RP:
Log 218
FTL: FTLR-3 has taken the form of the cyan lizard that was its host. It remains immobile, but the form it has taken is clearly that of a cyan lizard. One especially similar to the one from which it originated from. I've described my hypothesis as to why it would do such a thing in Log 216, but to summarise, it's for the sake of efficiency. Efficiency of movement, efficiency of existence. It's taking the best of all three sub-types of Rot and combining it.
FTL: I fear that this new form may grant FTLR-3 a much extended range of movement that, especially when combined with its apparent ability to learn, could result in it breaking out of the containment chamber. If all goes well, this will not be the case. I will carry on in my attempts at creating a potent corrosive substance, just in case LIFEGIVER's treatment does not arrive on time.
FTL: As for updates on the progress of my attempts to create such a substance, there aren't many. The progress has been lacking and it all is strikingly reminiscent of my attempts to create organisms without a foundation. I do believe that I am on edge of something, though. I cannot tell you what, only that it will aid me in my quest.
FTL: The time after FTLR-3 is eradicated is eagerly awaited. I cannot allow myself to get distracted from this process at this time, but the thoughts of experiments I could be doing now are alluring to me. For example, Eternal Anomaly (as our conversation has unfortunately not yet ceased) mentioned a slugcat-poleplant hybrid.
FTL: Creating a hybrid with a poleplant is indeed a curious idea. One that I wish I could afford the time to explore at this moment. Perhaps not with a slugcat, that seems to defeat the purpose. Slugcats are insanely adaptable creatures, they can withstand just about any modifications. Though a slugcat-poleplant hybrid would have its benefits, my interest lies in the reactivity of the poleplants leaves. What if a poleplant's genetics that pertain to them were implanted into say, a lizard? Forgive me for the amount of experiments that lizards have been the main subject of.
FTL: The 'leaves' could function as a warning system, though perhaps it wouldn't be that much of an effective one. Append them onto the tail though, and they could perhaps warn the lizard of any vibrations in the ground. The red colouring the lizard would be sure to inherit from the poleplants would also serve as a deterrent to predators, invoking the image of a typical red lizard. It could also potentially employ the poleplant's typical hunting method of ambush. Though it would lack the ability to blend in.
FTL: Perhaps if the lizard that would be modified were a white lizard... its camouflage abilities, if combined with the reactiveness of the poleplant. Truly could make a capable predator, armed with many ways to protect itself from any that may threaten it. Its red leaves would make it stand out, even when camouflaged, but everything needs a weakness, no?
FTL: I'll have to put this idea on hold. After this whole fiasco is over, this will be the project I pick up. Just another incentive to get this over with as quickly as possible. I tire of researching FTLR-3, it has too much urgency to it. But I shall carry on doing so, as though my interest grows weaker as my attention attempts to drift elsewhere, I remain curious about its nature.
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having ashe thoughts but I can't find my phone to post them on instagram so you get them instead
she's just a kid! like it still explodes my mind a little bit that she was 16 during s1, like hey that's a child and like obviously it's there a little bit with the rest of the pd but with ashe it's just so much different for some reason and like
he liked video games and loud music and as far as we know no one is going to even notice that he's gone, since he really only knew mark and the pd and they both know so much about what happened but aside from them and like the whole reason they were on the roadtrip for s2 was for ashe and like, yes, we have gotten a little sidetracked, but they only knew him for like two weeks but he was cared for! ashe was loved! and now he's sixteen, probably seventeen now, not in control of his own body because he loved his friends back and I just!
AND MARK i need to talk about mark he just wanted to protect her and through that protection it led to her end and i think not enough people talk about that part, how because mark kept ashe home and didn't let her have other friends she of course got attached to the first kids her age she'd seen in almost a decade, attached to their heroism as well because if she'd just been a little braver or better maybe her mom would still be around, and mark is trying to protect her but he's out of the house all the time and well, sometimes when he looks at her all he can see is his wife dying, and she knows that so she goes against him and goes to fight with her friends, and what does he know anyway, he was never there for her. and maybe if mark had let her use the book more, she would have been able to control the trickster but there's no use for that now because ashe is gone and mark can't do anything about it because after everything, he's placed back in prison
and "where are you going?" well, we don't know who said that! was it the trickster just fucking with the pd, was it ashe breaking the possession for a second? WE DON'T KNOW, and can ashe see what the trickster is doing with his body, seeing the harm it's causing, do you think it reminds him of what happened to his mother?
what did you think he wanted to do when he grew up? do you think, if he's ever free, that mark will go back to his over-protectiveness or finally let ashe be his own person? was his favorite color always purple? will ashe ever be able to look at his friends or interact with the world without remembering everything the trickster did? do you think he will be able to look at everything the pd did to get him back, everything mark did to try to protect him, no matter how counteractive, and understand that he is loved?
does ashe winters understand how much she means to the world?
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i love looking at shit you write when you're trying to learn a language because like,,, take this for example
B: Ja, ik kan bestel nu . Ik wil graag vis met de soep, en zal ik drink witte wijn? Nee, ik neem rode wijn. Misschien de Duitse wijn? Duitse wijn is de beste!
Ober: Zeker. Voor jou, ik zal even een lepel halen. Voor de soep. En zal jullie een voorgerecht ?
A: Nee. O! Heb je kaas met brood?
Ober: Ja. We hebben ook bitterballen. Het is ons nieuwe menu van Nederlands eten.
B: Bitterballen? Lekker.
A: Ik vind bitterballen lekker. Wat eet je liever, bitterballen of kaas met brood.
B: Ik eet graag bitterballen, altijd. Mag we een portie bitterballen?
Ober: Je vindt bitterballen en kaas lekker? Je moet deze kaasbitterballen een proeven. Ze zijn heerlijk!
like... you can tell homegirl is out here, trying to squeeze in every last morsel of dutch she learned. she is creating a story, but she also has written weird shit like "i bring you a spoon" and the whole "wat eet je liever" just to show that she knows that shit. good for her. come back soon.
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i know its unrealistic and nonsense to feel bad bc im not as good as i could be within a hobby bc a hobby is supposed to be fun and occupy your time but i cant for the life of me not feel guilty about not drawing and not improving
like.. i have most of the resources. i often have the time. i have almost a thousand pictures in my reference folder to be used to practice and learn. i have an internet connection to be inspired and learn from those better than me and yet... i just don't feel like drawing. and i mean drawing something grand.. not just the dozens of doodles and oc refsheets i keep churning.. i want to do standalone pieces like i used to and look at them fondly and feel proud of something. but i just dont have the flame to do it for months and months on end
i mean obviously this is much more likely to happen when it has been your primary hobby for over like 7 years contrary to, say, webpage coding which i just started to learn like a year ago. what's keeping me from wanting to draw though? its so frustrating to know you Have the Potential to be a good artist and knowing How you could become more but just.. not feeling like it. and telling urself im gonna draw tomorrow and tomorrow comes and its one of those days you'd rather stare at a wall the whole afternoon and it just keeps going and going and you stay stumped
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