#fandom spaces tire me out

[vulpinesaint]

being aromantic in fandom feels like slogging through all nine circles of hell and then satan's not even cool and sexy in the ice in the center of it

#i'm never In Fandom cause it tires me out in general. but being aro turns fandom space into molasses #not going to elaborate. you all know what i mean #valentine notes #aromanticism

[twisted-tales-told]

Listen I am chipping in to the fanfics on goodreads conversation to say it literally does not matter why you want a fic on goodreads. It doesn’t matter if it’s because you hold the (wrong) opinion that you want to treat fics like books. Or just really like them. 

The fic writer has said no. 

More than anything this is a conversation about consent. Do I really need to fucking tell you no means no. In any contexts. 

#Im truly so tired of having to see peoples works taken out of their hands in increasingly unfair ways #I can't believe in 2023 fandom spaces we need to have this conversation but we do #A fic writer says please don't put my fics on wattpad/goodreads/ao3. It makes me feel bad/violated/uncomfortable #you listen because you understand human autonomy #if you don't youre acting out of your own entitlement #you did not put any work into this fic #therefore you do not get even a 1% say or hand in making these decisions

[thatswhatsushesaid]

the "things i sometimes feel compelled to do 🤝 things i am never going to do because it is just too much fucking work" venn diagram with this in its middle: revisit my old nmj meta with ~updated thoughts~ now that my general feelings towards him have mellowed

#i'm never going to be a da-ge apologist or stan and that's fine lol he's got plenty #but i don't dislike him anymore and that's largely the result of people who DO like him a lot giving me access to their thoughtful meta #i may not agree with everything that they write and that is also fine #but i sure wouldn't have changed my mind about him if they'd shut me out of the conversation the first time we disagreed about something #tl;dr insert my normal tired screed about the overabundance of blocking in fandom spaces #discourse silos suck and i can't see myself changing my mind about this anytime soon #salty peak sect 🧂

[ghostoffuturespast]

I'm half-tempted to just nuke my discord.

#i feel so inordinately petty because of this #and maybe i'm a shit person for it #but i'm just really fucking frustrated #i joined discord to try and make friends in a fandom space #and same with tumblr #and i get it #i can't make people like me #i can't make people like the stuff i make #sometimes people's personalities and interests don't align #and i know i'm not the most outgoing person #but i just feel so fucking left out and sidelined in these spaces the vast majority of the time #all the interactions and relationships feel so fucking lopsided #i hesitate to engage with other folks and share my own stuff now because of it and it's supposed to be a space where that's encouraged #i hate feeling like no one gives a shit about the things i make #especially the things i'm spending the most fucking time on and am the most passionate about #it feels like everyone is getting hyped up except me #seemingly no one reads or cares about anything i write #like i'm not even worth the time of the people i've “known” the longest even the ones that are supposedly interested in the same things #i feel like an asshole for admitting all this and for feeling this way #but i'm also just tired of trying to encourage and cheerlead for other people and not getting anything in return #i just feel so fucking lost in the crowd

[soullessjack]

hey uh not for nothing but it would be so much easier to talk about the ableism issues with how jack is treated/depicted if you guys could learn to understand that bigotry doesn’t necessarily have to be intentional and outright cruel for it to be harmful. that sometimes it is accidental or made with good/harmless intentions but that doesn’t make it less bigoted in the long run. If we could just move past that one square we could actually have a conversation 👍

#if I went into the full depths of how normalized and perpetuated ableism is— #—or the general fact that disabilities both physically and mentally are incredibly misconstrued and understudied and misrepresented #and underrepresented and all these other things that make it incredibly difficult to be disabled in almost every space possible #sad to see it in fandom spaces too but well. history is history and what’s embedded is embedded #progress is not linear and it is not a quick fix either but if we could just Get This In Out Heads and actually talk it out . #maybe we could get somewhere #I haven’t been very strong with my posts lately but trust me it’s still very important to me #anyways . whatever #ciao ciao #cal.txt #spn #spn fandon #jack kline #autistic jack kline #autistic representation #fandom ableism #etc etc whatever else #Please just Google infantilization and maybe rewatch the show until you can pick up on how jack is Not seen as a child in canon #pleass im so tired of this. it’s been seven fuckinf years

[rentalboos]

Sometimes being in fandom as an adult in a healthy manner just means you're talking to a maximum of four people, all of which are, out of years of fandom, the only people you trust, and are in fandoms you were once vaguely alligned with, listening to you talk about fandoms they were once vaguely aligned with, while posting a fic into the void and then quickly disappearing off the face of the earth again

#all of this is to say #I deleted twitter #after 14 years #and it probably saved my life #because I was hanging on several very precarious threads in that space I've been in #and people were consistently getting out scissors to try and cut them #while claiming they care #fandoms can he hellpits idk #I'm kinda tired of trying to squeeze into group dynamics #they're just not good for me #i just wanna vibe #'ill give him some space' #honey you're never seeing me again

[thenarator]

i cannot tell you how disheartening it is to post a fanfic or fanfic chapter and the first five comments are a bunch of entitled bullshit requesting you change things, give spoilers or talk about characters that aren't part of the story and aren't in the tags.

#who has been going around telling people that it's cute to make demands of authors as long as you put an emoji or say please? #go fuck yourself you're not welcome in my fandom space #and there's always that one character in every fandom you can't escape #that you get questions about on fics that have nothing to do with them #and i fucking hate that shit cut it out #if you're not going to engage with the content of the chapter then why are you even commenting? #please i'm so so tired #and don't tell me to moderate comments #i still have to fucking read them #seriously who raised you people? #who taught you fandom etiquette? #turn on your location me and my baseball bat just wanna talk

[nonokoko13]

<<DNI if you shame people for having "cringe" interests>> *proceeds to shame or disrespect someone for having interest in fictional stuff they don't like instead of using the block button even though that person has done anything to anyone*

#vent??? I guess??? idk #some people is mind-blowing to me. not in the good sense #idc much about fandom discourse or whatever but the level of blindness or hypocrisy some reach is?? #like you see them telling everyone they are supportive and reality ≠ fiction but then make gymnastic levels of stretching to explain why-- #--what they like is good 👍 and everything they dislike or they're neutral of shouldn't exist and who enjoy it should kill themselves #and it doesn't even need to be something gross like this time I have seen it is because others like Kuromi more than My Melody dude wtf? 😭 #guys is it homophobic to be cishet? Because apparently according to some who support everyone of the collective being cishet is enough to-- #get blocked. If it was reversed they would get called out for their weird behaviour but ig I'm the weird one #like. One thing is blocking or putting boundaries because that's what social media is for. Curating your space is normal and it should-- #always be #but another thing is opinating [insert sexuality/gender] is 'on thin ice' for just...being on the internet??? #Idk what I was expecting from Twitter tbh. Although I see people like that in every social media #so sad and tiring #just say you don't want others to have different takes in whatever fandom you are and go. You don't need to give explanations or aact- #--like you are always objective and therefore correct #Anyway in this house we stan Kuromi and cishet people as long as they don't discriminate anyone for their gender identity or sexuality 👍 #If you have read this far I'm sorry. Seems long. Have a nice day 🫶 #and if you are wondering no that person didn't do anything to me they were talking about Kuromi/straights in general #but I felt the need to share #tw vent #edit: Seems like they did reach somebody over their interest in fandom stuff. Not surprises there #God forbid people to make their internet experience about their hobbies and interests #instead of curating THEIR OWN BLOG and thinking of what others want them to like instead #just a warning for those who like my shit. Unfortunately for you I like fictional characters being evil or morally grey as much as #fictional characters being good people #sorry guys block me if you want Imma keep using critical thinking 🤷‍♂️ #OH AND WHAT UPSETS ME THE MOST: When somebody breaks their own dni to go to somebody to tell them they suck or whatever #like????? Why would you do that if you despise x trope or thing sm???? So you want everyone to respect your boundaries except yourself???? #you just waste your own time and those you interact with by trying to create a raging conversation for all parts #fandom discourse

[d0d0-b0i]

always get so pleasantly surprised when people really like my stuff i post :) love you all. whether you celebrate something or not around this time i wish you all the best <3

#i always first and foremost post for me if not otherwise stated on the post itself #and that is what i always have done and aspire to continue. but #it makes me happy to see so many likeminded people around me #sorry. i am getting sappy and emotional; today has been draining for reasons i do not know #i am very tired and it is late for me so i will try sleeping soon #i am glad to have found such a nice and large fandom in sonic. it has allowed me to try and be more approachable and friendly while still #being myself at my core interactions. this year has been strange and new and exciting so i figured i might as well try #and make some more friends. which i have; i am happy to say :’) i have always had a hard time socializing. and to find people willing #to understand the things i say even though it’s worded weirdly #and i’m happy so many can enjoy the art i post <3 it means a lot to me #especially when i feel as if i don’t do enough. i like many others have some. issues regarding worth and content but i am trying my best #and. am getting better at it 👍 i think i might be getting sick ergo the sappiness and long tags #but i don’t regret the things i say. i love you all followers mutual ppl i follow #there is so much space in my heart and i am not afraid to admit that i get attached easily and do not know where friendships begin. #but i. am willing to try and find out! if the gods are willing; hopefully a good new year for us all next week! and more commmunity and love #i hope you understand what i am trying to convey. ive been scared of being this open but if i am not then i will never know living #and loving <3 will still be posting obvs i am simply joyous rn! gonna sleep now :3

[simplysummers]

We love having to turn off anon because somebody in this fandom is being a literal dickhead

#that’s so cute that you think using somebody’s physical health as an insult is remotely intellectual #if you don’t like me or the content I bring to the fandom. fucking block me??? #douchebag #god maybe I’m just tired but I actually hate this space sometimes #it brings out the best in some and the worst in others #why would anybody want to come into a fandom space just to make someone else feel bad #like okay sorry I intimidate you to the point where you choose to pick on me from behind an anon #maybe. and it’s just a thought #don’t interact with me #maybe if you’re somebody that I interact with- come out and tell me to leave you alone #Jesus h Christ

[secret-bug-pain-blog]

I think I'm tired with the concept of shipping at all, actually. Putting it on the shelf until allo people can behave. If you ship people and I can see it I'm going to bite and kill you like a rabid hound.

#misc. #negative #shipping #my posts #thinking abt how goddamn inescapable this fuckshit is gonna be the split second silksong releases and i just #gods #i dont wanna live here anymore #i may be biased by exposure to fandoms where people ship shit but based on how much of That i see on my dash #when the game isnt even released at that and its all speculation #just... makes me think of all the fucking fandoms ive been in in the past whichve had this shit going on #im tired man im reaching the end of my tolerance for this #cant even hc a character as aroace or plain aro and be over with it bc of the fuckin aphobia rattling around everywhere #smth smth i know this is dependant on the spaces you hang out in but the shipping is inescapable and i hate it #the allo romance thing feels everpresent and inescapable and im just tired of it

[rosenecklaces]

"elain isn't breaking the bond so it means she still want it" "azriel have a savior/white knight/incel/stalker/sexual/brute/savage/etc complex that's why he thinks he wants her he needs therapy only. and gwyn" "elain would not end with azriel her body wouldn't survive having his baby so gwyn is his actual lover" "the shadows go out for gwyn so they must know she is his mate" "lucien has suffered so much he should be happy with his mate" "elain is so connected with spring she must end up live in it for sure" "the necklace is of gwyn now no matter if she or anyone hasn't mentioned it" "elain would surprise everyone by being evil and maybe get killed by her sisters" "she would end with no one since she needs no men especifically not azriel tho #feminism"

what if we all die..what if we just dissappear from existence wouldn't that be crazy

#mind you this was all shit that is permitted and taken seriously in big acotar social media spaces #but as soon as you talk about a canon scene where elain and azriel behave romantically suddenly you're crazy and projecting your ship #into the book god I'm tired acotar fandom is so bleak i pray for lulu and gwyn stans downfall everyday they deserve it for being so annoyin #and YES including lulu ones the misogyny towards elain is part their fault just as two women trauma is lulu's 💁‍♀️ #elain archeron #azriel shadowsinger #this is me collecting elulus and gwynriels sins to post it when elain's book come out they deserve the humiliating for all that shit

[altschmerzes]

being a marginalized person in fandom spaces that generally don’t think about the dynamics of marginalization within those spaces is so exhausting because it’s like okay what are the two options here.

either you just gotta sit there and swallow microaggressions and castoff disrespect all day every day while everyone around you either ignores it or dismisses it as ‘it’s just fandom, do whatever you want!!!!’, OR you gotta make yourself the fun police stick in the mud no one likes because you’re always the one going “hey that’s not cool, and it does matter actually”.

there’s no winning and you’re always alone. it’s exhausting.

#gav gab #im tired of being transphobia watch. im tired of reminding overwhelmingly white fandoms that they’re overwhelmingly white #and that this biases them #im tired of having to protect myself and losing the ability to participate in fun ways because of it #because it turns out nobody likes the hall monitor! #everyone thinks you’re ruining it or whatever #anyways im just. really bothered by this the last week or so #people often tell me they’re impressed or appreciative of the way I set and enforce boundaries #and i appreciate hearing that but also it fucking sucks to be the one person constantly having to and being willing to do that #it comes with a cost and i pay for it every time #do you know how much i would love to just enjoy things. just have fun and vibe with people in fan and creative spaces

[feywildfox]

Mm i left bandom space a long long time ago. I mean I'm not that old but ten years ago is still pretty long. And frankly if i overstep lemme know.

Honestly at this point i shouldnt be surprised so many people are actually still inherently racist towards Ray, but also i think, i should be. Because i genuinely expected better from mcr bandom, but again, left bandom spaces a decade ago...

It's pretty sad? Like. I'll admit, I didn't realize Ray was actually a man of colour when i was younger. I think i realized right around the time i left at 15 or so. Which also really goes to show that racism towards him and making him seem as white as possible which definitely i think was a thing. Like in comparison, I knew pete wentz was mixed long before i figured out Ray was a poc. It says a lot about the space at the time and i had honestly thought it'd be better now.

I've loved mcr for years, but i havent been IN love with them for a while. It happens, relationships and feeling wax and wane. But this tour, the excitement and love recently ignited in not just Gerard with all their gender fuckery, but the whole band, has brought a love and joy back into my life for music that hit me in the heart as a preteen and teenager.

And none of that would be possible without Ray Toro putting his all into the feelings and conveying of in his music. Mikey made the band, but ray MAKES the band. He is absolutely fucking integral and it is disgusting & disheartening to see him treated such a way. What the fuck even, hearing that streamers are zooming in on frank during Rays solos?? Like do the fuck better? I'm honestly disappointed as fuck in that shit. Like I know this whole thing is a little disjointed stream of consciousness type post but really. White people do better challenge! Its literally SO fucking easy. The real camera guys are RIGHT THERE showing what to fucking do!

You can love the others as much as you want but jesus fuck give Ray the same fucking courtesy. Stop ignoring your racism, start recognizing the issues that plague you from being white and growing up in white privilege. I sure as fuck still have plenty of shit to work on but at least i can say i can do the bare fucking MINIMUM of giving Ray Toro the respect and attention he absolutely fucking deserves.

Like I do hope this is understood I am not trying to speak over anyone but simply say from one white to another: you need to do better. If that's how you treat a member of supposedly one of your fav bands, i genuinely fear for the poc you encounter in your life. The harm you cause by staying blind may be incremental but it builds up until it's a mountain. Do fucking better.

#not the picturesque emo #fans #its 1 am so this is not. the modt coherent thing but i hope it gets the point across as someone who has been outside of bandom space #i mever realized how big an issue it was but honestly i should have known #im not going point at myself as a pure example of what to do because honestly ive loved mcr from a distance for a while #i have always loved them all but literally its ridiculous coming back ten years later #and finding out that yeah no. rays apparently or whatever the fuck #like uh what. emo is a style #its a sounds a love language a voice for people an expression #sure there are certain clothes or jewelry or makeup that can play into it but NONE of that actually means shit #because it can be turned corpo and ripped up and spat back all sanatized. ray is emo. ray is a man of colour. he's a rock god on the guitar #NONE of that is mutally fucking exclusive! ray toro is just as important as anyone else in the band #ray toro deserves SO much respect and he does NOT deserve to have people claim they are of mcr then treat him like that #you are not an mcr fan you are a pretentious racist asshole who needs to check ther privileges at the fucking gate thank you #fox squawks #im tired and angry now and im sorry to all the poc in the fandom who have to deal w this on a constant basis you all deserve a lot better #im sure yall feel way worse than i do and i genuinely hope people can realize the shit theyve been doing. #i am always happy to go toe to toe w other dumbass white ppl and call them out on their bs #i dont see it because i curate my dash to the point drama is usually a mild breeze at best but i am more than willing to #weaponize my whiteness to force other white ppl to think. if you gotta point me at em do it idc. like a lil attack chihuahua or something. #idk #im lagging now but my fingers dont want to stop typing bc i am nervous abt posting this but yknow. whatever if i fuck up i learn & move on! #we Do Not succumb to white guilt we gracefully say im sorry for that thank you for pointing it out even though you didnt have to i know its #exhausting to do constantly i will keep that in mind and then we do! and we modify our behavior! and we DO. BETTER

[dobranocka]

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#anyway #keeping this in tags because of the obvious reasons that i don't want this to spread etc etc #but i feel so tired and burn out and disillusioned in this fandom #to the point i feel bad about the thing i was very very excited to be working on for myself #and i hate the fact that i feel this way #like usually a fandom has been a crutch to me when i was feeling worse in terms of mental health #and the only time i felt a need this strong to disengage was like... in 2019 when some really bad stuff happened in my life #and i can't look at the things i wrote then without thinking 'oh this is a chronicle of my grief' #which yeah makes me sad but also nostalgic for the messages and support i got from fandom friends back then #whereas now it is like... #it's not only that i feel like i am posting and writing fics for the void #since apparently giving any sort of feedback is not something done anymore #or maybe not in this particular community? #why give comments when you can shoot someone a message 'oh you wrote a thing i am definitely going to read it never' #which is... fine i guess #i can deal with people not liking my writing #me ego is big enough i guess #but this is like... the first time in years that i've been finding talking to people in fandom spaces seriously tedious #like not because i don't enjoy talking about this piece of media! #because i do! #but i feel like somewhere along the way people lost the concept of boundaries and idk #not trying to shove your own fic with a weird kink/pairing/concept down someone else's throat #or hear about someone else work and immediately go 'oh amazing i can write the same thing!' #like... how on earth is that a normal behaviour #(not counting like normal assholery behaviour) #idk #maybe i am being too unkind or too fragile #or i just don't get modern fandom 'etiquette' #since apparently now being mindful of potentially triggering things and not spitting them in someone's face is too high of a bar #but i am just... tired

[gazelessmenagerie]

(more thoughts beneath the cut.)

( ..and that’s not touching on my ideas for broly’s power don’t align to other folks ideas sfnalsnfknflkjg tbh i think he can totally square up to a lotta things. the main reason why i just have not want to really ‘fight’ hard is bc he totally can beat tf outta so many things so its more of a ‘ I dont need to express my energy too much ‘ deal with him. but thats not to say he wont use his brawn for threats and follow them up when he doesnt get his way. He has the capability to destroy the universe if he wants to and no i will not be persuaded that he is anything less than that. But you know.. its hard to find food if he destroys everything. )

( im not saying he’s invincible but he sure as fuck isn’t meant to be a pushover and I try hard to juggle that with him not murdering muses but keeping his animosity and hella threatening aura as close as I feasibly can. )

( putting into perspective that amount of raw power is both fascinating and yet so infuriating bc his entire reason to NOT do that is bc ‘ lol fuck you dad. I’m living my own life........................ ............................... that I’m figuring out. ‘ and thats it. afldsjg its not a bad reason in my view, his inactivity or lack of ‘ambtion’ is part of his journey to figure out what it is he wants bc he never had the chance to think about it till now. What does Broly want? What COULD he want...? He has all the power he could ever have. He has free reign to do was he wish but he’s got things to work out on his own. ruling an empire is nothing new, he’s been worshipped, he’s killed, he’s destroyed. what good would starting another empire do for him than to give him some luxuries he finds temporary use for until he gets bored. Living out in that desert has been something of a strange conundrum in a way..

He could totally take over earth, make people worship him but what will he do after..? he doesn’t... necessarily have the ability to Rule as a king would. He knows the basic order but to keep it running is different bc that was Paragus’ entire shtick in a sense. Broly was just the means to enforce those rules when he was under control. On his own.. I dont think Broly would honestly care too much. He’d want food, be decorated in lavish things but he’ll grow bored of it on the eventual. 

Now living out on the harsh lands. thats where he feels more at home. Facing down tooth and claw, testing his strength against the elements and beasts of varying kinds. It just feels more natural to him as much as it is lounging around doing nothing and enjoying the sun and wide open air. Just... so many small components come into play and they totally go ignored or they aren’t “noticed” by him or anyone unless someone pays really close attention to the way he acts and reacts to things. 

as it was Pointed out before.. ‘ he’s never honest with himself ‘ and that just drives such a hard fucking stake in my heart bc its true. for all the power he has, he just... denies something in him that’s as equally in part of him as it is his rage and power. and yes this is totally me inserting my HC on Legendary Saiyans if I haven’t yelled about it enough. I just.. .really enjoy duality and opposing natures being at war with one another. Its just that survival specifically favored one side over the other but the diminished side has never left.. its just dormant but it resides still. Its just.. really good and such a fun little thing when I get to write on those rare moments he finds himself at a certain loss with his own feelings. )

( of course this goes without saying he wont ever show that to just anyone. anldfsjg just. i cannot stress how fucking hard it is to get through his shell. but the more people he meets and cares for, the worse he’ll be off bc his paranoia will be off the charts and it’s going to cause him to lose control over himself. As great as his power is, it comes with a heavy toll bc he never learned to control his own power and manage it beyond getting overwhelmed with power and outright Needing to expel the excess energy in a violent burst before he tears himself apart from the inside. To reach that equilibrium within during his Legendary state.. just.. whoo man. he’s got.. some good reason why he doesn’t always go Legendary both bc there’s a pretty good chance he won’t remember what he did during that state and the immense amount of strain it puts on him physically and mentally afterwards. )

( afnlsdjf which.. idk, i’d like to explore somehow if he would be willing to learn how to control his own Legendary power, i think that’d be fun but also so aggravating bc he’s stubborn and it’s gonna take months for him to get anywhere.. but he’d be better for it in some way. Not ceasing being a menace but at least he won’t destroy the earth in a fit of jealousy or outrage (possibly) )

( just.. anfalsdjg idk man.. I see and write a lot of facets for this bastard that really only get to show when he’s observed long enough but lmfao he doesn’t let people in that close on a usual basis. I just want him to have a better life at time and other times I just want him to drive himself up the wall with his senseless self destructive habits bc he just doesn’t know better than what was instilled to him and what his power does to him if he lets it take over. )

( he doesn’t know how lonely he is in truth or how much pain and sorrow he has beneath all the anger. again.. lots of feels anflsjg but jfc thats my tedtalk on like a tired and anxious brain. apologies if this made no sense bc i sure as fuck didnt proofread it and I wrote whatever came to mind. )

#|| Tag: OOC #|| Character Study: {Broly} #( ...i guess this is just Kuro spills out his thoughts bc Hw broke him and he has no brain at all to write but still has Thoughts(tm) #( lowkey thoughts. im tired and i want to sleep but i dont want to go to class anflsfklgjkjg ) #( i think just the stress of getting assigned not only 2 thigns due tomorrow and its a shitload of questions. ) #( but also having some mock-interview thigns to prepare for really got me over my usual threshold so ) #( idk thsi is just how I try to deal with it bc stupid space gorilla is my fucking blorbo ) #( and thinking about him kinda helps. now if only he can do my hw or at least blow it up. i'd be forever grateful ) #( BUT ANYWAY. back to my thoughts. ) #( tbh I think he shouldn't have been killed by the sun in the second movie anflsdjfsjg ) #( bastard survived a exploding planet as a baby. can't really tell me he won't be strong enough to face the goddamn sun fully grown. ) #( bUT AGAIN. plot reasons. anflanflkajg ) #( Not really like.. /complaining/ just kinda splurging out thoughts bc trying to measure anything in this godforsaken fandom over power lvls #( is just a fucking nightmare and I dont wanna deal with that. ) #( i just go by what my thoughts feel bc its my blog and I get to dictate how I want to make my interpretation of broly. ) #( not to say i wouldn't be opposed to just plotting it out???? cause fuck man. I'm not here to try and overpower everyone ) #( I just want a good story/rp experience as opposed to fighting over who's stronger or whatever db fans do typically. ) #( idk AGAIN. TIRED BRAIN IS JUST TIRED AND SPLURging. anway thx for my tedtalk. )