#but tis kinda hard when

[superchat]

i love my cat and its really sad and all he has cancer and crippling arthritis but you are being such a fucking cunt right now 

#doing EVERTYHIGN he can #do just #move #whine #literally just needs to rest and hes fighting every little thing jfc #just hurting himself more i fuckin hate it #were putting him down soon cuz his quality of life is quickly deterioriating #wish i could say we'll spoil him on his last days #but tis kinda hard when #everthing we need to do to care for him #he hates #cant give him treats cuz he doesnt wanna eat them #cant play with him cuz it hurts too much #theres nothing we can do except pet him and it doesnt do much for him

[crowlore]

i remember it used to be a bit of a fandom pet peeve of mine that some people would forget that the gung ho guns and eye of michael were two separate groups with some membership overlap but then stampede came along and made the eom into a project of conrad’s backed by knives. another example of how the reboot feels like bad fanfiction.

#the eom worked best as a predominantly shadowy unknown group most closely tied to wolfwood and LR’s stories #i LIKED that we didn’t know who ran it or what their broader goals were outside of what contact they had with knives/the ghg #extradiagetically nightow just didn’t need to explore the eom in detail. they served their narrative purpose. #but i also find stories that try too hard to ask you bonus questions with overexplained answers to be very lame #so while prestampede it was kinda annoying but ultimately excusable to see ghg/eom used interchangeably #the new show cemented it them as interlinked in a way that actually made the story structure much weaker in an attempt to get ahead of you #this is all very much a critique of mine from the perspective of a writer not just a viewer btw #bad writing isn’t always enough to kill something yk. but plot holes are harder to excuse when your themes and structure are lacking #the manga’s Foundations were just much stronger than the reboot’s if you will #you can turn your brain off with this show and just watch the pretty colors if you want. absolutely no shame in that. we need that stuff #i guess i just struggle to accept a no brainer show like this as being another core leg of the story in the way trimax/98 are bc of it #pretentious of me i know. #stampede critical #for my followers that filter it

[craycraybluejay]

On the next episode of Are Maleness and Sadism Interlinked or Am I Just Weird About My Masculinity and Kink

#my tranny sex mysticism is cooler than your cissy sex mysticism #although gender in general is a construct and everyone ties things to their gender which have little or no #real connection to anything like that #bc gender is identity #clothes are the easiest example but #i think i understand when people say stuff that sounds nonsensical like 'my gender is venus flytrap' #because gender is identity and if its a big thing in your identity you kinda like #connect it to your femaleness or maleness or both neither other #like when a girl fights shes still feminine kicking ass and that doesnt make her any less good at kicking ass #or when a guy does his nails it can very much be a masculine thing for him #its all made up and based on vague feelings and concepts #so sure conservatives feel free to identify as an ak47 you know its not a gotcha #and radfems feel free to keep calling me a monster it makes me hard <3 #but yea like. identity is both complex and simple. its the human condition to identify with things #and i dont think 'neogenders' are particularly new i just think we had different words or no words for that #but people have and always will identify with anything and everything #thats human nature. we mirror and absorb and grow #even twin sisters experience femaleness differently or even call it different things #girlhood or being a lady etc etc #even within the cishet society gender is not as simple as authoritarians would like you to believe #anyway yeah my gender identity is sadistic male aligned freak and other things

[designernishiki]

#no one’s gonna pick date but god that’d be a funny option #he’d be supportive but also would be so caught off guard and so uneducated on the topic he’d say just. the stupidest shit #and you KNOW kiryu would just say it out of the fucking blue. date would probably drop a glass or something behind the counter. whiplash #anyway honestly it’s always been hard for me to pick between haruka and daigo- haruka obviously is the number one most important person to #him and if he’s gonna be that vulnerable with anyone it’s most likely gonna be her #HOWEVER. if he (miraculously) picked up on daigo never having an interest in women and having at least one close male companion that was a #liiiiitttttle too close to be Just a companion #then daigo has an advantage because. i mean. it’d guarantee the person he’d admitting this too wouldn’t judge him for it #and would have- amusingly enough- more experience in the area than kiryu himself thus the possibility for advice/reassurance #which is such an interesting conceptual conversation that I started writing it. maybe one day I’ll finish it………. #I think the only way he’d come out ti majima first would be completely on accident / incidentally #like. getting drunk with him and laughing about whatever havin a good time and after a waitress or whoever hits on kiryu majima says like #‘you know- I’ve known you for like 30 years and I don’t think I’ve ever seen you return the favor when a gal flirts with ya- so what kinda #gals ARE you into–‘ ‘I don’t think I’ve ever really been into any women. ………. ah.’ #anyway that’s just one thought #anyway have fun with this #kiryu #kazuma kiryu #yakuza #rambling #polls

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

you ever think about how bones drew parallels in this moment not only through the reaching out (not initially in the scene) but also through oda's description of a "split second like a blue flash of lighting", which literally strikes in the anime when dazai tries to stop him. do you ever-

#unfortunately bones kinda went hard in their adaption of that #the way it ties their desperation together... both seeing a friend march towards death #and also how much oda really is dead the *moment* he walks away. he was already set #the 'split second like a flash of lighting' is when the gun fires. afterwards is just seeing the results #im not tagging this with the rewatch since we already passed episode one but yk

[trifoliate-undergrowth]

wuh oh I'm on an indie fragrance kick again! anyway. environmental storytelling spotted here

you just know some pickle hater bought the Dill Pickle Scent and then contacted the store like WHY DOES IT SMELL LIKE PICKLES!!! ONE STAR!!!!

#the THIS IS A DILL PICKLE SCENT IT SMELLS LIKE PICKLES DO YOU UNDERSTAND. PICKLES #vibe reminds me of when someone untied the double sliding knots I had carefully tied a necklace with #and was like hm it was kind of hard to untie! #the notes I put in the first few packages after that had the same exasperated vibe of like. THESE ARE SLIDING KNOTS SO YOU CAN ADJUST THE #LENGHT OF THE NECKLACE. PULL ON IT TO OPEN. PULL THE KNOTS APART TO CLOSE #DO NOT UNTIE THE KNOTS. I AM IMPRESSED THAT YOU EVEN COULD DO THAT. THEY ARE NOT MEANT TO BE UNTIED. BLEASE #HERE IS THE MOST DETAILED POSSIBLE DESCIPTION OF THE PHYSICS OF HOW THIS WORKS. YOU DO NOT NEED TO UNTIE THEM. PLEASE #retail story. kinda #online stores story??

[stewykablooey]

just re the ask about kendall sleeping with older men: im a bi kendall truther but imo kendall's general attraction to men is 100% packed tightly in the big box in his mind where he puts all the shit he compartmentalizes. i truly think the only guy he believes he's ever been attracted to is stewy and that's just because he rationalizes to himself that "it's just stewy and it's undeniable that stewy is hot". i find it hard to imagine that he would feel remotely safe or comfortable enough to allow himself have sex with any other men (even while high/drunk), let alone someone who could have the tiniest potential to remind him of logan. your point about it traumatising him is spot on

totally heard, i flip flop between the two a lot. i feel like i can definitely see kendall compartmentalizing gay sex so much that he PEMDAS’s himself into some weird ‘this isn’t gay sex because im not gay. im just getting off’ thinking. but also kendall would aaaaaabsolutley love the brand of homophobia that is ‘im not gay i just like ✨you✨’ or ‘im not attracted to stewy because he’s a man im attracted to him because it’s stewy’

#i dont think kendall’s one to shy away from gay sex when he’s actively desiring it #but he does avoid it like the plague in the aftermath or when he ‘comes to his senses’ #like (to Me) kendall Was tryna fuck dodds #there’s a high chance if the night played out differently kendall wouldve slept with him #and in the moment he wasn’t afraid of the possibility because he’s fully in the zone of actively chasing pleasure #especially with how much the situation was tied to drugs #and almost all of kendall’s gay sex potentials are tied to drugs (him and stewy him and nate even the ‘techno gatsby’ moment) #but as much as kendall’s sobering from drug use turns him into an extremely sober version of himself #kendall’s sobering from gay thoughts turns him into an extremely straight version of himself #sure the dodds incident was sobering for Very different reasons but the implications of how that night couldve gone are present #but also. #its hard to imagine a world where kendall slept with a man and doesn’t spend every waking moment terrified that logan would find out #but ALSO. that’s kinda the vibe you get anyway #ask #anon #m

[famewolf]

if im being honest and allowing myself to vent a bit about it ... another red flag was when the DM went 'wow i love the detail of your backstory but idk what i can do with it tho ):'

#[static] #it immediately made me feel bad for trying to make a character work with the aesthetic she had given us tbh #i could already tell she didnt seem to be super character story driven so i just made a pretty simple drifter-type #for a post-apocalyptic setting n such and made a group that tied into the whole over-arching premise #i also literally just did bullet points cuz i could tell she wasn't gonna want to read one of the backstories i usually do #and as someone who has mostly dm'd in the past i did my v best to make a character that was super easy for the dm to incorporate in any way #like a solid reason for being there a reason for wanting to adventure with strangers a reason for seeing the mission through no matter what #made a whole small faction and connected them to the overarching theme and plot in multiple ways #wrote down lore and npcs she could use for the faction if she didnt want to make up her own #like all the works and all i got was two sentences back about it ... one of them being like 'cool but i dont like the extra details' #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh #ok im done yelling now i just need to vent for a second #i feel bad for feeling kinda bummed about the experience because this is the first time i got to play at a physical table in years #and i know how hard it is to DM #but also when you come to the table with zero notes for the first session its ... probably gonna be disappointing jkfghdf #i DID have fun however because the party banter was hilarious and it was fun getting to hang out with ppl! #but communication between DM and players was not great #also let me be clear she did like that i made so many connections and hooks into the story and it helped her a lot #she was NOT interested in my character's past like ... jobs or npcs #but also u could just Not say anything about it and just be like 'sweet cool thanks for the info' LMAo

[1980ssunflower]

LOOK at my FUCKING husbands BOY!!!!!!!!!!!

#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙 #tape entry circa 1980 #SCREAMIGN CRYING PUNCHING THE WALLS #I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!!!!!! #GENUINELY HOW IS IT PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE TO LOVE 2 PEOPLE THIS MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!! #IM GOING TO GODDAMN IM/EXPLODE SIMULTANEOUSLY #MIS BEBES MY SOULMATES... #damn whats the proper word for it in spanish again hdfsjk #WELL #IDK MAN THEY JUST ARE MY FR SOULMATES!!! IT WAS LIKE I WAS MADE FOR THEM AND THEY WERE MADE FOR ME!!!!! #everything abt their individual personalities fit me and im the perfect median between them #so i help them a lot w their own stuff as well as being the middle ground when they argue hfjsd #but their love for MUSIC really ties my so strongly to them on top of it all.... #music is SO important to me its my life and its THEIR life and i want to talk abt music for hours w them both #to put together albums w them and perform them on stage together wahh #and a big element too is theyre from the 80s... #it feels kinda stupid to say but i genuinely feel like i was meant to have lived in the 80s and im at all times feeling homesick for it #thats why collecting and playing records and cassette tapes are really really important to me #when i play them it feels at least in those moments that im ok... im home im where im meant to be #thats also why i dress the way i do why i try so hard to fit every part of the 80s #so my life w my min and ryan make me happy... thats our reality together yknow #to know they dont know anything abt this modern day auhh #i just wish i could go home w them back then yknow and be free of all this #at least i can draw it... though i wish i was better at drawing lol #theyre just so important to me... more than anything #i love them more than anything and i will ALWAYS love them they will ALWAYS be a part of me

[favvnsongs]

rewatching tanizaki sibs scenes I stg theyre so sus. what is the reason! why are they like this!!!

#the insinuated blowjob/handjob during the cafe scene in ep3 of the first season #im over here just. WHAT. why are y'all like this. #why does he look so flustered and exasperated when she acknowledges theyre siblings bc like. she did it in the prev ep too?? #kunikida specifically tells atsushi 'bro dont think about it too hard okay just let it go' as if it isnt exactly a secret. their whole. #whatever it is. the 'being tied up and threatened was kinda fun we should do that more' comment from naomi #the under the shirt groping. the whole. 'no lol im just an assistant i don't really amount for much here im just Some Guy' #theyre so. like. pls jfc. what is the reason what tf is going ON pls for the love of christ i need some answers here

[randomszzz]

I tend to be a bit skeptical about assigning twewy’s songs to its characters; especially given the earlier incarnations song placements being rather free wheeling.  Like the songs conveyed certain ideas and energies, but weren’t really bound to A Specific Character.  (And more power to the fans that decide that those ideas belong to That Character Specifically, I guess, but its not my speed)

Having said all that, the two straight up exceptions to this are Megumi and Satisfy and Susukichi and we’re losing you.  Zero reservations there. 

#twewy #ntwewy #megumi kitaniji #susukichi #kaichi susuki #neo really leaned into transformation for sho and thats cool I guess #but sho and transformation were originally independent of each other. transformation isn't ABOUT sho #hard to embrace it when spending an hour getting the shit kicked out of you well after hours under the covers #while someday blares and someone savors his victory with a soh-cah-toa is a vibrant teenage memory #tbf idk if megumi was originally really tied with satisfy (I think satisfy was in jp ds twewy but taken out in english #no idea what its placement was) #but yeah I can't listen to satisfy or we're losing you without thinking about them #we're losing you also really isn't the sort of music i'd be inclined to appreciate #but in light of susukichi's stuggles? I (kinda sorta) get it now #Also I thought I'd replay a new day last night but where I opened my game was in dead god's pad and just spent 15 minutes vibing to satisfy #neku too I love his floofy hair and little head nods and foot taps #I wish neo had such lively animations #so sad no party members following you in the overworld in neo :( #cute little idle animations adding characterization #Also if I was a perfectly fair human I would say unpainted counts for shiba but I'm not unpainted is my favorite song #shiba is a despicable man #but for like half of neo's track if I even tried to associate them with characters it would just be OMG ITS RINDOKA #its really not hard to associate songs with characters if you're so inclined #twewy isn't super restrictive in where songs play so there's a ton of room for song interpretation to be overrun by bias

[threadsun]

Nah Z’d die without love that’s awfully nice idk

-JDA here-

LMFAO would he be completely desperate tho? Straight up begging—

As a golem, Zander was made for the purposes of helping and protection, specifically for the people he loves, so he needs love to have a purpose and that's both like... so sweet and so romantic, but also so tragic and it's one of the driving forces behind his character

Also Z is such a switch, he will get on his knees and beg if that's what'll get him love and attention~

#sunshine #asks #Zander #jda #and now we get to the heart of why Z has yandere tendencies :3c #kinda hard not to be yandere when your very BEING is tied to the people you love #but also yes he'll get desperate and beg and look sooooo hot while doing so

[viulus]

Games that I like and how they handle racism

Virgin Great Ace Attorney Chronicles vs CHAD Disco Elysium

#vu's posts #tgaa #disco elysium #i've been thinking about this for a while lol #my fixation before de was tgaa so. i'm bound to make comparisons #it helps that they're both VNs/point and clicks where you solve murders and such. it's hard not to compare em really #no but yeah i adore tgaa but WOW is the handling of the racism just. terrible #it's literally a shallow 'oh we're all people at the end of the day' thing. it's literally so insulting tbh #it's more frustrating since the writing is otherwise incredible imo! #also frustrating since it plagues my favorite character grrrrr #(and yes i mean van zieks <3) #he's so well written and it's just this one aspect of his character that's just so terribly done! #they could've just made him racist because of his time period or w/e. but as is his racism is tied to his trauma?? #plus he NEVER faces consequences for his racism. hell KAZUMA never even calls him out on it and he HATES bvz like? #also doesn't help that ryuu (the victim of most of the racism) kinda just... lets it slide for the most part #esp once he finds out why van zieks is racist he's just like 'oh that's understandable actually. ur racism is justified here' like no! #meanwhile disco handles the topic with the nuance that it needs to be given yknow? #also it very clearly frames the constant racism that kim puts up with as something that Affects Him #and plus he doesn't just take it! he's a super composed guy but you can clearly tell how uncomfortable he is- #when ppl around him are throwing around racist bs #and plus despite being a very composed person he DOES snap at someone at least once in canon over it #(e.g. the ''don't you welcome to revachol' me' bit... which btw i will never be normal about <3) #(honorable mention to his 'i feel less bad for breaking in here now' bit when you go into the cryptofascist guy's apartment- #after he sees the racist mugs. he was so right for that fr) #ALSO back to my earlier point about it clearly affecting him. i feel like he does have some like. idk internalized racism? #like his whole thing with being proud to be a native to revachol and being proud that he never met his seolite grandparents #like MAYBE you could read that as him just really caring about his home city. but it also reads like internalized racism to me #ANYWAYS there's more i could say here but you get the point #tgaa racism themes are badly written while de racism themes are well written #va4 rambles in the tags

[mrs-kelly]

Man I’ve been down all day because I realized last night that I forgot a bunch of meaningful stuff between me and my early f/o’s :(

#I really treasure those times where sel.f ship felt so real #and I would constantly keep the memory alive in my mind because those were some of the best times of my teen years #but the events of 2020 hit me so hard that I left my brain for like 2 years #I didn’t keep up that work and now all the memories are so fuzzy :( #I mean I guess it’s just human nature. memories are ephemeral; so is the moment. that’s the point #but I guess I thought I would remember forever #doesn’t help that the reason I was trying to remember was because today is ki.ba’s birthday #and when I was like 13 he was a big deal to me. so I was kinda visiting him; saying hello #and I wanted to reminisce with him but I couldn’t :( #I have two semi-strong memories of dreams I had about him back then #but I don’t remember the time we spent together anymore and that hurts :( #idk maybe it doesn’t sound like a big deal but so much of my personal identity is tied up in my sel.f shipping #who I view myself as inside #so forgetting that is like letting a part of me die #luckily I have some journals from that time. but I don’t know where they are :( #they’ll turn up someday I’m sure. but for now happy birthday ki.ba and I’m sorry :( #ren speaks