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ushys · 9 months

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⸻ miles morales as your boyfriend (earth 1610)

a/n: omfg the chokehold this gif has on me- anyway you guys do not understand how much love i have for this sweet boy 🥹 deserves the world idc idc.

- fluff, no nsfw bc he is a minor, afab reader (lmk if you guys want gn, male)

MILES LOVES drawing you. you’re perfect in his eyes and he could draw only you for all of eternity and he wouldn’t complain at all. everything about you was beautiful to him and he made sure he captured every beautiful detail you have on to his drawings.

MILES is the type to send you cute (your favorite animal) videos on tiktok because he knows how much you love em and all he wants to do is to make you happy.

WILL introduce you to his family and is happy when he finds out how easily you and his parents got along. you got along with his mom so well that sometimes you’d visit their house and mostly talk ‘chisme’ with her the entire time (he gets jealous-)

AFTER an argument, he stops by your window and drops you off flowers with a little cute note apologizing. he doesn’t know if you would want to see him at that moment so he gives you time to cool off and give you some space. he replies immediately if you were to call or text him ready to talk again due to how much he hates wasting time not talking to you.

HE likes showing you off to anyone. his friends? yes. his family? yes. strangers on the street? yes. he can’t help it if he’s madly in love.

WHEN he revealed to you that he was spider-man, he was scared that you were going to be mad at him for keeping this a secret from him for a very long time. he thought that you were going to think that he didn’t “trust” you but when you were actually ecstatic finding out instead of upset, his worries all vanished as he smiled and hugged you.

WILL have a whole playlist dedicated to you. he likes to listen to that playlist when you aren’t with him, yk so he could daydream.

IS completely oblivious when you’re jealous. if you catch him talking to another girl who is clearly into him, you’d be upset in which miles would ask you about but you would just mumble “it’s nothing”. hearing this, miles thinks back to the entire morning wondering if he did something to make you upset. when you finally tell him, he quickly reassures you and says “i don’t feel anything towards any other girl who isn’t you. i love you and only you ma.”

IF it’s late at night and you can’t fall asleep, miles would come over with his spider-man suit on and picks you up, and swings to different buildings. then, you guys would land on a rooftop with a clear and beautiful view of the city at night and by the edge you guys would sit down, while miles pulls you in close to him, head on his shoulder, admiring the sight of the skyline. “it’s so pretty” you say. “not as pretty as you cariño”

MILES used to think that pet names were lowk cringey, but when he started dating you, everything changed. now, he calls you “mi amor” “baby” “my love” “cariño” “preciosa” “babe”

HE can not flirt if he wanted to flirt on purpose. he gets awkward and shy like 🫣🫣 this one time before you guys started dating, he wanted to make a move on you by saying “hey y/n, a-are you fr-from tennessee? cause you’re the 1 f-for me- wait no that’s not right, wait what was it again? i u-uh never mind.” and he scurried off before you could even say anything. “the fuck-“

WHEN you guys go on the train, he would pull out his airpods and give you one of them while you guys listen to one of his playlists (ahem the playlist he made for you but shh you don’t know that.)

IF you don’t do graffiti art, miles will take you to one of his secret locations and teach you how to draw certain things and praises you for trying your best. once you get better at it, you guys start going to his secret location more often and you guys just spend hours spray painting.

LOVES LOVES LOVES cuddling with you. literally one of his favorite things to do with you. he loves just having you in his arms knowing you are safe and sound with him. your soft and warm skin making him wanting to fall asleep because of how comforting it feels to just have you there with him. what he loves the most is having your arms around him holding him close while his head lays on your chest, listening in to your heartbeat knowing you really are there with him and that you are his and he is yours.

TAKES random and silly pictures of you just to send them later to you after you guys hung out and texts you saying “this one is my favorite.”

HAS a picture of you on his lock screen and his home screen.

that’s all for today, im tired and imma go and day dream about this boy :p

#across the spiderverse #spider man: across the spider verse #miles morales #miles spiderverse #miles spiderman #miles morales x you #miles morales x y/n #miles morales x reader #miles x you #miles x y/n #miles x reader #earth 1610 miles x you #earth 1610 miles x reader #earth 1610 miles morales x reader #earth 1610 miles fluff #earth 1610 miles morales x you #nah imma do my own thing

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suchacomet · 5 months

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Spring Awakening Fandom Tag

(By @winter-asleepening, tagged (kinda) by @feelssogoodinmyarms )

sorry for this being long and for jumping in on this out of nowhere, i got excited and i missed talking about this show now that i’m once again in my yearly spring awakening phase thanks to seeing a local production yesterday :)

1. How were you introduced to the show?

i was an emo kid trying to find musicals i liked bc i started doing theater in high school, i saw american idiot was made into a musical, and followed the john gallagher jr rabbit hole to a b00tl3g of obc spring awakening. this happened to be in 2014 and when i heard about dwsa on broadway i conned my mom into taking me to nyc to see it (i didnt tell her how sexual it was i just said “it’s about teens coming of age in germany set to rock music” and she had Words for me during that intermission lol)

2. Seen a production live?

yes, four: dwsa, a local college production, and two productions at local theater companies in the areas i’ve lived

3. Dream role/character you relate to most

y’all already know it’s moritz…. i imprinted on him when i was 14 and have never stopped being obsessed with him as a character. but i think it’s more likely i’d get the chance to play ilse before moritz and i would love to play ilse as well

4. Favorite male character

mort steeple :) i have never gotten enough of this dude, ever

5. Favorite female character

wendla <3 she’s such a good character when she’s played with the right amount of joy, stubbornness, and curiosity

6. Deaf West Revival or Original Broadway Cast?

dwsa all the way. i appreciate obc for what it is but dwsa is my definitive best revival/adaptation ever ever ever

7. Favorite song

comet on its way :) christ such a whole, like, deal 🙄😏

but if you force me to pick “a real song” that “is actually in the show” then… i think a production that has a really good “and then there were none” is killer bc it means 1. they’re focusing on my favorite boy moritz and 2. they have an adult woman who plays fanny gabor compassionately but flawed in a way that underscores the show’s themes around adults not trusting kids with their own minds and bodies. which i greatly enjoy

8. Least favorite song

this is unfair of me bc it never fails to make me cry and it has one of my favorite lyrics ever in it (window by window you try and look into this brave new you that you are) but it’s “the guilty ones” bc i think “there once was a pirate” is better. my hot take is that dwsa is only version of spring awakening i’ve ever seen where i actually prefer their use of guilty ones instead of pirate

9. Favorite quote/line

musical: so maybe i should be some kind of laundry line / hang their things on me / and i will swing ‘em dry / you just wave in the sun through the afternoon / and then see / they come to set you free / beneath the rising moon - don’t do sadness it’s just such an evocative description of feeling hopeless against all the pressures of life and perfectly encapsulates being 15 and desperate and just wanting a little bit of relief. plus the way daniel durant and alex boniello performed this is so killer. moritz stiefel i love you

play: “don’t let’s be sad […] if we recall this in thirty years, perhaps we shall make fun of it.——and yet everything is so beautiful. the mountains glow; the grapes hang before our mouths and the evening breeze caresses the rocks like a playful flatterer.” from hans in the vineyard scene. augh it’s just so tender and lovely in a way that the musical doesn’t have the time/ability to address, with the acknowledgement that yes this moment is temporary and who knows if ernst and hanschen will “make it”. and yet. everything is so beautiful. also PROOF THAT HANSCHEN ISNT A CREEP OR MANIPULATIVE HE IS ALSO A TEEN BOY IN LOVE FUCK YOU STEVEN SATER

10. Favorite TV performance

always and forever dwsa touch me on seth meyer i have seen it at least two hundred times and i’m not exaggerating

11. Favorite cast member(s)

daniel durant always always always. he is such a talent i’m so glad his career seems to be taking off, he’s genuinely one of the best actors i’ve ever seen in my whole life.

12. Favorite cast member moment

can i say 1st national tour cabaret where the boys performed comet on its way in order to bring up comet on its way again. if not it’s when i gave daniel durant a painting of him as moritz at stage door and i was a shy anxious teen who learned just enough asl to say “hi” and “thank you” and “will you sign my playbill please” and he was SO sweet to me and lovely and he hugged me and i know actors do that kind of shit all the time and i’m sure he doesn’t remember it but it really made my whole life when it happened :’)

13. Do you write fan fiction?

not outside of personal catharsis pieces that have never seen the light of day. i made an aloto/vineyard scene web weaving post though that i do think goes hard

14. Do you make fan art?

i still love the moritz and then there were none piece i did a few years ago but i haven’t done a whole lot past that… that may change though i want to get back into drawing

15. Do you cosplay?

no, but spring awakening costumes have 10000% influenced my real life fashion and hair decisions. lol

16. Don’t do Sadness or Blue Wind?

i just saw this GORGEOUS performance of dds/bw where ilse sobbed through her verse of blue wind and the rest of the cast like gathered around her and slowly peeled away to represent her memory/longing for real connection and the reality of her never really having that at all, and really underscoring that her spoken lines about her new life in the artist’s colony and wanting to take moritz home are just posturing to hide how lonely she is… so right now i think blue wind

17. Word of Your Body or the Reprise?

reprise when it’s done earnestly, but i do really love the lyrics in woyb

18. Touch Me or My Junk?

my junk! i love seeing the different ways it’s staged between georg and hanschen and the girls, plus it’s the only time the girls get to be horny

19. Explain the Song of Purple Summer

it’s a metatextual message from the story of spring awakening to the audience that underscores the themes of open and honest communication being the key to healthy people and relationships, it’s asking the adults in the audience to believe children (when they say they’re gay, when they ask for information and want to be given all of it, when they ask for help and say they want to die), it’s a message of hope to the kids in the seats who relate too much to the kids on stage, telling us that it will get better

20. Explain the Song of Purple Summer (wrong answers only)

horses fuck and have foal babies idk <3

that was very fun thank you for indulging me. if any of mine olde spring awakening/dwsa mutuals are still around please consider this me tagging you <3

#blah.txt #spring awakening #fandom tag #long post

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gothamslostboy · 1 year

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Hey I’d love to have a shipping with one of the lost boys if you don’t mind? <33

Any of the lost boys pretty please <33

My favorite animal is between a horse and a bat. Always have been since childhood ironically.

My music taste is glam metal/sleaze metal. Love hardcore music but I do love anything “spunky” and unique. Something that vibes with the soul.

I am a she/her and identify as female.

Appearance—I am short. Blonde. Big hair and green eyed. I have a midish size body. More smaller tbh. I usually have red painted nails. I am shaped like the letter P ngl—

What I wear— Always in something leather or rocker. I go between groupie x 80s church mom x trophy wife

Personality— I am very stern in my ways yet I like to baby whomever I care about. I can be a little out there but well rounded I assume. I do have a temper but I keep it on the down low. I care A LOT about my appearance and always need to be ready to go before I leave.

I desire a likeminded partner who’ll take me for me and someone whom I can trust whole heartedly and will always be there for me good or bad as I will be there for them :). Someone who won’t lie as well and can tell me the truth straight forward.

Hobbies— I like to draw and listen to music. I love driving my car— fast and blast music with the windows down at night. I love to play guitar but also love to lay in bed when I get the chance.

Thank you so so sooo very much and much love from auntvamp <333 🥹❤️

Omg ly too auntvamp! Of course I can give you a ship

THE LOST BOYS:

You and Paul will run Santa Carla! Paul loves Glam Rock and is always ready to listen/dance to spunky songs. Paul loves having someone who puts in just as much effort in her appearance as he does and will show you off to everyone. He is a ride or die so as soon as someone or something hurts you he does everything possible to fix the situation.

Paul absolutely loves being babied and even if he rolls his eyes sometimes, he knows ur being stern bc u want him to be safe. This man is a cuddle bug so expect him to cling to ur side the second ur in bed. Or he lays directly on top of you and tries to subtly watch ur face it’s so fucking obvious

I hc he has a guitar but gave up trying to learn how to play bc it was to much work, but if you’re teaching him then he does his absolute best to focus. He’s always been a motorcycle kinda guy but now loves riding in the car with you. His favorite music playing, his favorite girl driving, and both ur guys hair blowing all over the place.

He likes that he’s taller than you bc he can rest his head on yours in public

#the lost boys #tlb #tlb 1987 #the lost boys 1987 #the lost boys paul

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meherya · 2 years

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Okay I’ve fully formulated my thoughts on Little Women (2022)

It started off as intriguing, the way everything fell apart for the sisters... The set up with Hwa Young’s death and the bankruptcy case for In Kyung set the stage... but then... it was just... Personally, the whole back and forth mind games stuff was boring as hell, and the show lagged between like ep 3 and ep 8.. Stuff moved way too fast at times, and most of the characters (In Joo) made the dumbest decisions over and over again and really didn’t learn from her past mistakes... Like in the end, why would you not tell Do Il that Sang-A texted you? Do you still not trust him? Like in the beginning it would have made sense but in the end? Dumb bitch juice is her bread and butter I’m guessing. Also the stylist must have hated Kim Go Eun or something, always had her dressed like she’d lived on the prairies as a school teacher in the 1940s (the big auction outfit was saur bad I’m sorry).

I understand the point of her character was like “you won’t break my soul” or whatever but I still think the writers did her dirty, Kim Go Eun played her being kind of a ditz well but I think we got a glimpse of how good In Joo’s character could have been when she held Sang-A at gunpoint in Singapore. If only the writers had made In Joo learn how to play the game herself rather than having her pushed around from one plot point to the other. Like I’m never gonna get over everyone knowing the big plan to outsmart Jae Sang/Sang-A when they threatened Do Il EXCEPT her bc they were like “yea she’d ruin it” LIKE PLEASE 😭

I think that would have to be my biggest gripe with the show, overall I don’t think In Joo should’ve been the main focus.. In Kyung’s storyline was much more interesting, like finding out she’s an alcoholic and was raised by the wealthy great aunt, not to mention how she was willing to get mauled by a dog to expose Jae Sang which did tie in with the 70 billion won that was embezzled by those crazies. For In Joo I think the narrative did her dirty, she’s really only ever being pulled along the current by the people around her whether it’s Do Il or Sang-A like she really wasn’t making much of her own decisions after she got caught with 2 billion won.

Other than that, they would introduce plot points and drop them like it was nothing... What was up with the whole great aunt’s debt that In Kyung has to deal with? What happened to Do Il’s dad? His mom? The ending ties up loose ends sure but in an unbelievable type of way. Those videos from Hwa Young’s apartment... if the Jeongran society was so thorough with their clean up how did those recording devices go undetected, they got some random dude’s blackbox and fucked the cctv up so how they miss that (also the fact that there were multiple angles lmao). Some stuff in the show just straight up didn’t make sense, how did Sang-Woo manage to save the video of him being murdered by Jae-Sang... what’s this new technology? I know a lot of it has to do with the suspension of disbelief, like ik there’s some hallucinogenic flower involved too like obvi stuff isn’t gonna be REAL but... I had trouble suspending by disbelief because the writing wasn’t tight enough for me to do that.

Continuing with what doesn’t make sense..... Wasn’t In Joo sentenced to a year and 6 months? How did she come out and Hwa Young still has the same injuries as she did when she was in court. Also the whole orchestrated accident thing by Jae Sang... but also Sang-A was also in Singapore to fuck with In Joo? Idk like shit was not adding up to me.

Romance wise idk I never thought Do Il and In Joo were going in that direction, like till the end Do Il scoffs when that lady says “ur in love with in joo” like please... I think his actions contradicting his earlier words about dancing for the money has largely to do with the fact that after In Joo delivered his mom’s message he was like hmm maybe revenge is better than money. I genuinely think In Joo and Hwa Young had more chemistry than them but I digress. As for In Kyung and her neighbour idk she spends a good portion of the show being uninterested and in the end they’re kissing like okay I guess.

I say all this to say.... how is this even remotely close to Little Women 😭

#anyways idk #i expected a lot more is all i have to say #also ngl i spent the last two episodes genuinenly hitting the fast forward 15 seconds button or whatever it is #little women #also idrc about in hye so

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angelinatoybox · 10 months

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tired

i’ve been moving my stuff around all day and i only ate one real meal today which isn’t good bc i am normally used to eating three meals a day :( (i’m ok now though i had dinner at least- so i won’t go to bed hungry)

but anyways! i have a story for you all today.

warning: the following story is very trifling (not me, the person i am about to talk about)(also grammar and possibly spelling may be off, sorry i was ranting)

(also for this to not be confusing, i will simply refer to the subjects as aunt 1 and aunt 2 respectively)

7/7/23

so, i have been staying at my aunt’s house until i am able to get my own place due to circumstances i won’t talk about in this post (maybe later). i have a storage unit, but because it is summer and the heat is unbearable i can’t put everything in storage- like liquids, electronics- because it’ll get messed up. so most of my things are at aunt 1′s house. only problem with aunt 1, is that she has a history of being touchy with other ppl’s things. for example, there was a time where she stayed with me and my mom and i have the strawberry poundcake set from bath and body works (and i’m talking from the body care stuff, to the lip scrub, to the candles i have EVERYTHING from that set), and everytime she got out the shower, she came out smelling like me even though me and my mom gave her some soap to use. i wouldn’t mind if she was courteous and asked me before using my stuff, because that stuff ain’t cheap; but she didn’t which only irritated me. but onto the main point, i had a storage crate at her house with my some of my things: my skincare stuff, lotions, nail care stuff, some clothes, some electronics my mattress, etc. my storage crate and everything else was put into her hallway closet. on the first day i stayed the night, after i’ve settled in, i noticed she kept going into the closet; she had put her bag in there and was going back and forth to get stuff out of it. i was halfway drunk when i asked her “why is your bag in there?” (bc she has her own room with a door that stays shut all the time so no one goes in there; and i didn’t ask disrespectfully, there’s just other places you could put your things- or at least give me a new place to put my things) she said “girl this is my house”

now.... i understand but like?? and i don’t trust anyone but i let it go at the time. after that first night i did not like staying at her house due to other things that would take too long to explain. i went to aunt 2′s house which is a far better arrangement and right across the street from my job, so it was more convenient. i left my stuff at aunt 1′s house with the intent of coming back later to put the rest in storage and to take some stuff to aunt 2′s house. yesterday, i had went back to grab some more things from my crate that i needed at the other aunt’s house. before i did, aunt 1 had lied and said she was at work, only for me to show up and to see her sitting on her couch (remember that detail for later). before i went into my crate, she proceeds to tell me “i’m sorry i had went into your crate so it’s a bit messed up, i got your bar soap so i could shower”

...

for more context, her water had been shut off at her house and her and her kids that are staying with her have been showering at the neighbors house.

but- you went in my things (which you know i would have a huge fucking problem with that). you could’ve called me and asked. but you didn’t. and took my last bar of soap when i had given you soap last week despite you knowing i’m in an emergency situation right now. i had gotten more soap while at aunt 2s house anyway, but it doesn’t matter it’s the principle of thing. so, me being pissed, i said it’s ok (which it wasn’t), and started to grab the stuff i needed along with any other expensive shit i possibly had in my crate. while i’m doing that, i just thought ykw? fuck it i’m taking my whole crate with me. while digging through it though, i noticed one of my perfumes was missing. its the victoria’s secret bombshell magic perfume that was a limited edition (a christmas special) that was also a birthday gift. my birthday is in december and since then i only used 3-4 times for special ocassions mostly. point being, it was a damn near full bottle. i got back to aunt 2s house and texted aunt 1 asking wheres my perfume?? she texts back saying she saw it when she was getting my soap, sprayed some and took it with her to the neighbors house... then said she’s sorry, she barely used it and she will get it back to me as soon as she can... pissed wasn’t even the motherfucking word...

so i told her to leave the perfume in a drawer somewhere so her kids wouldn’t accidentally break it (they clumsy and careless af) and i’ll be back the following morning to get it. she said ok. i wake up and the first thing i do is text her asking her if she left it. she then says she spent the night at her boyfriends house and didn’t get to leave it... and that she has to go to work. i ask her well when are you off. she says she doesn’t know...

so i wait till about 6pm because thats when she was “off” the previous day (remember?) then i go to her house. there she is again. this time she is ignoring me and acting like she talking on the phone to somebody. mind you i only paraphrased the whole text conversation because its lengthy but just know that it was trifling af. she was starting to get annoyed at ME, like i took HER shit and not the other way around..

but moving on with the story, while she was on her super important phone call 🙄 i called my dad (who i hardly talk to) to come and help move the rest of my stuff out bc i refuse to put up with this shit. i got everything but my mattress. and while i’m making sure i got the rest of my stuff, what else do i see but my strawberry poundcake lotion in a drawer in the living room.... i’m ready to start swinging on somebody.

we get all my things in the car and the only thing left to get is my perfume. i walk upstairs and she’s still on the phone with her door closed. i’m calling her name over and over, even got her 14 year old to tell her to hurry her ass up bc i got somewhere to be (not really, just give me my shit back), and i kid you not 15 minutes go by. she finally yells back ��its spilled, tell her i’ll buy her another one”

...

BITCH WTF DO YOU MEAN “It’S SPiLlEd?!?!?!?” a $70 bottle of perfume doesn’t “spill.” so i go upstairs after him and ask her what do you mean? she still on the phone. i call her name to the point where she starts yelling and snapping at me (again like i took HER shit) and she finally opens the door and gives me perfume that she says “evaporated” (it’s not even that fucking hot outside for it to “evaporate” in your bag; it should’ve never fucking been there to begin with). and on top of that she also lost the lid. she asked me how much the perfume was, i tell her it was a special limited edition perfume. you’re not going to find it anywhere else, plus it was a birthday gift. she asks me again and i tell her. and she said she’d replace it, which i know she isn’t because you already owe me money for something else, and even asked me for money yesterday despite knowing you was taking shit out of my crate. i got my bottle back and you would’ve thought someone had it for a whole fucking year. i get back in my dad’s car and he said she thinks what took her so long to open the door was that she was pouring the perfume into something else. which makes sense. my thing is, you had first said “it spilled, i’ll buy you another one” as if i was supposed to leave without the bottle. i think that was her trying to keep the bottle right then and there but bitch, i’m not stupid. give me my fucking bottle back tf. and mind you, i have been getting called bougie and sadity (is that how you spell it??) all week, but you sure af loved my bougie ass perfume tho huh?

so officially that’s the last mf time i’ll ever deal with her ass. and honestly, tho i’m not violent, i really want to beat her ass. you went through my shit, you took my shit, ALL without permission, gave me the run around, used up my shit, and got mad at me like i did something to you...

i hate that i’m not eloquent enough to type out how mad i really am about this whole bs ordeal. made no type of mf sense.

i’m trying to look from a positive side, that at least i got the rest of my shit out of there and now the onyl thing i have to worry about is my mattress- which i will be getting possibly on monday due to good neighbors of the previous place i used to stay at,

the lesson of the day y’all: don’t trust just anoyone. not even your own family. (even tho i didn’t trust her to begin with, but i know that advice is for somebody out there)

goodnight 💋

#❣️ i speak

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troglobite · 2 years

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everything was going fucking fine and then my mom pulled a magic trick and made everything terrible again and i’m so tired i’m so fucking tired

she KNOWS

SHE HAS TO FUCKING KNOW WHAT SHE’S DOING

she never admits it

she doesn’t tell me things until the last minute, or until i’m in a position to not be able to handle whatever it is she’ll tell me

and then when i get upset she uses that as proof that she can’t talk to me about anything bc i’m too weak and pathetic and anxious

and then she’ll get upset and ~not do something bc i don’t want her to~ even though i’m not asking to control her or anything like that, and then she spins the situation so that it’s like i’m controlling her life and every action anyway

even though all i want is to be FUCKING HEARD. and RESPECTED. and treated like i’m NOT A FUCKING IDIOT.

i haven’t been coding memories normally since she got back. i’ve been in terrible physical pain and completely losing track of time and not sleeping or eating right. this whole time. trying to make sure everything was fine.

and tomorrow we both go for the PCR test and we were just gonna take steps from there and i’m trying to keep my OCD at bay and get through this weekend

and then she does this

and i want to die i want to hurt myself how is she SO GOOD at making me feel like the most burdensome awful irritating most irrational person who’s every been born????

i just want my mom back and to be careful and to get through this but instead here we are

i’m so tired of being treated like this and her not listening to me

and it’s just more proof that i CAN’T trust her. i can’t trust her to talk to me, or trust me, or listen to me, or respect me, or consider me in any way beyond “if i tell beck they’ll lose their mind so i just won’t” which just makes everything worse

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diaryofanormalkid · 2 years

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I wanna have

Deep talks with God so bad but I don’t have the privacy to do so. Like I would love to just cry about everything and anything to Him. Fill him in on what’s going on.

What happened with my day. Tell him how I’m feeling about my period, the big move, a guy, the baby christening we had today, my friends/coworkers, my injury, my job, church

How my heart breaks a little every time my sister gets attention from guys but I don’t even though I’m older and they met me at the same time…

It’s just hard having to pretend that I don’t feel hurt, overlooked and wasn’t approached in that way, feeling excluded and feeling unwanted.

God has a funny way of flipping it around though and reminding me that I have never liked/been attracted to a single guy that has approached her, so why the envy?

Or jealousy? It’s not like I’m interested in them. I would’ve rejected them completely if they had approached me themselves. God reminds me that I have high standards.

It’s in this way, that I remember that God has great, even excellent for me. That’s why the wait is so long. My man isn’t like ordinary. And he won’t just be any guy.

He won’t subtly approach me, but he’ll find me and keep me because he’ll know I’m the one for him. So I put my trust in that, that God has that kind of man in mind.

It’ll be clear as day. So obvious and hard for him to resist. It’s funny bc today a family friend who I’ve known for maybe 7 years now, was acknowledging me.

More than normal. More than he usually does anyway. And that’s not to say, he wasn’t just be trying to be friendly. He very well could’ve been.

But he’s never talked to me as much as he had today. So I was taken aback at the sudden shift in energy. It was pretty refreshing considered his personality.

Idk if it was the occasion, the vibes, any attraction to me, loneliness… etc I have no idea. But he actually initiated physical contact (very minimal) and conversation.

We had a bunch of laughs (as a group), and we even broke off a couple times with each other. First, he wanted to keep me company while I walked to the washroom.

That’s usually a girls thing where we go in groups, but no one else had to go and the girls left me to fend for myself. So he volunteered to go with me.

Idk I found that very chivalrous and endearing. Bc he didn’t have to. He also probably just had to go to the washroom himself, but his offer seemed genuine?

Maybe I’m reading too much into things 🙄

So we talked over and I was trying to read the vibe bc we were talking to fill silence but also the convo still ended up flowing really well also.

I found I couldn’t get myself to look at him, so that’s when I realized at some point today the flip switched and that I was attracted to him. It started to make me nervous.

My voice did it’s hush/husky/girly tone by the time we got far away from the others and closer to the washrooms, so I think subconsciously my body was giving in.

I couldn’t believe it, but I was doing it. I was trying to have a “deep” convo with him! Bc I actually wanted to get to know him better and I actually cared.

When it clicked in my head, I didn’t really know how to act after that. Bc I didn’t believe he liked me. Or maybe I saw the signs and was in denial that he could even see me that way.

When I finished in the washroom, he waited outside and we walked back together. And I said to myself, “Ahh, this is so intimate. why would he volunteer to go with me?”

I’m sure that had to look strange to someone. His folks. My mom. She’s very observant. She never mentioned anything to me though, so I have to wonder if she saw.

My grandma too. Although she might not have said it, I know what her mind can get thinking to when it starts to race. Personally, I’m surprised my brother and sister didn’t say anything.

They were amongst the group when he offered to walk to the washrooms with me. Again, I still am exploring the possibility that he really just had to go at the same time as I.

But, all things considered, I really don’t think I’m reading too much into this. Later on, this is where it got interesting. Body. Language. He was being very peacock-y.

He kept speaking Spanish and French to greet people. [note: this is something I do, but he doesn’t know that. I was caught off guard, bc we’re similar in that regard].

Now that I think of it, my mom did say something. She commented how hyper he is, and how she was so shocked to see him this way. And she said it twice.

One thing about my mom, if she ever wants to say something, best believe she’s not gonna say it with her whole chest. She’ll make you work to uncover the message.

She’s a very “read-between-the-lines” kind of speaker. Passive aggressive, even. So when she said that about him, I think I realized her commentary was directed towards me and how I’m like that a lot too.

She used the word “hyper” specifically to describe me a few weeks back even, and my brain put two and two together so now I’m going to see how long she’ll wait to talk to me about him.

I feel like it’s only a matter of time. Because him being hyper wasn’t even the last of it with him and I today. His body language was just very much screaming “I’m into you” ???

Like idk I just felt like he was in my personal space a lot for someone who doesn’t know me very well and barely talks to me even when we’re at the same event.

He was faced towards me a lot. And his arms were outstretched towards me a lot. He kept walking in my line of sight. I felt like we had pretty decent banter.

If I really wanted to and didn’t feel any nerves, I could’ve upped my banter with him specifically. But also we were in a group for majority of it, so that would’ve drawn a lot of attention.

Personally, I just don’t like a lot of attention. Especially that kind. And if the flirting or banter wasn’t going to be initiated by him, then there was no way I was taking the lead.

It was his call, really. And I don’t know if he was being tame bc he was conscious of people around us, but I felt like when we were alone he didn’t hold back as much.

For example, later on, when we lost a round of the card games we were playing, we were both out. So we were standing beside each other and he was super close to me.

At some points, again, he was invading my personal space. But it’s like I was okay with it? I felt comfortable enough not to react to it because it didn’t make me uneasy.

And then bc they were playing and we were kinda just watching, he nudges me to take down balloons with him since we were standing right beside some.

So that lasted a lil bit before I got nervous and forfeited to get some scissors. For whatever reason I just felt like I was being watched, even though everyone was busy.

He kinda like followed me like a puppy dog. He took his time, but he made his way over to me eventually. But I was just doing my own thing taking down balloons by myself .

Then I spent some time going to different families and asking the parents if their kids would like our balloons and candy because we were going to get rid of them anyways.

And my plan worked, because we were getting rid of them so quickly. And like clock work, I see him coming over with some more balloons to help.

I walked up to him to see what his initial reaction would be, to hand them out with me or give them to me. He ended up giving them to me, so I thanked him for bringing them over.

Then I told him about my little plan. He kind of got dragged back to our spot so I did my thing on my own for a bit before my brother came to help pass out balloons to the kids.

When I ran out, I walked over and he was the first person I saw. He high-fived me and congratulated me for handing out the balloons when he saw I didn’t have anymore.

Idk the physical contact again, I found that kind of unnecessary but cute. I wasn’t expecting that! He could’ve just congratulated me??? 🤨🤔

So after that, he helped me put away the thumb tags that were holding down the table cloths to the table. And he helped me find a bottle to put them in, in the mean time.

Since I was saying I couldn’t find the container it was originally in. He just came out of nowhere and gave them to me in the bottle. So I made sure I thanked him again.

Wait. But isn’t that so cute?😩

Like he didn’t need to do that. I said I would find my mom so she could bring me the original container. But he shows up a few moments later with something else.

That means he was actively looking for it the entire time. I really appreciated that bc he had no obligation to do that. I remember he told me a joke and I laughed.

And I actually think he was trying to make me laugh. Like intentionally. I also told him it was smart of him to get out the thumb tacks out of the table with the tool he was using.

So it looked like that was our lil buddy system task. Honestly I’m surprised no one bluntly called out any of our interactions bc I felt like he was alone with me a lot today.

And it wasn’t by my choice. Like he chose to do all that those things. The initiative, I really appreciated and think is what I look for in guys.

Bc for myself, it’s hard enough as it is to not know whether a guy is into me bc I’m not the beauty standard. But then bring my sister into the equation

[note: she is much closer to the beauty standard. Taller. Skinnier. Lighter. More extroverted. So she always fits the criteria after the first glance.]

So this is not to compare myself and say I’m the ugly duckling compared to her. I hope I’m over that phase of my life where I always felt lesser than and not good enough.

I state this to say that I can’t help but wonder when they talk to me, is it because of interest in me alone or do they have the intention of speaking to my sister.

Bc ya know how guys do that thing where they get well acquainted with the friend or family member to get on their good side and find out info, just to get to talk to the girl they actually like?

Yeah, I always suspect they are pulling that on me. Like in the back of their minds, their sights are actually on my sister and not me and I’m being deceived.

And I hate that feeling when I realize. It was her they were after. Not me. Why do they always do that? Just talk to her if you like her…

Anywho, I always can’t help but dwell on whether they’re doing that or not bc I’m not everyone’s cup of tea and the beauty standard. I’m well aware.

And I’m okay with that. I’ve accepted it. It just hurts when it happens so many times over again. I just feel like no one will ever find me more attractive with her in the picture.

Bc I know what guys look for, and I can already see it in my sister. But lack in some areas in myself. It’s a big hit to my confidence.

That’s why today for once I couldn’t believe today it was almost like he chose me for once.

Wow, I sound like a pick me girl here now, don’t I?

I couldn’t help but have the thoughts of my sister creep up in my head though. Bc it’s always been her. They always like her. He even picked her before.

I remember a few years back (maybe 3-ish years) they almost completely ignored me while talking about similar interests regarding film and photography, stuff like that.

Because I didn’t ask, there’s no way of telling if any of their conversation steered into a romantic direction, but in that moment, I just felt plain worthless.

Not even like a human. Just an object by standing and overhearing bits and pieces to their conversation. Trying to stay strong and get through the event bc I was invisible to them.

My mom gave me constant looks throughout that night as if she pitied me for my lack in physicality, but pitied me even more for my lack in personality that couldn’t make up for it.

As if she had nothing to do with the outcome of my genetics. And I won’t turn this around and blame anything on my mother, or even parents, for that matter.

This isn’t a blame game. It’s not a game at all. It’s my life. And I know no one gets to pick the genetics that they get. They just got to work with what they have.

So what now? Maybe I didn’t hit it off with him the first couple times being around him. Yeah, I mean fair enough. I was shyer. More depressed. More introverted back then.

Let alone, not as attractive as I am now. And let’s not take this guy for a shallow person bc all of a sudden he saw my glow up and just now wants to start acknowledging me.

But I can’t lie, it sucks to say it, but this world is pretty messed up in that way. And I can’t overlook how my looks back then (even just 3 years ago) definitely had some play in his limited interaction with me.

But in hindsight, it just sucks that humans are so flawed to excuse and exclude those they don’t deem attractive. It’s like rejection without them having to say it to your face.

I felt so dismissed.

But yeah. Maybe the timing wasn’t right? Ideal? Bc I mean realistically, Britney. Be honest, was I even in the right head space to be thinking of him romantically anyways?

I’ve learned, witnessed, lived and seen a lot over the past 3 years. And majority of it has changed me for the better, I’d like to think. If not, all of it has.

And maybe the version of me he knew 3 years ago wasn’t ready to handle/deal with the version of him back then. But possibly the version of me today is ready and has decided to has align with the version of him today.

So now, idk what this means. Fresh start? Do I even like him? Or do I just like that he seems to finally like me? Accept me? Acknowledge me?

Is he doing the bare minimum?

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i had ANOTHER dream abt miraculous ladybug and this ones a LONG one. it didnt have your artstyle but time paris DID have lovely architecture such as: the bigass hollow tree stumps in breath of the wild, u know the ones big enough to fit a shrine and a half. anyway, the final battle is Happening, people get to wonder if hawkmoth is gonna bite the dust in real time bc its being televised. this is all taking place smth like 3 yrs in the future from season 4 of the show. so theyre like uhhhh Older Teens and certifiably Tired Of All This Shit. so! at the bottom of one of those tree stumps, cat noir’s identity is going to be revealed! oh no!! hes in a #crisis of the soul mostly bc getting revealed would be Bad but also he doesnt feel like hes helping ladybug anymore. he doesnt feel trusted. a classic tale of the villain manipulating a traumatized teen. and ladybug (looking out over a roof and yelling at the top of her lungs) is like “ABSOLUTELY NOT YOU LEAVE MY PARTNER ALONE.” and bribes hawkmoth away by dangling her own secret identity in front of him like a worm on a hook. it works a little too well. her identity gets revealed! cat noir is safe but in the shuffle hes lost his miraculous and marinette picks it up. shes got both and puts them on. tikki and plagg are like “MARINETTE ITS SO DANGEROUS TO WEAR BOTH AT THE SAME TIME” and shes like “im going to punch hawkmoth in the face” and off she goes.

cat noir is nowhere to be found bc now hes adrian! and she doesnt know that! but he knows shes marinette! drama! so now ladybug is re transformed (without activating the black cat miraculous) and is whaling on hawkmoth. she crashes thru my house which is definitely not in paris and tells me and my sibs we have to get out NOW so we book it and its at this point the dream reveals to me that mylene’s mom is chinese and i sit there like Now Hold On A Minute and my mom says “i told u so!” and i tell her “you dont even watch the show???” mylene was wearing a green cheongsam. i don’t tend to ask questions. also by this point i made a mental note to tell u abt this bc it only gets more batshit.

ladybug told us (and everyone that was running away which was a lot of ppl) that if they find cat noir they shld tell him that ladybug loves him. then she has this Stellar idea. she finds nadja chamack and her camera (bc theres only two newspeople in all of paris and one of them runs reality tv) and is like “hi i need to get a message out to cat noir.” when the camera is situated on her (mind u ms chamack is VERY aware that this is her daughters babysitter and is currently holding hawkmoth in a chokehold) she says “im sorry cat noir. you believed in me and trusted me since day one and i couldnt extend you the same courtesy. i was wrong. there is no one else who can wield the black cat miraculous, no one else i would trust with the power of destruction. meet me at our normal rendezvous point so i can give back what is yours.” its all very heartfelt but undercut by the fact that hawkmoth’s bitch ass is shouting explicatives next to her. the fight resumes. she gets slammed into a wall á la every anime fight ever and manages to hide before getting to the roof where she’s waiting for cat noir. shes in a right amount of pain and tikki is running her mouth abt danger and injuries etc. marinette Will Not Move until cat noir shows up. and he does! adrian arrives! when marinette sees him she starts laughing and crying. adrian is rightfully confused. is this a good thing? is this a bad thing? did she hit her head? (yes to all 3.) marinette says “i have been in love with you since 10th grade.” (were they in 10th grade? i do not know.) adrian says “and ive been busy being in love with ladybug.” and then she apologizes again, gives him the ring back, they hug, kick ass and meet up in her room.

if it feels like we’re going rlly fast now its bc we are. the dream was pretty much a montage at this point. hawkmoth is arrested, the world knows who ladybug is, adrian is an orphan, nathalie is still sick, and marinettes parents r thinking that their kid has nearly died MULTIPLE TIMES and they never knew. also luka is under that bridge going “oh fuck.” marinette is in her room trying to explain what will happen next to alya and nino. alya says “i had to tell nino”and marinette says “i am beyond the point of anger. but whatever.” cat noir falls thru her sunroof and they hug (again, there was so much hugging in this dream to make up for the complete lack of hugging in the actual show) and alya + nino are like “uhhh awkward.” the last convo i don’t have quotes for bc at this point my alarm was ringing but it was something abt how marinette cant be ladybug or hold the miracle box and she wld want alya to be the holder but NINO knows and nino Cant Know. but cat noir doesnt want marinette to lose her memories! but People Know. the conclusion was they have to talk to chloe abt how to navigate paparazzi. this is my chloe-and-marinette-could-be-friends agenda. ok i think thats EVERYTHING. if u read all that godspeed, drink water. OH. FINAL THOUGHT. ADRIAN HAD LONG BEAUTIFUL HAIR WHICH IS VERY IMPORTANT TO ALL OF THIS. he had model-brand stubble and sharper teeth than he should.

sometimes I’m peeved that tumblr increased the character limit for asks to be higher than 500 characters, and other times I get

1k word asks about miraculous ladybug dreams, and I think that’s beautiful

I do unironically love the part about Chloe helping Marinette navigate paparazzi, rip to her canon character development

#also I love ‘meet me on the roof at our usual spot’#but he DOESNT HAVE HIS MIRACULOUS #NCBDBSHDHGJG #HOW DID HE GET UP THERE #miraculous ladybug

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what is utahime’s role in the future? — a prediction (manga spoilers)

part 1 (unedited)

I WAS ABOUT TO POST IT BUT I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED IT AND I WAS SO HURT FR!!!!! I HAD REWRITE THIS ENTIRE THING </33

part 2 is here!

in this post, i will be analyzing the information we’ve been given about utahime so far to form a prediction about her future role in the jujutsu kaisen series. if you’re as interested in utahime’s character as i am, please feel free to keep reading :3 (i’ll also be talking about her relationship with gojo a bit too)

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utahime iori is a semi-grade 1 sorcerer working as a student supervisor/teacher at kyoto jujutsu high school. she loves drinking beer and going to karaoke. she’s also close friends with shoko and she’s not particularly fond of gojo most of the time. what else do we know about her?

hates sweets (funny she’s the complete opposite of gojo)

she’s great at singing and it’s a huge part of her technique

squabbling with gojo became a reflex :3

everyone absolutely adores utahime

loves watching soccer and baseball

a terrible drunk (worse than naobito zenin)

gojo is her main source of stress

let’s dive into her personality and abilities!

chapter 65

before i get into it, i think it’d be best if i were to explain the timeline because a lot of people seem to be confused about this one particular thing. utahime is born on february 18th, 1987. contrary to popular belief, she is not 3 years older than gojo. it is november 2018 in the story because gojo was sealed on halloween. if gojo was born on december 7th, 1989, that would mean that right now, he is only 28 years old. he has yet to turn 29.

the year is 2007. gojo satoru is a second year at tokyo jujutsu high school. the japanese school year begins in april which suggests that gojo is only 17 at the time (even if it’s not april, it doesn’t look like winter yet so it’s unlikely that he’s already 18). utahime is 20 because it is past february. she is a 2nd grade sorcerer at the age of 20. that’s not bad at all!

chapter 65 introduces young utahime and mei on a mission together within a cursed site. in real time, they’ve been gone for two days which is a cause of concern for gojo, shoko, and geto because the two haven’t contacted anyone since the beginning of their mission. the two begin to suspect something is wrong because the hallway markers they’ve set in place disappeared, and no matter how far they travel within the halls, the end is nowhere in sight. mei theorizes that the cursed spirit is overlapping the space as they travel forward. utahime agrees with this speculation and proposes a plan to escape the cursed spirit’s grasp by moving erratically. notice how she says that if one of them should escape, they can try to attack from the outside or call for help. if utahime was not capable of inflicting damage on anything then she would have told mei to escape and attack if she can while she waited to be rescued. however, she didn’t. she included herself in the sentence which leads me to believe that she is capable of going on the offense if needed.

keep in mind that at this point in time, mei is a grade 1 sorcerer. she is knowledgeable about all things involving jujutsu because she is experienced and skillful. we can see this aspect of her character illustrated when she theorizes that the cursed spirit is messing with the space they’re in. she chooses to go with utahime’s plan because she agrees that it’s the best action moving forward. this verifies that utahime is an intelligent girl that’s able to get along with pretty much anyone.

her intellect is demonstrated once again in chapter 79. she was able to deduce the possibility of there being more than one traitor and the fact that one is probably a higher up. she also narrowed down the mechamaru as the mole of kyoto not because he was acting suspicious but by process of elimination. she thought thoroughly of his technique and how easy it would be for him to manipulate devices small enough to be undetectable.

sure you can argue that she should already know all her students’ abilities and whatnot but you have to admit that it’s hard trying to sniff out the traitor when no one is acting suspicious. in addition to that, how did she know that there was a traitor in the top brass? i would have never guessed that tbh LOL (maybe bc im an idiot).

okay, now that we have established that she’s intelligent, let’s answer a more important question. is utahime weak?

chapter 33

if gojo calls utahime weak, does that mean there is some truth to it? well it is true that she is weaker than him because he’s the strongest and all. in my opinion, he’s just teasing her. he probably found that calling her weak is what really riles her up. maybe i’ll talk about why he loves teasing her so much in a later post. but anyway, gojo calls everybody and their mom weak. he even said jogo was weak and we know how powerful that guy is. gojo’s words alone do not indicate much about utahime’s power. in fact, i don’t even think he has seen her use her technique yet. he’s probably only ever heard of how it works. this is what i think their conversation about her technique was like:

gojo: hm? ur cursed technique is singing? can u show me?

utahime: what! no way!

gojo: why not?

*one of the classmates tells him that she can only use her CT once in a while because it consumes a lot of energy*

gojo: hahaha! u have to conserve cursed energy to use ur CT? why are u so weak, utahime?

utahime: i! am! your! senpai! respect! me!

what i’m trying to say is that gojo loves poking fun of people. we should not believe him when he calls someone weak because compared to him, everyone is weak.

this is a little off topic but let’s examine him telling her, “and you don’t have the nerves, utahime.” i think he’s trying to say that there’s no way she’ll ever do something like that because she’s not the type to put her students in danger. remember the soft expression and relieved smile on her lips when she said that she was glad the students were safe after the kyoto incident? gojo was directly in front of her so not only did he hear her say that, but he could have seen the look on her face too. even if he told her that she didn’t have the guts to betray the school to get on her nerves, he knew that utahime simply cared too much about the students so he ruled her out as a suspect right away. this is why he ultimately decided to confide in her and ask her to help him.

i’m a person who loves over-analyzing things. i really enjoy the dynamic between gojo and utahime. they’ve known each other for more than 11 years and although they always bicker, there is an unspoken feeling of trust between the two. gojo can do anything and everything by himself because he is truly the strongest person alive, but he still knows when to rely on others. him deciding to entrust utahime with such a job implies that he believes in utahime’s abilities.

chapter 52

she’s not using any cursed energy here--not to our knowledge at least. this is just pure skill. she was able to swiftly evade the swing from haruta. he was surprised himself considering the fact that he was right behind her. how do we know her CT isn’t speed? after haruta swung at her, we can see that some of her hair got cut off. if she was using her CT then speed should be her specialty. she should have been able to completely avoid the attack altogether but she didn’t. of course this isn’t a wow moment because jujutsu sorcerers should know how to dodge attacks, however, i’m just trying to get the point across that she’s not a defenseless person without her technique or others. let’s not forget that semi-grade 1 isn’t a weak rank either. you can’t simply be recommended to be a grade 1 sorcerer if you only can support others.

chapter 48

i want to bring up this panel. it suggests that utahime and takuma are sorcerers who have not experienced black flash and therefore, do not understand the essence of cursed energy as well as those who have like gojo and nanami. i find it strange how takuma and utahime were used to represent sorcerers who haven’t experienced it yet. is the purpose to demonstrate that there is a clear difference in skill between adult sorcerers like utahime and takuma compared to gojo and nanami? i could be nitpicking but the order of todo’s statement doesn’t line up with the sorcerers being shown. let me explain in depth. todo starts off by saying, “for those who have experienced black flash as compared to those who have not...” wouldn’t it make more sense to show gojo and nanami on the right side to represent sorcerers who have experienced black flash? that was mentioned first, after all. gojo and nanami should appear when todo says “for those who have experience black flash” while utahime and takuma should be shown right after to personify the second part, “as compared to those who have not.” i’m just making it more complicated than it actually is LOLOL i’m sure it really just means they haven’t experienced black flash yet, which is completely fine. i also find it fascinating how they used utahime to contrast gojo. with nanami and takuma it makes sense. nanami is someone takuma looks up to, he wants to gain nanami’s approval before he deems himself worthy of a promotion. what about utahime and gojo? what’s the purpose of comparing those two together when it’s obvious that gojo knows more about the essence of cursed energy more than anyone else? i might be delusional whoops

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let me know what you guys think? this is only a part 1 so i haven’t gotten around to answering the question. i’m pretty much done with the second part, i just need to revise it a little. i think after i post part 2, i’ll try to interpret all the gojo and utahime moments in the manga >.<

#gojohime #gouta #gojo x utahime

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honestly THANK YOU for saying all that abt baghra bc i thought i was going crazy from not liking her??? bc i haven't read the books and only summaries of them on wiki and like. i dunno why ppl like her actually even in the show bc this guy, her son, is like "i wanna make the world better for us grisha" and she's just like "no." even tho he sees that she's MAKING HERSELF SICK from suppressing her powers! she's literally like in bed coughing in the flashback yet seem much healthier at the little palace. also like after everything, after her disapproval, after the fold, after centuries of waiting for the sun summoner.. he never abandons her. he makes sure she's cares for. he doesn't harm her. and i have to wonder if baghra has ever thanks him for that, for just not leaving her alone. like i dunno how im suppose ro believe aleks is a heartless villain when he still cares for his abusive mom like this. like has baghra even told her she loved him (honestly she reminds me of a classic emotionally unavailable asian parent but maybe that's just me). also im wondering if baghra ever told aleks that he had an aunt.. bc like.. now that u bring up her isolating him it's like hmmmm...

not at me being like alina... why do u trust the bitter old woman who literally beats u with a stick and verbally abuses u every chance she gets.. just bc she showed a bad painting... like.. pls use two braincells to see that who u figured out as his mother... is also using his protection..

like baghra could've upped and left with alina. but no. she stayed bc she knew she was safe under aleks's protection.

alsoim just impressed that after his first friend tried to drown him and harvest his bones... he didn't go into hiding???? he still wanted to make a safe heaven for grisha!!! HE STILL WANTED TO PROTECT GRISHA EVEN AFTER HIS GRISHA FRIEND TRIED TO KILL HIM FOR HIS FUCKEN BONES. like... this is the guy im suppose to believe is the villain???

honestly i feel like part of the reason why LB's plotlines seem so bad and disconnected (and sometimes outright racist but that's another rant) and why darkles is disproportionately more violent and villainous in the later books is bc she didn't expect the darkling to be so popular and wanted to stick with her guns of making him the villain. but also wanted the money from aleks's popularity. but like you can't have ur cake and eat it too.

Well thank you for sending this ask! It's very sweet and very passionate. I'm glad you liked my post! I didn't put as much thought into it as some of my others lol. I kind of just talked. But it was nice to be able to finally talk about some of the problems I have with both her character and the fandom/author's perception of her.

HERE is the post this is referring to, in case anyone's wondering.

👀👀 You've hit the nail on the head for so many things, here!

Baghra is extremely emotionally unavailable, basically to the point of neglect. She's also verbally and physically abusive, traits which I doubt were only reserved for her students and not her son. Baghra claims she would do anything to protect him, but I've known a lot of parents who have that mindset and yet still harm their children because they think it's "good for them".

Aleksander stays at Baghra's side for years, and even when they're opposing each other she's never too far away from him. Idk if you've read the books but he does eventually hurt her. And as much as I don't like Baghra, I think his actions were horrid. But I'm also honestly kind of surprised it took him so long lmao.

Yeah I mean, in terms of isolation, let's not forget that she never wanted to introduce him to his father, either. Baghra's sense of eternity clouds a lot of her judgments on relationships, which means she views most people as dust and therefore teaches her son to as well. The problem with that is that he's a growing child, and he needs those social and emotional attachments for healthy development.

I would bet quite a bit of money that Baghra has either never told him she loves him or she has told him so few times it's practically forgettable.

And everything becomes more complicated because so many of Baghra's actions are understandable because of her life and her history, but the impacts they have on the people around her, especially Aleksander, are permanently damaging. And the fact that that's never gone over in critical depth in the books or how it's glossed over in fandom is just very disconcerting. Like, acknowledging Baghra's failings doesn't mean we're excusing Aleksander's actions, it just means we're holding Baghra liable for her own. Which the fandom should be doing, considering she's the epitome of an abusive parental figure.

And Alina trusting Baghra over Aleksander is even more confusing! Especially in the show!! This is the woman who beat her and abused her and tortured her friends when they tiny little children (and who probably still does so now that they're adults). This is the woman who mocks you and harasses you and insults you on a regular basis. Why does Baghra revealing she's Aleksander's mother make Alina change her mind?! Like fuck, I'd just feel bad for Aleksander. No wonder he kept it a secret, I would too! And that painting is enough evidence?! Really?! A random painting shown to you by this abusive mentor that's been making your life hell. That's what you're going to betray your new lover over?

The friends trying to harvest his bones thing is a good point, too. I think Aleksander, especially show Aleksander, is incredibly idealistic. I think he cares too much for others - those he's deemed worth his care (a sentiment given to him by Baghra). Despite everything she's tried to teach him about hiding and abandoning others and never caring and never doing anything to help or reach out or connect with people, Aleksander still continues to do so. It's likely because he never got it from Baghra growing up, and so is desperate for those emotional needs to be fulfilled elsewhere.

His turning point, when Baghra tells him it was understandable that those kids tried to kill him because the world is such a hard place for them - that's crucial. And the reason it's possible as a motivating factor is because of that idealism and that desire to help and that desire to be everything his mother isn't. Baghra tells him this trauma he just experienced was because of the oppression of his people, and instead of following her lead and accepting that, going into hiding and abandoning everybody to their misery, he goes I can do something about that. I can make it so this never happens again. Which is usually how trauma like that combines with one's core personality traits at a young age, especially when there's none of the essential support systems in place to aid in recovery (ie, the role Baghra should have been filling but wasn't, because she decided to exacerbate the problem instead).

And yeah, one of my biggest problems with the ham-fisted "beating you over the head with a sledgehammer of evil deeds" look-how-bad-this-character-is! portrayal of the Darkling in the later books comes from the impression I get that Bardugo doesn't trust her readers. She's so desperate to have us hate this character and think him an irredeemable villain, not trusting any of her readers to engage critically with a morally gray character, that it feels quite a bit like condescending fucking bullshit. Which ew, I know how to engage with literature, thanks.

She really does seem to look down on a large part of her fandom, and imo, the infantilization of the female characters in her books seems to carry over to her impression of most of her female readers as well. Which is why the Darkling's character arc gets fucking destroyed. But he's still a good cash grab, of course, so she'll shake his dead corpse in front of the fandom for money every time she wants something from it.

Also! Another reason I think her plotlines feel disconnected (I'm sorry Bardugo I respect you as a person, but shit-) is because the writing in SaB is just bad. I mean, nevermind the absolutely nauseating implications of the way she portrays the Grisha as a persecuted group who's situation is never actually fully addressed as it should be, considering Grisha rights is what her main villain is fighting for (imo for a series called the Grishaverse, LB seems to be pretty anti Grisha), but her characters and story alone are just wrong for each other. They don't fit together.

And the ending is one of the main pieces of evidence in that regard! You can’t say the ending where Alina isn’t Grisha anymore is her “going back to where she started” when she’s always been Grisha. She just didn’t know she was Grisha because she denied that part of herself that she was born with.

Alina is reluctant to move forward or change, she struggles with adapting, and she’s very set on the things she’s grown attached to throughout her life. She also has some latent prejudices against the Grisha, and so denies the possibility of being Grisha for those reasons as well.

Alina’s lack of powers in the beginning of her life because she willfully doesn’t learn about them to avoid change versus her lack of powers at the end of the book when she’s accepted them and then they’re stripped away from her by outer forces are two entirely separate circumstances. You can’t make a parallel about lost powers and lack of Grisha status bringing her back to the start when she was always Grisha and she always had powers and she simply refused to come to terms with it because of personal reasons.

The first situation is an internal conflict that indicates a story about growth and a journey of self acceptance. Denying herself the opportunity to learn about her heritage and to find acceptance with a group of people like her because she’s tied to the past and because of the way she was raised is the setup for a narrative that tackles unlearning prejudice and learning how to connect with a part of her identity that was denied her and learning how to grow independent and self assured. It’s the setup for a different story entirely. The second situation is an external conflict that centers around the ‘corrupting influence of power’... for some reason.

In a world where Grisha do not have social, political, or economic power and they are hunted, centering your heroine’s journey of self acceptance and growth around an external conflict about... the corrupting influence of power (in a group of people that don’t actually have any power?!) just doesn’t work. It is literally impossible to connect the two stories Bardugo is trying to push in Shadow and Bone without seriously damaging the main character’s developmental arc.

The only way a narrative like this would work, claiming that she has gone back to where she started, is either a) if the Grisha weren’t actually a persecuted group and instead were apart of the upper class, or b) if the one bad connection between the two instances is acknowledged - that Alina denied a part of herself crucial to self acceptance and growing up, and that losing her powers at the end has also denied her. It is a tragedy, not a happy ending.

Alina suffered because she didn’t use her powers. She grew sick. It was bad for her. This was not a resistance to 'the corruption of power and the burden of greed', it was her suffering because she couldn’t fully accept herself.

Framing the ending as a return to the beginning can’t be done if you don’t address how bad the beginning was for your main character. You brought her back to a bad point in her life. You regressed her. This should be a low point in her arc. It should be a problem that’s solved so she can finish developing organically or it should be something that is acknowledged as a tragedy in it’s own right, for the future the world (the writing) denied her.

This is a ramble and it makes no sense and I’m really sorry, but my point is that Bardugo put the wrong characters in the wrong story. The character arc required for organic development doesn’t match the story and intended message at all. The narrative doesn’t fit the cast. She's got two clashing stories attempting to work in tandem and she ends up with both conflicting messages that fans still can’t comprehend in her writing and an ending that doesn’t suit her main character to such an impossible degree that it’s almost laughable.

So yeah, there's a few reasons why I think the story and the plot feels so bad and disconnected. I hope you don't mind me making this answer so long! 😅 I was not expecting to write this much.

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newswcanonprompts · 4 years

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Anakin is sent to negotiate with Gardulla the Hutt bc of the success of the Jabba mission (no one in the Council knows Gardulla used to own him)

editor’s note: there is actually a fic that came from this, by the lovely @primeemeraldheiress! here is the link

this one is SUPER angsty, sorry in advance, i missed the original conversation about this prompt and when i got back online everyone was yelling about it, when i read what they did i was in *shock*. like ow. anyways have fun

After being so helpful in rescuing Jabba the Hutt's son, Anakin, Ahsoka and Obi-Wan end up being sent on a mission to help Gardulla the Hutt because Anakin hasn't told anyone about his history with her

Possible reactions from Gardulla:

"Skywalker? I owned a human like that, her brat always caused trouble. Good riddance!"

What if she decides that since he's back in her territory that means he belongs to her again

.....gardulla hears him try to call obi-wan master and tries to buy anakin from him (Gardulla asking if obi-wan is anakin's master and anakin being in such a messed up mental space that he says yes, trusting that Obi-wan won’t let her buy him)

Obi-Wan wondering why Anakin is being so specifically arsey with this Hutt. "Force you're worse with her than you were with Jabba."

"Oh yeah, she bought me and my mother. I think I have a reason to dislike her."

The council meeting afterwards where obi-wan rails on the council...

Obi-Wan suddenly getting a horrible feeling whenever Anakin calls him master because he's known the contexts were different but now it is real and in his face

Like it's a different thing for Obi-Wan to know his padawan used to be a slave compared to looking his padawan's former master in the eye and seeing her current slaves.

Anakin manages to control himself in the throne room but the whole way there and back he can't help worrying that one of the really old lash scars that curls around his shoulder will be noticed, that his identity as a former slave will be exposed

anakin not being able to call obi-wan master on tatooine like. point blank. he starts addressing him as master and just. flinches.

anakin usually wears his heart on his sleeves right?? always shows his emotions, feelings, all that. Well, the closer they get to gardulla's palace the blanker his face gets

Ahsoka calls Anakin master and Anakin just grits out a "Please don't call me that, not here."

Obi-Wan suddenly realising why Anakin comes across as arrogant as times. He's spent his entire life trying to up his value because there's safety in value.

Anakin telling them not to use the name "Skywalker" while they're in the palace

Anakin's accent shifts so entirely to the point where it almost sounds like Obi-Wan's because he's so determined to not slip into old roles

Anakin having to be physically held back from getting into a physical fight. Not even using his lightsaber, he just wants to fight

Or, alternatively, all the fight just going out of Anakin because he knows, here, it'll just make everything worse. So he's almost.... compliant and it freaks everyone out

Ex. from @youngcreativenerdgoddess: Obi-Wan is terrified. His former padawan is the most resigned he’s ever been. He looks so....defeated. A look one would never expect on the vaunted “Hero with no fear”. All the fight was gone from him, and that scared him more than anything else in this force-damned war had.

Obi-Wan actually being the one about to lose his temper and then Anakin just puts a hand on his shoulder and tells him there's no point.

Consider: instead of anakin being angry he was sent on the mission, being resigned because of course he was, he knew Gardulla bes

Anakin comes across as an almost perfect Jedi for once in his life and in the context it is horrifying

Anakin’s report to the council is so matter of fact because he thought they knowingly sent him on the mission because of his past experience with Gardulla

Obi-Wan finds Anakin writing what he thinks is a CV then he sees the numbers next to it and it is his estimated value--"for the gardulla mission, if she finds out who I am she'll try to rebuy me"

After the mission, from @jasontoddiefor: "Failed you, we have," Yoda said, his voice full of grief, and Obi-Wan watched in horror as Anakin only titled his head, for once looking his age and not the years the war has aged him.

"What do you mean?" Anakin asked, not understanding.

Examples of bits and pieces from this prompt:

Ex. from jasontodiefor: Anakin in the corner of her palace having a breakdown because he remembers memories he had thought gone, his mother's shouting and the tearful begging and the pain, pain, pain and he hadn't meant to break the vase, it had been an accident, please stop it hurts, Mom-

jasontodiefor: "A game of chance."

"What?"

Anakin doesn't look up from his hands, doesn't meet Obi-Wan's eyes. He hadn't since they'd arrived here. "I'd still be here like them if not for a game of chance. I'd be worth more than just a few credits too. Force-sensitive, young, good with mechanics, pretty-"

Ex. from Ro: Obi-Wan has never seen Anakin this silent before. There were nights before, when they were both younger, Obi-Wan himself still trying to heal from Qui-Gon's death and Anakin trying to get used to the temple. And Anakin would get quiet, but he was never this stone cold silent. Never this blank. He's so emotional, Obi-Wan's former padawan (his child), so open with his heart on his sleeve. There is none of that here, none of that bright boy. Anakin doesn't fight it, and that is the thing that worries Obi-Wan the most, because when Anakin doesn't like something he fights, he lashes out with teeth and sticks his heels in. But in this, he is resigned. (Anakin doesn't let Ashoka off the ship. She fights and argues but Anakin doesn't move, doesn't joke. He stands firm with it and Obi-Wan watches.

"Master, I—"

Anakin flinches, "You're staying on the ship, Ahsoka, that's final." She huffs and leaves, and the only thing Obi-Wan can see is how relieved Anakin looks. There is something wrong here, but Anakin has never liked talking about Tatooine, and Obi-Wan has never pushed.) Obi-Wan has never hated a mission more.

Another ex from jasontodiefor: "But-"

"You're young," Anakin interrupts her sharply. Ahsoka hates it when he cuts her off. It doesn't happen too often, mostly on the battlefield when he's barking orders at everyone. If anything, he lets her speak out of tune more often than he should or other Masters would, but right now his voice doesn't leave any room for agreement. "Young, underage actually, and female, that's the first 10K. Extra five if they don't sell you as inexperienced, and only stupid slavers would do that, but as a virgin."

Ahsoka pales. Anakin's voice is harsh, but there is an almost easy flow to his words, as if he had recited them in his head over and over again. "Force sensitive, that's next. Another 8K regularly, but you're a Jedi, so that's 20K. A Padawan, mind you, but you're a known face next to mine and Obi-Wan's. Obi-Wan would fetch 40 for his status as a Jedi and councilor alone. And you're a Togruta, you sell better than a human girl. I'd add another 6 for that."

You sell better. Not you would, there's nothing hypothetical about this, Ahsoka realizes. Anakin's narrowing down what would happen to her if somebody just managed to grab her lightsabers, to put a collar around her throat and cut her off from all that she had ever known. "Now, that's just your base value," Anakin continues. "You're also a pretty good mechanic and pilot, though the latter makes your flight risk much higher. Given how dangerous you are, let's say 10K. You're a strong fighter, so you could probably get another 8K in the arena, perhaps a little more depending on what planet you're sold on. Your political value also can't be overlooked. You fight at the front and know much more about the war effort as a whole and that's worth much more, probably another 15." Anakin holds up his fingers like he's counting apples and now how much people would be willing to brand her as theirs. "So we're roughly at 70. That's not bad at all. Not as much as Obi-Wan or I would get, but it's more than enough. You're not coming on this mission. End of discussion."

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OMG IKARIS APOLOGISTS RISEEEE bc yeah he turns out to be a “villain” but he was a victim like the rest of them low key😗 like he’s not irredeemable he’s just complicated don’t fight me

this post (and my tags) explains a lot of how i feel about ikaris and ikaris in comparison to all of the other eternals. i feel like the “family dynamic” among the eternals as a whole vs individually was kinda just dropped on us without any real connecting background to get us invested in it but there are certain roles i see them falling into … like, although they don’t all see each other as siblings, sprite is the youngest child, druig is giving me major middle child syndrome vibes, ajak is the mom, and ikaris is obviously the oldest child, which i feel kind of shapes his relationship with ajak So Much.

ikaris is literally like the eldest sibling who is closest to the mother but mostly because she trauma dumps on him out of loneliness from having no one else in the family to talk to and as a result, trusts him the most but also worries about him the least when he definitely NEEDS someone to be worried for him. he gets the most responsibility from her. like. think about the movie from his perspective only. after years and years of fighting with the other eternals to keep humanity safe, ikaris is finally told he’ll be able to live freely. he’ll be able to have a long and fulfilling life with sersi on earth for however long they’re there for— but no matter how long that is, the job is done as far as he knows. and THEN, he all of the sudden finds out more. he has that freedom, the bliss of ignorance taken away from him, and he is the only one of the eternals besides ajak (WHO KNOWS BECAUSE ITS HER LITERAL JOB) who is aware of this awful secret that changes everything. i totally get that ajak told him because she was having doubts, but i also feel like she told him BECAUSE she knew his response would be to try and reassure her that doing their job is the right thing. she’s seen how seriously he takes his duties— in the beginning of the movie does he not literally go up to her and say he won’t let his feelings for sersi get in the way of things? HE DOES! AJAK IS THE FIRST TO FIND OUT ABOUT HIS CRUSH! and she therefore knows that he is willing to put the job first at personal expense, and that was even before he knew that their mission was so much bigger than he was initially told.

so ajak tells him, and to be blunt, pretty much ruins any normal life he could have had after that living among humans with sersi. i’m just so?! WHYYY DID SHE TELL HIMMM. i know why but also WHYYYYYY?:?;!4$ if he had only had the CHANCE to live his life before being burdened with that knowledge … if he had connected with humans without it being tainted by this horrible secret … if he had only been able to do those things with the freedom he thought he was gonna have for like two seconds. the thing the other eternals apparently weren’t willing to think about is the fact that ikaris never got the chance they did to settle down or see the world with the same ease. that was an option for him that was taken away when ajak chose to tell him, and only him, the truth.

and like, i can’t condone murder, but also if the woman who was basically like my mother sort of ruined my relationship and life by telling me this giant secret that would devastate the entire family and then all of the sudden after 7,000 years said “hey. i know i watched you leave your soulmate behind for centuries because of the secret i chose to tell you that you had to keep otherwise you’d run the risk of ruining her life with the knowledge like i ruined yours, but i’ve changed my mind” I MIGHT WANNA KILL HER TOO ??? HELLO ??? all this “for the greater good” bullshit you’ve been fed throughout all your memories, all of those years you were expected to be the pillar of reassurance that this is the Right thing, all of that time alone …. no wonder the emergence became ikaris’s only truth. all his life, it was his only purpose, because even though he fell in love with sersi and could have had purpose with her, that was also something that he thought he couldn’t have anymore after what ajak told him. if ikaris had been told the truth with the rest of the team at the right time after he had had the chance to live his life, i genuinely do not believe any of the disagreements in the movie would have happened.

in a way i think i like ikaris because he reminds me of steve, or at least what steve could have been if he didn’t have people around to remind him that he needed to remain not a perfect solider, but a good man. ikaris WAS a perfect soldier, but that was part of the problem the other eternals had with him. being a good man … how was he supposed to gain such a human trait when he felt completely alienated from them because of what he knew? the other eternals cared only about the morality of the situation. he cared about the reality he had been centered around alone for far too long.

he’s a character with a lot of flaws and made a lot of poor choices throughout the plot (though to be fair he did try and come clean about the betrayal multiple times before the big reveal happened in front of everyone) but i don’t view the character as black and white. he’s not the villain to me! he’s an antihero. an antagonist. and my son.

#in defense of ikaris #also side note i hate druig and why are we ignoring the fact this little white rat colonized the amazon #bc if you think about his cult/commune…even if we go off of the assumption that the root group of the settlement wasnt the spaniards #mixed with those that they conquered (the ones he let away from war in the beginning which is another annoyance #because why take everyone with you when it was conqueror vs those fighting to not get conquered)#the other options are that he a) colonized the natives he found already living in the area he took over #or b) brought randos to land that he didnt belong on in the first place #but since the commune was going on 20 generations the timeframes are leaning towards the first and third options #anyways onto the fucked up mind control aspect #the movie didnt fully detail on his powers but we see when the eternals first arrive at the commune that druig instead of coming out to talk #like a normal person hijacks some guys body instead despite the fact we cant see druig at all #so was he watching them or was he always semi in control of those people’s minds to keep them docile #‘for their protection’ okay but then he literally had them fighting in a battle they had no business being in and had to literally be TOLD #to let them go and get them out of danger #and then when he did let them go they were all obviously confused so the ppl he controls dont always come out the other side okay w it #also 20 generations of the commune means pretty much everyone in that commune was born in there and therefore had no other sense of life to #compare his safe haven to. everyone yells about ikaris not respecting free will bc he wants to blow up the planet but what about druig?#he was literally BRAINWASHING these people?! and ik the eternals don’t necessarily have a concept of race but WE as the audience do and idk #a white man keeping a group of people in the amazom under his control keeping them docile to do free labor and be his fight muscle #thats so ODDDDDDDDDDDD!#how is it for their own good/protection/bc he cares about them if he literally knows theyre not making an educated choice to stay there #bc theyve never known anything else #even the amish let their kids make a choice . what did YOU do druig? we dont know for sure but lets not be hateful to ikaris when druig #deserves tomatoes thrown at him too #he was nice to a girl a couple of times . okay.#but he also ignored her for 7000 years and didnt bother to check up on her once even tho she wasnt the one who disagreed w him #so how much does he really care?#anyways #just my silly little thoughts about a movie that had a million plot holes #eternals spoilers

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milkacchan · 4 years

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Fav boys thinking S/O reader has a kid bc they misunderstood a conversation with friends or on the phone but in reality they were talking about their pet

Bc i talk to my dog like he's a small child and care for him like one and its caused confusion

Bakugou:

• he's just chillin

• youre in another room of the dorms

• You're within the ear shot

• and your phone rings

• he doesn't really think anything of it but he can't help but eavesdrop when youre on the phone

• nothing alarming until

• "How's my son?"

• and he freezes

• he feels himself pale but he keeps listening

• "I miss him so much, I didn't know it was going to be this hard to be away from him," you groan. "I just want to see him and boop his nose and coddle him."

• Jesus christ

• "he's getting chubby though, thats good, he was so tiny when he was born. So much loose skin-"

• Ngl his stomach kinda drops

• You have a kid??

• How did this happen- WHEN did it happen?

• It couldn't have-

• oh it very well could

• You disappeared for your 2nd year in UA- it could've happened then-

• and you didn't tell him.

• Not when he was your best friend and not when he was your boyfriend

• He feels betrayed- he feels gross-

• he has a right to at least KNOW of the child's existence- I mean he knew it wasn't his, but still.

• And so for the next days he's really weird.

• he tries to he normal with you, text when he can, hug you goodbye, just continue like things were

• but he just couldn't.

• And he dreads when you confront him about it- he knew you would, you've always been like that

• "You have a kid!" He snaps. "You left during second year, didn't tell anyone about it and then you came back- and you didn't tell me. I wouldn't have been mad! I wouldn't have pushed you away, I-"

"Katsuki what the FUCK are you talking about?"

"You. Have. A. Child."

"Source?"

"When you were on the phone with your mom?"

You paused for a moment. "Jesus Christ Kat, I was talking about my puppy. I got a dog while I was traveling ABROAD during my SECOND year, with my COUSIN. I helped deliver him because I was interning at a vet. He was the runt and they thought he was gonna die. So I stayed an extra two weeks and I brought him home."

He clenched his jaw. "God damn."

"Katsuki, I tell you everything. I wouldn't hide that from you. Besides," you made a face, "i'm too scared to have sex with you, because sex is scary. Why the fuck would I have it with anyone else?"

"I dunno." He mumbled.

• You take him to see your dog, obviously

Kirishima:

• he isn't even entirely sure what you were doing

• all he knows is that you're cooing into the phone held against you ear

• "Hey baby, its me! You miss momma?"

• Momma.

• bro- he just kinda zones out.

• his mind immediately going to the fact that you might have a child- not might- you do

• I mean how else could you explain that?

• he didn't even stop to think WHEN you could've had a child. He just jumped right in.

• He wasn't mad- how could he be?

• it wasn't wrong for you to have a kid.

• maybe you should've told him but you could've been scared.

• afraid he might leave you

• he wouldn't leave you, God no.

• he loved you and it was going to stay to help you

• I mean, he doesn't want you to go through this alone.

• You guys are what, just barley 18? You already have a kid, thats gotta be tough.

• So he makes the decision, instead of being upset or hurt that you didn't tell him, he's just going to step in and see if you'd like help.

• He won't push to meet the kid, thats up to you. Introducing kids to partners before its really serious doesn't always go over too well.

• he plans what he's going to say in his head, goes over it twice and nids to himself.

• that all goes out the window when you sit on the couch again

• "You have a kid?" He blurts and mentally kicks himself afterwards.

"I'm sorry what?"

"It's okay, I'm not mad, really," he put his hands up, "It's hard to tell someone about it. You can trust me with stuff, even things like that. I won't use it against you or get mad- I'll even help out if you need. Sure its not mine but it really doesn't need to me-"

"Eiji, baby, shut the fuck up for a second."

He closes his mouth, stopping his ramble.

"What are you talking about?"

"On the phone, you were talking. To your kid right? You said 'it's momma,' and-"

"Babe I was talking to my dog. I haven't seen her in two months and she recognizes my voice over the phone. I talk to her most nights before bed. We just had to do it earlier today."

• He feels his face flush.

• Jesus christ.

• you're cackling.

• he doesn't think its that funny

• he profusely apologizes for thinking you had a kid, implying that you did /things/ with anither person

• Obviously you take him to meet your dog because what kind of mother would you be if you didn't?

Deku:

• Dekus the kind of guy that would definitely take a few days to himself if he found that out.

• You've got a 50 50 chance of him staying

• He doesn't like it when people lie to begin with, it makes him feel weird

• So for him to find out you have a whole ass /child/ that he didn't know about?

• he's pissed. And sad. And confused. Because when the fuck did you have it??

• You'd think with all the analyzing he did, he'd be able to pick up maybe you were talking about a pet or something??

• Wrong. His emotions take over and he's just gone

• and once you get off the phone you're like?? Zuku? Baby where'd you go???

• 3 days.

• 3 Days he ignores your texts, calls, approaches before you get tired of it

• during those 3 days, well- day 3 more like, he goes to his friends

• like fuck i have a problem

• and theyre like ?????

• "So um- they have a kid."

"They what??????"

"Y/n has a kid. I heard them talking over the phone."

"Do you think maybe you mught've misunderstood? I mean when yould they even have had time to have one?"

"I don't know! But they didn't tell me! What am I supposed to do?"

"First off," todoroki begins, "what did they say that led you to believe they have a child?"

"Well, they were like, he's my son- not yours, and then they were like, he's growing out of his clothes, and but that his feet were still tiny-"

"Did they use a name?"

"Yeah, well, a nickname I guess, stubby? I think it was?"

"Midoryia that's their dog. They have a dog who likes to wear sweaters. Since he's a puppy " Todoroki sits up. "She refers to her dog as her son.

"I thought they only had a bird," he dropped his head to the table and whined.”They only told me about their bird,”

"Good luck fixing that."

• He brings you flowers.

• and chocolate

• to your dorm

• and when you answer you look very displeased.

• you just kind of eye him, waiting for him to speak.

• "Angel," he begins, "I'm sorry. I- I jumped to a conclusion."

"And what conclusion was that."

"That you had a kid." He mumbled. "When you were talking about your dog."

"You dumb fuck, we haven't even had sex yet. Who else would I be with? When would I even have had time to make a human being?"

"I know. I'm sorry."

• He wants to meet the dog.

• You make him wait.

• HOWEVER

• You do show him pictures.

Sero:

• He's high off his ass bro.

• fuckin zoinked

• you take a phone call in which you clearly mention dog features but he only seems to catch baby, princess, daughter, small toes, and chubby

• N he's like sweet you have a daughter,

• and then he forgets about it, too caught up with staring at something on the ceiling

• a bug he thinks

• and then he starts laughing because he thinks the word bug is funny lmao

• and when you get off the phone he leans his head against you

• and like 10 minutes later he remembers as he's kissing your neck

• "oh, so you have a daughter? How old is she?" He's so nonchalant too lmao

"Baby what?"

"You have a daughter, right? You were talking about her over the phone. She has small toes. How old is she?"

"Sero, you're gone," you smile, ruffling his hair.

"What? Did I do something? I don’t want to leave,” He frowns.

"I’m not making you leave babe. I don't have a daughter. I have a puppy named bubbles, but I call her princess. She's a teacup."

"Oh that's so cute,"

• its just amazing that he wasn't conflicted by the possibility that you may have had a daughter

• maybe its because he's high

• maybe he just really doesn't fucking care

• either way he vibed with the idea

• and then was like oh cool can I see a picture of your dog then

• and then fell the fuck asleep when the high started to wear off

• boy what a day

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sslow-dancer · 3 years

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hello hello!! i was wondering if i could possibly request a scenario with giorno 👉🏼👈🏼 maybe one where he is meeting his s/o’s parents for the first time and he’s kinda nervous bc s/o’s parents are protective over them? thank you <3

“I Greatly Appreciate Them.” (Giorno Giovanna x Reader)

Warnings: none!

tags: gender-neutral, gender-inclusive, giorno giovanna x reader, sfw, fluff, protective

Description: You invite Giorno to your parents’ for the first time and he’s a nervous wreck as he talks about you and your guys’ relationship.

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“Yes, I’ll see you guys then. Bye bye!”

You smile as you hang up the phone, using your dominant hand to write down a date on your school agenda. Giorno looks over at you from across the small dorm room, he tilts his head curiously,

“Who was that?”

“Oh, just my dad. He and my mom asked if I can come over to have dinner with them tomorrow. I said sure why not because I’m pretty much free -“ you cut yourself off by dropping the pencil down and clasping your hands excitedly, “oh, and I said you’ll be coming too!”

Giorno jumps up from his bed,

“WHAT?!” He exclaims. His tone not as excited as yours was. You frown,

“What? I told you that I’ve been meaning to introduce you to them. They’re highly protective over me, I want to show them that I’m in good hands on my own and with you. Show them that they don’t have to check up on me as they usually do.” He shakes his head,

“Okay, yes, I know that but- shouldn’t you have asked me first? Gave me like a whispered ask as you were making the call?”

Panic was beginning to wash over him, his palms sweaty and his voice shaky. He’s never really been the type to get this nervous over anything like this but he cares about you, he wants to make sure that he can show not just your parents but the world that he’s fit for you. That he isn’t just some random looking-delinquent kid from your school. He calms down a bit when you walk over to him and place a small peck on his cheek,

“Hey, it’s gonna be okay! You have more than a few hours to prepare your cheesy introductions...but even then, I don’t want you to prepare. You’ll be fine, just be yourself. For me, okay?” You say to him softly, placing your hand on his shoulder to reassure him. He exhales deeply, nodding as a response. You smile hugging him, his arms instinctively embracing your waist.

“Okay, I hate to leave on such short notice but a classmate and I have a project to finish and promised them I’ll meet them at the library today so, I’ll see you tomorrow? Be ready by 5, my parents like to eat at around 6! Okay, love you bye!.”

He sighs as you give him another quick peck to the cheek and you begin to walk out out of his dorm. He groans as he falls flat on his bed, his body causing the springs in it to bounce a bit. His mind trailing off as he looks up at the ceiling and thinks about how he’s going to act tomorrow.

~ Time Skip ~

It’s the next day and right after your classes you get ready for the dinner at your parents’ house.You aren’t able to visit them often, so you made sure to dress your best yet still casual so your parents are impressed to see that you did this for them.

You walk over to Giorno’s dorm, knocking on the door in the pattern you made up so he knows it’s you every time. You let out a satisfied breath when he opens the door, your eyes widening when you take in his attire.

He has a black suit on with a white button up, a black tie around his neck. His hair down with the 3 distinctive curls in front of his forehead still in tact. He rarely dresses like this, making you fall head over heels for him all over again. He blushes looking down,

“You’ve been looking at me for a solid 5 seconds now...I did too much, didn’t I?”

You shake your head, grabbing his face and kissing him gently. You squint in admiration,

“Gosh no! You look perfect. My parents will love how you look.”

“I hope they like how we look, though.”

“Yes, I’m hoping so too.”

You let him grab any items necessary and head over to your parents’ house; deciding to take a cab as it’s not too far from your school’s campus.

The ride was pretty silent, your hand rested over Giorno’s to reassure him that everything will be okay. His teeth biting down on his lower lip as he tries to calm himself.

You arrive and thank the taxi driver, Giorno tipping him as you walk down the sidewalk and ring the doorbell to your home. Giorno sprints over to your side, clearing his throat as he goes to hold your hand. You nod at him,

“Ya ready?”

“Ready.”

A dorky smile immediately plasters over your face the moment you meet eyes with your mother. Both you and her squealing in excitement as she calls out your name to your father and hugs you. You giggle, keeping an arm around your mother’s shoulders as you gesture your hand towards Giorno,

“Mom, this is my boyfriend. Giorno.”

Giorno smiles as he holds out his hand, “it’s very nice to meet you, they’ve told me so much about you and your husband.”

Your mother nods, shaking his hand. Her tone neutral as she tells him,

“Yes, they’ve told us much about you too. Welcome.”

You give Giorno a quick thumbs up as your mother turns around to wave over your father coming down the stairs. You flap around your arms excitedly like a bird until he comes and hugs you warmly. He lets you go when he sees Giorno.

At this point you get a bit nervous, sure both of your parents can be a little too over protective but your dad always manages to give your body at least one bead of sweat. Sure he isn’t the type to go out and punch a S/O simply for having you out past curfew but, he’s definitely the type to say something and it comes out awfully rude to the other party. You rub at your arm as he gets closer to Giorno.

He furrows his eyebrows, scanning over your boyfriend’s appearance. Giorno nervously clears his throat, holding out his hand again,

“Hello, sir. I’m Giorno...their boyfriend.”

He shakes his hand, “Oh! Yes, I bet their mother has already said so but we’ve heard much about you. I like the attire. Why don’t you come in so we can eat dinner? We don’t want their mother’s cooking to get cold now, do we?”

“No sir.”

“No need to address me so highly, you can simply reply without having to say any title first.”

Giorno body heats up in embarrassment, nodding as you and him follow behind your parents to the kitchen. You frown, placing a hand on his shoulder as you whisper,

“Hey, you did great! All you gotta do now is eat and compliment the food and the next thing you know we’re out of here!”

“Yeah sure but.. I was too awkward. What if they were just acting nice?”

“Giorno, they’re my parents. I know them better than most do, they liked your introduction. Trust me. Now let’s go, let’s not keep them waiting.”

After washing up and your mother setting down the plates, you all sit in the dining room. You sit on the opposite side of Giorno, in between your parents as they sit on both ends of the table.

You notice your mother smile as she watches your boyfriend dig into the food rather cleanly but also delightfully.

“You sure liked the pasta, huh, Giorno?”

“Oh uh- yes! I might even need the recipe for when I get midnight cravings.”

This gives your mother a sweet fit of laughter, Giorno’s own laughs following after hers. You grin as everything is going smoothly, though nervousness washes over you again when your father speaks up,

“So, how long have you both been together? Any dates recently?”

“A little over a year now um- if studying counts as dates then yes, we’ve been having a few recently. It is exam time after all..”

“Hm.. okay. Do you make time for them though?”

You subconsciously nod before your boyfriend even manages to respond. He smiles,

“Yes, I do. I greatly appreciate them. I strive to hang out with them as much as possibly when we’re both free.”

“Well, that’s great, glad to hear that our child is in good hands.”

You quietly let out a sigh of relief as you continue to eat and let your parents chatter with your friendly boyfriend. Their conversations getting more and more random by the second.

You can’t help but want to laugh out loud as the evening goes on, thinking that Giorno could easily become best friends with your parents despite his nervousness of meeting them in the beginning.

Your thoughts are disrupted though when you hear your mother softly ask Giorno,

“Hopefully it’s not too early to ask but, you do plan on marrying them, right?“

“Mom!”

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calvin-af-crone · 2 years

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Does "calvinamerika" still post her theories to you?

The Woman-of-Infinite-IDs never went away. She invented new ID's to follow me & likes my posts. But she has stayed out of my Inbox until today...possibly. I'm guessing you are her because this morning I found a long chat message from her & you want me to share it.

Here it is:

Don’t attack for this I have zero idea if it’s true but I trust them . Friends of mine went to Vegas last weekend and a couple of important about Calvin Harris and Vegas shows . They told them he is done w/ playing in Nightclubs and only playing a couple of festivals as a goodbye because he wanted taking a break and focusing on his private life and spending more time in Europe. They are surprised that he is working on an album bc he didn’t changed his mind back in January. Like I said no idea if it’s true but I trust them and it makes sense . I figured out that his siblings and mom unliked him on FB around January, i assume they knew about his original plan. I think Calvin has not a studio in Ibiza and that would confirming that he planned a break . I think it’s obvious that Calvin changed his mind after the Sun article and it took Aarika by surprise . That makes sense too because she deleted everything about his career .Something like that can cause a huge strain and could be a major issue for a RS when both want the same things but at different times . If Aarika really stopped modeling for Calvin maybe is expecting the same from Calvin w/ taking a break . ( greatest example Tom Brady and Gisele Bundchen they almost broke up because of his career 3 years ago because he was all about Football.) I think and it’s obvious that they are taking a break or broken up for now because 5 years is a long time and they are working on their issue in the next months . That would make sense with using his Jet because they are probably staying in touch and probably have some rules for their taking a break thing like how long 2-6 months or so. I highly doubt it’s lack on love that they are on a break . The only people who know the truth are friends ( like Laura ) and their families. tbh deleting pics is not so deep because some people deleting pics after every fight or changing their FB status And it would be so weird when has not at least one pic of Calvin on her private account or at least an arm I think not that Calvins team spoke w/ the Sun, he confirms things on via Twitter or randomly in Interviews. If they said it in a way that nobody would be shocked if/ when they are back together. Nobody said that his Team leaked the Farm thing or nobody gonna say his Team released a statement if/ when they are back together or when he/ they are getting married and having a baby . I hope they are not one of those couples who taking a break or so every couple of years. I went to Ibiza twice and people know everything there , they are telling tourists where to find celebrities and some are tipping off paparazzis . Other thing at some point we always fing out when he bought a new home in the US and somewhere else . I think he maybe bought something under a trustee or rented something as a back up because nobody know how fast u sales a home , maybe Aarika stays there right now til they resolved their issue . Please don’t leave we all want celebrate if/ when they are getting back Calvin starts his own family w / Aarika or someone else I know we are all confused a bit because 5 years together and 4 years living together are long Don’t know if u r agree or not . Feel free to tell

Naturally, I want to believe Calika isn't irreparably broken. But others have plausible theories about him starting a relationship w/ Dua Lipa! I promise you, dear readers, if that happens, I will unleash a fucking epic rant!

I might then continue this blog just to mock & criticize his every move! But, ya'know, I will eventually attain indifference. I've started packing to stage my house for sale. Then, I'll move Westward to start a new chapter in my life, probably the last one, & I do so hope I find something better to do w/ my mind.

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