#i hate being alive

[starxslvs]

#christiane f #shoegaze #rain #pinterest #mealspo #girl interrupted #fight club #girlblogging #i hate being alive #no energy #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #live laugh lobotomy #lana del rey #mitski #ethel cain

[i-hate-yuo]

Death has been calling me lately and fuck it I’m at his door step about to ring the doorbell

#depression #anxiety #suicide #suicidal #depressed #anxious #bw #sad #sadnees #im sad guys #i’m just so sad #i hate being alive #i hate living #i hate this #i hate you #trans #trans man #lgbtq #I’m a whole mess #kill me #please just ignore this all #death #dead #6 feet under

[neptunes-saddest-alien]

I only call it a home because calling it a prison makes you crazy

#tired #deppressed #exhausted #mentally tired #numb #lonliness #sad thoughts #alone #I hate being alive #I hate it here #hurt #suicidal

[star-crossed-system]

I hate being a system. So much. My boyfriend doesn't want to date me, he wants to date the nice part of me. He doesn't want to date the depressed, sensitive part of me, he wants to date the part that laughs when he talks and kisses him. I don't want to be a system anymore. I don't want to be a person anymore. I want to die.

-host

#i hate being alive #so fucking much #i hate the parts of me #all of them #even myself #system #endos dni #osdd #actually osdd #osdd alter #did osdd #did #hc did #traumagenic osdd #fuck endos #highly complex did #complex dissociative disorder #other specified dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder #disability #disabled #actuallydid #actually did #actually mentally ill #autism #actually plural #plural system

[crying-in-my-khakis]

my whole life is falling to pieces again and i don’t think i have the strength to pick it up this time

#suicide #suicidal #depression #misery #i hate myself #i hate being alive #im so tired #i hate everything #I just wanna be happy #or be allowed to lie down in peace for a few days #everything is so stressful

[deerteetharepretty]

I'm fucking TIRED

legit, I want to quit life. I'm so fucking tired that I keep ending up in holes and I don't know how to dig my way out alone. Whenever I think I've dug my way out and carved a niche place in this world for me, everything goes right back to shit. I finally scraped enough money to pay rent! I could breathe! But now my fucking cellphone is trying to bite the big one on me. I can't buy a new one because I'm too poor but I can't work without a phone. But if I complain about it, most people just act like I'm overreacting or tell me to ask my family for help. It's like they completely forgot that some of us either don't have any or ours were shitheads who hated us for being transgender. WHY IS LIFE SO FUCKING HARD?! I'm so tired of barely eating because I can't fucking afford right food now. It's so fucking pathetic. I can't even get 50$ together for a new phone because I'm working as a temp employee at a day labor place after the college closed the bookstore I worked at full time out of nowhere. (fUCK YOU ARARIA CAMPUS) I don't wanna make people feel shitty because they want to help but cant. It's so fucking hard. I don't know what to do anymore. paypal.me/BabydollImpaler

#i cant stop crying #im so sick of this shit #im so tired #i hate being alive #i hate living like this #i hate capitalism #i hate apple #emergency

[mushed-kid]

i have winter break next week and i wanna have fun

#ive been so sad tinught im gonna have my period soon #im so gonna get it so that it ruins the whole fucking break😭 #its gonna ruin all the fun if i get it next week #it better come tonight i swear #im gonna be with my friends but ill be rude and sad and its gonna ruin everything #i hate being alive #yeah no it’s definitely coming. soon cause im crying about it rn #i just ohhhhmy god does it have to be me???? specifically???!???? #im gonna kill god #can i just get it rn and have it done by the weekend please #please please please let me get what i want lord knows it would be the first time #😔😔😔😔😔 #ong its gonna start tomorrow trust with the way im so emotional rn #i fucking hate myself #i shouldve gone in the shower earlier cause its gonna be So Bad but i have to do it tonight #i wanna fucking kms #sorry im oversharing

[pinkribbonsstuff]

all I need rn is either to die or drink til i cant remember my own name, how I hate being alive

#i wanna slit my wrists #i wanna die #i wanna disappear #killing myself #i hate it here #i hate being alive #cvtting addict #drinking again

[starxslvs]

#girlblogging #coquette #girl interrupted #girlblogger #lana del rey #female hysteria #femcel #female manipulator #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #this is what makes us girls #put me in a movie #i hate being alive #i wanna be pretty #hell is a teenage girl #life is unfair #i hate it here #why am i like this #im going insane #im just a girl #live laugh lobotomy #help lol #send help #aaaaaa #im also just a girl #im rotting #im going to explode #why cant i make tags all caps #why do i do this to myself

[i-hate-yuo]

I can’t wait for the day I drift away

#trans man #i hate being alive #transgender #i hate you #why am i like this #fuck you #fuck this #i fucking love this game #i love them #fuck everybody #i want to cry #I want to die #agoraphobia #agoraphobic #pills #bw #why not #why do i do this to myself #why why why #screaming #social anxiety #anxious

[scooplery]

i am so sick but i can't leave work cause there's nobody else here but my boss. and nobody can be in the bank alone with the vault open.

#i hate being alive #im so sick of being SICK

[litteralytoriatp]

I hate that people think the only way to compliment a woman is on their looks, which to me is so impersonal as everyone has an appearance but not everyone has the same smile or personality or reaction to kindness. People should notice the little things rather than the things everyone can see. Someone once told me i was the prettiest person they had ever been around which yes i know was a complement or a 'nice' thing to say however it made me feel like the only thing that mattered to them was my looks, not my heart or my soul or my feelings, like i could be sobbing and crying but all they would see is how my tears made my eyes sparkle, or the effort of holding it together made my cheeks rosie.

#sad thoughts #feminism #i hate being alive

[hydetheghost]

I was in a good mood until I returned home. But the world is a depressing place.

#sigh #sighhhh #despressing #i hate being alive #quote #poetry #poem #silly #i'm a poet #i hate being an adult #good mood #january #my thoughs #random thoughts

[theconstantsidekick]

i used to have short hair, like catwoman in robpatt batman short. and then i grew it out. and then i was a girly girl. never too girly but like, girly enough to be attractive to a straight man? you know? that kinda girly.

anyway, i'm genderfluid. so obviously the girlyness of being a girl was getting too much and i got another haircut and now i look like the dude from the rose who keeps singing, "i can make you mad, i can make you scream... but i can't make you come back to me." on instagram reels? you know?

so, now that i look like that, MY FUCKING GOD!

so many MANY men genuinely believed that it was their god given right to let me know they were "disappointed" that i decided to chop off my hair. "it looked fine, why would you do that?"

BECAUSE I FUCKING WANTED TO! I AM NOT A FUCKING HOUSE WIFE IN THE 60s. ITS MY FUCKING HAIR. I AM ALLOWED TO DO WITH IT AS I VERY WELL FUCKING PLEASE. MY GOD.

the audacity of a mediocre man. i swear.

i am not asking for approval. i don't care if you don't like it. but like??? a dude i was in a situationship with decided to hit me up and explicitly let me know that he wasn't interested in continuing it any further because i got a haircut.

"it's just a preference, you know? you can't hold it against me"

WATCH ME DICKWAD.

i would not have even noticed his absence from my life if he had just stayed shut? but nah, he needed to let me know that my gender fluidity was against his preferences .... thanks. i'll keep that in mind next time i get a haircut AND CUT IT EVEN SHORTER! fuck u

anyway, sorry for being a hater

#gender fluid #genderfluid #i hate being alive #queer #queer community

[andysorbit]

I hope next NYE is better than every one I've had. I'm tired of spending it at home doing shit I don't wanna do or watching other people have fun. I wanna go out and live. I ring in ever new year in autopilot and I'm sick of existing.

I wish my life wasn't so boring. This isn't even a life, I just exist. I think that's why I hate the end of the year/New Year's Day so much. Because every year is exactly like the year before and the only thing that ever really changes is that I'm just older and more bitter about being so stagnant.

Being alive should not be this mundane and repetitive. I'm literally an NPC.

#final existential crisis of the year #ringing in 2024 fighting tears #i hate being alive