#i calm down since yesterday

[ygodmyy20]

Coming undone.

Alt version. I like the one above better.

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #shigeo kageyama #terumob #teruki is there if you squint #I don’t even like this much anymore #but I’ve been on and off panic attacks since yesterday and nothing is working to calm me down #I just can’t #this articulates it better than any words could #feeling crushed by work #my art

[moeblob]

Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah? #and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

[rusty-clockworks]

Me waiting for the next chapter of bolas to come out:

#i need to know what happens next #like girly it’s only been yesterday since you played the last chapter calm down #blades of light and shadow #choices bolas #bolas #bolas 2

[prisonpodcast]

haha yea I had pretty much the same thought process. I wanted to abandon my side blog but it’s full of so much fun dsmp fandom art and meta that I can’t abandon it. It makes me too happy.

Yeahhhhh all my art is here and there’s so many good memories archived here as well and also this blog is just literally like my diary so I don’t wanna throw it all away ever for any reason I’m too attached

#and also I’ve significantly calmed down since yesterday #regarding recent events #I think knowing dream didn’t know helped a lot since I was a lot more attached to him then gnf #still want a response from gnf tho but emotionally I’m doing a lot better #asks

[the-ragbros-are-okay]

i actually feel as though i am going insane bc i need to do TOMORROWS commissions to get the last story key for kaeya’s story quest because i was an IDIOT and and DIDNT

and now i feel like i’m full of BEES

PLUS. IM GOING ON A TRIP.TOMORROW

so i’m waking up early and doing my commissions and then a story quest bc i’ll be damned if i have to wait three more fucking days to see my favorite traumatized blue haired man

#my sister saw me yesterday when his story quest came out #and i realized i didn’t have enough keys #and i was fucking FUMING #and she was like “(name) you need to calm down” and i was like #“oh im SO FUCKING CALM RN you don’t even KNOW” while grinding my teeth and doing my commissions #i’m actually so upset why tf did i just ASSUME i would have enough story keys #i’m inconsolable #if i get spoilers i’m gonna be putting Diluc In Snezhnaya as the first thing on my kin list (that doesn’t exist) #but at the same time. i want to know so bad #my sister and i were arriving back at home and i was telling her how ME of all people is gonna wake up early #and do my commissions and the quests #and she was like “yeah i was on the hoyolab website earlier and saw a screenshot that i thought you might like” #and i was like “hokyfuckisng SHIT did it. okay answer me one questions. did he talk about—“ #“yes he said The D Word” and i literally said YIPPEE and jumped for joy #we were arriving home at the time and i fucking. skipped across our driveway #and i’ve been in a haze ever since #i feel like i’m. like my blood has been replaced by pure electrolytes. and like im #gonna explode if i don’t DO SOMETHING to occupy my time #was doing my commissions earlier and kaeya’s always on my team (ofc) but i heard one of his idle lines and i #went into such a fit of despair bc it reminded me of how i couldn’t do his story quest yet #DUE TO MY OWN DUMBASS CHOICES #that i. had to take him off my team for the day #AND THEN TWO KF MY COMMISSIONS WERE RIGHT BY DAWN WINERY #LIKE. GENSHIN JS REALKY FUCKING ME OVER HUH #why don’t they just spit in my face and stomp me into the ground i think it would feel better than THIS

[kaidabakugou]

coffee dates with your mom have you spilling all your dirty secrets without a second thought 😭

#kai.rambles #idk what this phenomena is but it’s apparently common lol #im gonna tmi in the tags like it’s a little face time call bc i’m waiting at the airport for my friend #but i had a little coffee date with my mom yesterday bc we both needed a little break since the family is STILL here and hasn’t left #and we just need this whole thanksgiving thing to be over bc we’re going insane with so many relatives in and out of our homes #so we went to a local coffee shop that just opened and it’s so cute btw and ITS PET FRIENDLY so i saw many doggies there #and can’t wait to take woody when this whole doggy virus going around calms down 😔 #but anyway she saw that i was like fidgeting in my chair and ask wtf was wrong and i told her that i had a pimple on my ass cheek lol #and she was like how did it even get there like you take such good care of your skin?? #and i was like idk it just appeared there 😅 #and she was like - 🤨🤨 after your bday? #and i said like yeahhhh? #at this point i already knew she was onto me lol and we both laughed and she asked what did my bf and i do for my bday #so i told her and now she won’t stop laughing at me #for context - here’s the tmi lol - but my bf used whipped cream on me for my bday and we cuddled for a bit #afterwards with the intention of going to shower but we ended up passing out all sticky 😭 #and i quickly took a full exfoliating shower in the morning when i realized but it was already too late and now i have a pimple on my ass 😭 #and it’s like more towards the inside of the cheek so it fkn hurts everytime i sit down #and i was so paranoid after that instead of putting one boric acid capsule into my pussy i put two just in case #bc i was so scared that i was gonna get and infection of something but it’s been 4 days now #and nothing’s happening so i think i’m good but yeah i told her and now she laughs everytime she sees me or remembers it 😭 #i don’t mind bc it’s her and i trust my mom and tell her everything but i never get into detail about my sex life #so the fact that THISSS is the one thing about it that i tell her it’s hilarious #so yeah and now whoever reads this monstrosity of tags knows too #and if you did read this then come here bc i’m giving you BIG WET KISSES and taking you out on a little picnic date 💓💓 #and we can wear matching outfits and feed eachother desserts🥺

[captain-flint]

about to go on an insane ofmd s2 reblog spree jsyk

#tagging it with ofmd s2 spoilers #it's been a whole day since i watched it and i have yet to calm the fuck down #i wasn't even able to form words yesterday much less blog about it #i have so many gifset ideas but my laptop is so busted if i open PS it's gonna kill itself #and for that reason i'm spending a stupid amount of money on getting it fixed so i can gif these gays #ANYWAY #rip my sanity

[ashuribbon]

One last thing before I get to emptying my inbox and completing art requests (as much as I dislike talking about it here). I know things are super tense right now, especially with the new update. I already made my statement on how I felt about it on Twitter, but do know that I am not cheery about it either. It’s important to listen to SWANA folks, such as myself and a couple others in the CR community or any community at all, when we talk about how Orientalism hurts us. It’s not a joke or a laughing matter or something to be downplayed, it’s a very serious thing that has harmed us for centuries on end, and it’s shown in the history books.

I’ll be resuming talking about my faves and finish art requests in a bit, but I felt I needed to get this off my chest.

#I almost had a panic attack yesterday because of what happened. Thank heaven my friends stepped in to calm me down. #I won't go any further since I feel I've made enough of a statement on my Twitter. #Shush It Asher #orientalism tw #I just wanna draw my comfort ships and comfort characters man

[hella1975]

‘you don’t seem too happy tho :(’ cunt I’ll bite you

#THE ACTUAL CHEEK OF HER LET ME CALM DOWN BEFORE I RANT FUCK MEEEEE THIS GIRL THIS GIRLYPOP EVEN #right so I’ve got a mate that I fell out with a couple weeks ago and she’s not confrontational but she IS the type to hold grudges #and express them in like. really petty ways. so like we settled our argument ages ago and I moved on bc i have a life #BUT IT’S OUR OTHER MATE’S BDAY PARTY TODAY AND IM NOT THAT CLOSE WITH THIS MATE BUT THIS GIRL IS HER FLATMATE YEAH #SO EVEN IF THAT MATE DIDNT INVITE ME DIRECTLY THEN THIS OTHER MATE THAT I AM CLOSER WITH WOULD HAVE #bc basically me her and another girl make a trip like we’re very close and it’s a very rigid trio set up #like you CANNOT invite two and not the other yk? guess what she fucking did #i only FOUND OUT ABOUT THIS PARTY BC THE THIRD GIRL IN OUR TRIO VERY CASUALLY WAS LIKE OH WHAT R U GONNA WEAR #AND I WAS LIKE??? TO WHAT??? AND SHE WAS SO BAMBOOZLED BC THATS HOW MUCH OF A GIVEN IT WAS THAT ID BE INVITED #BC MY MATE INVITED HER BUT NOT ME #and I’ve known that since yesterday morning but I was like okayyy okay im saying nothing am I fuck getting aggy bc I didn’t get INVITED #like that’s embarassing I’m staying silent. which I stick to until suddenly 5pm today #my mate that invited the other girl but not me messages me going #‘are you coming?’ GIRL??? AND THEN PROCEEDS TO TRY GASLIGHT ME LIKE ‘I MESSAGED YOU ABOUT IT’ #YOU DID IN FACT NOT #AND I CANT PROVE SHES BEING INNOCENT AND PETTY BC WE FELL OUT AGES AGO BUT IT CERTAINLY FUCKING FEES LIKE IT #and even tho id acc like to have gone to that party I cut my nose off and was like nah im gonna sit this one out it’s just awkward now innit #and she was backtracking by that point bc i think she thought she’d just make me feel marginally uncomfortable and then I’d crawl over #like no bitch!!! and yeah I was a bit mardy on text and she HITS ME WITH THIS #‘are you okay’ ‘yeah you two have fun’ ‘you don’t seem too happy tho?’ YOU FUCKING RECKON??? #furious tbh im scheming over how to retaliate even though i KNOW i shouldnt #petty petty girls grow up pls #hella goes to uni

[bluebudgie]

in my wildest dreams HoT metas will be adjusted to current power levels so we can finally get rid of 2-minute tarirs and 1-phase gerents

#sorry i did tarir yesterday and today since forever bc i need to stock up on gemstones but it's not worth the headache #i fucking despise what this meta has become with the power creep. communication? never heard of her. bang head against octovine and win #doesnt matter if we regenerate 3 times bc noone can coordinate. brute force it until at some point all octovine deaths align by accident #'BUDGIE ITS A VIDEO GAME CALM DOWN' I KNOW. I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS DISASTER OF A BRAINLESS EVENT #at least chak gerent was never a meta in need of much communication to begin with so we didnt lose much #budgie plays gw2

[adore-gregor]

:)

#but i am feeling better overall about it all since yesterday #i should have read it sooner but as i told you i got an a in that class #and the professor also gave me feedback it was so nice 🤧 #i love my uni professors they're really great ☺️ #it just reminded that i am good at some things and maybe i will hopefully achieve a good job with my studies one day... #he gave me feedback on a text i had to write on the course and also more general #he wrote he apreciated my interest & participation in class &that he loves seing nothing more than in his students than that as a professor #:)) #i also got 10/10 points #and he agreed with a lot of my observation and thought it was interesting to read #but also while i do love football i am thinking of quitting it #altough i don't like to be a person that runs away from difficulties #but honestly i don't feel very welcomed in the team either and they are just so different we have little in common #they are not mean to me but i don't really feel part of it either and there is this one girl who is overly competitive #and she moans at you if you make a mistake in training like in training! #i mean i'm not overly upset about if sometimes some words fall in a match it can happen in the pressure but in training?? #like she also probably thinks she's so good but if she were she wouldn't be at our team now would she 😂 #like calm down #and she's a defender but if she had to defend me in a 1v1 i bet she'd lose actually because she could never keep up with my speed 😅 #i mean she's not horrible otherwise but and not that i'm that great besides my speed and sometimes i have my moments where i dribble well #but i'm not the one acting like this #and she's also the type of person who has inked in her bio on social media which i find funny sry 😂 #if anyone who reads this has this too pls don't be offended #but you know it just makes me think why? how is having a tattoo one of the most interesting things about you 😂 #it's not a personality trait? nothing else of interest in your life that's sad 😅 #doesn't need to be true for everybody but if you disagree tell me why like i don't see it lol #and i'm also worried i won't play like i'm not putting in so much time to then sit on the bench #i'd even try goalkeeper tbh if that means i'd be appreciated for it if i were good at it #it's not that i think i'm so good that i need to play just that i have limited time with uni and tennis already... #it's a lot already i would at least like to get something out of it

[multifandomhoodies]

yeah everyone has off days at work but I hate having off days at work especially when I remember how easily I could accidentally kill myself

#anyways. had a rotted tree come down right where i had been standing. was it tiny? yeah. would it have hurt? yeah bitch was pricky #i didnt cut through my holding wood there was just None #ran out of the way which was good. it was fine. still made me nervous #been weird and nervy since yesterday when they stuck me in training for Four Hours #i need miserable outside time to be calm unfortunately #personal

[kulliare]

maybe the most sad / annoying / petty thing is that i don't really feel like being close to one of my best friends anymore and i swear i would still want to be close to her if covid didn't happen

#the worst part now is that since covid's vaguely calmed down that i too should be less pissy but no. #someone told me yesterday that i'm really principled which is so annoying. it would be nice to not have a stick #up my ass 24/7 but here i am #stick in ass even after a few months or even a year #and she and the guy she's fucking and that I ALSO feel petty about keep sending messages to me #and im like. i really don't want to care about you again bestie #like i'm okay being acquaintance friends with her but i have no desire to talk to her like we used to #but since we're in the same circle of friends i have to be Friendly #the thing is that i can't even claim to be on my high horse w the plague bc im unmasked sometimes but like #yeah i don't know. other stuff happened too but it's just so minor that it's like. it shouldn't have #culminated into me being like ok. well idc abt u anymore xoxo

[dan-sing-in-the-rain]

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#today i had a really bad day for no reason #when yesterday was so good and i was so happy that the happy was vibrating out of me and i couldn't be calm #and i simply don't know what to do #because i can't keep having days like this and also be a functioning student #but i just don't know what is wrong with me #something is definitely wrong with me #sorry to vent in the tags but i just got out of spiraling pretty badly and needed to feel like i was talking to someone #i thought i was just depressed but then so many small stupid things make me completely lose it #and since i can't scream my lungs out and break things i just freeze and cry and hit my head #which doesn't seem healthy either #maybe i just need a place to scream or something? #but today was so bad that i couldn't even watch the video yet #bc i didn't want to ruin the video with my freakout #maybe it would have calmed me down but i didn't want to risk it #i'm kind of exhausted now #but tomorrow i need to think of what to do bc i don't want to do poorly in school for whatever the heck is wrong with me

[yohankang]

i’m so tired and angry i can’t believe it’s just the beginning....

#i cried 3 times since yesterday #my first exam is in 2 days #and the last one.. in a month. #it's not even about the exams tbh #but spending HALF of my monthly pay on train tickets and one (1) night at a hotel was a bit too much for me lol #and i had to make many calls to friends/family to find a place i could stay at #bc train tickets are so expensive i literally can't afford staying at the hotel too #and my friends were so helpful and lovely #but first i wanted to ask my uncle.. bc yk. close family. that guy is even my godfather. and he treated me like shit lmaoo i got so angry #i cried at work bc i couldn't believe this #like we know each other well i know he's not the kindest person. but his reaction?? honestly that might be the last time i talked to him #sorry for being so vague i don't have the energy to tell you what happened sdfghjs #but anyway. can you believe i'm literally less stressed abt the actual exams than i am about the commute/accomodation? #but ngl i am also stressed abt the exams. a bit. mostly because some of our professors still haven't sent us the materials for exams #and one of them in on sunday lmaooo this is fine i can memorize everything in one evening. right? #also bc my previous uni experiences literally traumatized me. but it's gonna be FINE i'm gonna be FINE i just need to. focus #i'm taking a day off tomorrow and i hope it will help me calm down #k.txt #sorry for losing my mind on main <3 if you've read this far i'm sending you a kiss <3

[gcldbound]

I miss clear skies so much. Ugh this smoke makes me feel sick and exhausted...

#❈ ——◜     ooc.     ◞ ∙ #( things seemed to have calmed down since yesterday n stuff ) #( fires are obviously still burning ) #( forecast says rain tomorrow and tuesday ) #( HOPING that clears things up a bit ) #/ wildfires #/ natural disaster #/ ask to tag #/ vent #( i'm so tired of this 😔 ) #( heart goes out to all those effected in k.elowna ) #( and to think i was just there a few days before this started ) #( send your love to BC canada pls ) #( we need it so bad )