#failing at basic tasks

[starlightcleric]

It took a while, but my queue has been refilled \o/

This has been my major tumblr task for the day, and I hope to get to the asks in my inbox tomorrow (or at least sometimes this week).

#I have uh not been great #as I said to my psychiatrist last week I'm doing much better than I was this time last year #but it's still concerning that I'm sleeping 12-14 hours a day #failing at basic tasks #and having intrusive suicidal thoughts #so I have upped my meds and added vitamins to increase energy #which funnily knocked me out most of yesterday because my body's response to brain chemistry changes is to fall asleep #but hopefully should be up from here

[sunlit-mess]

sick(?)

#messyr #doodle #vent art #?? well not really! just skl #coping through drawing bc its what keeps me from rotting in bed #my body cant keep up fjdshzhl and i just feel worse every time i try to 'function' even as basic tasks it makes me want to throw up AAAAH #this artist does not KNOW how to take care of themselves help help help help fsdjxhf #how am i supposed to fkin tell my dad nor my relatives im just so- PHYSICALLY- and MENTALLY TIRED without it perceived as lazy or an excuse #same goes to my professors bc ive been missing out ALOT in school lately and my classmates are also probably wondering where the hell I am #( group activities etc etc i want to km s - I've failed TWO MAJOR SUBJECTS BC OF HOW IVE BEEN DOING-AAAAAAAAAH) #if not physically then its my noisy ass brain that spirals me into depressive episodes where I literally cant do jackshit about

[breadandblankets]

there is an actual physical reaction I get at this point the moment someone refers to WAR as a gang

pov u are me happily nodding along to ops point "the robin gang" and my eyes close like it will save me and I let out the longest sigh

#i can no longer respect you or your point no matter how correct when you fail at the basic task of not falling into fandom racism #duke thomas #my duke moots know what it is #this was in the tags about a steph post so #tiredTM

[magicicephoenix]

Failure - The Ink Demonth 2023 (#9)

For 200 and 11 days, you’ve lived without the Ink Demon haunting your steps.

Wilson will expect a detailed report of the creature’s demi-i-ise.

I banished him away, tore his body in two.

Frequent delays due to the Ink Demon’s refusal to terminate.

He died by my hands.

A new method of control must been devi-i-ised. Termination impossibl-l-le.

Once you cut the head from the snake, the snake bleeds out quietly onto the ground.

The Ink Demon will remai-in in this small form indefinitely-y-y.

Now the only question that remains is: “What if the head grows back?”

(or: the one thing that just wouldn’t go Wilson’s way, no matter how hard he tried)

#the ink demonth #batim #bendy and the ink machine #batdr #bendy and the dark revival #bendy #the ink demon #wilson arch #keepers #doodle dump #drawing prompt #i didn’t realize i would be cutting together voicelines until i was already doing it #so. basic idea was that even though wilson successfully subdued the ink demon he still failed in his original task of killing him #i bet this ate wilson up from the inside. failed plans must be devastating for him

[lucabyte]

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#(taking inventory) hmmm basically all of my isat stuff is postcanon huh. unintentional but interesting behaviour from me #<- not used to making fanwork and is intrigued by my gravitation toward this #id suppose it's because im more of a character studies person than anything? like.... #isat very thoroughly explores its characters ingame. i have no real speculation to add there. its very airtight #but leaves the characters with very intentional next-steps-in-life to explore. #+ i in general approach texts as like... a challenge to get the most 'accurate' read on the characters as i can #hense my mumbling about my fancontent potentially feeling 'rude' to me. ie if i read the characters wrong ive failed at task #of exclusively substantiated reading. and thus hense the tension between 'unbased speculation inherent to fan work' and #'textual basis for character analysis'. its interesting #and fun! i do find it fun. but it is something about me that i take this to be an intellectual challenge first and foremost #you can REALLY tell im an oc guy sometimes i think lol. im very used to keeping myself on the straight and narrow #trying not to let characterisation drift.... its so easy to accidentally flanderise or soften the edges off of a character especially.... #anyway. ramble over. just interesting to me to take stock of my output #lucabytetalks

[foxeroni]

EAE Fragment Headcannons: Joel

Third life-

Shoulder- Kinda undecided about this one, but maybe? Its the joint where your arm swings, and joel didn't get a single kill this season. So like, swinging and missing every time

Last life

Over the eye- Blinded by bloodlust and rage. Man was on a whole season killing spree.

Double Life

On the palm- Rowing boats/steering ships (dl boat motif my beloved)

Limited Life

On the nose- the sunglasses...the bad boys...need I say more

Secret Life

On the bottom of the foot- this connections bit weird but his worst moment this series was definently the failed bucket clutch. He didn't land on his feet like he was supposed to

#of course im covering this for joel first what else do you expect #also i was so so temped to put the dl fragment as the heard but im saving that for future endeavors #and for anyone confused on what this is its a martyn lore thing basically players lose fragments after losing games and we can headcannon - #- where they were lost #smallishbeans #fox fails tasks #eaefragments

[new-haven-psych-ward]

i am plagued by visions. enjoy some geats sponsor-rider swaps

#psych scribbles #kamen rider geats #to briefly explain my insanity #kekera always stays transformed cuz funny #keiwa is very much 'since we have the tech and advancement we should def helps those poor barbaric people of the past! :D' #so he picks people who he thinks will help him amplify the most good #he... may have errored with kekera but! #this is just an opportunity to reform someone! that's like the same thing #ziin is a more typical kr protag #ace is a more typical mysterious mentor figure #i imagine he originally wears a version of the fox mask until he trusts ziin #ace is a sponsor who even the dgp cant really make sense of #sometimes hes into the games sometimes he isnt #kyuun i have changed nothing but made him more pathetic #neon is a futuristic streamer - she goes into the era the dgp is in and vlogs #she roots for cat-themed riders so that's why shes with kyuun #he reminds her of one of those 'baby kitten fails at basic task' compilation vids #michinaga hatewatches the dgp and beroba is the embodiment of a lighter and hairspray #geats sponsor rider swap

[jos-has-too-many-hobbies]

Mumbo’s the kind of guy who can cook a 5 course meal without breaking a sweat then turns around and burns toast to a crisp

#mumbo jumbo #hermitcraft #it fits his energy of being able to create complex redstone and call it “simple” #but being a sinking ship of a man #like he would just fail at basic tasks

[rivilu]

Everyone's on about Miguel beefing with a 15 yo, which sure it's funny, but y'all are letting the Spot, "I now declare this child that MY INVENTION inflicted this anomalous occurrence on, my lifelong nemesis", the ULTIMATE beef haver, to go unchecked.

#spireverse spoilers #across the spiderverse spoilers #you know at least miguel has the excuse that 15yo or not Miles's actions might cause TWO whole dimensions to collapse #assuming both pavitr's and miles' own dimension have a similar population to ours #thats SIXTEEN BILLION LIVES at stake babes #yah like no i'd also be going kooky crazy in his shoes #ofc his handling of Miles' situation wasn't good but that's not. precisely his job? Breaking the news shouldve fallen on Peter and Gwen #yanno. his actual friends? but they skirted around the subject too much so woops it falls on Miguel now #the most emotionally unsuited for this task guy possible. woopsies. #get ready for the most projection filled fight of your life kid cause it sure is cheaper quicker and easier than therapy! #I jest and the projection part is true but tbh i think too many people in the tags are interpreting Miguel being antagonistic to the rest- #as him having personal beef with children instead of him focusing (too much) on the bigger picture. like..isnt that his entire personality? #the 'fate of the multiverse' guy? cmon now. #the main issue is that miles Does Have To TRY- that's part of the canon event in the first place #trying and failing. if his plan of keeping him trapped until jeff died had worked then his dimension would most likely also collapse #if anything the way things are set up rn is sooo interesting because miles IS precisely on the way to fulfill a canon event #the question is - are they going to play into that- or is there going to be a twist. Gwen's realization that Her dad could in fact Quit - #comes to mind #i for one would find it really funny if the plot of the next movie is trying to convince jeff to quit his job but i doubt it jxnsn #my guess is that since this is basically the variation of the trolley problem where the singular person on the tracks is one you care about #(but said person is simultaneously also on the 5 person rail because if they don't die everyone does) #and miles has decided to just go and stop the fucking trolley itself fnsjsj #the plot's gonna go a bit more all out . /Beyond/ the previous scope- if you will #the only sticking point i have with this movie in general though is pavitr sticking with the group like. #“obviously he would've stuck with miles- he wouldn't want the guy to die!”so you think he prefers the version of events where everyone does #his friends? his aunt - whatever family he has- his girlfriend? EVERYONE? #yeah like nah until he can solidly know that shits gonna be fine in his home world i don't think it makes sense for him to fuck around more #yanno? #not that I dont want to see more of him- on the contrary I fuckin love his design to bits #just saying if miguel drops the bomb that his universe collapsed and my guy switches sides i would not be surprised

[ihearnocomplaints]

we’re gonna ignore the fact that I can’t draw any shoes other than the DCA’s

#self insert gay shit cuz I’m goofy like that #i need comfort today because it is Not a Fun day. #It sucks when you fail at a basic task like going to sleep as a reasonable hour so you can fulfil your adult duties and get to work on time

[thunderheadfred]

it's not worth getting into the details, but a complete stranger on threads managed to say something so deeply triggering and hurtful about my decision to start a family that I bawled my eyes out in real life, to the point that my partner thought I was like, about to die or something, so uh..... think I'm officially done with that algorithmic garbage fire...........

#I was really just using it as a news aggregator #and it's been failing at THAT basic task pretty consistently #so uh #time to move the fuck on #social media is a toxic wasteland #be kind to one another please

[strongermonster]

every single week i tell myself i'll remove myself from the cycle of >too tired after work to do chores/unavoidable tasks >"i'll just do them on the weekend" >weekend arrives >"well. this is my relaxation time. i'll do them on sunday" >sunday comes >Sunday Anxiety + suddenly there is a weeks worth of chores >

#re-using my art from the last time i made a post about failing to do basic tasks #jj stuff

[fingertipsmp3]

Why did I get paranoid about how no one has checked the work I submitted yet. It’s literally Sunday

#i mean i signed up for this last night in like the middle of the night #but i guess they either automate the sign up procedure or they have saturday office hours #it is based in the usa so if they work saturday afternoons they will have gotten my stupid application at a regular time #oh it’s freelance work. it’s basically just writing and proofreading #i just want to get approved so i can actually do the thing and then i can make at least a little money and not completely lose my mind #as i continue searching for a job. and also! when i get asked about the gap in my resume i can be like ‘yeah so i was actually freelancing’ #it will also make the job search a bit less urgent and calm me down a bit if i have an income stream in the meantime. i think #like i won’t have to apply to stuff i genuinely can’t do just because i need a job (like factories or care work. neither of which i should #probably really be doing on account of the dodgy knee) #but yeah. i was sooooo paranoid but literally… i did like 16 different example tasks for them. it took me well over an hour so it’ll #probably take a lot of time for them to mark it #i just hope they don’t reject it. that would be embarrassing as fuck. ma in english; i’m qualified to teach esl AND high school english……. #if i fail at proofreading i will simply just cry #the thing i feel like could screw me is i didn’t really understand the guidelines on maybe the first task or two because i can’t read #apparently. also i use british spellings and it’s an american company. i also didn’t realise grammarly was there and ‘helping’ me for a hot #minute. i was like ‘what are those squiggly lines for’ #look if they don’t want to keep me i’ll just keep scouring the subreddits and find something similar. it’s fine. it’s all good #this would just be perfect for me because i love writing and i love correcting other people’s mistakes lol #personal

[skrunksthatwunk]

jumpscared by least favorite seasonal chore

#I THOUGHT WE WERE JUST LEAVING IT THIS YEAR SINCE IT WAS SO LATE. FUCK THE GRASS IT'S SHITTY GRASS #it's almost xmas why did you not rake the yard while i was um. not around #IT SUCKS OKAY. I"M NOT A TEAM PLAYER #ALL'S FAIR IN LOVE AND MANDATORY POINTLESS YARDWORK #it hurts my back and my joints and it takes me forever and it's always stupid bright outside and i hate kicking the rakes and it's never #good enough because if i'm raking the yard it should be perfect right?? it always turns into a 3 day thing and the yard isn't even that big #we just all suck at it except for my dad so he spends the whole time being like well why don't you just do it this way. dad i CANT that's #why i'm doing it my way. it's shittier but it's Possible and yours is not. bruhgh i hate raking the yard sorry that's all #i am feeble and sore and i hate moving please don't make me do this #he's like why do you sit on the ground to scrape the leaves into the bags girl what else do you want me to do. i can barely do the dishes #without sitting sometimes and you want me to rake for 6 hours??? what????? #look i know this is mostly trivial but it sucks okay. fuck my stupid baka life #i have been exactly this bitter about such chores my whole life and im not stopping now. i hate being made to do stuff on a whim that hurts #me for an entire day when i wasn't expecting it okay. i feel like that's a normal response adults are allowed to have even though children #are not. something something children's autonomy etc #and honestly i just hate being in my yard doing manual labor in full view. you should not be able to see me moving around what ew gross #(<- super weird about being perceived doing anything physical) (<- hates being seen moving awkwardly and so anything but small practiced #movements are just. agh. unless they're silly and i can make them smoother but like exertion? No. oh my god i hate that) #shit like oh i don't wanna put a bra on bc that's uncomfy but what if my neighbors ogle me while they drive past i don't want that #just some gangly twink failing a basic task in the clumsiest way possible and fucking all their joints at the same time. sucks. hate #(<- man i don't even feel right EATING around people for the most part like. you want me to RAKE?? movement is a performance and you put me #up there with no rehearsal no script nothing just the wikipedia page for hamlet. i can't do this all of a sudden. what. what) #(<- i just. waughhUAGHH i hate it so so much i don't like it okay. for reasons that are yet to be diagnosed) #(<- no body language is natural to me so it must be practiced to feel natural AND YOURE PUTTING ME ON THE SPOT. IT FEELS WEIRD) #aughh. if i had the leaves on a table and a chair or something i'd be better. not great but better. but all the bending over and crouching #and scooping and getting leaves under my gloves and the scary scuttly bugs and scraping myself on the branches mixed in on accident i just #do not like it. gross #ugh at least now i have wireless earbuds. used to yank out my corded ones with the rakes pretty regularly and Oh Boy Did That Not Improve M #Situation There like. whewwww #and my dad's always like hey i know we're starting late (it's past noon here) but ummm i'd really appreciate it if we could really push

[keyofjetwolf]

I move like such an absolute fucking moron that I have shifted the entire treadmill track to the righthand side of the machine and only noticed it when I began to smell something burning. Amazing.

#who can fail at the basic task of walking? #THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE #life with jet wolf

[unforth]

...I'm having a bit of a rough time.

There are several reasons (some which are surely linked to "I reduced my anti-depressant med dosage two weeks ago") and honestly I think if I had a good night's sleep I'd feel better about everything but today I feel miserable about everything so I guess I'm gonna whiny vague-blog about being unhappy.

#unforth rambles #it basically boils down to #i've failed at exactly one (1) task #and therefore my brain has decided that I have failed at everything forever