#and grief

[ronsharry]

everytime i think of harry and sirius i want to bash my head into a wall. like what do you mean they never got their happy ending together? that they didn’t end up living in the country where they can see the sky? because sirius would’ve liked that after all those years in azkaban?

#harry james potter #sirius black #good godfather sirius black #they’re my roman empire #it’s actually criminal #they deserved sm better #and instead they got nothing but pain and angst #and grief #i think about them everyday #sirius and harry #harry and sirius #let them be happy #let them have it

[glasswaters]

i wonder, father mine, with large hands and larger laughter, if it had been different, had I shared your face. if, when I was born, you could see your father's nose and the turn of your own eyes looking back at you as a mirror. might you have held me, then, long after my sibling was born, bleeding purple sound over your chest?

when i was a child, i would wish for bigger lungs so they might carry me to a mountain's peak. so i might expand my chest and fit within it enough strength to outrun my sibling, who was, even then, all muscle. all teeth.

(this is not a poem about my sibling and the shard-sharpness of them that you have whetted with your own tongue. this is not a poem where i want to take from you a pound of flesh for every one of their tears. this is not a poem for your favour.)

sometimes, when i try to remember the shape and feel of your hugs, all that stays in my mind, thick syrup, are your hands on my arms. the bruises in my skin. how my mind and my mouth and my body raced with rage so hot i could taste it. so sharp it dripped from my eyes into my throat and from my nose into my lips.

all that stays, some days, is how you would not let me go.

didn't i beg? didn't i claw and bite and scream, didn't i leave my nails deep enough within you that you're still scarred, today?

i don't look like you, or your father. or his, before him. my nose is too small, my mouth doesn't open wide enough. my face is too soft. my legs were not made for your kind of wanting.

that's alright. it is. i have, after all, never been my father's daughter.

#writerblr #spilled words #spilled ink #father daughter relationships #on parents #and favouritism #on family likeness #and grief #hello it's time for sad birthday poem

[spacedustmantis]

thinking about everything's changed since polites

#ough... #the first death #the first real loss #and grief #and it's odysseus's own fault you know #it's such a good line illustrating how losing a friend and a good chunk of the men he was responsible for changed his outlook #but also how his fleet views him as a person #like 'he's changed omg' #dude of course he fucking has #'i bet he's hiding something from us' let the man grieve!! #hmmm #epic the musical #buggy thoughts #silver screen

[wordsifelt]

Just watched Nimona.

Cried a lot.

I am now feral over this incredibly queer movie.

#I haven't seen my identity represented like this in any movie ever #and my rage #and my anger #and grief #and hope #i need more movies like this #nimona #queer representation #queer #lgbtqia+

[randomfoggytiger]

All Souls, Lost Girls, and Grief

Mulder thought Scully's vision in All Souls was a reflection of her fracturing grief, as Samantha was for his haunted dreams.

"...But I can hear her.... She's calling out my name, over and over again. She's crying out for help, but I can't help her.... I want to believe."

"I saw Emily. She came to me in a vision."

#txf #meta #All Souls #S5 #lost girls #and grief #Samantha #Emily #xf meta #x-files #xfiles #the x files #thoughts #mine #Mulder #Scully

[naturalborndevil]

Edible, by me, 2024.

#poetry #writing #poem #my writing #personal #female writers #writers on tumblr #actually neurodivergent #heavily inspired by #phantom thread #and grief #on womanhood #feminism #women writers #sapphic

[wolfnprey]

Current WIP Update

This painful fic is almost 6k. I have no interactions between Eliot and any Quentin yet. Why am I doing this to myself?

How dare the rest of this fic add plot to this idea? How dare the rest of the magical scooby gang have needs to interact with one another??? 😭😭😭🫠🫠🫠

I did not ask for this! (Yes, yes I did. I allowed the muse to give me inspiration through a sobbing place. My sadomasochism has reared its ugly head once again and no one can save me.)

#wip #wolf howl #my writing #the magicians #queliot #eliot waugh #quentin coldwater #this is my fault #but also the fault of the show writers #and the fault of my stupid boys #and grief #someone save me #i cant escape this hell

[mmmakaria]

SANANDUM EST.

it deserves to be healed

#god uh #my art #i guess #kind of blacked out for 40 minutes and came. up with this #ive been thinking a lot recently. about the size of the universe. #and grief #and how you essentially have a new body every seven years. I have lost my child. #and gained this. #tw eyestrain #maybe?

[romances-not-tragedies]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Jo Gar, West of Guam: The Complete Cases of Jo Gar Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Jo Gar & Juan Arragon Characters: Jo Gar - Character, Juan Arragon Additional Tags: Crimes & Criminals, Grief/Mourning, Loss, Death, Guilt, Rainbow Murders, Rainbow Diamonds, von Loffler Diamonds, exploration of pain and loss, Kind of an introspection, Character Death, Jo Gar needs a hug, even if he thinks he doesn't, poor bby, other dead characters mentioned in the story, no beta we die like every murder victim of every Jo Gar story ever Summary:

"No one, not the steward, nor the captain, nor any soul who'd met him in the ship, would suspect the veil of anguish that cloaked him before stepping on the decks of the ship. It was anguish he had kept under lock and key so he could keep himself focused on his mission.

That didn't mean he wasn't hurting."

On his way home post-"Diamonds of Death", Jo Gar deals with loss and grief caused by the diamond heist that cost him a friend's life--and others.

#now on ao3 #jo gar #island detective #west of guam #raoul whitfield #fanfic #fanfiction #fanfic: did some bird flap its wings over in Asia? #angst #paaaain #so much paaaaain #and grief

[arcane-demesne]

I'd be ducking lying if I said I wasn't crying the entirety of ep 4 for the latest season of The Crown.

#just everything about death #and grief #and how sticky and messy relationships can be #that's what got to me #the crown #rant

[am0ngtheb0nes]

Everyone carries pain but the lucky ones find that they do not carry their burdens alone.

A cute moment from a long time ago in a dnd campaign I’m in.

#my art #art #original characters #dnd characters #Fire in the Mountain #Llyr Boudican de Fai'rigan #still crying #my baby #it was so good #sometimes its about making friends and having a good time #but sometimes its also about exploring the effects of generational trauma and the burdens placed upon children by parents #and grief #its always about grief

[lumeha]

Tiny preview of my fic "Scattered memories of friendship", written for the Seteth zine ! Which features both a surprise guest, unless you know me well, and some Flayn shenanigans

More previews are available on twitter, and the pre-orders are open 'til the 20th of August !

#fire emblem #fire emblem three houses #I have been allowed one Very Special Guest TM in my fic and you BET I added them #Seteth #Seteth (Fire Emblem) #zine preview #my writings #I'm very happy with this fic #love getting to write some Seteth #also the fact that it does mirror my Myrrh fic for Manakete Millenium does tickle me fancy ngl :')) #someone here (me) loves writing about immortals and humans #and grief #don't orget about grief

[wellofdean]

Don't get me wrong, here: I wanted Dean and Cas to live happily ever after at the lake house, staying cosy in slippers and flannel PJs, drinking hot toddies, and playing footsie in front of Netflix in a world without monsters, but as, well... ME, I also enjoyed the representation of unrequited, selfless love that is avowed and given voice without expectation, and of the grief that comes of only getting over your bullshit when it's too late. That shit is real.

#spn #there are a lot of kinds of under-represented love #and grief #and I've had those experiences #personal thoughts on my #supernatch rewatch

[nightstarn]

I've never felt so depressed that I don't even consider getting out of bed. Usually it's the fun little voice that says, "hey, you know what would be fun? Slicing yourself up or killing yourself!"

Even that voice is like, "yeah, good luck bud."

I miss you, Dazz.

#tw suicide #i know it's the depression #and grief #i am so fucked up right now mentally

[forwhomtheteasteeps]

Be me

Have at least twenty books in a TBR pile

Have three newly downloaded audio books

Have three tabs of new fanfics waiting

Reread “A Dalliance With The Duke” and “Do Not Go Gentle” instead of anything else

#severus snape #hermione granger #jane austen #elizabeth bennet #duke of wellington #why are these my comfort fics? #life is strange #I like reading about illness and stress #and complicated feelings #and grief

[ihearthes]

.

#well this has been a shitty shitty shitty week #times a thousand #I’m filled with disappointment #and grief #and am having an existential crisis #why am I here? #what’s the point? #why do I bother? #fuck #gonna try to put it all aside and practice my Scarlett O’Hara impression #After all tomorrow is another day. #but seriously #I NEED something good to happen #anything good would be nice #shouting into the tumblr void #where everything echoes #because it’s dead here