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s0mebodyto-love · 5 years

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a/n: I’m back with a Ben fic to output my emotions about real life things lmao so here you go!! My actual experience ends with the post, so I’m hoping something actually happens lmaoooo. Here’s college!Ben with some childhood friendship and some fluff thrown in too.

WC: 1750

Every Thursday night, the bar right across the street from the bus station hosts a karaoke night, and on many an occasion you find yourself there with your little crew. It’s you, your roommate, and some of the girls you sing with in an on-campus choir for non-music majors. The drinks are cheap and everyone goes to sing and have a good time right before the weekend hits.

The little Irish pub lowers its lights and the prices of drinks, and fills quickly. Bursts of cold air blow through the door as it opens and shuts, regulars going in and out to smoke and college students pouring in.

You and you friends swagger in, wrists donning loose orange paper bands showing that you’re the right age remain inside and order drinks. You get a beer, while the others in your group sip on vodka crans and ciders, and you all commandeer a table towards the raised dining area acting as the stage tonight.

At this specific location, karaoke can be anything. Throughout the night, you see people singing their hearts out to Disney, ABBA, and Fifth Harmony. Anything goes, and everyone is singing everything. It even comes down to a group of nearly thirty-somethings singing “I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling 29” that leaves you in stitches as you sing along.

However, the song you sing hits a little bit more towards home than you expected.

This week has already been a little bit rough. You’ve been on your period, and you reminded yourself of your on-again-off-again feelings for someone back at home… Ben Jones. You’ve known each other since the earlier days of schooling, back when you were 10 years old and him 11. Over the years, it snuck on you slowly just how much you liked him. Your families get along, and have known each other just as long as you two have.

You don’t talk a lot, and most of that has to do with the fact you go to different universities.

But whenever you’re both home, you find yourselves sitting at a high-top at the local coffee shop or shoved into a tiny booth at a local restaurant to sit, eat, and talk for three hours at a time, at the very least. There’s no one else you’ve ever been able to do anything like this with, and that’s made a large impact on your love life.

Any attempt at a date with anyone else is a comparison to Ben.

So this week, karaoke. Right.

You sang Maroon 5’s “Payphone”, rather poorly but you kicked major ass at the rap (which no one expected), and you got to sing it while an old flame from freshman year was in the room.

“Whatever happened,” you wonder, “to those plans we made for two? A load of bullcrap.”

~*~*~

The crowd tapers off from the pub around 1 AM, as a pair of girls sing Madonna’s “Like a Prayer” and as your crew decides to venture into the cold drizzle to get late-night pizza. At this point, you’re tipsy, two of your friends are drunk, and the last two of your friends are sober.

The pizza parlor is packed with college students leaving other bars in groups of 5-6 and pack into booths with the steam still rising from slices of pizza. Your crew stands in the front and orders, then moves into a similar booth and get to talking about anything and everything.

And you get to talking about Ben, after talking about a different date you went on that was okay but clearly was no comparison to the boy you know from home.

“He’s just… everything I guess? My person?” your rambling begins.

“I don’t know, he’s just always been one of my good friends, he knows my family, he’s known me forever… If I’m still attracted to him after all his bad hair phases, I think that means something?” You bring up pictures on your phone too, trying to make the point that one you two would be so good looking together, and two he’s just so attractive to you and you absolutely have to show that off to anyone who will listen.

“Like, see?” They do.

The conversation moves forward after that, but you’re stuck. As you always have been.

You’re quiet the rest of the night, your thoughts stuck throughout the car ride back to campus.

As soon as you and your roommate walk through the door to your apartment, you book it to your bathroom; no longer shared after one of your other roommates moved out at the end of last semester.

Drunk you pees, then sits on your phone for five minutes, typing away on a caption for the finsta post you know Ben will have access to, but unsure if he’d ever read it.

i know you can see this and i hope i’m making this obvious enough. because here is where im most open, and if i don’t get it out now im afraid i wont. liquid courage. its you. it has been you since i realized i cant spend three hours with anyone else in a starbucks and get away with it. no one compares to you, and no one will. and i get you probably don’t feel the same. but if i don’t say anything i know ill regret it. youre the person i see when im singing all these dumb fucking love songs, and im sorry. and here i am, i guess. im sorry. ignore this, or maybe tell me what you think. im sorry.

You smash period and enter repeatedly so the block of text isn’t the focus of the finsta feed, and post.

It’s like in “We Bought a Zoo”. Twenty seconds of courage, even if it’s the liquid kind.

~*~*~

The next day sees no response from Ben, and you’re not surprised. He’s not on social media often enough, let alone that he’d actually see your drunk post. But you let it be, because you’re almost afraid to know what his response is.

A week passes by, and still nothing. Your friends are wondering about it too, and you have no updates for them.

And you’re too afraid to text him.

Friday night sees you driving four hours home, and mid-drive it appears.

[@yourfinsta] @bennieandthejones has liked your photo

And then, a text.

I think we need to talk. When are you home again?

Your heart pounds, and before you can think about it, you call him.

Within one ring, he picks up.

“Hello?”

“I’m literally driving home right now. I have a busy day tomorrow, but I can squeeze you in at noon-ish. Lunch?” Your voice shakes a little, but then so does his.

“Um, yeah. Okay. Usual place?”

“Yeah, I think this calls for real food and ice cream.”

“Ok, I’ll see you then. And y/n?”

“Yeah?”

He pauses, hesitant and unsure of what he wants to say.

“Nevermind, I’ll see you tomorrow.” He hangs up, and your heart starts pounding again. That night at home, your sleep is rough but you make it through.

~*~*~

At 12:03, you arrive at the local diner you and Ben frequent when you catch up. He’s already sitting in a booth, wearing a maroon sweater and dark wash jeans. You slide into the bench opposite him.

“Hey.” You greet him.

“Greet” he says in response. An inside joke, a good start you suppose.

“So… I guess I have some explaining to do?” you ask, and he nods.

“It’s just… I want you to know I don’t want to force you into any of this. I was drunk and when I’m drunk, a lot of my feelings come out whether or not they should. And that’s what happened that night. And you’re stuck in this because of that. I’ve had these feelings on and off for years, which is why I never really pursued it. But recently… I felt those feelings really strongly, especially after I ended up on a date and then I realized that all I really wanted was for it to be you, and not this random grad student I went out with.” You take a deep breath.

“Long story short, I think I’ve liked you longer than I actually know. And not telling you was kind of killing me. Please respond.”

Ben looks at you very seriously, closed fists pressed against his chin and elbows propped up on the table. He takes a minute to think, and the minute starts to feel closer to an hour. He starts speaking slowly.

“Did you know”, he questions, “that I started having feelings for you back in high school? You were dating that kid from the high school in the town over, and I remember feeling this immense jealousy because it should have been me. That never went away, and I remember you two breaking up because college was looming and I knew that starting something wasn’t a good idea. I was leaving too, how could I ask you to start something when I was about to leave? And then you ended up going to school far away and I couldn’t ask you to tie yourself to me when there’s so much to experience. I took what I could get, and that was this. For us. I’m sorry.”

Your eyebrows furrow together.

“You have no reason to apologize here, you goof.” You look down at the table, skin flushing slightly. Ben makes his way from his side of the booth to yours and carefully puts one arm around your shoulder, while grasping at your hand with his open one.

“I’m apologizing for not doing this sooner,” he mumbles, gazing at your lips before looking back into your eyes. “Is this okay?”

You nod yes, and verbally confirm.

“I’m good, yeah.” You whisper, leaning in closer towards him. You two are still maintaining eye contact, and your heart is pounding.

He leans in quickly, pressing his lips against yours briefly before pulling away. His lips were softer than you expected, and they were sweet too.

“Still good?” he asks, arm still around you and with no apparent plans to move back to the other side of the booth.

“More than, yeah.” A small smile is on your face, cheeks flushed and slightly bashful. You’ve never been one for PDA, and this was more than enough for you.

“Good. Where does this put us then?”

“Together, I think.”

“I like the sound of that.”

#ben hardy #bohemian rhapsody #borhap cast #queen #roger taylor #joe mazzello #john deacon #rami malek #freddie mercury #gwilym lee #brian may #ben hardy x reader #mia writes

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prophet-rebellion · 6 years

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This is a bit of what went down is GS but is by no means every golden highlight I can think of, just got too long

Omfg, alright, so I just took an instant run down memory lane and now it’s STORY TIME. As some current information, I would still be in girl scouts right now had my troop not gotten disbanded. But uhhhhh, it did so there ended my “been doing this shit since kindergarten”

I could have joined one of the other local troops, but whenever we had more than my troop I usually wanted to hit a kid. I did not like kids from other troops and on more than one occasion this led to almost a brawl-- I had a hard enough time not decking my own troop members every week because they were all younger than me save for the leaders daughter (a few months older) and I had anger issues big time, my sisters usually hit the damn nail. (Save for this one really cute girl who was maybe a year older than me??? We were in a parade with her troop and she was cute. But we’ll get to why my mom and troop leader almost killed us all that night in a second.)

So we’ll start of the minor bs first. Now, my first year as a gs was spent with a different troop, there were 3 of us. So when that broke off I found a girl whose mom ran one and I joined. Automatically this was a much larger troop and much more rowdy so I should have seen something coming from the get-go, but no.

Now, the girl I had befriended was named C.C., she was the oldest of her own siblings, and to be perfectly honest, had I not been trapped in gs with her for years, I can safely say our relationship would probably be a lot more hostile, if we even knew each other. However, on more than one occasion over the years our pride got in our way as the two oldest girls in the troop and this lead to a few issues. I was gonna try to go in order but uhhhh, screw it. At one point we went camping and fucking uh, we got into a fight and she threw a fucking lamp at my head and then I tried to fucking jump her. We made up fast, but we broke the lamp and screwed a few other things up.

Also, our troop was really big on like, camping (but this site gave you everything so I mean????) and it used to be that all the adults could come on the trip and when they did they would have this special milk carton and it was the “grown up milk” and they told it was like, goat milk or 2% and we didn’t want any of that shit. So no way there. Yeah, as me and C.C. got older we realized they were drinking after most all of us were in the cabins asleep (these were not gs designated camp grounds, they were public places they did this). Just getting shit faced. Which led to them like, banning all adults except the troop leaders eventually.

Also, our secondary troop leader had this thing where she would like, moon people. And she thought this was the greatest god damn thing because she was, in her own words, “no way a small lady, so it’s a ‘bright’ full moon.” NONE OF US WERE SAFE. NONE!! She mooned every one of us, typically more than once. One time in public and we quickly scurried away from the cop that rounded the corner (running from cops happens on the down low more than once to us).

However, people outside the troop were never safe either. I brought my ex boyfriend along on a trip when were still together a few years back. It was around Christmas, the troop leaders kids didn’t want to go to the drive in show so there was space for him in the van. The only reason he came with is because his mom locked him out of his house while she was gone (a lie, his sister was home, he just wanted to hang around me more.) I warned him, WARNED HIM, that if I said turn around to do as I say, no questions asked, as fast as you register it. But god fucking forbid he listen to me. So, we went to the light show, I had my first kiss (regrettably) in a cramped van with my gs troop while no one was fucking looking. And this kept up!! A lot!! So when we got back to the house the two of us were outside and he kept trying to kiss me! and I told him it was a dumb idea, bad timing. So as soon as I pull back again the girls just burst the fuck onto the porch and just dumb popcorn on us. The secondary leader had thought this would be funny, I did not. And in a rage (anger issues, again) went into the house where they were losing in and im covered in popcorn, it’s everywhere on me, in my clothes, and I had to stop kissing my bf. So yeah, I was angry and flipped the hat off my mom head before storming back outside. Only moments later to hear the door open as I stood talking to him. The second my secondary leader stepped out and I saw the look on her face I whipped around where I stood and told him to do the same. Did he listen? No. (It’s fine, it was early punishment by the universe and I thank them.)

But those of us in the troop had it worse. Like, okay, the winter previously (I think it was before, maybe like 2 before??) we decided we wanted to go on the polar express. And it’s a Christmas only kind of deal so we racked up the money and went to go take the ride. Now first off- they told us there was unlimited hot chocolate. They were wrong. My troop kept getting more and eventually our car ran out for at least a bit. Second, there are still videos of the crew leading a ton of us down the isle doing like, some line dance thing/activity? Now, as far as the mooning goes. Oof. So, there’s of course curves on this train ride, we live in the mountains. And before we came up to one we didn’t see, our secondary leader stood up and mooned the two girls from our troop beside her!! I think they were being assholes but nothing was justifiable for what happened next. We hit the curve, and these two girls get there faces mushed against the window by the “full moon.” To this day I feel sorry for these two.

I also scared the Santa who came around asking us what we wanted for Christmas because I very enthusiastically yelled “Soul Eater!”

Okay, so like, I’ve already forgotten a lot of what I was going to say!! But!! Girl Scout camping trips. Like, for actual ranks. Gods, the last one I ever went for was a Cadet. Not the point, point is I should have had my gay awakening earlier, and I’m sure I did, I’m just fucking dumb met some hella people there. So aside from the fact I can never forget because I raced C.C. into a subways before going to a camp out, bit the dust, and now have a scar on my knee from eating concrete. Not the point though!! I went on one and when we got there we were put into the coldest, oldest, most run down site there. Further from everything else. We had gone a for the past few years, but this was the first that was a Cadet only deal for me and C.C. And automatically our neighbors are these chill girls!! They were cool. They were very social and I warmed up to them pretty quickly. There were 4 of them: Monkey (loved getting up into the rafters), Loud Mouth (Loudest and certainly the most out going), Katniss (loved the series), and No-name (Last day she decided on SugarHead).

I got closer to Loud Mouth more than any of the others and she did some bs, if was fucking hilarious. Also learned to never, never play truth or dare with them because it will go to hell, every time. There were so may cute people though!! So!! MANY!! But yeah, so we all picked our camp names. Mine still makes me cringe and I’m glad Loud Mouth just called me a nickname variation of it.

But uh, there was one girl I used to chat Soul Eater with, we exchanged numbers after camp but eventually we lost touch because I suck ass at communication and my phone got destroyed so I lost her number (same with another girl I used to talk to). There was also another camper named Cyprus. I thought it was a fake name but apparently not?? I loved her name. I met her when we I showed up to make a Harry Potter broom. A little late becuase again, furthest camp site from anyone, but for the most part we hit it off well at first, didn’t talk much at all the last day though. But it’s such an odd name, and because all the campers were local, a few years back there was a girl at a con who could have been her from the vague memory I had and her friend goes “Hey Cyprus, look at this” and I just whipped around and worked up the nerve to ask if it was. It was not, but it was worth the ask.

Okay this went from like, borderline illegal to gay so one more thing-- the parade girl-- and we’re good. Because this if long as shit right now.

So my troop was in the parade every year, without fail we were in most of them at least. But we never, never missed being in the Christmas parade (god, for one year I just wanted to watch the damn thing, but no, we just had to be in it). So at some point in the year we decided to invite another local troop on with us, and of course I wasn’t the happiest about it. Until I got there and there was a hella cute girl there!! Like!! Hell yeah!! How the fuck did I think I was straight, this is just painful to relive all my gay ass moments in gs But the point is that it was cold as fuck for them and I’m a living ass heater, but I was not going to pas up hot food. Se we took off running, me, C.C. and this other girl, past our float and past a few others to get free hot apple cider. My mom was pissed but it;s hard to take her seriously when shes dressed like an elf. Next, we finish our cider and then up ahead we see a funnel cake car and we just lost it and take off yet again. We had enough money to get like two but before we could by any nice hot fluffy fc we were chased away by my mother and troop leader who were livid. But it was worth it.

But yeah, I loved gs, even when I grew away from it at the end. Didn’t realize I’d miss it as much as I did once we were disbanded by the council. But the shenanigans we got up to in the church that we met in the last few years were wonderful. I swear it’s fucking haunted though. I also feel asleep in the hallway one time texting my ex during a meeting. They just kinda left me. The secondary leader knew I wasn’t as interested in what she was getting the younger kids to do, and since the primary leader didn’t show up a lot over the last year I was allowed to just kind of chill in the kitchen with her while she made snacks. I was mostly the taste tester and ranted to her a lot about things.

Y’ALL STILL CATCH ME READY TO THROW HANDS WITH PEOPLE OVER COOKIES THO. LIKE, ALL THIS GS COOKIE FLAVORED SHIT HIT OUR SALES HARD IN OUR AREA AND WE HAD TO UP THE PRICE AGAIN, WHICH HIT US HARDER. I’LL STILL THROW DOWN OVER THAT. I am very, very passionate about cookie sells no matter how much I hated them.

#LONG ASS POST #GS #GIRL SCOUTS

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astrofireworks · 6 years

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okay so the ex that will Not Leave me Alone texted me yet again and my sister got pissed and edited this photo of youngbin into this and said “make it your display picture right now so he thinks you’re dating someone and stops texting you” and i just: a binu version

so bin broke up with his ex about a year ago

and it’s been a year, you’d think his ex would Get Over It Already but

text received from [binandme] 2:27am: “hey wanna meet up? it's been a while haha“

apparently not

bin sending a screenshot to rocky bc heck how is his ex’s username still ‘binandme’ that’s just lowkey embarrassing

rocko: “oh god when !! will he stop !!!!”

rocko: “listen buddy you gotta do something”

bin: ??????

rocko: “pretend ?? you have another boyfriend already”

bin: “okay listen that’s cute and all but i don’t have another boyf-”

cue rocky scowling because jesus bin, all you have to do is pretend

rocky going on instagram and bumming around on their university location tag until he finds a picture of someone cute

rocky checking out his profile and deciding that hey, not a bad choice

all he needs to do is maybe edit out a couple things but this guy looks hella Boyfriend

wheezes

and their university’s big enough that they’ll literally never run into each other so this eunwoo guy will never know !!!!!

rocky’s brain, pleased: good concept, rocky!

and so Real Friend Rocky gets to work

after i told her about it my roommate had a dream she pushed my ex off a building i cried laughing

image received from [reliablerock] 2:53am

bin: “what”

bin: “w ho”

bin: “who is that”

rocko: “your new boyfriend”

and so bin sets it as his display picture because hey, why not? if it works, it works and he’ll never have to get another message from his ex again

also this guy is really cute, what with his sparkling eyes and the way he looks like he’s holding bin’s hand so he doesn’t really mind

im not saying that picture still makes me cry but

and then bin forgets all about it and goes about his life

until one day he’s at dance practice

one of the guys asking for his username on kkt so they can set up a good extra practice time that works for the both of them

bin tossing his phone over so that jinjin can add him on kkt

jinjin texting bin later that night

jinjin squinting at bin’s display picture on his own phone and huh, that guy looks really familiar

hey that’s,,,,,, that’s his roommate,

jinjin, looking over his shoulder at where eunwoo’s typing away at his homework: “hey, how do you know moonbin?”

eunwoo: “bin???? who??”

jinjin: “you’re set as his display picture on kkt, don’t you know him??”

evidently not

text received from [chxeunwoo] 8.48pm: “hey, is there a reason why my face is your display picture”

wait this is too long i’m shuffling it under a read more

cue bin falling out of his chair

because !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow he was Unprepared for this shit

bin: o shit,

bin: “my ex keeps contacting me so my best friend thought it’d be a good idea to edit a photo of someone he found off the internet so i could set it as my display picture to pretend he’s my boyfriend?”

bin: “but also i’ll take it down rn if you don’t like it i don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable or anything”

eunwoo frowning and considering it carefully

also eunwoo going on jinjin’s facebook profile to go stalk around and see if he can find a photo of bin

ooooooh bOy did he find a photo of bin

jinjin squinting suspiciously at where his roommate is suddenly blushing and choking

but listen eunwoo is a man who knows his opportunities and he is a man who knows how to grab them

eunwoo: “so would u like 2 meet up and take Actual Boyfriend Pictures”

bin:

eunwoo:

eunwoo: “just for pretence of course”

not at all because he thinks bin is cute (!!!) or anything

not at all

:~)

eunwoo: “i mean, if you keep one picture of your ‘boyfriend’ all the time without updating it and it doesn’t even have your face in it how believable is it going to be?”

bin: dammit bit c h you right !!

eunwoo: :~)))))))

and so bin and eunwoo set up a date meeting to take ‘couple’ photos

and bc it’s near christmas and everything so they meet up at this holiday market thing in a nearby park

and it’s real cute !! with all the string lights everywhere and lil shops selling trinkets and stuff

bin standing by where they agreed to meet and just looking around

until he turns around and comes face to face with ???????? an angel

at first he wants to laugh bc wow christmas market taking this a lil too far, hiring extra angels just to make it more festive??

but he knows that face too well he’s been staring at it as his display picture for the past couple weeks

eunwoo choking because wow if he thought jinjin’s dance buddy was cute before

it’s nothign compared to this !!!!!!!!!!

with the soft light from the christmas lights overhead and his eyes sparkling

and he’s sayign something and eunwoo’s not catching any of it bc he’s too busy staring o shit what how shi !

eunwoo:

eunwoo: “sorry could u repeat that again i was uh,,,,,”

bin already slightly embarrassed bc it wasn’t important it was just him blurting out an “o my god u look great”

but he really does, bin thinks

he’s in a soft white turtleneck and bin thinks that whoever invented turtlenecks and said it was okay to put it on this man was Hella Right Wrong

but also

bin’s brain: error 404 not found what is this guy’s voice let bin know please !!!!!!! what kind of beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10/10 wouldn’t mind real dating

and it’s only when someone coughs and brushes past eunwoo that they both realise that they’re blocking a pathway

bin flushing and grabbing eunwoo’s hand and tugging him aside

eunwoo: !!!!

the both of them exploring the market together bc hey, if you wanna take cute pics u gotta have props right

cue them getting churros to share

bin getting disproportionally excited bc !!!!!!!!! LOOK

CHURROS

WITH CHOCOLATE DIPPING SAUCE

THE B O M B !!!!!!!!

eunwoo laughing bc he’s never seen someone so excited over food before what a heckin cutie

binnie’s eyes are bright and his lips are curved into a smile and !!!!!! he just looks so happy and soft and beautiful lookin at his churros

@ fantagio bring back eatbin pls & thanks

eunwoo can’t help it, he takes his phone out and snaps a picture bc this boy just looks so content with his food

and it’s a p good picture, if eunwoo says so himself, with bin looking down at his churros and the shops blurry in the background and bin’s face softly illuminated by the lights overhead

bin looking up and blinking bc ??? they’re meant to be taking photos of eunwoo or at the very least eunwoo and him together

but also bin looking down at his churros bc hey they’re taking up a bit more of his brain processing unit rn, sue him

cue binu standing in a corner of the park and sharing churros,,,,

bin nearly forgetting the whole point of the meeting bc heck these churros are real good!!!

eunwoo quietly snapping another picture and laughing bc bin looks like a lil chipmunk what a cutie!!!!!

bin snapping out of his churro daze and blushing bc hey !!! a cute guy taking a picture of him how can he Not be Self-conscious

they’re not even supposed to be taking photos of him anyway

bin pushing the churro box into eunwoo’s hands and pulling out his own phone

and his first ever photo of eunwoo is slightly blurry and a little underexposed and eunwoo’s glasses have fairy lights reflecting off them and eunwoo’s eyes are slightly wide like a deer in the headlights, but it’s cute, bin thinks

eunwoo’s real cute

coughs

anyways

and he’s about to lower his phone when there’s suddenly a churro thrusted into his face and eunwoo’s looking at him and smiling all expectantly and bin’s heart is beating very quick indeed wow what a smile

bin: “wha-”

eunwoo: “take a picture, quick, it looks like i’m feeding u”

bin flushing bc right yes pictures,,

eunwoo mumbling then tugging bin over to his side

eunwoo: “change it to the front camera”

and suddenly bin feels eunwoo’s cheek alarmingly close to his

bin: ?????/

and he sees on screen eunwoo's nose nearly brushing his cheek and eunwoo holding a churro to his mouth and his heart goes wOOWEEWOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!

but he also snaps a picture bc heck that’s cute

heart thumpingly cute

heart achingly cute

bin hearing eunwoo say faintly: “my turn” and feeling eunwoo grab his phone from him

bin blinking until he realises eunwoo wants him to feed eunwoo a churro too and him flushing

very boyfriend

which is the point of the whole thing, obviously, but

also

very Boyfriend ! rip bin’s heart 2k17

bin holding up a churro to eunwoo’s mouth and looking over at eunwoo and his side profile

and heck

heckity !!!!!!!!!!

he doesn’t know how rocko found this angel on instagram but all his photos and the edited photo that rocko sent him has in No Way prepared him for the length of this guy’s eyelashes

unreal

and it’s only when eunwoo looks over at him that he realises the picture’s done bc he doesn’t even hear the shutter go off

bin blinking

eunwoo staring bc wow bin rly isn’t moving away and his face is really close 2 eunwoo’s and if he reaches a lil forward he could beep boop bin’s nose with his own

bin realising that ! this isn’t a socially acceptable violation of personal space and moving away from eunwoo

eunwoo isn’t disappointed at all mmhmm nope not at all no

bin, faintly: “uh yes thank u for agreeing to meet up with me to take those photos”

eunwoo remembering that yes indeed this is not a first date dammit ugh

it’s just for fake photos

could be true boyfriend photos but he isn’t sure about bin’s ! position wrt this

eunwoo smiling graciously and going: “yes of course, i’ll send them 2 u asap”

them picking at the churros and just sitting there in the park talking

bin learning about how eunwoo’s a psych major and how he’s thinking of going into law

eunwoo learning about how bin joined jinjin’s dance crew by accidentally stumbling into a dance practice

generally binu having a good time !!!! under cute lights !!!!! with the holiday market buzzing in the background !!!!!!

binu eventually finishing the churros and eunwoo turning to leave to find a dustbin when he hears bin calling out his name again

eunwoo: ???????

bin, swallowing hard: “uh”

bin: “when can i meet u again?”

eunwoo:

bin:

eunwoo:

bin: o shit he doesn’t want to meet me again he was just doing me a favour this time round i’m asking too much by asking for a second meeting i messed up now he’ll never speak to me again i’m

eunwoo: “hmm i’m free day after! do you want to grab coffee then?”

bin:

bin: :D

bin later that night flicking through the photos he and eunwoo took and choosing the one of him feeding eunwoo

bc eunwoo looks so beautiful in that one heck !!! with his hair nearly brushing his eyes and his silver rimmed glasses glinting and reflecting tiny dots of light

but also bc his eyes are curved up into a smile and it’s the most heart stopping thing bin has ever seen

bin’s heart is aching it truly is

also bc when he finally tears his eyes away from eunwoo he looks at himself and !! he’s looking at eunwoo with so much adoration it’s embarrassing

bin @ bin: stOP IT you literally just met him jlafdkjdsksf

bin back @ bin: but he’s also so sweet and helpful and kind and his smile makes ur heart beat real fast what’re u gon do about it

bin cringing back @ bin

but also bin setting that as his new profile picture

his ex can go choke on a small dick !! look at bin with his beautiful new ‘boyfriend’ now hA !

although he isn’t really dating him but pragmatics am i right

half a minute later:

text received from [reliablerock] 8:25pm: dude wtf where are these pictures from

bin: “ah yeah i met him today we took a couple pics”

rocky: “a little miFFED YOU DIDN’T TELL ME THAT WAS GOING TO BE TODAY but ok this is a rly cute pic good job buddy yall rly actually look like you’re dating it’s adorable”

text received from [m.hyung] 8:34pm: “CONGRATS U & UR BOYFRIEND ARE ADORABLE WTF”

text received from [m.hyung] 8:35pm: “although not as cute as me & jinjin xoxo”

bin: jhlkjsdfhkgjsd what

text received from [jinjak] 8:35pm: “dude mj says ur dating my roommate what he said he didn’t know u like 3 days ago and now yall have pictures together?????”

bin checking eunwoo’s profile bc heck how did he know they had pictures plural

and he sees eunwoo’s profile picture changed up to the one where he’s feeding bin a churro

bin flushign !!!!!!! bc his hear t !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but before he can react and send a text to eunwoo his phone pings again

text received from [captainddana] 8:56pm: “omg bIN YOUR DISPLAY PICTURE’S SO ADORABLE ASKDJFHKASJDFH WHEN DID U TWO START DATING”

bin:

bin, faintly: oh

fast forward 2 them meeting bc i’m terrible at this transition thing

bin stepping into the lil cafe

and it’s cute, he’ll admit

he’s more of a grab and go guy than a sit down in a coffeeshop with a book and a croissant kind of guy but if eunwoo’s one of those he’s willing to sit down and have a pastry too

as long as it involves food and eunwoo he’s down for it

and instantly he sees eunwoo, with his silver glasses perched on his nose and his long fingers flipping through a book, hair falling in his eyes and sunlight falling on him at just the right angle and bin’s breath catches in his throat

wow

just

wow

eunwoo looking up at the sound of the bell on the door tinkling and smiling at bin and closing his book

bc look !! a cute binnie in a cute coat

bin blushing and pulling out the chair opposite eunwoo’s

them talking over lattes and just !!!!! getting to know each other

i mean, their profile photos are set as each other so

might as well be friends, at least

speaking of photos

bin: “ah yeah so about the photos haha funny story”

bin: “so a couple of people think we’re actually dating???”

eunwoo:

eunwoo: “wait isn’t that the point”

bin, floundering slightly: “right yeah on my end but you ? also set your profile picture to one with me, so i was wondering??”

eunwoo: ?????????

bin, sheepishly: “people keep asking me if you’re my boyfriend and i ? didn’t reply bc i wasn’t sure about what you would be comfortable with me saying about us bc obv this isn’t like a real thing so uhhhh”

eunwoo looking at bin over the rim of his coffee cup and willing his heart to calm the heckity down bc this is it this is his chance to be real s m o o t h

eunwoo, fast mumbling: “whntmktrlthng”

bin:

eunwoo:

bin: “what”

eunwoo flushing and repeating: “why not make it a real thing?”

:~)

#this was written in the middle of finals adjfhlaskjdf i just keyboard smashed it out in the dream team chat #but hey ! here it is more binu trash #bc ur local binu trashcan is back !!!!!#vivi shoots #astro #astro fic #binu #ayeeeeee #anyways finals are over #i go back to singapore on sunday so #i gotta reply to my ex then #or as my roommate recommends: ghost him #i feel kind of bad ghosting him but i also dont want to meet him so really #also im alughigngasdjfhlas my sister's edit #i didnt notice the difference at first #until i realise she edited out his name tag #but real talk though youngbin's photos are always so hecking boyfriend my heart is always so goddamn weak for this boy shoot me #him in his leather jacketajsdfhlaskkjshflakjsdf #i complain so much about being single lmao but i enjoy it #i wouldnt get back with my ex ever thanks #which is also why i would never date bin asdkfjadlfk my ex was a lot like bin rip #anyways heyyyy im back with more trash i have like 5 aus going

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survivormagictreehouse · 4 years

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Episode #5 “I have nothing else to lose at this point” -Jay

-Did I even make a confessional last round??? AHH. Okay so I’m excited with our swap and I think we have a strong tribe but I’m REALLY sad (and not surprised) about Austin leaving. I think that I am on a very strong tribe and I can’t wait to see what happens with it going forward! Like I can’t bad talk anyone, I like them all.

-Can we talk about how proud I am of myself for remembering enough information to tell Cindi while she was answering questions? LOL, I had never been so nervous in my entire life so I'm really good that we pulled out a win! Ali and Collin did such a good job retaining and relaying information. It is nice to have another day off and I'm really curious to see what Ali decides to do and what the next challenge will be... I don't want this tribe to be broken up yet. If I do end up swapping I really want to end up on a tribe with Chips. We played in a game recently AGAINST one another and I'm dying to work with him, like actually work with him so oddly enough, I'm really hoping that he isn't going anywhere! I feel like they will probably go after Timmy or Jay. Right now the person on my tribe I feel like I can talk with the easiest about the game is Ali, he is probably my number one and I feel like I can tell him stuff without it getting passed around the entire tribe. Do I completely trust him?? NO. But I do trust him the most haha.

-I SURVIVED AHHHHHH I GET TO STAY!!!!!!!!! Fuck that was so close and I feel so bad for throwing Austin under the bus but hey, I needed to stay in this game and keep my relationships strong. Plus, voting for Timmy would have looked really shitty to him, after the whole alliance thing. Anyways....Birch is here now! I love them sm and I really look forward to getting to work with them again. As far as I can tell, my best bet of staying is a group of me, Timmy, Zach, Birch and probably Chips. Chips and Zach were so helpful to me this whole day, reassuring me and giving me the information I needed to stay safe. I also called with Timmy just now and we're gonna be sticking together since it's our best option. Its really been a big turn from feeling comfortable in the tribe to fighting to stay, but I'm gonna stay fighting and hopefully make it out of this swap alive.

-I'm trying so fucking hard to stay in this game but right now it feels like a lost cause. Zach sold me out so badly last night and it feels like it's been impossible to recover. I'm trying to get me, Timmy, chips, and birch to all vote Zach but it's feeling less and less like it's actually happening and more like they're just saying it to keep me comfortable. No one is really responding to me anymore and it just feels like this is the end. The only little bit of hope I have is apparently Timmy has heard it's gonna be Birch instead? Seems like a long shot, I don't really want to see them leave, and I'm not gonna push for it. Birch is an indespencible ally and I will go to rocks for them if i have to. I have nothing else to lose at this point.

https://youtu.be/cYEa3LQE6N4

-Going into tonight's tribal, I think I'll be safe and have the votes of Timmy, Jess, Gavin, and Keegan. However, I feel like either Gavin and Keegan could flip (though unlikely) OR an idol could be used on Jay. I guess we shall see though. See y'all on the other side :)

-okay so the og annie tribe lost their marbles and got a 4-3-1? which well. in other news, i died in my other game and mr BODHI on this tribe got me out... very interesting. i was originally gonna punish him and get him out. and i still might. im unsure. he would deserve it tho he is so wishywashy that its infuriating. rn dream alliance is cindi/vi/ruthie/rachael (aka feminism + ali). bodhi was the best to vote for me on a game level and him needless treating me like crap makes that much easier.

-okay hello... so in a crazy plot twist... we won the storytime? i was really proud of my own contribution to the challenge, i passed on a LOTTA info to collin and he did so so good passing it, ruthie SNAPPED when she was so nervous and cindi brought it home. my game has been pretty smooth sailing, two easy votes and now im chilling on the most wholesome tribe ever. should i probably be throwing these challenges to save jay/timmy/austin... maybe... but am i going to... no. im not risking my game life when i see my entire current tribe as long term allies. ideal scenario is that group implodes and sets us up to pick up the pieces at merge... maybe? but also i think we are swapping again before merge, so just adding another challenge with the shakespeare challenge delays me getting jumped by the conglomerate of generic men, birch and jess. my closest ally right now is definitely ruthie, i LOVE ME SOME RUTHIE. vi, cindi, collin, timmy and rachael i also trust to some extent. bodhi i literally would get an indescribable seretonin rush from voting out... i would LOVE the opportunity to jump him in this game. am over that man. but im vibing having fun! still have an idol! and living my BEST life ha. im sorry my confessionals have been underwhelming but my game experience has been pretty smooth sailing so far ha.

-Spill the tea! *It's 1:11AM and I still miss Gavin.

-It's 8:59 PM and I still miss Gavin. prayer circle for Gavin <3

https://youtu.be/JSmJThHF-tU

So I did something. I am not allied with 5/7 people on my tribe. I have the "3 Canadians, oh and the 2 American Hosts" Alliance of me, Jess and Keegan. I am not quite as Loyal to that alliance as I am my new one. But I still don't want to vote them out. If I HAD to I would but i want to keep them. I really like both of them. I just made the "The Jolly Crew" Alliance which is Me, Jay, Timmy Z and Zach. I love this alliance. I vibe really well with Timmy and Jay. I am a little more iffy on Zach but he is really cool! I stan everyone! I guess out of the 2 people left I would prefer to vote out chips? He tends to be kinda inactive and I talk to him the least. IDK I'll go with the numbers, and my alliance.

Another round, another immunity win. I’m just living life and am happy with how this game is going. Don’t really have to do much but making sure it won’t be me if we eventually do go to tribal.

We lost the challenge despite my best efforts. I think we’re voting Jay

I wish i had something of substance to say but this tribe refuses to go to tribal :/ i've found spots where TWO idols were in the past i think??? lions -> straight ahead -> ask for a tour, and vikings -> small boat -> get on the small boat

Soooooo... we lost the challenge again an' I got kidnapped by the gentlemen o' fortune. love that there fer me! then, to me surprise, right off o' the bat, jay threw me name out. so 'e be essentially dead to me now an' I expect 'im to be leavin' tonight. his blood ‘ill be on me hook after tonight. luckily fer me, I went around an' started spreadin' that there I 'ad 'eard 'e been sayin' me name—and 'e 'ad apparently only said it to zach. so now, the votes be between zach an' jay... an' I could not be 'appier as me name be off o' the table as farrr as I know. so bless to the sky to that there. I be expectin' jay to set sail tonight, but who knows. there been a lot o' talk o' 'im or birch 'avin' an idol or some kind o' advantage (which I believe birch may 'ave something), but I don’t think I be playin' me idol unless I catch wind o' somethin' strange 'appenin'... but me fingers be crossed an' I be goin' to 'ope fer the best.

2nd win and Ali is chucked to the tree house. Gotta do a music video

So the Annie curse strikes again............ wooo. This vote is a bit of a mess but honestly this all works out for me. Jay going ensures that I have Chips/Birch's loyalties moving forward and honestly the more OG Annie people that go the better. I hate the whole tribe lines situation but honestly I'm kind of stuck in it and I think I'm stuck in it for the long haul or at least for now. Zach going ensures I can climb the social rankings of the OG JACK tribe but it also might make me land on the bottom and it would be such a gamble. Do I trust Zach? no. Do I think everything Birch/Jay are saying about Zach is completely true..mhm BUT I need him just for a bit longer at this point. Also if Jay didn't say Gavin's name I probably would risk it and vote out Zach but at this point I can't not vote out someone who is saying my number 1's name... I want another swap because I'm bored of talking to the same people and I need to form some new bonds before merge.

With me getting one vote last time, I really wanted to secure my spot within my team and was able to talk with Zach and Jess into making an alliance chat with us and Keegan/Gavin. Hopefully jay goes tonight but I’m not to sure. In the challenge bitch was terrible. We are a bit nervous they got an advantage or idol on exile which is why we are telling everyone the vote is birch tonight. Guess we will see how tonight goes

I'm doing lots of house stuff today but I hear there's a mess to be had with Jay versus Zach. I want to vote Zach because he has been acting head honcho but also... dont care too much. Im going to try to force a tie then get blindsided out of the game. Hype energy!

The Round 5 Cast Assessment will be combined with Round 6 (on the next episode)

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crossgartered · 4 years

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P5R Liveblog (13/?)

Haru arc

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Oh...? Are you hung up on Wakaba, too, Doctor?

Oh, Rumi. ...Who's Rumi?

IS IT KASUMI'S SISTER??? bc you know there's weird stuff going on there

Probably not but this is for wild guessing anyway

If we can believe Kasumi then her sister is younger than her

And that'd be pretty weird to talk about in a romantic context

The problem is if kasumi is to be believed

she's dead I know she's dead I don't think she knows she's dead but she's super dead

Or in a coma I guess but let's be real here

I don't trust Shibusawa in the slightest. He's definitely going to try to take that research. I wouldn't be surprised if he was one of those men in black suits, either. He's rich - he goes to the Wilton on a whim, with his "buddies" - he could definitely be one of Shido's men.

OMFNDJD THIS LES MIS KNOCK OFF FILLS ME WITH JOY

Hoo boy. Maruki... I don't think you'll be very pleased with our answer. I do think you have good intentions, now, but you will definitely be an antagonist here.

I'm still really impressed with Chihaya. She really thought that the protag would hate her once she told her story, that her fortune said he was supposed to hate her, and she "never thought [he] would overturn even that fate". And yet, she told him anyway.

A Yusuke & Ann showtime!! : D I wonder what it'll be like?

THATS SO INCREDIBLY ANIME I LOVE IT

Haru idolizing superheroines vs Ann idolizing lady villains fight

I cannot waittt to see what they do with cognitive Haru, if they decided to make her this time around

YUSUKE CAN DUPLICATE IN PALACES?!?!?

A Will Seed with lasers barring the way? Interesting.

FUTABA FINISHING TOUCH FUTABA FINISHING TOUCH!!!!

Huh, it's kinda goofier than I was expecting.

"When a person is continually faced with oppression, they come to welcome its presence." Yusuke : (

"Such psychological trickery is being used here. I... experienced it first-hand for many years." YUSUKE : C

It's kinda nice that those workers are being blocked by lasers instead of us being too intimidated by their number to just go after them. ...Am I remembering this correctly?

Oh, Noir... I'm glad I get the option to ask if she's okay.

The Yumizuki High uniform really does suit Yusuke.

I wonder if there's a way to talk to people about their outfits.

Does Futaba's thing happen in place of Joker's, now? That's kind of a shame

HEY DO YOU THINK IT'S POSSIBLE TO HAVE FUTABA SHOWTIMES?!?????

Airlock time.

Man I want to see robot/cyborg Haru so badly come on Okumura I know she's here

This stuff about being okay for 30 sec as long as you close your eyes and mouth sounds wrong but I don't know enough about the condition of the human body in space enough to dispute it so okay I fuess

Anyway this is run by clap your hands if you believe kinda magic so it doesn't really matter anyway (also, thank god for Futaba saying that it'd work)

It's interesting - space factories/stations aren't a typical heist target (nor are castles, tbh, but museums, banks, pyramids, casinos? Naturally) (space stations in general can be, in the right genre. But this is set up a bit unusually for that). Corporate offices of shady companies, however...

Spaceeeeee ahdskdjs this is SO COOL

what the fuck what the fuck was something else going through the airlock?!?!

Ugh, how aggravating. I had been able to get the Will Seed the entire time until I pulled the lever that allowed me to progress

What is this shadow???? I'm not sure I know it! "Pagan savior", huh?

No, guys, there's another airlock room. Stop saying 'the treasure is just beyond that door!' when there is a whole other area/floor to go through. Especially since you have a map

Futaba gets motion sickness...oh no I'm so sorry ;u;

I...actually remembered the first half of the solution to the transfer line. I got out of there in practically no time. Heck yeah!

"Thou hast to awakened to the ultimate secret of the Sun, granting thee infinite power..." Yoshida...! TAT

I always end up maxing him right around the end of Okumura's Palace. I feel so bad. His newfound popularity is gonna absolutely tank soon. ;-;

Man, who even gets elected after the populace starts caring again? I don't know how Japanese politics works, really, like at all, honestly, but probably he has a subordinate who can take his place. But like, his whole crew's gotta be corrupt, right? Especially someone who'd be his replacement. Though honestly, considering how paranoid he got by the end, he probably chose someone weak-willed in order to prevent

Oh wait hold on I just looked up how this works. Apparently, uh...

Huh. I'm not sure if the cabinet resigns if the prime minister does usually or if that's just if the house passes a vote of no confidence. But, the prime minister appoints the ministers, so if the prime minister changes then there could be an issue there, probably?

But anyway. Looks like the Diet would immediately try to vote for a different person once the prime minister seat is vacant.

Huh, I wonder who gets voted in, then. Well, we only know of 2 candidates other than Shido, and Yoshida doesn't have the funding or even (yet) the popularity to become prime minister, so Matsushida is really the only other choice unless they pick someone we haven't heard about.

Oh my GOD I hate the school. They're being such assholes to Kasumi. She got 3rd place!!! That's amazing!!! This isn't even a school specializing in gymnastics!!!!!! YOU SPECIALIZED IN VOLLEYBALL AND EVEN IF THAT WERENT THE CASE YOURE TERRIBLE

*ahem* Anyway.

You can tell that Maruki is quietly pissed and honestly? Valid. Super valid. Same, Maruki, same.

She's not gonna get that text, with how her phone is.

"we took in those sisters to improve Shujin's standing, but at this rate, we're only going to end up suffering for it." Oh??? Oh??????

"not only have we lost one of them, but the other ones not doing us any good. Talk about a waste of effort..." Hooooly shit you asshole

Wait, hold on, it's October already????!? November's just a month away!! I have less than 3 months for social linking! And I still haven't maxed knowledge or kindness! (Or guts, but whatever) I've only maxed 1 person! Although I'm close to maxing Ryuji & Ann & Yusuke. And some npcs

AHHHHH CUTSCENE CUTSCENE!!!!

So the keywords - lab, stadium, and ... Either Maruki or Kasumi for the person. OH MAN AND EITHER WAY IM ALREADY IN MY PHANTOM THIEF CLOTHES

ONE OF THEM DOESNT TRUST ME

It's probably Maruki, right? Bc of the lab... But also I thought the whole wish fulfillment thing was going to be his cogpsi project... With the help of Jose, maybe...

Speaking of Jose, Jose looks like a toy, especially with that hair and those ears. I wonder what material he's supposed to be? Based on the ears I'd say plastic, maybe, but the hair looks more ceramic to me.

Anyway, back to the relevant FUCKING PALACE WOOHOO

I haven't even sent a calling card for Okumura yet so we're not dealing with this anytime soon

Ooh, this music... <3

Oh man, I totally forgot I had Morgana in the maid costume. I gotta get him into something more serious

Why is dancewear not the p5dsn costume??

This is...really empty...

I am suddenly really scared at what the people are going to look like

There are pigeons here...

But wait, if this is Maruki's Palace, then this is bc of all his grief... He doesn't want anyone to hurt, ever again. The people will be their ideal selves, probably...

...I'd love to see a cognition of myself, tbh. That won't happen, but I'd love it.

This place is really beautiful... With the music it seems like a sad place...

Look at all these wires

That's probably the sister, right?

Unless that's the cognition of Yoshizawa when she was alive and her current self is her ideal self.

The shadow attacked the cognition???!?!

YUP this is definitely Maruki's Palace

Hmm. Interesting.

Oh, Cendrillon really is perfect for her, huh.

SHES DOING A MAGICAL GIRL TRANAFORMATION WHAY

WHAT

WHY????

IM NOT UPSET ITS JUST A LITTLE WHAT????

Does her outfit look like mine a little bit bc she's using me as a role model for her source of confidence - confidence that she is using/interpreting for her inner rebellious spirit?

Wait, lost my train of thought

Aww, I mistimed that. I was hoping to get a Kasumi finishing touch

MORGANA-SENPAI

It is definitely an unfair consequence

Oh, so that's why, narratively, her phone sucks. It's to prevent us from figuring out whose Palace it is.

Yeah, this time it's entirely on you, Morgana.

... it's because of gymnastics? And not because you disagree with us on an ideological level? ...okay. sure. Whatever.

Hoo boy. This is gonna suck when Okumura has his mental shutdown. I wonder how she'll react.

She is of the Faith arcana, whatever that means. Maybe she'll keep faith in me? I did max her half-confidant

It's cool, Kasumi. I really didn't do much. You may have a debt of gratitude or whatever but like you don't actually need to repay it. Just keep being my friend and maybe one day you'll quit keeping score

*sigh*

If only. Too bad you're probably dead.

SHOWTIME WITH HARU? SHOWTIME WITH HARU? PLEASE?

Oh, Mona-chan. I figured as much, but I was still hoping...

Anyway, Haru&Mona showtime still very good!

Man, I would kill to hear their explanations for what they're doing.

...this is incredibly violent, isn't it? I anticipate it with bated breath

Oh man, can you imagine a showtime with Kasumi? Maybe with Akechi, if Atlus isn't going to give me one

Which, fair enough, from a gameplay standpoint

Still. : (

"the Phantom Thief Basic Training"?

Oh, good, we're actually addressing cognitive people with Haru.

Oh, this is either gonna suck if they address the implications, or we're gonna see cognitive Haru. >: 3

Dream world, huh...

THE YUSUKE-HARU FRIENDSHIP IS SO UNDERSTATED AND UNDERRATED I WANT MORE CONTENT

THERE SHE IS!!! THERE SHW IS!!!!

Oh, man, I had a lot of feelings during that fight. That time limit though

I like how they updated this fight

Although I think I'm a little underleveled, potentially. I could not destroy her before she self-destructed, and it took me a while to beat the chief directors and executive director. Oneshotted Okumura himself, though.

OH MAN I SHOULD HAVE READ THIS BILLIARDS BOOK EARLIER

I DIDNT REALIZE I COULD INCREASE MY TECHNICALS????

I already thought that technicals were beefed up from how they were - I guess this is part of that!

Wish I had another book on kindness, ugh.

SO THATS HOW THEY CHANGED POSITION HACK

Ann & Haru have such similar colors. I wish they would have darkened Haru's a little bit more

Wait I never got to see the Haru-Mona showtime

I even had both in my party : (

GOD IWAI YOU'RE SO SHADY

I forgot to start his social link until now whoops

Although I've only had my guts high enough for past ~2ish weeks so there's that at least

Guh, I have to get to Mementos and start up Shinya's...

How many part-time jobs does this have? Like, 5? Maybe 6, if you count him helping out Sojiro? The convenience store, the beef bowl place, the flower shop, Crossroads, and now the gun shop. Anything I'm missing? I feel like I'm missing one.

Desire & Hope is really pretty. The Desire underneath is kinda weirdly desaturated compared to the hope, though. Not sure if it actually works as well as Desire did by itself. Idk. They're both good, but I liked how Desire looked a bit more. I understand that D&H has personal meaning, though. Who knows, maybe in person I would feel differently

I kinda really like that Yusuke tends to go more abstract with his stuff, even if he does try out a bunch of different styles

Maxing Yusuke. And thank god for Affinity Readings. Finally got Ryuji at a point where I can max him.

Oh. I had forgotten how Kamu Susano-o looks. ...

#p5r liveblog #p5r #p5r spoilers #persona 5 royal #long post #this one gets emotional at video games

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lovwe-archive · 7 years

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make up already: a log i needed saved for memory reasons.

in which crona and fleur somehow climb the gigantic mountain titled “lack of communication” and make up the good old wholesome way.

lovwe vwe gotta talk.

acanthusgalanty Yeah..

lovwe yeah. so like. vwhats up.

acanthusgalanty That's a little lame...I don't even know what's down, or side to side anymore. I thought I did 8ut apparently it's all in my head.

lovwe vwhat are you thinking?

acanthusgalanty I...m not needed around here anymore. You guys have 8etter people to spend time with and easily hangout with and talk to. Letting my crew shove me 8ack onto tum8lr was a mistake 8ecause I just feel worse. I hardly feel like I know what's going on anymore. Nd that's my fault.

lovwe vwell. first of all im going to be blunt here.

lovwe i vwasnt social before 2ol got closer to other people because i thought i had all that i needed, but that vwasnt good for me. im not the kind of person to havwe three friends and call it a day. it vwas just you, me, 2ol, and bonnie. nobody liked bonnie for reasons, and demi nevwer showved up evwer. that vwasnt good for me. havwing such a little circle of friends. so i expanded.

i picked up nepi, and the first thing you said about him vwas that he vwas going to take your place just because of the vway he acted around me. and i didnt understand vwhy you said that because i barely talked to him evwer.

so i thought about it. and i came to an understanding. i didnt understand that either but i knewv vwhy at least.

and i said that i didnt vwant to make that happen again. so i didnt talk about nepi. or kan. or felide. but the issue vwas that they vwere my only topics. because i vwas doing fun things vwith them. and i didnt vwant you to feel bad from hearing about it. so i just didnt do it. not a smart idea. not a good idea. not talking vwas vworse than talking. so. yeah. my bad. im sorry for being an idiot. i dont knowv vwhy you feel replaced, still though. nobody put anybody else in your position. kans in a completely different place. if you vwant to hear about it. theres context.

acanthusgalanty I didn't care if nepi was your friend crona.... I felt threatened 8ecause he was acting like he was your 8est friend and not me. And even then it was just a slight threaten. I was a 8it more confident at that time.... And I don't exactly want to hear a8out kankri. I already know he's 2ols diamond. And yall 8oth call him your stars.

lovwe its not just for 2ol though im trying to say hes invwolvwed vwith both of us.

acanthusgalanty I figured. What's he to you then.

lovwe vwere dating.

acanthusgalanty Alright.

lovwe and i still. dont understand.

acanthusgalanty It's stupid, so it doesn't matter.

lovwe if i dont knowv vwhats happening i cant understand and try to help.

acanthusgalanty I didn't know you were all dating him. I just saw the post of you 8oth giving him My nickname. And then over night you all got matching icons.

lovwe in my defense. im three hundred svweeps old and my memory is not good from being in the bubbles for a hundred or so of those svweeps. and i didnt knowv.

acanthusgalanty Yeah. 2ol mentioned you 8oth forgot. apparently he thought he had 8een calling refering to me as a rose for whatever reason. which i dont see how that even fits into the whole sky thing that i thought we had going. 8ut its fine. kankri means more to 8oth of you. so he's your stars now.

lovwe dont start.

acanthusgalanty ...

lovwe really. being bitter ovwer it isnt going to get either of us anyvwhere? especially vwhen you say shit like that. you mean a lot to us. kankri does too. do you lovwe us like you lovwe demi. no, you dont. people lovwe people in different vways, but that doesnt devwalue the lovwe.

acanthusgalanty I wouldn't fucking know would i.

I grew up with Demitrus. He's completely different. he's all i knew, aside from my crew and there was a hard line of difference 8etween that. You and 2ol were my First ever friends in i dont know how many sweeps. And while sure, I put Demi first a8ove all else, i understood that with you and 2ol. that you were each others firsts. And I THOUGHT what we had was more than just what it apparently is. And I didn't expect you 8oth to forgot the nickname You 8oth gave to me. Had I known that you and 2ol were fucking dating him then I pro8a8ly wouldn't have 8een as upset. annoyed pro8a8ly sure

8ut i dont' fucking know for sure how i would have acted. All i knew, which is apparently wrong, at the that my two friends, my 8est friend and his mate who i thought i was close to. didn't want me around any more. You 8oth used to call me the stars. and we talked for AGES a8out getting matching icons and for whatever reason, we never did. 8ut then, To Me, out of the 8lue, here comes Kankri. and now He's your stars. and Now all three of You have matching icons. i didn't know what the hell was goign on. All i saw was what i thought was my position in your little triangle of freindship 8eing given to someone else. And whether that's actually that truth or not, my hurt feelings are still reall.

lovwe im not saying im a communication saint or anything. but at least you already knowv vwhy nothing about kan left my mouth.

acanthusgalanty this is getting no where.

lovwe no. vwere getting somevwhere. i told you vwhy i didnt talk about kan. vwhy didnt you talk to either of us if it vwas affecting you so much.

acanthusgalanty 8ecause I was scared? 8ecause i didn't know how? 8ecause i'm a fucking adult who doesn't know how to handle Friendships properly and its fucking humiliating. 8cause i already felt replaced, and how was i supposed to feel at all comforta8le with 8ringing that up to the people I felt had a8andoned me?

Especially after how you reacted when i said i felt a little threatened 8y nepi? You were so upset with me feeling threatened that you gave me the cold shoulder to the point where I just left 8ecuase i didn'tk now whtat to do.

lovwe i felt like you didnt trust me to be friend faithful.

like i could easily call nepi a bitch vwith no context and hed knowv i meant it out of lovwe. but i cant.

i felt like you pinned it on me for LETTING him act that vway. thats just his fucking personality. he does it to complete strangers. ivwe seen him propose marriage to a stranger because he thought there vwere benefits.

acanthusgalanty I thought i had apologized after you got upset and explained it to me. i do remem8er you telling me that you had only just started talking to him after i said he made me feel unsure. i didn't know you felt like i was accusing you of anything... 8esides i don't know him, i only ever 8ragged at him once a8out getting to see 2ol 8efore him and that was it.

8esides... at that time i feel like i had 8een more annoyed that he had made 2ol feel like he wasn't good enough.

lovwe and i didnt knowv that.

acanthusgalanty yea... all i can remem8er is that nepi made him feel like a 8ad s/o.

and thats why he wanted to come in and hold your hand ::::/

lovwe okay. i still dont remember it but okay.

i understand. i think the entire lesson from this is that vwe havwe bad communication issues.

acanthusgalanty i've always had 8ad communication issues...

lovwe yeah me too and nowv its combined and twvice as bad.

acanthusgalanty ...im sorry that i ended up making you feel like i didn't trust you 8ack with all that nepi noise. it wasn't my intentions.

lovwe sorry if i made you feel like you vwere replaceable by being garbage at personal problem solvwing. i didnt mean it.

acanthusgalanty we're 8oth pretty gra8ge at this huh..

lovwe vwell you knowv vwhat they say. idiots attract or something.

acanthusgalanty Oh mygod. that's 'opposites attract'.

lovwe same thing.

acanthusgalanty you think you could forgive me for 8eing a completely insecure wriggler a8out all this...

lovwe yeah. you think you can forgivwe me for being stupid about vwords?

acanthusgalanty yeah.

lovwe best friends?

acanthusgalanty 8est friends.

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whimsically-ominously-auspice · 4 years

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When I worked at the BNSF boarding house a man in a black Stetson hat kept going in and asking me to turn on my GPS transmitter in my skin.

Year 2002.

Sometimes it turned on

He wasn't really tall.. But not super short either. He was at least my height drove a large truck a F150 older..

I always thought he was talking about a germin, one for road travel. Not in my skin.

But I remember he said sometimes it only blinked. Sometimes he yelled at me. Sometimes he was all excited and happy.

Sometimes he took in an electronic monitoring device, where he could see if it turned on and what he did to make it turn on. Those nights made me mad and would only turn on when he left.

He wanted to know why it blinked sometimes and sometimes was steady.

Blinking was active longer than steady.

I didn't talk to him often unless I thought he had a family in his truck. Usually I just kicked him out and explained he wasn't in a hotel open to the public but he was welcome to use the bathroom, phone or get a cup of coffee for the road.

A lot of times he would check the log ins and see who was there. Sometimes he would go in with others and pretend to be someone else. A lot of people did that from time to time. And they did a whole thing where they said they were new hires. They usually got caught by our management.

Sometimes the railroaders would jump them right in front of me and I would let them and just get rooms and make keys for the guys I recognized.

But i been remembering him the last two days...

He's an qE2 and he likes it. Cause military and law enforcement just went through BNSF training and did actual railroad work.

And we did get new hires but we got a trickle in and not 30 at once.

He went by Alonso like Gonzo for his long nose he said but he had a normal nose with a soft small end. Not like mine which is piggy or sharp and upturned. More like a bulb..

I think he was taller than he allowed me to think... I know he leaned over the counter a lot... I think he spread his legs to make himself look shorter.

But he wore a black velvet like cowboy hat all the time. Or a ball cap. And he looked to be Mexican or tanned with dark hair. And he would go in often enough and be all demanding a room all rude and annoying.

Sometimes he would laugh if I was nice all "you really think i have a family?!" Or he would act all worried like "what am i suppose to do?! We need to sleep!!"

I never gave him a room because we weren't a hotel. But he would try. I would offer alternatives even told him he could use the phone to call local hotels to see if they had space and he picked up the phone once and then slammed it down and stormed out.

One time he pretended to be maintenance with a few others. Then the maids came in all creeped out and then went and ran them off. He tried again like 4 more times and i told him no he had to wait till 6 am when the real mainten crew went in and he did get hired as a maintenance man for a minute. And he wore a wig and was there for a few days and was all talking shit how he didn't need the job and what did I expect,

I was all "dude Idk you and if you don't need a job then why are you here and im busy because i do"

And he was all "you dont really like me do you?"

And i was all "why the Hell would that matter?"

And he apparently locked our maintenance man in a closest of some sort who unlocked the door and let himself out and he was pissed and called the cops. Then we got a part time Abu maintenance man to help. Little Joe whom everyone loved and was super sweet. He would follow the maids around and help them all kinds and check in with me very often in the mornings and at night.

I worked at night. 7 pm to 7 am. 3 nights a week. I was 17 but thought i was 21.

I was the night manager. I checked in and out over 200 guys a night for the BNSF railroad and i memorized all their faces and names and i could put 4 in a room in less than 20 seconds, including making the key cards.

I had to wake up over 100 guys every night and tell them their trains for the day and when to be at work.

And deal with qE2 harassing me and my maids, the restaurant workers, the other hotel and trying to kill people in the road.

Smoke breaks and take care of myself and i was taking college courses when i first started working. And make coffee and make sure my maids were doing their jobs. Which they almost always did.

24 hour frenzy.

And this dude wanted the qE2 to rub his genitalia.

It would blink because I was just breathing when he walked in and i Didnt even notice him. Because I was repeating something else in my head or thinking about the next train or wondering if the guys got up and out of bed and got something to eat and to work and i didn't care about some random stranger. So all he did was pick up my heart beat.

It was steady because he pissed me off. Or because I actually heard what he was saying. And I was all "well if the battery is charged and its all plugged in and connected then you shouldn't have a problem connecting it"

It went off because it was none of his business where i was or when, i worked the same Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights from 7 pm to 7 am shift all the fucking time. Sometimes I switched with someone but it was rare. Like maybe 4 times the whole time i worked there.

So it wasn't that difficult to see my car outside parked right at the street every Thursday, Friday and Saturday night for 12 hours each day.

So why they had to try to suck the qE2 was cheek Idk But it was quite neurotic and pathetic and only made everyone notice him.

Because we had cameras. And whatever shit he used, the military and the law enforcement had. In 2002 GW was president and he didn't like his father. And i was a military brat with an extra large voice box. And several Air Force bases in the state of New Mexico. And I worked for the government (Beaurearu of Indian Affairs, BIA, as a federal employee) in 2000 so they knew i was in New Mexico and I was registered in a state public school, the University of New Mexico.

So it's not like no one knew where i was and when my GPS unit turned on for eQ2, it also turned on for the USA and they could see every single ass hole that followed me. So that's been 17 years.

Imagine the evidence against this psycho..

Because I always use the same social security number and birthday and name. And i didn't change my name when i got married, i just hyphenated it -- added his last name to mine.

So im always kept track of. For example I didn't go from Sabrina Psycho to Sabrina Killer. I went to Sabrina Psycho-Killer.

So I have amnesia and I'm naïve but I am not stupid.

But qE2 and her bag of idiots are.

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