#but I could probably find it tomorrow

[theworstcreature]

*gets bored and starts reading Wikipedia articles at you*

#my hobby fr #honestly just reading shit like that I general is fun #I have this really old dictionary from like 1942 #and once I spent like an hour just skimming over the new words section #just like enjoying it and thinking about how maybe once upon a time that WASNT a word everyone and their grandmother knew #I can’t believe that word meant something completely different than it does now #also a little fun fact I learned from that: #transgender folks (or at least trans femmes.. that’s the only entry I remember seeing) existed and were known enough to make it into the #dictionaries back then #also there was a form of hormone therapy that existed back then with transgender women being mentioned in its definition #I don’t remember how it was worded #nor do I feel like going and opening this dictionary rn #but I could probably find it tomorrow

[tennessoui]

brain will not let me sleep until I say

same age padawans au where they’ve been in a weird wired frenemies thing for ages but now that they’re both mature adults (all of 24/25 years old) they’re more friends than enemies….

And it’s Obi-Wan that Anakin tells when he’s decided he’s going to leave the Order, not anyone else. He has a wife. There was a pregnancy scare a few weeks ago and it made her want their relationship to stop being a secret so they could really have kids. He has to leave the Order. Doesn’t Obi-Wan understand?

Obi-Wan, who has been a little in love with Anakin since they were younglings, does not understand. Not one bit. Instead of wishing him well and helping him pack, he goes to the Council and requests a mission in the Outer Rim….perhaps a month long or more…perhaps undercover? No contact with anyone on Coruscant. And maybe they could assign Anakin Skywalker as his back up? He can help with the undercover aspect.

And at first, Anakin is pissed because he was planning to resign from the Order in the next few days, but Obi-Wan convinces him to go on this mission with him….one last mission as a Jedi. To say goodbye to the Jedi life.

Obviously, Obi-Wan sort of wants to go on one last mission with Anakin because in his dreams, he wants the mission to go so perfectly that Anakin stays with him the Order. But realistically, he mostly wants to go on this mission to say goodbye to Anakin and then let him go, soaking up all his warmth and light, memorizing every casual touch bestowed on him because he knows they’re ticking down to the last handful of seconds together.

But then obviously the mission works TOO well and Anakin falls in love with Obi-Wan but doesn’t admit to it even to himself before they’re on the ship about to head back to Coruscant and Anakin realizes he doesn’t want to leave this planet because he doesn’t want to leave Obi-Wan if it could always be like this so he crashes the ship during take off so they can stay longer because he’s 24 and doesn’t know how to handle the immensity of his love except through destruction

#Kit’s silly lil AUs #obikin #I couldn’t finish the Democratic fic part today writing was so hard :( #I offer this instead <3 #hopefully will get it up tomorrow #but anyway: no physical cheating but probably emotional infidelity as anakin falls in love with obi-wan but doesn’t notice #and a lot of pining but being brave about it obi-wan which could also turn into finding his rebound in the outer rim obiwan #which would then turn into seethingly jealous anakin #+ bonus points is that their cover is theyre newly weds #and obi-wan is like <3 you can touch me mister we have an open marriage <3 #and this poor guy at the bar is being stared down by a vicious anakin and he’s like uh does your husband knkw that ???? #but yeah here for pretty newly knighted obi-wan creating a situation where he gets to feel anakin touch him and kiss him on the cheek #and hold his hand and call him pet names #all the while being convinced that this is all he will ever get so he has to be satisfied with this #that the yearning will stop and he will find comfort in the memory of anakin’s arm around his shoulders once he’s left the order and obiwan #to be with his wife #also obi-wan gets wasted one night and someone asks how they met or when they fell in love #and obi-wan accidentally tells the drunken truth #not the cover story #and it makes anakin go 👀🧐 #but then he gets too drunk and forgets it

[somegrumpynerd]

How absolutely wild must it have been for Nightmare to have like, minimum-to-no contact with mortals for hundreds of years and then the first two he has any regular close interactions with are Killer and Dust.

Like he must have a book in his castle somewhere of all the observations he kept like he was studying a new species

#UTDR #UTMV #Nightmare Sans #Killer Sans #Dust Sans #I could probably ramble for a while about the effect Killer had on him alone #But imagine being hurt by the world and carrying the grudge for hundreds of years while you wreak havoc all by yourself #And then you get one (1) roommate and he's so strange and unhinged but not at all what you expected #And then you get a second and he's so different again it's like they're different creatures even though they came from the same root world #And you get a third and he's a little more grounded but still has such wild needs and stipulations #By the time he got Cross he was probably onto his 3rd book of observations #If you dig around in Nightmare's library or office long enough I just know you can find at least one book where he's noted down what all hi #boys need and like and hate and what they refuse to do and how to handle them #Like someone leaving super detailed instructions for the care of their pampered beloved pet #Anyway Killer loves to joke to the other 3 that they should be nice to him because he ''let Nightmare adopt them'' #and he's not entirely wrong #Anyway I need to go to bed so I can work all day tomorrow (rip) goodnight gang!!

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

#garashir #inspired by some garashir fanfic tropes that are BELOVED by me <3 #obviously this argument is just for funsies like two kittens playfighting #they would turn into goop and merge with each other like changelings if they could #Star Trek: Deep Space 9 #today I offer you: little joke posts that only I find funny. tomorrow? statistically speaking probably the same thing. #a/b/o gave us the concept of ''can't pull out cause of the knot'' but I want a version of that from the pussy perspective #tired of the top always getting to decide these things. my idea is we're done when the ajan says we're done. #actually it's garashir so more likely it would simply be garak lying #''Sorry doctor you can't pull out because of Cardassian xenobiology reasons :( no I will not explain anything further about this btw #but it's DEFINITELY a medical necessity and not me being a freak I prommy <3'' #Starky's Original Posts #text post photosets #hm. not seeing heaven for these tags I think.

[lunarharp]

based on valentine's day art shirahama drew once hehe

#witch hat tag #orufrey #if anyone hasn't seen it the 1st and 3rd images are based on that. it was included in the artbook for volume 11 #tired of drawing hands in various poses now... #why would qifrey do this though. did you not expect chaos. is this appropriate. #but it's oru who's the “KYAHHH i think theres YOUNG LOVE happening teehee we gotta stay OUTTA THIS ufufuufufu” one #i don't think qifrey has the foggiest that kids could actually have active crushes on each other he just wanted to cut out some cute hearts #for his little lovely kids activities zone. he probably thinks his budding love towards oru as a child was Special. other kids are Normal #well anyway..... i did this now because i want to finish & post an angsty comic tomorrow if possible. Lol #also i drew this thinking that oru is genuinely just trying to give back this weird heart and i was going to have a WAIT- 😳panel #that'd probably be funnier. but no. they're communicating aren't they? our delicate little dance. finding ways #Heavens above i love them

[natreads]

I got a job as a bookseller!!!

#nat talks #listen. it's not the dream bc I've already worked in a bookstore and it's actually terrible at times #but I only really worked during holidays and people were just so rude #BUT I do have higher hopes for this location #also I tentatively know two people who work there so it will be fun! #it's a sub role and a little unclear if I'll only work during christmas and the book sale in feb or more #it depends on if the people who are on sick leave will return and when #but I can keep freelancing and apply for corporate jobs I want in the meantime #at the very least I can work during december either way and if I end up finding something else maybe I can work weekends during the booksal #so to not let them down too much #I honestly am just looking forward to getting out of the house and meeting people and working with my body more #because my mind is very fried #I have a short shift tomorrow to train #then I'll see when I'll officially start but it will probably be soon! #I've had a very busy few days so I wish I had said I could do my training shift next week #bc they gave the option of this wednesday or next #but I didn't want to turn it into a “thing” by letting too much time pass bc I might get anxious about it #but now I wish I had lmao I'm tired #also forgot I was gonna be home alone with the dog tomorrow #had been looking forward to it tbh #oh wellll #work stuff

[patroclusdefencesquad]

i think i've found my niche favourite book genre and it's queer fantasy written in the 80s/90s

#i mean obviously i'm talking about nightrunner #but also i'm about to start swordspoint by ellen kushner and there was another one i wanted to read but can't find in ebook #i could probably explain why i enjoy them so much but i'm in bed so. maybe tomorrow #el randoms

[risingsunresistance]

i've largely ignored the mythological rituals until very recently bc i never did enough damage to bother trying

got my first drop today :]

#well i got a crown of greed last time but this is the first one i got from fighting #my magic find is. So Low. i need to figure out how to get it a little higher #without spending all the coins i dont have kgjhf #i mean a big one would probably be. having the daedalus axe. im working on it jkghf #chimera 5 divine gift having all my talismans recombed i know there's stuff like that #but im on a limited budget bc money grinding annoys me lol #daedalus axe will probably be my last magic find bonus for a while :P #i could just buy the other stick it's just 10m but i wanted to get at least one of them on my own just for the accomplishment of it #might buy the other one tomorrow :0 #chat #sb

[m00ngbin]

I need my hair to dry so I can go to bed and not wake up with one half looking like i ran a flat iron over it 400 times on max heat and the other side being curly in ways that shouldn't be possible

#please im so tired i just want to sleep #i ran out of beads i have to go to the store tomorrow #i ransacked my room again looking for the miscellaneous bead bag and i still couldnt find it #rip miscellaneous bead bag #ykw i wish? i wish that in greys anatomy Addison and Meredith became bffs and dumped shepard together #they deserve so much better than him he clearly doesnt respect them as people and oh my god #hes so fucking full of himself #he'd fuck his own clone istg #ok but like lets be honest i think a lot of people would do that #not me though im like the biggest fearer of clones #idk just the idea of clones freaks me out do bad if i ever met my clone id kill her #and they'd probs try to kill me too but yk #i have to prove im the better of the two of us #so id win out of pure desperation #probably #but yeah hed fuck himself if he could #all day #christina was so real for “hes not the sun” #SHE KNEW WHAT WAS UP #AND THEN HIM TRYING TO SAY THAT HIS JOB WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN MEREDITHS AND THAT SHE SHOULD JUST UPROOT HER ENTIRE LIFE AND LEAVE HER JOB #JUST FOR HIS #GO FUCK YOURSELF FOR THAT ACTUALLY DEREK #YOU ARE NOT THE CENTER OF THE FUCKING UNIVERSE

[sentofight]

Of course, she has pictures with them but not with him. pouts. pouts.

#ic.| caleb #[rest in pieces my lad #[ how can she when you are fried chicken???????? allegedly. #[ok brain u will work tomorrow and write the what if he used his evol to somehow escape #[BECAUSE I CANT SEE IT #[I CANT MAN #[not because i like him #[it doesnt make sense he just boom #[first he is a soldier???? fly fighter is a soldier no? man idk WHATEVER LISTEN IT IS GETTING LATE AND I GET DUMBER BY THE MINUTE #[anyway he got an awesome evol telekinesis #[third he got trained for stuff like these #[HE IS A PILOT. DONT U THINK HE WOULDNT LIKE IDK KNOW WHAT TO DO?????????????? #[i just want to find an excuse to get my boy back sobs #[HE COMES BACK WITH A DIFFERENT NAME AND EVERYTHING HE IS SYLUS GUY??????????????????????/ #[HE NEEDED TO STEP AWAY AND COME BACK LATER ON WITH DIFFERENT ID BECAUSE #[OTHERWISE HE COULD BE A DANGER TO HER? #[THE HOUSE GOT BOMBED BECAUSE HE AND GRANDMA WERE THERE #[THEY WERE MC'S WEAKNESS #[THE GROUP OR WHATEVER THEY ARE CALLED IDK NEEDED TO WEAKEN MC. #[THEY WANTED PROBABLY TO TAKE HER OUT AND GET HER HEART AND PROTCORE BUT #[THAT DIDNT WORK #[BUT HEY AT LEAST THEY MADE HER MORE VULNERABLE #[sobs..................................waaaaa #[imagine caleb was an experimented on child?????????????????????????????????????????????????? #[grandma picked caleb first then he picked mc because hey we need to save her too grandma #[caleb perhaps made grandma stop the experiment #[save his lil sister sobs..... #[FLAILS ARMS AT THE AIR.....GIVE HIM BAAAAAAAAACK #[GIVE BACK MY APPLE BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #[i saw a good tweet the other day about the apple thing with caleb i need to reread it again and think. deeply.

[vaugarde]

awwww ok this episode put james’s inkay higher on the tierlist for me, it was really really good

#this is like the first actual good team rocket episode since diamond and pearl. i forgot how good they could be #echoed voice #pokeani lb #good timing kinda since the final rocket episode aired today but i cant find clean subs for it yet #probably good tho bc im scared of how it came out and dont want my expectations set too high by this ep #ill watch it tomorrow or monday #and also bc THE GOOMY EPISODE IS NEXT im so excited for that arc omg

[stirdrawsandreblaws]

resigning myself to the facts that a) i can't finish the work i need to do without cleaning my room bc my brain is shitting itself and b) i'm too tired to clean it right now so i'm not gonna get work done

i need to just take a break day properly instead of sitting in agony... and i can't tell other people it's important to rest if i can't make rest a priority for myself, so...maybe i'll just try chillin out a lil bit

#i'm also...hungry. which probably has more to do with this than the clutter tbh. but tummy hort so food sounds bad #there's no reason i can't do this shit tomorrow or the next day at least... #i should find something calming to do... maybe video games... #stirring up trouble #oh! i can enable snapshots and look at the new minecraft doggies. i should see how that works. #minecraft gives me bad motion sickness so i probs can't do it for long but it'll hopefully help me segue out of anxiety and into rest mode #i love pet doggies......miss my nintendogs.... #i wish they'd make a nintendogs but for lizards and spiders and things. that'd be even more relaxing for me... hm. maybe i could make that. #when things settle down and i get back into gamedev i'd like to.

[fell-court]

I have decided to give Lorenza even more wings~

#a voidsent voice 🜸 #lorenza (fell‑court) 🜸 #I'm very happy that I was able to settle on a combination that I liked #however at the same time this has now *severely* limited my post-endwalker clothing options #(I say post-endwalker because she's wearing her crown and the spider lilies here) #(I could probably get away with the lower set of head wings under the endwalker hat even if they do stick out of it a bit) #in order to have everything show up I need to be wearing clothing that allows every possible accessory to be visible #thankfully i've been making sure rings are visible the entire time with how lorenza's claws work so I don't have to think about gloves #and the uppermost set of head wings are tied to a hat so I don't technically have to worry about that either #it's just finding a chestpiece I like that lets both necklaces and bracelets remain visible #I may or may not have to forgo the spider lilies if I can't find something since they are tied to necklace visibility #also! it isn't visible here but lorenza has tail feathers now. however they are in place of her actual tail (and therefore ears) #technically it will still look like she has both during endwalker because her hat still has ear slots but still #but.. yeah. the top in the picture is a placeholder. and it's getting late for how early I have to be up tomorrow so #this can be a problem for the future =P

[hiimcanadia]

Anyway my personal take on a modern ofmd au is that Stede is a mildly out of touch upper-middle-class man whose first purchase with his inheritance money was a concert ticket for a punk band that he secretly liked but was never brave enough to go see, and Ed is the poor lifelong punk who patches him up and buys him a drink after he takes a nasty fckin fall during his first ever mosh pit, and then proceeds to fall immediately in love with this strange man who wore a button up and slacks to a concert and is now drunkenly asking him if he’d like to see pictures of the flower garden at his lake house

#it’s probably a festival not just a concert now that I think about it… #Stede would be the kind of person to jump head first into the biggest event he could find without any sort of mental preparation hkgkfjfj #also I would like to draw them tomorrow so like this post to bully my brain into doing that #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd au #stede bonnet #edward teach #blackbonnet #2pm in the morning

[gefiltefished]

😩

#kinda fucked up my stepsisters are taking dad out for his birthday (is tomorrow but they're working) and didn't even mention it to us #like yeah mum probably couldn't make time this afternoon but it's the principle of thin #and even though they're going somewhere they could have taken them.. #still left the dogs at home so guess who's looking after them 👍 #mum's fuming lmao and i totally get why- to find that out 10 minutes after we get back from the shops is not cool #im less angry and more anxious about what fight it might set off bc atp im not surprised by anything that lot do #god i hope we do move out separately bc im so sick of this shit for the last 30 years

[slippery-minghus]

hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.

and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.

i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growth—and that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.

where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).

but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not true—the hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?

#well. i AM probably a monster for how much i dislike this lady #but i don't ACT on it #and i genuinely couldn't care less about her. i participate in decent human pleasantries because i am a decent human. #and at work we're stuck together #the thing that's irked me so much about this conversation is just.. her self centeredness #that she thinks everyone is out to get her. to undermine her. whatever. #bitch nobody cares about you enough one way or the other to put in that kind of effort. i sure don't #i empathize but i do not sympathize. to feel that pit that makes you feel like the worst kind of center of attention #i get it. but genuinely you are not the main character and no one is going to spend their limited time and energy to slowly attack you #you are not the cat with all the knives pointed at it #it's a terrible feeling to feel like you are! but when it influences your behavior to the point that you are making snide comments #to people who have no option not to interact with you then uh. then you're in the wrong buddy #and the people around you (who cannot easily leave! bc work!) should not have to bend over backwards to assure you #that they're not pointing knives at you. to protect themselves from your feelings making you say mean shit #like yes. i can be more clear with my intentions. i'm generally not the greatest at that. but my baseline that i want to #modify my behavior from is NOT one that a regular well adjusted person would take as anything but kind #and if a regular well adjusted person got a little offput by me volunteering to take work off their hands we would've had a very chill #3 sentence conversation about it MONTHS AGO. #i understand and respect (even if i find it annoying and overbearing) the need for me to announce my intentions like im working in a kitchen #and saying 'hot water' or 'knife' as i move around other people but we shouldn't have reached this conclusion this way #and frankly who's to fucking say me being more clear with my intentions will only feed the flames of her thinking i'm out to get her! #'i caught up on my stuff and your plate looks full. i'm bored. anything i can do to help?' could be a pointed knife for all i know!! #and if it is- and my actions still hurt her in that scenario- am i still responsible for the hurt caused?? #like WHERE DOES IT FUCKING E N D ? #personal #*exhales* okay i feel better now #i just hate talking about my interactions with her bc i just want NOTHING to do with it. i want her out of my head!! #but until i process it i can't let go #and i'm still going to have to go over all of this with my shrink tomorrow #it just makes me mad how much of my time this bitch takes up. i'm not getting paid to think about work right now!!!!