hydetheghost

[hydetheghost]

"Medusa." You know what really scares me? I think mom knows the truth? Or, she is about to know. I gotta do something. My dqrling is in danger. Shit, she maybe reall close to knowing the truth. I hate my mther, rlly much.

#aha moment #the mother and the 7 failures #medusa #i hate my mother #my shitty art #sigh #i hate living #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

weeelll i know that things would be much easier if i'd live alone, cuz mom always- well, not forces, but drags me to eat and she often gets my fav food and i think thats tragic cuz when im at my own i can just easily avoid it :((( 😭😔

(btw im actually good at restricting)

Learning self control is so hard. ⭐️ving is romanticized on here but it’s really hard! Especially knowing there’s food around you ALL THE TIME! I feel like we need more people that are honest about the struggle.

#pro for me not for thee #th1nsp1ration #m3ansp0 #low cal restriction #light as a feather #i wanna lose weight #ana d!et #starv1ng #anafood #self control #wish i hated food lmao

[hydetheghost]

sharing is caring, right KAMERADE??

How I feel after sharing a protein bar with my mom 😍

#communism #sharing is caring #shared calories #kamerade #marxism #geteiltes leid ist halbes leid

[hydetheghost]

pls dude, it cant be so hard, right? why am i hestitating then?? sigh.

#breaking the habit #i will end it tonight #sigh #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

ah yes, the daily battle in my head 😵🥴

"Zwei Seelen wohnen, ach! in meiner Brust, die eine will sich von der anderen trennen: Die eine hält in derber Liebeslust sich an die Welt mit klammernden Organen; die andre hebt gewaltsam sich vom Dust zu den Gefilden hoher Ahnen."

Faust I, Vers 1112 f.; Faust

Fr. Nothing more to say tbh.

#battle #kick #no dude dont eat #u will regret afterwards trust me i know you better #ach zwei seelen in meiner brust #goethe #no bish dont eat #ana problems #hahahhaha #im silly

[hydetheghost]

whenever I see a child, I remember how much I hate life.

(important reminder, I guess?)

#i hate everything #i hate children #i hate everybody #children are the worst #pedophobia #my quote #quote #children make life unliveable #eww kids #silly #daily reminder #still dont understand why ppl get kids like bruh do u wanna ruin ur life voluntarily??

[hydetheghost]

you may call me insane.

but in reality your noise is causing me pain.

#quote #silly #misophonia #actually misophonic #actually mentally ill #i hate a lot of stuff actually #sigh #allergic to sound #i hate noise #weirdo #i'm a poet #dark acadamia quotes #dark urge #dark academia #spiled thoughts #spilled thoughts #spilled words

[hydetheghost]

uhm its also very common that i..disappear for some months pls dont wonder

#nihilism #its okay that i disappear for 5 months right #nihilist #memes #meme #the void #aerikvon #aerik #von #aerik von #black veil brides #ghost #life is meaningless #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

yes, they'll PASS, just patience <3

sometimes cravings are just worse than hunger and that sucks lol- especiaally the cavings for patistry..man hell no. but with the right distraction and a lot of water...it goes good

The craving WILL go away, the fat will stay. It’s your choice

#justwater4me #disordered eating thoughts #tw restrictive ed #4n4tips #4n4blr #@nor3×14 #@na vent #@tw edd #@nor3xia #@n@ diary #@n@ tips #@n@ buddy #@na buddy #@na motivation #@na tips #cravings suck #@na rules

[hydetheghost]

im too w0rthless to e@t.

the world is too disgusting for me to $at.

everything is too loud for me to eat.

thats why i am not @ating

thats why i will not eat

#⭐ving as coping mechanism makes so much sense #worthless #hey worthless! #yes you i mean you #disgusting world #loud world #i hate noise #i hate calories #i hate a lot of stuff actually #the list goes on and on and on #tw ana diary #ana bllog #ana trigger #tw disordered eating #tw restriction #oh #oh okay #silly ghost makes poetry #can i even call this a poem #idk #autism #misophonia #i am actually silly #sigh #week 28 #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

if food is that what i want, water is that what i'll get.

#bitch ur not hungry #drink #WATER #just water for me please #okay but i wanna eat my vegetables so badly #food? no thanks ill pass hahha #water >>> food #i cooked spinach beans broccoli cauliflower and it looked good #but im kinda hungry too #tips #@na tips #weight loss tips #@n@ tips #anorexcya #an0rec1a #ana bllog #ana trigger #tw restriction #tw restrictive ed #restrictive diet #omad

[hydetheghost]

"loud noise makes my head hurt. but thats okay, rock makes everything better."

I don't mind spending the whole day studying."

"Josh was really adorable. He had a notebook and wrote silly stuff inside it. And his handwriting is so silly too. He's so adorable. I like him a lot."

#loud noise #i hate it #tumult #émeute #i hate children lol #josh #damn hes so silly #dude and his notebook #studying #math #mathematique #mathematics #mathblr #wahrscheinlichkeitsverteilung #i hate math #math exam #saturday stuff #week 28 #miss murder #damn this song is so cool #afi #cool band #random #random thoughts #random mess #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

im so greatful for this shit for existing. it sounds so damn good and made my goddamn mood better </3

#damn #such a good band thooo #afi rock #afi #rock #mess #messy #i am actually silly #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

I'm not a person anymore. I'm just a mess.

#hate living #its not a joke anymore #:/ #dont wanna live tbh #but i dont wanna live #i'm a poet #silly words #quote #dark acadamia quotes #dark aesthetic #dark academia #sighhhh #messy #mess #idk #d #DUUUUUDE #DUDE #im a fucking mess #and #i hate living #i hate life #i hate every aspect of life and being alive #end me pls #end me now #end me please #end me already #sighhghghhgh #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

the feeling of an empty stomach is just aaaahhhh

something about eating doesnt seem right. i feel so disgusting when im full. realreALLESLLLLREALLL

I feel so much prettier when I’m hungry and empty

Nothing feels grosser or uglier than being stuffed with food

#empty stomach #feels sooo good #thinspø #tw ana diary #tw ed diet #tw thinspi #tw disordered eating #th1nsp1ration #diet coke #ana rant #dont wanna eat #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

"Did you write about me ??"

sorry, thats the disadvante of knowing a poet...they proceed their thoughts and feelings through writng. deal with it.

#introvert problems #just thoughts #poets relate #writers on tumblr #thats coping mechanism okay?? #just a silly writer #words words words #writing #coping mechanism #coping methods #i love writing #social anxiety #socially akward #intorvert things #lmao #i'm a poet #poem #quote #sigh #ghost #just a silly ghost that likes to writing #thats my way to cope #spilled thoughts #spilled words #intp #intp stuff #intp problems

[hydetheghost]

song of the day. it haunts my head. its a fucking masterpieceee <33 im not such a big fan of panic at the disco- BUT THIS omg and the music video is like a theater its so cool i swaer

#panic! at the disco #mona lisa #la jaconde #the ballad of mona lisa #ooooh mona lisaaaa yosasm #kakjsjk #i payy to see you froooown #learning math rn and yeh i dont like it lol #rock #alternative rock #Spotify #SoundCloud