#especially when im at my loneliest!!!!

[pjsk-writin]

INBOX OPENN?! YAY IM ON TIME. Anyway can I request Akito, Rui, Tsukasa, and Mizuki where you were childhood friends and haven’t seen each other in awhile? I don’t know if you want to know if it’s Plantonic or Romantic but it’s up to you. Ty and please keep safe!

OOOOO ill leave it up to interpretation but stay safe as well !! i hope u like this! <3

♡ LONG TIME CHILDHOOD FRIENDS - Akito Shinonome, Rui Kamishiro, Tsukasa Tenma and Mizuki Akiyama x Reader

Akito:

Akito's childhood was neither here nor there, so you both faced a lot of problems together

Any time something went down in his family, he would immediately go to you, not saying anything as he simply wanted to be in your company

When you end up moving away, he's not sure what to do with himself, but he tries to forget about you

Of course he doesn't, he still remembers your favorite color and favorite snack when you were young

You end up bumping into him while he's doing a street performance. You both met eyes as you were walking, and the shock of seeing him again makes you freeze

He's distracted for the first time, barely able to remember his set list as he keeps his eyes on you. There was no way it was you, right?

Immediately afterward, you both run to meet each other, and he can't help himself from hugging you. "When did you get back here? Ah whatever, I'm just glad to see you again."

Rui:

Rui's childhood was...something, to say the least. You were his best friend and he stuck to you like glue

You were with him as he started to get into robotics, encouraging his schemes and plans even when other kids started treating him as a weirdo

Your departure from his life shatters him, but he tries to move on as best as he could

He never moves on. He gets reminded of you all the time, and it kind of breaks his heart.

However, it all changes when you of all people come up to him after a WxS performance. Granted, he didn't see you in the crowd, but you recognized him

You went to tell him how good he did in the show, but he found himself bewildered to be face to face with you again. He almost cries, but he hides it as he embraces you

"Oh my god, it's you..." He whispers, still in shock as he pulls back to smile at you, "I've missed you so much." You spend time catching up with him afterwards!

Tsukasa:

Growing up, Tsukasa had quite the childhood. You were one of his only friends he had growing up

You stuck with him throughout elementary school, helping him as Saki went to the hospital, but you were forced to move away once you both grew older

He promised that he'd find you again one day, and kept a little charm you both made once close to his heart

He never backed down from a promise, and made sure to keep looking out for you even as the years passed

Finally, finally, one day, he saw you walking around Phoenix Wonderland. He recognized the charm you had almost immediately, and practically screamed your name

You were surprised to hear your name in the middle of an amusement park, but when you saw the man currently barreling towards you, it all made sense

He tackled you in the tightest hug he could, already excitedly talking your ear off as he looked you over, his eyes sparkling brightly. "I told you we'd see each other again!"

Mizuki:

You had stuck with Mizuki through a lot, they had been through a lot growing up after all

You had been with them before middle school and through the first year of it, however you both had been separated after you were forced to move

They were extremely upset about losing you, and they would always find themselves missing you on the loneliest of days

As the years passed, they never expected to see you again. It had been way too long, there was no way...

But, when they were out at the mall, they saw you from a random shop and almost dropped everything they had bought in their haste to see you

They called your name out, and you turned to look at them, surprise evident on your face. You both embraced, and you comment they seem happier, especially with how they've changed

They can only smile wide, squeezing you tighter in a hug as they looked down at the ground. "I think I'm even happier now that you're here."

taglist ! ; @fayeelikefairie , @akitofixated , @starry-sky-melody , @akiyamasmizuki , @memoriesmelody , @sorazvlief , @playingwithmatchboxes , @mizuruism , @remuchen , @lovecord25 , @averagemizukikinnie , @vai1en , @akitosheart

#project sekai x reader #pjsk x reader #akito shinonome x reader #shinonome akito x reader #rui kamishiro x reader #kamishiro rui x reader #tsukasa tenma x reader #tenma tsukasa x reader #mizuki akiyama x reader #akiyama mizuki x reader

[booksandpaperss]

Be Nice To Me by The Front Bottoms is literally Will and Mike’s

perspective’s with each other when they fight and especially in season 4:

Verse One- Will

I got boulders on my shoulders, Collarbones begin to crack

There very little left of me, and it’s never coming back

There are certain things you ask of me, and there are certain things I’ll lack

The beginning, we were winning but now I’m just making up facts

What’s it matter anymore, if you believe the lies I tell

There’s no meaning, to the words, but we still sing these songs well

If we left it all alone, I’m sure it’ll work itself out fine

We keep playing with the numbers, we are running out of time, we are running, we are running

And your a Killer, and I’m your best friend

I think it’s unfair, your situation

You say I’m changing, sorry I didn’t know I had to stay the same

Can we talk about this later your voice is driving, driving me insane

Verse two- Mike

I try to write you poems, but the words they don’t make sense

The hand tries to grip the pencil, but the fingers are too tense

I try to show emotion, but my eyes won’t seem to wet

I’d love to tell you stories, but I can’t remember how they went

You’re a flashlight in a dark room or the loneliest blackout

You are all that we had left after it all was filtered out

I’ll turn you on in a dark room, right before we both pass out

I’ll turn you on when I need you, but the batteries ran out, they ran out

And you’re a werewolf, and I’m a full moon

And all your very worst enemies will be gone soon

I think your changing, don’t worry you don’t gotta stay the same

Can we talk about this later your voice is driving, driving me insane

…literally both of their internal monologues during their fight and through the season im convinced.

#btw I think the entire verse 1 and 2 applies to them rlly well respectively but I’ve bolder lyrics that I think are particularly applicable #bc I am mentally unstable #i am obsessed with this song #it’s so them #i cabt stop thinking abt it I’m #gonna have to write a fic I think #byler #mike and will #byler s4 #byler tumblr

[ileaveclawmarks]

i love ur blog. some of the things u have written about being a femme/butch-loving dyke resonate so truly... some days i feel like being a lesbian in this day n age is the loneliest thing in the world and i hear other women talk about femininity and homosexuality and i feel like such an alien... thank u for making this anonymous hairy fem dyke feel less adrift in this silly world ✌️

OH i just saw this ... i hope its not too late to answer. im glad i could do that for u honestly i feel the same

sometimes other femmes give me the same terrified othered feeling as the normie straight girls who used to hate me when i was younger and weird LOL. i feel like a heaving hairy dyke around all the women im friends with, even other lesbians and especially the more feminine ones ... sometimes i feel like. So far removed from their world, self consciously so. the only time i dont feel like a totally inverted freak is when im around other masculine dykes and butches. period

i thought for a while maybe im not even a femme at all if femme is now synonymous with pink bimbocore shaved and polished hyperfemininity, thatll never be me. but im working on sticking to it with the knowledge that im femme for my butch and a stomping fucked up odd looking hairy dyke to the rest of the world. its lonely but thats our lot in life ...

#come message me if u want and we can form a community : ) #would love to hear ur further thoughts re: femininity and homosexuality #asks

[liverpool-enjoyer]

hi max!

max appreciation day might’ve ended on the east coast but here on the west coast i’m still celebrating so i thought third’s would be the perfect time to tell you how much you mean to me!

i know self doubt is truly heinous but honestly you are a joy!! you make me laugh so hard you don’t even know, you truly know how to make me lose it with your tags. all your asks and comments on my posts and replies to my asks are always so thoughtful and i enjoy reading and replying to them each time because it is a joy to interact with you. more max is always appreciated!! i treasure your presence every day 🫂

you’re so supportive of my crazy hockey rants or my neymessi delulu i appreciate it so much. every time i see you spam liking my posts i feel very warm inside, you spark so much joy as marie kondo would say. i appreciate your support more than you’ll know.

i see you in every yellow flower i see, because you are a ray of sunshine. every time my silly little hockey podcast talks baseball i think of you, and any time i get liverpool tiktoks i think of you. you are constantly on my mind, and every time i think of you i send a little wish into the universe that your shoes stay ties, you see an abundance of little yellow flowers, and the food you’re craving is in your fridge.

ilysm max, please never doubt your importance here. you are incredible and idk where i’d be without your max moments

🫶 k

KAYYYYYYY (i realize thats not how you spell your name but i needed to elongate it to like,,, express how im feeling.)

what a lovely thing to wake up to 🥹 i wanna write you something equally as heartfelt but im truly at a loss for words. more than usual.

you have no idea how much this means, man. actually you probly do now that i think abt it youre smart lmao. i'll likely come back to read this whenever im dealing w those lovely feelings a being no ones favorite.

k, im bad w words n especially bad at being sincere, but i can only hope that i am as good a friend to you as you are to me, n to everyone else for that matter!! you have so much love to give, i wonder where you keep it all <3 i cant,,, word it well, but know that i love you too n am thinking a you always :)) you know, you KNOW, when those stanley cup playoffs come around im jus gonna be thinking "damn,,, hope k's having fun w this one" for the entire time that theyre happening 😭😭

yknow this time last year i was going through what was (hopefully) the loneliest time in my life. now when i pray to God i thank Him for giving me friends like you.

oh n i hope your shoes are tied too cause it would suck if you tripped tbh

#K I LOVE YOU 📢 #SAID SO LOUDLY THE SOUND BARRIER CEASES TO EXIST #you are actually the kindest soul #now if youll excuse me im gonna check my fridge #also im going out today n if i do see lik yellow flowers im gonna scream (mom will be confused but idc) #ty for the ask <3

[till-you-scream-and-cry]

i definitely agree with you when it comes to the loneliest. ppl are hyping it up more than they should because its better than supermodel which is a very low bar lmao. i feel like this song is so average lyrically and i know damiano can do better than that. its evident that english is not his first language (i also dont want anyone to give me shit for saying this, im not a native english speaker myself) when it comes to writing lyrics, especially in a song like this, a song where you cant rely on it being “fun and catchy” to grab someone’s attention. it needed to be lyrically strong, not when it comes to the theme, but when it comes to how its being talked about. i myself write a lot and am able to express emotion much more precisely in my native language than in english. the thing that helped me get more comfortable and genuinely better at writing in english was reading insane amounts of poetry and prose in english, especially poetry. i also think the production is very polished, I prefer a grittier sound idk how to explain it, that was also my issue with supermodel, though this is more my personal preference and not an actual criticism.

I think we can all agree that when it comes to lyrics, the loneliest is definitely not their best

#ask #discourse #the loneliest

[ice-knife]

i know they arent listed but im predictable. capella for the ask meme. since you're not feeling them pick whichever ones you wanna answer. BUT i would like to know: 32, 35, 40

The only reason they weren't there is because technically they aren't a ttrpg character, but I love how much you love my bastard! <33 // sixty-nine more questions for your ttrpg characters

32. which of your decisions led to their voice being the way it is?

i'm gonna twist this a little bit to be about how i choose their dialogue in IF games since i don't know what their actual voice would be. generally i knew i was making capella a stubborn, closed-off know-it-all who prefers to keep their cards close to their chest but who has a violent temper if they get poked. this usually results in me choosing neutral or rude choices for them, and if they feel insulted, they give One threat of a warning before the claws come out, so to speak. they're sarcastic if they think the person they're talking to is an idiot, but sometimes, they just don't say anything at all, especially if they're on the edge of being angry

35. when did they feel loneliest?

oooh, rude question! as much as capella wouldn't want to admit it, they feel Really lonely when they don't have the choice of contacting their loved ones, few as they are. sometimes they don't reach out to those people of their own volition bc they couldn't be assed, but it feels horrible to not have the option at all. in tnp they felt extremely lonely while walking away from their childhood home, away from their family and the only life they'd ever known, to join the hunters. situations like that and the emotions they created tend to stick to them like glue

this can be extended to apply even to situations where someone they care about says they need space. on some level they know that's perfectly reasonable, and hell, they do the same. but especially if they're already in a mood, someone they care about wanting space from them can sometimes feel crushing

40. if you had to remake this character right now, how would you change them?’

honestly i don't think i would change them at all! they're such a departure from my usual fare, and they're a delight to explore from a lens of "that was cruel and served no purpose other than making yourself feel better, what is wrong with you" which is So Fun to play but which i would never want to do to the extent that i do it with capella with an actually ttrpg character sdkjghld

#i think their rudeness and callousness is exactly why they fall into the monster hunter genre so well #they're a fun look at By What Measure Is A Human and By What Measure Is A Monster #ty dear <33 #asks #grapecasechoices #grapecase tag #oc: capella #asks: capella

[toto0o]

Incoherent gloomy thoughts ahead u should ignore just needed to scream into a void

I have never felt so surrounded yet i'm the loneliest i have ever been, like i'm thirsty and drowning in sea water. I legit don't even have time or the physical space to process, call a friend or even just cry. holding in panic attacks is... an interesting feeling to say the least. Like holding in a sneeze dialed up to a million. I just wanna be back home, i just wanna talk to people who know the real me. You'd think gendee wouldn't come up but omg does it feel like every second sentence is about her son, what i should and should not do as a man. I am feeling insanely dysphoric but also imposter syndrom about being trans at all at once i cannot compute rubriebeiebeien

I have less than 48h left here ik i will manage but i am running on fumes, i just need to cry and to hear fhat i'll be okay.,. I am surrounded by ppl who "love" me in my hometown yet none of them know the real me, and most of them would hate me if they did. I mean ibfeel like im just being ungrateful cauze hey at least my family loves me, but i just that love just feels like kt can sl easily become hatred or disgust. I miss my friends, my gf i need to spend time with them i wanna feel genuine love, compassion or comfort for the real me yet i feel like i am just being needy i feel that i don't deserve to ask for it. Even nk i feel guilty for writing this but i legitimately need an outlet but i also hope no one sees it especially not anyone i know personally and idk why i feel this way. I have great frienss they have never pushed me away when i was in need no one would think im just seeking attention or be mad at me for a litteral cry for help yet i think that, i keep telling people they need to allow themself a fraction of the love and kindness they give others yet im no better i am a hypocrite. Im tired i go eat now this somehow did wind me down.

#Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah #vent #how do i even tag this

[froggowivdagudvibes]

Vent under cut, tw suicide

For at least a year now i have found it really hard to draw anything besides small doodles if one very specific oc (who actually came about because of the fact i couldnt draw).

I dont have the best mental health, and it goes especially downhill in the winter (like everyone ig), and in the past drawing has been a way for me to escape from everything.

As of about a year ago i have found it both emotionally and physically really hard to even just put a pencil to paper (when i say physically i mean i cant bring myself to move my hand). It now takes a few hours of mental preparation to draw anything, even the smallest things, besides pidge (the oc i mentioned i can draw).

This winter i think has been the hardest, loneliest few months of my life - at points ive felt suicidal, which is nothing new really but its been a lot more common than usual.

My 3 best friends are all incredibke artists and i feel like crying sometimes when we hang out cuz they just create these masterpieces, drawings i would spend weeks on and then never stop showing everyone i meet because im so proud that i actually drew something, and they woukd do all this in a matter of minutes.

And it feels so lonely cuz i cant tell them how i feel cuz it would just sound like im asking for attention and just now i did actually say something and i was shut down 3 times by people just saying "lol same".

No it is not "lol same". It is not lol, and it is not two fucking words, it is the reason i have nearly ended my fucking life and i cant say anything and im alone and all i really want is for someone to ask if im ok because then i can tell them, because if theyve asked then surely its ok to answer.

And i mentioned pidge, who is my only safe place. I draw pidge every chance i get because i can and i can escape into them and im always drawing dark things with them in and i guess my friends have just chalked it up to me acting really "edgy and emo" but what they fail to understand is that when i draw pidge smashing and tearing and breaking things, thats me. And when i draw pidge crying silently in the corner of a room, thats me. And when j draw pidge asking for death. Thats me.

What they fail to realise is thatthis is not an edgy act im putting on. Im tired and alone and i cant draw and everything is too much and the only way i can express myself is through my poetry but poetry isnt art and its different and its not what i need to do, what i need to do is draw, and even if i write my pain into my poems, which i do, no one ever gave a fuck about poetry in the first place and im still alone.

Im a lonely person with silent words and all i can do is sit quietly and weep.

#tw suicide #tw mental health

[dostoevskysno1fan]

“Now, I myself am about to cut open my own heart, and drench your face with my blood. And I shall be satisfied if, when my heart stops beating, a new life lodges itself in your breast.” ― Sōseki Natsume, Kokoro

A truly beautiful read. A book which translates the icy feeling of lonliness into words on a canvas. A book that explores love, regret and remorse. How guilt at first is non-existent; enjoying the fruits of what you earnt, until what remains of you is a souless shell.

Whilst also exploring the inevitable transition of youth to maturity, Kokoro also touches upon the blend between tradition and modernitiy - set in a time of the Meiji period (1868-1912). This was a historical period that is especially significant in Japan's history which ebbed away from the spiritual Edo period that the elder society seemed to desperately cling onto in spirit, contrasted with the fresh outlook that had begun to spead amoung the youth.

What makes this book so special to me, is not the rich flavourful themes which are of course woven beautifully in this novel, but the more simplest topic of friendship. How Sensei; who is one of the main characters in the story - without a name yet the majority of the book is dedicated towards him. Him and the old friendship between the man that he had betrayed, and the remorse that haunted him leading him to his own demise and death. How we can never truly run away from memories or actions we did out of our own conscious and subconscious thinking. Of course; considering this, one must agree with this point and state that therefore, we must live our lives weighing the advantages and disadvantages of each major decison to avoid the pangs of 'what could'. But will you truly be living? Would your heart truly be free? Yet will it resemble another cage that if society has not placed, then you yourself have done with your own hands? 

Truly since reading this novel. it makes me wonder. How many of those around me including myself would sacrifice friendship for our personal gain? Love, wealth, and beauty are what inspires us and keeps the human heart alive, but for the price of blood would it taste as sweet? As much as I would be curious to find the answer, I think in this instance im better off not knowing.. 

“I am a lonely man," he said again that evening. "And is it not possible that you are also a lonely person? But I am an older man, and I can live with my loneliness, quietly. You are young, and it must be difficult to accept your loneliness. You must sometimes want to fight it." "But I am not at all lonely." "Youth is the loneliest time of all. Otherwise, why should you come so often to my house?" Sensei continued: "But surely, when you are with me, you cannot rid yourself of your loneliness. I have not it in me to help you forget it. You will have to look elsewhere for the consolation you seek. And soon, you will find that you no longer want to visit me." As he said this, Sensei smiled sadly.”

[james-fun-in-the-sunderland]

pt 2 . still vicky. 31, 35, 40, 51, 67, 69. 🙄

NO need for all of these rolling eyes SMH... u didnt evven have to send these sirrrr

ANYWAY link back to the 69 ttrpg asks i GUESS

31. do they respond well to praise? how about criticism?

as said in the last ask he does respond well to praise however it all depends on WHO is praising and how OVERT and how OFTEN... praise him too much and he'll get MAD but praise him too little and he will also get mad, he doesnt respond well to criticism. if you criticise him too much he may actually completely hate ur ass, but thats if he thinks it isnt deserved and EVEN THEN he will still get annoyed like whatever man >:/

35. when did they feel loneliest?

i feel like this ones a LITTLE obvious but while his mom was in the hospital probably! his childhood home would be all empty he'd have no one to come home to and he would only come home after doing jobs and visiting her so he had no time for literally anyone or anything else, not that he really had the energy for anything else anyway, at least after she died he would go out and just talk to anyone off the street but while she was still alive it was just him and a dying woman while he pushed away anyone else bc he felt extremely vulnerable during this time too (he was also like. 25 so he was also just dealing w being a young adult and all the angst there so . he was NOT doing well)

40. if you had to remake this character right now, how would you change them?

GOOD QUESTION id probably make his hair different, change his backstory a lil and quite a few scars ! alot of stuff w him is either in active development or straightened out so id probably change more of the actually established stuff ... maybe give him a different clothing style, make him more outward with some traits like his musical ability... hmmm this is such an interesting q

51. what element of their backstory are you proudest of?

ALOT OF IT im always very proud of my lil characters backstories hehe... i try to make them all make sense for the person a character has developed into and i feel like vickys especially really reflects that, if i really had to choose one aspect it would be how death just follows him all throughout his backstory, people dying annd leaving him left and right making him really feel surrounded by it ya kno... not even just with the obvious stuff like ALOT of his childhood friends end up dying lmao its just fun themes ...

67. do they consider themselves to be special?

NO absolutely not, hes literally described himself as just another average joe DESPITE COMPLETELY NOT BEING ONE . this man cannot die and works for like 5 different mobs and yet hes like nah im just a normal single father man, idk why ur saying im so weird. he also just gets weirded out by the idea of someone finding him so special... ofc he really would love to be special in a way he can control, i suppose thats really it huh, he really loves control and if people find him special for his deathlessness or anything its like... ok but he doesnt CONTROL that... he can control his talents though so if someone found him special for that hed be like YEAH literally im so cool

69. what’s one secret they don’t want getting out?

the classic. lets go through the obvious ones, his deathlessness, even though its an open secret he really doesnt like people talking about it, his crime too of course but he doesnt even care that much about that either, like even less, his daughter even knows and has talked abt how he kills people for money so... his whole past is a secret even to his daughter bc hes just a private person... i suppose also the main one would be his real name (for people who dont know his real legal name isnt actully vicky love, its louis cox! ( louis pronounced louey bc hes french lol)) he started fully going by vicky when his mom died so he just doesnt like to be called louis bc it reminds him of his 'past life' ... hes got alot of secrets huh... these are really the only things he DOESNT want to get out tho, most other things hes private about he doesnt really care if people learn it

#rev lore #the secret uestion was hard and i feel like not interesting at allllll augh but he doesnt HAVE any secrets hes just a private guyyy #OC: Vicky Love

[appavevo]

i have many thoughts right now i’m gonna put them all here so its hopefully less annoying

wanted hot chocolate, culvers doesn’t have hot chocolate anymore? could go to dunkin but i don’t want to drive

could have some chocolate milk and heat that up i GUESS

i have a project due tonight that i asked for an extension on im pretty sure im gonna get the extension but at this point the project is just putting what i know on paper and you might think thats not too bad but my brain is constantly telling me to kms with each sentence why am i like this

also my project is about the 200s of the dewey decimal system which is religion and about weeding the collection and there aren’t many articles or sources that talk specifically about that collection which is weird bc theres a lot to talk about

the dewey decimel system is.......eh

ALSO have any of you guys ever noticed that public library catalogs suck ass? like the website that you would go to see what they have, just sucks idk like now that i have access to the actual system bc i work there, idk man. like i’m interested in the history of christianity from a secular viewpoint, and if i search the library catalog for “history of god” literally the 5th result is a book called black nerd problems which is a good book! but not related? especially when i know what items in our library SHOULD be present with this search term. also the seventh search result was the CD soundtrack for wonder woman???? explain that

god my body and brain is so broken like with the meds its easy to coast 

making myself focus takes so much effort that i can’t even focus on what i’m supposed to be focusing on?

sometimes you get weirdly obsessed with a single character for a large franchise that you are only partially familiar with, but you don’t like what they do with this character, so you build out their backstory and behavior and sometimes you’re like is this out of character? and then your like wait yea that’s the point of course it is, and then you’re like its not weird right? spending so much energy and thought into balancing the canon of this character with my own ~improvements~ to try and find a cohesive middle that feels like a real character? that’s okay right? and then you’re like wait a second i haven’t checked my email in 11 days?

gonna play minecraft now. gonna make a chocolate milk??? not gonna clean my room.....gonna go to bed early??? go on a walk tomorrow morning??? but then i’ll get tired and wanna go back to bed. need to shower, told oma i’d visit her before work???? also i have to finish my project tomorrow. maybe i’m genetically incapable of being responsible like my mom is nuts. lowkey therapy appointments should be at night bc i don’t usually spiral like this at 10am

the loneliest time honestly is like the best song. also i just listened to some of that beyonce album that came out over the summer and i like the cuff song. i saw a tiktok of a woman dancing to it in some kind of body suit that was sparkly but seethrough down the sides like all the way, it was hot but also just objectively hypnotic to look at, like an illusion or something

man if only i could write like this for my assignments id be golden

#ignore

[coooooooooooooulson]

/frustration!!!!!!

#i hate dreams where i fall in love with someone #and even worse when they fall in love back #especially when im at my loneliest!!!! #like come on brain i know we’re starved but dont make it harder #waking up from those is like a mini heartbreak #especially when it was as cute as that one like we makes face care stuff and they helped me wrap it up to take home #and then we were chatting on a messenger and they were like joking around like #‘lololo love meeee’ and i was like ‘jokes on you i dooooo’ #and it was just all..... good.... and cute.... and now im just sad and alone.....

[redraine57]

Im very well aware of my pessimistic nature and how exhausting it can be. Im also familiar with many of the urls that show me love and support especially those who have done so for months and even years so I just wanted to say that I’m so thankful for every single double-tap, comment, and message. Im so grateful to have such amazing followers that can withstand my heaviness and what’s more, tell me things that encourage me and give me energy when I feel my loneliest. I’m an antisocial person for protective reasons but unfortunately because of the isolation I tend to let my depression have a hold on me more than it should. Despite not having close friends I’ve often found that people I’ve never met before have been the recurring reason I find strength and hope. The messages that pour in when I feel troubled and weak have saved me multiple times and I credit so many of you for quite literally saving my life and saving me from harming myself. I know the internet can be nasty with death threats and harassment but I think it makes it all the more special that Im surrounded by people who take the time to show me they care. I just wanted to let you know that I see you, I appreciate you, Im impressed that you can handle all my shenanigans, and that I love you. Lifes hard for everyone and I just really wanted to say thank you so much for making mine easier ♥️

[temmtamm]

Yandere sun and moon...with a yandere S/O..im going back to my cave

"Who are you??"

"I'm you, but human!"

YANDERE SUN AND MOON WITH YANDERE S/O

SUN

He is O B S E S S E D

His obsessive tendencies highten now that you refuse to be near anyone else, even if he doesn't know about you're yandere tendencies.

He definitely prefers this better than anything else. It's just the both of you! two peas in a pod, sharing the stage together!

He doesn't understand why the children don't want to be near him anymore, but everything will be alright, as long as your near.

As more and more people disappear, he becomes more and more clingy until the point where he literally bans you from leaving the Daycare in fears of you running away from him like everyone else.

Will need constant validation and could conformation that he isn't the reason they left.

He is completely emotionally and physically dependant on you, so he will purposely make sure you are to him as well, wether that be making sure he's the only way you can access food, or he is the only one you can talk to

He feels bad about it, but he can't risk losing another person, you have to understand.

MOON

He is a bit more knowledgeable and can tell when you are upset, so for him it would have to be more mental play to get him to lock himself away from others.

Similar to Sun, the more he's alone the more obsessive he is.

If you ignore him cause he talked to someone else, he'd switch from trying to grab your chin and force you to look at him to clinging to you and on the verge of begging.

He's like Sun, but with an ability to follow through on plans, so expect more thought out actions.

You try to talk to someone else? He'll with-hold things like technology or food.

He has his sweet spots too, and since you're the only one around, you get to experience him at his loneliest and kindest.

Sometimes he doesn't want to play bad cop, he just wants to lie down with you and listen to your heartbeat, to trust you when you say that you'll never leave him.

If you behave with him, you two get along rather well, especially since you're both obsessive freaks.

#fnaf books #fnaf fandom #fnaf moondrop #fnaf sunrise #fnaf william afton #fnaf security breach #fnaf sister location #fnaf #fnaf oc #temmer

[dulceheist]

Yoooo! Could I request Damiano saying "I love you" for the first time to his S/O

Tears in a lake | Damiano David

Requested: Well this has been in my inbox forever and im sorry about it. I couldn't come up with a storyline good enough for me to want to publish it. However now, I've been feeling like shit about my body more than usual and thought I wanted to write about it. Sorry it's not exactly what you wanted, or it goes to left a little bit, but I hope you maybe enjoy it still.

summary: It's a lovely summer day on a lake but dark clouds in y/n's mind shadow her down. She had never hated her body more than she did that day yet all that hatred is making her blind to the man in front of her.

Pairing: Damiano David x reader (she/her, third person)

word count: 1.1k

content and warnings: bodytalk, angst.

If she was able, she would have changed everything. Not in other people, just in herself. She'd have changed her body more than any war had ever changed the world and war it was because every day she tried to push it aside from that she wasn't what she wanted.

If she was able, she would have changed everything. Not in other people, just in herself. She'd have changed her body more than any war had ever changed the world and war it was because every day she tried to push it aside from that she wasn't what she wanted.

Damiano had driven them to the lake. He had been talking all week that he wanted to go for a swim one last time before summer turned into autumn. It could have been nice if she was the girl in her mind, the girl she desperately wanted to be. The kind of girl who could just strip out of her flowy summer dress with a smirk on her lips, the girl who would have made anyone's heads turn. She wasn't.

Damiano wasn't a fan of crowded beaches so he had found the loneliest lake around. The brief wind touched water's surface as y/n and Damiano looked around for a place to put their bags down.

Damiano dropped his stuff to the ground and started hurriedly take his clothes off.

"I'm skinny dipping." He stated while pulling his shirt over his shoulders.

"Why? did you forget your swimwear?" Y/n asked confused. it was still daytime, what if someone saw them?

"Hah no, I just want to." He giggled and even though y/n wanted to be excited, she felt the wave of fear rush over her. It wasn't even if someone saw them. She feared the worst on this time, what if he either wouldn't like what he saw. He had seen her naked several times and she always feared he secretly didn't like her body. If he didn't find her sexy, if she couldn't turn him on. It was the worst and the hardest thing because she knew he'd never say the truth. She just couldn't understand how anyone could ever find her desirable.

"What's wrong?" Damiano suddenly asked. He had noticed the change in her.

"Nothing." Y/n shook her head. She didn't know how to talk about it and especially how to talk about it with him.

"Bullshit, What's wrong love?" He asked again this time placing his hands around her waist.

Y/n let her hands fall down over his and looked him up into his brown eyes.

"I just.." She stopped for a second, "My body's ugly, and it’s all bright here. The sunlight is the most unforgiving light."

“what? It’s not y/n.” Damiano said as he gently pulled her little bit closer. “Why are you thinking such a stupid things, there’s nothing ugly about your body. You’re beautiful.” 

“Don’t think I am. I just don’t like it and I feel almost like a criminal wasting your time because I know you could get so much better.” She said looking down to the dirt. 

“Well that’s nonsense now.” Damiano murmured before starting to pull y/n closer to the water with him.

“What are you doing?” Y/n asked as she was still fully clothed. 

“If you don’t wanna be naked then don’t. You don’t have to.” Damiano laughed as he stepped into the water pulling y/n with him. 

The sun rays reflected of the waters surface like million stars. Y/n could feel her now soaking wet clothes float in the water around her as they got deeper into the water. In between the floating fabric and water she could feel Damiano’s gentle fingers trace their paths on her skin as he once again tucked her by her waist and pulled her closer. 

“You’re so beautiful, with or without clothes.” He said smiling down at her but it was something that y/n had hard time accepting that how could man as beautiful as him think like that. 

“I’m not.” She felt stupid and uneasy arguing but she didn’t know what else to say. 

“See you’re not really in a place to decide who I think is beautiful and who’s not. And you are the shine in my eyes day and night my dearest. I don’t know why you can’t see that, I really don’t. But I yearn you more than I thirst water and I really wish you could see yourself with my eyes.” Tiny droplets run across his skin. Y/n wrapped her arms around him and pressed her rosy cheek against his cold chest. 

She could feel few tears escape her eyes as they fell down her cheek and as the sun pierced through them as they finally hit the surface of the lake. He was like a dream so sweet it came through and if anything he was her most precious treasure so dear he couldn’t be hidden.

He gently lifted her chin for her to look up at him. His eyes clear as living sea he closed them and leaned in to kiss her lips. 

Water floated against their bodies as y/n wrapped her arms firmly around his neck like she never wanted to let go. She really didn’t ever want to let go of him. She wasn’t even sure if she ever could. But she hoped he would have been hers and she his to the end of the line and when she felt his lips against hers her heart beat against her chest like the ground shook underneath hundred galloping horses. Maybe he felt it too.  

“I love you.” He whispered to her as he rested his head against hers. “only you.”

He had never said that to her. Despite all the time they had spend together, they had never said those words to each other. He really did love her and he hoped she knew it but in case she didn’t, he meant it so much she could never understand. 

“I love you too.” Her voice shook a little bit as she whispered back to him. Her fingers game back to his head to hold him. A gentle smile rose to her lips, “I love you more than anything, more than air and more than the sun.” 

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[goldenretriever-nicknelson]

Celebration post for my closest moots.

I’m gonna be honest about something first. This year is probably one of the loneliest I felt. I fell out and stopped talking to friends I thought I’d have forever and it was my fault. I have had less and less interaction on here no matter the amount of followers and I really don’t talk to many people and people don’t talk to me. I’ve gotten better, a lot better but I still have times that my anxiety convinces me I’m alone and I believe it.

That being said there are some people especially these last few weeks who have been extra amazing at proving me wrong and some friends that I won’t mention in detail because we’re currently not talking but they always make my year special and I’m hoping that we get to be friends once again.

@the-girl-in-the-chair - Lana banana! Thank you for being my bestest friend on here and always being there for me. I love you so so much and I love talking to you. Sometimes I don’t feel good enough to be your friend but you always pull me out of my insecurities. Thank you for everything and for being the best tshirt buddy/band member a girl could have.

@darling-im-moonstruck - Z! I know we only started talking recently but I love you and I love talking to you. You’re so funny and amazing and even dealt with me when I had a breakdown the other day. Thank you for being my friend and I can’t wait to talk to you more.

@kingofthecourts - archer! I know we’ve been on and off with being friends but I’m so glad we got back in touch! I can’t wait for our series together! It’s going to be amazing and the people are not ready. Planning with you has been such fun and I can’t wait to write together too! Im looking forward talking to you more this next year!

@sunflowerspidey - Jess! I can honestly say I don’t know what I’d do without you. I love knowing that you’re there for me and I thank you for that. I love you so much and I love that you inspire me to be a better person and writer. You’re like a sister, best friend and mom rolled into one. You’re amazing and I’ll always remember you being my first friend and showing me how awesome writing can be.

@parkerpeter24 - my Cookie Monster! I don’t even know where to start. You’re one of my best friends and I’m proud to call you so. We’re a dynamic duo of Cookie Monster and Elmo and no one can break us apart. You’re funny and kind and beautiful in every sense of the word. I love you and I know this year will be great for both of us.

@spideyspeaches - kriti! My disaster twin (I just came up with that but it’s true). I love you so so much and I can’t wait to talk to you more next year. Your writing is so good and you’re so underrated and deserve much more love. I’m glad I could pep talk you when you’re down and I know you’d do the same for me.

@hollandslittlekoala - how could I forget my soul twin!! You are amazing, caring, kind, funny and I’m so happy to know you and to be able to call you my friend! You are my rock in a stormy sea and the one person I know I can tell everything to. I love you so much.

@hollandsmushroom - my mae bell!! I cannot tell you how much I love you. You are my partner in crime and I know we haven’t talked very much lately but you are one my best friends and I’m proud to call you so. You are extremely talented and beyond kind. Thank you for making this year extra amazing

And a special shout-out to @veryholland @worldoftom @glowunderthemoon @tonystarksfavoritedaughter @arvinrussellsgirlfriend @harryhollandsgirlfriend @tomhollandsgirlfriend @duskholland @angelhaz11 @eeyore101247 @mathletemadison @farfrombarnes @lovelytholland @parkersdahlia @cumholland @evermoreholland

#moots #mutuals