#but it'll always be out of love

[humbleanger]

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#my baby turns 11 this year #it's been over three years since i had to leave them both #you're still a scar you will always be a scar and sometimes a wound and sometimes an infection #but it'll always be out of love #and grief #i love you even if i heal i love you even if i survived leaving you i will love you until the end of my existence #your paws indented my heart forever #journal eb

[luonnonvalinnat]

Wolfsnake fam but they're older 🥺

#Also I'm late to the party but uh #Bad guys sequel #first of all I love yall who left messages about it to my inbox and I'm sorry I haven't responded to any of those #I just didn't have any energy to comment about it when it was announced ToT #honestly I don't have much of an opinion about the whole thing yet. mostly cause sequels are always such a hit or miss #especially if it's for a movie I like a lot #Soo fingers crossed it'll turn out good ! #cathy wolfsnake #mr. wolf #mr. snake #fluffyvenom #wolfsnake #mr. wolf x mr. snake #tbg #the bad guys #dreamworks #dreamworks the bad guys #my art

[sleepgarden]

new headdress I'm working on for my shop. Lambkin, the pet name varré gives us in elden ring, is such a cute word. The pink yarn is very light against the cream, it's hard to capture but it "blushes" in light, almost disappearing under certain angles and light! Accented with antique lace, and it'll have a gorgeous matching ribbon and bows.

I haven't posted any personal work in a while so here's something I'm taking time on for myself ^-^

#Making egl garments has been a long time dream of mine... imagine I had cute little sleepgarden brand tags #Maybe someday.. #I'm going to be more realistic with my pricing going forward too. I have two other pieces planned #But im going to release things one by one as I make then instead of saving them to post multiple at a time I think. #Esp since I have less time lately. Anyways #I have another needlepoint that says pluto because I've been loving that word. It's so fun to say #It's in a delft blue colour in a different font. It'll probably be a belt cover #Idk who would want something that says pluto on it but I'll throw it out there for any planet and roman mythos fans lol #Okay enough rambling. I've been going through it. As always. My work has been falling behind though. It's nice to have something to share! #Goodnight ♡

[jade-lynxx]

Yeah so I love link click

#Dude out here being the biggest fucking hypocrite #We love him for it pop off queen #I know censorship says it won't becom bl but it'll always be bl in my heart #link click #link click spoilers #shiguang #Also fonts aren't the same but ignore that

[daily-hanamura]

#persona 4 #p4 #persona 4 golden #p4g #yosuke hanamura #hanamura yosuke #but he certainly does it with a lot of consistency and i love that so much #yosuke's not the first person to always include nanako #it makes me extremely soft because i feel like yosuke tries to be inclusive with his friends he doesnt want anyone to feel left out #we see it especially in his interactions with the first years and teddie #on some level he knows that the others are less willing to put themselves out there #thinking about the beach outing where kanji says that he would not have gone yo the beach if it wasnt for yosuke's invitation #anyway in this particular instance I'm just very very weak for yosuke looking out for nanako as well #i mean nanako is super cute (and i say that as someone who doesnt really like kids or kid characters) and everyone loves her (as they should #so in a way yosuke keeping her included is not surprising #but on some level its also just... yosuke being considerate of yu #i mean look at yu's title of siscon kingpin of steel in arena - yu cares very much for nanako #so by extension yosuke does as well #also on a more delulu lvl in p4d rise says she'll give nanako priv dance lessons #because it'll just be her yu and nanako and WOW isnt that just like... (giggles) - rises hilarious transparency aside #isnt that exactly what yosuke has with yu and nanako? #ngl im lowkey thinking about romcom single parent troupes and yosuke is just ticking all the boxes #ok ok im jking (im not) #he's good with his queue

[katierosefun]

modern family is all fun and games until you get to the scenes where you burst into tears because the once-vaguely homophobic dad now refers to his son's husband as family, and also the academically gifted daughter realizes that her dorky, clumsy dad was always really proud of her and just never surprised because he just assumed she could do anything, and also the eldest daughter who eloped comes crawling back to her parents' room and whispers that she still wants her parents to be present for her wedding, and also the anxious queer lawyer character admits that he was terrified that his husband would just leave him alone with their baby daughter, and also that the once-vaguely grouchy dad looks at his stepson and tells him that what makes a family is who sticks around, not who you're blood-related to and anyways what was i saying

#caroline talks #modern family #god. . .. the way i really do love this sitcom. like have all the jokes aged well? ehhh not really #there are some jokes that land pretty badly now but i still do love this show so much and i'm so sad i'm on the final season #it's like. oh yeah. family is complicated! it's rough! #but everyone can change and grow. people can become better. it won't be perfect and it'll suck sometimes #but everyone is trying their goddamn best. #i will say though i burst into tears at hayley coming to claire and phil and going '. . . i was going to elope but i realized #that i really wanted you guys there :(' #and god also how i love gloria and jay and claire and phil and mitch and cam's relationships #and like i love the kids but the adult relationships make me cry the hardest #because it's like. when claire explodes on phil bc 'YOU NEVER TAKE MY ADVICE YOU'RE ALWAYS FOLLOWING SOMEONE ELSE'S!!!' #and phil goes up to claire and presents her with this photo album and goes '. . . honey i'm ALWAYS following your advice.' #and when i think about mitch freaking out bc he thinks he might have had another kid and he thinks cam might ditch him for it #and cam is just like '. . .. mitchell i love you.' and is just like. we'll deal with this together. #and it's just like!!! ough!!! ough!!!

[kaserolly]

Just wanna say happy International Trans Day of Visibility to all of my trans siblings 💙🩷🤍🩷💙 you deserve to be loved, cared for, respected, and most importantly, to be treated as a person. I know this year hasn't been kind to us, and I hope everyday that it'll get better for us :( but never forget this, whether you're out or not, or where you belong under the trans umbrella, you are worthy of love, you are worthy of great things!! You are not alone, and you deserve all the best 🫂🏳️‍⚧️

#mina.txt #trans tag #idk if ill be able to make sth for today that i can post here sadly :( #but yeah i just wanna hug all of my beloved trans siblings 🫂🫂🫂 #also reminder that even if you're not out as trans or you're only out to certain people (like me) you will always be valid #whether you've medically transitioned or you can't afford it... you'll always be valid 🩷 #it's a tough time for us rn... but i hope in the future that it'll be safe for us to live :( #again you're not alone!! there are ppl out there who love you!! 🏳️‍⚧️💕 #together we can prevail in peace love and understanding!!

[hothammies]

(wip) zoom in of acswy mike's keychain because i know that you won't be able to see shit in the drawing

#sigh oh well you can just enjoy it here #i am so excited to post all of the drawings btw i fucking love the way they're looking #all the pent up drawing energy from a week is poured into getting these babies out rn #speedrunning these as i always do it'll prob be done sunday LMFAOOO #anything for this chapter its cute as hell #acswy #wip

[swordheld]

how did u choose your username?

oh, this is a fun one!! i think i considered being swordtold at first, for that very ancient myth vibe of the sword being this narrative tool for adventure and structure and physical time, the parable being passed down through the centuries until it meddles into modern day rhetoric and ideology – a kind of fantastical tool, a spark of magic, of possibility.

i like the arc of the story of a place being physical / having it be held by time and hand alike, wearing with the years and having it become something different to each holder, each reader, each experience fantastical and individual.

having that kind of physicality to it; swordheld is the action of taking up and holding the sword yourself, choosing your own narrative, leading your own story. self-identity has always been something i struggle with (a novel concept i know, i know), so it felt right for this blog, since most of my older blogs before this one have been just me silently reblogging and never really posting anything myself, and i wanted this to be the change to that.

i've always had trouble wranging my social anxiety, esp. on the internet, and previously thought that keeping my words to myself helped keep the timeline cleaner, in a way, no messy thoughts for others to sort through, especially ones i believed no one would want to read anyway? but it never felt right, keeping myself apart from it all, esp. not in the way i so avidly enjoyed reading others' posts and additions, keeping their words close to my heart.

i wanted it to reflect that this was a space i was holding for myself? and i'm a little slow on the uptake sometimes, but this - this i think i got right. i love being here, on this blog, and the joy that it brings me. everyone else enjoying it too has been a wild ride that i never expected, and still surprises me, one that brings a little extra thrill to my heart whenever i think about it.

i had other urls that i liked, but i didn't want this blog to be tied directly to any of my fandom/story interests, since i wanted it to really just be a sort of archive of artistic inspiration and resource, like a little library or museum. i use them now as lil sideblogs of more niche interests now, which is rather lovely.

it hasn't always felt like it fit perfectly, the way that i'd like, but for some reason i can't think of really wanting to change it anytime soon. it feels mythic yet modern in a way that feels like puzzle pieces finally slotting into their place, something my own and inspirational to me, like a lantern i'm holding to make my way by. my own kind of light, if that makes sense – a star i know by name.

#q&a. #birdsong. #all of this is truly just a way to say: it's your blog! it's your party! do what you like if it makes you happy!! (and doesn't hurt anyone! #live your dreams!!!!!! do your own thing truly it is worth it. which feels silly and cheesy inspirational talk vibes but u kno. it's right #thank u for ur question tho !!! it's been so long that i don't really remember exactly what the beginning of it all was? #it wasn't always my url for this blog esp. in the beginning but i've forgotten what that was ghjk so sorry dear anon ! #like little flashes of a story in my memory i have to make out / like steam or fog on a window pane. blurry and unclear? #but now it feels more intentional / almost like watercolor! something that mixes itself into a new thing; bright and bursting w/ it all. #i hope this answers ur question nicely all the same tho <3 #i always on habit write out lantern as lanturn so this is an unintentional shout out to one of my fav pokemon love u lanturn !! #some of these things i truly do just write out bc i know it'll make me laugh later if i ever come back to it. lil joys for ur future self ! #and that IS a reference to the dickinson poem ' i am out with lanterns looking for myself ' it is in my brain always ! ! thank u ! !

[amethystina]

Hiiii🩷🩷 I have a question... does Yohan think that Gaon loves Soo Hyun in a romantic way😳? If so, oh boy thats a huge misunderstanding to clear. Also, thank you for the amazing update!!! I'm sure as hell sticking around on this journey to see these two work out their feelings!!

Hi there! 💜

Yes, he does. Because Yo Han's got no reason to believe otherwise, based on how Ga On is behaving. He can tell that Ga On is attracted to him, sure, but that's physical. And sexual and romantic attraction are two entirely different things. One doesn't guarantee the other and just because you feel one — or even both — you don't actually have to act on it.

I'm more or less writing Yo Han like a bisexual demiromantic, i.e. he's good at recognising sexual tension/attraction but he's not very experienced with love. He's never really been in love before because he's never allowed himself to get close enough to someone to actually fall in love. And when you combine this with his upbringing and lack of social interaction with other people? Love is probably pretty tricky for him.

Not in a "he doesn't feel it" way because he does — and he knows that he does — but he's not the best at reading it in other people. Not at all helped by how he just doesn't get the whole "love at first sight" thing (because, again, demiromantic), which has made him wonder if, just maybe, his concept of love is different from everyone else's. He knows what love means to him and he's seen other people be in love (like Isaac and his wife) but applying that to his and Ga On's relationship is very difficult for him, especially with Soo Hyun complicating things.

Like, if Yo Han tries to compare how Ga On behaved around/treated Soo Hyun (who he assumes Ga On was in love with) to how Ga On behaves around/treats Yo Han, he can see a lot of differences. And it's a problem when his method for figuring this whole situation out is: "That is how Kim Ga On behaves when he's in love and, if he doesn't, he's probably not in love with me." Because that misses the part where people don't always behave the exact same way when they're in love (because it can be influenced by who they're interested in) and, if anything, it should be the other way around.

At this point, it's probably better to look at how Ga On behaves around you, Yo Han, not Soo Hyun, if you want to figure out what he's like when he's in love x'D

... but he doesn't know that, of course.

So, in short: Yo Han knows that Ga On cares about him and he knows that Ga On is sexually attracted to him, but he has no way of knowing if Ga On is in love with him. Yo Han has too little experience with it to be able to gauge that.

But, at this point? He thinks that Ga On is just too in love with Soo Hyun to ever love him (which is what this post was about)

And, in a very heartbreaking way, he's kind of grateful that Ga On made it clear he's not going to act on what's between them because Yo Han assumes it's only sexual attraction and some confused fondness on Ga On's end anyway. And Yo Han would just... rather not if that's all Ga On can give him. Because, for once, he doesn't just want sex — he wants love, too.

... this man is, once again, a goddamn onion.

(and will make you cry just as much as one)

And, for my own sake, I'm going to have to make a detour and write Yo Han's POV of what happens after he's gone into his bedroom because I SWEAR THE FUCKING BASTARD WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE. There is SO MUCH GOING ON in his head and snippets keep inconveniently popping up at irregular intervals, distracting me. And as soon as I push one aside, the next one pops up.

It's like a never-ending game of angsty Whac-A-Mole.

Someone save me.

ANYWAY. I'm glad you liked the update! And thank you so much for wanting to stick around 💜 I was genuinely worried about how you all would react to this chapter. Like, who's insane enough to throw in a rejection 400k into a story? People have probably gotten chased down with pitchforks for less.

So thank you for the trust, support, and dedication — it means a lot to me 💜

#Amethystina Replies #Anonymous #Who Holds the Devil #Amethystina Writes #Even if she would prefer not to this time #Like #I ALWAYS know what's going through Yo Han's head too #But this is the first time when I genuinely can't focus because I'm just BOMBARDED by it #I WISH I COULD SHUT IT OFF BUT I CAN'T #So I'm going to write it all down just to get it out of the way I guess? #Maybe then it'll quiet down #Also #I guess it might be nice just for the sake of knowing exactly where he stands #I make no promises that I'll post it though xD #Second also #Do yourself a favour and don't ponder how that 'my love isn't like other people's' work in relation to 'I'm a monster' #And 'I will smother his light one day' #Because that's... yeah #That'll break your heart #I'M SORRY I CAN'T SHUT IT OFF OKAY

[eggwishing]

our couch was moldy anyways

#mindy firefly #august #somewhere out there. like when you look at a photo of our earth you're in there somewhere #ocs #drawin this while kinda bored. which is smn i dont usually do ... #i feel liek i always gotta be inspired when i draw or else it'll come out looking awful #but. this turned out alright!!! #can't listen 2 that dismissive voice in my head #draw draw draw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #wish i could lore dump about mindy and august oouuuh #but gotta do more than that 2 make other people care about em #i need 2 capture the emotion their characters #anyways #the couch represents their relationship. it got all moldy from being where it shouldn't #they kept it outside bc they couldn't fit past the doorway of her house #and got weathered n yucky over time from being all exposed 2 tha elements and shit #basically begging to be thrown out bruh Skull emoji #she loves him but she's about to go hunt him down and kick his ass for being a huge wad #i think after this the sidh just spits the couch back up at her #all gross and burned and stuff but still in one piece #she gets really frustrated that she can't throw it out and just stews in a quiet rage for a few days #decides to just tie it to her house and set sail #maybe she even tries to patch it up piece by piece #or get it inside somehow later on. maybe she removes the doorway or something

[writerbri-archive]

buck + anger

[Image ID: 6 GIFs of Evan Buckley from 9-1-1. GIF 1: Buck in the gym at the 118 talking to Eddie about his family in Season 4 Episode 4. GIF 2: Buck in the catfisher’s trailer looking intimidating while walking towards a coroner with Chimney talking in the background in Season 1 Episode 10. GIF 3: Buck in the kitchen at the 118 talking to Bobby about Eddie being shot in Season 4 Episode 14. GIF 4: Buck in his apartment walking down the stairs and arguing with Taylor in Season 5 Episode 18. GIF 5: Buck in Maddie and Chimney’s apartment yelling at his parents in Season 4 Episode 4. GIF 6: Buck sitting at the table in Eddie’s house talking to Carla about Eddie being shot in Season 4 Episode 14. /end ID]

#evan buckley #evanbuckleyedit #911edit #yeah buck is a huge goofball sometimes #he would put himself between someone he loves and danger every time #and he's a fucking hero #but his anger is absolutely compelling #because it's always simmering just below the surface #and one day he'll let it all out #and it'll be explosive #this is buck #not the precious baby boy that some people love to see him as #my edit

[xannerz]

its always surreal to me to see people praise s2 of centaurworld. s2 was so spectacularly bombastic and aimless and it ended in this awkward forgettable fizzle.

i feel like a dick saying it b/c i really do love the show lmao. or, at least half of it lmao (/stares at tnwk). gf and i've been thinking about rewatching it just to write out our thoughts on why s2 was such a poor follow-up to s1 - from the tone to the setup to all the worldbuilding the narrative had to offer in between the (far more) memorable songs of s1. idk. it's sad because cw really had the bones of a cult classic, but idek if you can call it that.

ive seen a few posts commenting on its lack of popularity, and i feel like it certainly deserves more, b/c i do feel like it's a novel idea made w/ love, but the shift btwn s1 and s2 wasnt just in the plot. there was a full-on *fracture* in the quality and direction and i'm still scratching my head over it. more than i should be, probably. but, it's just a bummer.

#centaurworld #centaurworld critical #<- a tag i never thought i'd use lol #ok EDIT: fuck it im tagging this maybe there are others who'll also see their own viewing experiences in this post too #dont mind me rambling #but i got an ask on my thoughts abt cw a long time ago (hi!! i still have it 😭) and ive been wanting to write a detailed response since. #debating tagging this since the fandom's already p small and i dont wanna bump the tag with negativity #even if it is (what i feel is) p fair criticism. but idk people are sensitive and conflate it w hate idk idk #ive seen thinly-veiled hate posts in the t*ngled the series tags and it's always bothered me. #bc you can tell op just like hates xyz character or the show entirely and its like can you just come out and say it LMFAOO #but i genuinely like cw. i so so very much do. so i get bummed out! gf and some other friends and i were so excited for s2 and #when it rolled out ep by ep we were like 'it'll get better right? right?' #also tempted to just draw more cw fanart in general bc the t t s fandom is slow and if half the people dont have each other blocked #theres simply 0 overlap in fave chars or interpretations so lmao #im going back to work i just feel sour LMAO #also adding that i think a lot of people conflate a story eliciting an emotional reaction from you = its good #but ill revisit that and all these thoughts again eventually in another post. we'll see. #and i STILL want a nwk tattoo lmao. or at least an elkie. gf and i love elk bc of this guy! the impact that he has! #xangoeswah

[autoboros]

does auto have lore or does he have some stuff wrote about him or something?

Oh man I've got a lot on Auto

Like a Lot

I don't think I have anything written currently on hand that's fully up to date or organised so I guess I'll just try rewrite stuff here (it is a bit long even though I've summarised a lot forgive me)

Auto was born into the Octarian army, life in the domes was all he knew. He didn't have parents that he knew of or grew up with, but it's not something that ever bothered him since, again, this was all he knew. He would attend school there, and made two friends for life, and they'd quickly become inseperable.

They were great friends with their own interests. One who enjoyed mechanics and machinery, the other who enjoyed botanics and tending to the foliage, and Auto, who enjoyed strategy in combat. Each of them were rather quiet, the second one not learning how to speak until late into her infancy, but they all fit together perfectly. (Related; They are all autistic.)

As he grew up a little, he realised in his childhood that his goal would be to become an elite soldier. He always admired and took interest in the high ranks of his sector and their skills in combat. Years and years later, around 16, he'd achieve this, becoming one of the top ranking elites of his sector as he'd always wanted. He had practiced with a wide array of weapon classes, and found chargers and blasters to be his favourite.

A year into this, he realised he felt a little aimless without any further goals. He had just achieved the biggest thing he could go for in the underground, what else is there? He then learned of the surface, and this idea grabbed him. He'd go to the surface and seek out new opportunities. His friends were on board with this idea, and they wanted to make a new life together. One of his friends managed to make contact with the surface, contacting someone who would help retrieve them. Things were looking pretty good.

To make the already long story short, Auto escaped. He stayed with the friend from the surface - who would be my other main oc, Boro - and would await the arrival of the others. He was absolutely captivated by the surface and how different it was, but his wonder was held back by the anxiety of waiting.

In this time, he met Hiro, who was a friend of Boro's. He'd end up spending a lot of time with him, getting introduced to turf wars and anarchy battles through him. Auto quickly learned of his love for Tower Control, and found a favourite weapon in the Custom Splattershot Jr. He would also learn of his new feelings for Hiro. He had never felt something like this before, though, and didn't know what the hell he was feeling or how to deal with it, and it caused him a ton of emotional turmoil.

In the end, only one of his two friends had successfully escaped, the other being lost to sanitisation. This loss only worsened Auto's mental state. This was his lifelong best, dearest friend, and he lost her. He blamed himself for this to no end. He is only around 18 or 19 here - he still blames himself for it to this day.

The people close to him do their best to help him, though, and his mental state recovers slightly. Around this time, Hiro and Auto learn of their feelings for one another, and get into a very loving, close relationship, and his life basically stabilises from here onwards.

He's 23 now, and he has finally felt a semblance of happiness for the first time since the underground. A boyfriend who is his absolute world, friends he cares about and can rely on, goals and achievements he can feel proud of, hobbies he can enjoy... He feels happy. Despite it all, though, he still blames himself for the loss of his friend.

#oughhhh i hope it isnt so long that its a boring read or anything #i always worry that auto isnt an interesting enough oc #or that he's too generic idk #but i love him very much #splatoon 3 #splatoon oc #OC// Auto #i have a lot more on him - like down to his interests or experiences of his past and his friends from the army #and just the people of his life from back then #and a lot of experiences he has had on the surface too #but i dont want this to become the length of the bible so it'll go left out

[laurzzz]

YES SIR I HAVE RETURNED 🫡🫡🫡

Gorgeous lovely delicious tags by @eyenaku

I LOVE YOUR ART AND AWESOME SCULPTURES TOO BTW GRGRGRGRGR

#talks talks talks #lovely moots #i feel like. i just got home again after being months away in a completely diff country..... #dca fandom is my home now... i come back to it even after having multiple other fixations in between 👍 #so much has changed and many ppl have moved in and out of the fandom too but #idc #it'll always be. home #:3c

[whats-ur-credit-card-number]

The problem with only packing rarely (on account of not having a harness) is that it feels like a cool special occasion. I'm constantly resisting the urge to tell everyone "check it out, I've got my penis on today!" and it's tragic

#he talks #I'm always so afraid it'll fall out. otherwise I love the thing