 4 this post i told my research partner i will no longer follow his dreams lmao. still helping w it but i need to engage in research that i find satisfying

#i think ive been waiting for something for a while and i will spend the next year waiting for it too #i thought i felt panic but i have decided to read it as anticipation. the thrill of rejection or of moving forward or the latter as #a result of the former. i left you with your backpack unattended in the cafe because on fridays i am done #putting my life on hold for another whim-without-a-warning #this cross country service is delayed by 26 minutes so i will grab a bucket and start shovelling the water away from the tracks #everyone is moving on in some different way and im sorry if you think im mean for telling you getting so drunk will disable you from #recording your brainwaves effectively but it seems like you think i owe you an awful lot. one year ago in four days my friend got me hegel's #science of logic for my birthday and i thanked him for proving to me the existence of things this is what i do he said #and then he will spend the rest of his life breathing philosophy and i dont want to spend the rest of my life #breathing someone elses dreams i wait for the moment of realisation. this is now a 30 minute delay. i was supposed to worship beautiful #things and that is what i will do. i think i have a best friend and i know i have a lover and i know to #restrict my love the way you have. im sorry. i hope you understand when i tell you. i am now sitting on the floor in the luggage section of #this incredibly busy train and i saw a photo of her with her boyfriend and her hair in braids smiling like a fool this is the #except a week ago you told me you almost took too much this time to live. you are a beautiful girl with a beautiful soul and you know you #have already changed the world and it somehow was not enough. now you are smiling without any makeup on next to him #and yesterday you cried in an airport in the states when you were too full of love. this is the most extraordinary human being i have met. #tomorrow he heads off to princeton while his best friend heads to harvard. he goes there to make the world a better place. he is the most #extraordinary person i have ever met. the issue with human beings is that we are incredibly good at almost dying and keeping going. #you try to kill yourself and publish a paper and give a talk. you negotiate the seperation between your own parents and submit another #phd application. i am surrounded by extraordinary people with extraordinary minds and incredibly broken happy hearts. #i only see you smile when you talk about robotics. i still dont know how manifolds work and i love the concept anyway. i dont know. #i do know that i refuse to live unsatisfied. #you can keep drinking. im going to drink this reality up #i think i was a horrible person and i refuse to engage with that mentality again no matter what it takes.

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #good evening #been kind of another day of relaxing... saving all my energy to play lancer rn cause my brain's a bit broken atm @@ #my friend's pokemon ttrpg started up again the other day which is rly neat and cool at least! #I'm excited to play it again... my character is a girl that loves witches. hence the song today :3 #she wears a silly halloween witch costume themed after volcarona and has a little larvesta named 'Reverie' #(the game is going to be set on a hiking trail and she'll be doing it all in that witch costume) #made her own grimoire and makes little charms with Reverie... her name is Soleil she's like the mysterious but rly weird autistic girl #also wanders around forests for magical artifacts and mythical pokemon (she never finds these things) #I should post the art of her here sometime maybe... #should probably stop rambling now though cause this isn't even a daily update it's me putting you in a room and forcibly ranting abt my ocs #and also cause I have lancer right now byeee

[reyna-daisuki]

on a scale 1-10 how much do you want to make out/fuck another trans girl?

11 out of 10

#the scale is broken #i am beyond rational limits #my desire and horniness is irrational #it goes to infinity actually #they're gonna have to invent a new type of infinity just to comprehend how badly i want to make out with / fuck another trans girl #shit is gonna leave ripples in spacetime #supermassive black holes will be formed from the mere attempt of comprehending my neediness #call that shit gocking radiation

[cpericardium]

Ok not whoever does the intentional misgendering, but I’ve been in the worm fandom for like 6+ years and used to use the discord and always thought you were a trans woman for some reason.

I am really curious as to what gave you that impression

#ask me anything #not judging #I've always had an absolutely broken gaydar #and a just as broken transmission #last week i was stalking an old classmate's instagram #scrutinising a photo of her embracing another girl and holding up a puppy ultrasound #still fully unable to determine the status of their relationship #my own fiancee thought we had been in an intense flirtationship for 6 months when I thought we were just really good friends #and you literally do not have to worry about passing around me because I promise I will never know if you never tell me #unless you're intentionally presenting differently ofc #what i'm trying to say is i take people at face value #because i'm boo boo the fool

[lucielovekj]

Entire sims 4 community: the game is irrevocably broken and saves are getting corrupted please don’t play your beloved legacy files right now!!!

Me:

#idk if y’all have seen what’s going on #but a jewellery making pack has broken the entire game lmao #but I’m not experiencing MOST of the bugs and also have no self preservation instincts #so I’m just. making backups and keeping at it. I don’t really care. #I DID play another save yesterday and it was weird seeing all the actual townies about #since they’re all LONG dead in my current save and most of them don’t have descendants anymore #and some of the kid townies were people who grew up and became spouses of my kids so it’s funny seeing them around too #anyway I became an alpha werewolf and ate a family’s entire house after they somehow starved to death at random while I visited #and then I ate their urns <3 #I now have another monster girl OC and she’s the vampires gf