#don't ask me to explain right now

[glimmerofsanity]

sleep token's are you really okay? sounding like zeppelin's thank you 😭😭😭😭😭

#why does this make me so emotional #but it might just be cause lz how I love them so #but I feel the st & lz similarities don't end there #don't ask me to explain right now #I am incapable of words #but I can feel it #sleep token #led zeppelin

[oxenfreeao3]

I think Vi is way too smart to not know she's intelligent but is also so self-deprecating that she believes that she's stupid.

#don't ask me to explain this thought right now #it came to me in the bathtub #and i am very sleepy #something something unreliable narrators and using other characters to reflect back their true natures idk #vi #vi arcane #arcane #arcane analysis #caitlyn #caitlyn kiramman #caitvi #violyn #piltoversfinest

[magentagalaxies]

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#i should've just gatekept scott thompson from my college bc the way my college is treating me right now is bullshit #like i don't even want to do the scott event anymore bc of how they're treating me but i kind of have to #and i know i should be grateful they're even letting me be one of the interviewers but i hate being a student so much #i hate how nobody respects my opinion or input or experience even tho i'm literally the reason scott's even doing this event #(and ESPECIALLY the reason he's willing to do it for free!!) #and it especially stings bc scott has never made me feel like my insights were worth less because i'm a student #like he's always been one of the few people who consistently treat me like we're equals even tho he doesn't have to #and the way my college is treating me. it's like they don't trust me to not be an annoying little kid #like they're just assuming scott doesn't respect me so they don't have to respect me either #i mean on the plus side i'm supposed to have another phone call with scott either today or tomorrow so i can probably explain the situation #like i don't want to make him feel negatively about my college i want him to have a good time #but this treatment is genuinely fucking with my self confidence #and also maybe i can harness scott's power to hear ''don't talk about this thing'' and immediately make the interview all about this thing #(except in this case it would be him treating me like an equal instead of a random student) #and there's a bunch of bullshit currently going on with the class i have right after the event #so even tho originally i was like ''awesome i have the perfect schedule to bring scott to all of my classes!!'' #i might just ask scott if he wants to skip class together and hang out. like i never promised that class anything #the only thing i *have* to do is the interview. the class we'd be skipping is already being like #''oh are you sure scott wants to visit the class i don't want to take him away from a better use of his time'' #and scott was genuinely excited to see what my classes were like!! even if y'all didn't treat him like a big celebrity!! #but y'know what i'm sure scott does have a better use of his time. and i do too. #i'm gonna do the interview event bc i have to (we're in too deep at this point) #and i might ask scott if he wants to talk to that freshman film class about the buddy cole doc #bc 1. they offered to pay scott for that (they can't legally pay me but that's why i made the joke about money laundering) #2. since it's about the doc it's the one class where i get to be treated like an actual person #but other than that. damn it i was excited to share this part of my life with scott but fuck that this part of my life sucks #i'm gonna have a good time with scott in boston and my college is only going to be as much a part of is as they have to be #because we ARE friends (scott said so!) and i AM a brilliant filmmaker (bruce said so!) and i DO have potential (bellini said so!) #even tho it is hard to internalize those things after how much yesterday fucked me up. but that's ok scott will call again soon

[valeffelees]

only bad thing about being in a fandom where one of the characters canonically has wings is the painful lack of classic wingfic. where is my everything's the same but people have bird wings watford au where one day baz notices simon hasn't been grooming his wings bc of an injury to his ribs so he sits on his bed and makes a whole fuss about how "i'm not doing this to be nice, snow, your wings are just a travesty to look at" and then proceeds to carefully and lovingly tidy his feathers in drawn out silence while they both pretend grooming someone else's wings isn't one of the most intimate things you can do for another person. will this heartbreak never end

#i have an old wingfic that never left the zero draft stage and it was suuuper fucking plotty #simon was still the chosen one in it but not in a weird sex magic kinda way like he was just home grown like that so no humdrum #so lucy is alive and he grew up with her and the mage (and they have a dog!) (simon named her ''little simon'' lmfao) #meanwhile baz isn't a vampire but natasha still died when he was five bc ok i don't know how to explain the lore behind this #bc it has to do with a skeevy blackmarket trade involving human wings like it was kinda dark ngl #but the long and short of it is that baz and tasha are kidnapped and tasha is killed keeping baz safe but baz's wings are damaged #pretty severely and so one of them never grows to full size and it leaves him flightless #n e way simon and baz don't get on bc the mage is still the mage and the old families are still the old families #but they are roommates as usual #and half-term their eighth year pitch manor is raided by blackmarket poachers and mordelia is kidnapped and the whole grimm family is #in shambles so baz goes right to simon about it and there's this reverse of the simon-showing-up-at-baz's-door scene #where baz shows up at simon's door a complete WRECK to ask for help getting his sister back #and simon is like. why are you asking ME for help? #and baz is like. bc you're the only one i know who can #and then they fucking steal one of the mage's cars and hit the road [so good right now by fall out boy starts playing] #and then it's just kind of a normal mission fic about them finding mordelia and saving her life and baz falls out a very high window #and simon catches him etc. #i love wingfics so much #sighs wistfully #i think i need to be alone w my gdocu for while #valen and the void

[martyrbat]

so many of you talk about the cruel adults in your childhood that negatively effected you and caused lifelong insecurity yet you're still perfectly fine with being that mean stranger to any kid that has the misfortune of existing around you and thats just really gross !!!

#like i get kids can be overwhelming for a various amount of reasons but its not going to kill you to treat children with basic human decency #adults can be just as overwhelming or annoying—if not more. yet if you talked to an another adult the same way you do to a kid #then ppl would fucking hate you and not want to be around you because youre not being cool and witty—youre just mean!!! #everyone has experienced the frustration of being a kid being mistreated by an adult. some more than others #rather its ignoring your bodily autonomy (from sa and assault to hugging you when you don't want to be touched to not letting you #make your own harmless choices like a haircut or whatever). everyone has been talked down to or had their opinion treated like its nothing #or that their thoughts or input doesn't matter. everyone has a childhood experience with a mean or judgemental adult #yet over and over ppl are fine just repeating that cycle of abuse and hatred #like youre a young adult and youre still getting treated like shit by older ones. but youre able to have a drink or you graduated or smthn #so now you feel like you earned that right to be judgemental & angry & mean to a group of people that didnt fucking do anything to you #anyways. this is because im sick and had to go to the store to get groceries and meds #so its a 20 minute walk to the nearest store in 108 degrees bc i dont have gas money and then in the store im ofc using a face mask #like im sweaty and feel disgusting and like shit but this kid was SO fucking excited about his spiderman toy and wanted to talk and #his mom said ‘i told you no one wants to hear about that crap leave her alone’ and like?? no fuck off let a kid be happy?? hes not fucking #doing anything wrong?? so we talked and he showed me the little tiy that lights up and asked if i saw the new spiderverse movie #and i told him i havent! so he asked why so i explained i have photosensitivity and what that means and why i cant see it #(‘even though i heard its super cool!’) and HE WAS SO SWEET... like immediately hid the toy because oh! flashing lights can hurt me! #and then immediately said dont worry because he'll tell me about it so its like i saw it instead! #and like. guys imma be honest with you. i stilm got no fucking idea what this movie's plot is. #but you bet your fucking ass i was pretending like i was following along & was going ‘no way!’ ‘so it's a parallel universe...?’ ‘oh wow!’ #like yea its unnecessary. i felt oike i was gonna collapse and im still struggling to breathe at home now. but also i been the kid #who just wanted to talk about my interests and no one wanted to or was dismissing it. #i know it's not a end of the world deal but i also know that crushing feeling. you gotta be the kindness you want to see in the world yknow #anyways. be nice to kids or im not going to be nice to you. they're one of the most vulnerable members of our society and deserves kindness

[the---hermit]

Definitely not me delaying turing off my phone and going to bed to research things for what might be my next tattoos.

#and the funny thing is i have more or less the rest of my sleeve planned but the two main pieces i am thunking for that are #not what i feel like i need rn #idk how to explain it it happened to me before to know i wanted something but it was not the right moment #i just know #for the past months i have had this feeling of i want a tattoo mmbut those two are not what i need right now and #i felt like what i would need right now is something with leaves don't ask me why i feel like botanical pieces are what i need on my body rn #and then last week in class i have this flash of the placement and what to get and how and i have been thinking about it so hard #so now i am looking furhter into the symbolism of the herbs i was thinking about getting #so than i can amrinate this for months and see if it's really what i want #i think it would turn out to be pretty cool and let me tell you i was already vibing with the plants as a gardener and as a tea maker #but after looking in the symbolism i am vibing even more #cris speaks #the---hermit

[imwritesometimes]

because my life is a cartoon joke at this point, my brother did his laundry, didn't check his pockets AGAIN, got gum ALL OVER THE DRYER, didn't want to tell me, so he used flammable WD40 to get the gum off the dryer drum..............

#if my grandma were still alive she'd make him go out back and pick his own switch to get beat with #cause he used to leave shit in his pockets ALL THE FUCKIN TIME AS A KID #and she would do his laundry and be like you check your pockets? and he'd be like yeah whatever! #and she'd wash like his buss pass and school ID house keys pens lighters pocket knives she'd be SO PISSED AT HIM #and he always gets so bitchy and snappy when I'm like CHECK UE POCKETS ASS DON'T WASH UR WHOLE WALLET AGAIN! #and now look. look. I'm always right. bitch. #I flat out told him like THIS IS WHY I always ask you if you check ur pockets u asshole. you should have just told me #NOW ur washing out the dryer drum with soapy water and we have to hope it doesn't catch fire #I stg. I STG. how did I end up with the most braincells in the family I'M TIRED. #erin explains it all

[kakusu-shipping]

Hi, I would like to understand why do you ship Mario and Luigi? You don't have to answer if it's not comfortable for you. 🙂

This soooooo immediately reads as a bait question, but I'm trusting you here anon I'm trusting you asked this in genuine good faith which I don't know why you would but if you want to know;

The short answer is Because I Want To and I Like Them. Plain and simple, there doesn't have to be a deeper reason. Sometimes we just ship things because we want to. Understood? Okay cool.

A slightly longer answer would be because they're the kind of Ship Dynamic that brings me the most comfort. I love a ship where they are each other's other half, they understand eachother and support eachother and just get eachother in ways no other person ever could. Loving eachother, being together is all they've ever known, they can't imagine a world where they're not together, side by side.

Platonic or Romantic aside, Mario and Luigi are a perfect pair, that's their entire thing. Mario is Reckless and Headstrong, Luigi is Calculating and Sturdy. Mario charges forward, Luigi holds the line. Mario picks mushrooms out of his spaghetti, and Luigi eats them. They fill in the gaps the other leaves, they compliment and communicate and trust one another undoubtedly.

I love a love like that. Of course it's you. It was always going to be you. It could never be anyone but you. I am not me without you, and you are not you without me. They are eachother's everything

They are a bonded pair, do not separate.

#Shipcest #Mariocest #Did I explain myself well?? I dunno #I don't trust you anon but I'm willing to answer your question anyway #The simply answer is; They're my comfort ship and I love them and they love eachother #Romantic or Platonic I don't care I adore them either way #There's like a third reasons kind of but Tumblr's recent TOS update kind of puts me on edge talking about it #Sense people have already lost their blogs over the kind of conversation #So for now you get the simple answer of #I like they're dynamic. I love that they love eachother no matter what #I love how completely they love eachother #There is NOTHING you can do to make me love you less #That kind of thing #Brothers Lovers Best Friends and more they are eachother's everything #I feel like I could have answered this better with more like #Insane Red String Cork Board style rambling and evidence #but you caught me at a bad time Anon I just finished cleaning my ENTIRE house #And sense you're on Anon I didn't want to leave the ask sitting too long #So you get an I'm tired and can only bare minimum answer you for now #If I didn't explain something right ask again I guess maybe off anon this time so I can let it sit a bit #Or don't idk #I hope you got the answer you were looking for #Thankyou for asking

[seafoam-taide]

Currently working on a weird au idea have comic with no context

#my art #kirby #magolor #instances au #don't know how much i will end up posting about this idea but it's. neat #death mention #that's. that's a trigger tag right #tw death mention #that??? #honestly this could probably work somewhat within canon kind of but trust me this is just part of a bigger Thing #if u ask me about it I'll probably answer but for now i am simply not going to explain

[echthr0s]

making new friends is legitimately just a repeating process of "ok, we're on a roll, now let's see how they handle this statement" *waits intently*

#i'm not one of those ''wait before revealing weirdness'' people. i'm ripping the motherfucking bandaid off. life is too short #i need to know right now. what's your weirdness threshold. are you possibly secretly also as weird as me. #or can you at least handle if someone else is. bc if not then it's deuces my guy. we can be friendLY but that's as far as this is gonna go #i think my favourite response aside from ''YOOO SAME'' is ''wait can you explain that'' bc that signals #1. you're not ashamed to be curious and ask questions when you don't understand something or want to know more #2. /you want to know more about me/. like that's the ideal

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by

#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about #but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were #and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat #as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like #a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain #it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot #i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds #i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh #political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore #they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get #but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk #i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers #here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now #it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths #i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how #burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that #i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up #could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan? #to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me #coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage #you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao #i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now #bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will #i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail #also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e #no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it #i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course #idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do #anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand #shai speaks

[visageofeyes]

I should be asleep but I've been overtaken by the urge to begin making an overly detailed slideshow presentation explaining and analyzing IMSCARED: A Pixelated Nightmare, so that's how things are going currently

#void rambles #'Hey wait shouldn't you be focused on ArtFight right now?' SHHHHH #SHHH I GOTTA DO THIS (I don't) #this game deserves video essays and if I have to be the one to do it through a slideshow I will #I need a shirt that says 'ask me about IMSCARED I totally won't waste several hours of your life trying to explain it and my thoughts on it

[starpros-sunshine]

Almost walked in on my friend-ish acquaintanceship who I've known for over ten years and her girlfriend making out when I was bringing her some food I cooked and after that whole situation was cleared up and no longer awkward for her (friend-ish acquaintanceship who I've known for over ten years. The girlfriend was completely fine.) The girlfriend turned to me, looked me up and down and just straight up went "Are you trans?" No hesitation whatsoever. Apparently my non-cisness really is that noticeable in a private setting.

#a moment in my life for sure I was stunned #and rhen I had to awkwardly explain to her that i don't really label because I don't think I'm well. #it sounds strange saying it like this but I don't think I'm trans enough to just state it you know? #but then she sometimes threw around comments like ''you look so masculine right now“ and it genuinely makes me kind of happy remembering #because like :3 #she would've he/him'd me if I asked her to and idk #and like :33333 #i like :33 #she's nice she really is

[bylertruther]

so like. i started going through the transcripts bc i wanted to pull out Evidence From The Text to back my shit up like always, right? and like. .... ..... ... . . . dude. season four is so fucking LONG and filled with SO DAMN MUCH that it goes in one ear and out the other, but when you sit down and read that shit? jesus fucking christ lmao. my guys brenner and one literally are telling us the plot to season five like there's no wayyyyyyyyy bro lmaoooo this shit really got me sweating n pacing around the room like . It's Literally Right There it's not a hidden message it's not a tiny detail in the background They're Telling Us What Is Going To Happen. specifically brenner because brenner is the one that could not stop, brenner is the one that could not let go, brenner is the one who tipped over the first domino. brenner is telling us the ending to this story because he's the one that wrote it. not even. brenner is our cassandra he's telling us I Know What Is Going To Happen and exactly how but no one listens to him he tells us exactly how act one is going to end and he was right. he knows the beginning to this story and its middle and he foresees the end but he dies before he can change it and so it's up to our heroes to pick up the pen and fix his mistakes. like. grabs ur shoulders. Brother I Am Having Realizations Here

#ofc i decide to sleep three fucking hours the night before i have Realizations tht i cannot put into fucking words bc im sleep deprived #but like. fucking hell man. i have so many tabs open right now i got transcripts from s4 and s2 and netflix open #tryna get my screenshots + annotating the transcripts + pasting s1 and s4 frames side by side to show they're the same thing #and explaining things that we saw previously but did not have the context for #the characters don't know what they're describing but WE know because we've seen the entire story unfold and like. omg #like. okay duffers literally i'm in your mind bro i see the vision i realize i Understand #all of this bc someone asked me an innocent question about eleven and i was gonna copy n paste something but then i was like. hold up #even if i get two notes n no one except for like three of my mutuals reads my pos t. idc bc i will have foreseen the future n had fun #but it's like.. like. bro i'm literally like i'm ON to something here my sleep deprived delirium has given me truesight i— #i sound insane and that is because i Am but i need 2 get it out before they lock me in the basement next to noah 🫡

[one-winged-dreams]

Person on my unused old WoW rp tumblr that tried to rp with me like twice and has never had a single meaningful conversation with me: Do you still want to be friends? You barely talk to me anymore :(

#and they asked for my discord which :))) yikes #i love making friends with people i really do but all your posts are ultra red flags and you are coming on REALLY strong right now lmfaooo #when people block them they basically stalk them from other blogs and any other social media they're on and it's like #no thank you you are extremely unpleasant #i am NEVER closed to interaction with people who want to be friends but uh #yikes again #after i've explained to them already that I don't do the rp thing anymore too so like #idk what you want from me you know nothing about me other than those tapered off rps #you don't even know my name #we have nothing to bond over

[bookwyrminspiration]

greetings. i have a Pronouns Question: you have it/whatever in your bio. Is it/its what you'd prefer to be mainly used, or do you like all pronouns with a slightly higher proportion of it/its, or? what's the pronoun situation here?

Salutations! I have a Pronouns Answer. It's whatever. You can use any and all pronouns to refer to me, whatever you feel like using. I'm more of a no pronouns person, but I know that can be inconvenient grammatically to do and since I don't feel a connection to any pronouns, I don't mind what you use, so take your pick.

If you want to pick one and only use that, that's fine. If you want to use every conceivable pronoun under the sun at the same time, that's also fine. Somewhere in between? Also fine. Do what you like! Outsourcing it to others to choose feels similar enough to me to having none that I'm comfortable with it, at least for the time being

I have specifically highlighted it/its because I do have more of a fondness for those than others, but it's not too strong of a preference. I'm just as comfortable as a he or a xe or a fae or something else as with it/its. And it is fun to have a mix, so don't feel like you have to use it just because I'm more fond of it/its.

If we're getting more specific, she/her is my most meh, as I always wonder if people are misunderstanding my identity when using them--though that feeling may improve with time. So I avoid those in real life socially, but on here? For people like my mutuals and who understand more about my gender? Go for it! They are still 100% on the table and can be used--better if used in tandem with others because then I know you know more about my identity and aren't putting me in a box, but at the end of the day? They're pronouns for other people to use and not my problem. I use I/me, people who need to refer to me can sort out how they want to refer to me for themself and I don't mind what they pick.

That's a long way of saying i like it/its, but I don't feel a true connection to any particular pronoun or the idea of pronouns in general, but since no pronouns can be inconvenient you may refer to me however you wish :)

#pronouns #quil's queries #fintan-pyren #thank you for asking I appreciate the opportunity to explain #also to preface: I know if I feel strongly about it I am entirely within my right and deserve to have people refer to me without pronouns #i just don't feel strongly enough about it #at least not right now #perhaps at a later date I'll switch to no pronouns #but for now? you're the ones who need to refer to me so you can pick #and being referred to in a variety of ways feels similar to that tetherless feeling of having no pronouns (to me) #so its reaffirming and I don't mind it #like you could use anything and it won't make a difference because there is no one pronoun or set of pronouns for me #does this make sense? #i hope it does but I can explain more #the pronoun situation is do whatever you what I don't care :) #you cannot gender me in a way that matters and all that #i'm overexplaining it but like. it makes sense in my head