#even tho they did worse shit to them

[the-bowster]

Do y'all ever just have a shit taste in friends? Because tbh, me too

#I once had a friend in third grade who looked down my shirt :/ #and then #In 4th #I had a friend who hated me for being gay #& this year (I'm 13 now so it's been a while) but I had a friend who hated my guts for shit that happened LAST YEAR #That 1.) Wasn't even my fault & 2.) Didn't like me anymore because said friend liked the person I had beef with #even tho they did worse shit to them #also #I had a friend who lied about me on her snap story #sayin' shit like how I snitched on her for vapping even tho I did it too #and how that I told a bunch of people that she carried a vape around w/ her everywhere she went #which is a fucking blant ass lie #and now I had 2 friends who made fun of my stutter AND adhd #and I also had a friend who is low-key racist

[widevibratobitch]

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#oh ofc she's mad now. texted her two days ago apologising and like. not excusing myself but telling her #im just in the middle of continuous daily mental breakdowns #and just cannot bring myself to text back and talk about some silly shit i just cant. #and she viewed it and didnt respond. #she did respond when i asked if she can make it to the rehearsal at monday since we're singing a duet in the concert on wednesday tho #so at least that #god i just keep fucking up huh this happens every fucking time with every single friendship of mine i just keep fucking up #my brain was truly designed to sabotage me at every turn this is ridiculous lol #and like i cant even blame her for this lol and lmao like this is CLEARLY my fault and that only makes it worse 🤡 #how do i communicate to people that i really truly CARE about them. im just fucked in the head and have terrible antisocial coping skills

[byanyan]

fr though if you ever wanted to playfully chastise byan for being a problem by using their full name, you could be all "byaniel byun!!!" and they'd find it really funny tbh

#i think part of that is just that they find 'byaniel' really funny honestly #like that's p much why they use it as their username on social media it's just funny to them bc there's something so dumb about it #something about making a nickname like byan sound vaguely like a more typical name... idk it's just v silly #outside of playfully giving them shit tho i'd just avoid using any version of their full name... #like just stick to byan. no last name or anything. no part of their legal name whatsoever #there's nothing quite like being angrily called the full name that u hate to make a bad situation worse #they've had enough of that growing up askfhdsk #even foster parents who did call them byan would switch to 'yeong-hwan' when they were mad and that... never sat right w byan #...this is devolving from a shitpost into a completely different and depressing hc in the tags i need to stop #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

i want ike to be in three houses

for science

#DCB RD Run #y'all know what i'm talking abt if u follow me lmao #ike rly does say all the most perfect shit but most ppl don't even get to see it these days #bc intsys won't make the games accessible and they cost hundreds of dollars for a used copy jfhsagjdg #BUT ALSO this line? REALLY fuckin wish they said to zelgius too with someone anyone even if it wasn't ike #would've been really awesome tho for it to be ike who said it so that zelgius couldn't uwu my teacher his way out of being a villain #what is it with them making ppl be like uwu my teacher and that suddenly make them not a villain fhajgdgsj #like WHERE WAS THIS LINE WHEN IN REBIRTH 2 #we had tibarn with us! ranulf! shinon! oscar! SOMEONE could've said it!!! #hecky schemcky if OSCAR said it? that would be like DAMN u fucked UP tho #if OSCAR couldn't forgive you for something? d a m n sonny that one would cut d e e p #but also?! shinon! being calm about it! and just telling him outright! look! nah! you did all that shit! and now you want to uwu us to death #nah! what you did was unforgiveable and you kept doing unforgiveable things! #i mean come on there's a line out the door of ppl who wanted to get or deserved to get revenge on that guy #YES I HAD TO LET IT OUT AGAIN I'M STILL MAD THAT SEPH GOT THE WHOLE NO U DID BAD #BUT ZELGIUS DID ARGUABLY WORSE BC HE DIDN'T DO IT AFTER LOSING HIS ENTIRE FUCKING MIND #AND HAVING HIS ENTIRE FAMILY SLAIN AND HIS FOREST HOME BURNT TO DEATH #LIKE. COME ON. SEPH AT LEAST HAS A LEGIT REASON TO HAVE LOST HIS MIND BUT ZELG? #siiiiiiiiigh. anyway put ike in three houses so he can teach all the dumb stans how to be a proper mc #yeah that's right i said it A PROPER MC #blorbo is in the corner hiding bc he doesn't like these tags. see his bow? see it? it's poking into the pic #ALSO HOW COME REYSON DOESN'T GET ANY LINES WITH SEPH ABOUT WHAT'S HAPPENED POST BATTLE #this post has gone in three entirely different directions in the tags good for me good for me

[juniperhillpatient]

did I just finish outlining Scream Au’s main plot points in writing only to learn that it’s gonna be roughly TEN chapters? maybe. good news for people who don’t like my more controversial plans. bad news for my brain which can’t comprehend a project that short even if the chapters I’ve rough drafted so far are 9-10k so it’ll definitely still be large novel length lmao

#it’s been outlined for a while in my brain but I decided to write it down physically #that’s so short #but also it makes SENSE #like. there’s only so many people to kill & or suspect #it physically cannot be super long that just would not work or make sense #but like. aghhhh!? #idk. idk. we’re not there yet #me: stop asking me about scream au it’s sooooooo hypothetical #me 2.5 seconds later: so. here’s where we’re at with scream au #it’s good tho it’s a good thing I’m thinking ahead #not to say no amount of freedom was bad but it was… not a good murder mystery #it’s extremely important to plant clues early on & have everything more carefully planned then I did then #I’m gonna do better this time #ANYWAY #this is a very plot heavy au if you’re coming to me for ship content uh #may I offer you azula & katara at their most insane? like genuinely off the wall bat shit way worse than Sam carpenter insane ? #also zucest shippers pspsps this is um. a super tragic fucked up take on them? #if you like ripping things apart & being depressed & insane maybe you’ll even enjoy what I do with them #anyway I should shut the fuck up but unfortunately I’m really bad at like. doing that lmao #scream au

[starlooove]

Genuine answer tho kindaaaa because my entire point with the tim wealth thing is that even if the point about it not having much basis in canon was true (which. Lmao) it’s still gonna impact how he’s written by the writers and viewed by the fans; when it comes to writing stories a lot of people see middle class as the Relatable class which is precisely why I think those hardcore Tim Stans are pushing it so much

#im not gonna make it long bc like. if u get it u get it there’s not much u have to explain #but i am gonna say it’s very funny they don’t wanna say he’s broke #if his wealth doesn’t matter at all they could easily say he has nothing #but they’re too classist to say it #hard assumptions buuuuut im not giving plot points don’t impact character guy the benefit of the doubt #when it comes to monetary status there are implications that come with them #when it comes to the general public middle class has the most neutral implications #atp with so many convos on class consciousness and negative traits associated with the wealthy #it feels like they just don’t want Tim associated with that #imo that’s what makes him cool #the fact that he’s extremely intelligent but held back by limited world view which can cause him to fuck up his relationships (steph) #or be callous and cruel in his words (Jason when Tim was first starting as Robin) #i think him choosing to be Robin even tho he would’ve arguably been extremely successful otherwise #and choosing to have this worldview expanded in ways that he might not like (his arrogance biting him in the ass meeting ppl like Lonnie- #-learning to extend empathy and compassion in a way that might seem unnatural at first) is cooler than middle class kid picked up by #billionaire like the other 20 #plus i think him being written as the opposite of Jason was so intentional that to ignore it is stupid. not even explaining like c’mon man #but i think the parallels this creates with Bruce -did NOT have to do that shit ur life is WORSE bc ur doing that shit- are fun #like in conclusion if u wanna ignore that Tim’s rich fine whatever #but ur so boring and I’d rather watch paint dry than hear whatever you have to say about him #there’s too many bad things associated with both lower class and higher class for them to be comfy with tim in either #so they’re pushing for neutral middle #just like tim isn’t arrogant and rude at times but he’s also not a complete pushover #so he’s smart but he forgets to take care of himself #he’s not Bruce’s favorite because Bruce is so mean but he can’t be Bruce’s least favorite so he does everything for him #just bland takes on bland takes bc God forbid the rich white boy has some spunk #which is a massive disservice to his character btw. like i hate on canon Tim a lot but he’s interesting to me #it’s why takes like this don’t even piss me off or anything it’s just. so boring #evil opposite to ‘Batman is the man Bruce is the mask’ #ur so smart and profound I’d love to hear more. please tell me about how much tim loves coffee and worshipped Jason as Robin.

[andthebeanstalk]

Friendly reminder to white people that while it is okay to not like Mindy Kaling's Velma show, you need to be mindful of the language you use or share when describing the woman of color that made it.

#velma #mindy kaling #original #i saw a post jokingly referring to her as an ugly-ass bitch in a meme and idk if that person is white but if they are they need to watch it #i mean i don't care for using that language to describe people even jokingly but i know for sure that if you are white and you don't like #something a woman of color did then i better not hear you saying she is ugly #bc then it sounds like you were just waiting for your chance to call her ugly #beauty standards and racism are SUPER CLOSELY LINKED so hush #i didn't try to explain this to the person who posted that bc idk if they are white and i sure as hell don't wanna #barge into some person of color's day in order to make them prove themselves as non-white. that is an even worse look. #so i thought I'd just say here that you can say all the ways she did a bad job if you want (i haven't seen the show) but #if you are white then we need to be conscious of this shit. please. #i am white so if you are a poc and i have said something off base here i genuinely want to know. tho it isn't your job so no presh

[sleepknoot]

You know as a kid, there was such a unique thrill in finding fandom spaces. As far as I was aware, my brother and I were the only people who had ever played the Devil May Cry games or watched the anime.

Imagine my disappointment when I discovered FanFic.net and tried to roleplay with the people in the community during the early 2010s.

#Easily the worst fandom experience I've had. Especially on the roleplay side of things. #Lot of people who saw my 13 year old ass as a threat to their ships? Even tho I never spoke to them. #But these people HATED my OC so much because she was Dante's kid. You know. Because I was a child who adored Dante? #AND I WAS CLEARLY A CHILD TOO. I WAS ALWAYS TRANSPARENT ABOUT IT. #In my rules and bio I'd tell people I was a minor. Posting about ''Guys my first day of high school I'm nervous 🥺''. #I'd be minding my own little business and I'd look at mutual's mutuals blog rules: #''GRRRR BARK BARK BARK. I WON'T ROLEPLAY WITH OCS WHO XYZ (obviously directed at me)'' #See I look back on it and can take the piss (I was as annoying as you'd think) but holy fuck did that alter my brain for the worse. #A young me seeing 20-35+ year old acting nuts over fiction and children being children. #That's why when I see ''I miss the old RPC. People were nicer.'' shit I roll my eyes so hard. People were not nicer. #I was getting rape and death threats from these fucking animals because they felt a weird way about my OC. #zombert.txt #Sorry for the novel in the tags. I just went on a lil tangent.

[semercury]

What. If. I scream? What then?

#stuff sarah says #idk its 3am and im coming down from a wine tipsy and im in pain and feel gross #and theres too much going on in my life #or actually its not even a lot. i just cant handle anything ever #so like. what if i faked my death and moved to a different city? what then? #idk man. i just want to feel like im allowed to be happy and enjoy things #but alas. the ghosts in my brain. they are vengeful spirits #not literally tho. but my anxiety and shit did always get worse with every person that died #so maybe i am actually haunted #it rlly should have been me instead of them #i dont think its fair. im worthless and they were all amazing people #i dont deserve to be alive. and yet im still fucking here.

[woolydemon]

oh btw update on klapolly tsums project, I did actually start gathering materials for it (there's spring sales at craft stores rn >:] ) however I am now struggling to find skin (fleece) for them 😔

#i got some fleece #almost all the felt i need (forgot to grab red and purple though. for some reason skdhdkdjdj) #i actually got old shirts from a thrift store for more fabrics to use #(felt bad abt buying them just to cut them into tiny reactangles but ppl have done worse gentrification shit ig) #theres a couple other stuff i gotta get but its not immediate #esp since i need to first make a sewing pattern for everything #i did track down an online sewing pattern im taking notes from for developing my own #im thinking i want to actually. release the klapolly tsum sewing pattern when im done 👉👈 #for free of course i dont want to make ppl spend even more money when getting the fabric is already costly akdjfkfkfkkf #though idk ive never done anything like that before #I'll try the best i can to make these patterns though #OH YEAH THE SKIN FLEECE I WAS GONNA TALK ABT THAT. SORRY GOT SIDETRACKED #u see this is where its hard bc i need felt and fleece that matches in color but im having . a hard time doing that <:] ... #which i knew was going to be a problem at the start #AND IM SCARED !!!! i was almsot considering having to polly lighter toned just to get some colors close enough #but i want to stand firm on polly not being super pale I REFUSE TO MAKE HIM SO WHITE !!! #at least klav would have his darker skin tone either way ig.... preferably i want them both to not be pale tho #rando thoughtz

[daz4i]

when ww said "this is not my life, I'm no survivor, i only happened to survive"

#he gets it he really does. #hate when ppl call me resilient or are proud of me for surviving shit. girl i did not do anything to be here now. in fact quite the contrary #i am permanently in survival mode and I'm trying so hard to turn it off. but mostly in 1 direction and not the one most ppl hope #sigh. I'm tired man 😐 i just started new mood stabilizers and I'm anxious as fuck #(well. not new. i was on them before when i was a teen. can't remember why i stopped tho) #the whole trying new pills is depressing bc well. there's p much nothing left for me to try #i had a call with her this week. i mentioned it i think. but most of it was trying to figure out if there's meds i never tried out there #the only other one we considered to maybe replace my current antidepressant is very new to the market aka she doesn't know what it does yet #so. instead of replacing. adding stabilizers and hope they don't make things even worse (but lbr they probably will) #I'm very close to giving up yet again. idk what there even is to give up on anymore. my life is nothing with a side of void #but giving up is the only thing i know how to do. I'm too anxious to do anything else. i don't know how to do anything else #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh really wanna cut rn but i already have some wounds on my hands and arms + I'm in enough pain as is so what's the use #vent #i should sleep. idk if i can. I've been trying all day and failed. I'm so tired #i wish i didn't wake up man 😐 i wish i died. tonight #suicide // #not really but implied ig #self harm mention // #ask to tag

[cottagepunx]

i am just about to never talk to anyone again, i have almost no friends or life in person

#i feel rejected by everyone #i slept with one of my closest friends and now hes been avoiding me even tho we had been flirting for months #my partner is upset even though he said it was okay #i haven't talked to my best friend in ages and he hasnt reached out to me so i feel like thats just cut off #im not leaving the house and i feel like i am only bringing the people around me down #things feel good for a bit and then i just feel worse #i probably sprained my hand bc i punched a wall bc i wanted to relapse but the last time i did that my fiance hit them and called me stupid #i keep having truama responses to stuff #i haven't been able to find a job since april and i dont have enough money to keep living anymore #i havent had horomones in almost 2 weeks bc i ran out and haven't been able to get ahold of planned Parenthood bc theyre booked out until #like fuckin dec/jan and they dont ever answer their phones. ive gone so far as to call the ceo of my branch and she cant even do anything #about it. #i want to relapse so fuckin bad #everything is supposed to be going right for me. and its not. i apparently just do this shit to myself. i have to deserve it in some way

[dutybcrne]

Even without his Vision, Kaeya is not wholly helpless.

If there was one thing he could appreciate about his father, it’s that the man raised him with full knowledge of self-defense as a child. He needed to be able to handle himself should they ever be separated, after all. Especially when it came to any Abyssal creatures they might face, or otherwise any hostile people they may encounter.

He knew all the best places to drive in a knife, what tendons to cut, how to best blind an opponent, and creatively so at that. He knew how to set traps and buy himself a precious few seconds more, how to use those said seconds in a fraction of that time. He knew how to use an opponent’s physical strength against them, how to counter someone with a Vision/elemental energy usage as best he could. To not let himself get caught so off guard no matter what, bc the moment that control was wrenched away from him, his disadvantages would be nigh insurmountable.

The man taught him to harness Abyssal energy, using a small fraction of it—no more than that, his father made him promise; never more than the necessary—to make swift little jumps through space, even to facilitate escape or victory, whichever he’d choose. In time, he would have taught him to use the elements through it too, as many Abyssal beings had done, as a particular last resort, but having been left to the Ragnvindrs’ care, he never got the chance.

Though it didn’t stop Kaeya from trying. Not wanting to be left behind after Diluc had gotten his Vision and wanting to be useful to him as his right hand, he tried his best at figuring it all out. Felt it tug at something deep inside him like a tether each time he tried, failing just as many, only managing the all too familiar wisps of Abyssal energy he was more familiar with. It was through encountering an Abyss Mage and coming in contact with the ice it conjured that he finally got a better grasp at what to do.

Only for him to realize each conjure of Abyssal energy-infused ice was nothing short of painful each time, the energy within him thrumming so much amid the curse he already bore as a Khaenri’ahn, so much so, it would frighten and dissuade him from using those abilities anyway. For a short time, at least, until he realized how well it helped in a pinch. Still, he became far more wary. Even with his desperation to try and catch up to Diluc, his father’s warning against abusing the Abyssal energy coursing within him burning brighter in mind with every use. Especially when a Pyro Abyss mage lingering about a domain tried to call his attention after he’d been pushed to use that power.

Nothing good would come out of using such an ability, he’d decided then—keeping to the bare minimum, like his father wanted would be best. He wouldn’t want to be so marked by the Abyss otherwise. Wouldn’t want to increase the risk of his attempts and powers being found out, certainly not by the family that had taken him in.

Is it any wonder he was so horrified to find it was a Cryo Vision that had come to him that fateful night?

#hc; kaeya #//Eh; shit pertaining to my Kae #long post for ts #//After Luc left; he did start using those powers again #//At first; it was more rather self-destructively #//Both in deliberately bc 1) he didn’t wanna even Touch his Vision & still fought as a knight as though he did—luckily having same element #//Even killed Eroch himself after revealing his heritage and power to the man—which he was deffo NOT proud of #//Didn’t realize how bad the abyssal energy would influence his emotional state to a crueler anger and vindictiveness #//As far as anyone knows; an Abyss Mage killed him—Kae bears that secret with Varka alone; tho the man doesn’t know abt the Abyss energy #//As far as Varka knows; Kae accidentally avenged Crepus via a Vision misfire in the midst of confronting the man #//And 2) unconsciously; when he’d end up freezing things when upset even when he’d thrown his Vision across the room #//It scared him a lot; since he wondered if that meant Abyssal beings could locate him easier. And thus risk everyone at the Winery #//But then the real kicker came when he realized the Reverse could be true #//And thus decided he would use his whole connection with Abyssal energy to track them all down & kill em #//Worked beautifully ever since; finding use in that to HELP Mond; not jeopardize his home #//The practicality of it was quite handy #//Up until he started sensing that energy off the Traveler—BUT he let that slide when he realized they didn’t change for the worse #//Plus he trusted them—surely they couldn’t be up to anything BAD. His judge of character isn’t THAT bad! #//Does become a bit wary after meeting Dain with them tho—bc now he worries if they could sense anything off abt HIM #//Idk; might go back and edit but ye. This is canon to my Kae #//One can tell the diff btw his vision made ice and Abyssal energy tainted based on body reactions #//A more pronounced lingering numbness and a /gnawing/ feeling in the wound is typically Abyssal-infused ice #//Appearance wise; if the ice is murkier in color; almost like something darker is inside it…yeah. It’s easier to note with a keener eye #//Or elemental sight—the difference is quite stark through that #//which if brought up; he will either gaslight tf outta them that THEY’RE sick or smth; or attribute it to a previous Abyss mage encounter

[sunshineandviolets]

Twin sisters stuck in two different worlds now, unsure if they will ever get to reunite once again. Ones a business graduate who will girlboss, gatekeep, gaslight her way through life - and the other? Lost.

Reiko & Mai Nakajima

[close up icons, below - with a small spoiler heh]

#choices edit #playchoices edit #my ocs #my edits #oc: reiko nakajima #oc: mai nakajima #whilst Aki has the whole supernatural stuff to deal with #these two also has their own shit to deal with #tho it is sad kinda sad thinking bout them in twc #cause firstly - not only did rebecca lost her husband but also a daughter too :( #but also she only came back into town for Aki... #and if Reiko found out about that - that once again - her sibling takes priority over her #she gonna be so upset n mad #esp cause all she wanted was her mothers attention... that was never given #and refuses to ever admit - but is used to be second best to her sibling #hence why theres some resentment/ tension between the two #even worse now after Mai disappeared :(

[ghoul-haunted]

shot gunning a cigarette is something that can be so personal, especially when you compare that to the in text fixation with erotic choking and also death via hanging

#life? death? the dora > jean > kim pipeline? #death of a relationship meets smokers on a balcony #i wrote a million tags about the jean-harry relationship but it ended up being incoherent smshdfshddhg so i deleted them all #if i think too hard about it i want to walk the character i am piloting into the ocean and leave him there #ohhhhh jean we do not deserve you #jean showing up in that stupid disguise because he thought you'd both find it funny even though you told jean #to his face that you didn't want to get better. that you wanted to get worse. you told him to fuck off and he finally did :/ #he still showed up (he gave you!!! a few days!!! to get your shit together!!! and told 41 to treat your call like a prank call to give you #that time!!!) with that stupid disguise. and empathy says he genuinely thought you'd both find it funny #even tho he is At His Limit. like!! congrats!!! you did it!!! you drove away the woman you loved and you drove away the man #you're Heterosexual Life Partners with to his breaking point!!!!!!! and he still!!!!! showed up!!!!!!! anyway!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[caruliaa]

the vibe of the "your integrity makes me look small... its like im wasting you honor" line is when us mutuasl r all in fandoms for and have intrests that are actually well written and made and like actually good and intresitng to someone who isnt dumb and ur jsut here with ur cringe blorbos from ur childish shows

#'ohh peaches is being all annoying and sad again-' your lucky its not worse !!! cunts !!! #sorry idk whats going on w me. hey guys dw abt me in just tired or possesed #i prommy ill be like why the fuck did i post this when i wake up tmrw. its jsut how it goes #but today i tihnk tihs is mildly funny even tho ik its incomprihensable #and itll scare of some of the extra followers so yay !! #also jsut to clarify like. pls keep at it with ur actually good intrests im not trying to make anyone feel bad abt them #im just saying i suck and am cringe and emmbarssing !!! bc i am ell ohh ell <3 #again will prob regert this tmrw #oh well. i literally feel so hot and fevery its prob just heat but oh well. #also sorry for calling u cunts you are all grea.t #ok bye bye #flappy rambles #EDIT: also i feel like a morally bad person bc of my shit media taste gebuibly i do . #and this isnt bc of anyone who would read this far but its def bc of how some you post. soooooooo. #edit edit: also sorry for being insane and crazy and diculus it is the tiredness and the heat ill be normal tmrw i prommy ill be soo normal