#bc that all needs to go in the trash

[singlethread]

Why are there so many tasks inside of a task

#I need to go to the grocery store that is my main task #but I have to empty out my trash first since I need to drive to the dumpster #okay so I do that well then I need to scoop litter and then I need to sweep #bc that all needs to go in the trash #and oh I should get any stuff that’s gone bad out of my fridge #oh I guess I have to do dishes now too #well fuck I notice there are ants in my apartment that got into my sugar dish #okay well I need to empty and clean that and then spray down the area for ants #okay then I need to clean that up and I guess I’ll just wipe down the rest of the counter #ITS BEEN IVER AN HOUR I STILL HAVEMT LEFT FOR THE STORE BC OF ALL THE SMALL TASKS INSIDE THIS ONE TASK

[wizardnuke]

crouched on the floor eating my sandwich like a maniac

#my desk is covered in Stuff. i took my meds 40 mins ago. okay uhh today i need to #1) im helpin mom with the wood splitter bc it's stuck in a block lol 2) gonna tidy my room and actually get my school supplies together #3) laundry. i should #4) valorant...it calls to me.. #oh i should also take the trash #key word is TIDY room. i need to do a large scale laundry operation today and possibly tomorrow. so many got damn clothes just laying aroun #a lot of them r clean but they're in The Pile and not in the dresser #been Workin. #so. corral clothes. put up what i can. start laundry. play valo. get laundry. put on cr while folding laundry which i might do in one big go #after all the loads are done so i can actually find pairs of socks and shit #the adhd demons.

[kaidabakugou]

i forgot how disgusting an all boys house is🤢

#kai.rambles #i’m picking up the halloween decor i let my bf’s friend borrow for a party #and i’m still sick so i needed to go use the bathroom to blow my nose #bro i walked out and blew my nose in the car bc there was piss on the toilet seat #i think this is one of my biggest icks - the hairs on the fucking sink HOW ARE THEY NOT BOTHERED MY THAT #by* #in what world do you shave and leave all the hairs on the fucking sink #they also don’t use trash bags and just throw it in the can and take it outside when it trash day like HELLO??!!

[liebelesbe]

having a crisis in a clothing store because there's so many clothes here. so many clothes, everywhere i look. filled to the brim with clothes. and there are more stores next to this one. why do we need so many clothes? how many of them are going to get thrown away after having been worn once? how many are going to get thrown away because nobody bought them??

#AAAAAAAAAAAAA #I am never buying clothes anywhere other than in second hand stores ever again I just can't fucking deal with this #(is a liar bc we don't have a lot of second hand stores in our city and they suck) #but seriously buying new clothes always makes me feel terrible. even tho I keep them for YEARS #doddie redet #It's trash. it's all trash. fancy expensive trash. I'm going insane. #not just clothing stores. everything. why do we need so much of everything.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ugh. im feeling chatty today. probably bc i feel kinda weirdly anxious. like when u can Imagine bad things happening in detail #and like it feels like ur wait for it even tho its in ur imagination? whatever. anyway. ive been watching a lotta #stuff on like professional artists and idk maybe im just in too deep on science academia but i dont. i dunno the culture #seems so weird to me? like what does one do in art school? i guess i took a lot of art in high school but my teacher was kinda trash #all we did was paint realisticly using a grid and i hated that. but i image ur supposed to exercise different styles and medias? how tf #does that get graded? i dunno. i haven't taken any uni level art classes. i should tho. id probably like it #its weird tho. anything that tries to give structure to art stuff seems so weird to me. like u go to school for science stuff to build up #ur background knowledge and i guess u can do that with art but it feels different. i guess bc ur training muscle memory. i dunno #i like to imagine an au where i go to art school but i legitimately cannot fathom doing that. cannot fathom a life outside of my toxic #relationship with academia. i dont even kno what i would want to specialize if i went down that path. maybe illustration #bc it makes me happy when ppl say my style looks like something out of a kids book. i dunno #i guess classes would help with things like forcibly learning shadows and anatomy and composition #maybe i just need to make art friends. like what is ur life like? im too much in a science bubble #i guess going to art school also just devotes all ur time to art. not just tiny pockets of time between all the things u have to get done #god. i can only imagine the panic of procrastinating an art project and physically not having enough time to finish it #thats how i felt with my masters thesis. there was just physically not enough time for me to fix my code in all the ways i needed and rew #rewrite things. but i finished it somehow #ugh. god. i have things i need to finish coloring. i will finish them today. i will #i hate coloring. but colors r so pretty ;_; #unrelated

[moodr1ng]

please let this be an upswing please please please..

#97 #have had a couple Good Bipolar Days for a little bit #it hasnt quite concretized into a solid upswing yet #but today i got a bunch of groceries did my dishes and my laundry and threw out all the trash in my room #and it feels like ill be able to do stuff tomorrow probably #i need to find somewhere to go out and people to go out with #bc ik the social isolation makes it so so so much worse #tried today but no one available unfortunately

[jebiknights]

I know I've been complaining about this a lot recently and I'm sorry about that, but it's become really frustrating for this to happen when I'm... not even reading a fic about Anakin. Like sure whatever you don't like him but the kinds of things I see people have characters say... Congrats! You hate Anakin more than you like these side characters you seem to only have included to have them shit talk Anakin (and often woobify Obi-Wan). At this point you are being more insulting to those characters than to Anakin himself.

#like tell me you know nothing about these characters pasts #you just know they are loosely associated with obiwan or you think they and obi wan should fuck #and in order to do that you need to?? trash anakin in ways that make the characters look assholes? #anyway! #frustrating that i cant go into arguably my fave rarepair? tag without either seeing a bunch of c/dywan #woobywan where people clearly know NOTHING about quin #or have quin be cruel just bc they dont like anakin #fandom wank #comm chatter #this is very frustrating for the clones too btw #its one thing if someone dislikes the jedi in general at least then i know its not personal #but like all canon and legends.... says the clones liked anakin #the 501st LOVED their jedi #not just ahsoka they loved ANAKIN #cody and anakin gossiped about obiwan #anakin was well respected if sometimes looked on indulgently as being reckless but getting shit done #like just cause yall hate him doesnt mean everyone does

[wild-puffball]

If I don't get this disability I think I'll just straight up die

#for the last 2 1/2 years ive had my life on hold #it's been so hellish man #no income #nothing to do but rot really #i had no motivation for THEE longest time to do anything bc i felt like actual trash needing to be discarded #i mean low key i still feel this way #had to cancel trips #had to cancel outtings with friends #not even going into the 'regular' every day stuff we all have to deal with #I'll just say this #for the last 2 1/2 years I've been holding on by maybe a thread and single staple #it feels like a personalized Hell #ANYWAYS IF YOU READ ALL OF THIS ILY ♡♡♡ #GONNA GO SIT IN BED NOW

[munch-mumbles]

ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

#for context i was working frying chicken today. ok so i arrive and literally all the chicken out expires within ten minutes of each other #meanwhile to remake everything takes about an hour 20 #tried my best to get everything out and replaced and make sure i have enough of everything and then take my break bc with chicken there are #few narrow windows to take your break in you have very little control over when it is #get back and while im getting ready for my next fry one of the assistant leaders comes back and passive aggressively asks 'everything ok?' #and when i say yeah shes starts saying how shes 'just checking' because apparently i didnt have enough chicken out for her liking and went #on about how we're in a chicken drive (I KNOW. I WORK CHICKEN SHE NEVER HAS.) #etc etc. i just say ok and she leaves #like 20 minutes later she comes fucking back to rag on me again about how i need to choose my break times better and i need to have more #chicken out there as back up (extremely difficult bc there is literally only so much room in the fryers. the batches i usually make already #nearly completely fill them up) blah blah and then when i try to explain how i WAS making pretty big batches people are just snatching them #up fast she keeps trying to walk out the door right away and keeps stopping and looking over her shoulder to just stare at me while i try t #finish my sentence #and she just. doesnt say anything in response when i do finish she just leaves #so clearly she didnt want a conversation she just wanted to rag on me #then later for cleanup the timing of everything just kept lining up inconveniently so i kept having to get in and out of raw cleaning gear #and slowing myself down and i end up having to stay almost 15 minutes late to finish cleaning #during cleaning i have to go grab a key to the back door to take out my trash and this one coworker i have was standing in the way of the #door. i say excuse me and she just stares at me and goes huh? #and i say i need a key and she barely moves out of the way without responding and she has a look like im bothering her #why are you acting like im being douchey. i just need a key. thats something she does a lot she acts like im inconveniencing her by asking #basic favors . ive stopped asking her to help me open the back door (sometimes needed if i also have raw garbage to take out and therefore #cant touch the key myself) for some reason she takes it upon herself to almost completely close the door after i walk out so when i come #back i have to awkwardly use my foot to reach around and pull the door open #ive asked her before not to do it and she just ignored me #GRAH GRAH. and then like i said in my last rb i realized while i was drivign home i forgot to wash a damn pan #im mostly worried about it because ive forgotten a couple times in the past too . in my defense its a pan i personally dont use but it just #gets left behind from first shift sometimes and then second shifters end up having to make sure its clean #im just irritateddd and im mad im worried about it all. its all little things piling up on each other #LOL I WROTE A LOT MORE BUT THE REST GOT CUT OUT IG I HIT A TAG LIMIT. tumblr voice ok dude quit your bitching !!

[pepprs]

gonna delete this later bc i know it’s unproductive to screenshot / namedrop and i actually am thinking the best approach would just be to privately share this thought w the dev who posted this in a possibly futile attempt to effectively advocate for the change i want to see (#worktag2 lol). but im workshopping it here w my beloved mutuals first as i always do which is kinda shooting myself in the foot given that the devs can probably see that but whatever. my thought is like… i get it. i really do. i get that this place needs to stay afloat and some of that is gonna involve sacrifice or something from everyone involved. but… why would you try to snuff out the things that make this place what it is and just make it like all the other places. why would you not even take into account how the changes are going to impact EXISTING users who are loyal even if they don’t pay. people aren’t going to come to tumblr for more tiktok and instagram. they’re going to come here for tumblr. for the anonymity and the customization and whatever. so like i just don’t get it. why is the solution to this problem to experiment with changes **that existing users won’t like** and not to listen to what existing users want and do more of it bc other ppl likely will want that too.

#purrs #idk my thoughts aren’t organized and i have a stomachache so im not thinking clearly and ik i also was trashing staff earlier and that so ma #many ppl must be sending them hate and shit and i know there are probably better ways to go about things. but it’s like.. i do not feel like #i matter and belong as a long time tumblr user 😃 like why would you say this. it’s kind of like a big fuck you to the people who are here es #especially since there have been experimental features (like polls) ppl here have been wanting to see forever. like why can’t you work WITH #us instead of becoming another soulless algorithm wasteland. it just fucking sucks to feel like we don’t matter and we’re not being listened #to. and i get it like this is an age old story. but it sucks. it really does. #delete later #like idk. it just sucks to see a dev say that. why would it not even matter to you what existing users want and need and think. idk #like instead of removing the ‘it’ to get… why not just… idk. make it easier to get. instead of eliminating the it. you know? #ive been mad abt this all day which is cringe / dumb bc it’s the pikaman sword lady crab blue checkmark ‘hellsite’ and i don’t want to buy i #into the cringe staff blog persona but like. tumblr is a lifeline to me and this is just so upsetting lol

[polaraffect]

#damien.txt #so listen. i've been kind of fucking depressed for the past 3 months ish #and im going to tell a story related to that in the tags so. if u continue to read. judgement free zone for me pls okay? #cool cool so im like. Really bad abt taking care of my self & my surroundings when im depressed #esp bc like. im in school & work so. literally ALL of my energy goes to those two things #and i will go. weeks upon weeks not cleaning my room #not throwing out trash. which i am AWARE is gross. but truly i would get home and pass tf out and then wake up and #start the day again. like i just truly was not engaging it in any way #anyways. so there's this library book that's been sitting on my nightstand for around a month ish #and ive also been using it as a place for other nightstand things- putting cups on. glasses at night. etc. #well. so i get an email that this book is due back tomorrow. so im like 'oh i should put this book in my backpack' #and i lift it up..... and fuck. there is literally spotty mold ALL. OVER. the back of this fucking book #i guess one of the cups i left on the night stand leaked liquid onto my nightstand and then it soaked into the book or something #and the book didnt move for a Month so like. it's had forever to just sit there and mold over. #and fuck. fuck! i was having such a good night before this too. #now im like.... what the fuck do i even do #i probably just need to go turn it in & pay the fucking expensive fee but like. fuck me. i wanna cry #it always feels like one thing on top of another. like things just are constantly going wrong in my life #and like i Know this is not. the biggest deal in the world. but it just feels like such a dumb fucking thing to happen idk. #anyways. gonna cry abt that and. i guess figure out what im doing with it tomorrow /:

[kellerybird]

Being a Big Girl and going to the laundromat and it's already been such an ordeal aaaaah

First I was halfway there when i realized i forgot my quarters so I had to turn around and to back home to grab them

Then when I was nearly there I realized I left my headphones at home

At least I remembered the laundry and detergent??

#rink.txt #just going to ignore the fact that laundry is my partner's chore but whatever #i can justify not doing the dishes now #need to have A Talk with them about this tho bc its not fair i have to pick up all their slack AGAIN #especially when they get 3 days off and i only get 2 #i already do the dishes and cook and drive them to and from work and feed the cats and clean their litter boxes and take out the trash #i get theyve got a lot going on with their transition and everything but this is bullshit im not a maid ive got shit going on too

[katierosefun]

oh my god do you ever have such a day that you're too tired to even order takeout

#caroline talks #IT HAS BEEN. A DAY #9 am class and then evidence which was fine and good #worked out. also fine and good #but i tried to assemble a chair. it went so poorly bc one of the legs is too fuckin short #i still tried to make it work #and then i realized this entire chair is fucked up #then i tossed out a bunch of empty packages andi still need to throw out my trash but i am. SO TIRED #and then i remembered that like. ... someone who i haven't spoken to in literally five years #reached out to me via linkedin #which is such a random way to connect with someone after five years #but it's just. there is a reason why i haven't spoken to them in five years!!! #there is a very distinct reason!!! #but oh well! #so now we're going to do some SERIOUS self care by firstly. ordering takeout #maybe i'll make myself a fun little drink who knows #laundry. etc. just NOT USE MY BRAIN #i thought i was going to do law school stuff tonight #but i am literally. EMOTIONALLY WRUNG OUT IT'S ALL GUCCI

[burymeinblack2022]

in my charli xcx vroom vroom era 🤠 🏎 🚗 💨 💥

#beep beep so lets ride #they say gays cant drive but they never said anything abt the bis #i'm seriously trying NOT to be 'all men are trash' but these men do be seriously testing me #dude started yelling at me to calm down after the 1st thing i did was put in the wrong gear that was right next gto it #bc i pushed sliiiightly too hard and i couldnt understand what he was being omnious abt and so it was just like #me minding my business and a guy just telling me to calm down and i wasnt doing anything like a hysteric 18th century maiden #also then i get home and my mom was like 'this guy was in an accident yesterday i think he went to school with u #and it was a ukranian guy who was a total menace in 3rd/4th grade like BAD BAD....and shes just like 'well hes gone' like damn ok #i just got my license (somehow bc the guy was stressing me to the point of breakdown) and ur telling me abt a guy dying in a crash like pls #me when my grandma leaves the sub here: im going on a hero's journey (to her hosue to see my dog <3 <3) #olivia rodrigo WHOMST I SAID ! #wow anna said something #i was listening to bmth lost in the morning and wow isnt that a big mood #like i need a drink frfr pass the licquor #anna's shitposts

[lilgynt]

i’m gonna sound like an awful person but oh my god my dads dog is so much fucking work all the time

#personal #my mom and i are trying to find a home for her #id love to keep her bc my dad loved her so much but like he couldn’t care for her and my mom and i definitely can’t #my dad spoiled her rotten she went out any time she gave an indication she wanted out #or just cause my dad wanted to #so now she’s used to going out all the time for super long lengths of times #and my dad always gave her so much attention they hung out 24/7 with no break #so now she cries and cries and cries #you can feed her take her out take her for a walk try and play or pet her and she’ll just cry #and it’s not like it’s 24/7 but it’s damn near and i can’t get mad at her bc she’s a dog #but god after a shitty ten hour walking her and getting her dinner set up #she’ll just be crying the second i sit anywhere #it’s like keeping movement on youtube so the auto play doesn’t start bc if i start standing for 3 second she’s CRYING #brushing my teeth throwing trash out washing dishes shes just crying #like not she’s sad she’s just whining for attention although probably sad too #and it’s so hard to get anything done. and it’s like i spent my time revolving around my dad i’m not doing it again for a fucking dog #i just need to lay down but god she just cries. you sit she cries you stand she cries you lay down she cries #the worst is when you close ur door and she keep crying bc sweetie I HAVE A JOB #and sometimes after a shower i don’t want to repet her she’s stinky! #and she’s a dog she can’t control any of this but i can’t do anything without her crying for attention #and i can never eat anymore without her crying at my door #i’m just tired and she’s so needy and it’s not her fault but i’m gonna lose it

[bobzora]

taking a break from my 1 playthru bc im SO tired of walkthroughs to play portable because i've already beat fes so i know what im doing prettyyy much. girlie time ^_^

#bobtalk #p3pposting #<-lol #pink UI!!!!!! also i picked theo even though liz is literally my girlbestie 10/10 attendant for new content (sad!)hes ok ig #point n click is. weird. but honestly walking around wasnt that big a deal (i kind of missed some stuff for a long time bc i didnt know i c #uld walk there in FES lol). the only big things im missing are the animated cutscenes (really cool artstyle) and being able to see ppl move #like. imagine not being able to watch liz go down the slide standing up. hashtag sad! #i forgot how much i liked 3. its nice seeing (yukari) my (yukari) friends (yukari) again (yukari) #ough. i should make an amv (using the movies probs even tho i love the game cutscenes just bc. more footage. sigh) #WAIT HOLY SHIT nobodys done a die young amv yet???????????? really??????? i need to corner this market #also. noticing a correlation between hair color and canonically bisexual protagonists (its the brown hair) (is the trinitysoulguy bisexua #its gonna be so long until we get aigis:( i miss her. i miss my computer wife #my social stats in fes were so trash that i was barely able to get very far at all in yukari's SL. i need to make sure to avoid that proble #anyways. i think i like these video games some amount. good bye