#i am just not in a good spot right now

[sweetlilbird]

Hi everyone,

I debated this for a while, mainly because I'm too stubborn to quit, but I think I'm going to go on a hiatus for a bit. School has been stressing me out so much and I'm going through some stuff mentally as well, so I'm going to pause my writing and just take a break from everything. You may see me post a little from time to time, but I'll probably be pretty silent on here for a while. I don't know when I'll be back, but I promise I will be! I don't intend to abandon any of my work, I just need some time to sort things out. Thank you all for your support this past year! Love you guys! ❤️

#ill be making this my pinned post for the time being #im sorry to those who were really looking forward to my fics being updated #i am just not in a good spot right now #and to my mutuals my dms are still open!

[mortiscausa]

i can't stop thinking how funny it would be if gareth's brothers did in fact recognise him and were just like 'well clearly he has his reasons so let's all be good big bros and pretend we don't know him' and then spend the next few weeks before he goes off on his quest pretending extremely badly that they have never ever met this kitchen boy before nope not at all even while other knights are looking at them and looking at gareth and going 'hmmm'

#gawain can't resist giving weird brotherly pep talks every time he passes him like 'keep up the good work kid! we're all rooting for you!' #and then turns to ragnelle to whisper loudly 'that was ok that was normal and convincing right' while she rolls her eyes #gaheris bumps into him in a corridor and startles like a deer and is like 'hahaha random kitchen boy i certainly have never met before what #fine weather we are having in these parts hahaha i shall be leaving now through the door over there good bye' and then #walks into a broom cupboard and has to awkwardly back out again while gareth stands there #holding a broom that he was just about to put back in the broom cupboard #agravaine nearly manages to pass by without incident while gareth is scrubbing floors but at the last second brotherly instinct takes over #and he kicks the bucket of suds over yelling 'you missed a spot dickwad!' before sprinting away #gareth is just 'wow my brothers are bigger freaks and weirdos than i remember i don't want to be associated with these losers' #meanwhile arthur is like 'kay can you please just tell them all that you know who he is because i cannot take this farce much longer' #kay: ... oh so now im not allowed to have fun am i? fucking tyrant

[antidotefortheawkward-art]

"i'm teaching a monkey yao a forbidden method of immortality!!!" girl... what were YOU doing knowing a forbidden method of immortality

[ID: A three page comic done in white and shades of purple. Characters are uncolored, but have shading.

First panel has Patriarch Puti and Sun Wukong walking in an enclosed back garden, with Sun Wukong looking up at Patriarch Puti seriously as his sifu speaks. Patriarch Puti says, "These techniques, although effective, are dangerous. They are teachings outside of known doctrine. What you have done is stolen the creative powers of Heaven and Earth, intruded on the dark machinations of the moon and sun."

Second panel has Sun Wukong considering this somberly. He says, "Sifu... That's..." He processes for a moment, and says "Wait-"

In the third panel, Sun Wukong looks up at Patriarch Puti with a knowing mischievous grin, while Patriarch Puti looks very tired, as if he already knows what SWK is about to say. Sun Wukong asks, "If they're so unknown and forbidden, how do you know them then?"

Fourth panel has Patriarch Puti simply stating, "Wukong, as the next generation, your responsibility is to learn from the mistakes of your elders." Sun Wukong responds, "ha okay." In the background, with the caption "Several hundred years ago," there is a flashback of a young Patriarch Puti running away as a strike of lightning barely misses his feet.

End ID]

#journey to the west #jttw #xiyouji #sun wukong #monkey king #patriarch puti #puti shifu #had two concepts for patriarch puti in my head and was not sure which one im gonna go with #one ver is where he was just as reckless and a menace as swk in his youth but he either mellowed out as he grew older #or somethingTM happened to make him realize his actions have consequences #and thus he has a soft spot for swk because he sees a bit of himself in swk #second version is where he's always been serious and mellow but now that he's this old he kinda regrets not acting out more #and thus he respects swk's boldness and wishes to somewhat nurture that boldness #🤔 but now i think im going with an in-between ver #being a puti shifu who was very skilled and bold and gifted in his youth but all his rebelliousness was spent on more self-serving things #rather than fighting any injustices in the system like swk #nd now that he's older he regrets that and he's a teacher now wanting to pass his skills onto new generations to do some good now #<- btw re: the wording of swk 'fighting injustice in the system'- #-i am a swk apologist <3 yaoguai rights <3 but i also dont wanna give off the impression that i think he was 100% entirely in the right- #-villain swk rights <3 #but yeah i think while he was at puti's school (constantly reminded he's not a human or immortal) he was moreso of the mind: #'fucking sucks that yaoguai are mistrusted and not treated the same' #and that remains his core motivating factor but as he grows more power and leaves puti's side he kinda kinda loses sight of that a bit ykno #as he gets more megalomaniac yaoguai warlord #anyways yea #swk was still right tho <3 <- correct

[ninjaaa-go]

why am I getting so emotional about a little plastic ghost??? morro seriously has such a grip on me it’s insane

#I have too many thoughts that I can’t properly articulate here #but I’ve been watching dragons rising and just saw episode 5 so no spoilers beyond that please #but oh boy and I feeling some things about Morro #I think part of it is just supremely unfortunate timing because literally right before I watched the episode #I finished writing a chapter of my Morro centric fic and the stuff I was writing today was about his identity and how #his connection to the wind plays into it #so I was kind of emotionally primed to just have a lot of feelings about a new master of wind #I have a lot of feelings about dragons rising in general both good and bad but that’s a whole separate deal #idk if I had a point and I’m just rambling now but Morro has just really carved out a soft spot in my heart #and I’m probably too attached to him but what can you do #he and Jay are my specialest little guys and I am not capable of being normal about them #ninjago #lego ninjago #dragons rising #ninjago dragons rising #Ninjago dragons rising spoilers #dragons rising spoilers #they’re just in the tags but I figure better to be safe #ninjago morro

[honorary-fool]

anyone else feeling the friday the 13th luck?

i accidentally sewed a sleeve on upside-down

upside fucking down

#og posts #rambles to the void #we're not gonna talk about the other fuck-ups of this project (yet) #but good grief am i so tempted to just. stop #but im so close to the end. finish attaching sleeves then figure out cuff ruffles and the collar bullshit #i think i set my personal standards too high for something i was making for the first time. like way too high. #this is why you don't sew w/out mockups everyone <3 /g you'd think i'd know that by now w/ doing this shit on and off for years.. #im still gonna see it through but idk if i like it so much. maybe putting the whole ensemble on will help me- the corset belt keeping it in #the right spot i hope... this is also why i kept the OG shirt intact in case i hated the outcome. #maybe if i get lucky itll be like the wig and just be uncofmy for 10 minutes looking in mirror before i forget in my excitement the day of

[angered-box]

yknow realizing my family was super fucking mean to me for no reason before i turned 18

#no cause. why did my parents threaten to beat me for having a low C almost D/ any missing assignments. but now whenever my mother finds out #about it she like. actually asks if i'm doing alright and not yelling at me to turn them in (she still wants me to do good but like. there' #no more threats?) i mean my bio dad might still do that but i don't tell him anything about my classes anymore #AND ALSO HOW I USED TO BE PICKED ON BY MY BIO DAD AND MY GRANDPARENTS WHEN IWAS YOUNGER FOR HAVING TEXTURE ISSUES BUT NOW THEY'RE LIKE #“oh yea i can't eat this food because i just don't like it” AND UNDERSTAND ME WHEN I SAY I CAN'T EAT CERTAIN THINGS. #i just GAHHHHHHH WHAT THE FUCK #i still remember when my mom and bio dad thought i was lying to them about losing my glasses when i was FUCKING 9-10. they thought i #hid/threw them out!!! and when i found them like a few years later because they were in a spot in my bag young me never really used #MY MOTHER STILL THOUGHT I PUT THEM THERE ON PURPOSE. THIS WAS YEARS AGO BUT I'M STILL MAD ABOUT IT #I HAVE BEEN TREATED LIKE A LIAR ABOUT THINGS FOR SO LONG TO THE POINT THAT I CAN'T HANDLE JOKES ABOUT LYING AND ALSO GET SCARED THAT #I'M NOT BEING TRUTHFUL EVEN IF I AM!!! #anyways :D #i'll probably delete this later idk i feel bad right now

[an-inky-fingered-lass]

May, Coulson, and Daisy, and moments from a day or two in the building of a new life. A story for learning to trust that the good things in your life are going to stick around, and for the days when even those good things are still a little bit hard.

May breathed out a long, slow exhale and nudged into park, staring sightlessly out the window. Her phone pinged with a text. Simmons, probably. Checking in. She wouldn’t trade what they had now for this world or any other, but she missed it, sometimes, the bustling base. Always having something to do, defensible walls.

The text was headed hi May. May stared at it for a long moment, keeping her palms wrapped around the steering wheel. She didn’t feel much like May, right then. Melinda, maybe. For once. Just a woman sitting in her car with an aching thigh and a switchblade in her pocket, feeling every single one of her fifty-two years. Exhausted with not doing a damn thing. She hadn't felt this way in so long.

She felt like Agent May, like she would never, ever be able to be anything else.

May shut her eyes hard and then opened them again. She muted the radio and pulled back onto the road, driving steadily towards home.

Read the rest on Ao3

#it happened it happened i finished it #philindaisy #very very philindaisy #look i meant to write wonderful profound tags but that's where we're at #this fic means so much to me #and i am so nervous right now but also so excited to finally post it #some things still hurt and some things are still hard but that's okay #because there's time now; there aren't any lives at risk or any worlds on the line #and this is a story for those times in between #when you havent quite convinced yourself to believe that quite yet #but things are good. all is well. and there's time. #i wrote this because i needed it #and then it took a life of its own #(ahem as in 13k of scrapped drafts in my drive life of its own. oops.) #this DID NOT want to work until i just. let it happen. and then it did. #this was very self indulgent and it has just carved out its spot in my heart #philinda #melinda may #mama may #phil coulson #agents of shield #daisy johnson #aos fic #inkspinner fic #river's writing #fanfiction

[emdotcom]

My world seems incredibly small & hopless.

&, still, I have it easy.

#gale chatter #vent #this is about not just fucken current events. but also about thr past #right now i am spiraling down & the people around are not helping in these affairs #they're needlessly cruel & presume unkind things. & they aren't wrong is the worst part. #despite how exhausted i am i can never do enough #despite how drained i feel i am not in a good enough spot to rest ever again #I'm so fucking tired. i should be working. I'm so tired. i should be working. I'm so tired. i should be working

[khalesci]

ngl besties I'm struggling with AFFC a little because honestly it feels like we've taken a detour into Side Quest Central

#♛ ooc. ⊱ ❝ 𝘖𝘩 𝘯𝘰 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘔𝘢𝘳𝘪. ❞ #there is just so much Not happening right now lmao #so much of it feels too detached from the main plot for me to care about #I'm devouring the cersei & jaime & sansa & arya chapters #and arianne and brienne have their bright spots #but a lot of it just feels??? couldn't some of this have been some exposition instead ASFDJJLKF #like did we really need the greyjoy plot spread out across so many chapters and characters #I say this as a greyjoy enjoyer (do not judge me) but a lot of this could have been condensed #and the dornish plotline is . . . not hitting the way I thought it would. I am so sorry. #again!! there are bright spots!! esp with arianne but it's like. idk. #it's one of those plotlines that feels oddly detached despite being extremely important #and I wholly blame that on dorne not being an actual present factor in the books until this book (outside of oberyn) #like the first three books felt very focused in the characters and plots they would follow #but now there are two entire branches of plots introduced suddenly in the fourth book and sometimes it feels like a different series #it's still good it's just!! adhd brain struggling #it's gotten to the point where I will check the next few chapters to see who the pov characters are #and I will curate how much I plan to read that day based on *who* I have to look forward to RIP

[moinsbienquekaworu]

Absolute hell on earth trying to find a flat/flatshare from across a fucking sea

#i can't visit shut until late august and by then it'll already be a bit late for the good spots #to be honest it's ALREADY late for the good spots #now it's the 7 beds/2 baths and the suburbs and 750£ a month #and the number of people who only want women (never 'no girls allowed') or they're all 22+ professionals #and i'm there like haha. i'm a -21 student :) from france :) who's never lived on her own before :) #i mean you gotta give it a shot sometimes right #one lady had a cat but she was 27 into crossfit she worked at a hospital and she seemed really into pinterest decoration #i just want to be able to visit places but i am like hundreds of kilometres and a whole sea away so it's tough #insane that in a month i'll be packing though. like holy shit #i need a tag for that too #uh. #england adventures #wow i have a ramble tag now

[the-acid-pear]

Okay I'm home now and i can fully and freely type. Anyway mild spoilers for into the spiderverse i guess?

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Anyway uh. Yeah it... It was a tiny bit of a disappointment. It didn't do it for me at all. I feel like this movie is more of an art exhibit and i mean that as a fucking insult. Like sure the animation fucks my ears are ringing and my head aches horribly (that's on me for thinking i can be autistic and watch this on theaters) but like, the story man? It just so much (DEROGATORY).

It commits the sin a lot of spiderman movies make and that is that it bit more than it could chew. Not because they're bad at handling a complex story, but because they tried to juggle like 5 at once. And that never fucking works (my ear is still ringing and it hurts I'm in pain rn -_+ just wanted y'all to know)

Like it introduced SO FUCKING MUCH and it all was cool yeah! Just like electro was cool, and Harry, and Gwen, and captain Stacy. You know what in trying to fucking say? There's only so much you can do in 2 hours and you can just throw all you have all at once at the viewer because all you'll do is leave them disappointed wanting for more of that.

I feel like a baby. They show me this cool thing but nuh uh! Enough of that! Here's this new cool thing! But nuh uh! Enough of that- and so on. Like there were so many cool characters and ideas and concepts and shit but it could barely balance it all. YOU KNOW HOW BAD I WANTED TO SEE MORE OF THE SPOT?! HE BARELY WAS HERE!

It's like, you cannot fucking make a whole movie as the introduction to your next movie. That just sucks. You're setting yourself up for failure.

Like I'm just so upset bc it was full of amaizing things but it didn't fucking deliver in any of them!!!! And God don't get me started on the references. I think this was one of the worst ways to fill your movie with references. Like at least let me fucking process what I'm seeing if you are gonna waste so much time here, but also just... Don't make it so fucking blatant.

Like man i... This was a very experimental spiderman movie which i appreciate in a way but... It's not what I was expecting. To me, personally, it was disappointing. And also not designed at ALL to watch on cinemas. I think that last bit is just a fact.

I'm just kinda sad man. Like i loved Miles and Gwen's drama and i loved Miguel but I also wanted to see more of, you know, THE WHOLE FUCKING NEW CAST AND THE NEW FUCKING VILLAIN THEY INTRODUCED BUT SHOWED ONLY FOR LIKE 2-3 SEGMENTS MAX???????

LIKE HANDS ON HEAD EMOJI WHAT WERE THEY DOINGGGGG 😭😭😭😭

#luly talks #im sorry to the people who loved this movie i am so upset #on funnier news i found the spot is called la mancha in spanish which is funny bc mancha is what we call a common kids game #in fact i remember that the english name for that is tag we call that mancha #LA mancha #btw i did love Miles' mom having more of the spotlight it was like a little treat for us latinos fr #also. the amount of cop stuff was a bit too much. i wouldn't call it pro cop like some idiot i saw the other day but it. like. hm. y'know? #like this movie feels like an art project something you'd see the fans do and if they did you'd allow the imperfections #but it was made by an studio and there were expectatives in the table like it. it just doesn't stand on its own at all #I WANTED MORE OF PAV AND HOBBIE MAN. I FUCKING DID. HOBBIE ESP I HAVE A CRUSH ON EM #they/them too right? didnt really hear it well but I'm sure i heard em be called they #i will say tho i loved the pear shaped spiderwoman that was super cool #i did literally joke about being too fat to make a spidersona b4 watching the movie and sure she was a woman i aint but it was nice anyway #but yeah it just. it tried to chew more than it could bite. the spot was so cool tho #the spot and hobbie are my guys i love them #man I'm just sad i really am im repeating myself bc im too overwhelmed to retain thoughts so idk if im being clear but like #this movie had a LOT of good things but it delivered on nearly NONE of them #like just commit! you want this to be a story about Miles sure do that but just focus on him and that's it #dont throw in so much and leave us yearning for more bc now we have the old cast AND the new cast both and we barely saw any of these new #ppl interacting we barely fucking know them #anyway just SAD man

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 5

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Not much, I had to run errands most of the day and also felt incredibly tired, probably because the cats woke me up like 4 times last night begging for food and things. Overly warm and headachey a lot.

I planted a few new flowers, and pressed more flowers and clovers in my Large Sturdy Flower Pressing Book as well.

Actually worked on translating the text for the previously mentioned tapestry/painting thing. I think I've decided that it doesn't really matter very much, because nobody else even knows anything about this conlang except for me, so they won't know if it's wrong lol.. It is not entirely completed after all (complete enough to translate most simple sentences into consistently, but also there are a few spots here and there where I haven't fully worked out the way some part of speech actually functions or etc., or I wrote down one thing that later contradicts something else, so occasionally I reach a sentence that I'm not sure exactly which rule to follow to translate, and I need to do a larger comprehensive organization of the document to work out all the kinks and declare officially like 'THIS is the ONE way this is done' etc. etc.) - so because of that, I think I'll just kind of 'do my best' and if the rules now end up changing in the future as I further work on the language, then, that's fine, because nobody can read it anyway lol. Kind of like that song on my side music youtube that's sung in genuine Avirrekava lyrics but also I wrote them years ago and some of the sentences have now become outdated/invalid.

Washed and cleaned some kale so it will be dry for me to maybe make silly kale chips tomorrow.

Final proofreading + posting of the poll adventure thing.

eughh,, literally nothing else.. I hate running errands because it always makes me feel drained and sick after, plus I get nothing else done all day except for just going places. I know checking my p.o. box and picking up cat food and stuff is technically still a productive action, but it just feels like.. i should be getting all of my long term projects done instead lol.. what about the videos?? or worldbuilding?? what does grocery shopping have to do with elves??!?! >:V (aside from pretending to be a group of fantasy creatures evaluating produce having an imaginary conversation with yourself at the store ghghj,, but that is not productive either lol)

Notable sights: Found 13 four leaf clovers, and 2 five leaf clovers, though one of them is almost a 6 leaf (like one of the leaves is nearly split all the way into a sort of heart shape, just not entirely). Also two of the clovers are HUGE, probably the biggest 4 leaf clovers I've ever collected, like 2 inches across maybe. The sky was very pretty a lot with big fluffy white clouds. Not a 'sight' really, but I got to sit in air conditioning for a little while today and it was very nice. I love the cold crisp kind of stale air smell, like walking into a freezer or something (which I used to do when I was a kid, I would sneak into a walk-in freezer at a school cafeteria and just sit there for a while lol), it's comforting to me.

Goals moving forward: Consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.

Notable foods: Had a bit of smoked gouda and green onions in my Mandated Completely Plain Flavorless Grits For Breakfast this morning, as a littol treat lol.. Tried a 'biscoff' ice cream bar, which is generally a flavor profile I like, but I think I would usually rather be eating a cookie than having ice cream. Also an Ensure nutritional drink, which I know most people consider gross but I genuinely like them.. maybe it's like a source of comfort when my stomach is too sick to eat, like 'oh well at least I can have this cold smooth textured chalky chocolate thing' lol.

Sort of like how I have positive conditioning to feel safe/comfortable in bathrooms (due to it usually being one of the only places you can safely retreat from a social situation or get out of crowds in public areas, etc.), even though rationally I have no particular reason to like bathrooms much, and most people dislike public bathrooms especially. Fellow public bathroom and ensure nutritional shake lovers unite! (3 of us in the entire world)

#just posting these publicly since it feels more like I'm doing something or easier to hold yourself accountable if you make public #declarations of goals and progress or etc. .. perhaps.. for now.. #Not sure if this is helping me be more productive #though I think it might in some ways help me appreciate things around me more. Since I'm kind of collecting 'notable' sights or smells #or things. sometimes through the day I'm looking around my environment trying to spot anything whimsical or wonderful or pleasing #I could see this excercise possiblyhelping people pick out more positives around them and appreciate small things in life more #I kind of already do that (very meticulous slow moving person who notices tiny details in everything) so I'm not sure if it's any more than #I usually would but.. eh?? maybe?? #Still craving a ton of hearty foods lol my body is so so so deficient in something right now and I'm being very cool about it #I have a very high level of self control (so like am very responsible good at managing money and getting placeson time and planning and #etc. and abstaining from things if necessary (like wearing a mask and cutting out certain activities during a pandemice #or not eating something now that might hurt my stomach later etc. etc.) so It's not much of a problem but #if not... I would probably be ordering in so much random fast food and stuff or something ghh #Even before I was put on a restrictive diet by my doctors I still never ate out very much for money reasons #Usually once a month or less. this includes stuff like coffees (can be made at home cheaper) or drinks or etc. #Especially with the cost of things going up so much now I'm kind of glad I've already built in that habit #/have never known or gotten used to anything else - because if not I feel like it would be a real shock or like a struggle #I have friends that order in food for like every single meal and it's only getting more and more expensive #so I guess it's kind of releiving to not really have the prospect of that stress as much (though things in the grocery store #are still expensive too so.. even if you're cooking at home. You do save money but its STILL a strain with the current #economy). ANYWAY... maybe sometimes it is good to be miserly and poor.. if I had unlimited money and a spending habit or something #I could go through with ordering ribs and chicken wings and 5 plates of lasagna and a burrito and udon and etc. and eat it all at once #and then have such a bad stomach pains I have to go to the hospital lol #ANYWAY... #daily log

[andtothoseilove]

SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP

#cam.chat #AAHHHHH #i just got back from my meet up w TL #it went so so well #and i feel so much better about everything #i don't know what the future holds for us #friends partners strangers whatever #but it was so good catching up with him #i will always have a huge soft spot for him in my heart #my first love #BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE #i pull out my phone to find a pic to show TL #AND I HAVE A DM FROM TJ????? #WHAT IS GOING ON #obvs wasn't rude and didn't text back while I was w TL #but aaaaahhhh #i texted him back #we shall see #i am so good right now #wow #literally cried happy tears

[falderaletcetera]

found something cool on the beach yesterday. I like to go for night-time walks to clear my head and get a look at the stars, and I'm lucky enough that there's a beach within walking distance (and that it's a pretty safe neighbourhood). so picture four in the morning, less than half a moon but bright for it, high-ish tide, and I've stepped down onto this pebbly seaweedy beach to nudge at what I assumed was a toy pumpkin.

it was reddish orange, about the right size. something odd about the shape though.

and it was metal. bowling-ball sized, with a hole clean through it (no sharp edges, it must have been shaped that way) and impressive scratches that had clearly been painted over. and it was light enough to lift as well as having probably washed up there, so, hollow.

I ended up staring at it for maybe five minutes trying to decide whether to move it, where to (tripping hazard), and whether I wanted to keep it. "things salvaged from ships" is an entire genre of decoration here (pubs are one of the biggest offenders) ((I fucking love it)) and it could look pretty cool with... a rope through it? some sort of knot? a doorstop or a garden decoration?

(to be honest it appealed to my sense of humour that what I normally take home from beaches is stones with holes through them. we get a lot of them, and they're meant to be lucky. and they're easier to store when I'm still dithering over how to use 'em. they make nice gifts sometimes.)

I didn't keep it. but the internet's a cool enough place sometimes that I could search "hollow metal ball washed up on beach" and get an answer - it's a trawler net weight, and I read elsewhere that they do come in different sizes.

and wreck and salvage law is apparently this whole messy thing that may or may not apply - technically yes, but this is probably way too small to bother with, which I think might be an actual legal thing - so if I find one again...

it's not like this happens often, anyway. and I'm just delighted to have been surprised.

#this is the most exciting thing that's happened to me for months so yes you're getting aimless words about it #don't mind me #I've been to a little technically private beach maybe once at night when the lockdown was really getting to me #because it's lovely and secluded and often used by dogwalkers and people having barbecues #but it involves walking along this pretty ratty old wooden walkway with no handrails and. well. #you can crawl but it's not very dignified. worth it at least that once though. #so far the scariest thing on these walks is that the local badgers are utterly stupid and sometimes need multiple verbal warnings #to realise there's a human right there‚ yes‚ there‚ where they're running to at FULL SPEED— #they're scared of humans and theoretically dangerous if startled/cornered and they also look... seriously cuddly up close #foxes at least look like wild animals but badgers look like plushies. just murder plushies. #(I am not that stupid but I do despair a little when I get a good look at one.) #anyway I'm just enjoying being able to spot sirius again. I can identify one (1) star now and by gum am I gonna keep doing it. #sirius says hi <3

[rosicheeks]

You are possibly the softest, most gentle angel on this app 🥺 All your tags, how overwhelmed with romance you get, it’s so utterly delightful and makes my heart burst 🥺 Even through a screen, you give the immense feeling of being home, even to an anon like me 💜

If this is what it feels like to know you from a distance, I can’t even begin to imagine the unfathomable euphoria of knowing you up close Rosie 🥺 You are exquisite, in every sense of the word 🥺🥺🥺

#I’m NOT OKAY OMG #jdnsksnkxnfksnsmdndks I just?????? this is so fucking sweet I can’t handle it 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #with everything that’s been going on lately I definitely needed this 🥺 thank you so fucking much #^^ this is me ((sobbing and petting my bursting heart 🥺🥰)) #first of all…. you think I’m an angel 🥺🥺🥺 #broooooo I’m happy you like how overwhelmed (obsessed) I am with romance cause to me?!? I would like my heart to calm the fuck down #I didn’t ASK to be a hopeless romantic!! whoever made me accidentally spilled too much in and now I’m stuck like this 😂😂😂😂 #I think the part that actually made me start crying was the ‘home’ bit….. like that is so intimate and sweet 😭 #my goal is to find someone who makes me feel like home and I can make them feel like home…. no matter where we are or what’s going on - #all that matters is that we have each other…. I’ve been rewatching once upon a time while I paint and boy oh BOY that does things to me #I want to find my Prince Charming 😭😭😭 #but seriously I’m going to be thinking about that compliment for years!! ‘give the immense feeling of being home’ hold on while I SOB #I still think about an anon who said I reminded them of autumn cause that hit a soft spot inside me and this home shit DEFINITELY DID #just…. thank you 🥺🥺🥺 #honestly that last paragraph? I can’t believe someone could feel that way towards ME #like are you sure you have the right person?????? and then I read rosie and I’m like 👀 that’s me tho #I think exquisite is such an underrated word #I don’t even know what to say anymore dude… I think I said it all but then I read the ask again and I’m like 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #and I feel like my tags aren’t good enough but I’m wayyyyyy too lazy to redo them so hopefully they’re good enough #I just don’t think you understand how much these asks mean to me #lately I’ve been in a little bit of a hole (and I haven’t been good at replying so I’m so sorry to anyone who has tried to snap/message me) #idk if hole is the right word maybe funk??? #but either way these asks never fail to put a smile on my face and remind myself that there is still good in the world #there are still amazing people I have yet to meet and wonderful places I have yet to see idk these asks help me get out of my depression #and I seriously can’t thank you enough I feel like I’ve said it a billion times but thank you thank you thank you #I’m not positive but I’m pretty sure words of affirmation is one of my highest love languages #words mean so much to me (obviously actions speak louder than words and blah blah blah) but I’ll be thinking about sweet words for YEARS #ok I’m probably running out of space so I should shut up….. but I’m going to end it on this - #thank you so much for sending me this 💖 thank you for taking the time out of your day to send me such sweet words #ask

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Hello here’s a photo dump

#this is basically what I’m doing right now #but also crippling anxiety too lol #considering taking an Ativan and going to bed #from top to bottom tho: #Min loves it outside #she also loves it on the couch (we’ve established the blue blanket as *her spot* and hoping to cut down cat hair from that lmao #that beaver canoe hoodie has been with me through EVERY THING #I got it a year before I met geoff lmao #Minnow and Merlin’s version of a good night #merly is getting more brave but barely lol #meanwhile minnow is fully trying to get into my neighbours house hahahaha #polymer clay octopus #i can’t decide if I hate it or not #i painted it with graphite paint and I’m going to copper plate it omg #i feel like I may come around on it #i also made tiny mushrooms today lol just bc we had a meeting and I was bored #cats + space docs am I right??? #this version of purple has been my favourite