#bc exams are happening rn

[hella1975]

i passed all my exams

#NO RESITS???? ON COURSE TO GRADUATING WITH EVERYONE??? NO ONE MOVE #THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE HELLO. HELLO. CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #IM SO. IM NOT EVEN HAPPY YET BC IM JUST IN A STATE OF SHOCK #ONE SEMESTER DOWN ⁉️ AND THE HARDEST ONE TOO #I want a 2:1 average from this fuckass degree which is somehow MANAGEABLE bc i got an overall 2:1 average last year #and that’ll be weighted 35% of my final mark so that’s good #then from these exams I’ve averaged 2:2 which isn’t ideal but I never do well w in person exams and im honestly surprised i even PASSED #this semester is much more coursework based esp with my dissertation and i do better with that shit #so as long as I get a decent 2:1 or even better (⁉️⁉️⁉️) this term I actually should end this degree with a 2:1 #like. i am on course for that. do you even know how mental that is #for this degree you have WATCHED me fight tooth and nail for 3 years #im acc in a state of shock rn no one blags as hard as me NO ONE #hella goes to uni

[trlvsn]

i hate this fucking university istg. ugh anyway look at the silly panel i'm drawing

#raysidk #sorry #but i worked on an assignment for weeks and got a 72/100 #and everyone else is also outraged #and now we're having another issue #and both of those situations happened bc the professors can't explain assignments properly #and we're trying our best and clarifying things and asking questions #but in the end it doesn't help #i fucking hate it here!!!!!!!!!! #seriously though i could have been a normal person. i could have been helping my family and living a life rn #but nooo let's go to university at 16 in the middle of a war in my country with the exam program changing completely #and the scholarship money decreasing rapidly why not!!!! such a good idea ray great fucking job now you're suffering #anyway #narumitsu

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really? #ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious. #i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

[tkbrokkoli]

just had the worst hair cut experience :(

#not fandom related #personal log stardate #was rly dysphoric abt my hair so i booked an appointment online where you can basically get your hair cut immediately #booked a men's haircut. tried to be as masculine as possible when i went there. i did Not pass as a guy. they thought i was a woman #the whole time. when i wanted to pay the hairdresser was like 'you booked an appointment for a men's cut but you're a woman right?' #she asked that bc for woman the haircuts are more expensive and for men they're cheaper. like. #for a women's haircut you have to pay 20 € more lol. anyway i felt... not much tbh. i looked her in the eye and shook my head #to indicate no im not a woman and she rang me up for a men's cut #i don't feel all that much rn either it's just. looks like i don't pass. there's not much i can do. #i cant dress any more masculine my hair is short i use mens shampoo and deodorant #its probably my high voice. also im small. it might just be my ~vibe~ im a shy kinda person idk #guess i just have to wait for T to work its magic. so far nothing has rly happened #i actually had a cold and not a voice drop but i think ever since i /can/ speak a tiny bit deeper if i try #idk if my levels are good. my next appointment is in april so i just gotta be patient and wait #what's actually most bothersome abt today is that i couldn't play it cool. if this had happened to a cis guy and he would've been asked if #he's a woman he would've laughed it off or been offended and it would've been ridiculous to him. for me it was the worst come true and it #made me extremely insecure and i feel if i had just the confidence that a cis guy has it wouldn't have made me that uncomfortable and i #could've just brushed it off #anyway i gotta focus on my exams now anyway so ill just try to brush this experience off #the hairdresser wasnt even transphobic when i shook my head no im not a woman her eyes were sort of soft but calculating like she accepted #me i think but just the fact that it happened that i do Not pass that i Do have to out myself and can't just be myself w/o being questioned #hurts #also to my mutuals ive read your comments and messages i just havent had the energy to answer yet. i love you guys <3

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

IF I DISAPPEAR OFF THE FACE OF TUMBLR IN A FEW HOURS AND DON'T RETURN THIS EVENING SLASH NIGHT ASSUME I HAVE FIED DIED THIS FEELS LIKE A VERY TEAL POSSIBILITY RIGHT NOW

#MY HANDS ARE SHAKING AND I SAW LIKE FOUR DOTS JUST SEIM AROUND MY VIDION #YES I DID SLEEP ONLY FIVE HOURS AND THEN DRINK AN ENTIRE CAN OF MONSTER TO SOMEHOW STAY AWAKE #IN MY DEFENSE OTHERWISE I WOULD HAVE SLEPT THROUGH THE LAST FRENCH LESSON BEFORE THE EXAM #BUT ALSO EVERY EINGLE VAD EFFECTNOF CAFFEINE HAS HIT ME I AM SHAKY AND ZHERE IS A FLUTTERING BALL OF ANCIETY IN MY CHEST #I HAVE REGREST #REGRETS #I ALSO STKLL HAVE TO PRACTICEE A SONG WITH ANOTHER GAL WHICH EELL PLAY IN FRONT OF KIKE EVERYONE #AND FOR SOME REAON I THIUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO GO TO THAT ONE THEATRE ADAPTSTION AT OUR SCHOOL THIS EVENING #THERE IS SO MUCH HAPPENING #I AM STRESS AND SLEEP DEPRIVATION AND ANXIETY AND MOST OF THOSE IS BC OF CAFFEINE #THIS WAS A BAD IDEA #IG ANYONE KNOWS HOW TO FLUSH CSFFEINE OUT OD YOUR SYSTEM FAST ID APPPREAFIATE IT #BEFORE I VIBRATE INTO A SIXTH DIMENSIO INSGESD OF SLEEPING BEFORE THE EXAM #ANYWAY AS I SAID I HOPE I DONT DIE #HEART TOO FAST FEELS LIKE A REAL OPTION RN LMAO #SORRY OF THALL THE FAPSLOCK #FOR ALL THE CAPSLOCK #THIS IS FINE #a biscuit's rambles

[astrobei]

falling sick again right before finals week why can’t i have any nice things ever

#will be burdened forever w the knowledge that this could have been prevented by me getting more sleep #generally taking care of myself etc #harbinger of my own doom whatever yeah yeah #however i am not the sick freak of a professor who assigned an exam and a final within 5 days of one another #for the SAME CLASS. god i hate it here #was literally sick 2 months ago too why is this happening #sigh #AND IM OHT OF SOUP #IM SO UPSET RN #frantically eating a singular orange bc that’s all i have #as if it’ll help #/astro posts

[greatfunkystatic]

I fuckin hate warm water

#blog #is this even worth tagging with blog #honestly I might just have to add more #im just bored rn in class tbh #sucks tho bc we have to study a chapter and a half of discrete math in 2 lectures now bc the schedule got pushed back #but hey it was worth all of the breaks we got this semester yho #i haven't watched op in forever huh #or much of anything tbh #i was supposed to watch a movie for class today #i ended up just doing a 16 star run of sm64 #didnt matter tho bc I fuckin overslept the class #i really gotta figure out what's happening with that tbh #I might be sleeping with my phone too close #but if I don't listen to anything when falling asleep I can't sleep #but also if I use my earbuds my ears get blocked over time #aaaaand I have a roommate so I can't blast it ou #woe is me #maybe I should also fix my sleep #at least I didn't sleep thru my exam yesterday #oh that algorithms exam was a lot easier than I expected #still expecting a 60 tho ngl #as long as I get above average we will be chillin #(most of my classes are relative grading) #god I just realized my arms are sore #from blj #i can't believe that really fucked me up #i was trying it for like an hour and a half lmao #also funny thing #most of my classes just don't care about the fact that I just wear an earbud in middle of the lecture #even the smaller classes

[applejongho]

i cant wait until this semester is over 🙃

#it's just so much work and so many meetings and so many commitments and expectations #since im a senior im literally designing a real biomedical device with a group and thats just so much work #talking to clients and ideation and meetings and more meetings and more ideas #and the doctor class is hell as usual im learning nothing #all of my other classes have essays and exams and group projects all at once #i like get seven hours of sleep if im lucky #and im never in my dorm bc im just so fucking busy running around campus #and now that i fucked up my ankle i cant even move that fast anymore #will i end this semester or will it end me is the question #apple lady words #and like. ofc. all of this is happening while jh is on hiatus #im doing so well rn. [explo

[pikslasrce]

just found out that placebo played a festival in kragujevac last summer i am going to. pass away

#i mean i dont think i wouldve been able to go even in an ideal world bc i had exams then but i think i wouldve done anything #if this hyperfix had happened just a year earlier #anyways kragujevac is such a shit tier city there is hope if theyre coming to literal. central serbia and not like belgrade and novi sad #ALSO THIS IS SADDER THAN FINDING OUT BASTILLE WAS AT EXIT FEST IN 2016 #BC THIS WAS LIKE. SO RECENTLY. #tho it gives me hope id literally sell a kidney to see these guys rn #anyeays i dont know how behave i didnt need this information #placebo #piksla.txt

[donghuamuqing]

No pluto fic this time. Happy wip wednesday!

#my post #i feel kind of shitty rn and i cant tell if its because i got a 78 on my exam #or if its bc i have things to do and people to talk to past 5 pm #if im home im not leaving my house past 6 at the latest unless its my choice #such as im in search of a sweet treat #but meeting up in the library with friends to discuss spring break? with people? and leaving my apartment and being out??? #i dont wanna :’( #i have to go tho bc our trip was almost cancelled bc our friends car broke down yesterday and its one of the only two cars we havs to use #and 9 ppl are going lol #and i was kind of fine w it because the trip is a little expensive and then i got it into my head that we wouldnt go and i could see my pare #parents and it wouldnt be stressful or costly #but he got his car fixed :’( so we’re still going. which im not even mad about #bc i know itll be fun #im just nervous like i am before anything happens #i was nervous before our trip last spring break #before my trip to italy #and now again #im a nervous guy i cant help it #next spring break tho i dont want to do ANYTHING !!!!! i wanna go HOME !!!!!! #sorry 4 complaining i just feel blahhgggggh in general rn :’(

[astrxealis]

prompto argentum my beloved

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #and dimitri and raha and satan and oh gosh there's so much #i'm sick again rn so that sucks. it'll be gone by morning but i seriously despise how this happens so often #i think it may be because of the philippine weather :P + dust and shit but yeah in cold places i think i actually sneeze less #uh this week will be a bit hectic mostly in preparation for the next two weeks and then i'm kinda free but also no #and in two weeks i will be seeing my fave band... my fav artists..... the 1975 #so i'm very excited but really nervous and kinda scared! also for exams and everything aha #okay ... good luck to me #i will go to sleep really soon bcs i can't be very productive while sick again #uhh good night!! please take care of yourself and drink water alright? esp w the heat and everything!! mwah <3

[neige-leblanche]

the way that this could actually be a pretty decent team tho..... beautiful t4t gay couple on their first date and the three weird guys who are following them around saying stuff like "Hey Girlboss! Have you ever wanted to set your own hours, choose your own vacation times, and be your own boss?"

#txt #idk if this willll happen though bc rook is locked into the omni exams rn #if these guys or a similar grouping end up giving more output i could put them in omnis + rook in cosmics tho :0 #before u ask i dont have any blue duo magics 😔 society if i had ssr azul can you imagine #ANYWAY IM NOT TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED W THE VIL SUMMON ADVENTURE BC I GOT MY FIRST JADE SSR!!! #also trey was my guaranteed ssr; ive only done that twice and theyve been non-focus cards both times lmaooo #i have cater tho so thisll be nice :]

[ppulverse]

i think my house is gonna get flooded again 💀 it's been raining for days now and the water won't stop rising and apparently it's gonna keep raining until SUNDAY like............. @ god why do you literally hate me

#🌙.txt #rant cw #i was talking to a dude that lives in the city and he said there are areas where the water is already up to people's chest #so honestly it's probably a matter of time before another flood happens in our area #that'd be the third one in a span of seven months and we're really short on money rn so idk how we're gonna deal with that lol #i'm probably gonna have to go back to my hometown and stay at my mom's place for a few weeks #but like........................... how am i gonna get money to cover my expenses while i'm there 😭 #also i have another big exam by the end of the month and i need to study for it i don't wanna have to deal with a mf FLOOD rn #i'm genuinely about to cry out of stress i hate this place so much #it's so fucking ironic tho bc people from other parts of the country are complaining about how hot and dry it's been these days #(and we're in the middle of fall) #meanwhile in the south it's cold and we're about to literally drown #my friends from the southeast are like ''omg i miss the rain'' and i'm like girl you can take it away from me i'd thank you

[bloomingbluebell]

i think i'll be okay with having this blog just be somewhere to shout into the void. i kinda miss interacting online, and interacting in person always feels... idk, it feels bad and i don't really like it, but i think i'm okay with just shouting into the void

#in person interactions are too risky #like.... i made friends about a year ago now in genetjcs #stayed in contact with a few of them but now one doesn't show up to class and idk what happened to him #(last time he dropped a course we were in together but caught me before the class to tell me) #(it was because i am very predictable and it was an 8am lecture so i always went to tim hortons to get a tea and breakfast before class) #another friend just changed her major into my major actually so she's got a bit of catching up to do #and she's got a lot of repeats too so while i'm almost done with my lower division requirements #she's still working on them #and idk any new friends i make are either not in my major or they just kinda want to talk to me because i help #i'm getting so frustrated with being asked for help #especially without warning bc like i was getting texts when i was in a really bad mental state #abt the lab exam and i was just like 'look. i can't help you rn. i'm freaking out' #and i feel so terrible about it but i don't want to start snapping at people!!!!!! #i'm. not looking forward to next semester i really dont want to take ochem 2 #(i have to take it. iirc it's a requirement for another course i need to graduate) #(and it won't be offered again until next spring at the earliest which i might be using for a work term) #(idk yet i'll have to wait and see if they're actually planning to find more HSCI jobs)

[lonesuperhero]

Mfs be calling me "That one kid who looked like they weren't gonna pass that math class with a C, but then somehow they did"

#lone rambles #granted that's only happened once but hopefully ill be able to pull it off again lol #i did pretty well on my last math midterm/exam so my mood is absolutely BOOSTED rn bc it dragged my grade from a D to a C

[courviknight]

oh my god that presentation took 6 hours!!! NOT having it!!!!!

#exploding things w my mind rn i really want a day where i can flop in peace #don’t want tomorrow to come don’t want the next few days to happen bc i got an exam and it’s 🥹🥹 #ahhh uhhhh how am i going to survive……. #vent #caw.txt