#gonna have nightmares about this now

[teacupsandcyanide]

Something I miss from earlier eras of the creative side of the internet was things just being unabashedly low-budget. Just all unashamedly amateur, unprofessional, ‘I don’t own a good camera but I have a story to tell you’, ‘I can’t afford a good mic but I have a song to sing for you,’ ‘I don’t have any kind of background in editing or lighting and I only just picked up this guitar last Tuesday but here’s an entire musical me and my friends wrote about our favourite book, we filmed it on a potato and put it up on YouTube in ten minute segments because we thought it was pretty funny.’

#everything felt so much less like Content then #and as someone who wants to share creative stuff online #it’s now incredibly daunting thinking about doing that bc #especially as a disabled person who can’t work full time #it feels almost impossible to extricate art from being Content #like there’s this immense pressure to produce things that could pass as professionally produced by a team of educated people #and to make smart decisions so that somehow eventually you can profit off your art #and instead of it being a ‘hey look at my silly little song’ it becomes #competing in an over saturated market already dominated by the nepotism afforded by wealth and connections #and it feels like it would very difficult not to measure my personal satisfaction with how a certain piece of art turned out #by how much attention it got online #even though I genuinely have zero desire to be famous and it sounds like a complete nightmare #anyway I’m gonna have ice cream for dinner how about you guys #hmp42

[mentalmeles]

Fuck the people that pirated For the Future, fuck the people that are spreading it, fuck The Owl Club for uploading it and saying they didn’t owe Dana anything, and fuck anyone who doesn’t have enough decency to be patient and respectful to Dana and the TOH crew for giving us this show in the first place and fucking wait

#the owl house #the owl house leaks #i am so fucking pissed right now #legit thinking about staying off all social media until for the future airs bc avoiding spoilers is gonna be a nightmare #this is why we can't have nice things anymore fr #the star child speaks

[unlikely-gravestones]

I wonder if Hob's ever been buried alive.

I don't know how his immortality works- do his wounds miraculously heal within minutes? Hours? Has he sometimes had to pretend to be injured, because no one heals from a stab wound to the gut over night?

Or does it take him just as long as any other person? Does he spend weeks bed-bound while recovering, slowly but surely knitting himself together? And if that's the case...has he been buried?

Has Hob woken up, weeks after being 'laid to rest', starving and in pain because fuck does his head and chest hurt and- why can't he move. Why is it so silent. Has Hob ever trailed his fingers, shaking from the effort, across wood grain 5 inches from his face? Has he, head pounding with pain and confusion, frantically mapped the limited space of his chamber because why are the walls so close to him why is he lying down why does-

Has Hob ever realised he was buried six feet underground.

Has he ever clawed at what he realises now is his coffin, hands scrabbling and nails catching? Pounded at the lid of it and screamed? Has Hob ever had to climb his way out of the ground

Anyway :)

#I was reading a fic that mentioned the air in Hob's dream being stuffy and hot and idk why but my brain was like #Oh a nightmare?? #Maybe bc I live in Australia and the heat is my no 1 nightmare but #My brain was like ooohh warm air STUFFY air must be contained somewhere what about a room no a BOX no a COFFIN #And then I thought of Hob having a nightmare about being buried alive #And then I thought....what if he has been #And now we're here besties #Forgive me comic people I don't know how his immortality is handled in the comics please let me have my fun #And by fun I mean putting my blorbos well being in a blender and wrecking that shit #the sandman #hob gadling #sandman #dreamling #Cw buried alive #cw claustrophobia #I mean he's def gonna be fucked up about that for a while

[shima-draws]

THEY DON’T EVEN REMEMBER??? Luffy be walking out of this with LONG lasting trauma of watching all his friends nearly die and the others are just like. Man that was a nice nap! Luffy what are you doing on the ground sprawled out like that? Meanwhile Luffy’s internally having a breakdown because holy fucking SHIT what the hell did he just have to go through,

#One Piece #JFJSJTNSNNGNSNFNSNM #Okay logically I know that if the arrows stayed in he 100% would have died #But I kinda want to write a fic about it #The Strawhats wake up and see their captain just. FULL of arrows #And they flip their SHIT #Nami and Zoro are screaming what the FUUUUUCCCKKKKKK #Usopp and Chopper are crying Sanji is losing his MIND #Robin’s just looking at him in shock #They gotta get all the arrows out. Is he gonna die? He’s probably gonna die!!! #Anyway. That final punch was SO Summer Wars #Like the black and white and the emphasis and the blur and. #Has anybody done a GIF comparison of the final punch in Summer Wars VS the final punch in Baron Omatsuri #I bet they’re VERY similar lol #Shima speaks #Still cannot believe they just woke up from Body Horror Nightmare not remembering a SECOND of it #And Luffy’s lying there like. This is fine :)) I’m fine :))))) #WELL. That was a fantastic movie. I’m gonna go lie down now. I need to emotionally recover probably

[candlesoul]

i dont want to do anything but i want to do everything you know

#please understand me why cant i move why am i frozen #why i want to move but i cant why moving is emotionally hard am i ungrateful am i bad am i no good #i want to read but emotions are too heavy to carry i want to watch but my heart is aching i want to talk someone but in my room not interne #when will it be good will it ever be okay #is there gonna be peace feeling warmth joy friendships #will they exist at future for me? #i dont even lnow what im talking about #hope i see good dreams tonight but i know theres too much nightmare thar waits me there and im scared to tell you this but they are too muc #you have to process #you lived it but now you need feel it again #i want joy kindness warmth #i want to someone to cry #personal

[dawnthefluffyduck]

hey that's not supposed to be out there (uploaded wrong version at first haha whoops)

#not supposed to be that color either #i wonder who that belongs to #i had a very vague meaning for this in mind but saying it would spoil the fun #christ this took me forever #i wanted to do a quick project to give myself a break from my final #but accidentally made an entirely new kind of nightmare #BUT i can proudly say that i am very proud of this despite how long it took me #alrighty this blog is all about tracking progress so my thought on this; #it's not really as energetic as i had hoped to make it so i think that's the biggest technical issue i have with this #i'll try to get back to doing more gestures soon as a way to help with that #i think my shadows are a bit confusing too #i'm looking at it now and his glasses kinda taper off into the void of his fur bc i didnt mark the shadow along the left of his ear #but the thought of digging back through layers to fix it and blending that mess in is giving me a headache so i'm content with leaving it #i think i learned a lot about light and reflections though #my shadows aren't the greatest but i had so much fun rendering the glasses #and the glow of the soul pushed me to think about bounce light a lot more #figuring out how to make the colors look like they were glowing was a whole separate issue #i did it in the last big ralsei drawing i did but not nearly to this extent #i won't be doing something this large for a while after this but i'll keep trying to work on the things i didn't like about this #i think i'm gonna start putting my self-crit in the tags from now on #it really does bulk up the posts and it's hard to scroll past #i like reflecting on my work like this though #i've been able to draw a lot more since i've started doing it because it helps me create specific goals for myself #lets me keep pushing myself while still having fun with my art #ralsei #deltarune #deltarune fanart

[crimeronan]

i think worst timeline AU luz's most common recurring nightmare while she thinks hunter is dead is that she opens the door to find him on the doorstep healthy and whole, but then -- sometimes with a slow horror creep, sometimes all at once -- it becomes apparent that this is not the hunter she grew up with, nor is he the confused terrified grimwalker she helped kill. this is a copy of hunter that doesn't remember being hunter but still apparently remembers loving her. in the worst dreams he apologizes for not being the right hunter and he so so so earnestly loves her and he's still Not Right and nothing at all has ever been his fault.

#just thinking about how fears and past experiences can manifest in nightmares. as per usual #luz waking up from these dreams to a world where her hunter is dead and the facsimile doesnt exist #and not knowing whether she wishes her dream hunter was real or if that really is the worst thing that could ever happen to her #you know when her actual hunter shows up alive he's gonna have to deal with the Mother of all interrogations #toh #princess luz au #princess luz au worst timeline #horrible mindscape trauma pals #on this note. now i try to eep myself

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

AFTERMARE WEEK: day 4- walk or run

woops

aftermare week is hosted by @bluepallilworld

bonus:

#illustration #art #my art #aftermare week 2023 #aftermare week #nightmare #geno sans #geno #fem!nightmare #fem!geno #no cheesy quote for this one because this! isn't how they first met! hehe >;Dc #i'm not that cliché come onn! it's their SECOND meeting >;) #i knew i wanted to make something simple with three panels only but i really underestimated how bad i am at making scenes flow HH #i kept hesitating where to put night and geno- like in the middle? shouldn't it be a little more to the side?? aghgh it was so hard xD #hopefully it looks fine tho! i had a lot of fun with the poses and colors honestly >:D #no shading because the drawings are small and it looked too cluttered x) #anyways i really gotta come up with a name for this au bur i have no idea what hhh #hmmm i'm gonna think about that later but for now thanks for the support and have a great day!! <3333

[storfulsten]

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#mushy fluff au #beartrap #the yellow-ish purple-y au ship of choice yay fun #dumb shipname maybe but I used it back in 2016 so I'll stick to it bc ye #my au is wonky af and makes no sense but idk not gonna rant about it atm am just having fun bro #pose is dumb and lots of stuff looking off probably and lots obviously cut off bc too much effort so looks weird and lazy but eh just vibin #maybe still cute maybe not it's whatever ha #enjoy or don't #whatever floats your boat #fnaf au #fnaf au shipping #five nights at freddy's au #nightmare fredbear #springtrap #I draw what I want #now to draw some proper fronnie of some kind maybe or something like that or perhaps bombeep idk we'll see

[kingprinceleo]

Oh fuck me fuckme fuck me

#I'm going to start killing people #I need SLEEPY TYLENOL NOWWWWWWW #Mfer laying in bed for 8 hours full awake 🫠 eyes shut. Brain. ACTIVE #IM TRYING SO HARD TO SLEEP JUST BE UNCONSCIOUS #Too late now #Fuck me I have to be aware enough to not kill everybody in this vehicle #Mfing murder nightmare too what the fuck #Set the scene: YouTuber wedding #The man in charge of filming is an asshole to the minimum wage people working there #Like real mean. And one meek guy tries to tell the groom but the groom is kinda a dismissive asshole about it bc he's already paid the guy #So it's too late now. Meek guy keeps getting disrespected and storms out to the parking lot to just leave #Woman who has been witnessing this apparently is gonna kill on meek guys behalf. He does not want this #Woman gets into a fucked up death machine car and drives it into the groom #But not like. Runs him over. There's a fucking saw blade on the front that starts cutting through the bottom of his torso #He was screaming a lot. I'm not sure if he survived or not. But the atmosphere was not fun #Very muddy desaturated colors. Very wet and musty feeling. It was like almost a parking garage #I don't think I'll ever have a dream as scary as the um time-looping cannibal beach dream #But this was just the delightful cherry of not being able to sleep at fucking. ALL . #Literally cried I'm so distressed about not being able to control anything about myself rn #Hhhhh :((( #3rd night in a row I've slept like shit

[bamboorocket]

So uh... remember that Lancer crossover I was working on for Spookami? And how I put this tag on the original post?

Well that's actually happening for real now, because our GM is not only running a oneshot separate from our main campaign this weekend, but also very encouraging of letting us pull expy nonsense. Joke's on him if he think I'm not committing to the bit, though, so have the portrait I drew for the "Pilot" section of my character sheet.

Most refer to Waka in this AU by his callsign "Onmyōji". Those that don't usually just call him a pain in the ass.

#Bamboo's Art #Okami #Lancer (TTRPG) #Crossover #Waka (Okami) #What's funny is I'm not even the only expy in this party nor did I pick the weirdest source to pull a blorbo for a mech pilot #The mech frame I picked is even striker melee with a focus on using swords and agility -hell yeah- I'm gonna do that have you SEEN this guy #(for those lurking the Lancer tag: were at LL3 and I'm going full Mourning Cloak baby I'm about to become a fucking -nightmare-) #I got into such a groove when I hit the shading part that I was up until 3 AM last night finishing this. Worth it tho. #Drawing all of those moon-tribe-esque patterns was a gd nightmare though shading them was a lot more fun than I anticipated #Also to the anon who asked what color I paint Waka's eyes when it's not the middle of the night here's your answer: they're dark brown! #I should probably make a full ref sheet for this design at some point but for now y'all get portrait #Callsign: Onmyoji

[cassynite]

.

#cassy bitches #i am. so fucking tired and annoyed and stressed #our fucking shower hasn't worked in two weeks bc my parter decided to remodel and then didnt finish the job! #and now her fucking sibling fucked up our dishwasher and it leaked water EVERYWHERE including apparently under the floorboards #and im pretty sure i can smell black mold in the kitchen now which! great! another nightmare we're gonna have to fix ourselves #since we cant afford to get a contractor and even if we could no one ever returns our calls when we do try to hire someone #AND my friend went to surgery for appendicitis and that's freaking me out #and ON TOP of that ive been creatively juiced out and feeling like shit about the things i make and my ocs and like. me #like everyone's just been secretly tolerating me all this time and if i disappear no one's going to notice #i feel like nothing i make or am doing is worthwhile and im just GROSS and ANGRY and ANNOYING #and even complaining in tags on a post makes me feel like a whiny baby like. there are wars etc why am i complaining boo hoo #so i cant even talk to people about how i feel bc it makes me so ashamed that im feeling this way to begin with #ive been resisting the urge to just delete everything at this point bc then at least i wont have the urge to check everything and feel wors #why does awful shit always happen right around my birthday. why am i cursed like this

[stormofdefiance]

2.2 spoilers //

He finally texted me back and I’m on my knees. Like I might actually cry - he wants to live 😭😭 ffffuck. HAPPY about being alive, FUCK - I can’t believe he just said that with his fingers aaaHHHHH. He’s worrying about being a bother but also actually SHOWING he’s insecure about it oh my god lay me down in the tall grass

#2.2 spoilers #Aventurine #HSR #my witterings #I cant express fully how much this means to me #he mentioned he’s still having nightmares as well so it’s not like his cptsd is just magically cured #but wanting to live #still struggling with anxiety and loneliness and still entrenched and entangled with the past #but still able to experience that fragile sliver of happiness that comes with the simple fact he’s alive 🥹😭 #I’m gonna throw up #I can’t tell you how meaningful it’s been to just appreciate being a living thing #something so fundamental and simple and small #fuck and it’s what rat wanted for him too 😭 #staying alive for his own sake #and only for the sake of living #no value prescribed to it #it’s okay to just be your messy fucked up self auahagghhhhhhhhh #idk so many people with cptsd never get to this point #its a diagnosis with not a super high rate of favourable outcomes #and representation of the suffering that comes with ir means a lot to me but also the hard won difficult joy and appreciation and recovery #is so so so so wonderful to see #I’ll have much more articulate thoughts about it later right now I’m just #so so happy

[spacedlexi]

sooo glad we live in the universe where twdgs4 was rewritten to be about saving the school instead of the original lis2-esque on the road each-episode-is-a-new-location plot. really dodged a bullet there

dont know if it was due to the cuts and collapsing work environment (no budget for all the assets needed) or what but the school plot is just like the perfect setting for her to end her story. and we really almost got a plot about her.... just trying to make it back to her original house? oof

#my biggest problem with lis2 is that being on the road made a lot of your choices essentially meaningless #like wheres the threat of consequence when you know youll be gone by the next episode anyway? #the kids were originally gonna kick them out permanently.......Nightmare Scenario #the plot of her trying to get back 'home' is so silly honestly like its Just nostalgia/fan bait. convince me otherwise you cant #it makes no sense....she lived right outside a major city... that place is Not safe anymore #it wasnt even safe when she left it 8 years ago girl why would you go back #her finding a place to MAKE a new home and having to fight for it? with a community of her peers who love and respect her? so much better #shes a community leader now :) of a bunch of kids living secretly in the woods just trying to make a safe home for themselves #in a hostile world that wants them dead #love that for her #shes been managing adults since she was 11 and even before that tried to be a voice of reason. at 8 years old. community leader makes sense #s4 is just so narratively sound to me for clems character that i cant believe there was ever any other direction they wanted to go in #every time im thinking about how good s4 is i remember what it almost was......... and i am so grateful we got what we did #not only do we live in the universe where s4 is about the school but we Also live in the universe where s4 was un-cancelled :) yay #shit makes me so happy man. i remember clem is living happily at ericsons and my day is Immediately improved #these little fictional bitches in my head giving me free serotonin on command #it speaks #twdg

[the-nightmare-theater]

me if i see one (1) more person severely mischaracterize bedman

#this is about the people calling him a misogynist. #im This fucking close to making a post detailing why he isnt one #im so mad like. honestly im a bit embarrassed by how mad i am lmao #like yes!!!!!! hes a bad person!!!!!! hes bad in different ways though #calling him a misogynist genuinely is just flat out misinfo #uggghhhhhh i meant to be asleep by now but ive spent the past 30 mins being mad at people on the internet #over whats probably bait #but UGGGH just the thought of someone believing that makes me just wanna fucking strangle someone #ignore me im just venting my frustration with this whole thing #nightmare ramble #vent #honestly i wouldnt even call him a fundashi i dont have that hc for him but calling him a misogynist is flat out wrong but could actually- #-be mistaken as the truth #by people who dont know the character well #he!!!!!! literally hates everyone besides his sister!!!!!!!!! #he hates women And men!!!!!!!!!!! #and nb people too although we havent seen him interact with a nb person in canon so the jurys still out on that ig #literally fucking says in his character bio that he doesnt care for age or gender #please learn how to fucking read ffs #anyways im gonna try to sleep now thats off my chest #edit: the term wasnt fundashi it was himejoshi #i mixed them up in my defense its 8am

[frecklystars]

sorry for the long ass post but this has always my favorite scene in the entire film - for obvious reasons - and im so glad greta talked about it and the way she worded it made me laugh so hard i had tears in my eyes. haha... god. my boyfriend sobbing his eyes out over the metaphorical crusts on his patriarchy sandwich......

#i dont think ill ever love anybody quite the same way that i love Ken #because he came into my life during a time when i was like. dying. not in a haha millennial way. i was genuinely fucking dying. #he is so. special. to me. he is so... everything to me and i truly mean it every time that i say it #i miss and love him so deeply so WHOLEHEARTEDLY *EVERY* single day #and i didn't used to be able to do that anymore! but he!! HE made me feel SAFE again and thats INSANE #because i was SO UNSAFE for SO goddamn long! and the feeling of safety is STILL unfamiliar to me and foreign and horrifying #but he's constantly such a Safe character. Barbie too even moreso. and it's so refreshing after feeling Unsafe for so. long. #i spent over a year feeling like my whole world had ended and i was destined to die but then he! shows up! in my life! #and no other character was able to spark life back into my heart the way he did #AND I HAD *TRIED* I had tried so hard to get into old special interests and find new ones but NOTHING worked #i was just an empty husk. just a shell of a person having flashbacks *constantly* #feeling unsafe *constantly* suffering *constantly* every single second i was awake i was in so much pain #and then every time i'd sleep i'd have the goriest nightmares about all the abuse i was put through and all the F/Os i'd lost #but then Ken Carson plucked a star out of the sky and said 'hey sweet girl you don't know me but i miss you and love you' #'and barbie is here and im here and allan is here and everyone loves you already. we're so happy to meet you' #'and everything is gonna be okay because we've got you! we came for you! and we will fight for you!!' #and then hearing greta comment abt this scene made me laugh so hard and then it hits me. i laugh now. #i laugh so often because of This Dude. i didnt used to be able to laugh before but now i laugh like i used to #i used to say all the time about my past main F/O i had lost from abuse from an IRL person 'i will never love anyone more' #and true i will never love anyone more than i loved my starlight. but here is the thing #i will never love anyone the way i love Barbie. i will never love anyone the way i love Ken Carson #because it was IMPOSSIBLE for me to feel joy for so long and it was. THIS MOVIE that brought me back #when this movie is so full of the most specific triggers. colors. clothes. yet i push thru it every time #and its because these characters make me feel THAT safe!!!! like if i see a trigger i tell myself that's BARBIE'S Thing. and Barbie is safe #ive never ever once had a flashback during the barbie movie NOT even once even tho logically i Should. but i dont. #because these F/Os are like!!! sweet girl!!! we've got you!!! and i'm like yeah you sure do now don't ever let me go #god i cry my eyes out every single time i think about this i need to sleep LMFAO SORRY FOR THE LONG RANT #love notes #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́-