#dieting tw

[hidefdoritos]

At lunch with friends listening to all the slender college kids compare bodies and try to lose weight, watching the overweight fortysomethings and the two seventy-year-olds ignore all of it, being the only college kid who's visibly fat, listening to the others bicker right in front of me, realizing once again that looking like me is their worst nightmare, sorrowing all at once over how much every single person in this room hates their body but I love every one of them so much.

Knowing that my weight came when my family experienced trauma, left (slightly) with self-imposed hateful restrictions, which led to self-harm and to further trauma and weight gain in 8th grade, left again when I had one good year, then skyrocketed in 11th grade when I was assaulted, then went back down with a physical labor job, then came back with the pandemic and college, then went down with an active summer, then came back when I destroyed my ankle, then continued upward with college and pneumonia and the head injury and bronchitis and processing trauma, and went back down when I was too burned out to eat, then went back up with an awful job, then plateaued, then I spent a semester healing my soul and it came with 15 pounds that I swear were worth it, then went back down with physical labor and a vow to fix my relationship with food, then came back with college. And I was back on a downward trend until getting the flu a couple weeks ago and my weight didn't change because my period started and last night I was just exhausted and out of sorts and I binged for the first time in months. Consumed like 2,000 calories of garbage in an hour.

I know I need to take a day of rest. I feel guilty that all the other kids are doing schoolwork while I'm off taking a nap. Actually I'm up here crying, but they don't need to know that.

I know that even when my weight goes down, my shoulders don't get smaller. My hips will still be broad no matter what I do. I wear women's size 12 shoes. Even if I starve 60 pounds off my body and shave my mustache and my legs and start tucking my shirts in and dressing pretty and wearing makeup and wearing push-up bras and curling my hair, they won't accept me. I'll just be a success story to them.

And I'll be another success story for other fat people to beat themselves with.

#fatphobia #weight loss tw #binge eating tw #diet tw #dieting tw #assault tw #trauma tw #self hatred #self harm tw #listen #i'm sorry everyone #I'm working on fixing my relationship with food #and on my relationship with myself. #Nobody but me knows my whole story. #Relapsing into an eating disorder doesn't mean the time was wasted #I now have months of experience being clean from that. #it hurts to watch people I love devalue and compare themselves #and to know how lowly they value me. #or how they're all holding themselves to higher standards #I've definitely done that #like 'oh no it's ok for this other person #it's pretty on them #I'm not allowed to look like that though' #which is just. pride. #and a double standard. #maybe they still like me? #or maybe I'm vastly delusional and all of them hate me for so many reasons. #my own parents have already had their weight loss success story. #when's it going to be my turn?

[annarexcouture]

#naomi campbell #the chic diet #ANNA REX COUTURE #AR LABS #vegan diet #dieting tw #protein bars #foodspo #thinspø #coquette food #weight watchers #waifspo #foodblr #veganblr

[silvershewolf247]

Chucky: I eat very normal meals, one egg white for breakfast, a protein bar for lunch, and half a lean chicken breast with a half a cup of brown rice for dinner.

Andy: Don't make me feel bad for you

#andy barclay #also has a shit diet #but at least he knows it #dieting tw #undereating tw #eating disorder tw #i dont know if this qualifies as one #but just in case #Almond Mom!Chucky #might become a tag

[piplupod]

vent abt being worried abt siblings re: parents dieting, i just dont want to shove it onto everyones dashes bc i remembered that happens when i post lol

i think one of the worst parts abt the parents being rly into dieting and """""healthy eating""""" is that i cannot help my siblings. i cannot tell them the parents are wrong. my siblings are going to struggle w hating themselves and thinking they have to be skinny (our family is stocky!!! we are not supposed to be super skinny!!!! our bodies are literally not shaped that way!!! our ancestors had to put on pounds of fat to survive through occasional periods of not having enough food!!!! we are literally not built to be skinny!!!) until they somehow realize that our parents are fucking abusive and awful, and that's... not looking like it's going to happen any time soon because they're still talking about how wonderful our parents are when we're alone, and if i express literally Anything that even vaguely goes against a parent's teachings then uh oh they have to go running to the 'rents to tell on me !!!!

despite the awful shit they've done to me and put me through, i still care about them and i dont want to see any of them struggle with an eating disorder the way i have. it's fucking crushing to have to keep my mouth shut and watch as they start showing signs of spiralling into an ED. i dont know what to do because I can't even help myself in this situation. we're all trapped in this fucked up web and I am really fucking struggling w it lately.

#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #ed tw #dieting tw

[cithaerons]

see, i always gain weight when i act “healthy” and lose weight when i act “unhealthy” and i know i can’t be alone in that. idk it just brings out the irony in society’s idea of healthy vs unhealthy. exercising (even just going for runs), eating actual meals with vegetables and protein instead of just pasta and crackers, sleeping well, etc…. like i always always gain weight.

#lowest weights are always correlated with maximum sedentary periods + high stress + living off cheez-its #weight loss tw #dieting tw #(this post doesn’t involve that i’m tagging to be safe)

[chadsuke]

for class today we had to read fake mini articles and write up fake comments on them. one of the fake mini articles was about a celebrity on a diet and i hesitated reaaaal long before i wrote my comment and my teacher is like 'oh just write smth everything will agree with!!!'

spoiler: she did NOT agree with me at ALL

#me: i think diets are p dangerous overall #her: really? i think not being on a diet is dangerous #me: yeah no im not having this convo rn lets just focus on the language part #gigi.txt #dieting tw #was NOT up for that. was not.

[97-liners]

@ anon

my bad for not having an ask guidelines on this blog so i’ll just say this once:

if you try to talk to me about minghao’s fatphobia you will get blocked. i don’t think people who aren’t chinese and in touch with mainland culture know how pervasive and harmful it is in china and how much worse it’s getting over time. what minghao said was bad and wrong. as a chinese woman i’ve personally been harmed by that culture for nearly my entire life.

but also i’m a recovering bulimic and anorexic and i’m not willing to discuss diet culture in detail because it stresses me out and triggers me lol, and i’m not willing to relapse over kpop discourse so if you try to talk to me about fatphobia, i’m gonna protect myself and not respond or publish anything.

#97.text #ed tw #dieting tw

[glassandmetalwings]

Just want to take a moment to vent about how much I hate those NOOM dieting ads so much. Like I detest diet culture in general but they are pathologizing normal and even joyful human traits

A 'food pusher'? You mean your grandmother who survived war/famine/poverty, who is expressing their love for you by making sure you don't suffer like they did?

'Wired to crave unique foods'? You mean the human desire for new and novel experiences? You mean wanting to have something special to commorate a special experience, like a vacation?

It's just...so fucked up. There is nothing healthy about rejecting love and joy. And yes, maybe there are some realistic circumstances or limitations to consider, but it should not be treated like a blanket concept-especially not in an ad. I don't care if the app does frame it in a more appropriate light- the message being expressed by the ads is harmful, and will be seen by more people than will actually download the app.

#wings does things #disordered eating tw #dieting tw #no I will not be accepting debates about this #if it bothers you block me and move on #I'm an anorexia survivor and I will not be silent about this #my Nana did NOT work her ass off as a prima fucking ballerina to support her parents and siblings for you to disrespect her like this #okay I'm done

[witch-without-gender]

Ok uhhh idk what they’re called but the blogs that encourage dieting, eating disorders, and unhealthy weight loss DNI please. I sometimes look at blogs that follow me and like, that shit makes it really difficult to deal with my anorexia and my current self image 😬

#like fr #I’ve only in the past few years gotten to a healthy weight #and I’ve been struggling to not give in to my anorexia on and off since #it’s been bad lately for a lot of reasons but yeah #anyway vent over lol #anorexia #anorexia tw #eating disorder #eating disorder tw #unhealthy habits #dieting #dieting tw

[annarexcouture]

#anna rex #ar labs #weight loss tw #dieting tw #get rexxxxxxxed #ar health & wellness

[pantslessoptimism-moved]

soph loves food so so much and while she can’t cook she is a major foodie…except around audition times. That’s when she gets restrictive because she knows if she doesn’t people *will* say something about her weight.

#{{&; headcanon}} #dieting tw

[keriarentikai]

Okay I guess I'm going to post my thoughts on weight here because it needs to get out and this seems like the safest/lowest-impact place? Like five million TWs for weight, dieting, etc.

I'm so so so uncomfortable with all the weight loss happening right now. I'm absolutely convinced that the worst thing I ever did for my weight was to try to lose it.

I always felt chubby growing up, although in retrospect obviously I wasn't, only in the eyes of my mother who is a size 4 and has pretty disordered eating. My first attempt at actually trying to lose weight for real was at about 19 when I was around 145 lbs (I'm 5'2"). Did online Weight Watchers. Had SlimFast for lunch etc. Never lost more than 15 lb and at the end of undergrad I was around 155/160.

I made two other pretty serious attempts in grad school with WW in person, lost maybe 15 lb both times, ended up at 190 lbs the year I was trying to finish my dissertation.

The only way I could get myself to work was to bribe myself with mochas so I decided that, for that year, I wasn't going to think about weight loss at all. I just ate whatever I wanted. End of the year, still 190. That was in 2012 - since then I've exercised on and off but I've just eaten whatever I wanted (which resulted in far fewer binging episodes and food hoarding) and I'm still consistently hovering around 190.

I think my body probably just wanted to be 145 to 160. I was never going to get below that. I feel like I wasted so much of my time and energy trying to change a fact that couldn't be changed, and all I did was lose that energy, have a bunch of misery over food, and gain 30 lb.

I wonder how much of the health issues associated with fatness are actually that we've all gained and lost at least 15-30 pounds at least four times.

Obviously my experience isn't everyone's experience, and my body is not your body. But I'm just so scared for any of my friends that start to talk about changing their eating, even just to lose that 10 lb. Or the idea that some drug is going to take 15 lb off with no effort. (Folks who have already been on this merry-go-round are exempted, they already know what's up, i'm not judging your choices.) What happens next?

#weight tw #dieting tw #keri forgets what tumblr is for

[piplupod]

whyyyyy do people think disordered eating is healthyyyyyyy i am going to explode myself soon i cannot live around these people any more my god

#i dont even want to say what all was said lol it's so fucked up #maybe I'll just go back to starving myself and becoming more underweight just to earn mothers approval (sarcasm) #actually u know what. even if i did that she'd probably get angry at me for it lmao she'd be pissed that I'd be losing weight when she isnt #I CANNOT TAKE MUCH MORE OF THIS IM HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME #THESE PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKING AWFUL #I WANT OUT OF HERE I REALLY DO #I dont know how to cope w this honestly #i keep trying to twist things to be tolerable but jesus fucking christ the ED is starting to rear its head again #theyre just so fucking mean and stupid and fatphobic and i have to spend so much time around them #its impossible to block out #i keep finding myself thinking i dont need to eat veggies bc ''theyre basically poison'' and im just ARRGHHH #GET OUT OF MY HEAD PLEASEEEE I DONT WANT TO BE THINKING LIKE THIS #idk how to cope w this bc i HAVE the science disproving them and I've spent time undoing fatphobia in my own brain #and my family just keeps setting back my progress bc it is impossible to block them out entirely #i want to crawl out of my skin and jump into a deep lake and never resurface #im so tired of this all and idk what to do. tearing my hair out a little bit #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #fatphobia tw #dieting tw #ed tw #ask to tag

[cithaerons]

i hate the diet industry so much like leaving aside the other major problems so much is scientifically unfounded and literally doesn’t work lol and if anything will do the exact opposite of what it claims. 

#dieting tw #food tw

[chekovsphaser]

The other day I told my grandmother that I was limiting my sugar intake bc of recent blood test results. (She had offered me a chocolate). Today she remarked that if I cut out all carbs I would lose weight faster.

I have no interest in losing weight. I did not at any point indicate interest in losing weight. I am cutting out excessive sugar because of a MEDICAL DIAGNOSIS not because I think it will make me skinnier. Everybody hears the word 'diet' and immediately thinks 'weight loss', huh?

#life of dan #dieting tw #i did go on a rant about it but it was a polite one #i just responded to the original statement with #i have no interest in losing weight #and she asked me why not #so the rant was asked for literally

[comradefroggy]

Unstoppable youtube ads making me see weight loss programs are evil. No, food fomo isn't a BAD THING WHY TF WOULD TRYING NEW AND INTERESTING FOOD BE SOMETHING TO DISCOURAGE?! Do they just hate people trying to have a little fun in their life???? For fucks sake

#dieting tw