#but yea.

[worm-brainzz]

i keep seeing these things so.

if this post gets to 2k notes im gonna try n stand up for myself

if it gets to 3k notes im gonna try n find a job since my family sucks and keeps stealing my money

if it gets to 5k notes, im gonna ask for a better tailbone relief

if it gets to 7k notes, i'll let you guys choose (IF ITS A HEALTHY SLEEP SCHEDULE I WILL NOT.)

tailbone explanation: so last term last year i was having problems standing up cuz my tailbone was so incredibly sore i couldnt describe it. my dad told me to do stretches thinking it was a muscle, but i knew damn well it wasnt a muscle. my mum took me to the doctors office cuz my dad refused and i ended up needing an xray for it, and when i went back to the doctors office it turned out to be the bone at the very end of my tailbone. so now i need to sit on a special gel pillow and its so uncomfy cuz it raisese and makes me unable to fit in the science lab chairs cuz it takes up so much room and teachers are odd abt it. and i want there to be a way for that to be fixed better (without an operation). so. yea.

doubt im gonna get past the goal but here goes nothing :3

edit: ok fuck. uh. looks like i have to rearrange the order cuz im already starting to do the 2k goal. uh.

#not sure what to tag this #but yea. #good luck guys

[bugflies00]

hold hands, everyone. one last time.

#wilbur soot #tommyinnit #dream smp #mcyt #crimeboys #wilbur soot fanart #tommyinnit fanart #dream smp fanart #mcyt fanart #crimeboys fanart #c!wilbur #c!tommy #c!crimeboys #alex.arts.jpg #god. im not ready #i SPEEDRAN this while looping eight by sleeping at last. this gives you an idea of where my emotional state is at #GOD please click on it tumblr killed the quality #but yea. #god i love those stupid guys <33 not ready for it to end #since this is getting traction for anyone seeing this later this was posted like an hour before the stream. like Hold hands while waiting

[yume-fanfare]

made refs and also a ra*bitsgirl because i like ra*bits

#told myself id do 2wink later and not much else but then shav reminded me abt those eichi rei Ps #so i of course need to draw the toxic yuri #some of the accessories r made up merch and some arent #enstars #ensemble stars #this is kinda silly bcs i designed the first two thinking more abt drawing yuri than abt designing girls #but yea. #i think bracelet with charms like that is ra*bitscore #also the jacket is supposed to be knitted maybe i should've written that #anyways. girls. goodnight #art tag #enstarrie yuri #←thats the tag

[engagemythrusters]

au where Kanan disappeared with Ezra and Thrawn and so Ezra had 9 years with Kanan to just learn the force and wish for a way home to their family

#no empire after him—great for his learning!!! #mussing the rest of his family—horrible for his learning!!! #but yea. #Kanan is there and they both connect deeply with the force #father son bonding to extremes. camping but with no end. #kanan jarrus #ezra bridger #star wars: rebels #star wars: ahsoka

[mad-hare]

most important wtnv episodes (to me)

13- a story about you.

19a/b - the sandstorm

34 - a beautiful dream

42- numbers

92- if he had lived

147 - the protester

#im not caught up yet #but yea.

[poppy-metal]

i lost the idgaf war against snow

#poppy speaks #i dont even think hes redeemable hes fully evil like i have alot of thoughts about it and him as a character in general #but yea. #its the movies fault bc why did they cast him like that #“you trying to kill me lucy gray??” why did that hit #ooohhhhh. evil bad man snow n his possessive tendencies and his need to be come out on top. oh oh oh.

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Ok so uh just to clear up my tags from yesterday bc i overthink everything & don't want ppl to get the wrong idea fjhdhg; when i say "liking/hating things the wrong way" i mostly mean having bigoted reasons for opinions or being a dick about them or being weirdly performative with/invested in fictional activism (and those same ppl tend to be the ones who make dragon age opinions a morality race smh).

And overall of course everyone is entitled to simply Not Like a character! And there is lots of valid criticism that i might even agree with! But i am also entitled to blocking ppl who are being overly negative about them; not because you're not allowed to do that or because you're wrong, but bc i like to curate my fandom experience and not going insane bc of constant discourse. Highly recommend doing that btw; blacklists are there for a reason and your mental health is important✌

#lay rambles #examples: if you do not jive with sera thats valid! if you 'defend' you not liking her by being abelist thats not valid! #if you love anders thats valid! if you tell people they are morally reprehensible if they dont like him that is not valid! #if you dont like the qunari bc theyre written badly thats valid! if you dont like them for racist reasons youre not valid! #simple as that <3 #ok i lied it is not simple as that there is ofc always nuance to everything #and there are some no-gos or side eyes from me that are way more subjective #and this goes both ways ofc!! you are absolutely entitled to block or unfollow me for any reason #(tho if i did sth that seriously upset you i'd appreciate letting me know so that i can learn & avoid it in the future) #but yea. #idk where exactly im going with this bc truth be told i am probably preaching to the choir here xD #bc again i do take care to curate my space and also ppl w similar tastes are gonna flock together #so. #im glad to have found such a nice corner in the fandom :)

[hauntedwoman]

i miss my best friend so much it hurts to think about it and i fucking hate him for leaving me out of nowhere

#he just texted me one day saying he couldnt talk to me anymore but he couldnt even tell me why #'and that was almost three months ago #and i dont rly think abt it that much bc its so painful to realize that my life is so empty and im so alone #but yea. #he probably knew it was my bday today too what a fucking coward

[galactic-drops]

Has anyone done a Willy Wonka crossover with Sun and Moon?

I just think they could pull off the trickster with very clear rules that if you don't follow well you had it coming you shoulda listed!

#look i know everyone is busy with the new game #but i dont have a vr yet #But i did get to see Wonka #and my theater kid heart is not immune to obsessing over it #also sun or moon signing the “noodle-dee-dee noodle-dee-dum we're having oodles and oodles of fun” #im just a little feral okay #if it weren’t for my determination to get enough cash for a vr rn id animate it #but yea. #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf moon #fnaf sun #moondrop #sundrop

[simmyfrobby]

How are you doing there buddy

I'm not going to lie, I'm taking this A Lot Harder than I thought I would. The pens not making it to playoffs sucked, but that one I could see coming from a mile away. This came as quite a shock.

But still..

I've loved this season. I love this team. I love the leadership core and who they are as people and the values they stand for. I loved watching the team break records. I loved seeing how much they care about each other and how they celebrate each other's achievements.

I loved becoming a part of bruinsblr. Out of all the hockey fandoms I interact with on here, bruins fans have BY FAR been the kindest and most welcoming (and the least likely to tell me to go fuck myself in the tags of sad poetry posts).

I'm heartbroken for the team, I'm disappointed in how this ended, but My God if I'm not grateful that I won't have to watch players play through pain and injury any longer. I'm new here and this has been my first time watching playoff hockey and I can't say the reckless callous approach to player safety has been an easy thing for me to get used to.

I don't want to see players get hurt. I am uncomfortable reading some of the venom hockey fans post on social media, wishing harm on players etc etc. I'm glad I won't have to see much of that directed at My Little Guys anymore.

(I unfollowed A Lot of blogs last night for this specific reason. I'm not sorry.)

I wish it ended differently. I'm sad. I'm going to be spending today wallowing in it. But these feelings ultimately all stem from the love I have for this team. I'm so very grateful and so very heartbroken.

#im also functioning on 3hrs of sleep so.. #but yea. #thanks for asking i guess #💛 #boston bruins #it speaks

[petewentzisblack1312]

hard agree on the merch hot take. idc if they're my favorite band in the entire world; I like their music, not them. I don't know them!! so I'm never rlly inclined to wear or buy merch that has faces; they're just some guys.

tangentially, (& I don't want this to come off rude to anyone, b/c ik I'm in the minority w/ this opinion) but my lack of focus on band members is one of the reasons I've avoided bandom spaces until recently; I like the music, but the band members are just People to me. like, sure, they seem cool, but I've never rlly understood why I need to be paying attention to them outside of an artistic lens. idk just in general fans/merch/everything puts too much focus on the People & it weirds me out a little.

yeah i do relate to that. like, not exactly, i very obviously care about the people, and specifically with fall out boy i am genuinely endeared by their friendship with each other, but ultimately i care about them insofar as they are the minds and hearts behind the art that i like. i respect them, i look up to them, i think theyre extremely skilled, but like... for example in interviews the thing i care most about is not talk about their relationship to each other or anything like that, though i do like that. its questions about the music. what ideas were they exploring, what were they thinking when writing different songs, what was the goal, what was left on the cutting room floor, what was the process. i want to know as much about the art as possible. i am interested in them as people because it tells me more about the art. i am not interested in the art because it tells me more about them as people. does that make sense?

i do understand you though. i mean a large part of my presence in this community is music analysis and reading fobs work through a black lens. i dont seriously speculate on their lives. dont like to, dont want to. i notoriously do not like rpf and part of that is like, a fundamental distaste for it generally, though i understand that at the end of the day its the same thing as any fantasy, just on a community scale, but part of it is that i just dont come here for the members of fall out boy. i came for the music, i stay for the music, the guys being interesting and having a genuine friendship with each other is a really nice bonus, but. i like their music and music making ability and insight on music making. thats what i like about them. their music.

#dils declares #like i read joes memoir because i think joes a talented guy and i wanted some insight into that #my favourite chapter is the one dedicated to his love of the guitar as an instrument. #am i making sense #i could say more. i feel like theres no way to say everything i want to say on this without writing a long rambly circumlocutionist screed #but yea.

[tohokuu]

rant -

@nkogneatho

some guy used me to cheat on his girlfriend, except he told me they weren’t together and that he was single.

we sent each other nudes (which was an obvious mistake)

i still felt a little bit guilty abt it so i told my friend. my friend is friends with the girlfriend. i’ve never met the girlfriend tho- like we’ve never talked or anything

my friend told me that i should go and be honest and tell her what happened bc him and his girl never broke up… they were together the whole time …

see i haven’t talked to this guy either in like a few months and we don’t have social media or see each other so idk what’s going on w his life yk

i told his girlfriend everything and she didn’t believe me … she told me she knows him and that she doesn’t know me at all and that she would never believe me over his word. i barely had proof bc we never saved the conversation and he unadded me just a day later … i didn’t care tm and i unadded him as well and the chat got deleted so i can’t even pull anything up

she refused to believe me. called me a liar and a weirdo and she said that she’s heard rumors about me and how “i enjoy ruining people’s relationships for fun” and i was so shocked. this isn’t highschool LMFAO. why are we doing this…

she was so so fucking rude to me, guys. she said “you’re giving up because no one believes your lies and how you tried to ruin a relationship” and also said “enjoy being friendly with guys and trying to fill up the empty ass hole in you” “fix yourself” … i just took a lot of disrespect and i gave up trying to explain. i told her “here’s what happened. take it or leave it”

i provided her everything that she asked for except i had no texts between the guy and me

like i’m genuinely so blown.

if a girl told me this, i’d leave my man so quick.

he literally has a chokehold on her and refuses to believe what anyone else says. thing is- he has his friend helping him and i have a friend tryna help me too but she’s not believe us no matter what

the friend also told me who it was that was spreading the rumor about me being a homewrecker and it’s someone i’ve known for 14 years … that’s so :/

this is my bestfriend. i see her in class every day.

idk if it’s her and i’m not gonna jump to conclusions too fast but i genuinely hope this isn’t her bc if it is, idek what to do anymore

-

then another one of my friends got mad at me bc i said i didn’t want to pick up 6 ppl from their houses and waste gas… she got so mad and disrespected me so badly and i still said sorry so many fucking times.

then after, i texted her today and told her i didn’t like the VERY passive aggressive way she spoke to me and instead she wrote paragraphs basically just gaslighting me and i’m like… ☠️

like it isn’t working, you’re not gaslighting me. you look stupid rn trying

that sucked as well and then i blocked her ass bc no

-

the third thing is that i had a fallout with a friend and i ended up talking a lot of shit about the things they did that bothered me and stuff but we ended up becoming friends again and yk… she’s honestly so sweet and so caring and i felt horrible for what i did. i texted her today and told her everything and held up responsibility for it but she hasn’t answered. i think she looks her phone

#but yea. #that was it #cried 4 times today #prayed to Allah and hoped that God exposes that guy in front of his girlfriend

[cosmik-homo]

Ok girlies let's go what's your vibe for the waltz. I need a classical music playlist for these two I can't

#a court of fey and flowers #acofaf spoilers #dimension 20 spoilers #d20 spoilers #ruehob #or for the fancy amongst u #battlemaster of ceremonies #i guess. I've been seeing that. too many words 4 me. #but yea. #ME? using this moment of Great emotional ruin on my fragile psyche to fish for ethereal feeling waltz recs? ALWAYS. OF COURSE

[akinachiri]

so. what's dancerail :3?

oh i love introducing people to dancerail. ok so dancerail is a rhythm game. u have to use multiple fingers, and theres stuff like flick notes in every direction, speed up and speed down, disappearing notes, and more. it is perhaps the most INSANE game ever. and i play it bc. why not i guess. i dont recommend that anyone plays it i do not wish this hell upon others.

#ask #vanitas tag #gaming tag #ill post a recording i did of a beatmap i played #if tumblr will let me #but yea. #its so insane but im also insane so shrug #/leo

[135-film]

my normal recurring dreams (nightmares really but i digress) havent shown their face in a bit, but now im getting new ones and its so strange. theyre still too new for me to call them recurring but theyve happened Twice now and its WEIRD.

the one i got for a 2nd time last night was about a roblox horror game. i cannot remember what its called (its something like "dont look up" or smthn. theres 3 words and its "scary" ykwim.) but every time i try to play with friends we ALL get separated and then i end up finding random ppl who are also lost and alone.

the game isnt rlly like, a puzzle game but its the only way i can describe how it functions & the level design in my brain.

every time towards the end of the dream theres this scary girl and i wake up pretty much as she gets right in my face

#dook dook #i think its a manifestation of like... #idk. #some hallucination/fear i had as a kid #cus i used to imagine alma from F.E.A.R. chasing me and it scared the shit out of m #i was probably like 8-9 #but yea. #its awesome

[bybdolan]

just wrote a really fun slightly sad slightly horny paragraph on a painting of st. s*bastian

#don't want certain ppl to see this post so censoring #but yea. #'she wonders if arrows and n**dles are all that different. something enters you and all of sudden you are holy.' #the lgbt+ section of his wikipedia article was mhhh good