#he’s so yummylicous

[xotication]

mentions of toxic relationships, manipulation, narcissism, & alcohol.

let’s talk about a toxic kaneki.

a kaneki that you can’t get away from, no matter how hard you try or how bad you want to.

this is a ken who you’ve known for almost your whole life. a ken you’ve been involved with since middle school. back when things were cute & giggly.. back when holding hands was intimate & thinking about your first kiss with him gave you a thousand butterflies in your tummy.

it’s just that.. things started to hit the fan as you two got older. he doesn’t have a dad.. he barely had a mother around to teach him all the right ways to treat a women. really, you couldn’t have expected him to be perfect nd cute forever.

i mean of course your relationship had love. you loved each other.. but it was fucked up. it was twisted nd it was unhealthy. you two knew that.. you knew it better than anyone else but did you love each other enough to stop hurting one another..? who knows.

kaneki doesn’t want a life without you. he can’t even fathom it. but he’s a 19 year old boy and he’s a handsome one at that.. when things go left with you, he turns right to touka. you fucking hate her. she was beautiful, truly. you couldn’t even talk down on her because you went the extra mile to try to be like her. especially after he told you that he’d been fucking her.

he didn’t just cheat, he told you every little detail, how she sucked him off this way, nd how she rode him that way. but kaneki knows that his mind was thinking of you the whole time. kaneki knows that he slipped up nd moaned your name a couple times.. kaneki knows that he faked an orgasm nd had to go home early so he could get himself off.

you’re no better though. it’s an entanglement. when kaneki’s out fucking touka, you’d run to her brother. ayato.. he cared for you. he held you so delicately, talked to you so prettily, fucked you so good. he was better than kaneki.. at a couple things but he wasn’t yours.

after days of arguing.. days of being with other people nd days of being without each other. you always end up in the passenger seat of kaneki’s car. sitting so pretty, like you were his doll. his perfect doll of a gf. you always ended up at his house, in his bed, in his arms.

“when are you gonna stop fucking ayato?”

“whenever you stop fucking up.”

“cmon baby. i don’t mean to. things just get hard, i wanna do better y/n. i promise i do. i want us, more than anything. just give me a chance.. give me time..”

“how many times have we talked about this, ken? how many times are we gonna give empty apologies, how many times are we gonna break up & get back together..? how many fucking times??”

“as many times as it takes for us to get better. i’m not gonna let you give up, you can’t.”

“why do you always manipulate me..?”

“you’re a smart girl, baby. i don’t manipulate you. don’t be silly. i just help you see what’s best for you. that’s why you need to be with me- to stay with me. you’re the best version of yourself when you’re with me, y/n. can’t you see that? ayato will never be able to do what i do for you. he’s not me.”

you want to believe that what he’s saying is a lie, but you can’t. he’s such a pretty boy, nd his voice is even prettier. everything he says puts you in a daze. his narcissistic words fall from his tongue so easily, & something about that makes your pussy throb. you know you guys need help, but you can’t control who you love. & kaneki couldn’t control the way he was raised.

after a period of time where you two had been doing particularly well, kaneki gets invited to a party by none other than hide. you tell him no, that he can’t go- that he won’t go. then he’s pressing kisses down your neck nd putting pretty hickies on the flesh.. he has you bent over the edge of your bed, babbling about nothing, going dumb over his dick.

the smallest part of you gains the strength to say, “—party ken. no party. i don’t want you to go..”

“i know, princess. we’re going.”

nd his thrusts would pick back up as a hand went to grip your neck.

what happens at the party is stupid. you see touka there & your heart stings. did kaneki want you to come, knowing she’d be here..? he has his hand on the small of your back, & he presses a chaste kiss to your head before giving you a “behave.”

you’re tired of behaving. tired of being his good girl that just obeys his every word & instruction. he walks off from you & leaves you with his best friend. hide offers you a couple of shots & different girls in the room took some with you. when the alcohol began to hit you, you found yourself in the middle of the room dancing. shaking your ass in the small dress you wore that only had a small thong under it. the girls were hyping you up, smacking your ass & cheering you on.

then came spin the bottle & you were sitting criss cross applesauce across from hide. your mind was hazy but you thought about how good he looked right now.. maybe it was the vodka. or maybe you really did wanna fuck him. you spun the bottle nd it landed on him. everyone cheered nd different people recorded. you crawled over to hide nd gave him a sloppy but hot kiss.

you were drunk. you didn’t care where it was posted to or who saw.

kaneki had been with a separate set of his friends & when he opened his phone to see you on someone’s instagram story kissing his best friend..?

he didn’t know if he was gonna murder you or him. he was livid.

but that’s a different story for a different day.

>.<

#this is so random #i’m so sorry but it came to mind nd i had to write it #i genuinely feel like ken would lowk be a bit toxiccc IDKK #i love him still #i need him sm #he’s so yummylicous #anime #manga #fanfic #fluff #headcannons #kaneki ken #kaneki x reader #tokyo ghoul #tokyo ghoul re

[mychemicalromancer69]

He’s so yummylicous

#just did my own makeup for the first time😟 #punk rock #pop punk #green day #tre cool #tré cool #90s #2000s

[inkykeiji]

Your writings have definitely given me a turn on for addicts ngl- but like I see Mahito as someone who is intrigued by sensory experiences so like. Addict Mahito...? Mmmmmhmmhmhmg. Yummylicous 🥰 he feels experimental to me for sure

WHOOPS oh my gosh i am so sorry for that eee (*/ω＼*) but yes!!!!! EXACTLY!!! u get me!!! i feel like he’d be down to try anything at least once, but he loves the psychedelics and tells you ‘not to worry’ because they ‘aren’t physically addictive’ and therefore ‘are not harmful to your health—well, physically, at least’ >:) he promises you’ll be safe with him because he’s done this a million and one times (he knows what he’s doing, alright?). he promises you’re gonna love it, he swears by it. he promises you’re going to emerge a new person when the trip is over, enlightened and energized, he guarantees it.

#i’d be so terrified to get high with him in any capacity LMAOOOOOO #and he’d be all ‘it’s all about set and setting baby; mindset and setting’ #as if he isn’t borderline terrifying with his unpredictably and impulsivity #anyway YES SEE U GET IT #inky.mahito #:o omg a new character tag yay! #clari gets mail