#best day of the week 10/10

[worm-in-a-trenchcoat]

Mutuals!!! Beasties!!!

We went to an antique mall today for my birthday and look at what I found!!

The whole top floor was full of vintage toys and dolls/Barbie’s, I wanted to buy everything 😭

#monster high #the tall ghoul on the counter wasn’t for sale I wanted her so bad 😭 #the one in box on the shelf was for sale but she was 250 bucks #I’m definitely going back there when I get paid they can take all my money #they also had an oddity room where I also wanted to buy everything 😭 #10/10 today was a good day #the lady who worked this part of the store is also autistic/has adhd #and she said one of her hyperfixations is Barbie and dolls #I swear this woman info dumped about dolls to this girl who was looking for 80s Barbie’s #for a good 30 minutes #I wanted to talk with her so bad I’ve never seen someone else info dump about dolls before I want to be her best friend 😭 #we’re going back there some time this week so maybe I’ll get to talk to her next time we go #if you live in Virginia this place is in VA beach!

[meandmyechoes]

Ahsoka + emoji

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#ahsoka tano #swedit #tcwedit #ahsokatanoedit #the clone wars #star wars #how do i gif #i made like. 10 gifs a day. #for two weeks #gif recycling at its best

[druidic-focus]

you ever fall back into a hyperfixation so hard you feel insane.

#10 years ago i went as raph for halloween. and damn it we’re so fucking back!!!!!! #bg3 ily but i will never forgive you for stealing the name raphael away from my boy. tried to find a raphael playlist on spotify the other #day. and all the first results were that slimy mf 😭😭 #literally for the past few weeks tmnt has consumed my thoughts. thank u julian kay for ttrpg ‘mutants in the now’ so i can fully immerse #myself in the world. loving these books. would love to play the game someday 🧍‍♂️ #how to find fellow weirdos who will play a ttrpg that is significantly different from 5e’s system. where are you guys #brain is literally just like lalalalala i love the turtles they are my best friends :3 #(the ones i watched as a teen jsgskdh the 2023 ones are my SONS #also shoutout to my nanny kids also being super into tmnt. it’s literally the most often play pretend they choose #tho ​i did get assigned donatello cuz i wear glasses jsgskdh. we all know i’m mikey at heart but what the 4yo says goes 🤧 #like half the time i am emmy half the time i am donnie. even the 2yo is in on it jsgskdh

[tomwambsgans]

it's really just something deeply depressing about s4 as a whole that we're meant to believe 6 months of shiv not being around and tom and greg going out for drinks and whatnot wasn't enough of a catalyst for them. like yes it is literally the whole point of the show but it's like god this is the WORST timeline! or ONE of the worst! because tom and greg objectively love each other and care for each other in a specifically homosexual romantic way which literally none of the other characters do, and yet even now they're so strung out. tom is still pathologically unable to accept and/or express his desire for greg in a straightforward way. how many Ruined Moments must they have had, huh? after all this time, all this stuff between them... and frankly it would be worse to assume that they DID culminate something offscreen or whatever bc then knowing what's happened onscreen, that would be like reverse development. so the best possible reading is just a fucking tragedy. and once again, yeah, duh, the point. i'm just saying i'm fucking sad lol

#mine #tomgreg #that time jump between seasons is just something i'm not gonna get over tbh #i don't like it #and i think it soured things #even if it was perhaps narratively necessary #i guess it kinda just adds to the metanarrative of how capitalism rots you and whatnot yada yada #you can't be a whole person even at your very best you lose time etc #well anyway since all this shit happened in like 2 weeks it's safe enough to say that tons more emotional developments could happen #in like the next 2 days in universe #logan literally died like 10 days ago so i think tom and greg could fuck nasty tomorrow

[godblooded]

super great when you learn you’ve been trying your best and it just isn’t even remotely good enough.

#ooc. mikkelsen vc: this week on kat valentine's hannibal. #[I am trying to be there for everyone I’m trying to be a good friend but I am also in the process of doing literally everything for my aunt. #I am just trying not to be literally swallowed entirely by my depression. I am trying not to become continuously overwhelmed by spending #more than a collective 10 hours a week in a doctors office. it is almost my fucking birthday and I have tried my best to not think about it #as the worst day. even with the fact that my aunt has a treatment. #I haven’t tutored hs in so long I had two panic attacks three hours beforehand. I’m trying so hard to just….. stay together as a person and #the fact that someone’s upset with me is just…. I’m trying my best???? #I am trying so hard I don’t have the spoons on a good day to even remember to eat half the time/] #negative / #[ not about any of you guys I’m just venting honestly. it’s just. I feel like shit about it but I’m trying so. hard.]

[electrificata]

Things the 60 yr old receptionist at my job does during a workday

Organizes post-meeting food alert chain

Shares intimate personal details with her favorite delivery guy

On my first day had already reserved the opportunity to introduce me to my coworker who has the same first name as me (not a notably uncommon name)

Brought a barbecue dinner in for someone? Not clear on the details

Watches julie andrews performances on youtube really loud for like 2 hrs at a time

Attends womens torah study group on zoom with no headphones

Burps a lot and really loud

Stops by my desk to detail how chocolatey her daily chocolate chip cookie was to me (i pick it up for her on my coffee run its fine)

Practices singing (she has piano backing i think someone plays keys for her on zoom) (might be a youtube backing track idk im close enough to hear its happening but not to identify the songs)

#i will tolerate no insult to her i come into the office once a week and she is the best part of the day #shes like 3 yrs younger than my mom but looks 10 yrs older stacy has LIVED a LIFE

[loveourfuture-c]

🔥+ benvi because i feel that rant was so personal 👀

This is my favorite thing to talk about ever:

So benvi has become like one of my all time favorite ships. Childhood Academic rivals to reluctant friends to lovers is a god tier trope. They encapsulate everything I love in a ship.

1. They understand each other:

Example of this is in season 1 when Ben gets Fabiola and Eleanor to talk Devi into going to spread her dads ashes and make up with her mom. Ben knew that they were the only people who could get her to go. He also understood just how important it was for her to go.

Another example of this is all the subtle looks they give each other, especially in class.

2. They make each other better:

They do this through many things, one of the things being their academic rivalry. Through their competitiveness they have managed to make each other better and more well rounded students. They push each other to work harder and better.

They also just make each other better people in general. The closer Ben and Devi got the more Ben began to break out of his “asshole” persona and become a more likable person. He also got more confident in himself and his ability to make friends. Also standing up to his parents was huge and that was in large part due to Devi.

Through their relationship/ friendship Devi has been forced to start to grow a little. Ben pushing her to make amends with the people she has wronged (her mom, Aneesa). He has helped her start to heal! Ben has helped her become a less selfish person.

3. They have similar goals and ambitions:

They both want to go to Ivy League schools and plan on having somewhat high powered careers . (I’m partial to them going into a STEM type of career but that’s just me).

4. They are able to be themselves around each other.

The times Devi’s true personality comes through is when she is with Ben. She doesn’t ever have to put up a front to try to “be cool”. She allows her walls to come down and to be vulnerable with him. Something that she has never done with Paxton. She trusts Ben completely and that he is the one person who she feels like she can really talk to.

Same thing with Ben, he is way more comfortable with Devi than he is with anyone else. He is a kind and wonderful person and Devi is one of the only people to always see that side of him. Even before they were friends he expressed concern for her and knew when something was wrong with her. She alone is one of the only people that really knows how his relationship with his parents really is.

They are each other’s best friends!!

Also, the use of this line when Devi kisses Ben kills me, “All my life I’ve been hiding myself, just waiting for a boy like you”

I don’t know if this was intentional or not but this line really solidifies just how vulnerable Devi is with Ben. She hides herself from everyone, except Ben.

5. The banter!!!

The slightly insulty banter with the underlying sexual tension… there truly is nothing else like it.

6. THEIR INSANE CHEMISTRY!!!!!!!

In conclusion, these two are the pure definition of soulmates. This ship is so superior to d*xton is every way. I am incapable of being normal about them and I make zero apologies for it.

#never have i ever #benvi #devi vishwakumar #ben gross #anti daxton #listen if they don’t end up together I will literally be so upset I will need like several weeks to mourn that’s how much it will affect me #I love them so much it’s a problem #they are actually perfect #thank you for coming to my ted talk #otp: difficult personalities #the way Devi confidently kisses Ben int eh car then pulls away scared vs. ben who smiles and reaches for her to kiss her deeply is something #I think about at least 10 times a day #ben x devi #devi x ben #Jaren and Maitreyi have the BEST chemistry with each other #every scene they are in together makes me #absolutely feral

[masquenoire]

So, about my contract ending? Work just called and they want me back permanently starting from Tuesday, same hours but less days (just 4 days a week) to cover evenings which works out pretty good for me, leaving me free during the day!

#💀 ;; OOC #I swear to god I'm annoying the fuck out of ya'll with this but !!! #I went in earlier today and the boss said there's going to be contracts avaliable around Easter #Called me just now offering permanent night work which I'm going to take because holy shit #Not too many days a week and a nice stretch of work? #Beats sitting on my arse for 4 months #Only today and tomorrow to rest but fuck it I need money #And my hospital appointments are in the early afternoon so I can manage both #I can't believe 2023 is already turning kickass I'm crying <3 #Life's been so shit since 2019 so I'm so fucking happy #And being a permanent member I'll get staff discount so 10% off shopping with more during peak seasons #AHHHHH #Still going to do my best to write but these hours will be a lot more managable #Night work will be easier too as it's quiet so just warehouse/stacking #I swear to god I'm not gaslighting you all but asdfghjkl #I'm happy and can't believe it

[corvid-language-library]

Just realised I can't use tomorrow to relax because I have to prepare a stupid demo for the staff meeting on Monday 🙃

#ruffled feathers #we have to come up with a game that's 'safe focused and frequent' and doesn't leave anyone waiting for a turn #the TL for my demo is an entire fucking script i kid you not #i'm like. how tf do i make a game of this #it's one thing when you just have to do on Q and one A #but i have an actual dialogue and the age range is 10-12s #so i guess the best thing to do is just some super unoriginal janken ladder game? #everyone knows it so it's not like i'm bringing anything new or interesting to the table #but i have one day off and i've had a 6-day work week at a new school with POs and i have another 6-day week coming up #and i'm still processing a complicated and painful break up with a long-term partner #i barely had time to recover from jetlag before not just launching back into work #but travelling to a new school with Ss i've never met that's so far from yamagata city i had to stay at a hotel #so fuck it. i'm gonna be boring and unoriginal #i'll talk to my boss beforehand bc he's very understanding and i hate disappointing him #just explain that it's not gonna be my best and i know it's not my best for xyz reasons but i promise i'll try harder next time #he'll probably still be disappointed but i'm sure we'll both learn to live with it #besides. no offence to this one colleague of mine but i know he'll quarter-ass some garbage last minute #so whatever happens my boss will probably be less disappointed in what i have to show than what this guy does lmao #i'm such a bitch sometimes but it's true #watch him now put in an effort and come up with something spectacular for a change

[atiyasnake]

I am resisting the urge to go and rewrite some beginning chapters of fics I have already posted and are ongoing, seeing as I look back on them and am like my writing has improved so those early chapters are not currently up to my standards or something. But like at the same time I SHOULD KEEP MOVING FORWARD and it would be hella time consuming rewriting them.

But then I look back or get a comment that points out a lil iffy thing I had written out and I'm like 'rewrite rewrite rewrite' >_<

Like, something I wrote back in 2021 is obviously different from how I write now. Especially since I have written so much and learned as I went about what I liked and what worked. You can probably see my progression in that fic as you keep reading, which is interesting to be able to visibly see it. BUT MY MIND IS LIKE REWRITE and essentially jazz it up and fix errors that I missed before.

BUT THATS TIME CONSUMING AND ALSO FEELS JUST A TAD MEAN TO MYSELF...but like would be so satisfying to do.

Then there is the fact that I'll probably feel like this in a year or two in the future about things I've written now and posted, and then we have this cycle repeating all over again.

This makes me consider writing a whole fic and finishing it before uploading anything on Ao3, which would be cool to have something finished ready to put out (meaning an actual consistent updating schedule). But at the same time I like the updating as I go and seeing ppl's excitement and feedback in comments is really fun and helps with motivation. Like they get to be a part of the progress in a way.

Anyways this is something I just have been twisting and turning in my head like a cat with a thing of yarn.

#fanfiction writing #fanfic writing #just making myself crazy #this is mostly referring to my Being Pulled in the Right Direction Fic #i kind of went crazy when i first starte that one #literally writing a 3k chap each day and posting it #i did that for like 10 chapters so you can bet those first ten are probs not the best and a lil cracky #like i was lowkey possessed and not drinking enough water at all that week but god it was a ride #i feel like it is much better now but oo i gotta go back and fix some things

[imwritesometimes]

the last time I was this sick was over a decade ago and my grandma took me to the urgent care and nearly went Lucille Bluth on the dr

#when the dr was like she has the flu go home rest lots of fluids #my grandma was like she has the FLU? GO HOME? LOOK AT HER! IF I HAVE TO BRING HER BACK HERE I'LL FIND YOU! #she almost slapped my mom cause she didn't wanna take me to urgent care #it was a wild fckn day #I had the super flu from hell ×100000 and it took 2 weeks to recover and my grandma was like #ready to kill that dr if I didn't get better #I now once again have the super flu from hell ×10000 and I wish my grandma were here lol she was the best when I was sick #I really hope I'm better this weekend man this has been awful #going from someone who does 10.5 miles on a stationary bike 4-5 times a week #to not being able to get out of bed for more than 10 minutes has been... rough. #and santino is LOSING HIS MIND cause he feels neglected cause I'm not up playing with him and shit like normal #so he is being AWFUL 👿 #god I just wanna get better holy shit #erin explains it all

[slippery-minghus]

oh no. i feel like if i do not consume an entire load of bread in the very near future i will simply cease to exist.

#very uh. very worried about my finances right now #like. i'm fine. i have some savings. but i also just got to put something into my savings for the first time in a VERY long time and now #now i immediately have to take it out #and i'm getting stressed out about buying groceries #because if i dip into my savings here what about there? where is the line? #and i owe so much to taxes but i can't exactly afford getting less of my pay...... #my last paycheck was $0.66 more than my rent #my insurance is refusing to reimburse the last of my electrolysis visits from last year and like #i'm SO over the fight but that's $120. that i really actually kinda need? #and i'm starting to get that funny in the head feeling about wondering how i'm going to feed myself #i still feel so much shame about that funeral i went to years ago and my only thought during the reception after was about #how there was just so much food and i could actually eat my fill #i have leftovers for dinner tonight and it's fine but.... making a lovely vegan dish wasn't the best choice tbh #i feel like if i don't have a large helping of bread and meat i'm going to go insane #and it really REALLY doesn't help that i've apparently lost the ability to eat in the mornings #so i'm at quite a significant fuel deficit and it's stacking #but no matter how hungry i am in the morning the concept of processing solid food is just repulsive and daunting #eating a clif bar at 9am would take literally all of my spoons for the day #i was looking at protein shakes since i can handles *drinking* breakfast #but the cheapest one that meets my dietary requirements is $35 for a 12pack #and i'm uh. i'm worrying over spending $10 on produce this week #personal #and nevermind that i don't have the spoons to even GO shopping (: #(on an aside i switched back to my regular melatonin gummies last night and i Actually Slept. so hopefully that will continue and help some) #i just want to curl up in a ball on the floor and have someone gently place a roll of bread and hunk of cheese next to me in my enclosure #also it's photophobia season and i still feel like i haven't recovered from saturday #got too much sunlight and was nauseaus for half the day #my body feels so bad

[pallases]

ourgejjg

#i am feeling so ill rn for no reason and i need to shower and wash my hair so bad but i can tell if i do it rn it’ll make the #lightheadedness ten times worse and there is a nonzero chance i will just pass out in there 😭 #best guess is bc my period started today and yeah the first two days suck but they’re not usually This bad #personal #also this is the last thing i need rn it’s tech week and all rehearsals lately have been going/are going to go till 10 pm and i have no tim #to do all my assignments and my probability prof assigned a lab today that’s due TMRW AT MIDNIGHT? <- we usually get a class period btwn #it being assigned and the deadline and he’s not even giving us until the next class period to do it now like why is it due at midnight #instead of noon the next day… also i have not one but two exams immediately following this weekend and i really want to see my family for #easter but that sounds like such a bad idea im so unproductive at home and i’ll be busier than usual when i go home on top of that bc easte #and one of the exams is circuits for which exams are worth 90% of our grade and im averaging a 74% at the moment which is NOT #promising and. AAAAA #also have an exam this thursday which imnot nearly as worried abt but still. and i have to meet w someone abt a scholarship tmrw during my #free period so i Still can’t work on that stupid lab due tmrw night like. this sucks okay ‼️ #the engineering chronicles #the music chronicles #i know it was only a matter of time before musical started stressing me out but 😭 please give me back the joys of saturday’s rehearsal… #oh also there’s ANOTHER probability lab due day after easter and same day as circuits exam and the prof is the same so he knows full well #what he’s doing like. why are you not giving us the usual period in btwn for these anymore fuck you <3 #OH ALSO soldering qualification i need to do for like 3 hours wednesday the night before my thursday exam. nearly forgot abt that one i hat #it hereeee #soldering i could reschedule tho which i might do. but ive already pushed it back once so im like :/ do i really wanna do that #idk. still feel sick as fuck and still need to do physics prelab tonight 😭 it shouldn’t take long but i really don’t want to get up and #stare at my computer even more ifeel so awful rn #ANYWAY. sorry that was oversharing even for me i am just 😐 you know.

[bowithoutadaemon]

I have to sign up for uni courses today. But that involves so many steps.

I have to check which courses I still have to do something in. (Like write a paper or give a presentation or just get my attendance confirmed).

I have to check how many credits I got rn.

I have to check if any courses on my todo list need more credits (could still attend but then it'll be a bit more bureaucratic work and docents/profs could just say no).

This would leave me with a list of courses I can do this semester. With that list I do to the website.

And then I check each of those courses.

Look up the names of people doing the courses and the course descriptions to weed out those I definitely do not want to attend.

Check the times of courses against each other.

Put all (usually 5 to 10 different) versions of the course in a priority order.

#bo studies social work #It's both harder and easier this time around #Because my approach this semester is to sign up for literally ALL courses I technically can #And then weed some out that happen at the same time once I got assigned to courses #And then just test out how many I can actually do a day and a week #Instead of just assuming how much I can do. Like maybe shit is easier for me if I got like one fucking 10 hour day #And then a free day and then a 10 hour day. Or maybe 6 hour days for 4 days a week is easier #Or maybe I'll find out that my usual approach of around 4 hours a day is actually what works best for me after all

[elenadoeslife]

It's going to be a busy couple of days.

Today babe's best friend and his girlfriend are coming over for dinner, board games & movie night. Tomorrow it's babe's birthday, so we're going out to dinner and the movies. Saturday we're moving birb to my parents' place- me staying there overnight. My cousin just texted me if I could get her a couple of things before we drive up to Italy next week, so I have to pick up that order as well. I already made a packing list and cleaning schedule.

The secretary in me has awoken, loool

#did i mention i love making lists? #we're leaving in a week #my uncle knows the b&b owner so he made sure we had a place to sleep. me and babe are staying there as well as with him #it's bittersweet because we're going there for a family matter but i also haven't been there in 10+ years so i want to enjoy it somewhat #and i get to spend time with my cousin too. she's been my best friend for as long ad i can remember. we barely see each other #but we text every single day. and i get to cuddle her baby boy. he's already 9 months old. ugh. i love that little guy

[sunrise-on-the-shore]

temporarily back with one post. i am not ready to fully come back.

all the stuff you need to know about the future of this blog are in the tags.

#sunrise thoughts #after i thought a lot i made multiple choices #i am still going to post about dsmp #i am still going to post about cwilbur #dsmp has been my biggest special interest ever #and i cannot move on from cwilbur in a day or week #i obviously won't talk about the cc anymore duh and to me the cc and c are extremely disconnected from each other #i will do all my screaming and kicking and nasty emotional stuff in private #i got fucking blasted by the consequences of forming a parasocial relationship!! ouagh!!!! #if you're uncomfortable following me for my dsmp posting you can obviously unfollow me i completely understand<3 #i will be tagging everything with my usual tags and you can filter them all you want if you decide to stay for other things! and uh— #i am so proud of shelby for speaking about something so terrifying and painful and i wish them the absolute best #i hope they will find a wonderful support system and get all the help they need and want and recover in a good safe environment. #(now back to blog related things haha!!) #i will try to be more multi fandom #you will still see from me a lot of minecraft smp silliness!!! #uhhh i'm talking qsmp life series and hermitcraft stuff!! (i'm gonna check season 10 very soon!) #as for non related minecraft things uhhh idk yet!!! #(btw don't expect me to reblog posts about the situation because the subject itself is so fucking uncomfortable for me) #(i am myself a victim of abuse [very different type but yeagh] + i am a mess atm for many different reasons) #(remember to always believe victims and such. [you probably heard the whole talk from people who are so much better at words than me #so i won't repeat things in a badly worded way] #anyway #(i am so sorry that this whole thing is messily written and in a bad order i am writing everything at like past 4 am) #(and i really really don't want to go back and rewrite tags in the right order) #(but yeah. erm.) #this is all you will hear from me for a while #take care everyone