#forgiveness from grudge

[idiopathicsmile]

the thing about speaking aloud your long-held anxieties to your best friend is that sometimes you worry about burdening them but also sometimes you're like, "wow friend, you are so incredibly considerate and no matter how hard i try to match that energy, i feel like i am comparatively kind of boorish"

and your friend goes, "first of all, i have never found you to be an inconsiderate person. secondly, the thing i look for in my friendship with you, the quality you bring to my life that is special and treasured and unique, is your ability to hold a constant, ironclad grudge on my behalf, with searing intensity, until seemingly the end of time"

and it is such a tremendous relief because the thing about being ceaselessly petty towards your friends' enemies is that you don't even have to try

#yeah i'm still mad at my best friend's first boyfriend #this is a normal and healthy way to live and i will brook no argument #i do sometimes reflect on the fact that i would probably benefit from forgiving some people who aren't in my life anymore #but friend-grudges? those are golden

[mfshipbracket]

voted for reylo against the critrole ship because as much as i hate reylo i find cr more omnipresent and annoying <3 everything else im voting against reylo ofc but i had to compromise my principles for one moment to fight my greatest enemy

i understand. if reylo was pit against my longtime nemesis emma from goodreads i would also vote for reylo. some hatreds are too sacred and personal to abandon for a bit.

#asks #emma from goodreads i harbor an eternal grudge against your terrible opinions. both literary and philosophical #personally i enjoyed tlovm but i will NEVER begrudge someone their haterisms #to err is human to forgive is divine and to be a little hater is my goddamn civic right

[anon-unofficial]

hey so. um. i was told that lmk didn't have any pain. and. haha. haha. haHa...what the f

#🅰️non talks #lego monkie kid #*glares at ceres* I TRUSTED YOU #/silly #gOOOOOOOOD MK YOU SILLY TRAUMATIZED BOY #HUGGING YOU AND SQUISHING YOU AND CODDLING YOU IN MY HEAD AS I AM TYPING THIS #(i also hope that there is more to it where that came from cuz im on s2ep9 rn and i want to really DWELL on the sadness and angst potential #(cuz from what i'm seeing in the main earlier episodes (I AM NOT COMPLAINING WHATSOEVER I DO KNOW THAT THIS IS STILL A KID'S SHOW)) #(forgiveness is very easy to come by in the main cast) #(i wanna explore trying to give them more negative aspects like holding grudges (either visible or invisible) and showing remnants of ptsd #from earlier encounters) #(just idk man I HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH GIVING EVERYTHING JUST A PINCH OF REALISM OK???? angst is my lifeblood you all should know that /lh) #edit: ok i just reread their response to my ask and turns out i accidentally left out the part where they told me there IS pain #oh #ahem #ahem... #edit2: I AM AN IDIOT. I FORGOT TO SEPARATE THIS EARLIER BUT PTSD IS **NOT** A NEGATIVE ASPECT AND I AM SO SORRY FOR MAKING IT OUT TO BE ONE #PTSD IS VALID AND THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE PTSD DESERVE TO FEEL SAFE AND HAPPY FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES #FUCK YOU IF YOU DON'T THINK THE SAME OK BYE

[syn0vial]

honestly, i'm very happy to support watcher's revised subscription platform. i was already paying $5 a month on patreon to see episodes a day early, so i'm glad to pay $6 to see them a whole MONTH early!

#it's sad bc if they'd announced this first‚ people would be lauding them for their initiative and generosity #instead they had to be talked down from what was honestly a bad deal for the audience #and a lot of people won't forgive them for that #not me tho! if they can pull this off‚ 1. i get a better deal #and 2. future content creators get a harrowing lesson that walking back a bad business decision is better than doubling down #that's a win-win as far as i'm concerned‚ parasocial grudge-holding be damned #watcher entertainment

[analyzingadventure]

You know I actually never realized this before-- so you remember how tri. retconned Original Chosen fighting and defeating Apocalymon into them fighting the Dark Masters instead? (To be fair it is possible they could've ALSO fought Apocalymon afterwards but that isn't the Epic Final Showdown tri. decided to depict so it's borderline a retcon)

If the Original 5 Chosen fought and defeated the Dark Masters once in the distant past, doesn't that mean that

A) They survived and hid for just a few thousand years until they came back for a Round 2 at conquering the world

B) They died, were reborn, and THEN went for the Round 2

You know I've just DYING with curiosity, desperately wanting to know if any of the villians in Adventure would ever be reborn after Adventure, right. Because according to the lore they should, right (unless their data was like somehow absorbed by Apocalymon and destroyed along with him (though that would still leave Piemon as an exception (and Vamdemon but we all know what happened to him) and the sole survivor))

And what tri. has essentially done is confirm that most of them should, in fact, be reborn sooner or later

But that just raises the question of if Apocalymon was lowkey driving the Dark Masters nuts (as suggested by the novels), and if tri. was kind of about destroying the last remnants of Apocalymon's data (within Meicoomon), if they were reborn this time would they be free of Apocalymon's influence

If so, would their third (?) lives then turn out different? Would they still try to take over the world all over again for funsies (this time just without Apocalymon giving them power etc), or were they just the same as Ken was in Zero Two? I mean Apocalymon was supposed to be a spawn of Milleniummon and Ken was infected with Mille's malice directly, so while it may have been a bit filtered it was still the same source of malice and corruption, right

And like regardless of how their next lives would turn out, shouldn't the kids (OR AT THE VERY FUCKING LEAST GENNAI) like realize that this is going to happen eventually and like. Go and see if they can find them (either as their pre-Ultimate forms or even when they're still in their Eggs) and try to figure out what to do BEFORE shit hits the fan

I JUST

#Sorry I'm rewatching the second half of Adventure while working (it improves my focus actually) and #Oh the brainworms are real #Text post #I'm sorry I'm just thinking about Pinocchimon. My sweet poor murder child just needed friends 😭 #But even if he was reborn without the craving for blood- who would be friends with him. After all he did in his past life #Who would want to be friends with him. Who would forgive him #IS HE GONNA BE DOOMED TO BE ALONE FOREVER. I'M 😭😭😭 #Meanwhile for all we know Piemon is still stuck in that other dimension 10 years later lmao #Depending on if tri.'s reboot ever affected him at all or not because god fucking knows we'll never find out #(Or if he even COULD be affected by the reboot to begin with. God knows Wizarmon seemed to be fucking IMMUNE to it) #(Even though it was supposed to reset EVERYBODY) #But also that could have horrifying implications too if Piemon was just left to cook overnight with a part of Apocalymon #Like Apocalymon is just a collection of grudge and hate from Digimon who've gone extinct right #What's stopping that part of Apocalymon from just restarting the collection of hatred and grudge all over again #This time using Piemon as a vessel to just contain it #Like Apocalymon came from beyond the Wall of Fire to begin with so it's not like dimensional barriers should stop him either #I mean the good news is that there probably haven't been that many Digimon species that've gone extinct after Adventure #But still kids. Y'all might have a timebomb on your hands #Edited to remove some of excessive cursing lmao. I was feeling very intense when writing this sorry lmao

[the-hoely-bleach]

I don’t normally post about lore cause no thoughts but fuck it, I’m seeing way too many bad faith takes here. Please assume that I am talking about the rp characters unless otherwise specified.

Do I think certain things could have been worded slightly better? Yes. Do I think that Dream suddenly showing a hint of remorse was weird and that it only happened for sake of drama? Yes. Do I think. That Punz could’ve been removed from that last scene and it would’ve changed nothing?? Yes, though it was funny to imagine him just standing there on his phone while discduo had there heart to heart. However,

I do not think it was cc!Tommy’s intention to have his character sympathize with his abuser. Mainly because that fully does not make sense for Tommy as a person /or/ as a character.

In that last scene, we see Tommy, who knows he only has a few minutes left to live, desperately trying to make sense of what has happened to him. Why, why would someone do what Dream to him? He has to hash this out now because he knows he’ll never get the chance again. He decides, “fuck it. I’ve got nothing left lose so why don’t I just ask”.

And then he gets his answer. And he finally understands. Tommy and Tubbo have spent this entire four part finale reminiscing about the good old days. Back when things were simple. Before the wars and the politics and the baggage, before everyone hated each other. And in limbo he sees that deep down, Dream wants the same thing, he’s just gone about it in completely the wrong way.

The beauty in Tommy’s character, to me, is that he is so loud and annoying and rude and when he’s bored he will pick fights just to see what’ll happen. But beneath all that, there’s a quiet kindness that people like Dream have never gotten to see. And in his final moments he extends that kindness to Dream, not because all is forgiven, but because we’re both about to die so we may as well make our peace. “Fuck you for what you did to me, and I’m sorry that I have to kill you.”

(Just want to say before this next paragraph that I am in no way saying that Dream’s actions, especially exile and beyond, are excusable, nor do I think Tommy deserved what he went through, nor do I think he(Dream) deserved any kind of redemption/reconciliation arc. Redemption=death was the only option for him if they wanted to go that route.)

And in the new world? With wiped memories and a clean slate? They’re friendly with each other because they have no reason not to be. They don’t know each other. Because the whole point of this ending is that their dynamic started mostly through circumstance. Dream may have been a control freak from the beginning, but he was not an evil abusive master manipulator. He thought Tommy was a little shit(and let’s be honest with ourselves, he was kind of a menace in the early days), and then they were on opposite sides of a war. First it was just politics, and then Tommy was easy scapegoat to push his own agenda, then it snowballed from there. Dream was not sick and twisted from the start, he became that monster over time through a series of bad decisions and poorly managed obsessions.

The point of the ending was to explore a what-if  scenario. “What if Tommy and Dream met for the first time, without all the emotional and political and personal baggage? Will they still end up hating each other in the end, or will they find common ground? Will they end up just not having anything to do with each other? Who knows, we’ll have to wait and see!”

It’s a clean slate. And things are simple.

#dream smp #dsmp #discduo #c!tommy #c!dream #I will say there is some merit to the interpretation that like #Tommy is so emotionally strung out and tired that he does fully forgive Dream #either in a similar way to how he forgave Wilbur #or because with this new understanding he genuinely want Dream to be better #extending kindness to those who certainly don’t deserve it and such #or just because he wanted to die with no grudges #I honestly think that’s an interesting thing to explore because it does happen in real life #with varying degrees of success #I think it’s also very in character for Tommy to believe that even an evil man like Dream can change #I don’t mention all this in the main post because in this context they literally don’t have time for that kind of story arc #it just wouldn’t make sense from a writing perspective #bleaching my thoughts

[cherrirui-official]

OOOH HOW DID I MISS THIS WAUGH

And ofc! I'd love to share more, also @tenchikothefangirl ty for giving me an excuse to ramble abt my beach bros au more ahaha 😏

For the first part, yes! I'd like to think they talk it out, they live together so it's basically inevitable. Tho it would DEFINITELY take a lot of time to work things out... not bc they hate each other (FAR from it actually) it's just that, ya know, they didn't really leave on the best terms. I don't have that part fully thought out but they indeed do talk things out eventually.

Second, YES!!! 100 TIMES YES, John finds out that Bruce runs a business and is more than happy to help! It's gives JD stuff to do when he's not out exploring (cuz sometimes he goes out adventuring for funsies but he mostly stays on Vacay Island). He even cooks sometimes, since as the oldest brother JD would have to make food for everyone back when they all lived together.

I'd like to imagine him running around the Cantina carrying a huge plate of like nachos or smthn over his head lol

Thirdly, he's definitely the really cool and morally questionable uncle. JD lets the kids stay up sometimes, gives them a little bit more candy than they are allowed to eat, and he would watch Bruce and Brandi leave for a night out or smthn and then as soon as they're gone he turns to the kids and says "Okay, who in here wants to learn how to make traps :]". On the topic of traps, JD would absolutely teach the kids all the outdoor survival stuff that he'd learn over the years!

Tho of course, due to experience with 4 younger brothers, he still does know how to take care of them. I like to imagine that if Bruce and Brandi are both tired after a long day of work, JD would step in and make food for the kids and watch over them so that the couple can rest. They really do appreciate the extra set of hands.

Oh! And JD would 100 percent tell the kids stories about how he got each of his scars, however some stories maaaaay be a bit more exaggerated than others hehe...

Also, as a bonus, Rhonda lives on Vacay Island with the bros and Brandi. I like to believe that JD stays with Rhonda instead of the house where the others live. As for Bruce, he doesn't mind this. Bruce is very fond of Rhonda, tho he could never be as close to her as JD is but that's fine. He's actually been inside Rhonda quite a few times, he likes it in there, it makes him feel safe...

That's pretty much it for now. I've got a few things planned for this au tho so be prepared teehee 😈

#I was gonna try and draw smthn to go along with this but im packing rn AAA!!! Maybe when im free ill do a few sketches of these #most of these are JD centric oops #but hes lovely so i cant complain #i was gonna have brandi be distant from jd at first bc bruce would often rant to her abt him before he showed up #BUT she immediately warms up to him in the movie like she greets him and looks genuinely happy to meet him i could never #the more i think abt it i feel like Brandi isnt the type to hold grudges and i feel like she forgives easily shes super chill #and its hard to upset Brandi sooo #unless you hurt her family in some way ofc. she'd be LIVID #trolls #trolls band together #trolls john dory #john dory trolls #bruce trolls #trolls bruce #trolls brandy #trolls brandi #nuls nonsense

[hopeworth]

kishimoto might have been a mostly bad writer but he kinda went off with Breaking The Cycle as an overarching theme of the whole series

#naruto #the cycle of war and revenge that the shinobi world is trapped in from the small conflicts like chiyo’s instant hatred of kakashi for his #dad killing her kid to nagato’s whole character arc about war hurting him so and leading him to greater acts of violence #the tsuchikage and the old kages being cold military leaders at the beginning and then learning to set aside decades old grudges to look to #the future instead. #SASUKE’S WHOLE CHARACTER. GOD. need i say more. #yes i will. sasuke beginning his character arc as an avenger who will continue the cycle of violence by killing his brother. and then #turning his hatred on danzo and konoha once he sees his brother as a victim. he is naruto’s direct foil as naruto forgives everyone who’s #ever hurt him because he so desperately wants to end the cycle of hatred borne from war (JIRAIYA’S DREAM. DONT LOOK AT ME) #don’t even get me fucking STARTED on indra and asura and the uchihas and the senju and madara and hashirama. #two brothers who fought and their descendents and incarnations are fated to be locked in conflict. an endless cycle of war and violence #between yin and yang sun and moon. and because kishimoto went OFF with VOTE2 symbolism: #hashirama and madara coming so close to ending that cycle but in the end they fought to the death and their statues are built across the #waterfall from each other (the way they had been across the river from each other as kids) doing the hand sign for the beginning of kumite #and sasuke and naruto starting VOTE2 across from each other the way hashirama and madara were and ending the fight in the middle of the #river on top of the broken off hands of the statues performing the seal of reconciliation at the end of a kumite signalling the end of the #cycle of fate they were trapped in. #SOMETHIGN SOMETHING WE ARE TRAPPED IN MEANINGS THAT CIRCULATE LIKE BLOOD FR………… #ALSO the bijuu and humans being trapped in the cycle of hate and fear of each other. yeah. kishimoto really went off with The Themes here #nart.txt

[villainsidestep]

anyway now that we’re awake again. thoughts on fawn’s Definitely Not unrealistic idea of how family relates to forgiveness

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #the post is asking in a rhetorical way but also if u Do have an answer feel free to give it lmao BUT ANYWAY #our personal thoughts. headcanons if u will. abt our own oc. #fawn who gives unending love and forgiveness to their brothers not bc they’re unaware of the possibility of them holding grudges against #them for it but bc fawn who learned from north that the two ways you can feel abt someone is either good or bad !!!! #when you are good and people are happy w you then that is good !! it means you are worth something !!! #but when you are bad and they are unhappy with you. that is when the trouble begins !! that is when they hit you and hurt you and #let you know that you’re nothing !!! you’re useless and a reject and only usable as a tool !!! #tools can be replaced. it doesn’t have to be You. and river has proven that enough already even before you lost value #v3 fawn who doesn’t expect chen or the ortegas or anyone else to rescue them bc they consider themself no longer usable to them #but their brothers. if they’re alive they’d help them. if they’re alive then fawn will help them back. bc they love them. trust them. #bc they only want to ever be good towards them. they don’t want to be bad or have them be bad back #but. if their brothers are bad to them. if they abandon or replace or kill them. fawn will forgive them. #bc if they don’t have them then what’s the point of having survived losing them the first time?

[derpinette]

i hope whoever's idea it was to shut down skyblogs suffers endlessly for the rest of their life & never sees a day without misery

#HOW COULD YOU do this to me #seriously never forgiving this decision ever this is my one grudge #all those kikoojap blogs all those blogs of millennials i know IRL such as my tenth grade maths teacher i hated ( the feeling was mutual ) #fashion blogs emo people from my country just an archive of how internetheads behaved on the francophone side of the web back then #facebook is just NOT the same so much less Sovl & authenticity way more normies than not Plus it came later #sad about this again a year or like two later ughhhh so disgusted #i even still have my own skyblog password saved on this very browser</3 but it was like basically empty i had at most one to three posts #easily the WORST part is i have no way of accessing archives #so so damn UNFAIR. #of all people i should be able to browse those. for free

[thegreatestheaver]

one thing abt me is that I will hold grudges till the day that I die idgaf if it’s petty because I don’t hold grudges for no reason

#forgive and forget? no. maybe sometimes I forgive but rarely. and my ass will NEVER forget you will be tarnished in my mind forever #and typically it is for the best because then I realize how shitty someone actually is #and it helps me to move on and heal from whatever they did to me #maybe holding a grudge means I’ll never fully heal. but honestly idgaf #petty and full of rage till the day that I die if you’ve ever wronged me or made me horribly upset you’re going to hell and I hate you #honestly if you’ve ever made me upset period you’re going to hell and I don’t like you #protecting my peace tbh .. #dawwgg I need to sleep it’s like 5am and I need to be up for classes tomorrow AUHGHGH

[imprvdente]

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐏𝐄 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔?

𝐅𝐈𝐒𝐇 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐓 - the sacrifice

a knife to your back is your first memory– it will also be your last. you cannot help but let things into your heart, such is your nature. time and time again, however, they hurt you and leave you to rot. but your heart remains open, and you continue to let more in. is it kindness, at that point, or is it sacrifice?

𝐅𝐈𝐒𝐇 ��𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 - the final girl

you're very tired, aren't you? thrashing and fighting and trying to survive– it has taken its toll, but that has not stopped you. you'll continue to gnaw and scream and bare teeth until you can free yourself from this mess, even if it means being the last one left. there is rest at the end of this hard battle, i promise you. there is a time when the fight will be over– but fighting is all you know, isn't it?

tagged by @countlessrealities (thank you <3) tagging @uselessdevice (Saros) @collidingxworlds (Abigail) @multipleoccupancy (Edgar) @governmentofficial @historiavn @versin-surfin (Léon) @theresastargirl @dcmur3 @lovepurposed @batteredoptimist (Muriel) @pctioneer @fantasywritten (Strahm)

#I was NOT expecting these results at all #i'm still thinking abt them lolll #for Fish Monet I feel it really speaks to her fatal flaw: her heart and how she never holds a grudge #forgiving sometimes the worse things and finding endless excuses even for terrible people #Fish lecter ngl I was expecting the killer but??? I guess it makes sense #her father is the killer #I'd say this result doesn't work for the first half of her life but does fit very well after Hannibal is incarcerated #she's surviving and suffering from the aftermath of her father's decisions #plus there is something feral about Fish Lecter's brand of violence it's not completely calculated it has a lot of heart #ironically lolll (she's just like her dad haha) #sorry for the rambling fdsjkhfdsjkf #fish (monet) #fish (lecter) #dash games #(musing)

[lesbianlotties]

i should've learned the lesson of not reading fics that i know will be great but emotionally destroy me in the middle of the day. how am i supposed to get any work done now???

#my stomach literally started hurting for a moment there because of the emotions™ #do you ever read a fic and someone does something so unforgiveable that you're like???? i could never move on from this #rip to the rest of the world but i Would hold a grudge forever and ever #should i worry about how forgiving i am NOT? #reading something that would me 1. choose violence and 2. completely transform my life (for the worse probably)

[to-be-a-dreamer]

Still salty about how during the last week of eighth grade I lent this one kid my pencil right before we went to lunch but then he got into a fight in the cafeteria and was suspended for the rest of the year so then I never got my pencil back

#i have so many petty grudges against people i have not spoken to in years #there's this one girl i still have beef with because she got me in trouble in kindergarten for something i didn't do #we have not spoken since #last i checked she was in the military #i do not forgive her for making me lose a behavior card when we were five #also there's a guy somewhere in spain who still owes me a dollar from when he was a foreign exchange student and i got him a coke #saframbles

[and-stir-the-stars]

One benefit of Cassidy and Evan’s friendship is that Evan will probably learn from her that he absolutely does NOT have to forgive Michael for the way Michael treated him when he was alive, or for Michael killing him, even if killing him was an accident.

#ofc cassidy will also try traching evan that he should be holding grudges and give michael hell #that's not really evan's style tho. #he does learn from her that he does not owe mikey any forgiveness tho #evan afton #the crying child #cassidy fnaf #does she have a last name? dunno #fnaf

[hyperfixationtimego]

if you hate him we can’t be friends 💔

#this is how I cope with seeing people who are Inherently Wrong™️ in the main tags btw #he’s just a guy……..his heart is so full and he loves so thoroughly #he adopts an emo and a feral goth and helps them to appreciate life again what more do you WANT FROM HIM #obviously he has flaws but every dr character does?? #and frankly aside from the translation issues I find that his flaws are handled in one of the most narratively satisfying ways #and I definitely feel as though a lot his actions and behaviors that people point to as reasons for disliking him are simply taken out of #context #he’s a character who was facing death before the killing game ever even started - #YES he’s intense but that’s because he has to be. he’s trying to do as much as he can within a limited timeframe #AS A TEENAGER NO LESS #Y’ALL SEEM TO LIKE TO FORGET THAT PART TOO…..GUY’S IN HIGH SCHOOL 😭 #and anyway when push comes to shove he sets aside his grudges to try and do the right thing for the people he cares about #it’s. sigh. I think about the hangar scene SO MUCH. #like he really doesn’t let Shuichi apologize because he knows that Shuichi shouldn’t HAVE to #ALSO??? he’s not BEING AN ASSHOLE in chapter 4 HE’S JUST SEEING THE AFTERMATH OF SOMEONE HAVING BEEN HORRIBLY MANIPULATED INTO DOING #SOMETHING THEY WOULD NEVER OTHERWISE DO #he puts so much faith and trust in his friends because he KNOWS that fundamentally they are good people #he’s not even!!!!! directly an asshole to Kokichi until Kokichi starts treating the losses and trauma they’ve all suffered as trivial!!! #oh and don’t even come at me with the ‘’hypocrisy’’ shit #the dude’s body is fucking SHUTTING DOWN I can forgive him for not doing a couple pushups 😭 #cries and sobs I love him so much. he tries so hard to be positive and make the most of things #y’all just jealous 🤧 #danganronpa #kaito momota #ndrv3 #new danganronpa v3 #killing harmony #new danganronpa v3 killing harmony