#but I just want to admire it mostly

[icewindandboringhorror]

waow.. found a Beautiful Orb at the store today (giant ferrero rocher). I don't even want to crack into it and eat it.. I just want to hold it.. rotate it in my palm thoughtfully like I am an evil wizard who has just been delivered a Very Plot Significant magical gem and is scheming how to use it 

#I'm pretty sure it's hollow inside so I also have a compulsion to break it like I could crush it in my palm #also like a cool evil wizard lol #but I just want to admire it mostly #A chronic personality trait of mine is that I love things that are too small or too large ESPECIALLY food items.. #like a miniature version of a candy is cool. a large version of a candy is cool. normal sided version? who cares #BUT thats why I always loved like dolls and things like that. I wouldnt give a shrimp about the dolls I would just get them for the small #stuff. Like miniature food and clothes . love tiny representations of things and little strinkets #I like giant things less but they're still cool. I have a comically large wine glass even though I don't drink alcohol and have never drank #in my life but someitmes I have like.. coffee or orange juice or something out of it and it looks very funny. I also have a few of those gia #nt holiday themed pencils. and I had a giant apple once that was like the size of a football #This fererro rocher is not actually very big compared to a normal one but it's mostly special because it's dark chocolate #NOT Rond Noir though which are the best ones (out of normal fererro rocher. rafaellos. and rone noirs. the Typical Three) #So I was very disappointed that it's just a giant dark chocolate ferero rocher shell instead of a legit giant rondnoir :c #BUT at least it's dark chocolate lol #OH currently playing catch with it because it's like the size of a baseball and this is great #I think everyone should get a giant fererro rocher and unwrap the foil outside and then just throw the raw chocolate orb around #by 'catch' i mean more like... juggling but with one ball. I love to throw things up in the air and try to catch them #like maybe throw them across the room a little and see if I can run to the other end of the room in time to also catch the thing that I thre #w lol.. playing solo catch instead of two people thworing objects back and forth #THIS IS WHAT I MEAN!!! how do people experience boredom???? i do not understand. it's one of the Base Human Emotions that I seem to be #lacking like.. I genuine have never felt ''bored'' the way that people describe it. I can always entertain myself. I could throw a chocolate #ball back and forth with myself for 2 hours I bet if I didn't have other stuff to do . when I was a kid I would sit in my room laying on my #back kicking pillows and laundry baskets up in the air and catching them for like an hour straight. no tv in the background #no nothing. just getting lost in a repetitive physical task. i still LOOOOVE peeling carrots like if I just had a big pile of carrots I coul #d peel. or cutting candle wax into little balls or something. I am entertained by the smallest things. and even if I can't physically #do something and was locked in a blank white room for hours like.. doesn't everyone have a mental landscape they could entertain #themselves with? I spend legit half the day talking to myself and making commentary to myself for fun. there is ALWAYS something #interesting to do or think about like.. I just love everything a lot lol. I think thats part of why I'm also so detail oriented I just pay #attention to everything. I can spend 15 minutes admiring the way a piece of fabric folds at the corner of my sleeve or whatever #ANYWAY.. genuinely overjoyed throwing chocolate around. I wish I didn't have other stuff to get done so I could just Do This for 45 min lol

[canisalbus]

The way you draw hands, they are so expressive. So tender looking in their intent. I'm just in awe. I'm not a religious person at all but the first word to comes to mind when seeing the hands you draw is that they are somehow holy.

Aw geez anon, you're saying the sweetest things. Thank you!

#I know I keep repeating the same thing but I just really admire hands a lot and try to do them justice #they're so structurally complex #and have such great emotive potential #they're still challenging to get right but it's mostly the nice kind of challenging and not I-want-to-quit-drawing-forever challenging #in Machete's and Vasco's case I do my best to underline the differences in their personalities through hand gestures #I don't know how well that carries over but I think it's fun #in my head they have clearly contrasting body languages #answered #anonymous

[copepods]

i love suns and pebbles canon dynamic in my head its kind of weird and fucked up and i wish more people depicted it as that (tag ramble incoming)

#i have a lot of thoughts about suns as a character #since theres not much from them in the story its mostly headcanon though #i think suns is someone who desperately wants to be liked and admired #like maybe theyre one of the youngest in their local group (i think theyre in a separate neighboring group to moons) #and they're not really used to being looked up to in any capacity #so pebbles is the first person who really respects them in that way and because of that they have this weird contradictory relationship #where sometimes suns relishes in that dynamic a little too much and holds the power over pebbles head and gets a little mean #and sometimes because suns still wants pebbles to keep liking and admiring them they can get a little too indulgent of him #hence the gold pearl. i think suns gave it to him bc they wanted him to find some kind of happiness but there was also a selfish element #'if i give this to him he'll like me more' etc #i dont think suns is intentionally cruel i just think they had never had that kind of relationship before and fucked a lot of things up #after spearmaster they start to get better at it esp since spearmaster is kind of a second chance for them. so suns learns to be kinder #on pebbles' end. i like to think pebbles was a lil infatuated with them. esp because he felt like they were the only one who understood him #unreciprocated tho. suns cared about him but more from a mentorly point of view than anything #kind of a weird thing where he looked up to them as an authority figure but also really kind of wanted them to be on the same level #in conclusion: toxic robot yuri can be cool sometimes #text #rain world

[pallanophblargh]

I’m sorry you feel like your brain is soup, but for what it’s worth I’ve been following you since I was like 14 on deviantart and the stuff you have created has always been a major inspiration for me; i love animals and fantasy and your ability to capture realistic proportions and anatomy while creating this beautiful movement in your artwork has always blown me away, it’s so full of life and beauty. I just wanted to tell you 🤷 you really inspired this random Australian kid and I hope you can find joy and rest and kindness for yourself k bye

Aaaaaa this is so wholesome! I haven't been enduring as much of my usual mental health struggle since I've started meds/therapy, but my creativity/productivity has regrettably taken a hit as a possible result? So even if I'm on indefinite hiatus, it's nice to know I've had a positive impact on at least one person somewhere down the line. Someday I'll get back into healthy habits and express through art more reliably again (I mean art has been my escape portal for most of my life)! Just gotta bust off the rust and focus/practice again, even if I'm anxious about all the work that requires. Anyway, I'm rambling: thank you so much!

#april rambles #wholesome asks #anonymous #text post #I'm literally an adult with a wiggly 4 year old toddler brain most days? #like it's always been there but now whatever I've done this last few years really unleashed it #I just need to find the motivation and courage to art again #mostly putting my hands in the dirt these days #I guess I've been more of a nature admirer than an artist I suppose #I just want to pay proper tribute and that's impossible #but you know that won't stop me trying #thanks to all of you who have stuck around

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[crown-ov-horns]

AHS: Apocalypse has a hot, insane, sadistic villianess who's also disabled.

And, she's a fashion icon (at least in the Outpost).

#ahs #american horror story #ahs apocalypse #wilhelmina venable #sarah paulson #ahs fandom #horror fandom #ahs edit #ahsedit #ahs thoughts #diary pages #the definition of hell hath no fury #bitch literally killed the whole outpost because langdon killed her #sha has not a miligram of sympathy for anyone but herself #the moment she had an opportunity she went on a rant about how she despises everyone she lives with #wait did i mention she literally treated the people in the outpost like dolls #her outpost fashion is *heart eyes* #yes yes i know she's mostly as mad because of her secret self-hatred and bitterness at the world #but sometimes you just want to admire a villain because they're evil not sympathize with them #because the darkness is what makes them such a great character #of course i find her hot she's played by sarah paulson

[steakout-05]

i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

[sonippep-hohu]

I'm genuinely uncomfortable and disappointed in this fandom... You all are way too comfortable with ablest shit... in this community. It's actually baffling to me? And to think artist I really and truly respected are supporting it and are saying they're "standing by creativity." I'm extremely disappointed in artists I've even looked up to supporting it? I am not going to spill my guts to why shit like this isn't fucking ok; especially to make into a fucking comedic joke? As a person with DID, and generally a lot of symptoms like pseudo-memories and delusions etc etc - this shit isn't fucking humorous to make fun of to me. You could handle this any other way, but you're playing it up for jokes because ""it's so creative!!"" I have long time felt discomfort at how casually ablest ppl talk about Peppino. But now it's really ridiculous. Never have I truly felt I do not belong in this community until this moment.

#yes this about asylum tower / asylum peppino #i'll probably have a better worded post later... but yeah #this au isnt fucking funny or cute #ill probably delete this later or like word it better but I am just. Im so fucking disappointed #Ive barely been posting cuz I just feel so shitty about this fandom? #and now I come back to this. #it makes me want to work on my DID Noise even harder - to actual make proper representation for myself #im so sick of ppl thinking this is quirky... just get away from me if you do #im mostly saddened that I'll have to block artists I really admired

[kiwibirdlafayette]

infodump about forbidden piss jordan’s universe cause theres lore now

From the multiverse map, this realm in the same timeline bubble as Empires S2, and is called Aithaca. From the beginning, the three gods were always kind of in conflict, like Ianite could do her thing to try and keep balance, but it was never enough

So she turns to a darker magic that allows her to rid the realm of things that make it unbalanced , a power somewhat too powerful that ends up rendering Mianite and Dianite's powers somewhat obsolete. Mianite has not enough order, Dianite not enough chaos to try and fight back cause if anything becomes unbalanced, Ianite sends her followers to get rid of it.

As a result, Ianite becomes somewhat of a sole goddess as Dianite is imprisoned in the far reaches of the Nether, and Mianite is forced into hiding and becomes a hermit in a deep forest

Ianite’s control is through the mind of Admiral Flash Sparksize, the leader of Ianite’s army- a group of sky pirates dedicated to ensuring a balance of the world, even through violent means

- Unlike most gods and their champions, Ianite speaks to Flash through his head. As a result she can take occasionally take control of him, and read his thoughts

- He’s an incredibly skilled swordsman and melee fighter. As a child of the Eden Dimension, (a pocket dimension btwn the Overworld and Aether) he derives power from the sun/light, and is weaker at night

- Dianite’s champion (who has to brin Dianite back into existence the same way Jordan does with Ianite in S1) is a wither skeleton hybrid named Cassell (Cass for short). He’s friends with Mianite’s two champions Merina and Garrick (names im still not sure of) who came to know of their gods existence when he lead them to him

Thats as far as I got, I have more lore when I finish the narrative art ive been workin on :]

#mostly just an exercise in worldbuilding #mianite au #mianite: the tales of aitheaca #admiral flash sparksize #admiral flash sparklez #yeah i realize what his last name is i dont care #because the ship doesnt exist in my head so im reassociating it with something else #lady ianite #mianite #this would be the hypothetical world that they would be in S3 #cause why not #lafakiwi talks #verdigris musings #since i had posted about lore before. wanted to write some stuff out #ill go more in depth but i need to focus on multiverse rn #i have a series i need to start posting on again

[thebeautifulfantastic]

honestly style goals for me is just to give off the same energy as Timothee Chalamet except as an afab person

#basically i want to be androgynous + comfortable in my body + have great hair #let's just be honest here in the tags and admit that my obsession with him is mostly a combination of gender envy #and admiration for his filmography #and that sentence will tell you that i'm genderqueer and an actor #belle speaks #timothee chalamet

[quillheel]

❛ you have never seen such heathens. ❜ Kohga says with a grin, referring to the Yiga. (For Ganondorf!)

"Oh, I have borne witness, both alike and distinct, to many." Ganondorf's answer comes like thunder, like fire. ━ a low rumble turned crackle turned air buzzing with too much and yet not enough all at once, an anticipation that followed him as he swept 'cross the grounds. For an individual of his size, he is almost weightless in his shifting, almost wilting to scrape high the roof of the ruins not high enough where the stones meet strands of red bristling off from his crown. Each footfall accentuated; the bleaching of stone & textile, the delicacy in which he revokes it, pulled back out of the earth as though a stain so simple to be removed. ━ how considerate it was, for Gods to fuss and worry over hospitalities.

he casts a glance to the Yigas master, eyes stunning and bright and terrible, curls of crimson mane licking up into color undefined, like blazing divinity, how inexpressible it could be, to see something of divinity wrapped in bone & skin & cloth. there is a wonder, if this is what being in the presence of Princesses or Heroes is like, the same divinity in the opposite way ━ the Hero always more human, not God, merely blessed, champion in this way ━ where Ganondorf was his own, but they were theirs. Two against one, eternal.

"None, however, as impassioned as you," he continues "I would consider it something of respect, that you could harbor such liveliness for so long."

He wonders; passingly in the low light of twilight bleeding into the hideout as it is full with noise & distraction & color and as fabric folds with his limbs as he moves to sit, content to watch the clan breathe with itself; how much the Yiga would be willing to risk in such devotion to their goal. ━ everything, until everything is too much, until the world turns on them again. ━ Again. how it has before. how it could again, forever worse to do. How Ganondorf knows something similar, burning in his blood. ( perhaps Kohga knows the feeling. )

He finds himself beginning to understand, why it is they come looking for him.

his eyes, momentary in their focus on their leader, find somewhere else to settle. ( and he finds himself wondering, just as passing to reserve it for less occupied times, just how long the Yiga will last as they are. Resourceful and fast and stubborn, but tracing edges of impermanence, the way everything does, is made to. Except him, of course. Except him. ━ he likes to think, sentiment more than hope, that their stretch of being will not be killed, so much as it does not stay the same; the definition changing. 'the Yiga' not as a weapon, not a sharpness and outracing and hidden, 'the Yiga' as a people allowed to be people, to be families, to stay. He likes to think, in the way it could be hope, that they will not be like him forever. They, to grow out of shunning. Him, to stay the same. He likes to think, in the way it is hope, that one day they will not need him. ━ a scar of history, remembered always, but only, only a scar. )

"... but are they always this rambunctious?"

#does a little stretch. i got a little emotional about the vibes but shhh dont worry about it <3 #i left it pretty vague (mostly bc brain went hard on flowery vibes-) but in my head set it kinda as a 'Ganondorf visiting the hideout/clan #- for the first time and everyone going kinda wild bc GIRL WH as he n kohga take a second to chat thru the chaos' BKHGTRB #small fun details: 1. gan being so fucking tall he's gotta bend down to not scrape his head against the ceiling of the hideout in some bits #(idk how tall it is but i assume its Roughly like. Around normal height for a room/house if not a lil taller in most areas) #2. gan respecting/admiring kohga for being so dedicated to the clan + keeping themselves alive long enough for him to MEET them #(which is like a 'ofc' thing but my gan's existed for a WHIIIIIILE so hes very accustomed to just Missing A Lot Of Shit) #3. gan kinda resembling demise with some locks of hair having a burning going on from his magic as a fun ref to his origins #4. him just fuckin sitting on the floor. there is no chair or mat big enough and he Does Not Care + better view to watch ppl Zoom from #theres probably more but those are the Main bits and i dont want to ramble forever in the tags when this is already Long HKGRB #ALSO LMK IF U WANNA PLOT ANYTHING EVER FOR THIS OR ANYTHING ELSE i am SO here /g #━ ♔ cardinals with snow-brushed wings : asks. #mightiestbanana #MUSE / Ganondorf #loz // #religion //

[aprilblossomgirl]

-- winny's instagram post 22.08.2023.

#winny thanawin #*photoedit #sometimes he be like dropping off with different styling and this one is becoming one of my favorites 🖤❤️ #out of the topic of his style. but i kinda like his instagram persona. he has these two distinct kinds of posts on that social media. #the first obviously pictures' of himself mostly styled for photoshoot or not or just random self pictures #the second is more like his personal snippets of things he saw on daily basis to which he never forgot to turn the comments section off #i personally find the way he drew that kind of boundary endearing. on one side he has a job to do which requires him to utilize his soc med. #on another side the soc med is also his own personal place where he would want to keep his interest on record unbothered. #just like others. he's just one to seek balance. #*i'm happy he's leaning more towards the quite group that tends to not show up often on his social media. #*and i adore him for that #*yeah no. i'm too old to use the term crushing with all these actors anyway and trully what i have for each of them is admiration 💛 #*why is this become personal*

[businessmilk]

I regret to inform you all that I am a Connor. 😓

Take the quiz here.

#i love connor #but i don’t want to be connor #although i do admire his ability to mostly stay out of the family drama #and really what is the ‘good’ result here? #i just hope i am less delusional about my own abilities #connor roy #personality quiz #succession #succession hbo

[every-captain]

Hello!

This year for the winter holidays I have made a public wishlist. There's no pressure to buy anything from it! But! If you have the wild urge to help me redecorate my bedroom and start rebuilding my collection of witchy stuff, it would be appreciated!!

#just thought id throw this out there i guess #in case i have any secret wealthy admirers ?? idk #this list is mostly for my boyfriend and for me to keep track of stuff i want #but yknow #happy solstice #spirit of abundance and all that