#dont need those other numbers

[truetogaia]

hello baby i miss you

BABY BABY i miss u too ugh i wish i was more active

#baby baby #come and save me #dont need those other numbers #when ive got my #numbah oine #ˏˋ°•*⁀➷viras inbox #my sweet ani ♡

[daily-hanamura]

#do you guys ever think about how yosuke is always the one that proposes their outings #yu is the catalyst that brings them together but yosuke is the glue that helps hold them there #thinking about his shadow's comment about how yosuke needs to surround himself with as many people as possible to stave off the loneliness #and to a large extent it kind of still holds true here (and theres nothing wrong with that!) and not only does yu know that #yu doesnt judge him or tease him for it. and like for all the things that yu (or anybody else) teases him about #THAT is not it #Yukiko calls him well connected and friendly aaaaah i cannot get that out of my head ever #and it's also in how his proposals are received by the others - everyone else is always genuinely excited to participate in it #like the motorcycle license and the beach holiday is all your friends can talk about for the days after that #i think its one of those things that imo really add to that... very organic friendship dynamic that the IT have compared to the SEES #or even the PT to some extent #(listen i love the PT dont get me wrong but the IT just have a Something to them) (and i think a lot of it is driven by Yosuke) #his friends rib and tease him because hes so bullyable but they are always always so willing to jump in when he suggests something aaaaaah #and he knows this!! he may not have realised it at first but he does eventually!!! #yosuke truly my beloved my absolute number one love

[toytulini]

terfs go climb into a hole and start rotting. animals cannot inherently tell your "biological sex" you are all so fucking stupid. All this post is saying is that animals are not infallible judges of character and some of them make really stupid vibe checks and that people should try not to take it personally. Unless youre a terf in which case they know and they hate you and you should take it personally

re that one post tbh i do want to stress i dont think animals are like magically psychic at knowing your True Gender tbh i think ppl definitely get way too weird about Animal's judgement of ppl.

Sometimes a dog will vibe check a man and the dog will be right and you should listen. but sometimes the dog will vibe check someone for no good reason. sometimes dogs have wack judgement. sometimes dogs have biases influenced by their owners or previous owners. like. there are Racist Dogs. its not the dogs fault, but that doesnt make the bias theyve developed less real, or less potentially hurtful. i dont think we need to like, Cancel Dogs Bc Sometimes Ppl Can Train Them To Be Racist, but we do need to stop perpetuating the idea that a dog's judgement of someone is infallible. theyre not responsible for it and its not their fault its developed, theyre just dogs, they didnt choose it, but that doesnt mean theyre RIGHT lmao. i think its important to stress this for many reasons but in regard to that last post specifically, if youve ever been vibe checked as a gender you arent by a judgy dog its literally not your fault. might not even be the owners fault. not the dogs fault cos like. its a fucking dog. you do kinda have to be the bigger person in that scenario cos the other person is. A Dog.

#toy txt post #this was meant to be a quick post it got a bit longer and more in depth than i planned oops #i just hate when ppl act like All Dogs have Inherently Correct Judgement Of People #like from every angle. its funny to joke about but i know theres ppl out there who might be feeling like #very fragile in their gender or smth and seeing a post like that if they meet a dog that normally hates men but not women but it doesnt #recognize your inherent true gender im sure seeing shit like that post can be a horr #got interrupted by a phone call while typing it and the post is glitching so i cant see where that tag is cut off so uh #dogs are like ppl in that they can develop biases and have bad judgement and they dont always get it right #they are not like ppl in that it is not possible to ask a dog to examine its biases. you cannot make a dog take a class on #critical race theory. you have to work to socialize and desensitize them against those biases or at least make sure those biases theyve #developed dont negatively impact ppl. in this sense i guess im morally obligated to try to learn more spanish to see if it helps my dog #chill. shes nervous around all new ppl but parents have anecdotally noted she extra dislikes men speaking in spanish. she was a stray so we #dont really know her history. she also does Not like fire pokers outside. weirdly even tho its basically the same tool she is unfazed by #the indoor poker for the woodstove? but ig she wouldve had less exposure to indoor woodstoves as a stray in Louisiana? #but i can see like ppl having a little backyard barbecue and threatening the big mastiff looking stray dog with a fire poker and i think #that region of the country prolly has a higher number of spanish speaking ppl than our current residence so the odds of her running into a #spanish speaking guy who isnt very nice are prolly higher just due to a denser population as a whole. and we think shes part mastiff which #i think is a breed already prone to disliking strangers that probably cooked up into a little cocktail in her brain #luckily shes bad enough with All Strangers that i think honestly it would be hard to even notice her bias? but. ig i need to see if i can #desensitize her? idk. sighs but im scared to open duolingo now 😭. but i could maybe do it. when other ppl wear hats she fucking hates it #i wear a fucking face covering mask that looks like a giant eyeball she looks at me a little quizzically but is fine. jester hat? fine #i am like that video of the person desensitizing that horse except thats just like. living w me. minus the cat thing. id never do that to #the cats or dog. everyone would hate that. squirrel already cant tolerate being held while a dog is out cos he THINKS im going to do that. #it would traumatize the dog cos he'd injure me escaping and then prolly her trying to scare her off to get past her and shes just minding #her business. solo i cant hold that long but is less likely to injure anyone. shadow. first of all all 3 are way too heavy to be holding #like that #im getting lost in the tags again sorry im chewing caffeinated gum. i should go try to buy some catnip #ive made my Phone Calls. im gonna try to go get dressed and buy various catnip products. maybe lure him with a toy this time. need my #parents to help me but not be so visibly Ready to help me next time cos i do not want to chase his ass again...

[skeletalheartattack]

Thoughts on the new tf2 maps?

well, i can't give my thoughts on all 12 maps that were added, as my experience with them has been queuing through casual, and bots are absolutely ruining the fun of trying to play these maps, so i'll try and provide my thoughts with just the ones i've done.

Spineyard: i think ive only played a few rounds of it, but i like the maps looks and layout. the mafia skeletons are neat, although i couldn't figure out what the piles of money they dropped did. overall, pretty good payload map.

Lava Pit: it's gravel pit with a lot of lava pits, it's alright, i don't have much to say about it.

Mannsylvania: so, player destruction and king of the hill maps are kinda my least favourite gamemodes, but from what i played of the map. it's neat, i like how the map looks.

Slime: only actually got to play this map for one match with 5 players on both teams, since every other time was just flooded with bots. i like it, despite my disliking of king of the hill. the salmenn are fun skeleton replacements, i think i like them better than the other skeleton reskins. they've got fun designs too.

Perks: really liked the map, though i always do kinda wish valve would add more modular support for arena mode, so map makers don't have to resort to using other gamemodes like koth and player destruction just to simulate arena. i only played like three whole matches, with like 4 players on each team. wish i had played with more cause i did really like the concept.

Murky: im conflicted with the idea of a zombies mode in TF2, mostly just from a design standpoint. each class has their own zombie perks, some work fine, others feel lacking. with 9 classes, i think you eventually spread yourself thin with trying to come up with unique abilities that are useful for taking out the survivors. the map itself is fine. mostly had to deal with a lot of bot rounds before i could enjoy the map.

Atoll: the visual design of the map is really nice, though with how open the map is, it's tough to play as zombies, as humans have the high ground. playing as a sniper zombie, who can shoot acid, sucks a lot since you can't really get a read on how far your projectiles drop. engineer zombies have a similar problem, though with them, it's nearly impossible to see the travel arc of your pipebombs.

every other map, i've just not had enough time playing them. both due to bots and also because im doing my halloween contracts in the order it gives me.

#ask #anon #an infection mode in tf2 is something i feel needs at least a year of work and testing before it can work #MVM for example needed 3 years. from 2009 to 2012. #the biggest issue with an infection mode is honestly engineers #i feel if they had a sentry buster adjacent zombie thats selected every once in a while. thatd help disperse nests. #but i know there's likely issues with that. such as parts of the map that are only accessable via blast jumping #but with that i think theyd need to buff the zombie classes who can get to those areas. soldier being that class #he can jump high. but thats it. he really needs knockback resistance so he can get up to tough spots without interference #cause whats the point of vertical mobility if enemy heavys. engineer sentries. and pyros can push you away #but. thats all i can think of atm that i feel would improve the zombies side of the mode. #infection also kinda sucks with lower player numbers. especially when the zombie team starts smaller. its hard to push against sentries #atleast having a sentry buster adjacent zombie would help across all team sizes #atleast in theory #anyway. i dont really have as much passionate thoughts about the other maps or modes beyond whats stated above #i dont feel my opinions on this kind of stuff matters all that much though #im just a guy on tumblr #anyway! thank you for the ask anon!

[lwcina]

the fact that the us government can continue funding and arming a genocide despite massive public opposition really highlights how inherently non-democratic the united states is

#almost like the idea of a representative demcracy is both historically undemocratic and inherently is incapable of being so #by historically i mean that representative democracies have always meant the creation of a category of ‘citizen’ that is above ‘non-citizen #even the civilization where the term democracy comes from was patriarchal and had fucking slavery #not chattel slavery but (hot take) non chattel slavery is still bad. #also fundamentally one person can literally not represent the wishes of a large collection of people who have only geography in common. #theyre going to want different things!!! #now the idea of if democracy is inherently a virtue is like. another topic. but i will say that like seeing the history of like the #popular sovreignty movement wrt to slavery really made me question it. just because a lot of people want something to happen doesnt #actually mean it should happen. white people voted to legalize slavery #kind of where the old ‘minority’ terminology comes in. just by numbers alone in the states that had these votes it wasnt like in the south #where in the south because of plantations the actual population majority in some places was black. #but in those midwestern new states even if everyone person there could have voted. white people would still be the vasy majority. #honestly to a degree pointing out that none of the societies that have claimed to be democracies have truly been democratic is… #i guess the primary value in it is to challenge people who take state mythologies at face level #a very large population that i often forget exists. #the ‘they cant do that its illegal’ types. #anyways. if we consider that every society in documented history has had some type of violence and oppression #and if we believe that people are NOT inherently selfish/violent #it follows that what we need to do is something different than what we have been doing. #not just different from what we are doing right now. but different from what we have been doing for the past centuries #but also i can imagine that societies and ways of living that aren’t legible to the status quo or just went undocumented for other reasons #may have been more egalitarian. and we dont know due to erasure (either intentional or non-intentional) #both erasure and a fundamental inability of historians to comprehend it. similar to how cishet historians who cant fathom the idea of #transness or lesbianism talk about things.

[someone-always-cares]

chapter 5, page 41

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[image description: an sac webcomic page. “i was literally mid-sentance, what was that for- and they’re gone. great” jade says, turns around to face where split was, angrily. “...woah” says lewis, looking back. “Well that's the second time we've been booted out of a place by a friend with some weird eye thing going on, and hopefully that's not a sign.” jade says, turned back over to lewis. “was that, uh, fast travel?” lewis asks, holding the not bloody corner of the business card in his mouth to sign. “no, she can’t teleport, he just pauses time. lucky bastard. what was faer deal anyway? we don’t have time for this shit!” she continues. “actually i... i got the address” lewis responds, handing over the business card. “the creepy guy in the back gave it to me after i bit him”. he continues. “that’s great! no time to waste, let’s- i’m sorry, you bit him??” end id]

I so badly want to print this comic but there’s so many things i need to do first and the start of that list is “figure out what things i need to do”.

also looking into making washi tape, pins, and keychains which are much simpler to make but still kinda pricy.

#sac #someone always cares #if you ever see me having an actual phone number thats because its not real and one of the numbers thats reserved for #tv shows and shit that arent real numbers #however i am trusting wikipedia on that i am not fact checking #email.com is apparently a real email place though? #also the things i need to do include spell checking all the previous pages because im bad at spelling and idk where i can pay someone else #to do that because i probably wont be able to do that myself #the other things include: making sure i can even use the pages for print comics #checking all the pages to make sure all the dark scenes are legible and the colours work well in the conversion from rgb to cmyk #and fixing the ones that dont #adding page numbers and bonus pages and little details #need to go back and tweak a few things also i have a list for that #also figure out how kickstarter works #hopefully by then i will also figure out how overseas shipping works #thinking of starting book 1 with chapters 1/2/3 because that feels best to me #also mayyybeee redoing the prologue. i dont want to remake any pages but those ones are. particularly bad

[risingsunresistance]

btw the estimated time was wrong but only by half. it took 2.5 hours for that stuff to get onto the flashdrive lol

#AND THE SMPE ONE DIDNT EVEN WORK BC I FORGOT IT'S WEIRD- #slowly but surely i am getting my game back together. then it's time to start porting other stuff over but with less urgency lol #this is something i *use* but most of the other stuff is stuff i Save. so i dont need it right now #most of the programs i already reinstalled and they dont have data to copy over #i dread grabbing all my iphone backups i hate to think how many gigabytes that is #i dont even think my tumblr archive will fit on the flashdrive 😭 i'll just make a new one from scratch #have to drag my twitter backup over here tho bc i deleted my main lmao #switch backups................ i might just delete them tbh i am never getting back in those things #iphone backups have priceless photos with family. switch backups has recording of super mario world glitch number 5893745869 #i dont need those........ i havent opened them up since i saved them #digital hoarder 😔 #chat

[terrorbirb]

Guess who doesn't have to report variance and efficiency numbers for manufacturing!!!🎉🎉🎉

#totes bro #i put things here when no one irl would carr #and tbh it's fun when i look back through my tag #ive been covering production supervision and lol......just stopped doing that #and so now im at 2 months of not having literally any numbers about the efficiency of our manufacturing #which one of my bosses says i should know because im thr manufacturing engineer #and i just got it okayed to not track those numbers by the gm #because it turns out usually the manufacturing engineer isnt clocking people in and out on projects #and recording variances 4 times a day #so therefore if I dont do that it isnt a deficit on my part #which having it acknowledged that everything outside of my job description i do is just because im nice and not because i need to is 🤌 #and that i officially cant be judged on how i do in roles that aren't my own while simultaneously not being able to be judged #on not doing my job if i was covering other jobs is 🤌 yes i havent had any oversight anyway but people started asking questions #the same guy who is insisting engineers should supervise also tried to literally not give me a raise because i didnt forward our engineering #department despite the reason for that being that i cover every single job in this place #i started a calendar of every day i cover i color in and between people taking days off and complete absences #i have done only my job for about 6 weeks total #although yesssssss another year of guaranteed full bonus because they backed themselves into a corner

[mejomonster]

I need one of those guides that's like how to date as an adult with the presumption the reader knows Nothing not even like first grade asking out fake crushes info

#rant #i havent dated in years and im demi so i was never good at that shit anyway since itll take months or more to get a crush #i need a guide thats like Every single tiny step like idk #1 download x app or go to y public spaces #2 try looking for ppl with Z qualities #maybe make a list of Z compatible qualities first then look #3 message people with those qualiries THESE starter topics #4 try to go on an in person date soon by asking them #(or vice versa. talk for montjs before a date to see if u can even crush potentially which was a friends tip once) #5 at the date try to do X honest things and topics #remember to smile? or hug? some flirt suggestions if you dont know how and arent gping to kiss #6 what to say upfront (like idk im demi want no kids) versus what to not bring up immediately (idk?) #ive looked up advice for like individual numbers i just listed lmao #and the AMOUNT of full on conflicting advice!!! made me so anxious i had to stop #itd be like: YES say youre looking to date seriouslt for marriage cause other person may not want it #and better to both know sooner. vetsus NO leave mystery dont scare ppl with assumptions on what you #expect before u even know them! and its like???!! well a human simply CANNOT follow both of those advices at once #and id get anxious i couldnt follow ALL advice and cpuldnt guess which was right or wrong advice so id stress. #i will say generally good advice (tho very basic is): communicate honestly and more is better than less if unsure #have fun and be yourself cause you should enjoy it and if they like u then you want them to like the real you. #and look for red flags of cruel behavior (in which case LEAVE) and just general inxompatibility #(a person could be a great Friend but if theyre poly with 3 long term lovers and ur very much Not poly u should #probably JUST be friends. or if your friend is straight and ur gay. or ur crush wants to move to alaska soon #and u never ever wanna go there. just like. not bad things. just incompatible things) #but also im a little fool in the complexities and i still NEED lists for specific steps #i havent had a crush in years god -.-

[skeletalheartattack]

I went on your blog to see which fictional men you were getting your boobs big for and I immediately saw Zarbon. Very valid

everyday i play back every episode of DBZ with him in it in hopes hes angled a specific way to look at me through the screen and see. like hi sir yeah 🤗✨

honestly im a sucker for a lot of fictional dudes. i just tend to talk about Zarbon alot because he's the whole reason i'm gay the way i am. though i have made a list showing off a lot of other key dudes id get my boobs big for. <- normal thing to say. i should know. im the one who said it. normal normal.

#ask #greeneyre #there's definitely a lot more i could fit on this list but. #i feel if i added more id have to redo the sorting or id end up with a number thats not fun for formatting. #and im sure some characters i have likings for that arent on this list would have some folks be like ''huh? him??'' #with dingodile i kinda wish there was a good official render of one of his first few designs #namely the one closest to crash bash's model. #i think crash bash has the best version of dingodile in terms of shapes and proportions #plus i like his sounds from crash bash the best :) i like his laugh #that isnt to say i dont like his current design or anything though!!! love him through and through #these arent in any specific ranking or order btw #i have zarbon and his beast form seperate only to ensure i didnt have one in the spotlight more than the other #you cant have zarbon without his monster form. youre ignoring his true beauty if you do. #i think theres definitely a pattern among all the ones shown here (and ones ive neglected to mention on this chart) #or. namely like a few different patterns atleast. #idk who else id point out as one thats not listed here. atleast a normal one that fits among these #oh uhhhh. white haired main dude from jojo part 5. and the guitarist from part 4. #akira otoishi and leone abbacchio #wouldve loved to have fit them both but then id need like. two more slots to make it 32 #fuuuck now im a little sad i didnt list those two #if i had to list a character thats probably weird for this list itd be a character from the banjo kazooie series. #not clanker. i love his design but not in that way. clankers a girls best friend. #anyway ive been wanting to post this list for a while but. hadnt had the best opprotunity until now #thank you for the ask :) my heart lights up any time someone agrees with me on Zarbon #i could hyperfixate on him for hours. my mutuals know sadly.

[marklikely]

a while ago you said you hated the movie the eternals so I was wondering what you didn’t like about it? just bc I’m vindictive about marvel lol

god they just literally didnt do even a single thing right.

the acting was really bad from just about everyone (except maybe kumail nanjiani who was the only person who decided he would try to play an actual character), like everyone was just phoning it in. im going to chalk it up to bad directing because people also seemed like they had no idea what they were supposed to be doing on set, plus some of these people are decorated actors that have proven they were good at their job in other movies.

it could also be because the writing was just a mess on every level. like, how good could the acting be when no characters were given any solid motivations or personality traits (any motivations or traits that they DID bother to put in the movie were either told with 0 evidence, or just changed whenever it suited a plot twist to try and create some tepid and meaningless conflict within the team). the lore was tedious and nonsensical, there were no stakes because absolutely nothing felt earned or consequential at all, the overall goal of the plot changed like 8 different times as well as constantly being interrupted by flashbacks with no rhyme or reason as to when we would see a flashback or what we would flash back to, which led to a pacing nightmare.

and the tone was too dour and serious to be able to ignore any of this for the camp or fun either!! because there was absolutely no fun!!!!! it's like they wanted to make a Prestige Drama out of a movie that's 75% exposition dumps and half-assed sci fi lore and 0% actual character moments that make dramas work.

ok im typing too much so let's just rapid fire the rest: the color pallet was atrocious, just concrete and mud. the costumes looked like absolute garbage, cheaply made and extremely bland even just on a design level (i'm talking specifically about the hero uniforms here. the civilian clothes for every character were also boring and pointless, though). the effects were literally laughably bad, the object designs (like for the spaceship and other alien stuff, i'm not sure what to call this category) were ridiculous and never fully came together into something interesting or otherworldly. the score was trash and the needledrops were distracting. the diversity was shallow and insulting, you can't just constantly brag about diversity when you couldn't be bothered write those diverse characters to be actual, yknow, characters.

anyway if you want a well-made superhero movie about ancient heroes who have a deep love for humanity, that has diverse characters who are actually fleshed out and treated like characters instead of an Inclusivity Checklist, that has serious moments with emotional impact but is also capable of being fun, that has clear intra-team conflicts and morally grey characters that you can actually understand, that doesn't look like total garbage, then literally just watch The Old Guard. just watch The Old Guard im literally begging you. if you liked eternals just watch The Old Guard and see what it looks like when a movie actually does what eternals pretends it's doing.

#sorry anyway i decided a while ago that eternals is the new number one worst movie ive ever seen xoxo #if i could say one nice thing about it uh. again kumail nanjiani hard carried and he wasn't even that good. #its just that the bar was literally so low that him deciding to actually try and play a character was still leagues above everyone else. #uh. the opening song was by pink floyd and i like those guys. #although the song they chose was time which is like. completely antithetical to the entire movie so idk. #i guess they were just like oh its about time and these guys are eternal it must be perfect *does not actually listen to the song* #asks #the diversity thing really fucking bugged me too like they wont shut up about diversity but #then when we watched the making-of documentary to try and see what we missed that would make this movie make sense #like there was this one section where they all listed a bunch of personality traits for each of the characters #(and for most of the characters they either listed things that are not actually a personality or were things that were NOT in the movie) #and for one girl literally all they could come up with was that shes fast and Deaf and she taught them asl. #which is like. so fucking insulting. you couldnt think of a single personality trait? shes just fast?? #shes just fast and she taught the hearing people some asl because as we all know thats the only role a Deaf person can have right? #we dont need to give her an actual character we just need someone to fill the Deaf Marvel Character quota. #idk. if it were me and i realized that i couldnt name a trait for this character besides 'knows asl' and 'has super speed' id like #stop patting myself on the back for my Great Deaf Representation. because thats not good representation at all its just pathetic. #and the other characters were all similarly shallow but she's just. the best example of it bc they couldnt even PRETEND that she was deep. #movie diary #and again if the movie was even slightly able to have fun id be a lot less hard on it but it took itself so fucking seriously #and patted itself on the back so much for being like this Highbrow Next Level version of a marvel movie #and like. no. this is the worst marvel movie by a nautical mile even if youre judging by really strict standards of Art.

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I am exhausted. I'm exhausted and I can't keep going at my job. I just can't do this anymore.

The last three days at work have been hell.

First day: I show up and there's no one there. I start work an hour after the store opens and two hours after someone else should've arrived. There was no one. So I texted my boss and started all of the prep, but I wasn't going to open without someone else because fuck that. Finally one of my coworkers showed up because he overslept. To his credit he apologized. Then it was just the two of us for three hours until another coworker came in. Two people didn't show up that day. One called out sick and one just decided not to come.

Second day: The worst and the one I'm saltiest about. I show up and the store isn't open again, but at least there's a coworker there. I didn't see her at first because she was asleep. So we opened, and it was just the two of us for FIVE HOURS until someone else came in. It was the three of us for a single hour until one had to leave and there were just two of us. During peak time. I decided to shut down the drive thru because again, two of us, but a manager from fhe gas station (I work in a restaurant connected to a gas station) came over and told me it had to stay open or I could be fired. The way she said it was so fucking condescending, I nearly told her she could fire me and considered walking out. But I didn't. I had to stay an hour later because only one person, my coworker, was scheduled for that hour and I didn't want to leave him alone. It was so busy we didn't have a chance to breathe, but I still managed to finish a couple end of shift things. Not everything, but some. After that extra hour I HAD TO LEAVE and I apologized to the next manager, told him it was just the two of us and told him what I had managed, and that I needed to go. He just said "Okay." He didn't say "Can you wait while I see if there's anything I need you to do?" Or "Before you go can you finish X?" If he had I would've. But he said "Okay." And I had to fucking go. And again, I had done a surprising amount for the fact that there were two of us. To do everything. All day.

Third day: I show up and there are only two of us again. An hour passes and two more people are supposed to arrive. They don't. They didn't call out, they just didn't show up. Finally, an hour and a half after his shift was supposed to start, one of the two showed up. Three of us running everything. An hour before close one of them had to leave, so it was two of us to close. We stayed an hour and a half late. That's midnight thirty btw. We stayed until midnight thirty because people decided not to fucking show up to their goddamn job and I had to pick up their slack.

Then today, there was a manager's meeting. That includes me. In that meeting, the manager from the second day said, to the damn general manager "I know they were short staffed, but so were we, and this is unacceptable" and handed the GM a list of the shit we hadn't gotten done. Y'know, after I stayed an hour late, after running a shift with two people on one of our busiest days. And by the way, he had four people. Four people for a closing shift is a fucking luxury. He wasn't short staffed by any stretch of the imagination, but he had the fucking audacity to complain about me.

I can't keep doing this. Three days like that nearly killed me. On that second day I cried after my shift because it was so frustrating and overwhelming. It's taking such a horrible toll on me. I dread going to work because I'm afraid it's going to keep being like this. I'm afraid I'm going to show up and no one will be there, or I'll have to deal with a rush with just two people, or some asshole manager will call me out at a meeting with every manager for not being able to leave the restaurant spotless after I stayed a fucking hour late, after running a shift with two fucking people. I wish I didn't have to pay rent because I want to quit. This is ridiculous and I shouldn't have to put up with it, but here I am, putting up with it and still getting shit for it. No matter what I do, no matter the shit they give me, I provide service with a smile and I get absolutely nothing but shit in return.

This is why I hate being a fucking reliable worker. I'm expected to do everything and do it perfectly, while other people will do less than the bare minimum and it's tolerated. I'm held to a higher standard, I'm expected to do all of this and not have a single complaint, but people are welcome to complain about me. I wish I could just not care and not work hard and not show up for half of my shifts, but of course I can't. I can't keep doing this, because one day I'm going to have to run a two person shift or deal with a shitty customer or manager, and I'm just going to walk out and not come back. I don't deserve this shit but of course I'm stuck dealing with it, dealing with the crap that everyone leaves me. I work my ass off all the time, then I have one of the shittiest days ever and can't manage to leave the restaurant perfect, and I get called out in front of everyone. Fuck him. Fuck him fuck him fuck him. I've been pissed about this all day which is why I just had to get it out. I can't keep fucking doing this. I shouldn't have to.

#my last job i was treated like shit too whoch is why i left #but it was my favorite job ever and im so sad that i left it but i couldnt deal anymore #one day i came in ON MY DAY OFF so that i could learn how to clean the oven #i needed to learn so that i could do it when i COVERED MY MANAGER'S SHIFT so she could have Christmas with her family #i came in on my fucking day off to help her and that is the day that i learned all the shit she'd been talking about me #one of my coworkers pulled me aside and told me all she'd been saying. she complained to fucking everyone fhat i never did X Y or Z #THE PROBLEM WITH THAT IS THERE WAS FUCKING PROOF THAT I ALWAYS DID THOSE THINGS #she most commonly said that i never did pull-to-thaw. theres a fucking sheet that we always record numbers for and mark if its been done #anyone could look at that sheet and look in the cooler and confirm that i did it so she was just blatantly lying to all of my coworkers #(the reason she could lie was that i mostly worked alone so usually i didnt have coworkers there to watch me) #she decided to take matters into her own hands for. she changed my schedule so that i had to work with her. i was the only one on my shift #WHICH MEANS THAT SHE LEFT A WHOLE SHIFT OPEN. SO NO ONE DID ANY OF THE CLOSING TASKS. BECAUSE I WASNT THERE #our store manager fixed that real quick #what im most pissed about is that she never told me. to my face she said i was doing great. thanked me for running things on my own #but behind my back she said nasty shit about me to everyone else. have the decency to tell me about it #i cant fix anything if i think its all fine. so i left after i learned that. i applied for a new job that same day #after all i did for that bitch. she had the fucking audacity. after all i do at my current job they have the fucking audacity #i like this job. i loved my old job. the tasks were great and the work was a dream #but i can't stay when i know these people dont respect me. i dont deserve that #that fucking old manager chased two other people out btw. theyre understaffed because people fucking hate her #i bust my ass for people that dont care about me and i cant. i cant keep doing this. i shouldnt have to #this is such bullshit

[bobthebobking]

hate my boss hate my boss hate my boss

#lets manifest his suffering together <3 #hes like making me train someone to do my job when like. im doing my job perfectly well and several other ppl also already know it #like teach him the Other steps of the position bc those are the actual problem #acting like im too slow fuck offfffff i hate him #bluh bluh we need 2000 units- today? u want 2k today? no you fucking dont #stop changing the number to fit ur dramatic ass #personal

[yo9urt]

today i return to the sea

#mine #its my last first day of school (until/unless i go to grad school but thats way off if it even happens) #the rest of these tags are all just going to be complaints so keep scrolling if you dont gaf #ok first complaint. my schedule is stupid and awful i think #winters schedule was weird too. but this one kinda sucks #the main problem i see is that both of my main classes are in the middle of the day so theres probably going to be people eating #(i have mis0phon1a) #so thats number 1. 2nd problem is that those classes also have the grading scale where u need at least 95 PERCENT to get an A. girl! #they are also both 400 level spanish classes so theyre just going to be kind of hard and annoying and a lot of work in general #the next problem is that my other class is actually not quite a class it is a teaching practicum. which i didnt even 100% want to do #but the certificate could be useful so im doing it anyway. #one of the guys in that class (i know some of the students already from winter) eats like a hog for like the first 20-30 mins so thats goin #to be miserable i bet. also at some point im gonna have to teach a lesson myself #which is scary and also frustrating because again i didnt even really want to do this. WHATEVER #ok what else. ummmmm #oh i think i might be unemployed LOL normally my boss would have done schedule coordination stuff like last week but i havent heard from he #at all. this is because we are government funded and the government does not want to fund us anymore -_- suck my balls #and my hog too. so money is going to be a concern which is especially awesome because ive already been trying to save up #becaues im moving out this year hopefully so im gonna need $ for that and for probably upgrades like i might get a new phone and computer #and stuff etc. and i live in an HCOL area so even though i literally just buy groceries my bill is like $294358939358/month #SIGH. also of course the final problem on the list is the behemoth of them all: i have to apply for jobs #i made a little spreadsheet to hopefully make the process easier. but its going to be agony lol fucking resumes and cover letters how about #i just kill myself now -_- and fucking interviews too. fuuuuuck you suck my nuts and dick and balls #i dont know how im going to cope iwth any of this LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and also as usual i have like no friends so its just me going it alo #alone* in this big awful spring. 2 and a half months of this. #i suppose i will need to go back to the dispensary. #fuuuuuuuuuck man

[be-good-to-bugs]

i love firealpaca but the color picker is SUCH a pain. how hard is it to have value adjuster things??

#the bin #idk 9fnim just not finding the option to show the value editors but i think it just doenst have them #its so much easier to make colors that look good together with those #all the fuckin tutorials u see ppl make abt how to puck colorsnthat look good together talk abt looking at the numbers or where they are on #the 2 bars and stuff. but firealoaca doesnt have those so its a huge pain. i really like the program but its SO fucking annoying #color is something i desperately wanna be batter with and firealpaca just sucks for it. it has the square and the wheel or bar but none of #the sliders to adjust only the hue or the saturation or anything. i NEED those. even fuckin ibis has those #its still a good program. it runs so smoothly and its most features id need and good brushes and the autosave works like. unbelievably well #ive never lost an image. even on my 2 prev laptops which were super bad. but man. why does the color thing gotta lack such important #basic things as that. there is a filter thing you can use to do it kinda but its super annoying. #i dont wanna have to open a separate program just to pick colors. esp cause i javent been able to find anything exclusively for that #theres apps but my ohone screen ofc look different to my laptop so it doesnt help. #i tried switching to krita bc of this but i didnt like it. ill have to try some other ones out. i hope that maybe one day theyll update it #and add it cause i dont wanna switch. #my sister uses csp and she says its nice. tahts like a one time purcase i think so i could maybe try it out. its got a demo i think #i also need to find a good 2d animation program. ive only found 1 for free that let you put audio in and i didnt like it so ill need to keep #looking. i pirated a mn old version of adobe animate like 5 years ago and i remember really liking how it worked so maybe ill try that #i like firealpacas animation feature. ut works pretty well for a program that isnt really made for animation and i already know the program #so its worth the kinda annoying bits. but i need something i can put audio into #i miss making art more. i feel sad that i dont much anymore. i get bored really quick or my body starts to hurt and i have to stop now

[aashiqui-aashiqui]

by the way when i say other cricketers i mostly mean the english players and no offence but i do not get what people see in them…like i know theres english people on here who obviously are gonna post about their own team but like i refuse to believe those players are that interesting

#joe root might be the only white person on that team i care for #moeen ali and adil rashid get my support by default though because theyre fellow brown people and muslims so like they were always gonna be #included in this incredibly small list #but yeah thats it i could care less for any other english player like so many of them infuriate me for no reason #buttler and stokes are two popular ones i dont care for at all but for some reason theyre (relatively) popular on here? #in comparison to other individual players i mean #australia has fans on here too but like i dont mind them because the aus team is interesting to me #nz had some key word being had as in most of those blogs are inactive now so thats great but its a nice time capsule almost to revisit- #those blogs and see what was going on then in earlier years #as for pak i literally can count on my hands the number of blogs dedicated to pak anf its not a lot at all 😭 #im gonna post more about pak cricket too but thats when psl starts #indian cricket fans are probably pretty common om here too i just purposely ignore them because like as a pakistani i cant bring myself- #care about that team at all and any time i see an indian player its like a jumpscare you know #hate that team so much its in my dna but theyre also just obnoxious as people #our team just has a bunch of cuties like what has pak ever done #anyway yeah that concludes my massive rant in the tags but in conclusion i need to see more subcontinent cricket stuff #as compared to white people cricket like we should be more active than the colonizers guys #what do i tag this as #i guess cricket but like i dont want to be attacked and murdered #its okay whatever happens doesn’t matter to me #cricket