#but its like im waiting for permission

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

how does one like. get a binder

#like ik how #im priveleged enough to be able to buy one #ik ehic5h company id go with #but its like im waiting for permission #which no one can really give me #like i could wait til im registered back with the doctor's but even if i was brave enough to bring it up they'd either say just don't #or your asthma is completely fine like they always do #like im the best placed to gauge if my lungs can handle wearing one #really i want someone to come along and say it'll help you're allowed this it wont be a waste of money #and you won't have to share with your parents the specifics of your dysphoria #when i could barely come out without apologizing for it even tho they were ok with it #if it were anyone else i cannot emphasize how behind them id be but when its myself im just stuck going in circles #im gon try and call sib at lunchtime and order it then bc yesterday was really not pleasant #a properly fitted binder can't be much more uncomfortable than a too small sports bra surely #and im already good at taking breaks w that so #we'll see ig #mine #gender adventures with neednoggle #not to complain abt being a skinny person w a big chest when society is obsessed w skinny ppl w big chests #but JFC

[ducktollers]

who up feeling their spirit get crushed into dust by this ai shit 😂😂😂

#turns out my laptop isnt strong enough to run glaze so now i gotta wait at least a month for them to reply to my dm 😃 #not on them at all ik theyre swamped but im just like. why do we have to fucking do this #like ​putting poison on our lunch so coworkers stop stealing it. Why do the coworkers get away with stealing it in the first place #why is this how things have worked out. the amount of companies ive seen use ai generation for their ads (TABLET COMPANIES.)……… #im like. u used to have to pay an artist to do that. and instead of putting technicology to good use #where it can do things that are tedious/difficult/impossible for humans to do #we’ve decided to have the machines do the one job we thought a machine COULDNT steal. bc its abt human creativity and passion #why. bc it saves a bunch of rich fucks even more money and they dont give a fuck about the rest of us #this shit wouldnt even exist if human artists werent here first for it to copy its souless its nothing its cold and dead i fucking hate it #YEARS of work and experience and craft honing and nobody gives a fuck they just see a person they dont have to pay anymore #steals our lifes work without our permission without paying us without a care how is my spirit NOT supposed to feel crushed #i see an ai image and all i see is decades of hard work that was stolen like if u ripped the bones out of a living person #ik jts dramatic and i keep going on abt rhis but it just bothers me SO fucking much #every time i have to think abt it ​its like a thousand pound rock dropped into my stomach #x

[from-beyond]

my therapy session this morning was so genuinely helpful and eye opening. but also that means i now have things to actually work on which is annoying.

#ej.txt #not to give tmi but i was talking about the trouble i have with dating and opening myself up to relationships #and i said that i dont believe i am capable of organically developing feelings for anyone. that i have to DECIDE to have feelings for someo #and i said its like im waiting to get permission #and my therapist was like 'queen you are gay raised evangelical. you werent allowed to date until you were 18. you ARE waiting for permissi #and i was like....HM uh oh ur right. #guess i gotta give MYSELF permission which is easier said than done

[public-trans-it]

We dont do concept art enough in the TTRPG scene, and thats a real shame. Anyway here, have some concept art of the new PbtA game I am working on!

#no but seriously im gonna have to message Vel and ask her for permission to release this #the similarities are like... 3.5 to pathfinder levels of similar #literally just straight up lifting the playbooks wholesale #and just rewriting them to work in the new system #its cause fellowship is already like 90% of the way to being my perfect game #and i was tired of sitting around and waiting for someone else to make the remaining 10%

[ratgingi]

someone come to texas and hold my hand so i wont be so afraid to go downstairs and get a little snack

#I HAGE. DONUT. IN FRIDGE. BUT IM TERRIFIED OF LEAVING MY BED RAUUUUUFUGJGHGGGHG #my cousin and aunt straight up told these people to their faces i dont have anxiety anymore . #im trying to wait until 1. my roommate leaves the room so i can set up emory and play vidygame / draw to distract #or 2. house parent comes in and tells me its okay for me to go down and get something to eat and maybe goes with me #i feel like i need Permission to exist anywhere outside of my own fuckgin bed im gonna explode and die forever #all of this is /lh btw im just going through thw social horrors #dialogue

[zhuhongs]

oh noninonononóooo

#dating apps give me the ick they give me the ickkkkk #also like given my weird judginess ik if it was up to me on a curated profile alone i will only go after ppl v similar to myself and that is #short sighted and a bad idea. and. yeaaa. too many white lesbians that kiss like fish on instagram yk the vibe like noooo thank uuuu #theyre all great ppl im sure but not for me #and then like. idk the whole sexuality thing where like. i mean i get crushes on men and like men occasionally #but like. no. the idea of ever being with a man feels disgusting and its nit me. like my one attempt at dating a man (that identified as #male at the time i met them at least) broke up with me bc he did not think i actually liked men i was just in a bad spot mentally so i dated #him. and like. I'm too scared to say what i like for myself so its almost like im waiting on permission from enough ppl to say that im a #lesbian in order to actually feel like one. and i most likely am. but i crave validation from men in a very specific way. not romantically #and def not sexually. i just want to be acknowledged bc i grew up in a heteronormative patriarchial world and to be seen as a man and #acknowledged by men is smth ive been taught to crave in order to feel secure and independent bc being a 'girl' is inferior in the eyes of #society and like. sage u need to liberate urself from all of that and yea. dating apps not for me. i will just meet someone somewhere #somehow #ok gn i have work at 7am

[sarcasticmirage]

I'm feeling my fma 03 obsession returning and just putting it out there that if you're a brotherhood prefer-er, who needs to tell 03 fans how much better it is:

don't

mainly please don't just say it follows the manga, I SWEAR that whoever was posting about it already knows that 03 doesn't and I'm also pretty sure that they don't care

#DEATH OF THE AUTEUR #vent rant in tags #this kills me #its so frustrating #i also hate whenever i make 03 content and there has to be someone in the comments talking about how much better brotherhood is #i know its not that serious but it just sucks that i can't even talk about 03 without people acting like i just don't know basic shit #about a show that ive loved for years and made multiple amvs for #if someone is making 03 fan edits or any fan content for 03 they ARE aware of bh #it just sucks when im excited for a comment and i know people aren't trying to be mean or condescending but even stuff like #“while 03 was okay you should really look into bh it's more manga accurate” #oh ill get right on that let me just finish the ties that bind the fifth fma light novel #oh while ur waiting for me to try... what did you call it? Brotherhood? check out my conqueror of shamballa scenario book! #sorry its mostly in japanese but it wasn't ever fully translated #having merch and completionism doesn't make me a better fan #but its really fucking annoying that bh fans always act like 03 fans just dont know better #of course all of this doesn't apply if someone asked #and of course 1 still applies (just making content for 03 isn't permission for you to come in saying how much you hate it) #but if you have to critique 03 to a fan out of nowhere #at least say SOMETHING different #nothings beyond criticism (we can talk abt cyborg archer) #but an adaptation not following the source material is NOT A CRITIQUE on its own #you can say how the changes hurt or even ruin the story in specific ways #BUT THE CHANGES ARE NOT THE PROBLEM THEMSELVES when judging a series as a piece of work #fma 2003 #also this is mainly a problem on tiktok not yt for me

[guinevereslancelot]

dented my new water bottle but i bought 100 flower stickers and now it's pretty and you cant see the dent. simple pleasures will cure me

#i was sooo bummed #it was pristine and pink and then it got dented and scratched up when it fell off a cart onto a concrete floor at work #but now its prettier than before #normally i hesitate to put stickers on things for some reason its like too permanent idk im dumb but this gave me permission to go crazy #its not done but the dent is hidden well and there's a few other pretty ones #im waiting to do the rest thk bc i ordered a custom sticker with my name on it and haven't decided where it goes yet lol #also my little ikea greenhouse should be here today 😌 #the only bad thing is i have to relearn how to parallel park again later 🥲 #but other than that it should be a nice day off #im trying to make my apartment nice but i lost the peel and stick wallpaper i wanted to put on drawers and on the side of the fridge 😔 #but its still pretty nice i just dont want to fill the drawers until i find it so its not as functional as it could be lol #anyway its a beautiful morning i slept in with my kitty finally ❤️ #and there's a hint of fall color put my window from an old tree turning early <3

[starsweeperskies]

Got two dnd ships on the brain and yet...im the only one to create the Contents because the dm's not one to write fic while he's running campaigns, and no one else has the brainrot.

And im too tired to draw or write. So brainrot. So much brainrot.

But mah babies.

#alright i gotta go pick my wife up from work #i have feelings for you but i havent recognized them myself #like one of em is a canon couple and we've seen one of them multiple times in the current campaign! she's now one of the most powerful #people politically. and she's talked about her wife a few times but tends to avoid giving personal details now #cause she's never super open with strangers #and yet...short gremlin wife is definitely the type of person to be sitting at a meeting with her #as her +1 and be like and then pick her wife up and leave #(with permission of course. she wouldnt wanna cut the meeting short. she may have a 9 in int but she aint that dumb) #Stgeve Estgeban #actually wait would it still be Estgeban or did she change it when they married ill have to ask if i ever play her again #but that implies a death or capture of one of the others im currently playing oops. #then the other just had their first cheek kiss and im just like worjfhwowjwh #and they snuggled together that night after a lot of tears and eventually fell asleep #and now theyre gonna be seperated and cause of time dilation it will be like 3 days for one and a month for the other #and im trying to think of some gestures that are #including going to ask if they can cuddle again #before chickening out and asking for training since its been a while since they used their punching weapon and their soon to be partner #fights with a staff or bare handed #either way these ships are killing me and i wanna play em so badly #Shavrack Brorn #maybe when i get some extra cash i'll do some comms of em cause i wanna see the snugs #but also wanna do my christmas picture that I do every year. oops

[fleshdyke]

hejehge

#i cant wait to get out of this fucking house #still a few years until i can legally move out and even then i probably won’t be able to for a few more years bc of money #my dad gets mad at me for showing any emotion ever or being anything other than the perfect golden child #no one will fucking believe me that im autistic and disabled #i get fatigued from walking out of a fucking restaurant to the parking lot! look me in the eyes and tell me thats normal! #but just because im fat thats the reason for all my issues #thats why i have chronic pain and i just don’t exercise enough when they fucking know IM IN RECOVERY FOR ANOREXIA #and my dad wont stop talking about weight loss in front of me even when i ask him to stop because its triggering for me because im #just a fucking snowflake i guess #one time i asked him to stop talking about his diet or whatever when im around and he said no but i could use it myself! AND HE WONDERS WHY #IM FUCKING RELAPSING AGAIN #literally the past entire week i’ve just been repeating ‘no food is as harmful as an eating disorder’ bc its all that will fucking stop me #and he wont believe that i have tics for some reason so i have to fucking suppress them all around him if i dont want to get screamed at #and mid july of 2022 im still not vaccinated for covid. bc my dad is a conservative that doesnt give enough of a shit about me to get it #the only vaccinated person in my family is my mom and my dad didnt want her to get it either #but she says shes an adult so she has bodily autonomy #do i not fucking deserve that? do i not get bodily autonomy bc im a minor? fuck you #and i’ve told both my parents multiple times that i dont like when people touch me without permission except for my friends #ESPECIALLY ON MY FUCKING HIPS AND THIGHS AND ASS #BUT THEY DO IT ANYWAY BC THEY DONT GIVE A SHIT WHAT I WANT #i dont fucking care how shitty adulthood is i dont care aboyt the stresses it gives me i just want to be fucking out of here #i want to be out of here i want to be with people that fucking respect me like my parents don’t #i don’t want to be abused anymore i just want to feel safe in my own fucking home #and i feel like such a spoiled brat because i have everything i need given to me because im a fucking child but im complaining anyways and #logically i know i have every right to complain bc theyre not giving me privileges theyre givimg me basic human rights and even then only #some of them. i dont have fucjing bodily autonomy from the people i should be able to expect it from and i dont have respect or fucking love #the only thing keeping me fucking alive right now is the promise that one day i’ll get out of here #and its fucking terrifying knowing you’re relapsing into anorexia again but its so fucking hard to stop it #its got a fucking grip on me and its so fucking hard to get out of it #vent

[thefunniestguy]

On my hands and knees begging mom for a haircut aaaaa

#/lh but AAA #why cant a little fellow have a little gift. for summer. i am almost done with the worst academic year ive ever experienced aaaaa screamjng #she always is like 'its your hair !! do what you want :]!' and then i get it cut shorter than my shoulders and suddenly shes BMO #in that one episode. where finn shaves his head and bmo cries and the whole 'your beauty is detroyedddd :((' thing hdjfns #i dont care at this point aaahhh. i just need to ask for a haircut and maybe toss in 'maybe a bit shorter than usual' if im feeling brave #9 days until im a senior i want ONE thing :(( #no wait. 2 things #haircut and permission to get a job #i already have my dads permission but mom wouuuld be the one having to drive me (unless im able to borrow the car or my step dads truck ??) #anyway yes my hair isnt as long as it has been but. feeling funky in my body and i need that sweet sweet gender euphoria #THO i loooove the bangs i have now but i can only halfway style them bc i have a cowlick boo #but they remind me of my haircut as simon .. /pos #i need a haircut and a suit and ill be SET /hj #simon says #also anyway dont ask why i want a job so badly idk at this point #i wanna buy things .. like a suit /j /j #uzi just posted about wanting to shave fizz's hair i promise im not a copycat /lh /hj

[a-dash-in-the-middle]

Call centers for URGENT CARE AND HOSPITALS are hell on earth

I think talking to the wall might bring better results

#they keep telling my nana to drink her meds #after she told them numerous times that she reguarly does and they dont help now #then they tell her that she could come #but not rn but she can call in the morning and see when she can come #its evening rn and she already called this morning #they cant send anyone to her house bc they dont have the permission from her doc who is not there atm #which like when the fuck does that man even work then??? #cause he wasnt there this morning #he wasnt there this evening #so she can hope he is there tomorrow and call him and ask him to allow them to come to her home and do a SIMPLE CHECK UP and take her blood #also told her she is being paranoid multiple times #this woman waited weeks for her meds to work again #is in pain all the time #but yeah no she is being paranoid for sure #just what the fuck #also i guess we dont have half the machines and scanners we should have #like they told her we dont have an EKG??? #im sorry wtf do you have then #do you just go with the vibes like what???? #i know i am going to rage so hard when i go into my career #and probably cry a lot because i cant imagine being a part of creating a machine that helps detect something with more precision or faster #and then my own country and my own ppl not being able to use it #like i would sob on a nightly basis #and the worst part is i would have no influence over where it sells and for how much #bc i had a very rude wakeup call a few yrs ago that scientist and engineers mostly only create and only a few can choose how it sells #so i cant just be giving it at the lowest price possible like i thought cause it wont be my decision to make🤡 #anyways i went on a tangent i am sorey #vent post

[semercury]

.

#stuff sarah says #im not slipping back into old unhealthy coping mechanisms [lie] #im just so scared #it really is like everything bad ive experienced got rolled into one big fear and it hanga over me every second of the day #i want to DO things but im scared sick. literally #my stomach has been killing me #i want to create so bad but im so scared itll upset people #im so scared if im happy that others will be harmed #at what point am i allowed to say fuck it im going to be happy and you can be happy with me or fuck off? #why am i waiting for permission? #especially bc i know no matter how many people tell me its okay how many times itll never feel like enough

[rafeandonlyrafe]

borrowed clothes

words: 800

warnings: 18+ only, smut, female receiving oral, unprotected p in v sex, mentions of male masturbation, friends to lovers

“rafe, can i borrow your panthers jersey?” you ask, walking into his closet without even waiting for permission.

“you know, you always steal my clothes and never give me any of yours in return.” rafe points out, following you in to the walk in, seeing you already looking through his shirts, trying to find the nfl jersey.

“its sports night, rafe.” you roll your eyes. your favorite bar does themed nights that allow discounted drinks if you come in theme. “you have a million sports things to wear, and i have none.” you remind your best friend.

“all im saying is its unfair.” rafe smiles at you as you find the jersey you were thinking of, knowing his closet better than he does. it’s just a part of being friends for your entire life, best friends.

“okay, here.” you tug your black tshirt off, having planned to wear it underneath rafes jersey, but you can deal with just your bra. rafe looks away from your chest, despite having seen you in just your underwear or swimsuit a million times.

you toss the material at him before tugging the oversized jersey over your head, tucking the front into your tiny miniskirt. “how do i look?” you ask rafe, who is now holding your discarded tshirt in his hand.

rafe nods. “good.” its all he can force himself to say. better than sexy, hot, so good that he wants to bend you over right in the closet and shove that little skirt up and bury his cock in your-

“great!” you smile. “now we gotta find something sporty for you.” you hum, turning back to his closet.

--

“rafey?” you call, entering tanneyhill without knocking. you haven’t asked permission to enter since you were a child, with rafes house being your second home.

“he’s in the shower.” wheezie calls out from the living room.

“thanks wheez!” you ruffle her hair as you walk past, teasing her like she was your own little sister.

you head up to rafes room, flopping onto the bed as you pull your phone out, waiting for rafe to finish up in the shower, hoping he won’t take too long.

you scroll through tiktok, letting out a yawn with a big stretch, readjusting and sliding your hand under rafes pillow. you frown when realize your fingers graze over a weird material, feeling oddly stiff and not something that belongs on rafes bed.

you sit up, moving the pillow to reveal your black tshirt, now covered in white stains. you frown and move it closer to inspect the fabric, eyes widening when you realize what you are holding in your hands.

your mind moves at a thousand miles a minute, realizing that rafe has been jacking off into your shirt. the implications are clear, the one piece of clothing item that he has of yours, and he uses it to get himself off?

you toss the piece of fabric back down, slamming the pillow back on top of it right as rafe opens the bathroom door, towel wrapped around his waist.

“i-i can explain.”

--

“f-fuck!” you shout out, rafes head buried in your cunt, tongue lapping over your pussy, finally tasting you like he's long awaited to. “why did it take us so long to do this?”

rafe just smiles against your cunt, glad that he didn't need to give a real explanation as you hopped off the bed and kissed him, realizing that your feelings echoed his after seeing your tshirt, suddenly feeling just as pent up.

“should have just fucked me instead of cumming all over my shirt.” you whine as his tongue flicks over your clit.

“ill buy you a new one.” rafe sucks your clit into his mouth, determined to make you cum. you let out a cry, your high building.

a shiver spreads throughout your body as rafes mouth brings you to orgasm, a scream being forced out of your body, not caring that there are other people in the house that could hear.

“fuck, you taste so good baby.” rafe moans into your cunt, tongue swiping out again until you gently push his head away, not able to take anymore on your sensitive clit.

rafe rises up, draping himself over your body. he gives you a deep kiss, your arms wrapping around his shoulders.

“i can't believe you were jacking off into my shirt thinking of me.” you giggle. 

“oh god, you're never gonna let me forget that, are you?” rafe groans, moving lower to rub his cock between your folds, soaking it in your wetness.

you laugh before it's cut off by rafes lips.

“can i fuck you y/n?” rafe asks, lining himself up with your entrance.

“yeah.” you nod. “yeah, need you.”

“last chance to rethink this. because once i enter you, we can't just be friends anymore.”

“i know, i know.” you peck a kiss to rafes lips. “hurry up and fuck me already.”

rafe smiles down at you as he slowly presses forward, your walls giving way to his thick cock.

“i love you.” rafe admits with a gasp.

“i love you too.”

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[all444miles]

— JERSEY LUV

— pairing: e-42 miles x black!fem!reader — genre: suggestive, but fluff. — summary: attractive things Miles does that just make you fold instantly. — a/n: this was js in my drafts n i was like "i should post this" while yall waiting 4 my new fic !! the entire time i was writing this I was losing my absolute SHITTT. 😭 Like, i was dead by the first hc. this might as well be those "what's it like dating miles" type shi but i wanted to make it diff, yk? listen to some kind of fold-worthy song while u read this - anyways, im waffling. enjoy, mls !! part 2 part 3 !

MILES MORALES that does not take your attitude. He loves you, yes, but if you do too much or talk crazy, he's gonna put you in your place. It's nun violent, of course, but he may just grab your neck once or twice.

"Chiquita, watch yo tone wit me." "Drop that attitude f'me." "Miss me with that voice, ma."

MILES MORALES that manspreads. that's it. that's all.

MILES MORALES that's always gonna call you by some kind of nickname. He just loves it, and you do too. Princesa, ma, hermosa, the list goes on and on. One time he called you lil mami (if you're shorter) and you actually lost it.

MILES MORALES that always has his hands on you. Your waist, your thigh, your face, everywhere. He just needs to make sure your there.

MILES MORALES that lives for your kisses and always kisses you. Doesn't matter the place, the time, nothing. If he wants a kiss from you, or wants to give you some, it's gonna happen. Especially when you have lipstick/lipgloss on.

"Mi reina, lemme love on you."

MILES MORALES that drives with one hand because his other always on your thigh. It's like his lil resting spot.

MILES MORALES that'll always let you know he misses you, he'll spam you with "i miss you" texts or voice notes w him going on abt his day when you not around ‹3

MILES MORALES that has social media but only uses it to post you. You the love of his life, why wouldn't he let evb else know that?

MILES MORALES that loves to spoil you. You like that pandora bracelet? It's yours. You have a shein cart? Its on its way. He loves to spoil his girl, its his love language atp.

MILES MORALES that always keeps eye contact with you and make sure you keep contact with him whenever yall talking. dont look away if he say sum that makes you fold, he gon grab your chin and make you face him 🤭

"Nah nah baby, don't turn away. Keep ya eyes on me."

quick @ to my boo @laaailuh

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[evie-sturns]

ignore - Matt Sturniolo

summary: you've been in a mood all day, ignoring matt and giving him little attention, you won't tell him what's wrong so he has to fuck the answers out of you.

contains: smut, arguing, crying, swearing, rough!matt, slight overstimulation.

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i've been pissed and emotional all day, i'm not even sure what for anymore, everything that people do is pushing me to my limits, especially my boyfriend, matt.

3:39pm

"c'mon we've gotta go." matt says, tapping my arm as i sit with my arms folded on the edge of matts bed. "i'm not going!" i raise my voice at matt, my eyebrows raised as i roll my eyes.

"chris and nick are waiting for us, we've booked the top golf session, we are going its for the celebration of nicks brand come on." matt says with a dad like tone.

i shake my head, "i don't want to, my head hurts." i say in a whiny tone, somehow on the verge of tears, matt lets out an exhausted sigh, tears start to fall down my cheek as i rub my eyes.

"why are you crying." matt says in a calm tone with a sigh. "go away!" i groan, matt walks out of the room shaking his head, he closes the door behind him.

"i don't know whats going on with her, im sorry nick." i hear him say to his brothers outside the door, i sniffle as i flop down on the bed behind me.

6:12pm

i've been enjoying the empty house by myself for the past few hours, i hear the triplets pull into the driveway before knocking on the door, i unlock the door and they all walk in, i give nick a hug, before asking chris how it went. he instantly starts to yap about his golf shots.

after a handful of minutes chris decides we should all watch a movie, matt tries saying something to me but i simply ignore him,

"y/n." matt repeats himself, i shoot him a side eye before continuing to speak to chris.

nick and chris pile onto the couch, matt sits down on the other side of the plush couch, i walk over to matt, sitting down on his lap and laying down against him, my back pressed against his torso and the back of my head resting on his shoulder.

matts chest rises and falls with each breath, lifting me up and down subtly.

9:29

the movie has been playing for over 3 hours, i've shifted around slightly against matt a couple of times, but haven't said anything to him.

i let out a heavy sigh matt taps my waist before whispering in my ear "please talk to me, you've been acting very off today."

i scoff "i've been acting off?" i whisper back, an attitude clear in my voice.

"yes you have, been acting like that, bratty." matt replies, i stay silent after that.

"talk to me about it." he says again, i shake my head no.

the closing scene of the movie finishes, chris and nick get up, "im headed to bed, see you guys in the morning." chris says with a yawn, "bye chris!" i say chirpily.

nick stands up, "see you!" he says running over and hugging me before leaving the living room.

matt and i sit in silence for a minute or so before matt pushes me off his lap, "come with me." matt says, i stare straight into his eyes, not moving nor speaking.

"come. with. me." matt raises his voice, grabbing my wrist and dragging me to his bedroom. he slams the door and locks it vigourously.

i sit down on the edge of his bed, fiddling with my nails. matt storms over to me, picking me up then throwing me back down on the bed, i fall straight on my back, my head landing in his pillows, one specific pillow having a stupid pug on it.

matt rips off his cute crewneck sweater, my eyes drawn to his tattooed arms.

his two hands firmly grip the waistband of my sweatpants, before yanking them and my panties down in one go. he unbuttons his jeans before pulling me by my ankles towards the edge of the bed.

"matt-" i start, he cuts me off, "dont start."

his boxers drop to the floor before he stands at the edge of the bed, i wrap my legs around his waist. matt stares into my eyes, asking for permission, i stay silent, just staring into his eyes.

"use your words and tell me what the fuck you want." he almost demands, his right hand now firmly gripping my waist.

i can't deny the fact i need him, the sudden switch in mood turns me on, along side matt being angry which he is never like, hes never fucked me while hes mad.

"just fuck me then if your so desperate." i mumble, matt lets out an exasperated laugh before lining himself up with me, slamming into me, his tip bruising my cervix.

i let out a yelp, "fuck!" matt starts to pound in and out of me, not showing signs of slowing down.

he grips my waist with both hands, his fingers digging into my skin as small grunts fall from matts lips.

the sounds coming out of me echo throughout the room, resulting in matt slamming a hand over my mouth, the cold metal of his rings pressing against my cheek.

"gonna act like this whole day? think you can act like that?" matt breathes out, his left hand which is still firmly placed on my waist tightens. matts breathing picks up,

im starting to consider always acting like 'this' so that matt fucks me like this again, i dont think ive ever had better sex in my life.

he repeatedly hits a spot inside of me which is driving me closer, and closer to my orgasm.

"awnser. me." matt says, staring into my squinted eyes, he removes his hand from my mouth, reaching down and brushing my clit.

"i- i didn't mean to" i say cluelessly, my mind completely fogged as i clench around him.

the pit in my stomach realeases as i orgasm, matts thrusts stop, after all this not wanting to overstimulate me.

"gonna talk to me now sweetheart?" matt says his voice soft but his breaths heavy.

i scoff with an eye roll, matt raises his eyebrows before thrusting into me again, i wince, "sensitive.." i say as matt presses on my clit, he starts to thrust again, waiting for me to speak.

i let out loud moans as matt starts to pick up his thrusts "please-" i groan, "matt-"

"i'm sorry- fuck" i say, my thighs dropping from his waist and squeezing together, matt pulls out, finishing with a whimper and painting my stomach with white streaks.

"oh my god-.." i groan, covering my forehead with my arms as i wipe away the few tears that fell from intensity.

"are you okay?" matt says, picking me up off the bed and carrying me towards the bathroom.

i hum in response, "was it too much? did i hurt you?" matt asks, worry in his voice as he places me down on the edge of his bath.

he bends down between my thighs, dabbing a towel gently against my skin. he walks out of the room, shortly coming back now wearing sweatpants and a white wifebeater tank top.

he brings me over the shorts i was wearing previously, and one of his black shirts. he pulls them onto me gently, his cold finger tips brushing against my skin.

he picks me up again, carrying me over to his bed and flicking off the overhead light, leaving his dim lamp on which illuminates the room just enough. he lays down on the bed, i lay ontop of him.

we lay in silence for about a minute before matt breaks it "are you okay? i mean you've seemed really off today and i should've talked with ya." matt says, running a hand through his hair.

"im sorry." i sigh, "no no, don't say that." matt replies instantly, "i'm not actually sure whats going on, i think i'm just a bit hungry" i say quietly,

matt laughs, "i did all of that for you to just be hungry?" he jokes, rubbing his eyes with a smile as his ears go red.

"i don't know!!" i laugh back, matt wraps his arms around my waist as i lay on top of him.

i suddenly spring up, "i'll be right back." i say, jogging out of the room towards nicks room, i knock twice before opening the door, nicks laying on the bed on his phone,

"you okay?" nick asks, i walk over to him, giving him a hug.

"im really sorry about not coming to topgolf nick, i was in a mood and i am extremely happy about your brand."

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