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perfidious-prophet · 5 months

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The fucking things they dont tell you when you fucking start Testosterone.

Yeah, everybody knows about the deeper voice and the dreaded asshair, but these were my unfunny little surprises after 3 months on T. Reminder that shit will always vary from person to person because we're not all clones of each other, whatever.

1. Bottom growth fucking hurts. Sometimes I don't want to wear pants. I knew it would happen, didn't know it'd be so uncomfortable. And it starts fast. Like first dose fast.

2. The irritability goes fucking CRAZY it's like I'm constantly PMSing. I get why dudes punch walls. Oh my god. I know how to keep my anger wraps, but holy shit.

3. On the topic of PMSing. I had temporary worsening of menstrual cramps. Jesus fuck. I was having pain before menstruation started for days, and sometimes just randomly. I hope it doesn't flare up, but it seems to be calming down now. I think my body is freaking out over weird hormone levels.

4. Vocal fatigue. Talking hurts. I expected voice cracks, obviously, but why the fuck does this shit hurt? I don't even want to talk that much anymore. My voice just gives out. It's still deepening, so a win is a win, I guess.

5. Apathy, emptiness, anhedonia, and numbness. My motivation has tanked. I don't fucking care anymore. I just want people to leave me alone so I can take a nap. I already had mental issues before starting T, and I don't think T gave this to me, but it's definitely changed how I feel my mental illnesses. I have to like relearn how to cope and shit. I don't recommend starting hormones if you're an emotionally unstable dumbass like myself. This is literally second puberty, mood swings and teen angst included. I am a volatile, angry little man.

6. Anxiety. Like I said, teen angst. My panic attacks now include intense nausea, which is New and Uncool. Dunno why that happened. But I'm just nervous. There's nothing to be nervous about. I consistently feel like I've forgotten to do homework. I am not even in school anymore. Rad!

7. Psychosis? I had my first intense psychotic break at 14. It lasted 6 months, give or take. I've had shorter episodes on and off since then. My symptoms are stress based. The emotional strain is, naturally, pushing me towards the edge again. I am sure I will explode brilliantly and violently within the weeks to come.

8. Male loneliness is real dudes. Have friends.

9. It's harder to mask. I've been periodically going mute again. I'd never really stopped, but it's more frequent now.

Anyway that's my rant I think.

I'm not telling you not to do hormones. I'm not your dad. But it's not fucking easy. Anyway I have no intention of stopping. I am thuggin that shit out. I had a really really tough time during first puberty, and I suspect I'm going to have issues the second time around.

I am happy with the changes I am experiencing physically. I still feel confident and sure of my identity as a trans man. I am just not very happy about losing control over my mental state again. We'll see how it goes. If I'm lucky, I'll get medicated. I can't afford a therapist right now.

Good luck out there, whoever you are.

#testosterone #hrt #ftm #ftm hrt #gaht #gender affirming care #transgender #lgbtq #trans man #trans masculine #rant post #medical transition #hormones #hormone therapy #genderqueer #borderline personality disorder #schizophreniform

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sakamaki--perfect · 2 years

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A/N: ᴏᴩᴇɴ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴー? This is a scenario of its own, but if you want to reply with your OC, feel free.

Gender pronoun used for other party: neutral.

Warning: violence and blood since it's fullmoon.

🌕ꜰᴜʟʟᴍᴏᴏɴ ꜱᴄᴇɴᴀʀɪᴏ 🌕

Pinning the poor prey to a wall, his senses are absolutely in a wreck that he is ignoring the whines of agony coming from the one under him. His intention right now, is to quench the thirst and pain in his throat.

There was little resistance from the person. He growls out, one hand reaching out the other's neck, warning to not test his temper. After all, he didn't exactly forced them.

"Be quiet, if someone caught us, don't expect to come out of this alive"

His voice is deep and low, dangerous. He isn't making the bite painful intentionally. It's simply his vampire instincts to put his prey in total paralysis, to be completely still while he feeds.

"Your tears are very lovely... fufu.."

His fangs dig deep into the other's flesh, nudging deepering into the vein that is spilling sweet, thick blood. It's nothing romantic, only a bloodthirsty beast drinking up the life essence he needs.

"Be an obedient prey. Your obedience is your only worth.... Along with your blood, of course. You're quite the fine prey, aren't you?"

Sounds of gulping down blood can be heard, quite terrifyingly. He loosened his grip on them, noticing the weakened state of the one before him. Soft pleas enters his ear, perhaps it's all they could take. Still, it's nowhere near enough.

But again, it'd be quite the problem if they died. It'd be easy to cover up the death but he can't possibly let his name stained. It's not in their Sakamaki estate, he can't be acting like his brothers.

Refraining himself from taking more blood, he pulled away from the fair curve of neck, his fangs being took out with care. He lets go of the wobbly person, not minding if they fall onto the floor. They had enough energy to be babbling, they'd regain their energy soon enough. It's not too far from infirmary as well.

He took out a handkerchief to wipe the blood off his mouth and chin. Gladly he didn't made such a mess on himself. Taking off the bloodied gloves and putting them in one of his pocket. Clearing his throat, he looked down with his glowing red eyes.

"Keep this encounter a secret if you want your life to be spared. As I demonstrated, I can take away the breath of life from you if I took a little more bloodー or perhaps in some other way"

He took something cubic and gave it to the one who is now sitting, leaning on a wall. The sight made Reiji smirk, what a mess he made.

"Drink it, and go to the infirmary after you've ragain some energy. You wouldn't let yourself be in a class in this state do you? Don't worry about this mess, I'll send someone to clean up later"

"Don't be mistakenー they're my loyal servants and won't even think about helping you. Well then, I wish you luck, dear"

Footsteps leaving the empty classroom with the creak of door, leaving with no sense of empathy. Hopefully, he won't come back to you. Hopefully he won't be using your blood for long. Despair. How did this come to this?

#diabolik lovers #reiji sakamaki #sakamaki reiji #sakamaki--perfect #Scenarioー #🌕Fullmoon #Open Interactions

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triplethreatsonic · 3 years

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Triple Threat Drabble: The Stranger

Here it is, the drabble I said I’d share with you guys! I’ve done a sort of hybrid thing with this where there are one or two images integrated into the text that are basically like comic panels. (think Diary of a Wimpy Kid but hopefully more classy.) So make sure you pay attention to them as you read!

Also, this is a work in progress. So please don’t judge it too harshly :)

Hope you guys enjoy this!

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Sonic was not a slow eater. He hadn't been one as a child, and at age seventeen he certainly wasn't one now. The hedgehog rarely spent more than a few minutes to inhale his food during lunch period. Today was no different— after making quick work of the cafeteria's lasagna, Sonic had pushed his plate aside and was now settled with his left leg comfortably draped on top of his right, one hand fiddling with his shoelace.

Across the table from him sat his friend, Knuckles the Echidna. Knuckles, who was one of the slowest eaters Sonic had ever seen, still had half his meal on his tray and was gradually picking away at a small bunch of grapes. "Probably." His eyes stayed on his hands as he smiled. "I don't think it'll be too bad, though; I'm looking forward to the history paper."

Sonic smirked. "I bet you are. I wonder what you'll write about this time. Maybe"—he cocked an eyebrow—"the ancient echidnas?"

"How'd you guess?" Knuckles smile widened as he dropped the now-empty grape stem onto his tray. Then he sighed, stretching his shoulders back. "I doubt the library has any new books on the topic, though. Seriously, they need an upgrade."

“Man, you're telling me. The other day, I—!" Sonic's thought was suddenly cut short. If you had asked him what he'd just been talking about, he probably couldn't have told you.

"No way..."

Something, or rather someone, had caught his attention— someone on the opposite side of the cafeteria, who had just sat down at a faraway table perpendicular to Sonic's position.

It was a male hedgehog— that much was obvious. Looking at him, Sonic could make out his dark jeans, white t-shirt, and thin red-and-black striped flannel with the sleeves rolled up to the elbows. The stranger sat, seemingly in silence, listening to a white female bat sitting across from him.

None of this was what made Sonic stare, however; it was his quills.

Their coloring wasn't necessarily unnatural for a hedgehog, but it was certainly unusual. They were black, the top of each quill traced by a long red stripe. Sonic had never seen anything like them.

Except that he had-- several times. He'd seen them in his dream.

"Hey, Sonic! You ok?"

Knuckles words yanked Sonic out of his trance and back into the buzzing world of the lunch room. "Wha—? Oh, sorry man. Heh, guess I kinda zoned out for a second."

"What were you staring at?" Knuckles turned in his seat to scan the room behind him.

"Nothing!" The word flew out of Sonic's mouth much quicker than he would have liked. He quickly brushed it off with a shrug. "I just remembered something I gotta do before lunch is over. I'd better run—see you later, alright?"

Knuckles looked like he didn't quite believe him. "What do you gotta do?"

Sonic’s face smiled as his brain racked for an answer. "Uh, homework. Never ends, am I right?"

Now it was Knuckles turn to smirk. "Heh, right." He picked up his mini milk carton and took a swig. "Well, good luck. I'll see you in fifth."

"Later, Knux!" Sonic grinned and picked up his tray from the table, keeping his movements casual as he made his way to the garbage cans. Behind his calm exterior, however, Sonic's mind was racing. It was a coincidence. It was a weird coincidence. But that's all it could be, right? Just a really weird, off-putting coincidence that meant nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

So why was he so antsy all of a sudden?

Frankly, Sonic didn't even know why he had left Knuckles in such a hurry with that dumb fib about homework. What was he hoping to do? Was he planning to talk to the Weird-Coincidence Guy?

Well… it wasn't the worst idea.

Sonic's eyes flicked upwards from his tray; the black-and-red hedgehog was easy to pick out now that he knew he was there. Sonic's hands moved automatically, scraping his plates as he kept his eyes fixed on the stranger. The white bat across from him finished her sentence, waved, and then left, walking out through the cafeteria's main double doors. The black hedgehog watched her leave, a soda can held tightly in his hands. He barely moved at all.

Sonic dropped his plate unceremoniously into the designated bin. Now that the idea had entered his mind, he couldn’t shake it: he had to talk to him. As nonchalantly as he could, Sonic began weaving around chairs, backpacks and tables, gradually making his way to the strange hedgehog.

He was practically on top of him now. Sonic stopped walking, the black hedgehog a mere four feet ahead of him. He was facing away, hands still holding that soda can. Without so much as a second thought, Sonic smiled and said the first, most natural thing that came to his mind: “Hey!”

What happened next was the last thing Sonic had expected. The black hedgehog turned at his voice, saw him, and froze. His face paled and his eyes went wide. Something like an electric shock seemed to go through him, and the can in his hands crunched.

Brrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiing! The five-minute bell shouted rudely across the cafeteria, startling them both, and they were drowned in a wave of standing students. The black hedgehog was instantly blocked from view as three hundred teenagers, Human and Animal, began gathering their things and preparing to leave for classes.

“H-hey, wait a sec!” Sonic tried to see past the masses of knees and elbows, but quickly found that to be useless. He wasn’t one to give up easily, however; in seconds, Sonic had jumped onto the nearest table and was craning his neck to see over the sea of heads. Where could that guy have gone so quickly? Suddenly—there! Sonic barely caught sight of striped flannel as its wearer ducked around the corner of an adjacent hallway.

"Hey, dude, wait up!" Sonic was down in a flash. After shoving his way through the crowd he sprinted into the hall just as his target ran left down another. He called after him. "Yo, black hedgehog!" It became a game of cat and mouse as they chased each other down seemingly countless hallways and past endless classrooms. Sonic was fast on the track—the fastest in the state, in fact— but somehow this guy kept eluding him with all his constant turns.

Sonic finally whipped right around the ten-billionth corner only to come to an abrupt halt— the hallway ended just twenty feet in front of him. Sonic looked over his shoulder, then back at the dead end. He was positive this was the direction the hedgehog had dodged... so where did he go?

"Hello? Uh, you down here, man?" Sonic slowly walked forward as his question echoed in the empty hall. "I just wanna talk for a second."

Silence.

Then out of nowhere a blur of movement slammed into Sonic's chest, smashing him against a line of lockers. Sonic's breath was knocked out of him, and it took him a second to realize what had happened: standing there, with his forearm crushing Sonic’s ribs, was the black hedgehog. His eyes were mere inches away from his own. They were a bight crimson— to Sonic's astonishment, the color he expected them to be— with a ferocious, wild expression in them. There was also the depth of something that Sonic couldn’t quite name.

"Why are you following me?” he demanded.

Sonic’s hands flew up like a man held at gunpoint. "Woah, dude! Chill! I'm … I'm sorry!” It was still difficult to breathe. "I'm just… I just wanna… wanna talk!"

They stood there locked in place for a moment, both hedgehogs panting. A minute passed, and gradually something seemed to shift in the black hedgehog's eyes. He glanced downward at the arm that pinned Sonic, then back up at the hedgehog's face. Then he backed a few paces, his hands lowering to his sides.

Sonic pushed himself off the lockers and rubbed his chest. "Wow, you hit hard! You play football or something?" He gave the guy a smile. "Sorry. I probably really weirded you out back there—I said hi, but then the bell rang and you ran off and—"

"And you chased me." The hedgehog's voice was deeper than Sonic's when he spoke, with a sharp edge to it. The guy looked close to graduating— frankly, with his stern face, he barely looked like he belonged in high school at all. His arms moved to cross in front of his chest. "What do you want?"

"Uh..." Sonics brain suddenly froze. In that moment he realized that beyond his first hello, he hadn't actually thought of what he wanted to say to this guy. "I… I'm not sure. I just wanted to say hi, I guess."

"Why?"

"Well, um... aw, shoot, this sounds really stupid now." Sonic's smile turned sheepish. "I wanted to talk 'cause… you look kinda familiar?"

Other than a slight eyebrow raise, the black hedgehog didn’t move. His voice dripped with contempt. "Where on earth would I have met you before?"

"Heh, funny you should ask." Sonic shoved his thumbs in his pockets. "Uh, how long've you been at the school?"

"Three weeks."

Sonic did a double take. “Wait— really? Like, it's your first semester? But… you look like a senior."

"And?"

"Oh, I dunno... I guess thats just kinda rare, you know? New seniors? I'm a junior, myself." Sonic smiled, but the black hedgehog didn't flinch. He cleared his throat. "Well, anyway… You really do look super familiar to me. It's kinda freaky, actually."

The dark hedgehog's eyes narrowed. "And why would you say that?"

Sonic wasn't sure what reaction he'd been waiting for— maybe a good laugh, if anything— but it certainly wasn't what the black hedgehog was doing now. His shoulders hitched, fingers digging into his forearms. Even more surprising was his face; it had that same haunted look Sonic had glimpsed before— back in the cafeteria, right when the stranger had first seen him.

And then all at once it was gone, replaced by the earlier scowl. "That's ridiculous.”

Sonic’s hand dropped down from where it had been resting behind his head. “Um… yeah. Yeah, it is.”

They stood there in a heavy silence. The black hedgehog drummed his fingers against his arm. “Is that all?”

Sonic stared back at him. “… Yes.”

The other hedgehog looked at Sonic a moment longer, annoyed expression unchanging. Then with a ‘hmph’, he turned away abruptly, walking back towards the hallway through which they had come.

Sonic watched him leave. He felt the urge to say something, but nothing came to mind. Well, that was weird. What had he been expecting though, really? The whole reason for him talking to the guy was weird to begin with. It was funny; though Sonic was usually very confident around strangers, this whole conversation— which he himself had initiated— had made even him uncomfortable.

Sonic began to turn the in the opposite direction to head to his own class— only find himself staring at the dead-end hallway again. Whoops. There was only one other way to go.

The black hedgehog’s ear perked as footsteps echoed behind him, and he turned his head sharply. Sonic’s hands shot back up in the air again upon being caught. “Sorry, ignore me—my class is this way too.”

The stranger glared at Sonic a moment, then turned back and kept walking. Sonic waited a second, allowing for some space, then continued on behind.

There was almost no other sound as the two of them made their way down the hall. Sonic slipped his thumbs back into his pockets, trying not to look at the stranger. Eventually, he let his eyes drift to the back of the hedgehog’s head. What was up with the guy, anyway? He sure was a tough nut to crack— tougher than even Knuckles had been when they’d first met, and that was saying something. This guy refused to be warmed up in any way, shape, or form. Sonic had nothing to work with here, and it left him at a loss.

Eventually Sonic couldn’t stand the silence anymore. “Hey,” he ventured, “sorry I got on your nerves back there."

If the other hedgehog heard him, he gave no sign of it.

A few more seconds passed. Sonic took a breath. "I probably shouldn’t have bothered you. It was kinda silly to say anything at all, to be honest. I probably wouldn’t’ve, either, if I’d only had the dream once. It's just weird, you know? ‘Cause I don’t even know you, but this guy that looks exactly like you is in the dream every single time, along with that other hedgehog—”

“I don’t care!”

Instantly, the black hedgehog was in Sonic’s face. Teeth bared, fangs showing, a threatening finger nearly stabbed Sonic in the eye. “I’m going to say this once, Blue Hedgehog. I don’t care about your dreams. I don’t care if I was in it, or that white hedgehog, or you, or anybody! And I’m tired of hearing about it.”

They stood there a moment, with Sonic for once in his life standing perfectly still. The black hedgehog’s finger lowered as he growled. “Are we clear?”

With the finger out of his face, Sonic slowly straightened. Ok, talking more was definitely not going to take any tension out of the air. He opened his mouth to give a simple reply.

Then something clicked. “Wait... How did you know the hedgehog was white?”

The scowl on the stranger’s face faded slightly, the air seeming to still. “What?” he breathed.

“The other hedgehog,” said Sonic, "I never mentioned what color his fur was.” Now he leaned forward, studying the stranger. He met his eyes. "How did you know it was white?”

The stranger gave no response. The blood had slowly drained from his face, leaving it ghostly pale as his mouth hung open wordlessly.

Then suddenly his face clenched, and a hand jerked out to slap Sonic away. “Enough!”

He dashed off. It took Sonic a second to recover from the unexpected shove. “Wha- Hey, dude, wait!" He sprinted around the corner ahead. "Where are you going—?!"

The black hedgehog was gone.

Sonic stood staring blankly down the empty hallway. What the heck? Thoughts swirled around his brain—half of them were questions, and the other half were answers that didn’t make sense. He leaned his left arm against the rough brick wall next to him.

Had “white” simply been a guess? A stab in the dark? Was that the color everybody thought of when they pictured the average hedgehog?

Or did he know, too?

Another blaring brrrring! from the bell startled Sonic out of his thoughts. “Aw, shoot.” He was late for chemistry. He took off at a sprint.

A few minutes later, Sonic would come rushing through his classroom door. He wouldn’t remember that he needed to grab his textbook from his locker until he was already inside. No excuse would be given when when his teacher scolded him, declaring solemnly that being the school’s track star did not justify him arriving late to class. Later, when everyone was paired up for experiments, Tails would ask him where he’d been; cutting it close was normal for Sonic, but arriving seven minutes after the bell was not. Sonic would hesitate a moment. Then he’d give his best friend a smile, ruffling the fur on his head. “It’s not really important,” he’d say, “no worries. Let’s just get these reactions done.”

Hours later, in dark of his bedroom, Sonic would still be thinking about that black hedgehog.

#I got it out today!!! I said I would and I did!#Hedgehogs are surprisingly hard to write guys! But I've been working on this for a while and have had a lot of fun with it.#I hope you like it too!#I'd love to hear your thoughts on it :)#my writing #triple threat sonic au #sonic au #sonic #shadow #knuckles #tails #my art

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leelee10898 · 5 years

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Fast cars & Freedom: From the ground up (14/?)

Ellie gets a surprise visit and revelations are made. Catch up HERE.

Pairing: Logan x Ellie, Colt x Ellie

Raiting: Mature

It had been a few days since the Divorce hearing, well the hearing that came to an abrupt halt when she fainted. Ellie sat curled up in the couch attempting to watch a movie, her mind everywhere else but. She finally had the answers, she knew who Luca's father was and she spoke with the Judge via CCTV. Big changes were coming and she wasn't exactly sure how to move forward. It was Friday night and she still had not heard from Colt. Her dad and Sally away at the grand canyon, Luca had a long week at school and went down easy.

Riya had texted her several times asking her if she wanted her to come over and have a girls night. The doctor had given her the clear to leave with minimal restrictions except to stay hydrated and eat, that and follow up with her doctor. The diagnosis something she did not expect, she wasn't really sure how to tell those closest to her so she said nothing at all. Ellie heard the thunder outside, the rain had picked up as well.

They weren't expecting a storm but they helped her sleep, and how she needed the sleep. She stood up, turning off the Tv and making her way to the stairs when she heard a knock at the door. It was 9pm, who would be there that late. She walked to the door, cautiously opening it, she was surprised to find two dark eyes staring back at her. "Colt?"

He stood there soaked to the bone "Come in here, what were you thinking driving your bike in the rain." She ushered him inside and closed the door behind him. "I don't know, I just needed to get out. So I drove, and I ended up here." He spoke as Ellie ran and grabbed him some towels. "I shouldn't be here." He wiped his face and headed towards the door. "No. Colt wait. Don't go." He abruptly stopped, the sound of her telling him to stay made his heart flutter, but it was quickly snuffed out by the hurt and anger he had pent up. "Why do you care huh? Im yesterday's news. You didn't waste any time divorcing me." He snapped.

"Im sorry Colt. I-" she tried speaking but he cut her off. "I love you Ellie. I always fucking will, but you never gave me a chance." His voice getting louder. "I know and I'm sorry I hurt you but if you-"

"I know, You're sorry. Sorry doesn't help my hurt. I should go." He cut her off again.

"You're an asshole." Ellie snapped, Colt gave her a half chuckle "I'm an asshole?"

"Yeah. And a cocky smart ass too." She stood her ground.

"Well thanks a lot for stating the obvious. I thought you were smarter than that." He scoffed at her. "Good luck with Logan. I'm sure you guys will make a real great family." He turned hand on the door. "I couldn't go through with it." Colt froze in place, unsure if he hear her right, or if she meant what he thought she did. He turned looking at her. "What did you say?"

"I didn't go through with the divorce. Its you Colt, it's always been you. I was just to stub-" His lips crashed against hers, silencing her immediately as she melted into his kiss. "I love you." She whispered as she pressed her lips to his again. "I love you too." He pulled back their eyes locked, searching one another for some sort of sign. Ellie pressed her body against his bringing her arms up around his neck, her hands threading his dark locks before slipping down pulling the damp shirt over his head.

They made short work of their clothes, Colt lifting her by the thighs and carrying her to her bedroom. He laid her down on the bed, he carefully climbed on top of her, his lips finding hers, this time much softer. "I feel like i'm dreaming. Like i'm going to wake up and you'll be gone. I'll be alone again."

She grabbed his hand guiding him up her sides "You feel that? This is real. I'm not going anywhere, I'm yours colt." Her words igniting a fire within him. "You're mine." He whispered into her lips as he lined himself up, and slowly sank into her. He set his pace slow and steady, he wanted to take his time with her, to show her how much he needed her, to please her. His hands tangled in her hair, their lips pressed together, swallowing each others moans, his thrust hitting just the right spot each time. He could feel her walls fluttering around him, he knew she was close, he also knew he wouldn't be able to hold back much longer after that. He lifted her legs slightly so she could wrap them around his waist, he thrust deeper as she called out his name, coming completely undone. A few pumps letter he found his own release.

He rested his head against hers, looking into her eyes. "I love you, so much." He kissed her nose. "Mmm I love you too." He rolled over on the side of her, resting his head against her chest. The steady beat of her heart beginning to lull him to sleep. "Colt."

"hmmm." He murmured. "I'm pregnant." He propped himself up on his elbow "Yeah?"

She nodded her head. "I found out when I fainted at the court hearing. Im about 6 weeks. Turns out, we're pretty good at making babies." She giggled.

In that moment Colt was over the moon, He got his wife back, and she was giving him a baby. "You have no idea how happy you have made me." He tilted his head kissing her. "Wait, you said babies. Are there two? is it twins?!"

"No. Just 1 in there." She waited for him to catch on, And finally he did. His eyes went wide. "Are you saying? Does that mean?" He sat up in the bed, the tears now welling in his eyes. "Luca is your daughter. You were right all along." Colt was never one to show emotion, but his heart was so full he thought it would surely burst. He went through his whole life feeling like something was missing, feeling half full. He chalked it up to his father pushing him away, but now he knew that it was Her, this family they made, that was the missing piece.

Ellie told him about how she fainted at court was taken to the hospital where they ran blood test. Logan telling her she was making a mistake, his words hitting her hard. So when Darnell came in and they had the video chat with the judge, she informed her she was not wanting to go forward with the divorce. Instead she wanted her last name changed, and pending a positive paternity test, Luca's last name changed to Kaneko as well. The doctor giving them the results to the paternity test right after, and then she found out she was pregnant.

Colt pulled her close to him,placing frantic kisses all over her face. "Are you happy?" She giggled as he pulled away. "Hell yeah!" He grinned placing his hand on her flat stomach. "I can't wait to have a son. One of each, I just. I can't even wait. I love you Elle."

"How do you know its a boy. We have a girl, maybe it's another girl." She countered. He gave her a sideways smirk "wishful thinking."

"So um, not to kill the mood but. I take it Logan knows." She nodded her head yes. "He does. He was a little upset but honestly he took it pretty well. He's just excited to be uncle Logan, and spoil her rotten."

He chuckled "He's a good guy," Ellie shot him a surprised look "Don't make me say it again."

"And Luca? Does she know?" Colt traced lazy circles on her invisible bump.

"Not yet. I think we can tell her in the morning." She smiled down at him.

"Sounds good to me, but until then." He smirked as his placed open mouth kisses on her neck. "Were not getting any sleep tonight are we?" She softly moaned out. He shot her a mischievous look as he made his way down her body. "We have 6 years to make up for. What do you think?"

The next morning Ellie woke up to an empty bed, she would have thought he left if it weren't for the aroma of bacon teasing her nostrils. She got dressed and crept down the stairs to find a shirtless colt standing over the stove. She leaned up against the entryway watching him "the bacon grease is gonna get you." He turned towards her, "No it's, oh shit. Ouch. Ouch. Not." He said dropping a slab of bacon i to the grease jumping back. Ellie squeal in a fit of laughter. "Oh you think that's funny?" He rushed over tickling her. "NOOOO, Colt, stop it." She giggled, finally he pulled her into him, wrapping his arms around her. "Morning Wifey.." He murmured, brushing his lips against hers. "Good morning, hubby."

They pulled away hearing the echo of little footsteps coming down the stairs. Luca appeared moments later, her eyes lighting up immediately "Colt! You're here, you're here." She ran into his arms. "Hey Princess. I missed you." He picked her up hugging her tight. "I missed you Colt. Don't leave anymore." She nuzzled her head against his shoulder. "I won't. I'm not going anywhere anymore, I promise." He sat her down at the table next to Ellie, he went over to the stove pulling the food of and plating them. He sat two plates full of food in front Ellie and Luca before grabbing his own and joined them. "Mmm chocolate chip pancakes my favorite. And mommy, look its Mickey Mouse!"

"Grampy told me chocolate chip pancakes were your favorite." Colt beamed. "Can you cook us breakfast every morning Colt?" Luca said as she enjoyed her breakfast. Colt and Ellie shared a look. Ellie cleared her throat "Well baby, we have something we would like to tell you."

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" oi oi oi oi , let's get this party starteddddddddd , " ichiro slurred with one bottle of alcohol in his hand and the other pointing at his classmates . it was his 21st birthday and his friends wanted to throw him a party but they didn't realize he was such lightweight considering his first time drinking . you didn't want to go but your friend dragged you here , the only reason why you knew him was because he was your childhood first love , you had to move and this was the first time in 10 years seeing him once again but him in his drunk state .

ichiro started to chug more and more until the bottle was half empty , his eyes were getting droopy until he started to climb on the table , all his friends cheered him on , rooting and yelling , he started stripping . he took off his shirt then started to unbuckle his belt , his friends suddenly stopped cheering and started panicking , they tried to get him down but he slapped them away . they tried once again and he finally got down except he kept struggling in one of his friend's arms . while ichiro struggled , " does anybody know where this guy lives ? he's seriously getting out of hand , i want him to have fun but he's way too drunk and fucked to keep him handled , " his friend sighed , your friend raised her hand and pointed to you , " this girl right here is actually his childhood friend , " you looked at her as she nudged you , " i could call one of his brothers so they could get him instead " you answered , his friend just nodded his head .

as ichiro was sat down with three guys around him just encase he would go wild again , you stepped outside of the bar and called jiro , since you still kept contact with him without his brother knowing , you knew he would pick up . three rings , he finally answered , " hello ? " you heard his deep voice as you answered back , " hey jiro , uh are you currently busy right now ? ichiro is drunk at a bar and i don't know how else to take him home , " he sighed , " sorry y / n , me and saburo are currently at an away camp " you heard a little voice in the back , " what happened jiro ? " jiro answered back and explained , the voice gasped , " ah really ? can you send me his address then ? i'll take him home myself then , " you answered back , " i will , be safe with him and watch out on the way home also , his keys are in his front pockets if the apartment is locked without his fingerprint , " jiro replied , you hummed , " okay , thank you so much jiro ! say hi to saburo as well , have fun at camp you two , hope to see you soon ! " you heard a goodbye and a faint ' protect ichi - nee ! ' the phone hung up as you giggle a little .

you went back into bar and saw that ichiro had fell asleep on the chair , his friends were taking care of him . as one was fanning him and the other had a glass of water in his hand , one of them saw you come back and wave to you to come over there , as you went over . his friend patted you in the back and mouthed ' good luck ' , they handed you ichiro , his arm around your shoulder . ichiro suddenly woke up but he wasn't as wild , he just rubbed his eyes and walked with you , " oh by the way , we called you guys an uber ! " his friends shouted , you nodded and you walked out with ichiro . he was still a little drunk so , it was quite hard to hold him and walk in a straight line but the uber was out there waiting for you two . both of you got in the ride and you gave the driver an address and she nodded , as she started to drive , you could feel ichiro falling asleep .

he was dozing off , right and left until he put his head on your shoulder and you blush a little as he put his hand on your thigh as well . four minute past , the driver stopped , you thanked her and paid the amount that was needed before exiting the car . you shake ichiro and he woke up but barely , he was still tired but he had enough energy to leave the car and put his arm around your shoulder as you walked him to his apartment that he shared with his brothers . you remembered jiro's advice to get his key from his back pocket but as you reached for them , ichiro's hand grabbed yours . he smirked and he pressed his thumb on to the fingerprint pad , once it opened , he grabbed you and pulled you inside .

he closed and locked the door , you both were standing in the doorway , he looked at you , " ichiro , what's going on ? " you questioned him , he didn't answer and he pulled you into a tender kiss , " i've been meaning to do that for awhile . " you blushed deeply as he started kissing you again . he started to move his hand up and down your body , you shudder a bit , as he pulled away , he lifted you up in his arms and started walking towards his bedroom . he placed you down gently on the bed and admired you , " fuck , you're so beautiful " he nuzzled his head in your neck , " i really wanna do it with you " he looked back at you and his face was flushed , you just nodded you head then smiled .

he kissed your lips softly , he moved to your neck and slowly started sucking , you moaned as he whispered into your ears , " you look so gorgeous under me . don't hold back your moans princess , i want to hear you " you blush deeply as he moved futher down . he removed your shirt and unclipped your bra , he sucked on your breast then sucked harshly on your nipple , he did this a few time on each boob then he started to move down even futher , he got to your skirt and removed it slowly , as he got to your panties , he teased you .

he guided his hand down your clit and he moved his fingers in a circular movement , you softly moaned as he removed your panties , he stuck one finger up you , you gasped . he thrusted in and out , " ah , you're so wet " he looked at you , you both locked eyes with each other as he put another finger in . he moved up to you while he was fingering you , he pulled you into a deep kiss . he bit your bottom lip causing you to open your mouth a little for him to stick his tongue in , he swirled his tongue with yours . you gasped once more as he thrusted his finger in more to the point where it reached your g - spot , you pull away from the kiss and came onto his fingers . he slid them out and chuckled , he licked your cum off , " you taste so sweet " you blushed even more and you covered your face with your hands , he pulled them off and he pecked your cheek .

he took off his shirt revealing his hard abs , you ran your hands up his stomach , he groaned while you started to feel around him , he continued to take off his belt and drop his pants . you looked at his private and you could see his bulge , you widen your eyes and wonder if it was going to fit in you , he kissed your forehead , " i'll go easy on you considering it is my first time " his sentence stopped midway and you looked shocked cause this was your first time as well , " guess we're both each others first " you laugh a little .

he smiled at you as he removed his boxer , his hard on slapped his stomach and as he started to position himself at your entrance , you felt his tip pierce your wet area . he entered slowly starting with his tip , you winced a little but he just grabbed your face and pulled you into another kiss mouthing ' it'll be okay , my darling ' . his dick fully went in , he waited for you to adjust before you nodding and him finally slowly thrusting in and out . it was pleasure and pain at the same time , he kissed you again , his movements were slow and passionate . he pulled away from the kissed and interwined your hands with his . he started to move a little faster as you moaned his name , he sucked your neck and started to leave marks , he thrusted in and out deeper and deeper every pace . you were moaning like crazy , he filled you so nicely , your guys first time was really going to be a night to remember .

as his thrusts got sloppier and sloppier , you put your arms around his neck and legs wrapped around his waist , he thrusted faster and harder , all you both could hear was skin slapping against each other with loud groans and moans heard from the both of you . you and ichiro were close to your limits , " fuck , i'm gonna cum " you moaned out with those words that came out of you , his thrusts were sloppier more then before , " cum with me , babygirl " he whisper into your ear . more thrusts came into place , as you and him came , you felt his hot fluid in you and ichiro pulled out of you , before you could catch your breathe , " i love you " ichiro said as his eyes closed and he laid right on top of you .

you were surprised and blushed deeply as you softly pulled him off of you , you got up from the bed and went to the bathroom to wash yourself before grabbing ichiro's shirt from the floor and wearing it . you went back in bed with him and laid next to him as you did , he turned back and held you close to him , you were to the point that you could hear his heartbeat . your eyes drooped and you fell slowly to sleep with ichiro holding you close .

[ the next morning ]

it was 10am , ichiro woke up first and for his surprise , he woke up with his arms around your waist , he was so shocked as he yelled , " e - e h , why is my childhood first love in bed with me and we're naked ? " for the whole world to hear . [ to be continued ]

[ sorry for the long wait and i’m very sorry for disappointing you with this horrible s m u t but honestly i had fun writing it lolololololololol anyways hope y’all enjoy even though it really is b a d also thank you lunarrin for the request ! also , scenarios will come soon after the jakurai imagine that i was planning to finish ]

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