#i am still so in love with elly

[cementcornfield]

#elly de la cruz #will benson #i haven't forgotten about my boy by the way!!! #i am still so in love with elly #(enough to watch baseball....no) #(i tried. god bless y'all who can sit through these games. i do not have the patience or attention span.) #but i watch his highlights!! and his interviews!! #and he is a perfect and beautiful babygirl etc etc #and will is cute too #and they seem to be besties #and i could...have thoughts about that. #one day.

[kasieli]

I have absolutely zero business imagining Yule Ball designs since I’m not even remotely close to writing that chapter (which I would like to but we’re not even two chapters in) but also I have zero self control so here have them anyways.

#hogwarts legacy #sebastian sallow #hogwarts legacy mc #sebastian sallow x mc #fanart #they’re wearing Ravenclaw colours bc my OC is Ravenclaw thank u and goodnight #although I do have a version that’s green and seb’s suit def looks nicer green but I want them to match #bc that’s usually what formal attire is right #seb’s suit is gothic-esque bc late 1800s is still gothic era and I love the gothic era #also can we appreciate his cute lil slicked back hair #I had some Victorian/gothic inspo for Elly’s dress but it turned out more modern but that’s ok #can we also appreciate Poppy’s gown I drew it on a whim but it’s so cute? #god I am so weak for prom/formal event tropes #sebastian x mc

[inaflashimagine]

does she have a violent heart or is she a teenager who was born and grew up in a bitterly cruel world? does she have a violent heart or is she constantly surrounded by violence and raised by people who often used violence as a means to survive, raised by a father-like figure who struggled how to properly grieve and taught her to just move on instead of fully processing that already by the age of 14 she's seen way too much shit no one should have to see in their entire lives?

#absolutely fantastic episode but #enough craig with leaning into ellie being a sociopath lmfao #she has a violent heart no she's just living in a horribly cruel world #i understand you're trying to set up tlou ii esp for those who don't play the game but #what makes tlou ii hurt is how ellie #though a little cocky is a silly #good person who fears losing those she loves #and when she does she can only see vengeance showing how people can go for extreme measures for love #SHES NOT CRAZY but ig i am for going on this rant ugh lol #but great ep 8 lol a few complaints but still love it and david was so fing creepier in show #tlou #tlou ii spoilers #tlou tii #tlou spoilers #the last of us spoilers #tlou hbo #the last of us hbo

[rotisseries]

inspired by elli's poll lol cause this seems fun actually but if you guys have bad answers I'll kill myself on your doorstep or smth

#“rori all of these are your faves how can there be a bad answer” well I still have an internal ranking on some of these #and if all of you pick an option that I think pales in comparison to the others. well. hm #I know what's gonna sweep though because two of these are niche as hell and 4 maybe 5 of these are things you people don't follow me for #fun fact I actually had to scrape my brain to make sure I couldn't come up with any more #I am unintentionally very picky on what is a favorite apparentlyyyy #I also just don't watch/read enough stuff these days so there's that #AND I NEED LONG TERM EXPOSURE TO KNOW THEY'RE STICKING AROUND #so like. I have some options but I don't KNOWWW if they're sticking yet #but this feels like such a small poll lmao #also no sapphics on here this is actually cause I hate women- #NO. JOKING. zelink is here. I almost put gideon and harrow but I'm in a perpetual state of not having finished tlt #and I couldn't put nebetta and darya I was drawing the line at 2 tbos ships. well. actually. changed my mind #not editing these tags actually you guys can see my thought process #WAIT AND SAYMARI. FUCK. I LITERALLY MADE A PLAYLIST FOR THEM I LOVE THEMMM #ok. is 4 tbos ships too many. hmm #I said 2 of these are niche now four of these are niche it's really the “which tbos pairing is your fave” poll #THIS POLL IS SO FUNNY IT'S SO SELF INDULGENT I HAVE TO TAKE OUT AT LEAST ONE TBOS SHIP #I should add one more general one... #cause I do actually want genuine and varied answers I gotta give y'all options so they don't all pool at the first two #I also almost put ellie and abby on here.. that would've been so funny four popular 1 rarepair 3 super niche ships #ellie and abby are soooo interesting to me though so of course the thought of them having something horrible going on together compels me #and they are one of my 3 favorited ao3 tags... they deserve a place... #ok well while I debate on that I'm putting akutagawa and atsushi on here I admittedly have only had like two months of exposure to them #but it is enough I can tell they are so crazy to me #the way my tags are just me overthinking everything on what is supposed to be a fun and silly poll... no one does it like me I'm afraid

[nightghoul381]

I'M CRYING AND SCREAMING AND SQUEALING AND FREAKING THE HELL OUT I GOT HIM I GOT HIM I GOT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2nd pull and everything 😭😭😭🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

I forgive you for waiting until pull 50 on the last gacha my love ;u;

#fuck I am still reeling #I seriously cannot believe I got it so quickly #I thought for sure it would take a ton of pulls and I wasn't going to be able to afford it but he loves me and I've never been so happy #I can always be happier though Ellis-don't leave (kill) me

[eerna]

I think Bella Ramsey is my fav adaptation casting ever. She's so good I am so shook

#im watching the new ep and no matter how much i liked her before i like her even more now #she's carrying the ep so well!!! an ellie-centred ep!!!! #it's the mixture of not being like the original character and still making me feel the same way i did during the original #so i am not feeling like i am just watching the same thing all over again but i do have the same emotions #and the emotions are MY SWEET CHILD MY DAUGHTER YOU ARE SO FUNNY I LOVE YOU #tlou liveblog

[whenthegoldrays]

what i really need is someone to lovingly but firmly pry my phone out of my hands at 10pm and carry me to bed and tuck me in and wake up with me the next morning

#so no i am not referring to my parents #because they would snatch my phone away if they knew i was still here well after midnight #but they’d yell at me for not being asleep #I don’t need that I need a husband who will gently guide me down the Wondrous Path To Sleepytime #also i’m always too lazy to do it myself so if he could wash my face that’d be lovely thank u <3 #elly's posts

[vi-v-iv]

how am i supposed to live my life normally when “so, who’s the girl” “there is no girl” “i know” is burned into the back of my eyelids

#tlou hbo #the last of us episode 3 #the last of us #NIEL DRUCKMANN YOU SICK FUCK #YOU BEAUTIFUL ARTIST #YOU TOO PETER HOAR (dir. of this episode) #Linda Rondstat you know what you too #I AM UNMADE #I’m really so excited to see good queer love stories on screen tho #i was thinking also after drying my face and rehydrating #i would not count this as bury your gays bc they lived full lives and also ELLIE is still there so it’s not like all the gay ppl died #it’s truly one of the best pieces of short fiction masquerading as a tv episode that i’ve absorbed in a long long time

[silverislander]

man ok kind of obsessed w the way amanda overton talks abt writing fight scenes in that new bridging the rift episode! so i have thoughts about the vi/sevika fight

first off: i don't really think vi did that in order to win and kick sevika's ass. i think she's smarter than assuming she's just going to take her on no problem, and i think the reason is as simple as... that's kind of who she is what she does. we learn from her records (and the everything about her actually) that vi got into a LOT of fights in prison, but from arcane/context clues, it seems like when she starts it, it was always people associated with silco and his gang. vi beats up silco's crew. it's what she does.

i feel like that singleminded tunnel vision from stillwater is still super there (bc. when did she ever get downtime to heal it lol); she didn't get to have an identity for years in a literal sense. she didn't even get a name- just 516 or pink, which side note makes me Cry but anyways. she's not vi, not powder's sister or the leader/strength of her group. she's prisoner 516 who punched a man's eye out. she's the scary bitch down in the hole half the time. she's pink, who beats up silco's goons. that's all she had to define herself as for most of her formative years. this is what she is.

building on this, i think the meaning of the fight gets a lot clearer: this is vi trying to fight her past and all of its pain, and it's her beating herself up because of it. sevika isn't just a traitor that vi wants to fight, she's the idea of powder being taken away and it being all vi's fault (in her mind). she only ever did it out of that self-hatred and a need to somehow atone for that night anyway? vi goes up against her, already kind of knowing she won't win, knowing it's gonna fucking hurt, because she has to. it's like self harm (don't get me started on my hc of vi starting fights to punish herself-); she thinks she deserves to be hurt by her past just as much as she explicitly states she doesn't think she'll ever grow and move past what she did that night, how she wasn't enough for powder.

and it almost kills her. sevika is going to finish it and let her bleed out in an alley, that's pretty clear.

so then there's the best fucking part at the very end- caitlyn saves her, and that's the most obvious symbolism in this thing, and i fucking love it. she's even placed up above the fight and the lighter colours are behind her head like a halo- she's literally an avenging angel, it absolutely slaps!! but it's super clear what she represents in this scene, bc it's kind of what she always represents.

caitlyn is hope here. she always is- joining the enforcers to help the cities, solving a mystery nobody wants her to figure out that doesn't even affect her because it's the Right Thing To Do, later dreaming of a world where zaunites won't have to live the way they do and piltovans will make things fair again, and i absolutely love that about her- but here especially, because she's vi's hope for the future (their future!). vi is saved from her own self-hatred and pulled out of hurting herself via her own past by a force she doesn't expect or understand yet. things get better by themselves out of nowhere for her in a way they never have before, and maybe... that means that could happen again. she has hope now.

and then with this understanding, of course that's the turning point for their relationship, of course now vi can treat her as an equal ally (and maybe even more). vi has literally fucking seen the light and she's getting pulled right into it. here is a chance for things to get better: a girl she's supposed to hate who shouldn't give a damn who genuinely wants to help everyone she meets, including vi, despite all of her flaws and baggage.

and you get all of this in like... fifteen minutes or less, without directly saying any of it. fucking incredible.

#anyway shes SO right abt that writing advice omg i love it. scenes mean something!! as they fucking should!!!!!!!! #reminds me of the hunger games love triangle symbolizing katniss ability to find peace despite her past vs carrying that rage #and similarly ellie/dinas relationship breaking down as ellie feels grief consume her overpowering the love she still has left #its incredibly clever. god i love media and literature and reading comprehension (i am a Big Ol English Major Nerd) #arcane #vi #sevika #bridging the rift #levi.doc #hope this is at all readable its been stuck in my brain and i couldnt articulate it #tldr: vi is a moth but for not hating herself and also levi has a big lasbian crush on cait

[lasarcasticpanda]

yessssssssssss

i got worried when they brought in ellie conscious cause like, part of what made the ending of the first game work is that NO ONE asked ellie.

marlene talks about how it would be what ellie would want, but didnt actually give her a chance to voice that and, added for the show, it echoes the hypocrisy and the pain of kathleen yelling at henry about believing the world revolves around his brother while she literally hunted him down for hers.

it's the "no one giving ellie a choice" - it doesn't matter if she would agree with you, cause you knocked her tf out before you could even give her a chance to breathe.

joel did the same, but the difference is, if joel did talk to ellie, he would've let her. he wouldn't survive it, but he would've let her.

but if marlene was wrong about ellie? and ellie WOULDNT agree to it? i don't know that i think marlene would respect that. which i like about her character, it makes her dynamic and a good mirror AND foil for joel.

of course, this is speculation. because she didn't actually give ellie a choice.

and neither did joel. "i thought you deserved a choice" bullshit with ellie and tommy but not when it comes to the greater meaning to your painful journey.

i love it. i love the complexity and the nuance and the complicated love that exists in all of it, the undercurrent of it all.

because while i agree ellie would probably undergo the surgery, i still think, if she puts her impressive emotional intelligence to the forefront, she'll understand if she did, it would mean the end of joel. and i think that fact would make her hesitate at the bare minimum or say no at the max.

of course, this is hypothetical, since no one actually asked her - which is what helps make this ending work.

anyway, ashley johnson giving birth to ellie in every way has me sobbing.

#tlou spoilers #tlou #i have SO MUCH to say but i still have covid and am tired #so heres this lmao #ALSO im being snarky but i do genuinely love the narrative decision to not give ellie a choice #and im so glad they ended it where they did

[wolves-etc]

thoughts on The Last Of Us episode seven, largely in the order I had them:

[thoughts on: 1.1 | 1.2 | 1.3 | 1.4 | 1.5 | 1.6 | X | 1.8 | 1.9]

— it took me a while to realise that the shapes at the end of the credits are ellie and joel. it's grim - two figures, alone, growing out of this infested world.

— she can't be actually about to leave joel?? splitting them up at this point isn't allowed, what the shit

(unless she can get there and back quickly enough to bring him medical attention in which yes please)

— first glimpse of the military school!! it's a little odd to realise she had more access to music than joel did. I can't quite remember ellie's first mention of her friend, either - it might've been the first episode?

— did not expect a dressing down in a military school to begin with "what's going on?", gently spoken

— captain kwong I actually really like you. he's an inherently manipulative bastard and I don't trust him but this is another adult talking to ellie honestly and giving her options rather than just making decisions for her, and it's nice to see, in a messed up way.

— and ellie's also not scared of him - or she doesn't look scared. she did tell sam that thing about being scared all the time and I don't think that was a joke. not cowed by him, then. and okay, maybe it's on purpose, maybe he's deliberately avoiding crushing her spirit because they don't just need grunts, they need officers too - but he's still not crushing her spirit entirely, and it's a relief.

— …he really believes they're what's holding civilisation together, too. he's genuinely scared and doing what he can to try to keep things going.

(and still, he has to know that there are abuses of power under a military dictatorship. he has to know, and he's justifying them, because he believes the work they do is that important. I really don't agree with him but I sort of don't know where exactly to fault him on his reasoning, and that's chilling.)

((and I'm doing a LOT of speculating about a character we only see briefly, when he's manipulating a teenager for the cause. but still.))

— gosh, I know ellie got culture shock looking through the teenager's bedroom in jackson, but this is such a normal teenage bedroom too. I mean, almost. one with the vibe of a cell or a ward. but we get a glimpse of everything up on the walls, the drawing of the dinosaur, the mortal kombat poster.

— okay an awful thought is occurring to me. I had to look up transcripts to double-check what ellie said about her friend first: when ellie calls marlene a terrorist, marlene says "was riley a terrorist?" and the past tense there and ellie's expression both felt... significant.

so we can guess her friend died tragically. we know ellie killed someone and doesn't want to talk about it. and it's awful, it's so awful, but if she had to kill a friend who got infected, that could answer it. and it'd add extra angst to her trying and failing to save sam, too - because hey, she didn't even know to try before, maybe she can manage it this time! and then she can't.

— OH GOOD, RILEY'S A SHITHEAD TOO

— she has a good grin.

— "turn around." "you're so weird about that." <3

— uh oh this doesn't bode well

— okay maybe it bodes fine. is it even a girls' night out if they don't see a corpse and have a laugh about it

— ellie and riley are bad influences on each other and also very cute

— riley I've known you for five minutes and I know you should be smart enough not to go into a mall that's only allegedly full of infected. "if it's sealed off then why isn't it sealed off" THE CEILING CAVING IN DOESN'T MEAN THEY WERE LYING about this specific thing at least

— the moment riley said they were on a mission I just. sigh. nonzero chance this is an actual firefly mission.

…fuck, is this gonna be where they both get bitten

— you know, ellie cutting and killing that infected in the cellar where joel stopped to pick up a cache of supplies? that makes much more sense if it was revenge for riley's death. because she hasn't been quite that brutal since. but like, the chance to safely look into the face of the thing that should have killed her, that killed her friend, and get to know it a bit, then quietly regain some of the control she lost? that makes sense.

— …riley directing her into place so she can watch as the mall flickers to life, oh gosh. oh that's beautiful.

— THE FOUR FIVE WONDERS OF THE MALL. STARTING WITH ELECTRIC STAIRS. OH GOSH.

they're so gonna end up at the arcade.

— shoutout to whoever took the time to put lipstick on a glasses advert when the world locked down

— and dawn of the wolf part 2 is definitely a twilight movie equivalent

— environmental storytelling </3

— you know when you feel deep fondness but also your heart breaking a little but it's not sad, it might not even be bittersweet but that's the closest match? yeah. ellie checking her reflection in the victoria's secret window.

— hi this scene is just so soft and so pretty and so sweetly ow

— ARCADE TIME, I KNEW IT

— "you asshole." "yeah, I'm the same asshole that spent an hour yesterday breaking this fucker open." okay riley put so much effort into that night oh heck

— I'M SORRY THE MILEENA VORE IS AN ACTUAL THING. SHE ACTUALLY BARFS BONES. why am I even surprised

— can the camera not zoom out ominously please. this is sweet this is fun let's not do this right now

— ellie's attempt at a goodbye that was also an "I don't like you enough to leave the school and join the fireflies with you," but they both know that, it's not a surprise, fuckin' ouch

— "how does a computer get drunk? it takes screenshots." "what are screenshots?" "I don't actually know."

— (listen I used to write in what was technically a postapoc setting, though the worldbuilding was crap so we mostly ignored that, so I keep wanting to go back and incorporate ideas, it's terrible.)

— riley crashing at that mall with at least one ticking timebomb just chilling in one of the shops, turning the lights on and playing loud games multiple times, I really really don't like this

— oh this hurts. it was set in stone from the start but it still hurts.

— OH SHIT MAYBE NOT. fake screams wtf that's mean, show.

— "maybe the fireflies aren't what I think they are but they chose me. I matter to them." "you mattered to me first." heY OW

— seriously these are baller lines. these lines alone I could see people going feral over. this is the good angst that people write fics about.

— do they have to have this incredibly cute dance party in a shop with lots of faces and figures in the background while we know there's an infected in the mall, please I am suffering

— oh they're so cute and also so doomed

— we still don't know who ellie killed.

— "we can just be all poetic and shit and lose our minds together." yeah, I mean, ideally you could, that's a really sweet and tragic sentiment-

— present-day ellie? is a fucking badass. and I say that not to negate the fact that she's a scared kid trying to keep her caregiver alive, but rather because she's a scared kid and she doesn't know what to do and she's trying even though it's so, so hard.

— the face of someone who's not gonna lose him too.

#longer one this time! #the last of us hbo #the last of us spoilers #tlou spoilers #angst tag #orig #I find ellie and riley a little complicated and I think because it's a kinda grown-up story? #a very real messy thing that a relationship can be asymmetrical (to whatever degree and in whatever ways) and still have love there #and so much love really. #I'm kind of bad at recognising/understanding romance so I don't wanna comment more than that #but gosh they were sweet and gosh that hurt #also yes I am in fact a little smug looking back at some of my guesses now I have more information #perks of taking several hours to watch each episode (and the show being well-written tbqh)

[lunarblue21]

This is so cuuuuuteee!!! For context this is the Easter (*gag*) Ice Age short but I saw what looked like Mango and/or Manny and Diego interactions having some part/depth to it and for another context, Manny and Diego are hanging out watching the Hawks-Bears (and then later they speak of a Falcons-Hornets game in this - are "death matches" between species "televised" in the Ice Age universe?? 💀) game in his ... Manny cave.

I do hate how overly humanised this is but on the other paw it is SO CUTE and it does confirm that Manny and Diego do hang, canonically, doing bro-stuff, with each other whenever they can. :) Also I love how they're so excited because of the game and hugging each other in excitement!!! :)

#Ice Age #Ice Age feels #Mango feels #why am I such a sucker for these two .-. help me #and yeah I can already tell this short is gonna be a mess but I love Manny and Diego and their friendship and if it's even here in this #weird little overly humanised short I am here for it lol #oh and the animation isn't that great becos it's a short but at least Leary and Romano are still back as their characters so that's a plus #becos they has the friend chemistry with their voices #oh and according to this short Manny/Ellie/Peaches and Diego & Shira have their own 'dens' and Sid lives alone in his own den #which is funny becos fanfiction often has the whole herd idk DENNING together... #it feels ... WEIRD to push them all off into separate dens/caves #also Manny is cool with Diego and Shira's hunting but that was obvious wrt Diego in IA1 imo

[yuridotcom]

just finished do revenge and OH MY GOD IT WAS SO GOOD WHAT

#gonna put my thoughts in here cuz i have some stuff to say.. so spoiler alert idk #eleanor was literally so silly and insane and fun #i am a elly defender till the day i die she deserved better #mixed feelings on drea like eleanor forgave her but also #she still outed her 2 times and her apology was err but we move on #gabbi was so fun and hot and and #max can go die idk #anyway in conclusion #i love insane lesbians #do revenge #do revenge spoilers #mia talks

[sundead]

Binged The Last of Us and wowie zowie am I unwell

#like I am physically sick #going from ‘you’re cargo’ to ‘it’s okay baby girl’ to ‘It wasn’t time that did it’ just ended me #i think i need therapy #nothing has ever reaffirmed my daddy issues the way this has #the blood the carnage the way joel just fucking decimated that hospital and carried ellie out of there #joel miller #ellie tlou #pedro pascal #bella ramsey #edit: I’m adding more tags cause I have more thoughts #bill and frank’s story didn’t have the emotional impact I thought it would but honestly made me so happy #I know they die but it wasn’t sad. they’d lived full lives together and went on their terms and to get to see that was I don’t even know #it didn’t hurt it made me cry the ‘old means we’re still here’ is what got me #these two would’ve grown up through the 80’s and they survived 20 years into the apocalypse and then got to die in each others arms #I don’t know how else to describe it but like #I don’t know #it made me cry #but because they lived and loved for so long #and then Henry and Sam #I think their story gets to me the most #that one hurts A Lot #they got so close #to getting out to moving on to escaping and I just #all Henry wanted was to save Sam and to look after him and give him a life #and they got so close #and then Henry freezes and then he shoots Sam to save Ellie #and that’s the first person he’s ever killed #and don’t get me started on Kathleen #I cant add enough tags to say all the things I want to say but aaaaah #anyways I’m gonna go listen to the opening theme ‘til I fall asleep lest I succumb to my feelings and pull an all nighter thinking about it

[whenthegoldrays]

Well since I’m done with that high stakes show, it’s time to get cozy and sentimental with Tell Me That You Love Me

#I am still on episode one!! #after I watched ep 1 I recommended it to my friend and she got ahead of me 🥲 #but it’s okay it’s fine #just looking for the nearest opportunity to keep watching because it’s so sweet #marry my husband #tell me that you love me #elly's posts

[cottageivy]

i have never watched anything by jack manifold in my entire life, i was only distantly aware of him, and i am now watching his stream solely for eleanor neale

#mia rambles #i am so in love with her you don’t understand #anyways. they’re cute and he’s funny i get it lol #i eat up all her non true crime appearances bc they’re so rare so ig thank you jack manifold for this #edit: still watching for ellie #he’s a bit loud for my taste but i’m enjoying myself