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charliespringverse · 8 months

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iwbft - friday: a brief summary of my annotations

all highlighted quotes: 111

· ouch/ow/owie: 4

· real/felt/relatable/so true: 3

· aroace: 0

· ☹/☹☹/☹☹☹: 6

'I'll never forget what dear old John Lennon said: — we dont compliment wife-beaters here, dot

I've still got The Ark. — have u tho

Juliet was upset? Even after our big argument? I thought that was it for our friendship. — that's some bpd style thinking babes x (note: i 1. have bpd and 2. don't think fereshteh does, i just found it funny bc i'm p sure i've had this exact thought)

The idea that I had in my head. It was all something I'd just . . . fabricated. To make me feel a bit better about myself. So I had something to just... believe in. — oooo parallels

he sings - words I don't know, and a tune that goes somehow perfectly with the chords Rowan is making up on the spot - 'to Saint Peter he will tell: One more soldier reporting, sir. I've served my time in hell.' — listerrowan cowriting era?

'You've got a wet face,' he says. He walks up to me and starts dabbing my face with another paper towel. — playing the rowan role...............

'Do you ever imagine what would happen if we just ... ran away?' asks Lister, suddenly. I glance at him. He's looking at the window too. — nsync

God, I could do anything right now. — king u r so not thinking straight ♡

D'you have friends around you? People to support you?' I mumble something about being fine and close the door. Enough of that. — he hates that ppl don't see him as human but rejects it when they do because he barely knows how to Be human anymore ☹

It's not a crush. Not infatuation. I mean love in the 'I will think about you every day for my whole life' sense. Love, like the desperate ache to hold on to something useless, even though you know that if you threw it away, nothing would change. — *p.311

We catch eyes across the aisle and both laugh at the same time. The sound echoes around the empty church. — i love when they get to just be people ☹

'Are you talking about Jimmy or are you talking about me?' I ask. — i think they've got far more in common than either of them are ever likely to realise, at least until they're a long way past it

Strange how comforted I feel just holding it. Strange how I feel so much for one simple object. Even if I threw it away, nothing would change. — p.293 Jimmy + the knife the same as angel + the ark, once again tying those two things to the wider theme of faith

#friday time babeyyyy #this is a fun one #again . slightly late in the day bc i was hangin out with my favourite toddler #but here we are #iwbftreread #i also need to write one of these up for ghosted but i am: on sims

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pinkdollyboy · 4 months

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my asks and dms are open but I do have my dearest boyfriend @switchyftm so uhhh don't flirt with me or send me sexual messages!! I'm really not interested. Asking me questions is welcome but since I'm so new to this kind of thing I've no idea if I'll be able to answer them

Introduction

hi everyone! i'm dollie or pinkie or Ark, idm which, you can call me whicheeeeever

i'm 20 years old and an aroace gay transmasc nonbinary "boything" . i use he/him, they/them, and it/its. I'm a switch, slightly more inclined towards submission just because that's the kind of person I am on a day to day. I have BPD and audhd and I love to make jokes about them lol

I started off this tumblr with a cutesy persona but the thing is I've found my footing and realised idc anymore

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I BLOCK AGELESS BLOGS

i am gay, uhhh...i only like being flirted with by men/masc leaning people. sorry ladies

straight men or men dni blogs this blog is not for you

Hard limits are (and i will block over these.)

scat, noncon, ageplay, feederism, chasers, detrans/misgendering, bigotry

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Switchy shit, being a puppy, rough sex, biting, being possessive/being possessed, bruises and other assorted marks, exhibitionism, edging/overstim, objectification, pain (sort of...yeah), breeding, blood, voices, piss...probably more

No real limits on what I call my bodyparts but like. Don't be discussing my body ANYWAY unless you're my favourite guyyyyy

Weird sort of shit that's just me rambling abt things i find strange or funny: pinkdolly.rambles

answered asks: pinkdolly.answers

#ftm nsft #nsft #t4t nsft #queer nsft #trans nsft #hornyposting #ftm bottom #ftm sub #tboy nsft #transmasc nsft #ftm puppy

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menalez · 9 months

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youre a dumb idiot if you think you can't recover from a personality disorder. if i recall correctly remission (i.e recovery i.e not fitting the diagnostic criteria anymore you buffoon) for bpd for example occurs in two to eight years of consistent treatment. and funny you are tin foiling in the notes because i actually don't have neither anxiety nor depression but a secret third thing that made my life hell but i recovered from with hard work and getting off the internet - something you dont seem to understand ;)

you’re trying very hard to offend me by intentionally misunderstanding me tbh but i’m aware that it’s possible to recover, it’s just incredibly hard to in many cases and often requires consistent treatment for many years. even then, symptoms can persist and the typical goal is to teach patients the skills they need to cope, not magically curing them to the point where they’re considered fully recovered from mental illness.

i get u want to feel superior or whatever, but again.. i have been hospitalised, to years of therapy (CBT, DBT, trauma therapies, expressive therapies, mindfulness therapies), and taking psych meds for a decade. if u want me to go to therapy right now, feel free to send me money so i can continue but trying to act like u know more about mental illness and my specific health is just embarrassing for u

#this is embarrassing bc i have a degree in psych and ur over here tryna explain sth to me that i learned 😭 and in an ignorant way at that

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thoughts-in-brain · 5 months

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vent tw suicide.

I think my father is drifting away from me, slowly replacing me? It seems like he wants to spend less and less time with me. I bet its fucking Delaney. I’m so jealous of Delaney. I don’t know how much they even care for me. Would they care if I died? Ha, funny how that’s my first question for everything. Probably because I want to kms. It used to be a silly little argument over who loved who more, now half the time they dont even say I love you back. Is it because im to clingy to young? What can I do. I just want everything to go back to how it used to be when we met. I mean most the time they’re fine then Delaney comes in and I dont matter anymore, maybe its there bpd and Delaney being there fp. I dont fucking know anymore. I have no fucking friends except them. I hate myself.

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goremet-chef · 9 months

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maybe ill tell my mom im hungry? im so. my entire LIFE i have always always hated asking for things like so much so that i stopped asking for things on my BIRTHDAY because im like. terrified of being seen as selfish? idk its funny cuz parents will like. god forbid i get a treat when im a kid, then all the grown ups in my life look down and call me spoiled as if they didnt give me the treat, and they still think children arent capable of complex thought so they didnt anticipate that id internalize it for the rest of my life but here we are 😁😁

so i just. god i hate asking for things it makes me feel so shitty but i think shes gonna go somewhere anyways? and EVENTUALLY hes going to run out of things to cook so maybe if i ask she'll bring home some food (vent/rant)

that is one thing that always bothers me tho ive got? idk my mom is. shes my mom i guess, currently she treats me very nicely but when her bf was gone for a few years all that anger was directed at me so yknow. i guess shes over it? or she tries to make up for it, but if im not given an apology, i wont forgive or forget even. it was mutual, lots of arguing on the basis of politics at time, but sometimes it was just fucking nothing, to the point where she'd even admit that i didnt deserve that treatment its just. SIGHHHHH im over it at this point im just trying to get out atp yknow? but like

my sibling asks for LOTS of things. and they get all of them. money for computer parts? sure. money for literally any thing? sure. new game? sure

im not bitter about it, as long as my mom can afford it i dont care. but like....... whenever I ask for things, its usually a no

because of my BPD, i take rejection really hard, its the worst pain in the world so i kinda just stopped asking for anything at all to avoid the feeling. then they always are like "ohh what do you want for yr birthday we cant just get you nothing" but i actually DID ask for something on my birthday. i asked for a copy of pokemon black for the ds. it was the only thing ive directly asked for in years, and i didnt get it which is super embarrassing. like whats the point of bothering me about what i want if you dont listen to me when i do? they always get me what they THINK i want and its this really outdated version of me that doesnt even exist anymore, its makes me dissociate knowing thats what they see me as when im just not that anymore. even when i tell them its null

IDK its jsut a whole thing, idk how to feel about it anymore. its to the point where like. my friends take me out sometimes but i mean. they know im broke, they know i have no job, they know i have no income. but im terrified the entire time that theyre gonna like. ask me to pay or something, and i always do my best to just do nothing when we go out cuz i really like. even when they offer to get me things it makes me feel so fucking shitty man i feel like im just leeching off of them even when they offered. even when they tell me they like getting me things it just. it feels so bad. and GOD its embarrassing, when we're walking around stores and all im doing is just following them around because i have like FIVE DOLLARS in my pocket at most. things like that make me want to never leave my house again, it just sucks.

im jealous of them if im honest, because they have jobs and i dont. but i dont think? i genuinely am unsure id ever be able to get a job. im not well adjusted like them, im constantly dissociating, constantly tired, my sibling yesterday, i made a comment about my mom leaving without telling me at all and he was like "well she said she was leaving on the weekend didnt she?" like yes, she did, but i genuinely have no idea what day it is at any given point. all i know is the number, i dont know the day of the week ever.

like im so. fucked, im fucked! totally, even if i managed to get me shit together, relearn the days of the week, set a good sleep schedule, im fucked anyways because i dont know how to be a person at all. an interview sounds fucking terrifying, ESPECIALLY if i dont know the questions theyre going to ask. i do really REALLY poorly with actual human conversation, like its painful. and pretty much everyone around me thinks im kinda creepy or weird in some way, so theyd DEFINITELY be able to tell. i have no resume, i dont even know what that IS. like im so fucked!! i wasnt able to pass highschool, i cant partake in a conversation if i dont somehow have both sides planned perfectly.

little unsure about my odds, gotta be honest

but at the same time like? i keep hearing people say "if you cant work then get disability insurance" am i disabled? everyone around me tells me im just not trying hard enough. they laugh at me when i say i just cant. even if it covers mental illness, i? i dont know. im constantly in denial of things because my family specifically my mom like. a long time ago she told me i just couldnt be autistic, because im "too smart"

?????? it showed me immediately that she has absolutely no fucking idea what shes talking about ever, i bet she couldnt list more than 2 symptoms of autism like genuinely. im not even smart also????? maybe id be a genius, if i could retain information after 5 minutes 💀💀 its complete bullshit man, im just. im at a loss

and then they have the audacity to mock me for not knowing how to be a person in the world, when THEY shouldve taught me. it was THEIR job to help guide me through it, and they didnt. they laugh and roll their eyes and scoff when i tell them oh i dont know how to use a stove, i dont know what food stamps are i dont know how to dress for a job interview ETC

they expect ill know, that i wouldve jsut picked it up over time but surprise! i didnt. i need instruction i need CLEAR instruction and no one will give it to me. its so frustrating man, they suck ass and they just make me feel WORSE about myself. like good fucking god, give me a break

idk im just. exhausted. im tired of just cramming my problems down because the people around me are incapable of seeing me as anything other than a child, and children dont have problems, right? i have no right to complain if my backs constantly hurting, if im too tired to feed myself properly, if i cant leave my house for 2 seconds without feeling the deepest dread. like be so serious bro

i cant wait to fucking move out, but.. how? my friends said its okay if i cant always make enough money from art to pay rent, but no. i dont believe them at all. theyre just being nice to me and i dont even deserve that, i fucking refuse i cant just. im always dead weight, its so frustrating. it frustrates the people around me, too. i feel like such a fucking burden man, its so tiring. if its not things i just dont know how to do, its fear. oh i cant help clean the garage because its crawling with spiders, i cant take out the trash because the trash bins are crawling with spiders. i cant walk down the stairs because i saw a spider on the ground. they fucking hate me man

i know what they see me as, but i have no idea how to convince them that its not me. they think im rude because i dont know how to properly communicate, i say things and its rude to them and i feel bad because i didnt intend to come off that way. everyone thinks im selfish, they think im overdramatic. exaggerating. if they could live in my head for one day, they wouldnt think that anymore

its so exhausting because you dont even get any sort of sympathy from them! just like. awkward pity, and it makes me wish i was never born. never oh im sorry yr feeling that way, do you wanna talk about it? never

they see me as such an obvious burden but they? i dont know! i genuinely cant understand, they think i just have no complex emotions? they think i cant hear it, cant see it? they think i dont feel like a burden when they tell me i am. its so stupid

i cant stand being around anyone, and it just pushes me FURTHER into dissociation. ive got an interesting thing with that. see, typically when yr dissociate with a dissociative disorder like OSDD or DID, that hazy period in time opens up for another alter to front, you dissociate away and get tucked inside yr head. except i get maladaptive daydreams. so im fully dissociated in another world basically but im still physically present. its like i just always take up space thats never meant for me, in every conceivable way. i hate it.

i know, when i finish typing this, ill feel a lot better. which is just embarrassing, bpd fucking sucks. having no emotional permanence is EMBARRASSING when im over here crying on my knees about my problems and then the second i get it out i feel completely fine. it just makes me invalidate my very real emotions even further and its so.

im just. whatever.

just spit it out and stop looking that way

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fakeboitherottengirl · 2 years

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Like IDEGAF if u screencap me on this I know you probably will since so many of u creeps shadow follow me but literally what is to be gained by tearing down/posting negativity about Luna Slater. She has a personality disorder, is mentally ill, is suicidal, ur not making her feel worse about herself than she already feels. When u see somebody in that low of a condition struggling so much how is it even satisfying to tear down their minor victories? Oh no, she scammed some people for art commissions when she was a teenage addict and is thicker than most of the girls on TV, is that really enough material to stretch out over 41 threads of stalking? OMG a mentally ill person is displaying symptoms of their mental illness, do yall also stare at physically disabled people when they roll by in their wheelchairs as well? Do you go to late stage cancer wards for fun? What about a sick person being sick is so fucking hilarious to you? How did anybody see the illegal distribution of her private paid adult content to not at least be the line where this wasn’t funny anymore and we should stop? How long can you poke roadkill with a stick before it stops being fun? How long can you fight the bees for the apples on the ground before youll pick even reasonably low-hanging fruit. At this point ur not just harassing her, ur obsession has grown to harassing anybody who dares show this girl any kindness. I have BPD too. I know the difference a like can make for how i feel about myself in the moment, so when her pics come up on my feed i like them. Her writing and art interests me as an aspiring artist from the same generation, she may very well one day be my contemporary. We’ve had a few friendly conversations about nonsense its not like I have anything invested in this girl, Im just as friendly to her as I am to the girl at the fast food counter or the girls who work on the other side of the building when we are in the break room together. I have no ulterior motive to being nice to her im literally that nice to anybody who isnt a dick to me Im a friendly retard like shes not the only person on this website who has been nothing but nice to me that people expect me to join a bullying circus against and like we are not in middle school that isn’t fun for me kicking somebody when they are down is not a challenge or a source of amusement to me Im sorry yall but I was raised better apparently. Did ur moms really never tell u not to join in bullying? Because that is what it is, its not “milking” or “trolling” its straight up bullying and if that brings u joy u dont get to call urself a good person or claim that ur morally superior to the subject ur attacking.

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1984dove · 2 years

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bruh ive been experiencing bpd symptoms for so long now, its not even funny i think i might actually have it. its not going away. its been 2 years where ive kept searching “do i have bpd”. its not even trendy, i knew i might have it before tik tok even existed and as time went by and i started realizing how much im actually hurting people without realizing, how much ive hurt myself, i just… i dont know. my whole body is covered in scars, i cant handle myself. i would do anything to leave this mind. i never know if what i feel is real. i never know whats right because im so emotional i dont want to live like this anymore please take this away from me i just want to be neurotypical

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riddledem0n · 1 month

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Oh eddie munson and Stu macher he did you so dirty I'm so sorry (break up vent in tags beware)

#WELP guess im single again #refuse to believe they fucking loved me at all after all those empty promises but hey ^__^ its all gucci #just my opinion #plus dude really couldnt handle my bpd which. man bro you could've not dated me if it bothers you so much #nobody except like 2 people read my text posts so i can rant about this #im just mostly mad or disappointed to be honest #its also funny because he had the audacity to verbally fucking harass me and trigger my ptsd while he couldve stayed calm #asked a lot of moots and ppl I know irl if maybe i exaggerated or if he was in the right but they sided with me most #bro took EVERYTHING wrong i did and made me sound like an abuser #like my god #also bro legitimately constantly brough up his trauma and depression meanwhile whenever i used that excuse i was told its an ass move #im telling you guys i dont trust ANYONE anymore #girly if you have and suffer THIS MUCH grt a fucking therapist its FREE in this country im TIRED OF TELLING PEOPLE THIS #its not my fault you are like this and it affected our thing #im done being blamed for everything #“you emotionally black mailed me” my ass man i did not #and playing with my feelings and making fun of me yesterday night was alright or what #jesus get a fucking grip before you lose your temper on your partner like this ever again

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circuitdoll · 4 years

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#llmfaoo #i dont havee bpd anymore but this is so funny #bpd #bpd memes

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lucebee · 4 years

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fuck

#i completely split on my fp because i found out she said shes sick of me being sad and suicidal all the time...#and it upset me so much becaue she didnt even say it to me she said it to someone else #and they have just been acting funny with me but im so upset with both of them really #and its been bothering me for days now like it just keeps replaying in my head and i feel guilry #and like it wasnt even her asking for advice on what to do it was her being sarky and almost angry with me which hurt me even MORE #im just so HURT #she was one of the kindest most reliable people in my life and now my trust has gone to -100 #i hate Bpd!!!!!!!!!!!!#i also have mad shit going on at work and ive completelt isolated myself from everyone bc im scared people dont like me anymore #and all i do is work and sleep like im too exhausted snd miserable to do anything else #ive overdosed so many times and at this point no one givs a fuck lolllll

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transsexualhamlet · 3 years

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sherlock holmes reactions part 4 (?) ive lost count already but unsurprisingly ive grown even more attached to him

using this as the cover image because i made him a playlist. cause im awful

no legit this is gonna need a read more because it's SO LONG SHIHEWIESHEFSHIEWHF

Had three mental breakdowns this week and realized i do in fact kin sherlock motherfucking holmes. this does not bode well for anything in my life mentally I've diagnosed him with so many things

Oh boy lol you want the list I think hes autistic (undisputed honestly) plus also adhd but on top of that there's the manic depression and uhhh the bpd lmao I dont even think that's it those are just. the obvious ones

But yeah man's a fucking mess and a shit person but in the same way as me so 👍

Some highlights I thought were very funny:

watson: we are in fact going to be waltzing into a place where people are Shooting People you do not have your gun. this is a problem

sherlock: don't worry watson I have my trusty stick!

watson: visible pain

This clearly happens like every day or so with them

but yeah there were some really honestly sweet scenes with them at the apartment and why am i getting soft over the crusty man being gay

have you considered tho. have you considered them

have you considered sherlock, who usually only plays absolute garbage on his violin serenading watson to sleep when he was tired and in pain and watson being so fucking in love with the man and waxing poetic about falling asleep to his music and waking up to see him fallen asleep on the couch next to him and oh my god them

They're just really sweet together for such a completely dysfunctional couple so much of the time lol I just. Sherlock being like.

Sherlock half of the time: watson you're fucking stupid. no i won't take care of my personal needs stfu. watson get a goddamn life. watson shut up. watson no one cares about your goddamn opinion. no i need to disturb you in the middle of the night it's for science. hey watson mind if i manipulate mansplain malewife

Sherlock the other half of the time: HELLO SIR YOU ARE MY FAVORITE MAN TO EVER MAN HELLO MAY I SPEND THE REST OF MY DAYS WITH YOU HELLO I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU WE ARE PERFECT MATCHES I LOVE YOU AND I NEED YOU YOURE SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME PLEASE MARRY ME

They're... they certainly are.

ALSO OH MY GOD.

THIS ONE TIME WHEN SHERLOCK WAS JUST PACING AROUND THE ROOM AT 3 AM GOING "IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE >:(((" AND HUDSON LIKE BARGED IN TO COMPLAIN AND THEN WATSON WAS LIKE DUDE YOU GOTTA STOP DOING THIS AND PROCEEDS TO SAY THE LINE "YOU ARE KNOCKING YOURSELF UP, OLD MAN"

BAHGHSFHGRHEWHEWHIFEW

BRB SOBBING

CALLING HIM AN OLD MAN???? KNOCKING HIMSELF UP?? I DONT KNOW WHATS FUNNIER

The main highlight of this part was I have now gotten to see him have a great time watching his homo homie get married

Its so fucking funny.......

I was prepared for a funny reaction by yuumori sherlock's face when he said it lol but. Damn i was really not prepared tbh

watson: I'm engaged!

sherlock: *pained groaning*

watson: do you... not like her?

sherlock: no she's fine she's great you'll be wonderful together bUT I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE ARE HETEROSEXUAL WATSON DO I HAVE TO MARRY MYSELF THEN WATSON? ARE YOU GOING TO MAKE ME MARRY MYSELF.

watson: yeah... yeah... fair, I feel really bad because you did this whole case and I got a girlfriend out of it and all you got was me leaving you alone fuck man im sorry what are you gonna do without me

sherlock, highly sarcastic: dont worry watson I've always got my handy cocaine! *pulls it out and gets high in front of watson just as he's about to leave*

watson: *in fucking agony*

sherlock: good for you!

I DONT EVEN- THIS SCENE KILLED ME MULTIPLE TIMES OVER WHAT

ITS SO GODDAMN NONCHELANT ABOUT IT SHERLOCK IS JUST LIKE YEAH I WILL IN FACT NOT BE MENTALLY HEALTHY IF YOU ARE NOT WITH ME 24/7 BUT WHATEVER YOU DO YOU /S

I'd like to apologize to watson on sherlock's behalf lmao. man is being a bit too codependent on main

The last thing about sign of four I do need to address is yeah, there's the Horrific Amounts Of Racism in that one and the whiplash hearing it is just ridiculous because they seem to be so knowledgeable in all other areas and fairly... politically correct, taking sherlock's original misogyny as a purposeful character flaw, but then they just mention someone indigenous once and suddenly its all parrotting racist propaganda and just... really awful shit. There's no way I'm gonna speak for the group that just got absolutely hate crimed here but anyone can tell the author just has no clue what he's fucking talking about and it's physically painful.

And I don't know, it's just so bad it seems out of character? Doyle's making these motherfuckers say shit that honestly, Sherlock would know better about. And especially Watson. Come on, you cannot tell me watson is mentally capable of being prejudiced against someone. Please do not make him that way.

I'm not sure how to handle it specifically, or what's the proper way I should handle something like that in a media I otherwise like. Is it ok to say Doyle was clearly a piece of shit on the matter and separate those characters from his bias or is that insensitive?

I don't know, I was Not a fan of it and I'm glad to see they've at least finally shut up about the guy

But anyway yeah, uhhhh onto the short stories because I'm trying to read those before I get to the final problem

Scandal in Bohemia was a fucking ride, first of all, before we even get to Sherlock's girlboss arc we have to discuss how gay the whole situation was and how Doyle's attempt at making them less gay failed spectacularly

Like he's all "ah yes I need to marry off watson and uhhh make sherlock ummmm interact with a woman so they dont look gay" but he does it SO BADLY that it makes them look EVEN GAYER

cause i mean, even the conversation they had about watson getting married back in sign of four was gay af, but how Doyle handled things afterward was in no way straighter.

Cause you know, the man kind of wrote himself into a corner with the fact of Watson narrating these stories. So Watson has to be around to witness them, and to witness Sherlock's own thought process rather privately, so he has to be around sherlock at night, a lot. But trying to come up with a reason for that happening just... it didn't occur to Doyle. He just went. Ah yes this makes sense. And it's Watson just like Sleeping Over At Sherlock's like every other goddamn day and every time his wife leaves town and having them basically still live that cute domestic home life but they have absolutely no excuses for doing it anymore. It's quite funny

Like it was gay already the way they interacted when they officially lived together but it was like, a necessity for them. Now it's not, Watson just comes over because he goddamn wants to, and it's hilarious to me.

LIKE IDK I THINK THEY KIND OF BROKE UP FOR A YEAR OR SO BC OF WATSON GETTING MARRIED AND THEY LIKE DONT HAVE CONTACT WITH ONE ANOTHER BUT ONE DAY WATSON JUST INEXPLICABLY HAS THE URGE TO COME VISIT SHERLOCK ON NO NOTICE AND THEN SUDDENLY THEY ARE TOGETHER NEAR 24/7 AGAIN LIKE BARELY ANYTHING CHANGED AHIEHOEWH

SIT DOWN AND TRY TO TELL ME THOSE ARE NOT HOMOSEXUALS

Watson walks in on no fucking notice after a full year and Sherlock is just. In the middle of some experiment obviously but hes like

Sherlock, carrying around unidenfiable chemical mixtures: W A T S O N you look good you look good! i see you've gained seven pounds!!

watson: uh. thanks??? Hey lol *awkwardly waves* Uh um Wanted to Uhm sEe you

Sherlock: ABOUT gODDAMN TIME AND YES WONDERFUL LOOK LOOK SIT DOWN I HAVE THINGS TO INFODUMP ABOUT

watson: :) ok :) *turns to camera* and we were back to the old days

sherlock: makes a deduction

watson: wowwwwwwwwwwww !! so true bestie !!

sherlock: !!!!!!!!! :))) !!!!! :))) uh fuck im supposed to be smooth Its Elementary Lol

watson: *turns to camera* when i stroke his ego like this and compliment him he blushes like a girl like i just complimented his dress so i do it more because he likes it. this is a homie trait

watson: well i should probably get going! my wife will notice that i am gone my dear buddy bro homie!

sherlock: NO DONT LEAVE IM LOST WITHOUT YOU (pretty much a direct quote lol) your. wife doesn't. get back home until monday. I know this because I am smart and definitely have not been stalking you.

watson: alright :)))))

AND THEN HE FUCKING SLEEPS OVER LMAO FUCKING HOMOS

So yeah they're right back where they were before pretty much and there's a case bc of course there is

And honestly I think this short story specifically was so insane mostly just because of how absolutely fast it all went. Yuumori kind of made me believe the original Irene Adler was more of an important character than she really is? And I think that's. Honestly so funny. Motherfucker shows up for ten pages, girlbosses her way around town, and changes sherlock's entire opinion of the female gender while still keeping him gay?

LIKE NO LOL SHES NOT IN ANY WAY A LOVE INTEREST AND WATSON GOES OUT OF HIS WAY TO SPECIFY THE FACT THAT IN NO WORLD WOULD THEY HAVE BEEN ROMANTICALLY INVOLVED BECAUSE. SHERLOCK. DIDN'T DATE WOMEN.

HE WAS JUST??? SO IMPRESSED AND SHELL SHOCKED BY HER EXISTENCE HE DECIDED IT WAS TIME FOR GIRLBOSS APPRECIATION DAY TODAY AND ALL DAYS HENCEFORTH???

AND THEY HAVE LIKE O N E INTERACTION?? God, the power this woman(?) has. Watson looks at her once like. damb shawty 😳 and she's like "no<3" and he's like FUCK

Like yeah it's pretty much just the king walking up like "help girl the whore is blackmailing me" and sherlock being like "ok lol this will be easy" and then it proceeded to not in fact be easy or even possible

sherlock like... posed as a dead body and tried to get her to give up the location of the photo but she out-acted him and skipped the town the next day after doing the 'good night mr. sherlock holmes' thing with sherlock completely tricked

and she just. sends a letter like "dear sherlock holmes. you're a fucking idiot and i think it's funny that you lost. nice job tho mad respect" and sherlock just SHORT CIRCUITS

the king comes back a bit later like "hey Dude where's my Photo" and sherlock's like oh yeah uhhhhhhhhhhh about that and the king is like HOW COULD IT POSSIBLY HAVE BEEN THAT GODDAMN HARD i would have dated someone more noble if she wasn't so pretty i swear im on a whole different level from her

and then. GIRLBOSSIFIED SHERLOCK HOLMES RESPONDS "from what I have seen of the lady, she seems indeed to be on a very different level from your majesty" ABSEHHESHEFHHFES ROASTED

and the dude just LEAVES

After that I read a few more of the short stories and well the highlights I got from that pretty much were these conversations

Watson: sherlock. honey. have you. eaten anything today

Sherlock: IT DIDNT OCCUR TO ME DEAR WATSON

Watson: ITS FIVE PM

and:

Sherlock: *having one of his Moment Moments at three in the goddamn mornig* GRRRR CRIME ISNT WHAT IT USED TO BE

Watson: MY DEAR SHERCOCK WHAT IS CRIME S U P P O S E D TO BE LIKE ACCORDING TO YOU

Sherlock: no one's original anymore fucking copycats

Watson: so you want the criminals to make things harder for you specifically.

Sherlock, exasperated: yes!

I love them your honor.

#rowan's hyperfixation essays #rowan screams into the void #rowan views moriarty #sherlock holmes

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lovemesomesurveys · 4 years

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Name: Stephanie.

Country: USA.

Age: 31.

Gender(s): Female

Height: ~5′4

weight: 70-something lbs.

eye color: Brown.

skin color: White.

Heritage: I’ve been really wanting to do one of those ancestry dna or 23 and me tests to find out exactly what I am. Relationship status: Single.

Are you physically healthy? No.

Are you mentally healthy? Nope

Job?: No job.

school: I graduated college back in 2015.

Favs:

Animal: Dogs and giraffes.

Flower: I don’t really have one.

Movie: I have many favorites.

TV show: I have many favorites.

Music: I like variety.

Band: One of them will always be Linkin Park.

Video Game: Mario Bros games and Animal Crossing: New Horizon

Gaming Console: Nintendo Switch.

Name: Alexander. ;)

Person: My family.

Love life:

1: Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope.

2: Do you love them?

3: Are you still in love with an ex? No.

4: How many people have you dated? Two.

5: Do you think you’ll get married? No.

6: Have you ever been emotionally/physically abused in a relationship? No.

7: Have you ever hurt your partner by accident without knowing it? I’m single, but no I don’t think I have in the past. But if I didn’t know it then I wouldn’t know?

8: Whats important to you in a relationship? Communication, trust, understanding, patience.

9: Do you have to see them everyday? ( or hear from them)? I’m singleeee.

10: Do you think you can love someone within 2 weeks? I personally don’t think so.

Friendship and Family:

1: How many friends do you have? Zero.

2: What type of friend are you? Not a good one anymore.

3: Have you ever been friends with someone for longer than 7 years? Yeah. My former best friend and I were friends for almost 15 years.

4: Do you have one best friend, more or none? One, my mom.

5: Have you ever had a friend just stop being your friend and you never knew why? Yes.

6: Do you get along with family? Yes.

7: Do you have a family member you hate? No.

8: Does your family accept who you are? Yes.

9: Are you an only child or have siblings? I have 2 brothers.

10: Do you have parents that still live together? Yes.

School:

1:What grade are you in? I’m not.

2: Are you in Middle, High, or college? ( or neither)? Neither, like I said I graduated college back in 2015.

3: Whats your favorite class? English was always my favorite. In college I enjoyed most of my psych classes.

4: Do you have a fav school year? Elementary school years.

5: Are you a good student? I was, yeah.

6: Do you think homework is good or bad? I wouldn’t say it’s good or bad. I mean, I get seeing if you’re understanding then material and whatnot and applying it. I guess it depends on the amount assigned and what type of assignment it is.

7: Have you ever had a teacher who was really funny but had poor teaching skills? Yes.

8: Is your GPA high or low? It was high.

9: Do you like to particpate in conversations in the class room or are you the listener? I was definitely a listener. I haaaaated classes that made class discussion apart of your grade.

10: Do you take part in extra school events? (eg. Plays, sports, leadership,clubs)? I was in clubs in high school and the psych club in college, even serving as a board member.

Health

1: Do you need to lose or gain weight? I definitely need to put on some weight.

2: Have you ever had the swine flu? (H1n1) No. I remember being scared about getting it and that whole thing wasn’t even on the level of covid.

3: Do you like to go to the doctors? Nooo. I’ve had more than my share of doctor appointments of all different kinds all throughout my life. They still make me anxious and stressed out, they’re definitely not something I find enjoyable.

4: Have you ever puked in school or at work? I remember getting sick once in kindergarten and having to rush outside to the trash can.

5: Have you ever been extremely sick where you couldnt even leave your bed? Yes, I’ve experienced that several times.

6: Do you hate puking or does it make you feel better? I hate actually doing it, but afterwards I usually do feel better. There are times where it gets to the point where I wish I would just do it already and get it over with cause I know it’d help me feel better. That’s when I’m really not feeling well.

7: Have you ever coughed up blood? No.

8: Should you be eating healthier ? Yes.

9: Do you lie to your doctor? I downplay some things or not share certain things, admittedly. :X

10: Have you ever taken too much advils? No. That would make me sick.

Mental Health:

1: Do you have a mental illness? Yes.

2: Do you take anti-depressants? No.

3: Are you mentally stable? Uhhh.

4: Have you ever been misdiagnosed? Yes.

5: Do you think you have an disorder but havent been properly diagnosed yet? Maybe.

6: Is self diagnosing good or bad? I don’t see an issue with researching yourself and thinking you may have something, but it’s important to take that information to a doctor. However, sadly I know that not everyone is able to do that. And I also have a problem with doing that myself, which I think can cause unnecessary stress. I also think people tend to throw around labels and say they have something when they don’t. Gah, it’s a slippery slope.

7: Should we give more money to mental health research? Yes, absolutely.

8: Do you think everyone has a chance to over come their mental disorders? I think many can learn to better manage some of them, but I feel like they’re always going to be there.

9: Would you ever not date someone if they had a severe disorder? ( Schizophrenia,BPD, mood disorders)? I don’t know and I’m probably horrible for saying that. I have my mental disorders and I know it can be a lot for people to be around and handle. I just... I don’t know if I’d be able to be there for them in a way they might need ya know? I lack the experience. I can’t say no for certain. I think it would just really depend on the situation and if I learned more about it.

10: Does mental illness run in your family? Yes.

SEX

1: Virgin? Yes.

2: what age did you lose it? 3: Did you take sex ed? 6th grade, middle school, and a health and psych class my freshman year in high school.

4: Does size matter?

5: Whats your favorite poistions?

6: Does virginity exist? I believe so. I know some feel it’s not a real thing or a social construct, but to me it’s a thing. It’s someone who hasn’t had sex. When you have sex, you’re said to have lost your virginity and to me that just means in the very literal sense that you’re not a virgin anymore. I’m not referring to it as something deeper. Although, it can be for some people. And while I don’t think it’s like losing some part of yourself or something life altering, I personally feel like I would feel a change in some way. I also want to add that it’s something I want “lose” or share with someone special. I don’t know, man. I’m sure I’m not explaining it well. It’s just a personal thing.

7: Do you think sex is overated? I wouldn’t know.

8: Is making love and fucking different? One just sounds more romantic and slow and passionate and the other sounds rough lol 9: Is it important for both genders to understand eachothers bodies? Yeah.

10: If someone was a virgin and was raped, did they lose their virginity? If it’s not consensual or your choice then you can choose not to count it is how I see it. Like yes, technically they’ve had sex, but something so horrific and traumatic doesn’t count. Losing their virginity should be done their way, with someone they want to share that with. In the situation they were raped, they’re allowed to take their power and control back and count it when they do so with someone they want to do, consensually.

Check the box:

1.My hair color is: [x] Brown [] Black [] Blonde [x]Red [] Funky colors [] Auburn [] more than one color <<< It’s a mix of my natural color and red because I haven’t dyed it since February.

2.Eye color: []Blue []Grey [x]Brown []Light brown []dark brown []green []amber [] I have two different colors of eyes

3.I am a : []Male [x] Female []Trans Male [] Trans Female []Gender Fluid [] I dont have a gender []Non Binary [] other

4: I am: []Fit [] Average [x]Skinny []Fat

5: I love my : [x]Hair []Eyes []Smile []Teeth []Skin []everything about myself []None of these. <<< Italicized because I only like my hair when it’s been dyed and my roots aren’t showing haha... unlike now.

6: I hate my: [x]Hair []eyes [xx]smile [x]teeth [x]skin [x] everything about myself [] I dont hate anything about myself

7: My feet are: [x]Small []Wide []Narrow []long []large [x]Ugly []Pretty

8: I have a hard time: []Finding something to wear [x]Making Friends [x] making food [x]staying focused

9: I am: []Employed [x]Not employed []retired []I can’t work []Self employed []Looking for a job

10: I love: []the moon []the sun [x]the stars []our galaxy []planets

Bold what is true:

I am Funny

I am a girl

I have no hair

I have curly hair

^ I hate it

I have straight hair

I have a dog

I have a cat

I have both

I love to get drunk

I don’t drink

I love to smoke weed but i hate smoking cigarettes

I love both

I rather have one best friend than 20 friends who i am not close with

My dad died

My mom died

My parents are both dead

My parents are alive

I like to touch my bruises

I have funny teeth

I love Mcdonalds fries

Sometimes when Im alone I sing as loud as I can

even if i cant sing

I believe in God

I believe in the butterfly affect

I hate video games

I wish I was taller

I can’t understand math

I am very good at writing an essay

I never had sex before

I love Mac N Cheese

I love Disney Movies

I prefer Dreamswork over Walt Disney

I am going to College

I finished college

I wish I went to college

I hate my job

I am the boss at my job

I have a feelings for a friend but i cant tell them because it would ruin our friendship

^ I have feelings and i told them

I wish soda was healthy

I sleep with the window opened

This survey was too long

#personal #text #survey #surveys

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hutchilli · 4 years

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So like I just wanna post my rant here because I'm not using fb atm and my family don't use Tumblr BUT DAMN I NEED TO VENT SO BAD RN BUT I DONT WANT THEM ON MY BACK

TW: mental abuse, racism, rape, depression, drugs, suicide.

So like I have no idea where to fucking start on this because it's SO HARD to explain so I'm just gonna say whatever comes to my mind and I apologize for any grammar and spelling mistakes.

So today I had an argument with my dad (luckly he dosent live with me anymore as he left)

He kept sending me racist memes and today I finally told him that I don't find them funny I find them gross and insensitive, and he started with that dumbass boomer saying of "all lives matter" and used the lee rigby excuse even though I linked him to the articles of the rigby family wanting people to stop using Lee as an excuse.

He obviously goes off on his shit storm calling me a fool and that I'm not educated and that I'm stupid also using the "it's a disgrace that you talk to me like that" WELL LET ME GIVE YOU SOME BACK STORY ON MY FATHER.

My dad was very violent and emotionally abusive especially to my mother, holding a knife up to her and throwing stuff at her, he also cheated on her so many times. There was even an incident when I was 7 years old where he got so Violent with my mum and I ended up rushing into my baby sisters room who was just over a year old at the time, dragging her out of her cot and hiding her and myself under my bed.

We went camping once, I was abit late getting back from the football park because cars were coming along the road so I had to wait to go back to the caravan. I was 2 minutes late and because of that I punched, slapped, screamed at by my father.

He also use to throw me against walls.

It was horrible in the end, he left my mum to Rot in a house she couldn't afford with me and my sister. We barely had enough food. Luckly my mum turned it all around and managed to get money to care for us and the home. My father never paid maintenance and when he did it was like 50 quid once every 6 months or summin. He ended up moving country, leaving my mum even after they devorced with thousands of pounds of debt, it's been 10 years and my mum still hasn't finished paying it off.

Because of everything I suffered with terrible depression, I finished school and college but I got into the wrong crowd, I got into drugs, I had an extremely toxic relationship where I was raped. I was 17/18 I was barely an adult.

Luckly I managed to get out of that toxic shit and I turned my life around but with the consequence of suffering with multiple mental issues depression, anxiety, PTSD, BPD. I attempted suicide a few days after my 18th birthday, self harm was something I became addicted to, even though from the outside I looked fine I really wasent so I drowned myself in working about 50 hours a week and went back to college to finish my art degree. But still no matter what I did I could never NEVER get over anything in my life.

My mum ended up having a stroke over a year ago, she was left in a horrible state, she's luckly to be alive but I'm overly greatful for everything she's done for me and my sister. My father? Dident care. He dident care me and my sister had to then look after a house we had no idea how to sort, my sister took extra shifts, I used all of my savings to pay the mortgage and bills. We were left with nothing. But he still feels like he can control my life, tell me what to do. I've honestly had enough. He also said my depression was "bullshit".

I will never in my life ever be brave enough to throw this on my FB, I still have alot of toxic people in my life.

I'm 25 now, I have an amazing partner and a wonderful child. But yet still STILL I cant deal with the shit my father done to me or the abuse from my ex, i can't work in retail or anything because of my anxiety, just too much going on for me to cope, I developed a heart condition because of my anxiety.

I still have no idea what I want to do or achieve in my life. But I'm growing that's all that matters.

I guess this is my metoo post and my experience with abuse. It's hard man.

#Abuse #Depression #me too movement #Me too #Suicide #Self harm #Honest post

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