#god im gonna fucking kill myself

[prettyboysmlm]

hahaha

#so for some reason our recycle truck comes at like 5pm now #so when i got home from school today i didn’t bring the recycle bin in bc they hadn’t taken it #and my mom said to me at ten pm. when it’s pitch black out. after i’d already showered. to go out and get it. #and i drug my feet with it bc i don’t wanna fucking do that it’s dark out and i don’t wanna go outside after i just showered #so i finally go down there to do it #and she already did it and said that im grounded tomorrow #jesus fucking christ i can’t win #she always does shit like this to make me feel like shit and to take away my shit #bc she can’t stand that i have access to stuff that can make me hate her #now im sitting here fucking crying and wishing i was dead #all bc the recycle truck comes late now. #god im gonna fucking kill myself #happy first fucking day of senior year to me!!!!!!!!!!! #gonna go do beans #which i haven’t done in months #thanks mom can’t wait til i’m gone and never have to see you again #k.txt #vent tw #sh tw

[tubbytarchia]

outfit design? Dont know her (god help me)

(HEY PERSON SCROLLING THROUGH MY BLOG, the mc art fizzles out here! Please be wary of sudden yugioh art)

#If I make even the tiniest animatic of the last session then Im gonna need some refs for myself urggg #geminitay #geminitay fanart #zombiecleo #zombiecleo fanart #ethoslab #solidaritygaming #but god I fucking LOVE drawing hair #but I absolutely cannot draw Cleo's current skin lmao no way Im gonna kill myself trying #its super slay though. my artistic ability is not slay enough to draw it you know #secret life spoilers #I think #*draws extremely simplified human legs and feet and then goes for hyperrealism on animal legs* oops #secret life #secret life fanart #tubby art

[queen0fm0nsterz]

GUYS THIS IS LEGIT WAKE UP A TRAILER FUCKING DROPPED

#little nightmares #little nightmares 2 #six #ln six #little nightmares six #mono #ln mono #little nightmares mono #KILLING MYSELF POSTPONED #WHAT THE FUCK #OH MY FUCKING HOD IM IN TEARS #OH MY GOD IM GONNA PUKE #ANALYSIS OF THE TRAILER COMING SOON

[variousqueerthings]

my cute post about fourteen with the noble family is flying off the shelves, but not enough people interested in the queerness contained within the deeply intimate erotic implications of fourteen/fifteen being consciously inside one another? no fans of science fiction premises queering the visceral physical nature of knowing someone/oneself deeper than anyone else? the queerness of asexual reproduction depicting an intense connection with the self that is nigh-indescribable but is canonically beautiful and loving? the queerness inherent in fourteen's and fifteen's relationship with one another retroactively stretching back to encompass every single iteration of the doctor? the queer ideas encapsulated through depicting one being with oneself like that? the queerness that is pushing the limits of thinking up language about how we relate to our own/others bodies in space/time that is possible in science fiction? nobody think bi-regeneration is very sexy queer-coded?

#doctor who #dw #the doctor #the fifteenth doctors #the fourteenth doctor #dw spoilers #doctor who spoilers #where are all my weirdo scifi concept fans at... psstpssstpsssst #i do enjoy a bit of cuteness myself but really im here for the scifi fuckery -- the good and the evil #thinking about fucked up toymaker fic if he'd taken the doctor's suggestion #or what he was saying about killing the doctor over and over #also thinking about no-thing tardis with the doctor inside #and also ofc fourteen and fifteen having this intense connection #there will be More feelings once fifteen gets going esp if/when (ok we know it's when) the master returns #ohhh and the doctor and gods! its gonna be great #bi-generation

[fatmaclover]

why the fuck was so much attention put onto the fact that dennis is really weird for having a system for securing men figured out. whyd they make him SO defensive. WHY DID HE MAKE HIS FRIEND AND ROOMMATE CUM. WHYD HE DO THAT. HE DIDNT HAVE TO DO THAT. IM STILL NOt OVER HOW YOU GUYS WERENT EXAGGERATING. DENNIS REYNOLDS WHY ARE YOU TAKING THE FIRST EXCUSE TO PUT ANAL BEADS UP YOUR FRIENDS ASS TO CONTROL HIM. IM GONNA GO INSANE. WHAT IS THIS SHOW

#sorry. i try to keep myself decent on this blog but #this fucking episode. is already indecent . #what is wrong with them. what is WRONG WITH DENNIS. #im gonna grab him and shake him around like a grizzly to a tree #i need to kill him. please. #its all ive ever wanted #how much were they texting #how much were they talking #how much of his heart and soul has mac poured out to johnny. #WHY DOES MAC LIKE GETTING ROOFIED. #oh my god hes such a fag with trauma #iasip spoilies #kat liveblogging #keys dont look

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ok no im so tired but ive had this Thing a Laughingstock Concept Thing in my Brain for Days Now and its.... basically what if Barnaby adopted a lil caterpillar. like it's not sapient or anything its literally A Wriggly Puppet Prop. but he finds it in his home and it reminds him of Howdy and he keeps it. he carries it everywhere. he treats it so tenderly and names it and everything. his delusional smitten subconscious is like "omg... mine & howdy's <3" he and Howdy are not even together at this point

so Barnaby cares for this lil caterpillar and Howdy ends up getting attached as well, because he's on the same shit as Barnaby. and eventually the lil caterpillar pupates, and they watch over the chrysalis So Excited to see what lil wormie will look like as a butterfly. and it emerges and they're so proud and weirdly emotional. the butterfly takes off on its first flight and lands on a flower patch

just in time for Eddie to trip and fall on the patch, instantly crushing it And the butterfly

#in my mind eddie is all 'oh man :( thank goodness frank wasnt around to see that' and then goes about his business #completely missing howdy & barnaby watching on In Horror off to the side #not lil wormie... no.... #also in my mind lil wormie looks like the fuckn. Adorable worm from sesame street #oscars little friend i think? the cutest little thing in the world? the little red wormie? yeah.... #but im feeling very Tender about bigass dog barnaby toting around this teensie weensie lil worm thing #treating it with utmost care and affection #big characters caring for absolutely tiny thing kills me every fucking time #bury me shallow... ill be back to die again.... #absolutely unprompted #laughingstock #ohhhh my god im not even gonna say how i almost butchered the laughingstock tag #sometimes i type letters in the wrong order or add an extra one. that would have been so unfortunate but Deeply Hilarious #ANYWAY LIL WORMIE IS AN ESTABLISHED THING IN MY MIND AND I DONT KNOW WHY #maybe... maybe tomorrow i will scribble it... #also to be clear the events of this post all happen within a week or two. #it is a brief shining Worm Time #ok going to bed now officially. im going #wait no i have to complain about something ive done to myself hold on #so i really like reeses puffs cereal yeah? but the problem is it cuts up my mouth to hell and back and makes eating anything a Pain #tried to eat sauerkraut tonight... it burned... the roof of my mouth is so scraped up... #i Will be eating another bowl when i wake up tho. its too tasty. i can take the annoyance that is minor pain. i have a high tolerance <3 #can i easily Not eat it? yeah. but i dont want to stop. nothing will stop me. its a jumbo box. i Will Finish It. #anyway wormie <3 gonna go think about her <3

[b4kuch1n]

tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out) #we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

[transsexualjoanofarc]

the godfather: the annotated screenplay

#me.txt #the godfather #IM GONNA FUCKING DIE #OH MY GOD I ACTUALLY WANT TO DIE #BE MY SON. YOU WANTED ME TO BE YR SON. #HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT A WIFE A FAMILY? 💥PAINED💥. NO. #I NEVER HAD A CHOICE. #I HAD NO CHOICE. #IM LITERALY. explodes & kills myself

[jackals-ships]

I don't need your roses, I like men on their knees

Praying up to their god, seein' visions of me

I'm a cult leader, mind reader, heart eater

Fear feeder, say I'm your favorite preacher

If I wasn't a narcissist I wouldn't like me either

diversity win! the dragonborn cult leader is nonbinary! they've also violated the fantasy geneva convention!

[dramatic lighting, bloody, an Just Funsies Alts under the cut]

eyestrain warning on these ones ! i was messing around with the blend modes and went Huh. Neat™

#jackals barks #okay 2 rb #dragon priest au #IT KEPT FUCKING CRASHING NYALL...........im gonna be so annoying about this piece bc of that- #theres still like. Some spots i wanna fuck with (ie i could do the stones better) but im actively dragging myself away #ANYWAYS. dragon priest jackal. sexy. vibes. has killed god. such is the way of it

[bluutunes]

so. that trigun manga, huh.

(/pos)

#trigun #like Jezus. #god damn #just finished vol2 and am gonna start maximum tomorrow #but they crank the intensity WAY up huh #nicholas d. wolfwood i pity you #bro was like “huh wow thats the guy im sposed to kill- oh hey he's actually nice. wack. anyways im gonna go meet up with my boss-” #“and hey wait a minute this seems kinda fishy. hey wait a sec what are we doing rn? hey wait what do you mean 150 yrs hey-” #“hey wait whats that hey wait hey what what whAT WHAT???? WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT???” #“ OH JESUS GOD AND THE DEVIL ARE REAL AND ANGELS JUST THREW DOWN IN A PARKING LOT AND NOW THERES A H O L E in the M O O N ????” #like he just got thrown RIGHT in there #no chill hang out time whatsoEVER #theres also other stuff that's like. Hmm. stampede and 98 were a bit more subtle with that. You just kinda came out and Said It huh. #interesting. #anyways i am enjoying myself immensely

[mushed-kid]

i have winter break next week and i wanna have fun

#ive been so sad tinught im gonna have my period soon #im so gonna get it so that it ruins the whole fucking break😭 #its gonna ruin all the fun if i get it next week #it better come tonight i swear #im gonna be with my friends but ill be rude and sad and its gonna ruin everything #i hate being alive #yeah no it’s definitely coming. soon cause im crying about it rn #i just ohhhhmy god does it have to be me???? specifically???!???? #im gonna kill god #can i just get it rn and have it done by the weekend please #please please please let me get what i want lord knows it would be the first time #😔😔😔😔😔 #ong its gonna start tomorrow trust with the way im so emotional rn #i fucking hate myself #i shouldve gone in the shower earlier cause its gonna be So Bad but i have to do it tonight #i wanna fucking kms #sorry im oversharing

[i-hear-a-sound]

oh and btw. ahsoka spoilers below (and big ones if I actually call this)

imagine if rex is there too. like. with anakin. and that’s how ahsoka sees him again.

#I’d kill myself not even joking I’d. #AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! SPONGEBOB RUNS AWAY WITH BIG LOUD SHOE SOUNDS #ahsoka #ahsoka spoilers #ahsoka series #ahsoka show #ahsoka series spoilers #ahsoka tv #ahsoka tano #captain rex #LITERALLY. IMAGINE. IMAGINE. IMAGINE!!!!! IMAGINE MOTHERFUCKER IMAGI #I WLULD CRY SO HARD. GENUINELY. LIKE. ACTUALLY. SERIOUSLY. ON GOD TRUTHFULLY. SINCERELY. ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! #IM OKAY IM OKAY IM OKAY. SMILES INTO THE CAMERA GUYS ITS OK #like cuz he’d be OLD old now………… IM GONNA CRY DAVE WOULD TOTALLY DO THIS SHIT #AND IF HE DOES…….. ILL FROWN AT HIM BIG TIME!!!!! AND HIS FUCKING COWBOY HAT. TEARS STREAMING DOWN MT CHEEKS TILL IM DRAINED LIKE A #LIMP LITTLE VEGETABLE OR WHATEVER THE FUCK WHHAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGHHHHH

[sofarsogoodsowhat]

Guy who is moving today (me)

#oh god. oh god. oh god im fucking scared i am moving to the fucking midwest and i do not want to #i mean i want to. im moving in with my boyfriend i am so fucking excited i miss him i love him so fucking much but god dammit why does he ha #have to live in ohio. babe if you see this im killing myself just letting you know. anyway oh my god #i have lived in the same city my entire. fucking life so this is like #a lot for me to deal with its fucking terrifying #i know im gonna be fine its just. holy shit?????? like this is really actually happening im fucking moving in with my boyfriend i am getting #out of this stupid piece of shit city im getting OUT. IM GETTING OUT!!!!!!!! SO MANY PEOPLE NEVER GET OUT OF HERE AND IM GETTING OUT!!!!!!!! #IM GETTING OUT IN LESS THAN TWELVE HKURS MY FLIGHT LEAVES AT 1:31PM

[sga-owns-my-soul]

haha ignore this i need to vent

i'm so fucking done i'm so fucking mad at everyone i'm pissed at my cousin for fucking me over i'm pissed at my clients for being fucking idiots i'm pissed at my city for NEVER HAVING WORKING FUCKING TRANSIT i'm not okay i'm so not fucking okay and i don't even have my fucking headphones bc they fell out of my jacket in my cousins STUPID FUCKING CAR THAT I BASICALLY PAY FOR BUT GOD FORBID SHE DRIVE ME HOME so now i get to spend over 2 hours (after i've spent 3 hours on transit/waiting for her this morning) on public transit to get home WITHOUT my music and my clothes are ruined with cat hair from my clients today so that's fucking great and OF COURSE everything in the fucking city is delayed bc WHY WOULD WE MAKE ANYTHING EASY FOR ME NO ITS FINE ILL JUST FUCKING SUFFER TO MAKE THINGA EASY FOR EVERYONE ELSE BECAUSE GODFORBID I GET TO CATCH A FUCKING BREAK

#no i'm not okay #i'm fuckimg crying on a train #that's on the LITERAL OPPOSITE END OF THE CITY FROM MY HOUSE #i spent just under 3 hours working today #and i'm spending over 5 hours getting to and from work #i'm so fucking done i'm so sick of being alive #holy fucking christ can ANYTHING not be fucking shit!!!!!!! #i hate being alive!!!!!!! i don't want to do this anymore!!!!!!! #and i can't even fucking kill myself bc god forbid the people in my life be sad #they can't lose me but they can fuck me over constantly!!!!! #god fuck i'm so fucking sick of this #i need a fucking break #humans aren't meant to work this much and im going to start actually commiting violence about it #tw suicide mention #personal rambles #ignore this #i'm just being too sensitive 🙃🙃🙃🙃 #i'm just Letting My Emotions Control Me 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #disclaimer i'm safe i'm not actually at risk of hurting myself at all i promise #i just wanna die but i'm not gonna do anything

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

my friends should be able to beat my parents with hammers

#shes leaving AGAIN. for this fucking guy. AGAIN #if she comes back fucking angry or crying again im genuinely gonna fucking kill myself i dont even care anymore #he literally had a gf the last time she called him. you have been having this fucking drama for months i don't even have sympathy for you #god no its been at least over a year now right #you are a grown woman with kids maybe instead of wasting money on going on another goddamn trip for a man who literally does not care you #could. idk. try taking your daughter to her goddamn appointment tomorrow????? #fucking christ #personal posts and stuff idk #aethers rants #cw vent

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i don't even like video games so why have i been playing Red Dead 2 for the past eight hours gay

#i think me brain likes the Reward of successfully one hit killing things with a bow and arrow #i was born in the wrong generation (should've been a hunter gatherer) #i dont even care about the story!!! the tutorial / first chapter was tedious as fuck! #im only completing missions to unlock things so that i can Keep Fucking Around!!! #also my horse's name is wizard and if anything happens to her im killing everyone in this game #thankfully when the fuckin. asshole odriscolls Ambushed me i was riding a backup horse i'd just tamed #so THAT one died instead of my darling wizard. but still. cmon #she was a gorgeous buckskin... her name was gonna be Egg... i was on my way to the stable to name her... #BUT YEAH I DONT EVEN LIKE THIS GAME ALL THAT MUCH WHY CANT I STOP PLAYING #maybe my brain is like 'oh my god finally something New. something other than the same shit we've been doing' #killin turkeys and deer #i tracked an elk into a train tunnel AND HIT IT!! #but it didnt die!!! and ran out!!! and then i couldnt find it!!! cmon!! #this game is so infuriating Why Cant I Stop #absolutely unprompted #though i have been thoroughly entertaining myself with my own antics #'i want to be nice to people 🥺' #ten seconds later im killing a man i couldve easily saved purely bc there were no witnesses around <3 #well! he would'a talked! i got a camp to protect and provide for! #oh ok yeah i also think my brain likes being able to be a rugged western man w a beard #riding horses and Providing in a slutty little outfit i picked out #most of the game is Such A Drag (as my darling shikamaru would say) #but there are some good bits. addicting bits. sigh #like the allure of open world. optional story. yeah <3 #no rules <3