#because you put it on my feed!!

[tubbytarchia]

Tumblr: There's this post someone reblogged but we covered it up for you because it contains filtered tags. In fact it contains this exact tag that you filtered thought we'd just remind you Me: Thanks. No actually fuck you cant you just not show me it

#I dont understand #it just makes me think of whatever reasons I filtered said tag and it stresses me out and then I wanna click on the post anyway #because you put it on my feed!! #ughhggfh #blabber

[egophiliac]

I was really in the mood to do some masquerade fanart, but I didn’t feel like coming up with anything original, so here’s some of my favorite (...slightly paraphrased) bits from the first part. I don’t know where it’s going, but it’s pretty fun so far!

also one that isn’t canon except in my heart:

(disclaimer that this is a Joke)

(he is a horrible little rat man, but to be fair, so is everyone else)

(if you don’t like horrible little rat men why are you even playing this game)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #glorious masquerade #hey rolly is your big secret plan to give malleus the best day ever because so far it's working #he got INVITED to go on a TRIP and his favorite humans are there and there's GARGOYLES #not to mention his special little fancy boy outfit with a special little fancy boy hat that has room for his horns! #round it out with an ice cream social to put a nice button on it #the only downside is that the building is too nice. mal likes his buildings REAL shitty. #he WILL say this to your face. #(this is why he never gets invited anywhere.) #anyway cannot overstate how delightful it is to see jade be like 'i would also like to destroy something' #go for it! indulge that id! #azul doesn't care as long as you keep it to things he's not personally responsible for! #not included but also appreciated: trein spending twenty minutes discussing the care arrangements he made for his cat #then having a tearful goodbye with said cat #(the care arrangements boil down to 'i asked my coworker to feed him') #(crewel is a friend to all animals apparently and that's the most surprising twist so far)

[satansleftnutcheek]

Starting to think that the key to being a staple “must watch” anime is to trick people into learning philosophy cause we’ve got:

Evangelion - come for the mecha fights stay to learn about the “self”, reality, and identity

Cowboy Bebop - come for the space cowboys stay to learn about what it truly means to live and to be alive

Trigun - come for the silly main character and cool fights stay to learn about pacifism, forgiveness, the sanctity of life, and the strength of hope

Fullmetal Alchemist - come for the cool science “magic” stay to learn about Plato, what is truth, and how to live a good life

#this is the TLDR surface level but you get what I mean #they put something in the water in the 90s that’s all I’m saying #I can’t watch normal shows again like nothing will ever be this good #I watched Trigun because stampede was all over my twitter feed #now I’m obsessed with a Bible fanfiction #I watched cowboy bebop bc it’s one of those staple must watch animes #now I can’t stop trying to figure out what the show is trying to tell me #I also watched evangelion because it’s a staple must watch anime #now I’m watching I wisecrack video on it #wish I never watched these shows they’ve raised my standards and nothing can satisfy me anymore #that is a light hearted comment btw #somebody put something in the water again I want more stories like this #anime #90 anime #cowboy bebop #Trigun #Trigun stampede #Trigun maximum #evangelion #almost forgot about FMA #totally didn’t at it in post shhhh #fullmetal alchemist #fullmetal alchemsit brotherhood #FMA #FMA brotherhood

[franzkafkagf]

no cuz why is he SO baby girl coded:…….. jj abrams im sending you my therapy bill.

#kylo ren #omg sorry for posting star wars on the feed <3 #no because why is the the best character ever put to screen in stsr wars…. what moved jj abrams to create the ult baby girl omff……….. i can #my complicated relationship with kylo ren is mysterious….. full of enigma even #MWSH i love you bitchboy. you and your lil gay eyeliner… #omfg im crying again… i think im getting my period😭 #ales.txt

[leomonae]

Okay but... how much blood does a D&D vampire need every day, simply "once a day" is not greatly helpful in and of itself! Am I looking at, like... a city of 50k people to support 5k vampires sustainably where they only need a very small amount, or one of 500k going off real world blood donation amounts, or like 5 million if it's an entire person's worth of blood daily ffs, did anyone actually think through the logistics of this when they put it in the game?

I'm not actually convinced the Underdark has that many people living in it, if it's the latter. I'm not even convinced the entirety of the Sword Coast does! How the hells was Cazador feeding all these vampires enough to keep them alive for so long in the centuries leading up to the Rite?!

#baldur's gate 3 #hyperfixation ahoy #vampire spawn #cazador szarr #where are your livestock fields Cazador #where are your giant herds of cows stretching from horizon to horizon #did you make a pact with a devil for this too #have you been feeding them lemures diverted from the hells #because I'm fairly damn sure you have not been keeping them on even starvation rations from a city with like 100k people in it #we shall not all die verse #i just like my Tav did not put any thought into this whatsoever before blithely sending all those spawn off to a totally unsuitable location #and now i *unlike* my tav who is a lucky fictional character have to come up with some solution to this mess #i hope you like fish vampires #you might be eating a lot of fish blood soon

[zhongrin]

I assume you got hate for that L&D ask? I'm sorry that was done. Feel better soon. Maybe say less next time.

i appreciate your kind words, thank you. however, while i'm sure you had the best intention with this, i don't think i will 'say less'. this is my blog, my space, and as long as i'm not actually causing harm to anyone or anything along that line, i think i'm allowed to have some degree of freedom regarding saying what i like/dislike and setting my boundaries. i'm sorry, but i'm not an influencer, nor a public figure who has the responsibility to spread positivity and be a role model to you all. i try as much as i can, of course, but that's not the purpose of this blog. i'm just a human being who needed an outlet for writing and wanted to connect with like-minded people.

what part was not 'right'? that i expressed, in my own blog, how i didn't want to try out a game because one of the reasons is i find the graphics of the fictional characters off-putting, when asked? that i likened a fictional game art style to a different franchise and objects you see all the time in adult site ads? that i never said anything about the people who do like the game and told them "i'm happy you found a game you like"? that i never, not even once, went to other people's posts or blog who posted that game's content to ruin their fun like a bastard? that i actively chose to use tumblr's filter instead? that even if the filter didn't work, i chose to scroll and ignore instead of bitching about it?

pray tell, what did i do wrong? why should i say less? since when am i not allowed to dislike things?

and a public psa ー i'm sorry, but bluntly speaking, if you take an affront when I expressed MY own opinion, WHEN PROMPTED, WITHIN MY OWN SPACE (and god forbid you retaliate like that anon(s?) by spamming me to shut the fuck up and kill myself), then that's really not my problem. it's an art direction, for god's sake. i adore zhongli, who gets memed and made fun of as a cockroach all the time; you don't see me screaming at people to stop.

learn that people may not like the things you like. learn to agree to disagree. learn to treat others as fellow human beings with likes and dislikes. learn to separate fiction from reality.

and seriously, if you're annoyed with my rambles or 'babblings' or the interactions with my friends, tumblr has a filter and block function. it's just a simple google away. give some peace to your own mind.

#minors dni #rin answers #rin is having tea with: daydreams-and-wonder #and to clarify. i'm not mad at you daydreams-and-wonder!! #i truly appreciate the well wishes #but i had to get this out of my system because it's just so ridiculous that this is happening imo #cw vent in following tags #then again #excluding my actual friends. out of 8.5k of people following me i wonder if even one percent of you actually think of me as a human being #and not just a blob in your phone who churns out somewhat decent content every now and then #or some sentient hybrid between a journal or twitter you could just go anytime to feed your need for validation and attention one sidedly #or an entertaining monkey you put on a stage to watch just for the fun of it only to 'cancel' the moment i 'slip up' #maybe it's my pms. maybe i'm just stressed rn. or maybe it's long time coming #but i'm not just tired anymore. i'm getting disgusted of this treatment

[fionnaskyborn]

Was tagged by @oceancamp to post my current five favorite songs! (They should invent a stages-of-grief-esque model that encompasses and accurately describes both types of anguish I had to go through making this list - the one of limiting myself to only five songs, and the one of trying to put as little videogame music on here as possible so that I don't end up looking like an absolute goddamn geek, which... I am... Oh well!)

Thank you so much for tagging me - here are the songs!

Heaven Pierce Her - War Without Reason

Tatsuro Yamashita - Love Space

This specific arrangement of Death And Republic + Meet Again

Winger - Junkyard Dog (Tears On Stone)

The Protomen - Light Up The Night

Is it courtesy to tag other people after you've been tagged in a post like this? If that's the case, I'll tag @spiralled-fury, @solradguy, @swamppossum, @five-by-five, @northstarring, @ineedmoredragons and @tbonechessor!

#logs #ya don't have to participate if you don't want to‚ from what i've gathered - it's all just for fun anyway :] #The link to Yamashita's song is actually a link to a website that hosts city pop songs‚ since those keep getting taken down on YouTube due #to the strictness of Japan's copyright laws with regards to music. Uploads of Yamashita's songs in particular get taken down quite #frequently... The rest are either Bandcamp or YouTube (in case of Junkyard Dog) links #Very out-of-character of me not to put a Кино song on here‚ haha #I had a hard time deciding whether to put HOLD BACK THE NIGHT or Light Up The Night here‚ but ultimately decided on Light Up The Night #because... hoo boy #okay storytime. i've known of the protomen since somewhere around 2021. got The Good Doctor in my recommended feed‚ clicked on it because #i thought the album cover was cool + the title was appealing‚ but i never really listened to anything theirs beyond that song after that. #fast forward to 2022. be me‚ watching the greatest videoessay on planet earth (Steak Bentley's Metal Gear Solid 4 Was A Mistake). #the fucking MONTAGE comes on‚ and I fall in love with my second Protomen song. second fast forward to 2023 going into 2024‚ finally got #around to playing the Violence update. i learn of the name of level 7-2. the widest‚ most mischievous grin appears on my face. #i enter the level‚ proclaim ''ULTRAKlLL IS NOW A STEAK BENTLEY REFERENCE'' and blast the song as i get my ass beat by every single thing in #that level. #and let me tell you. getting mollywhopped ten thousand times by the FUCKING GUTTERTANK TRIO AT THE END OF THE LEVEL WAS. not a pleasant #experience. but the song made it better. :) (i played the level before the balance patch came out and uh let's just say i had more deaths on #that level than on 2gabe and 1gabe. SEVENTY-FOUR. FUCKING. RESTARTS. JESUS /CHRIST/. #goodness how i yearn to make a 3d animation of v1 going through 7-4 with that song in the background as a tribute to the man himself but #alas i am a student who has everything in the world but time #thanks for the tag again!! ^^

[hussyknee]

I've been having a severe PTSD episode for over five hours and it never registered because spending half the day in helpless fits of obsessive, murderous, paralysing rage is the nothing out of the ordinary for me. "Oh, I'm just an angry person like that" yes because I'm constantly triggered, retriggered and retraumatized by living disabled and dependent on Satan, who happens to be my egg donor.

It doesn't seem like I'll ever really internalise that these rages are PTSD episodes, especially since I'm a woman and therefore socially conditioned not to harm anyone except myself (that's a privilege reserved for six foot cis het men in charge of families who do the traumatizing). But in case it does anyone else good to hear: you aren't an "angry person". You have Complex PTSD. The rage outs are the exact equivalent of panic attacks and disassociation that Hollywood likes to show. The need to FIGHT is as a visceral, animal, instinctive and uncontrollable as the need for flight, to fawn, or to freeze. You aren't angry. You're fucking terrified and trapped and very, very ill.

#it's really apparent rn because instead of my usual suicidal ideation at this point #I'm fighting irrational fears of mum hurting or poisoning my cats #to be clear: altho i no longer put anything past her #it's the thought of the woman getting off her ass enough to arrange a poisoning or feeding an animal of her own bat is whats laughable here #also whatever she does it can't be something that would make her face up to the fact that she's foul #poison is too merciful and straightforward. she prefers criminal neglect and emotional vampirism #you wouldn't think a disabled old woman living downstairs could possibly be this much of a festering black rot on so many people's existenc #when she dies they're going to promote her to a head torturer on arrival #abuse #complex ptsd #complex post traumatic stress disorder #anger issues #gaslighting #emotional abuse #child abuse #parental abuse #actually cptsd #knee of huss

[axolotlelle]

logs into tumblr

sees people being assholes to game devs

logs out

#just so yall know. i work at a studio yall love to dunk on and its actively affecting my mental health to be bombarded by negativity #I JUST WORK THERE I NEED TO PAY RENT AND FEED MY CATS #if you want to dunk on execs name them directly else you're dunking on all of us #i need to start putting in less effort because none of you deserve high quality games with how you treat people making them

[greyias]

🙃

Purina apparently discontinued and then reformulated the only canned food I've found so far that Griffin's extraordinarily sensitive tummy can tolerate, adding one of his potential worst allergens to nearly the top of the formulation list. I have sent a Karen-like e-mail to Purina, and am now having to have five million tabs open on different pet food websites to put the ingredient lists of everything under a microscope to try and find something remotely close.

#(look he's my special boy he has very special needs) #like he has one brand of dry dog food he can eat #so he won't starve #but he gets the canned wet food on top because of other gi issues #related to last year's emergency surgery #but on an unrelated rant: why the FUCK would you put LIVER in your sensitive stomach formula #it literally registers as a 5000 on griffin's allergy test #i believe 80 was the cutoff limit before it starts causing problems #so like he had some cranberry supplements he was getting after a uti #that had beef liver in it #and it would immediately start him on an episode that would take several days to calm his stomach down #so if i had not looked at that ingredient label and started feeding him this #i would have had at the very least a giant mess to clean up

[sciderman]

we need to see more non dp spidey pairings

just read the comics man! they're everywhere!

(also, please, be the change you want to see in the world, anon.)

#sci speaks #i feel great that i could introduce a lot of people to a lot of more niche ships #but also i'm just one guy and i can't feed everyone. and sometimes i like to be fed too. please. sometimes. #also i happen to really like spideypool a lot. in case you didn't notice. #sometimes it bugs my head when people say that compared to other ships spideypool is somehow inferior #like i get why people say it. i completely understand why people say it. it doesn't have the same groundwork as other ships do #but that's kind of why i liked it so much and why i have such a good time with it. all the hard work that goes into it. #spideypool will always be the One That Takes Most Brain Space for me. just because it keeps my brain working. i have to put the thought in. #scratches my brain itch like no other. #i love all of peter's other relationships i really really do. like i adore them. every single one is so good and delicious. #and i want to introduce everyone to all those relationships because they're Important. and they're entertaining and so good. #but also my heart belongs to spideypool... i'll always come back to her. #deadpool and spider-man are both my muses and i couldn't leave either one of them. so i must smoosh them together.

[orange-dreamzer]

hehehehehhHEHWHWHHHWAHA

happy birhtday @zu-is-here :333333

gehhehehehe :3 have a wonderlicious day !!!!!!!!!!!

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#my artsies #have a slayfull day 😎😎😎 ghoultastic even!!!!! 🧛‍♀️ #i hope you enjoy. if not i‘ll gift u the other 26 versions too <3333 #may you live an extra decade onto your 100 years >;D #the zweater #zu birthday #(official tags now ty<3 😁) #u were a naughty little gremlin inspiring me sm. thank u for all the awesome drawings #lots of hugs to you!!! ;D #(this counted as a hug so i managed 😤) #i also have long nails now for u #sadly u didn‘t say ur favourite colour 😔 #but is oki :) #anywayz!!!! #have a great fantastic gift filled day please!!!!!! #Posted just a minute earlier just in case yk <3 #UPD: YOU DID SAY IT 😁😁😁 I was right :3 #Anyway you've been giving us so many gifts feeding us #U deserve something in return #Updating again because I forgot to put #Hug for Zu #HugForZu #Liking it myself (updating again) because I love this myself

[2pookie]

not so sure how to feel about the "this burden is not yours to bear alone" and the "sh/oto is our h/ero" moments...

#delete later / #first of? it IS his burden to bear alone immho. everybody is hurt (traumatised) and everybody feels like they failed #because YOU rotted this family. YOU poisoned it. YOU wrecked it from inside out. YOU alone abused them. #my visceral reaction to that line was 'don't piss me off now' because dear god... this was a one man's hit. imo! #everybody else's reactions behaviors etc etc were in response to what he put them through #of course! some things are entirely theirs to bear and own up to. but everybody was subjected to his blinding greed #i may get sh/ot for this but the impression i have so far is that t/oya was the one he cared for the most #insane statement. will rewatch it / read it and analyze it all and come back to my current impressions tbh #and now the whole 'sh/oto is our hero'............. #it can be summarized into 1. he is a 16 y/o kid. it's long overdue to stop placing the entire weight of the family #on his shoulders. and 2. i think it feeds and plays into the isolation sh/oto suffered that wrecked them all #+ the vicious cycle of it all + it's still the 'sh/oto vs everyone' mentality idk... what are ur takes on this? #did nawt mean to rant this badly on the tags btw 😭😭

[jacqcrisis]

Backstory for Ronan: He started out as a mercenary/soldier for hire. It's a rather normal career for a dragonborn; being raised in a culture of constantly bettering oneself in the name of self discipline, self improvement, and honor encourages many a dragonborn leaving the clan for a few years to gain martial experience in a more hands on manner. Ronan was no exception, setting out at a young age to hone his capabilities.

And Ronan was good at it. He was ruthless, dominating, reveling in the violence inherit in his chosen career which only fueled his arrogance and competitive nature. It garnered him a precarious reputation; he was reliable and single minded in his determination to complete any job, but he was difficult to work with, expecting perfection from his company and any failure to live up to it would bring about his wrath. Still, his success rate and his talent were seen as worth the cruel unforgiving man they were attached to.

At some point, after being injured, he met and fell in with a cleric of Bahamut, a half-elf whom he very much and very openly adored, choosing to set down roots in the city the cleric's temple was located in. The cleric did good for him, soothing the hard edges and encouraging a more thoughtful approach that was still in line with his dragonborn culture, one he'd mostly dismissed when he first set out. It was a deep love he felt and Ronan was genuinely trying for the sake of it.

But love can't fix everything. He was still prone to violence. Still prone to competition. Still an arrogant asshole and one step too far ended in a needless skirmish that his company barely came out on top of at the sacrifice of a few lives including his beloved.

Ronan was devastated, as one could imagine. That first storm of anger had nowhere to go but at himself as everyone else responsible was dead. He'd lost everything; his honor broken, and all he was left with was himself, and that wasn't worth much. The inital rage morphed into grief, self doubt, and in that miasma, he decided to take up the mantle of cleric, enfolding himself into worship of a diety he cared not for before in the name of his fallen love and in the hopes of crafting a better version of the man he was.

Ronan found solace in a religious self-isolation, doing as needed for his training for the town around his temple, but keeping mostly to himself. Years passed, he aged and matured, that hot-headed, angry nature cooling, extracted and replaced with something more patient and thoughtful as he became an intermediary to Bahamut. There was peace in healing, in helping people as his god demanded, but that part of him buried deep under the peace that reveled in combat found itself hungering, rarely satiated by the rare call to banish anything undead that found itself above the ground once more.

But that isolated peace could not last, kidnapped onto a mind flayer ship and now facing a new realization as he finds himself in the company of people other than priests and surrounded by problems more perilous than farming accidents and the rogue undead. He'd never realized how lonely, how bored he'd been stuck in that temple and Bahamut has been quiet since having the tadpole put into his head. He has to wonder as it becomes apparent the old Ronan was not as buried as he thought:

How much if himself can he let back into the light?

#jacq writes #finally wrote it out #his voice is also several octaves deeper than whats in game #he was a merc from 18 to 25ish #and a cleric from 25 to now at about 36 #i had to restart my game to a point 8 hours ago #because i locked myself accidentally put of the astarion feeding on you mechanic #by selecting a dialogue option not even related to it #so thats fun #my boy here has been in religious self isolation and now hes single and ready to mingle #and beat ass

[allysdelta]

Just wanted to mention that for the first time, I managed to bake a sourdough loaf, using a starter I made myself from wild yeasts, and at no time did it turn into an inedible brick of hardtack

I didn't have bread flour and used all-purpose, but overall I am very pleased with the outcome. It tasted good too

#Sourdough #My starter survived almost a year in the fridge without going bad and bubbled like anything once I started feeding it again #I named it GlaDOS. Because she's still alive. #I used the artisan baking technique where you let the dough hydrate for a long time and then put the whole lot in a dutch oven and cover it #Worked like a charm #I did not use a recipe because I'm a rebel that way

[anipgarden]

One thing I've found important but also sometimes difficult to learn is that the difference between a 'butterfly garden' and a 'biodiverse habitat' is that you gotta accept that sometimes things are gonna die.

This isn't to say that you shouldn't try to tend to things. If I find a bunch of oleander aphids harassing some of my young milkweed plants, I'll get the hose and spray them off no problem--hard to tend a garden and save milkweed seeds if they're getting the life sucked out of them before they can even go to seed. If I see a lot of snails starting to devour some of my flowers and turn them into brown mush, I'll pick them off and toss them to the neighborhood ducks.

But with that being said, creating a biodiverse environment for wildlife means there's gonna be prey animals and predator animals, and some insects may fill several niches. I plant milkweed and other flowers so monarchs and other insects can enjoy them as a host plant and a nectar source. Some years, I can barely even find large caterpillars because the wasps just go ham and pig out. That doesn't mean I'm gonna hunt down any and every wasp nest and spray it to death for being oh-so-mean to my precious baby caterpillars! They're just trying to survive, just like everything else in my garden!

And in the grand scheme, everything is part of a cycle that feeds everything else. The caterpillars feed the wasps, which then feed the cardinals and chickadees and mocking birds. Later in the summer, I always see some ladybugs, and my aphid problems drop even without me bringing out the hose. Sure, the snails are a major problem for me, right now. But they might be feeding things I'm not even seeing, late at night--like blindworms, or possums, or frogs, and maybe even the birds are going at them when I'm not outside.

The literal basis of my pollinator garden is so things can eat other things--the caterpillars feed on the milkweed, after all. I can't deny that they're part of an ecosystem, and the effort in trying to just sprays poisons everywhere for no real reason.

If I really wanted to, I could try and collect every single tiny little baby caterpillar and keep them in a little container, so I can rear them by hand, if it hurts too much to think of them getting eaten by wasps. My next door neighbor did that. Brought in 26 caterpillars to protect them from outside enemies, and promptly ran out of milkweed. Out of all that, only maybe 10 tops made it. And the instant she set out her stripped-bare plants again, there were already more monarchs coming in and laying seeds on the stems of plants that just barely were starting to leaf back out.

Nature's a balancing act. Monarchs have been dealing with pests like wasps through all this time. Every time I wonder where the caterpillars are, I sure can still find a few dozen eggs on my plants. Butterflies are still dropping by, still laying tons of eggs on my plants. And it's not like I go out there five times a day to count caterpillars--for all I know, there could still be dozens of those little guys growing up where I don't even see them.

I feel like I'm losing my point. Long story short, if wasps are eating some caterpillars in my backyard, I'm not gonna lose my mind. I want my garden to be part of a wider ecosystem, not a members-only club.

#ani rambles #out of queue #pollinator gardening #'but Ani if you don't mind things dying in your garden why are you killing snails' I spent MONEY on those plants #and they're always my non-milkweed favorites they're going after!!! #coneflowers rudbeckias zucchini squash foxglove I'm not allowed to have nice things because of those fuckers #am I being a bit unfair to them???? maybe #but also you try picking off 100 goddamn snails from your fuckin flowers after a rainy day and see how you feel #'ani make your garden less moist to handle the snail problem' I live in FLORIDA #if I don't water things'll bake OR it'll just rain anyways for three days straight and all of a sudden my rudbeckias are dead #I need to attract some goddamn snail eating frogs but until then im putting them in a bucket and feeding them to #the ducks that live in my neighborhood