#didn’t we almost etc

[peachcitt]

actually if goncharov were real it would never live up to the standards the insane tumblrinas have built it up to be. there is a triangle of homoeroticism, political commentary, and inevitably tragic in which any live, real adaptation would only conceivably be able to achieve two of to their fullest extent. added on to the fact that this is a film that supposedly is filmed and takes place in the seventies makes the possibility of it truly containing all aspects of what we have made it out to be even more far fetched. however, tumblr has been able to spin gold on far more real and disappointing media than goncharov through its analyses of media such as supernatural, sherlock, and a secret third piece of media that the subsequent creation and analyses of the ‘greatest mafia movie of all time’ goncharov is simply a natural step that tumblr as an ecosystem is willing to take. in this essay i will,

#goncharov #unreality #peach stuff #goncharov 1973 #someone accused me of being an english major (true) (god forbid women do anything) so this is also the natural step to take i suppose #anyway i do think i have a point in that we’re all already so used to performing in depth media analysis on media that simply. is bad. that #creating media from almost literally nothing and performing media analysis on it is just . i mean how can anyone be surprised #also before anyone says anything about it i didn’t mention doctor who in my list of bad media because well ive actually never seen #any episode in its entirety and i do know (as an english major) that science fiction is a fantastic way to deliver political commentary #ive also heard that the most recent season has been doing important work (at least from a meta standpoint) in gender politics #sherlock is. well. other iterations of sherlock holmes have certainly been better. and we all know supernatural is bad #i only listen ‘a secret third thing’ because traditionally it’s good to list three things to cite in your thesis. oldest trick etc #and anyway. that’s all my disclaimers. expect the essay never because im already overworked and underpaid<3

[weepingnightmarenaruto]

Honestly this fandom really struggles with portraying Sasuke in a romantic relationship in a way that is true to his canon characterisation.

#this goes for fanfic fanart text posts etc #and like it’s okay if it’s acknowledged #but I’ve just seen so much sns and ss fanart #where it’s like #sasuke would not fucking say or do that #it’s one of the reasons I’m not the biggest fan of Sasuke shipping #and you can see this with other ships and characters too #but it’s not as widespread #I think the reasons for this #is that sasuke (in canon) didn’t really have a healthy and loving relationship with anyone other than his mother #and because of his emotional state he treated almost everyone who cared for him badly #and the fandom because of that don’t really know how to portray him in a ‘normal’ romantic relationship #because we have never seen him in one #or have scenes were he is like intimate or loving #or just friendly #naruto #sasuke #sasuke uchiha #sasusaku #sasunaru #sasuhina #sasukarin #etc #mine

[wantbytaemin]

lost my voice but got so much love in my heart i wonder how it doesn’t make me float out to space like a helium balloon

#my girlies surprised me by dressing in ana fashion aka black leather very fancy dress up etc #and they all fawned over me they are so cuteeee and the bar was incredible like everything abt it was so so good we had so much fun #we were there for almost 6 hrs!! #they got me a bigass bottle of my fav perfume and a bunch of my fav chocolates in lieu of a card bc ‘she throws them away’ JCKSJDK #very scandalously but i do and they know me so well 🥺 my GIRLS #btw we were just at the bar the entire time we didn’t even make it to the club bc bar was so fawking FUN #my throat is literally killing me though & ive got a whole other celebration incoming tomorrow AND on Sunday im screaming. #i love it sosososoososooo much though perfect start to the bday weekend 🥹💖💖💖💖💖💖

[drowninginthoughts27]

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#there’s this girl I’m friends with #cause she’s friends with my irl bsf #and I’ve known her since high school #and we are about equal academically #but she went to private high school when I went to public #and was always like try’s to one up me with academics etc. #and would always poke fun at my attendance records cause of my disability #but when I got into the college that I did #despite almost not graduating highschool #she’s gets super defensive cause it’s a school she didn’t get into #and she had everything going for her #saying that I only got in cause they pittied me #or cause someone pulled some strings #but she is actually getting on my nerves #cause she has so much drama with everyone #and always talks bad abt people #and has like actually started full on body shaming people #and I’m istg I’m on my last straw here #cause she also like is always comparing my relationships to her and her bf who have been together since middle school #and it’s just so go damn frustrating omg #there’s legit so much I could say abt this #but I’m not gonna #I just needed a void to scream into #ignore this

[seilon]

got another job interview tomorrow. pray 4 me

#it was originally for a busser or server job at a cocktail bar in a luxury hotel but the manager on the phone seemed like she wanted to #interview me for the position of host so. yeah #I’m a little intimidated by that role because I am not the most social person on earth to say the least but. I may be able to get used to it #and I will admit. I am kind of motivated by the pay and tips from being a host. cause holy hell it’s 18 bucks an hour plus tips #and that’s plus tips at a 4 star hotel. where the menu is pretty pricy and the people coming there Well Off. #I didn’t really consider that before but hhhhhhh……………that sure is enticing #hoo boy but anyway. a little nervous about this interview cause I’ve never done a host or server job before #but my conversation with the manager over the phone seemed to go pretty well i think so hey #kibumblabs #oh yeah I also cut my hair short last minute and i can’t tell if that was a horrible idea or not yet #it’s not nearly as finished as I’d want it to be but. here we are I guess #I havent legit cut my own hair (let alone this Much of it) in like. a couple years now I think #I think it looks fine but I’m just hoping I don’t regret it #I know it’ll grow out again eventually but idk #I did this kinda impulsively because of the job interview tomorrow. like I was kinda worried for such a nice place they’d be a little #picky with their appearance preferences and like. I didn’t want it to look like my hair was overgrown and unstyled like it was + most of #the bleached parts are cut off now so it looks a little more sophisticated I guess #but also I’ve been getting a little dysphoric lately because I haven’t been passing despite being almost 2 years on t and I think my hair #being longish wasn’t helping #now you can see my jawline and the haircut is more traditionally masculine and etc so. praying I am not called ma’am or anything at the #store or whatever anymore.

[majorshatterandhare]

I started a piece of art today which is based on some plant species* that I think would be good to colonize Tim in @gunpowder-tim’s headcanon of the Persephone Tim headcanon; so it’s art based on a headcanon of a headcanon of a headcanon 😅 [sweat simle emoji].

It’s gonna take a long time I think, but I am planning on posting it here even though it’s just gonna be plants and no Tim (because I am much better at drawing these little doodle plants than drawing people).

*so the art is basically of real species we have on Earth, but I maintain that they wouldn’t have the same plants on the City, so in my brain his plants are just similar to these ones.

#i don’t know if i should main tag this. thats always hard for me to tell #persephone tim #i am taking a break now because for some reason it took me almost 4 hours to paint some ghost pipe. #i am researching more species too. im looking at a lot of liverworts. but they are ‘obscure’ enougb thats its not always easy to find if- #they are parasitic or not. i know *some* species of liverwort are. and depending on how im able to draw them i might include non-parasitic- #species because i need the space filled a particular way #im also tired because i stayed up until after 6 am and then didn’t take my sleep meds (because it was 6 am) #oh there’s also gonns be some mushrooms included #ive explained it before but basically the fungus being an intermediary is a thing we see in real life (although not between plants and- #animals afaik) and it makes sense because fungi are closer related to animals than to plants. #now i suppose thats not necessarily true on the City. because we dont know if they are homo sapiens or not (this would make possible- #implications for the other life on the plant). however for now I have no hcs regarding that. its easiest to go with their life works the- #same as ours. but their species are different if for no other reason because of evolution (over time) #well thats whats easiest and most interesting and fun *to me* which i realize is because i am a biologist and happen to also crave as much- #scientific accuracy as possible. but thats not everyones cup of tea. not everyone wants to spend hours searching about different parasitic- #plants to choose one for this and learn about how they interact and what not. probably *most* people wouldnt think this hard about it. #and that’s okay too. if you like to make up your own plants whole cloth and not worry about it aligning with realy world biology. thats- #okay too. do what you like. #(unless you are a tv/movie/book/etc which is supposed to be set in our world on our earth. YOU CANT MAKE APE/WORM HYBRIDS! for crissakes) #hope its okay i tagged you gunpowder-tim #also sorry to everyone for how much i ramble in the tags. i have adhd and keeping 1 try of though is nigh on impossible #like this: nigh means near. so nigh on impossible is nearly impossible. but one way of defining nigh is approaching. then its approaching- #impossible. which makes me think of math. ‘as x approaches infinity;’ ‘as y approaches impossible’ #there have a little language and math too with your dose of spec bio explanation #(the ape/worm thing is a reference to an early x-files episode that i have complained about in tags before)

[pepprs]

ok. it’s over. and i am alone in the world 🤑🤸🏻‍♀️

#purrs #despair literal despair. it was actually a very good session too like maybe the best one we ever had probably bc he was on his best #behavior 🙄 we talked about redacted like the whole time and barely about me leaving so i didn’t have an opportunity to tell him he sucks or #to not tell him he sucks and now i feel like an idiot for doing this bc he didn’t suck in that session just now. and i want to cry and cry #bc of how good that was but yet how mad i was a few hours ago and how now i just cut myself off from the counseling place ive been going to #for like 5 years and i actually do not want to take a break from counseling i NEED to be in therapy so genuinely and i don’t know where to g #go that i can afford and that will be local etc etc. and now im alone and i cut myself off from the place and the years of notes and #analysis they have on me. i almost wish it had gone badly so that i wouldn’t feel so regretful rn bc oh my god how am i gonna go without #counseling like….. AUGH. iwshould email him and ask for a referral maybe. does anyone know if that’s ok to do <- could so easily google it #im so sad. like so so so sad. i knew when i stopped being angry i’d feel sad and hurt and like. omgggggg. this is terrible. what have i done

[carterashofficial]

Premium Loaf for the Premium Dog

#so funny story about this canned dog food #it comes in like 5 different flavors and they also have a ‘chunks in gravy’ variety #they also have varieties for puppies and elder dogs and coat care and arthritis etc… ANYWAY #so long long ago like 17 years ago when I was but an annoying elementary-school aged child #my father took me grocery shopping for the dogs and like usual I was allowed to pick out a couple different canned food choices #I insisted the pups get variety b/c who’d want to eat the same thing over and over? #Also my dog Domino was Finicky over food and if we didn’t change it up he would stare at it until shredded cheese materialized in it #anyway so 10yo Carter grabs ‘Red Herring in Gravy’ option for elderly dogs #Domino was also 10 b/c that is elderly for Dalmatian (he lived until almost 14 b/c like. stubborn bastard) #so this food STANK to high hell and my mother hated it #to the point where we aren’t allowed to buy any fish dog food anymore #Domino fuckin loved it #and I think Teddy would too

[rowanhoney]

Ok I also explored where my bisa and my tío and my cousins lived. I’ve never looked at a map or had their addresses but I do have a good sense of direction and a freaky memory for layouts and I think I found everyone’s homes and you can bet I’ve been absolutely weeping about every single one

#tío Juan turned his irrigation pool into a swimming pool. and you can tell cos it’s higher up and a funny shape #and he had a small amount of land for his goats and chickens etc #and a bigggg pine tree #and the garage was under the balcony #anyway I found that. I just clicked the local castle and searched the surroundings for land that matched #it’s definitely 100% his home #and my cousin lived very very close I remember the road to it doesn’t seem like a real road and you have to go through a tiny underpass #but he renovated a very old water mill. with no water. and it also has a lot of land #Also for his goats and pigs and dogs and cats #and cos it’s a unique building I found it easily #my other cousin was harder to find. I didn’t go there as often. they came to us more or met us at another house #but I remember it was higher up and at the end of a path #and there was a gate and some land to the left #I THINK I found it. almost everything matches up but the outside of the building looks a little different hmmmm #also I found my bisa’s flat. but it’s been the longest since we were there #cos she sold it and moved in with us when she got old #and all those flats near the beach look the same #but this one seems to have a hollow between buildings and there’s a square a little further up and I’m pretty sure that’s it #anyway I’m. im feeling better #being with my Spanish family is the only time I’ve ever ever felt loved #THEYRE all saved to my favourites now #Juan died a long while ago but my cousin Pablo lives there now #and he works the land and has a produce business #I need to go back I really do #Also . my snooping skills are incredible to figure this all out. obviously #same with finding my abuelas village #it’s so small it’s unmarked i just had to keep looking for groups of buildings until I found the right one #then I checked with her and I was right #my old town ik as well as where I live now so that was fine

[abigail]

What do you do for a living?

I currently work at a vintage clothing store :-) I prep the clothes to go on the shop floor (like steam them of creases and price them etc), work the tills, keep the shop tidy and whatnot but then I also do a bunch of stuff for the shops social media like take/be in photos and tiktoks (yuck),,,, it’s really nice, but I often feel like my coworkers would rather they had hired someone else lol

#I’ve worked there for almost a year and it’s been…. hmm…. mixed feelings .. #job itself is great I love it !! but I don’t think my manager is uhh… keen on how my anxiety and mental health etc can affect me at work.. #like for the longest time I didn’t really open up because I was just so anxious about a new job at a cool store and they misunderstood that #as me not wanting to be there .. 😐 #like my manager actually asked me once if I still wanted the job b/c I was so quiet like girl 😭 I have anxiety #we actually talk and stuff now like it’s better #but so many times I just feel like I’m a bother for so many other reasons but yeah I won’t go into it lol #i

[awek-s-archived]

damn r we doing full confessions.. the first mutual i dated was 7y older than me and i was 19 (yes i know…..) but she hung out a lot with her ex irl and also super emotionally immature and basically unofficially-officially broke up with me by ghosting me for two weeks and saying she ‘assumed’ i wanted nothing more to do w her bc my replies were limited because i was distant (in uni and homeless lol 😭). the second mutual was mostly casual and included a lot of telling me they felt lied to upon finding out i was trans then saying they ‘have dated trans guys before tho so it’s ok’. then the third one was super sweet and had way more baggage than me and was super sweet but made a lot of decisions on my behalf and ultimately didn’t really respect my personal space and we went on a break for a few months and when we got back together he didn’t like that i didn’t trust him right off the bat so we broke it off permanently. aweks love life lore <3

#I was in love w the first and last one and it really broke me when we ended things tho 😭 like real bad lmaodjsnsndn #aweks.txt #there was almost a fourth tbh we were kinda unofficial for about a year until last year #but i distanced myself from them for a bit bc I felt. a bit used ? #and then they kinda started hinting towards how we were just friends despite saying they love me etc so I felt rly led on and it wasn’t #a great experience . they broke it off w me ultimately . didn’t rly get closure lol

[tameranimals]

did you guys get your daily dosage of tears… no? tags:

#when I went to the other lives concert it was the first time I was attending a concert alone so I was nervous and got there early & stood #there by myself in a corner then saw three girls sitting on the ground so I asked them if I could sit w them and met them all they were #v lovely but one of them stayed after the show to meet the band w me and talked to jesse said she liked their music etc etc #after her it was my turn and I didn’t even plan what I would say and didn’t expect to be that honest w him but I told him we wait was my #favorite song and that I could relate to it -it’s about a loved one’s death- made that mf cry I almost cried to then headed to the subway w #the girl and we talked and she talked to me in a much different tone there was sorrow in her eyes looked at me so tenderly told me not to #worry abt some stuff and when I went home and checked her ig page I saw that the week we were in was her exactly a year after her fathers #death and they seemed pretty close #and everything she said to me made sense why she looked at me like that when I was talking to Jesse made sense it all made sense #life is so messy and sweet #the amount of grammar mistakes hereeee sorry my head is spinning

[swiss-army-fangirl]

can’t stop thinking about the perfume i bought today. humans are so funny sometimes…

#like two weeks ago i bought this candle that was scented vanilla cashmere #and it reminded me of a perfume my mom used to wear #that if we were going somewhere ‘fancy’ i would ALWAYS ask her if i could spray it on #it’s a perfume that hasn’t been made since like. 2010 #anyways i found myself in ulta today looking for a DIFFERENT perfume (that they didn’t have) and i ended up finding the ‘philosophy’ stuff #which is a good brand that’s p inexpensive as far as fragrance goes #and i find one called ‘warm cashmere’ that. on GOD. smells almost exactly like i remember my mom’s perfume #like to the point i almost tear up as the manager’s stocking shit next to me #anyways. i think it’s funny how much of me is ‘my mom but to the left /pos’ #we are amalgams of the people around us etc etc #been smelling my wrist for hours this scent has so much comfort in it……….. #tori talks

[spacelesscowboy]

i love. i love feeling completely disconnected from my friends.

#emyrs.txt #vent tw #I KNOW. IM NOT A BURDEN TO THEM BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. HM. UNLESS 👀👀 #IDKKKK I JUST HAVE ALWAYS FELT LIKE IM THE ONE REACHING OUT. ALWAYS. IM ALWAYS THE ONE REACHING OUT. ITS MAKING ME INSANE. #i always feel like i’m the one who is desperate to keep a relationship going. like. i’m the only one who cares about it in the first place #and sometimes when i hang out w my friends / talk to them / etc. i don’t feel like that anymore bc i feel like they care about us being #friends but in the in-between of us talking/hanging out i feel like i am untethered and just. floating around. waiting for them 2 want to #talk to me. (hint: they almost never do.) #and it’s like. do i even exist to u outside of the times when we hang out. #bc i’m constantly every day thinking about my friends. like legit i am doing anything and i go. hm. what if i made my friend soemthing. #like. i debated making traditional korean clothes using traditional korean methods for my friend bc i’m literally insane and i want them to #know i cherish him and love him so much and think about them all the time and as a thank u for putting up w me etc etc. like. #that’s literally insane who does that. lol. NANDMFMF #idk. #i kinda lost my point here but to reiterate what i was saying before. #i always feel like i’m the one reaching out. and i understand that they’re sometimes busy or they forget to answer or something comes up i #get that !! #i just hate that months would go by w/o us talking if i didn’t send something every few days #and also i hate that they only respond w a keysmash or a few words like bestie !! #i am TRYING to start a conversation w u i am not just sending this for shits and giggles !! #me sending dumb shit is me trying 2 start a conversation w u !!!!!!!!! u r driving me insane !!!!!!!!!!! /lh #i wish. i was not mentally ill. NSNDNFNFM #also. i wish i could be normal about the relationships i have with other people and not need constant reassurance from everyone all the time #i’ve tried to tone it down a bit + as well as the self hatred bc it gets old and boring and annoying QUICKLY and i dont wanna push my #friends away even further but sometimes it’s all i can feel and it truly does feel like. #i’m just alone. floating along in space. untethered. #like. my life is inconsequential and no one would even really care if i just. disappeared. #or something. idk. #it’s 5 am and i haven’t gone to sleep yet it might be the sleep deprivation talking lmfao.

[tariah23]

Also, those birds in the wall are so loud tonight lol.

#whoever else moves into this house after us is gonna be pissed #our landlord is ass and acted like it wasn’t a big deal when we first told them about this issue #I remember even showing her and the handyman she always sends out who’s just some guy she pays to do work whenever we call because she’s too #cheap to call actual professionals ☠️………….. then gets mad when she has to send the handyman out to the house multiple times just because he #didn’t know what he was doing and she wasted her money instead of ya know sending out a professional what a Buffoon #anyway I showed them the hole and when we brought it up again she acted like we never told her lmfao #now the birds are loud as shit and no one is gonna want to move into this house like that #there’s still huge opening outside of our house where the birds can fly into lmfao #they were too lazy to even patch the hole up and she sent the handyman to clear out the bird mite infestation (she gave him the wrong shit #that you use for like ants and stuff ☠️… so of course the mites were never Removed #) #rambling #they were also supposed to paint our kitchen last summer but ghosted us… #then the landlord lied about sending the handyman out to paint and said that he was knocking on our door for 15 minutes which was obviously #a lie because the handyman is a chill dude and he’s usually ready to leave after knocking once and as soon as we open the door he’s always #like ‘I was about to leave! I thought y’all was sleep-‘ even know this negro would ring the bell like once and we’d open the door almost #immediately lmfao like so I knew the landlord was lying about him standing outside our house knocking for 15 min like he’d be ready to leave #in 20 seconds ☠️ #then I remember my mom mentioning her taking her time trying to repair stuff around the house etc and the landlord pulled a “’I have a #feeling you don’t think that I’m doing my best 🥺… I gave you your security back-‘ #and that sounded like a threat to me like do you want us to move lol? very weird just because my mom was telling her that she basically #doesn’t do her job in a nice way #she was probably still mad that she had to give me some money as payback because of the mites getting into my hair that I had just gotten #done #because it was their fault that the mites problem even got to the point that it did lol like I don’t care Idk if you’re upset #should’ve fixed the hole when we first told you about it #we should report her to the city after we move tbh fuck landlords #this was the first house that I’d ever lived in and it’s a decent size too but my fam and I are tired of this place like our landlord sucks #and she gets an attitude whenever we call them about a problem in the house like isn’t it your job to repair shit in the first place or #should we call the city on you 😐? I have a feeling that she wouldn’t like that lol

[grandmofftarkinsuggestions]

idk if i’d like to see a married wilhuff tarkin as a billion times divorced, mysterious black widower who probably killed all his late spouses himself, or just like. in happy gay love and marriage with any of his coworkers, really, but especially either krennic or vader.

#watched a spider ensnare a beetle victim the other day and thought of him 💕 #made me really think about whether or not he’s been in any marriages of convenience. given his title status #and family history probably yes. he’s a politician and his family basically rules over their home planet like what #are the chances they didn’t try to get him to enter at least one or two marriages of convenience. #and i was kinda thinking about how he’d follow through with that. would he suffer through it or file for divorce as soon #as unsuspiciously possible or get that bitch axed. #and it made me think about him entering a lavender marriage to save his rep or whatever. #a sixty some seemingly eternal bachelorhood is kinda sus #so maybe he marries to smash some rumors even if they are true. #i know he was married in legends but idk if he seems like the marrying kind lol #also like? before anyone says anything bi people enter lavender marriages all the time. his sexuality is unconfirmed etc #what i’m saying is that his marriage to thalassa being a lavender marriage and his relationship to daala being genuine #could coexist canonically. #anyway. i almost find him as a perpetual bachelor more funny lmao #anyway. he married me actually and we are in love 💕💕💕 #sw #wilhuff tarkin #arachnophobia tw #just in case