#i always think im gonna hate drawing it but

[lemon-wedges]

inching my way into completing this patreon gift. honestly all thats really left is to edit my last snake and him together. if i wanna be real fancy add a little more shading. but thats gonna take some time, so for now heres the ota to the sune

Full on my patreon

#otacon #hal emmerich #the art of a lemon wedge #IM HOPING TO GET THIS DONE BY CHRISTMAS #or before really #once i visit my fam theres a huge pause button i gotta press on anything nsf w #u_u #most interesting thing to me is that mgs 2 otacon has my least favorite haircut AND YET #i always think im gonna hate drawing it but #its not even that different than how i usually draw his hair #EYE feel it tho #that and his circle glasses #i guess the real question is why do i even bother to draw those changes if theyre not my favs? #and thats because i respect his eras #anyways

[darubyprincx]

cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

#ray's tag #AvA #ava victim #victim ava #alan becker #animator vs animation #ava fanart #keys' art #undescribed #i'd like to thank this song for getting me through my freshman year of high school #anyways i like making these posters. especially of the sticks- anatomy is a bitch and i hate it and it's way easier to just . Lines #yknow? #because let me tell you right now i do NOT have the energy to fight torsos every time i pick up my phone to draw. #procreate halftone tool you will always be famous #but uh. yeah. been thinking about victim lately. their actions make So Much Sense when u remember their history #im gonna eat lunch now byebye!

[enhanced-operatives-division]

By God Phoenix! What on earth are you doing with Doctor Prism?

(I love them - progress photos under cut)

#i think this ship is EXCELLENT #it goes VERY NICELY next to starstuck..... #actually the thought of prism being reggie's wing man and vice versa is very cute #hehehehe.... #alas im VERY proud of this drawing #I've never drawn anything like this before and like???? it turned out great #esp cause i didn't use a refrence (i hate them to be fair my drawings always end up worse but thats me) #anyways #YAYYYY roxanix. im normal #ieytd #i expect you to die #[agent moose's art] #agent phoenix #roxana prism #roxanix #creator and me #i was gonna do more doodles but ummm i was impatient and really wanted to post this so. yk.

[skunkes]

original colors

#a doodley #1. alt title was gonna just be Dracula. like. the my name is dvd normal post. #2. im still struggling soooo much to find a way to darken my fun usual line drawings to color em in like this. #like. i always end up losing what makes em fun and gorgeous and it turns into this. no 2 tone. just looks bad and messy. #3. when talon is almost too weak to fang feed he'll use the last of his energy to low energy shapeshift to look like dis #less purple hair - his original brown eyes - original ears #just a little more disarming than the usual...easier to lure someone...doesnt sap too much energy...it works ! #also i think talon wld learn internet shit from al bothering him with it #i already know im gonna hate this doodle in like a week so im. sorry for how bad it is in advance. my art brain takes ages to develop.

[rainbowpufflez]

Fine, I’ll admit that I like Lysandre 😔

#queue the ‘we all know Bo’ #I mean it was definitely obvious from the beginning #and I’ve somewhat said I do in a few posts #and considering the amount of times I’ve drawn him should’ve definitely given it away /lh #the funniest part about me liking him is that I actually straight up don’t #I just I think I hate him so vehemently and deeply that I’ve 180 back to liking him #LIKE WHY ARE U PREOCCUPYING MY BRAIN #LIKE GET OUT OR LIKE PAY ME U FUCKING ASSHOLE #literally I can’t stress enough how unlikable he is #and then I see him and I get locked in #I cringe literally everytime I talk to him #maybe it was cause his ass has been haunting me for the past few months #I GOT SOCIALLY CONDITIONED /hj #like he makes my blood boil sm #when I pointed out that he holds himself like he’s insecure on Pasio to my friend and they went #‘someone who doesn’t like a character wouldn’t have noticed that’ #or when they pulled the ‘true hate is indifference’ on me 😭 #I mean I have always said I have to hate a character before I start liking them #so yeah I’m still gonna be really fucking mean to Orange Peel but unfortunately it means I actually like him #the most insufferable man in all Kalos and I’m still like ‘guess I better draw him again/think about him 24/7’ #WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME #I HOPE U KNOW IM STILL KILLING HIM FOR ALL THE BS HE PULLS THO #rainbowpufflez rambles

[skelekins]

Kelek Ref - kinda messy (technically from 2023 lmao)

#kelek #skelekins art #comfort creature #i think its fun how people approach characters in different ways #so i've put some options/variants that ive seen that i rly enjoy #:3 #also needa work on his magic explanation comic thing >w> #original character #character design #was gonna draw his peets with more prominent toes #but i like for his comfy-feet to be squished #bc i think its funny that he loses his shoes #not the happiest with how stiff it is so im gonna just scrap it and try again #for like the upteenth time #(refs always feel sos tiff and i hate it gonna try to be looser)

[satsuha]

i got so angry about the AB remaster i drew this

#maplestory #satsuhart #angelic buster #tear #sorry i have to go off about it bc i dont wnna make a separate post about it #im so angry about every single aspect of the new design and art holy shit #simplified all her patterns but added more colours to her main outfit resulting in a rly shitty colour palette #even got rid of her cute peach pink hair with yellow gradient for some bullshit pink/blue hair dye #the bows are drawn SO badly they look so cheap and the added colour looks terrible . her og outfit never even had pink #and dont even get me started on the weapon and the addition of hearts to her design HOLY SHIT im so mad #like before it very clearly had a fantasy 'idol... who Fights' vibe but now she just looks like any low budget jp idol #fkin ruined the look of her soul shooter i used to like the design so much now it looks like a knockoff kids toy that would shoot bubbles #WITH A HEART >!>?!??!?! im gonna kill something #im also so mad theyve fully rounded out her eyes and ADDED HEARTS?!?!?! like i really liked how she had sharp kinda dragony pupils #but thats all gone now SNZZ i can only hope they at least make adjustments to her outfit before release bc wow its terrible! #drawing her again after all these years made me re appreciate how nice her outfit is altho its not like i ever stopped thinking that. #it was always nice #shes cute without being overbearing about it but now its dialed up to 11 i hate it i hate it #everytime maple remasters an illust i lose a few years of my life like seriously they havent put out any nice remaster visuals since 2013 #(RED explorers and they werent even visual remasters in the general sense) #like WAH at this rate im gonna be so pissed off when they get to heroes remaster. theyre gonna butcher my boy and my girl and my #ok im stopping for now but rly. hope ppl are loud enough about their contempt for this bc it didnt work enough for explorers remaster #NOTMYANGELICBUSTER

[skitskatdacat63]

Boy King Seb :D

#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333 #he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today #this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!! #can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant #i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am' #this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!! #i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;; #okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH): #this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved) #its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph? #but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010) #its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves #seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his #so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better #whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it) #not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh #anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO #its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation #pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!) #i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #f1 art #formula 1 art #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art. #*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such #boy king au

[todayisafridaynight]

gay person that points at gay people

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 3 #yakuza series #yakuza 3 #yoshitaka mine #snap sketches #can we tell this started out as just a face study #i was just trying to draw mine's face cause Even After All This Time I'm Still Fickle About It #and then one thing led to another and. well. now we're here #i was just taking a cute little break from commissions and then of course i became possessed. typical !! #and yes i am still fickle on how i feel bout how i draw his face. i dont think this is bad but something always feels missing #maybe his lips.... OH WELL #i dont hate how i draw him i do like it just Again there always feels like somethings missin #oh well im not gonna dawdle on it too long ive spent enough time muckin around with this anyway

[firstofficerkittycat]

#<3 #trans #the ppl i was talking abt was other trans ppl but yeah literally its cis king kalvin shit #like ppl that discourse about ways to draw top surgery scars always either havent had surgery or r those people tht judge other ppls result #based on how cis and skinny/buff they look #like how dare u look like youve had surgery after having had surgery #it rly is all about wanting the trans experience to be all about misery #no thanks💖 #and im not convinced all these people actually have perfectly thin pinstraight scars like no i think they just hate their bodies #like so many of these ppl are truly miserable and a big part of that is cus if they engage with the community in a loving way #theyre scared cis people will take their shit away from them for showing a shred of happiness and like. yeah maybe #but they were always gonna do that #how about u organise with ur people and take part in mutual aid and stop seeing diying as a mortal sin and maybe youll calm down #ur never gonna find peace in this life if u think the only way u can exist is if the government allows u to

[hexados-on-a-string]

hexados on a string what will they do

#i opened clip studio with the intent to make art #instead i created a masterpiece #aka i have art block oh god plese help me #i was gonna make a joke about it being a self portrait but i couldn't make it a funny joke #i was supposed to make this when i changed my name to hexados on a string. and then i didnt. and now i have. #anyways good evening im thinking abt gus grav. bc im always thinking about him. #i wanna draw gus but every time i open clip studio i stare at a blank screen for half an hour and then i wanna throw my tablet at the wall #i hate art block it can suck my non existent dick

[eggwishing]

little peek at somethjing i am cooking up ...

#this is rlly rough but rn im just blocking everything out #i have like 6.5 pages sketched so far this is already going faster than last time i think..^_^ #im having a blast also #im tryna rewire my brain . every time i think Blehhh i hate drawing i just want to see it done i gotta stop n correct myself #like Hey wait you actually love drawing why are you telling yourself this The process is frustrating sometimes but that comes with art #i had to redraw this one page like 4 separate times and i still didn't feel like giving up #like yeah i was feeling pressed but at the same time i was being patient with myself #like this is part of improving Stop laying on the floor and wondering why you're even doin this you've always loved it #only drawing when u know it's gonna turn out good defeats the whole purpose of learning #also i added cal last minute to this comic and im gladi did he's so creeepy #im very excited to get this done Not impatient like i was before #im impatient for people to see it yeah lol but not w myself #and im not gonna be all like “yeah we'll see how long this lasts lol” bc i think that's already setting myself up for burning out #i have hope that i can keep enjoying art like this I just need to change the way i think #and accept the messy n ugly. the perfect is the enemy of the good #aaron blaise really inspires me. he sincerely loves what he does and i want to be like that #this is also gonna be more comic-like Panelwise i think #scott pilgrim n my bro inspired me #also the way cal's face cuts off on the right makes sense in context he's peekin from behind a chair

[cocolacola]

are people misinterpreting my favs or are they cardboard cutouts ive projected personalities onto

#this wasnt ticked off by anything in particular i just want to share my thoughts #this is about hellsing #because i literally cant think of a time that fanon has handled pip in a way ive enjoyed #it gives me whiplash because i always write him as this like #genuinely loving caring human who doesn't *quite* understand what's going on #but deeply cares about seras nonetheless and by extension cares about the people around her too (even if he doesnt express it) #like yeah he's gonna stay goofy and his commitment is to The Bit but he has a soul #also this is bc i hate when people make him mean to integra #like bro that's your boss #and also arent you supposed to be a polycule?? GET ALONG #slams them together like barbie dolls #their dynamic could be unmatched theyre both madly in love with the same woman if they squaded up they would be unstoppable #eugh. who cares. what's hellsing. im drawing grellerin anyway. #hellsing

[yelloworangesoda]

gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!! #i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well. #i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(

[pinayelf]

CW: body image issues and weight talk in tags

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#2022 was hell year for me and my weight fluctuated so much #its getting hotter so i tried on my sundresses and only one really fit comfortably anymore and i just!!! #besides the just always feeling so iffy abt how i look #i hate that my weight fluctuates bc its so hard to get clothes idk #i ordered new sundresses and one didnt fit and i think it just made me snap idk #im returning it tomorrow and maybe ill try to find another one so i can try it on in person #anyway im just #im gonna draw immy for self care i think #i might delete this later i need to vent #body image cw #weight talk cw

[bare1ythere]

SUMMER PLANS:

become a gamer

#shut up me #I want to play video games again!!! #I'm gonna get Raincode when it comes out in late June #im also thinking of getting Omori when I finish this term as a treat #i also want to play persona 5..... #lately I havent had the attention span for video games #I can't ease into it. I always feel like im wasting time #(i feel the same about reading. when im not drawing or studying I feel like im wasting time #I hate it!) #so this summer. I will play video games. I WILL