#but art???? the thing i do and think about 24/7????? cant write about that for shit!

[factual-fantasy]

24 asks :0000 🦠🍤

@minnesotamedic186 (Post being referenced)

Not too long ago actually! And I made 7 of them! :DD

Here's my favorite/most polished post of them. But if you search up "kirby ocs" in my blogs search bar you should find most of my art of them! :}}

That's a good question.. originally I intended that she was her robe. There was gonna be a thing where Spamton stepped on her robe and she yelped in pain.

Or something where they get in a fight and River person is struck. There's a gash on her robe and it later scars.. like its skin.

But since then I've gone back and fourth. Imagining her as this shadowy creature that needs some kind of cloth in order to manifest. Kind'a like possessing her robe..? So if you took the hood off there would be no head but she's still there?? I haven't thought it through yet <XD

@housome (Post in question)

SKJAOKJF "oh and the bunny too i guess" GEE I WONDER WHO YOUR FAVORITE IS XDD

And yes! The post that goes up right after this ask post will have them in it! :}}}

ALSO THANK YOU! :DDD I'll be sure to take breaks! <XD

WAAAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! 😭😭💖😭

Oof, that's a good question. Uhhh... I'm gonna say Sans

(XD jk its probably Seam)

He might not wound or scare Seam just to make him stretch the stiches. He would do it for other reasons-

But telling him to speak louder or more clearly? Despite the pain it causes? Oh 100% Spade king would do that. :(

aaaa I'm sorry, I haven't seen the movie yet. So I'm not sure what they'd think <:0

Is that from the Puss and Boots movie? I haven't heard it yet :0

He looks an awful lot like a regular wolf. I can see them thinking that Death is just lost in the everglades and would offer to help him 🥺

AWWEE!! THIS IS SO SWEET THANK YOU!! 😭💖😭 I'M HONORED THAT MY ARTWORK MEANS SO MUCH TO YOU!!

I hope things get better for you,, Until then at least I hope my art continues to make you feel better <:} 💖💖

I'm not sure.. I imagine that they have a list of activities that they can suggest to patrons and if they deny all of them well.. 🤷‍♂️ They'd probably just hope the kid can find something fun to do..

Glamrock Bonnie: "Same dude. Same."

Oh yeah! I can kind'a see it XD

@beryl-shade

I've never played that game,, so I'm not sure :0

But judging by the desert looking environment.? They'd turn right around and jump through another mirror <XD THEY NEED FOOD!

@bailey-dreamfoot

WAAA THANK YOU!! Also I hope you have fun in all your Pokémon adventures! :DD

@citrusfruitman

XD Don't worry its okay! Also I've heard of OMORI, but I can't say I've heard of Dialtown :0

Wow, I made that fic way back in 2019. Sadly I can't say I remember my thought process behind that. Looking back that kind'a sounds like a plot hole-

Also you were the one who had the idea for a crab comic re-write? :0 Neato! I suppose its always possible that I'll come back to it someday <XD

The main reason why Jevil cares for everyone so much is.. well, its becuase they're his friends. And he loves them.🥺 But the years of isolation would definitely play a role in his protectiveness. And I'm sure Jevil isn't comfortable going anywhere or doing anything alone..

(ALSO WAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!💖💖💖)

Theoretically other people could learn the power yeah, but they would have to go through the very specific scenario that Jevil went through and have the same reaction to it that he did in order to learn how. Its not something he can really teach to others..

He was told about a way to escape this world. And after 10 years in confinement and nearly loosing all of his sanity.. he used the power in his very soul to rip through the wall of his world and escape.

If the roles were reversed and Seam went through all that, I cant say that he would have learned how to make the mirrors.. He might have just succumbed to the depression and insanity..

I suppose its possible..? But I don't think Bonnie would be willing to go that far to escape from the stress of everything. He does get breaks at night so..

@kautar-21

WAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Also I don't think I ever posted a coherent storyline for Bill fragment.. but if you search "bill fragment au" in my blogs search bar you should find most of it! :0

(also sorry, I don't take requests <XD -- )

@redzephyr05

I think that sounds about right, yeah. Being more monotone and harder to read maybe. I'm not sure how he'd act in the costume,, maybe more confident? Louder and more blood thirsty?? <:DD

And yes! Little Vanessa is definitely more hesitant and nervous than Gregory. She's shy and afraid of everything- but still curious none the less.. 👀

@nevereatingpeas

AAAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH!! :DDDD

Ultimately my thoughts are, "It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be/could have been. 6 outa 10, would watch again and recommend to my friends 🎤🐻👍"

(post in question)

XD she feels safe around Seam and he is also very soft and cozy 🥺

#my response #fnaf security breach #octonauts #undertale #deltarune #jevil and seam #jevil #seam deltarune #kirby ocs #river person

[nikethestatue]

this fandom might actually be the worst one I’ve seen!! I flip through a bunch of diff ship accounts bc listen, ship whoever you want, personally I am partial to elucien but I can admit there’s a lot of evidence for other ships as well. I like seeing all art for ALL the ships!! But then today I see a post about how we need Gwyn’s book because she is a victim of SA and it would be great to read a book about her healing journey.

Idk maybe it’s just me but I get annoyed when someone is always reduced down to their SA so I pointed out that Rhys & Lucien also had SA trauma and there has been no healing journey for them?? How are we going to fill an entire book for Gwyn?? Like, Sarah doesn’t seem to delve too much into healing journeys from SA (in ACOTAR at least 🤷🏻‍♀️ idk about other series) and tends to use it as a plot point to create a traumatic background character. It’s something that greatly annoys me tbh

And then I got yelled at?? And told to read the books again?? Like yes, I am a new reader, and yes it was a Gwyn Stan account (didn’t know that at the time, I literally just replied for the first time from a post I saw on my for you feed) - but nothing I said was anti-Gwyn (how could it be- she’s one of my favs too???) ?? I vaguely know there’s whatever ship war going on but I didn’t even comment on a ship post and I didn’t mention any other names/ships so I was genuinely confused about why I got yelled at on a post that only mentioned Gwyn.

All I said was I doubt Sarah is going to write an entire book about Gwyn’s healing journey ? It wasn’t even ship related so why did I get so much hate?? no wonder this fandom is filled with such toxicity, nobody new is allowed to join even casually unless they earn their masters degree of 16000 pages of analysis (apparently reading the books isnt enough?) and so it’s just filled with the same bitter people since whenever these books came out

Maybe bc I acknowledged I didn’t see her as a main character - because she’s not? She’s very much a side character but who cares? She’s still a favorite of mine? Two things can be possible at once, people!!!

Anyways, tldr I got a slap on the wrist and told I don’t know SJM if I think Gwyn is a side character and I’m just like ok I didn’t say she couldn’t be one later but based on the one book she is in… she is a side character?

I hate this mf fandom I should’ve stayed out of it. What did I even do?? I even apologized if anything I said about Rhys or Lucien was untrue?? And now I’m just annoyed because I should still be able to debate theories about my favorite books with people even if I don’t spend 24/7 reading PowerPoints on ship wars??

They got mad because you were right. That's it.

SJM doesn't write post-SA healing journeys. Again, you were right.

We've had male and female characters who were SAed, in TOG, Lysandra and Fenrys come to mind, in ACOTAR it's Rhys and Lucien and Gwyn, in CC it was Lidia (similar situation as Rhys/Lucien).

These aren't books for deep exploration of post-SA healing. I am sorry. This is an incredibly tough subject, without a singular answer. SO anything she'd do, wouldn't be taken well. Some will say 'too quick!' others will say 'not quick enough!' and everyone will have an opinion. The only reason Nesta got an extended healing (and not from SA) was because SJM used the same methods she used for her own issues. Working out, meditation, being with friends, balancing the physical and the mental, relying on her SO. Beyond that, all of SJMs 'healing' is training and being in love. Or nothing at all.

Gwynriels cant accept the fact that Gwyn is a secondary character. She is not more important than Emerie, or Mor, or anyone else, who's had terrible trauma. Her main was Nesta. Nesta's healed and Gwyn is secondary to Nesta. Gwyn's healing journey is over. She because stronger mentally and physically, she trained, she reached and conquered her 'mountain'. and that is all she needed to do.

They dont want to understand and accept that no one is interested in an 800 page of Gwyn's post-SA healing journey. Even they aren't. That's the truth. They want her with Azriel. Getting it on, having sex, being mated. They don't want to read any 'healing journey'. They want her going on missions, swinging her sword, being a badass, being with Azriel, having Gwynriel sex and having a normal fantasy heroine book. it's all performative. They just want Gwynriel. Is all.

[basil-appreciation-comic]

IMPORTANT UPDATE!!

the comic is cancelled. you probably already assumed that since i havent posted anything about it in a while but yeah the things dead now lol. mainly because i dont care much about omori anymore, the comic sucked, and it was too much effort. i feel kinda bad about leaving you guys in the dark for this long tho, so i thought id go ahead and include all the scrapped stuff for the comic that never got finished

while i was writing the comic i started a google doc that laid out ideas i had for future pages. heres that if you wanna know how the story ends

it was written over several months and (most) things are in order of where they go on the timeline not when i wrote them so it might be a little hard to follow

also some art i never posted

(at least i dont think ive posted the last one)

i quoted not liking this comic as one of the reasons i stopped so let me explain that with a list of things id change about this if i were to remake it (which i wont)

remove the swearing that was so stupid

make omori mute (and probably use sign language)

omori does not express fear or stress in-game, thats sunnys job. quit it

he also does not cry and generally shows emotions (even the big ones) in more subtle ways (which i think i was trying to shift towards later in the doc) idk why he was so emotional all the time

literally everything about how i portrayed omori actually that was all just awful

the panic attack scene is fucking embarrassing i have no clue what i was thinking. im so sorry for writing it like that i did 0 research beforehand

make it shorter why did i think that would work out

id probably just make it a fic, comics take way too much outta me compared to just writing things

it does not need a big epic ending and probably shouldve ended not long after they escaped black space

the romance is horrible but thats the foundation of the comic so idek what id do about that

stop making everyone talk like therapists 24/7

and yeah it has a lot of problems but i still do care about this due to the ammount of effort and love ive put into it, i just cant and dont want to continue it

so yeah thats where this story ends ig. i had a lot of fun along the way, and thank you so much for all the support. bigger thanks to that one sunflower discord server (if you came from there you know which one) for being my main motivation and support throughout this journey. sucks this comic never got to see its full potential but im relieved to finally lay it to rest. the blog will stay up for archival purposes but i will not continue the comic any further obviously. the ask box will remain open if you wanna say anything or if you have a question about the story or whatever. thanks for reading.

#basil appreciation comic #survivor basil #omori au

[class-1b-bull]

Can we share some nonsense about class B since they don't get the spot light enough?

Wrote most of this during my break at the cunt factory so it may be a little rushed /hj

Not proofread we die like men

Awase - one of his favorite things to go is weld one of his friends shoes to the ground before taking their phone or walet so they have to chase him barefoot.

Sen - during training once he missed a punch and drilled himself into the concrete and they had to get 3+ people to get him out

Kamakiri - once when Kamakiri was training with Tetsutetsu he trew him through a wall only for it to lead to the girls bathroom... they had to clean the entire dorms for like 3 weeks lol

Kuroiro - he tried to compliment his crush one time but the way he phrased it sounded like an insult and he was too scared to correct them when they pointed it out. Rip.

Kendo - there has been multiple times where one of her classmates has called her mom accidentally.

Kodai - she accidentally scared the shit out of Kamakiri once when she tried to ask him a question (he didnt see her walk up to him lmao)

Komori - she has forced awase to help her sew clothes before. He welds the fabric in place so it sticks before she secures it. The only reason awase agrees to do this is because she has a video of him falling down some stairs lmao

Shiozaki - her vine hair has thorns in it so its pretty common for her hair to latch onto one of her classmates clothes. (The class had to spend over an hour untangling her vines from Shishidas fur once)

Shishida - Shishida has a designed spot in the living area because he sheds so much. That chair is covered in fur 24/7 and its vacuumed twice a day

Shoda - he climbed onto the kitchen counter to reach something that was particularly high up once but he ended up falling lmao. He layed on the kitchen floor for like 15 minutes out of embarrassment even though no one was around

Pony - she still cant read Japanese all that well so theres been multiple times where she walked into the guys locker room/ bathroom

Tsubaraba - he tried to impress a girl by using his solid air to ask for her number but he ended up having a panic attack in front of her lmao

Tetsutetsu - he unironically says hes getting hard as a way to say hes gonna use his quirk. He hasent figured out why everyone gives him weird looks when he says that yet.

Tokage - once rin caught her eating an entire tub of icecream by herself on the kitchen floor at like 3am. Poor dude just wanted a glass of water.

Manga - one time he drew and cut out a life-sized version of himself and put his uniform on the cut out to see if vlad king would notice. He didnt.

Honenuki - one time honenuki apologized to a wall after walking into it. Only to then (immediately after) apologize to the same wall for thinking it was a person.

Bondo - he helps manga with arts and crafts all the time. And he was one of the main people that helped manga with his cutout mission (read mangas for context)

Monoma - the one time he said something nice about class A someone somehow got a video of it and showed it to their entire class. Class B treated monoma with that video for almost a full month lmao

Reiko - reiko and kuroiro work together to scare the shit out of there class every now and then but they stopped after it caused Kamakiri to punch an innocent manga in the face

Rin - not really some random nonsense he has done but I like to think if you press the right pressure points he activates his quirk involuntarily. Kinda like when a doctor hits that one spot in your knee and your leg kicks up.

I have no clue why but I really struggled writing for some of the students on this one rip... my mind was empty lmao

#class 1b #bnha headcannons #bnha headcanons #mha headcanons #awase yousetsu #sen kaibara #togaru kamakiri #shihai kuroiro #itsuka kendou #yui kodai #kinoko komori #ibara shiozaki #jurota shishida #nirengeki shoda #pony tsunotori #kosei tsuburaba #tetsutetsu tetsutetsu #setsuna tokage #manga fukidashi #juzo honenuki #kojiro bondo #neito monoma #reiko yanagi #rin hiryu

[sambambucky]

Author Tag

thanks for the tag @thatmexisaurusrex !!!!!!!<33

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

24

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

126,908 (77,882 this year haha)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Avengers generally, sambucky specifically, spiritually 2012 avengers tower + my otp

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

come on guys i'm only trying to get you home tell me youre joking (i find this.. hilarious) establishing shot patterns of recognition

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i do!! i feel like a ronald mcdonald krusty clown when i do it weeks or months later but i do! idkkkk why... cuz as a reader i like getting responses

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

from beginning to end the impossible weight of maybe is the angiest thing i've written

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

they're all pretty happy but probably come on, guys ends with a proposal, so.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

every time i post anything i anticipate it but, thankfully not yet

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yeah i write it but i only post the lightest winks and mentions eheh

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i'm not at all creative enough for that

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

no but this does remind me to go delete one of those spam comments about posting fic elsewhere

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

still sambucky

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

My Art Thief!Bucky, PI!Sam fic. It's written. I just don't know if I'm happy with it. And do people still want to see it even??? I have no clue lol <- yes of course we do!!!!!!!! i still intend to finish all the incomplete fics i have on ao3.. but i did recently decide to stop dragging the dead corpse of this childhood best friends to celebrity lovers au onto every WIP list.. its a fun concept with a few scenes i love but it has no narrative arc and i am officially laying her to rest

16. What are your writing strengths?

i type sooo fast. uhhh dialogue/group dialogue???

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i'm working on it but i have a problem with trying to rework and rework something instead of getting rid of it completely or starting over.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

my favorite version of it is when the second (or third, fourth, etc) language is in its proper characters, adds extra flavor to a dialogue exchange, aaand the jist of the exchange can be understood without translation. soo if a reader speaks said language, or they're willing to source a translation (by themselves or otherwise provided by the author) they get extra seasoning. but i think all versions are nice.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

i know i was writing stuff before sambucky but thats the first thing i ever published for and i honestly cant recall the first ever

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

changes on the daily, but today i'll say come on guys

saying hi/no pressure tagging @logicheartsoul @crepuscularqueens @writerkenna

#its not my fave because its the most kudosed okeyyy D; #every fic that feels self infulgent and silly and is enjoyed by someone else is my favorite #tag games

[eroticcannibal]

Hey Risu I think ud have some sound advice about this... I want to learn to draw n be an artist (digitally) but my brain screams when I try cos I'm new n not good at all and idk how to counteract the brain so I can draw shitty things until I get good.... It's hard to have fun when my brain is saying I'm shit and should quit :( Any advice? (I love ur art on ur art blog BTW... Ur art is good but like, not what I'm used to seeing and it's kinda nice to see how a hobby artist art looks cos I'm so used to more professional artists who take comms on twitter)

I was thinking of doing some of my shitty art to song lyrics (they're some of my fav, I draw my ocs in some sort of pose and then slap the lyrics on top in fancy font text or write it on my drawing tablet by hand) - and just don't care how bad it looks but I'm unsure if I can get my brain to not scream at me for not being enough long enough to do it :(

Any advice would be nice <3 p.s. My art is so bad it's like a kid trying to draw (derogatory but only at me) n I don't really have anyone in my life for support cos if it's not good they don't care :/// (well I have one friend, he's also a hobbyist as well, rarely draws cos he has the same issue of not being good and perfect type deal)

Oh hey its how I feel about my art 24/7 (and how most artists do!) So I will run u through all the things I find helpful

Listen. Brains are little bitches, ok? They LIE. They are MEAN. You need to practice telling ur brain to shut up. Like "hey, thats not fucking nice, I'm not listening to u until u have something helpful to say!" And its hard, cus its you, but with practice it gets easier to ignore ur brain being on one. Treat it like a toddler who is kicking off and calling u mean names cus u won't give it chocolate. "Thats nice dear im busy with my art". Like u gotta remember, for anyone trying to get started with art, it looks like a kid trying to draw because that's when most people stopped drawing. Same with any other skill u stop in childhood. My kid struggled so much with handwriting due to being ND that it switched to typing and guess what? Still has the handwriting u would expect from a small child. Because it stopped writing as a small child. I have the coordination with running and throwing of a young kid cus thats when I stopped doing sports. People who stop reading books young will find it harder to read books for an older audience. U do those kiddy drawings, do lots of them, you WILL get better.

Another thing. Heres a secret. For every artist, the majority of what they produce is shit. No really, all of them. Not just the crap you have to produce to git gud, but like, every amazing piece of art you have seen has like at least 5 fucked up sketches that got scrapped. Whole bits of painting that got covered up. All art is made up of mistakes and fuck ups. And even if u are sat there going wow this is perfect! The artist is DYING because they can see a hundred little mistakes that u cant. Art is all about perspective and honestly the perspective of the artist is the worst one. We are too familiar with the details to see our art for what it really is.

The thing that helped me most tho was when I went to art museums in Paris. I saw so much "good" art and im like. OK. This is technically good I guess? But it was kinda meh. The museum of modern art was the most disappointing cus, and listen I stan modern art ok there was some good shit in there, but there was a fucking rack of skis. Someone gone bought some skis and put them away and thats art. Hello? Oh someone painted some squares and came up with some deep meaning and im meant to be impressed. And then I go outside for a fag and I open tumblr and see some crappy 2 minute MSpaint vent art and u know what? It made me fucking feel. It make me feel like NOTHING in that museum had. Who is fucking deciding what "good" art is? I dont remember being consulted! I dont think I fucking agree that "good" art is good! I think shit art is good! Some fucking ship art scribbles has more meaning for me than the fucking mona Lisa, yknow?

And then I went to an exhibit of Picasso's sketches and doodles. Napkins with little scribbles on and shit. And they were so normal. Nothing impressive. And it was wonderful. I've done better sketches! I promise u u have done better than some of that stuff. Honestly so many artists aren't even "better", they're just successful. And idk but I think success is a poor way to measure arts worth.

There is a genuine magic to a hobby artist just. Doodling what makes them happy. Not for money, not for fame, not for skill, just because they want to. Art for arts sake, yknow?

Also I understand it can be very hard to share ur work but I would encourage u to do so with ppl u trust to give u fair feedback. Feel free to send me what u make I will be more than happy to tell u how great it is

[rakimaiirisa]

Saw @thepirateandtheshieldmaiden do this and I wanted to do it too!Anyway, this was fun to do and while I wont tag anyone to do this, feel free to tag me so I can see!!

25 facts About Me

I go by Rina and/or Raki on here.

2. I am a constant poster and reblogger for the wolf twins and Danse on here. I'm obsessed with them 😅❤

3. fictional characters have kept me going and Danse and the twins literally saved me during a period of time that I struggled to find the reason to stay.

4. Ive been playing skyrim for 3 years now and still have not have been bored of it. Ive tried to get into other games but I end up missing skyrim and go back.

5. I have a hard time making friends in RL so my internet friends mean alot to me. I love to make new friends on here ❤

6. I try to stay out of fandom drama especially in the tesblr community. I've blocked most of the tesblr drama queens and am just looking to enjoy my friends and their ocs and post about mine and the twins on here.

7. Arisa and Asbjorn mean everything to me and I love to share stuff about them when the mood hits :)

8. I'm anxious as fk in rl so tumblr is my escape when im not lost in skyrim.

9. I like to write tho lately I haven't gotten the urge. I still consider myself a writer, even if its not the best.

10. I own a cute german shephard pup named Vegas. Fun fact about her is that I named her after fallout new vegas 😂

11. I'm into different sorts of music and will often listen to the same songs for hours as I play my game.

12. I have several side blogs as Ive jumped from blog to blog due to my anxiety. Rakimaiirisa is my last one tho and one I keep active.

13. 2 of my Farkas photos was featured on Divent Arts pininterest! I thought that was pretty neat tbh.

14. I'm 5'5 in rl and that's how tall I head-cannon Arisa. Vilkas in my head-cannon is 6'1 . She loves her tall nord❤

15. I'm shy so I often dont reach out first to talk to people on here but I do love to interact when people reach out to me.

16. I speed read so i sometimes miss the point of asks I get. I will try to do better at slowing down tho.

17. I'm mostly a night person so alot of times I tend to post late. I dont sleep too well tbh.

18. I love fall weather and Halloween! Cant wait for spooky time 🎃

19. Ive been on tumblr for 7 years now :)

20. I love clothes but I dont dress up. Arisa, on the other hand, I will dress up to the nines because I love the pretty clothes modderes have made.

21. I like to people watch ingame. I dunno, I am fascinated by the vanilla Ai and additional aI mods that are out there. I am currently using AI overhaul sse.

22. I find certain game voices soothing. For me, Vilkas's voice is comforting as hell. Especially when he is romanced ❤ Farkas, Asbjorn and Danse are comforting as well and I always look forward to hearing them.

23. I love skyrim and fallout art. Wish I could draw but for now Im satisfied with commissioning art of the twins and my ocs.

24. Love to listen to romance songs and think of my otps ❤

25. I can be obsessive about things (skyrim, the wolf twins, danse, my ocs, ) at times 😅

#blog rambles #this was fun ☺☺

[nghtwngs]

maybe this is unhinged bc it’s been a whole year now but your peter fics are some of the best writing ive ever read, i swear i think about them like once a week and go back and reread them and ive been doing that for the whole year now 😭 and they still make me blush and giggle and kick my feet as if i was reading it for the first time. thank you for sharing your art, for bringing me so much joy this year, for everything ❤️

(wanted to add onto the last ask) - i just saw some of your recent posts and i’m even more emotional now, learning you’re also southeast asian. no wonder i’ve felt so SEEN in your fics. from a fellow queer asian, thank you endlessly <3

this is seriously the sweetest and kindest message ive ever gotten in my inbox and ever. i literally almost cried when i read this and when i reread it. im so so happy that you resonated with my fics and the fact that you’ve been rereading them over the last year makes me want to sob omg i honestly cant believe it’s been that long already. i haven’t been writing as much as i’d like in recent months bc school has been on my ass 24/7 but knowing that you’ve been enjoying my work makes me want to write more. literature is such a wonderful medium and im glad i got to share this year with you in whatever capacity

im so glad my fics make you feel seen. growing up as a queer asian, i turned to fanfics bc i wanted to be part of the stories that i saw on screen. we don’t get represented that often in media, and when we do, we’re usually stereotyped to hell. i just wanted to be seen and heard and loved. i want to go on adventures and experience amazing worlds. i also want other people to feel that. writing has always been a super personal thing for me. i only write things i can put myself in and i am very careful with trying to include as many people as i can. white-coding has been a super big issue ive noticed in fics and i never want to make people feel the way i do when i realize that the piece was not written for me and never meant for me

thank you for reading my work and thank you for enjoying it as much as i enjoyed writing it. it will always be for you and for me and for all of us who are never seen or heard

#i am sorry i took a bit to reply but i wanted to be able to sit down and take my time responding to your ask!! #also ILY AND I HOPE THE BEST FOR YOU ALWAYS #and omg learning that a fic writer is also SEA/viet brings me so much joy i too feel so seen #i haven’t written for peter in a long time but i think that was the peak on my tumblr career #maybe i should start writing for him again #those wips aren’t going to get done themselves #asks #anon

[d3l3t3d-deactivated]

AND ANOTHER THING

i literally brought up my frustrations with my profs and they were just like "lol that's like, not true!? but sorry you seem to have convinced yourself of that <3 have you tried just shutting up and fitting in? stupid?" and it breaks my heart and makes me want to scream scream scream that a bunch of dicks ruined school for me. like i love learning new skills, and having access to creative spaces and materials, and meeting new people who are PASSIONATE about things, whether it be a shared passion or not. i love being part of a community, i love hot metal and stage lights and writing weird poetry and sewing costumes and creating, i love being terrible at things ive never done before, and getting better with the patience and support of the people around me. I came to class once wearing like... a slightly more athletic version of what i normally wear because i was taking dance lessons (learning a new skill! i was terrible, then not so bad! it was so fun!) and these fuckers are like, "lol whats with the GETUP?? going for a little jog?? doing something other than being down here with us 24/7??" and im just BAFFLED that like, adults in college are talking to me like fucking disney channel bullies because im doing something they think is lame or feminine or whatever. and treating me as less of a man, as less of a queer person, as less of an artist, and as lesser than THEM because my life doesnt revolve around being an iron caster. i liked doing it, i really did, and it sucks that these people ruined it for me, and im trying so so hard to find a reason to be excited about going back to school. im unbelievably fortunate to not have to pay for my education, and i cant let these fucking dicks make me want to throw away that opportunity. i'm excited to take classes in animation and film, im excited to host the next drag show, bigger and better than before. i'm excited to get access to the gym, and the lighting studios, and possibly even a classroom to practice choreo in. i'm excited to see my out-of-state friends, and to have a studio space, and meet people outside of my major, and to just troll all these sculpture motherfuckers by being happy and successful making MY cringe-ass art. i'm going to lie, cheat, steal, and troll my way though this semester and nobody can stop me. don't show up at my shows unless you're tipping with 20's. swag.

[irregulardiaryposts]

01:37 16/02/2023

Well... its obvs been a while since i updated huh. reading back on some of those .. some of its nice ig and some of it is quite articulate but looking back on some of it with my perspective now, idk its sad but also a little cringe lol. but thats the point of a diary to keep it cringe and truthful to how im feeling in the moment. well anyway

its 2023 woooo im in my second year of uni and things are pretty okay i guess. im still a litlte lonely dont get me wrong but im sure things will get better. um. ive got an essay due at midnight on the 16th (technically today) and im like a third through it? but the first 1/3 is the easiest part cos its just explaining the concepts. anyway im behind on a lot of uni work. for no reason. at all. like theres no good reason behind it other than i need medicated i guess. maybe i really should get meds im an adult now so im hoping they can. its genuinely really affecting my uni performance i cant get out of bed most days during the winter cos its so so cold. why is the world so so cold. my feet are also so so cold. can you tell im procrastinating :P unis still lonely but also i barely go anyway so what would i know anyway. i got some hobbies i guess. anime has revived my want for a tumblr blog so in november i made a new blog for anime ToT. its fun tho i really do enjoy it its so fun and silly and i can be as insane as i want to over fictional characters. better than twitter by a mile cos well yeah. it has also reignited my want to make art, cos then i can post it and other people who are also insane about the same characters can enjoy it too. even if its kinda bad idgaf. the whole 'oh shit two cakes' meme constantly runs through my head.

ahh anyway i also like playing video games too, or ig the difference is i have the money to buy them and a decent laptop to run them on. so that helps fill the void of community im missing. i really miss people. and im a huge introvert for the most part (unless im drunk but shhhh) but i miss not being in my room 24/7. i guess the theme of this update is i need meds ToT. not that it will necessarily be a perfect solution sometimes theyre not but ig it doesnt hurt to talk to a doctor about it. that depends on if i can actually get an appt ahhhhh. i dont have too much to talk about ig just that im alive and barely staying afloat but not actively suicidal so *thumbs up*. i really do need to write this essay i would dislike to get an extension because then i would just put it off again until next week lol. im such a good procrastinator :D this definitely isnt detrimental to my non-existent work ethic.

maybe i can talk about something thats itching at me from my philosophy course. my essay isnt exactly on this topic but i rlly wanna formulate some thoughts on it lol.

so we're talking about what exists in the world right? things people would easily say exist are things like tables, chairs, frogs, dogs, atoms and molecules. things that are a little harder to figure out if they exist are things like love, morality, goodness, numbers, gender. the lists are not exhaustive but that kind of thing. and there's this concept of Ordinary Objects(OO) and Extraordinary Objects(EO). the first list has almost all OO, which are defined as being highly visible objects right before our eyes (that do not escape our notice). the atoms and molecules make things tricky in philosophy as nothing can ever, ever, be simple in this subject. anyway. EO are objects that are also highly visible objects that do escape our notice. you're thinking how can an object, a physical object, that is so obviously in front of us, escape our notice??? well you're not alone in thinking philosophy just makes up things along with justifications of said things just for shits and giggles, and calls it a day, cos that's exactly what i thought when i heard this the first time. and genuinely so much of philosophy is just postulating and theorising about this thing and that thing but its done with such earnestness and sincerity that i get endeared by these stupid dead guys. ANYWAY. the existence of EO are obviously controversial (of course) and even OO are argued too. but yes what are EO exactly? the example given in the reading was a Trog - an object that is composed of a dog and a tree trunk. no, they are not connected in any way, and no they don't even have to be near each other but they can compose this object called a Trog. this is what you can call an EO. it is highly visible (assuming the dog isn't microscopic and the tree is not invisible) and it is right before our eyes yet we never notice it. well of course, who would? but the question is do EO really exist or is it a baseless theory. well...

another example of an

#oh well i guess i did try and update in between 2021 and now but i never finsihed my philosophy rant and i never will tbqh #because i do not remember what i was gonna say but im sure it wouldve been interesting to re read it cos i loved learning philosophy #anywya

[mojavepumpkin]

2/7/24

the end of all wanting is all i've been wanting.

sometimes i get worried and i dont even have a reason. sometimes i feel like i just cant get a full breath. today has been weird.

i haven't done much of anything, which is generally how i like it. it was nice out today, so i went outside for some of it. my nephew was home, hes an interesting feller, doesnt talk much on account of being 6 months old. i think maybe i can teach him how to be a conversationalist as good as myself with enough practice. right now he likes to sit in the driveway and watch me play basketball, though i dont know if he understands the object of the game. or even what a game is, or an object for that matter.

sometimes i feel like im running out of time. i don't know what it is im running out of time to do, but a clock somewhere is ticking, and i am very aware. maybe its how long i have to figure this whole thing out. its unfair that i have to.

didn't do much today, all day. my hair was bad when i woke up, haircut tomorrow. dinner was good tonight. i had ramen for lunch. i think i'll read after this - i was trying to watch the hawks but bally crapped out on me.

i think im going to try keeping my phone not in the same room as me for little periods of time where i need to be productive. i guess i dont NEED to be productive, but when i would rather not be on my phone.

im having trouble with thinking of things to write, i need to take a shower, so that's what i'll do next. or i suppose i should do biology homework, or art, or write my script for public speaking. i dont want to do any of those things, i just want to lay here and read or write. anything is more alluring than school at the moment. i cant believe its only wednesday.

i have learned recently that my torso is disproportionately short, so thats nice. as soon as i heard that i knew it was going to be something i remembered, just for the sheer ludicrousness.

i havent watched a movie in a while. i've started Picture of Dorian Grey by Oscar Wilde, i like it so far - interesting. I intend to finish it, which is more than i can say about any other book in a while. its a library book, so i'll have to return it at some point, i dont like the idea of that, impermanence; theres a metaphor in that somewhere.

i dont think theres anything else notable in my life going on, havent talked to or seen H in a while (a month) and trying to reconcile with that with valentines day coming up - need to buy something, will tonight.

my next few weekends are all booked up, which sucks, i like the ambiguity of having nothing planned.

thats all i can think of to say

#blog #post #r196 #196 #girlblogging #girl

[yippieitsarvensart]

OK OK SO !!! HCS FIRST 👇👇

both the tweels > bpd, autistic. also partially blind in both eyes and wear contacts (morays have shit eyesight), their vision gets shittier the lighter the ambient, + they have shit balance but are pretty fast. they have long hair shaved on both sides, are black w/ vitiligo, notable on their face on the same side of their black hair strand (stolen hc), and have freckles with their merform's colors. oh and their gills never go out so they can breathe underwater + their ears are that shape i drew on floyd always, bc the potion cant take those things away. they have some scars from brawls in the ocean. in my head they also purr. AND theyre both transfem. to me. (they use any prns but mostly he/she) + theyre every gender under the sun & bissexual/panssexual, they date everyone regardless of gender

floyd specific > adhd. gets overwhelmed pretty easily and his meltdowns consist of him whining and crying and breaking stuff and wanting attention. can understand tone when hes in a good mood only + has super control of his tone & voice, not masking just very good w it. he can toletare tight clothing but as long as its 1 item, prefers large ones. also he likes enclosed spaces and needs stimulation 24/7, never stops never stills, either has music or is fidgeting. special interest is fashion (mostly shoes) :3c

jade specific > slight ocd. its not that big but its there. hard to get overwhelmed but when he does he breaks and throws everything around him, even people. has more difficulty w tone and his face + voice is almost always stuck in that customer service one, poor guy. absolutely LOVES tight clothing and tight spaces. hes not very hyperative hes just chillin most of the time. vibrating slightly sometimes when hes vv happy. special interest is mushrooms ofc!

bonus riddle > bdp, autistic, ocd. also has depression & anxiety. uses he/she and is transfem bigender sapphilean (mlm wlw) ! the white strand you comented abt on my art (thank you sm for the kind comments btw <33) is a hc that i have about the after effects of chap 6. she ended up having that white strand and cant seem to get it out no matter what... has dyed it before but gave up eventually. anyways she has chronic pain on her wrists bc of writing so much! i also hc that his overblot left burn scars on his arms, legs & face. in the begginings of nrc time he had an ED, but after his 3rd year he was very recovered and is now pudgy. her special interests are books & hedgehogs :D

(+ i can talk abt silver & sebek if you want :3c)

ANYWAYSS, jchshjds riddle is so silly hes so unaware of social clues poor guy..... its so funny that hes the only one out of the loop there. but they work it out eventually....

honestly im convinced sebek would try asking him on a date and riddle would accept but he would know it was a date. and this happened for a long time. until riddle told trey & cater about him, sebek and silver hanging out and they were like "riddle.... thats a date.... you guys are doing things boyfriends do" and hes all "we are What." jdjwndjsn

I DO HAVE TIME give me some ingredients (ideas) and i'll cook (write) . bc unfortunelly i am not so big on ideas rn 😔😔

also THE IMAGE ?!!??!(($!? HGJDHS ive saved it its so silbekrid....

I was literally looking at this in the morning while eating breakfast like "I'll respond to this after I eat" Now, 7:30pm, I start writing out a response. smh.

YOU LITERALLY HAVE THE CREATIVEST MIND EVER?? THE REALEST THOUGHTS IN THE GALAXY???

I have actually mentioned before that I also think the twins have shit eyesight and how I think it goes down is like; ONLY JADE uses contacts, Floyd finds the idea of putting those things ON YOUR EYEBALLS is like actually disgusting he would rather DIE. So he- Like Jade -Has prescription glasses, but he never uses them unless he's in his own room and wants to actually see clearly. Azul insists he wears them while working in the lounge because he doesn't need Floyd tripping over and breaking things, it would be annoying to clean up after him. (translated: I really don't want you to get hurt please wear ur glasses so I can stop worrying about you) I don't actually have hcs for the twins' sexualities n' genders but I feel like they're so nonbinary spectrum 2 me... and also bi/pan is so real 2me now thhank you... Tweels purring real... idc if eels can't actually purr they can now... The separate-specific hcs I agree with it all, very very super real

YES go ahead and talk about the other two as well I love your massive awesome brain it's so full of things and I need to study you under a microscope methinks... I love love love Silver especially, he's one of the characters that when I hadn't played twst yet he caught my eyeee and I was like !!!! :OOO pretty boy alert!! Although with Sebs it took a little longer, I've only just recently started liking him a lot more but with the help of hcs and deep diving into lore I have quickly warmed up to his character... Love the boy Love him <33

and Riddllleeee... ohhh Riddle <3333 I'm #FallingInLove for real (take this part as inspo for a fic if you want boo, I can write prompts all day) Riddle just being so confused when caycay n' Trey tell her he's been going on dates this whole time. Like why didn't I get told about this. Have we been dating this entire time and I didn't know. And then she has a crisis and freaks out about it because "what if Sebek and Silver didn't know either and they are literally just my friends and they see me as a friend-" and all these 'what if's' go through his head and it makes him go. coo-coo. So he's extra irritable, too many heads are rolling once again, and she's trying extra hard to avoid/ignore/turn down any of Sebek's and Silver's offers to hang out BECAUSE SHE JUST FEELS SO AWFUL ABOUT IT like they really. REALLY need to talk it out. SebeSil go to someone else (can't think of any1 rn, maybe lilia?) to ask for advice on what to do... AUUGHHH then idk 1000 words later they k-k-kiss and make up (like the song. aha)

#arvy asks #arvy... writes prompts? #also I did read the other ask abt ur response to the playlist #I just couldn't think of what to say in response so #I mean I think I accidentally deleted the ask but whatever #I read it don't worrieee

[anosci]

(332-347 albums etc that I’ve listened to this year, copied from twitter) (now with art. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] [14] [15] [16] [17] [18] [19] [20] [21] [22] [23] [24])

names and thoughts below cut

332/ Ryuichi Sakamoto - async - Remodels (2017) hits harder!!! all the remixes bring out the best from the originals. i ended up vibing with this way more. two specific big highlights: "disintegration (Alva Noto Remodel)" next level "ZURE (Yves Tumor Obsession Edit)" MASSIVE

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333/ おとめ - Reflective memory ～Lo-Fi mix～ (2023) nice little chill beats, p much exactly as you'd expect. the 2 that stood out to me: "Two hours viewing" is extra lush and what id describe as wintery. and then "Full Moon Eyes" has some fat ass BASS. love that upright stuff.

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334/ CLYDE & Starkey - Clydebot Ultra (2023) jungle is massive etc etc i think the opening track (Jungle Bass Cannon) is the best, and, coincidentally, goes the hardest

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335/ Loraine James - Gentle Confrontation (2023) "Prelude of Tired of Me" this texture contrast… "While They Were Singing" smth about this… feels tired(?). all of this emits such a specific feeling that i can only describe as "exhausted" and it's fascinating

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336/ Rascal Reporters - The Strainge Case Of Steve (2023) kind of in love with the "no, no, let's keep it going" attitude in "A Race Against Time" lol "The Odor At Tavistock" beautiful adventure "Guns For Clones" standout. love those sitars

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337/ Aleksi Perälä - Simulation (2017) sometimes idk how to approach these numerous numbered variations on a few ideas but "NLL561606932" do be hitting.

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338/ Jlin - Perspective (2023) misc thoughts… "Fourth Perspective" got a spooky vibe "Derivative" is funny but like… still bangs lol "Duality" is oddly cinematic. an unorthodox happily ever after

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339/ Cornelius - Mellow Waves (2017) picky about vocals :\ i dig the clouded soundscapes though. "Surfing on Mind Wave, Pt. 2" is good shit. "Helix / Spiral" 2nd fav tune. feels like it could go in a katamari also: even when im picky, the stereo field is CHOICE.

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340/ Skytree - Harmonic Residents (2023) i got into skytree bc he was mixing dubstep with massive chill soundscapes. now hes shifted into just the latter and he's killing it. as a whole this EP is relaxing and meditative. i love how tall the wall of sound is in "Astral Projector"

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341/ Excision - Virus Remixes (2017) i loved the original so it's a tall order to best these tunes. and sadly…i just didnt enjoy a number of these. :( but! "Final Boss (Dillon Francis Remix)" !!! "Mirror (Kai Wachi Remix)" wildest thing here maybe! plus a few others!

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342/ Location Location Location - Damaged Goods (2023) kinda mixed feelings tbh. "mislocated" mood all around. that said: woah, the suffocating sound of "Trap Door"! 2nd fav prolly "79 Beatdowns". feels like being lost. "A Sound That Shapes A Thing That Thinks" feels very light

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343/ VA - Doukyuusei Sound Memorial (1993) kinda just "not bad" for me, but a few of these HIT: "Mako Saitoh" is insanely soft. those woodwinds win my heart over. "Misa Tanaka" big fav! "Kurumi Nishina" hits like a mint

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344/ Iris Ipsum - Pattern Language (2023) really really (cool) tight beat textures a bit like hip hop beat influenced idmy. feels like it'd be right at home on merck :) my favorites are bouncing between "Gaussian" and "Inner Array" as of writing

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345/ Oneohtrix Point Never - Again (2023) this is the most transporting music ive heard in a hot minute. i feel like i just watched a movie, not an album. this is also the most fresh thing ive heard in a hot minute. what the hell. i cant pick a fav track. all around amazing.

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346/ mōshonsensu - Even Keel (2023) its lush but… idk. it just doesnt quite hit me. it happens sometimes. except one track: "Renaissance". it has a soft and sleepy vibe that kinda sticks with me. nostalgic a bit.

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#media thread

[rrxnjun]

YESSSS thats what everybody has been saying about uni and it's just makes me so nervous cuz if i do not have like clear instructions and things on how to do things i just crumble so i'm really scared about it🥲🥲🥲 i don't think im that smart tbh but thank u for thinking that🤣 and i feel like u have to be smart as well tho to learn psychology!!! like psychology sounds so much harder/smarter to me than international businesses

getting mad at ur art is just so😭😭but very relatable tbh i do the same thing with it as well ig🥲

SO TRUE WALKING IS JUST SO AMAZING!!! i'm an avid walk enjoyer and i feel like most people just under appreciate it!!! like i have been going on daily walks for a while now and nobody gets why i love it so much🫡 (kinda funny how excited i am to talk about walking but i just love it somuchhhh🤣)

wahhh i'm so glad it made u happy!!! 💕tbh i was just very scared that it's rude to ask this kind of question and i just didn't want to make u feel bad that u didn't post anything about it ;-; and i care so much about that fic like i'm not even kidding after i read it it was in the back of my head 24/7 for at least a week or something i loved it so much ngl 🥹🥹 like that was what i was looking for in books tbh🤣 and thank u for not thinking i'm not annoying;-; like this just made me feel so much better about sending these asks💕 AND I ALSO THANK U VERY MUCH FOR BEING KIND AS WELL!!!!💓💞💘💖 (liebestraum anon💕)

THATS SO ME i need instructions for eveRYTHING in life i cant possibly do things alone AHAHA. you are smart tho and i stand by this. i mean,, psych is hard so i do think i am quite intelligent tbh but thank you for saying so as well!! but we dont have to compare ourselves to others, there are many kinds of smart and while i am psych smart you are international businesses smart and neither is more than the other.

WALKS ROCK BRO its my fav hobby. i walk to and back from uni every day and it takes 30 mins to go there and sometimes i have to go there twice so im really getting those walks in. its so great u just put in your earphones and listen to your music and its so fun istg

why would it be rude!!!! i posted it for everyone to see so its totally okay for u to ask about it and its totally valid to ask questions abt something that interested you. it didnt make me feel bad, bc i know i dont owe anyone anything and i write for myself ahaha <3 but this did make me really happy and that it was something you were looking for hhh <3

also,, im once again really sorry for replying so late. life got hectic and my mental health wasnt doing really well hhh

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

[gwasgy]

Not to be lame.

#thinking about authorfathergod in spn vs homestuck #in spn it's CLEARLY about actual fans and about the character's fathers and god is made into the author within canon #and we are also aware of how this is clearly correlating to real life writers directors real life relations and conversations with fans #and the characters are aware that there are fans and are able to react to that #dean in the real ghostbusters ''my pain isnt for you to enjoy'' and jensen ross ackles looking into the camera after hearing 'destiel' in #episode fanfiction #and it's somehow related to the weird very close relationship that spn cons seem to act like they produce #somehow related to c*ckles and misha's phone number on his twitter and the prank stuff they talk about at cons #but h*mestuck also has an author that shows up #but he isnt talking to the characters. he isnt letting the characters interact with fans. he's talking directly to YOU (the fan) #for all dean looks at the camera and says 'i am not a toy' to the audience. i dont remember how i was going to finish this thouht. #but in HS Hussie is talking to YOU not to make fun of you. you are not responding. he might be making it clear he doesnt like you but #i dont think you can say he made a Becky-level character of inserting and then making fun of the whole collective fanbase #it's also weird. s15 is God Is Evil Let's Kill God. He's The Author Of Our Boys Let's Kill Him And Get Free Will #in HS yes hussie is writing it no it is never hidden but he seems to-within canon- lose the reigns to evil forces #the big bad of hs comes and kills the author and the author becomes a nuisance #if i knew more about how hs was written maybe it'd be more compelling (lol)- #i know in PQ it is a different writer and it's clearly stated that there are external writers and i know the art was outsourced #(which is a good thing. the art was good) #i just. i dont think about hs 24/7 anymore like i do with spn now so i cant. have smart thoughts about it. #but the authorfathergod in hs is NOT a father. and barely a god. he seems to have written the 'main timeline' and the characters just have #just have to deal with it. and within the rules of homestuck nonsense unless you've stuck your arm through a juju you have #to stick to the main timeline or youre doomed and you WILL die. #outside the planet time dislocated resources cannot be accessed once you have diverged from the timeline #stuff like that #my god. dont read this #/d

[yeoldontknow]

დ content tag game დ

tagged by the loveliest angel @augustbutwinter to do this fun tag. thank you so much my love! 

1. what fandoms have you written for (but do not currently)?  - harry potter, muse, merlin, supernatural, doctor who, sherlock

2. what fandoms are you currently writing for? - kpop only

3. how long have you been writing? on this blog?  - my first actual fanfic would have been when i was about 8? it was for sailor moon but it was literally only in a journal i had. i presume that counts. so that would put us at 24 years lmao - on this blog specifically, since april 2017

4. on which platforms do you post your stories?  - here and AO3

5. what is your favourite genre to write? - aaaaangst lmao and horror/suspense. i love really dark things, and have always had a fascination in writing things that disturb me? i think its from an analytical or psychological perspective, exploring the limits of humanity and processing for myself why these things make me uncomfortable/where i feel them on my body/what is fear vs disgust idk. also very much enjoy fantasy/supernatural. 

6. are you a pantser or a planner? - almost always i have a plan, however there are some fics that come out of nowhere and i just have to write them. examples of this are enough and love; always

7. one shot or multi-chapter? - i usually try very hard to keep things as a one shot, and reserve series for things that actually have substance enough to extend past 3 chapters. lately, all my ideas have been very plot heavy or come from worlds i am very interested in exploring and/or have aspects of emotion i want to work through. if i cant keep it to a one shot (like...under 30k) i will make it a series and ill be angry at myself lmao

8. what is the perfect chapter length in your opinion?  - anywhere from 5-9k is a solid, average chapter length for me. some chapters, in hero for example, need to be more than this because theyre the heavy plot chapters. i have been trying not to focus on lengths anymore, just want to write until the story is told

9. what is your longest published story? is it complete?  - the longest story ive ever written is 154k in a different fandom and yes its complete. at the moment, hero is breaching 98k and i imagine it will be my longest when its completed

10. which story did you enjoy working on the most?  - when it comes to series, hero and time runner will, and always will be, the most special things ive ever done. i feel at home and myself when im writing them. im in love with writing them. the ideas are so strong, and the characters are so loud and clearly defined it just is the best time making art ive ever had. - for one shots, light sakura was truly catharsis. i needed to write that. its the most personal, vulnerable thing ive ever written and will probably never produce something like that again unless theres another major event in my life. also absolutely adored writing molotov cocktail and empty vessels. those are both the easiest 30k ive ever produced

11. favourite request you’ve have written and why (if any?)  - brooklyn is burning was technically a request and im extremely partial to it

12. are there reoccurring themes in your stories?  - oh yeah. usually my female characters are working through bad relationships or finding their voices, seeking identity and power in worlds that dont necessarily provide that. i write what i feel and what ive lived, the worlds around the characters are just exaggerations of reality and my imagination. theres always a little piece of me in my stories, and usually that piece comes down to them learning to trust which is something i struggle with

13. current number of wips?  - please i cannot share this number, not when im ashamed of the amount lmao

14. three things you have noticed about your own writing? 1. smut is insanely hard for me 2. fluff is almost impossible, and could be considered my weakness. happiness is an external feeling, an outward experience. im a very bodied writer and finding joy or finding small bits of romance is difficult (largely because i live alone) so i will over explain aspects of the idol character or highlight small actions in the effort of holding onto them 3. i am still learning to trust the process

15. a quote you like from a published story.

‘Don’t confuse loyalty with strength,’ you say, as he releases you. You remain still, forehead pressing against the bars to get as close to him as possible. ‘I have no allegiance to you. My silence is not owed to you.’

‘Really?’ he says with disdain. ‘It was given so freely the last two days.’

‘Your ignorance proves you have never truly known a woman,’ you taunt. ‘We are always at war, even if we are silent.’

- from: hero - chapter 3

16. a quote from an unpublished story.

Would it have been easier for you both to survive if you could be a needy, fragile little thing - not ready to die, not ready to leave him on his own?

The night before, Chanyeol held you close, kissed you until your throat felt raw, and made you realize he didn’t want it, didn’t need it. He loved the war in you, handled you like a blade between his fingers, skin unmarred by your sharp edges. He didn’t want it, but you wanted it, at least a little. You wanted him to know there were still traces inside you of the girl you lost.

from: time runner - chapter 7

17. space for you to say something to your readers.

hello beautiful loves. every moment you even click on one of my works an angel gets its wings <3

tagging: @yehet-me-up @kyungseokie @jenmyeons @j-pping @jamaisjoons @yoonia @kithtaehyung @inkedtae @kookdiaries @kookingtae @xiaokoo @sunshinekims @biaswreckingfics @ditzymax @sugaurora @bangtanhome @yeojaa @sahmfanficbts @xjoonchildx @writtenwhalien @jinpanman @cutechim and anyone else who would like to do this <3 as always please only do so if comfy! 

#content tag game